#what happens when it gets dark at 4:30pm

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Let's talk about chemistry

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A post about birth

I had a baby on Wednesday early in the morning (it's Sunday evening right now), and a couple of people have asked what labour and delivery was like for me, if I have any tips etc, so I thought I'd make a post about it. TW for all the things you might think of with regards to birth: medical stuff, vomit, diarrhoea, blood etc.

The raw facts: I delivered vaginally, in the bath in hospital, with pain relief in the form of Pethidine, Codeine, gas & air (Entonox), and a TENs machine. No true induction, but two membrane sweeps with prostaglandin gel. From onset of true labour (regular contractions), to delivery, was about 9 hours, which is pretty fast for a first timer.

Membrane sweep: This is when a midwife assesses your cervix, and if possible, inserts a finger with prostaglandin hormone gel and moves things around. My first one was when I was 2cm dilated at 39 weeks, and it was UNCOMFORTABLE. I would say a similar cramp feeling to having an IUD inserted, with less of a pinching feeling. Unlike IUD pain, this ends when they take their finger away. Afterwards I had blood and mucus for about 36 hours. I had a second sweep at 40 weeks at 10:30, just under 12 hours before I went into labour.

Early labour: I HATED EARLY LABOUR. I'd been working on this quilt and said that I would have the baby as soon as I finished it, and in some act of dark magic, pretty much as soon as I finished sewing on the label, I went into labour. Rough time 9:30pm Tuesday night. Early labour for me started with lower back pain, similar to the kind I get on my period. I then had diarrhoea and vomiting in tandem, so was sat on the toilet holding a bucket and puking into it. I'd just had some fancy rhubarb and raspberry leaf tea, so it came out a pretty pink colour!

When I could, I did hip circles and other moves sat on my yoga ball, which I think helped a lot. Eventually, we cracked out the TENs machine, and my husband stuck it to my back. When a contraction came on, I'd press the boost button, while also trying to press the timer button on my phone to time contractions. I phoned the hospital a few times, got told to take paracetamol, puked up the paracetamol, got the shakes from puking. My contractions at this time were ranging from 30 seconds to 1 minute, and apart from the period following puking, when I would shake and they'd go haywire, they were pretty consistent. Every 7 minutes apart, then 6 minutes, down to 4 minutes, and getting painful enough that I couldn't handle the twin tasks of activating TENs boost and tapping the contraction timer app (2 buttons were beyond me).

I phoned the hospital and they said it sounded like I was in established labour. We grabbed my hospital suitcase, my backpack with skincare, laptop, and a few other bits in, secured a taxi through an app. I was contracting strongly and couldn't walk when they happened, so was holding onto our fence in the light rain, waiting for the taxi. When it came, it was about 2:30am. The streets were clear but the ride felt like it took forever and the taxi driver looked very tense. We arrived at 2:49am. I got out, immediately had a contraction and held on tight to a plant pot outside the hospital. The porters held the lift for me and we got up to the 7th floor, where I had another contraction right outside the door of my room. These ones felt PAINFUL. Very much in my back.

We got in the room and I stayed in my nightdress (didn't want to change into a hospital gown). Cervical assessment was 5cm at 3:15am. I asked for Pethidine. This is an opiate that they inject into you. Firstly, they wanted to get a cannula into my hand- I had an infection called Group B Strep and they wanted to make sure they could get antibiotics into me. Until the painkiller took effect, I tried to manage pain with a spikey massage ball, alternately digging it into my thigh and smashing myself on the side of the head with it. It helped. The team offered me gas and air, which I declared to be "shit". I think I was expecting to get high and have fun with it, but it barely felt like it did anything.

The Pethidine took the edge off, but made me drowsy. It allowed me to handle the feeling in my lower back, and the team gave me some oral codeine alongside it. It's worth knowing that they won't give you these close to the end of labour because it can make baby drowsy and hard to assess. At this point I could kinda talk in a drowsy way and I managed to put on music, including a Nujabes playlist. I then said "I'm not cool enough to give birth to hip hop" and swapped it out for some other lofi and a study strings playlist. The lower back pain was still intense and I was stick of being vibrated by the TENs machine, so I asked them to run a bath.

2nd stage labour: This other sensation had started, and I didn't know it at the time, but this was the start of the actual delivery. It didn't actually hurt, but instead felt like I was being squeezed by a huge snake. When these surges happened, they took my breath away, and I struggled to follow the "down breathing" pattern that I'd learnt. I think at this point I asked for an epidural. The midwife, somewhat sternly, said "you need to tell us what you're feeling. Does it feel like you need a big poo?" which really annoyed me, because it didn't feel anything like I was needing a big poo. Maybe I just eat more fibre than 90% of the population, because I shit with the effortless nature of a premium racehorse. This felt like my body was being crushed, but not in a painful way- the back pain between these surges was still awful though.

I asked to get in the bath. They told me I couldn't have an epidural if I was in the bath. I said "ah, I don't want to waste the water", and got in the bath (~4:45am). The intense surges were getting closer together now and I was really struggling to breathe, so I made use of the gas and air to try and remind myself to breathe out through my mouth. Midwife managed to do a cervical assessment (I'm not sure how because I was on my hands and knees but I think I managed to briefly flip over for her), and told me I was fully dilated.

At this point, it started to feel like I had a cannonball inside me that was being dragged out by an electromagnet that was being turned on and off. A friend had told me that for her it felt like she could really feel her baby's head engaging and moving down, and I realised this was what I was feeling too. I stayed on my knees, semi upright with one hand on the side of the bath and the other gripping the Entonox tube. I told everyone I could feel that he was coming.

The thing about pushes is... well, they always say "you'll have the overwhelming urge to push". I'm not sure that urge is the right word here. Like I have a lot of urges throughout the day, but none of them have ever felt like this. This was something my body was doing whether I liked it or not, I couldn't even really tell if I had any conscious control of anything. A surge would come, and I guess I was pushing along with it, but it didn't really feel like I was baring down until his head was truly in position.

Ring of fire: right when the baby's head is at the gateway of coming out of you, you get a sensation that they call the "ring of fire". This is your cervix fully opening. I don't remember this actually hurting as much as I was prepared for it to, but I followed advice from a youtube video and made little outbreaths, like "you're blowing out the candles on your baby's birthday cake". And when it had subsided a little, I began to actually push in earnest. My waters finally popped at this point, so don't expect yours to necessary go in the supermarket, Hollywood style. When your baby is RIGHT THERE, you can't deny it, but there's this weird space in between the surges where you feel so lucid, before one grips you again. I got REALLY annoyed right there because the midwife unhooked my bra in preparation for skin to skin. I think I snapped at her "what are you doing?! Get off my bra!" My husband describes it as "it was like you were talking to a boy you don't like."

You're not going to deliver baby's head in one push. It will hover there, kind of pulsing in and out with each surge until it eventually breaks through. You have to lean into this pain and pant and breath. When the head finally breaks through, there's another lucid pause, and it's the weirdest liminal space in the world. Then there's one more push that feels like your insides are unfurling like a huge flower, and then you look over and the man you love is sobbing his eyes out, you realise "Concerning Hobbits" is playing, and the midwife is telling you to gently turn over and somehow lift your leg over the cord so they can easily lift baby away. And this impossibly huge, blue creature gets plonked into your arms in a towel.

Then I got stabbed in the leg with an injection to help deliver the placenta. That bit didn't hurt at all. I asked them to save it so I could get a little biology lecture after (which was great). Watched a lot of blood, and what looked like cud (I am guessing it came out of my arse), pooled in the bath as the water drained. Somehow stood up and got plopped on the bed for stitches. Stitches were horrible. 2nd degree tear (butthole fine, perineum in peril). They put a lubed up finger up my bum to check. That was nice.

So anyway, that's how I gave birth. Sorry this is long. I don't have the energy to edit because I just had a baby.

My biggest advice to anyone who is planning to give birth, is that you need to lean into the pain. This is also true for breastfeeding, because at the start it's quite painful. That pain is going to get you your baby. Some people are able to recontextualise it as something other than pain, but I recognised it as pain, some of which my body had felt before (the lower back, the period cramp sensations), and some of which it hadn't (the cervix stretching).

Apart from that, look up videos of natural delivery. Actually I felt watching a couple of episodes of "I didn't know I was pregnant" a bit helpful, because if those women could deliver without any pain relief or knowledge of what was happening, so could I. You have to remember that billions of people have given birth, successfully, without misery or dying. And it's possible for you too.

Birth and pregnancy prep. Get as fit as you can the year before you get pregnant. You will need powerful arms for dragging yourself around during labour and for holding your baby. Eat properly through pregnancy, and walk a lot. In your final 4 weeks, eat dates every day if you can afford to- they are apparently clinically proven to help open up the cervix. I also ate pineapple. Yoga ball is good for opening the hips and working baby into a good position.

Lastly; the afternoon before I went into labour, I watched Big Trouble in Little China. You should watch that. It's hilarious.

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you can write a fic where wednesday misses the reader? i love your writing and story

It was almost laughable, if not, pathetic for Wednesday as she witnesses co-dependency happen in real time before her eyes whenever she joined you and Enid in the quad. The way that the students would quickly manoeuvre their way around each other to their respective groups, as though in attempts to evades chance encounter with the inevitable solitude they’d all one day face upon their death beds. They feared the innermost voices of their consciousness and it’s council that it almost made Wednesday smile. Almost.

Wednesday was known to be anything other then obsessively needy and clingy, however as of recent she had found herself developing symptoms of co-dependency; How tragic. She would find her eyes actively search the swarm of students for you, her soul would sing falsetto unprovoked when she did meet your eyes, feeling the warmth as it rushed through her and her entirety at the implication of being within your presence once more, physical contact included or just sitting in comfortable silence. She would brood within the dark crevices of her room until the day she would hear the knock on her door, followed by the meticulous melody that was your voice calling out to greet her.

Enid and Thing watched from the vibrant and colourful spectrum of the shared dorm as Wednesday would stare longingly out of the wide window as rain splattered against it’s pane like translucent blood. “Is…is she moping or just being her usual self, I can never tell.” Enid said to the disembodied hand who did the equivalent of a shoulder shrug with his fingers. “You don’t know? Aren’t you like her relative or something?” Enid received a series of frantic tapping and another shrug. “Well your useful.” Enid sighed as Thing gave her a thumbs up.

Enid knew what was up with Wednesday but just didn’t want to say it so openly, knowing it was only going to get shut down by the Addams. You had been away for awhile now running a tutoring class on behalf of the teachers for those students who were behind on lessons or finding certain subjects difficult to grasp. This unfortunately meant that your time with Wednesday were cut short throughout the duration of the week except for the weekends; Today was Friday. Enid did herself and Wednesday a solid and looked at the time and saw that by this time you would’ve finished the session and were most probably on your journey here.

“What time is it?” Wednesday asked, not once taking her eyes off of the massive widow in front of her. “4:30pm.” Enid replied and Wednesday sighed, closing her eyes before opening them again to discreetly look over her shoulder and at the door for a good couple of seconds before returning to look out the window solemnly. Time was an accursed entity to Wednesday, it forced you both part for longitudes periods throughout the duration of the week; only to bring you back together for two measly days? Pathetic.

If Wednesday had it her way she’d be sitting next to you during these tutoring sessions, running a stricter regime in making sure that the necessary information would stay stuck in their thick skulls, instead of coming back daily to waste even more of your time that could’ve easily been spent with her! However the teachers asked you personally to see to that, not her and for that Wednesday damned those teachers for their conspicuous plan in separating you apart from one another. Their misery shall be slow and torturous, Wednesday would make sure of that.

Whilst Wednesday was contemplating her gratuitous revenge plans, a knock sounded from the front door and Enid got up to answer it; knowingly of who was on the other side as a smile was brought up by to her lips as she turned to look at her dorm mate. “Wednesday,” she sang, catching her attention as she raised her brows unamused at her, “guess who.” Enid then opened the door to reveal you stood in the doorway. “Heya my poison powder.” You said as you entered the dorm, crossing the room to hold Wednesday in your arms tightly as you felt her stiffen in your hold before melting.

“What kept you so long, you left me waiting. Again.” Wednesday said bluntly but you could tell that she was happy to have you with her once again that you didn’t her seemingly cold words to heart. “Would you believe me if I said that Ajax stoned himself again but in the hallway this time, so I had to move him to safety elsewhere?” You inquired playfully whilst gauging her unimpressed stare. “Didn’t think so.” You say softly as you pressed a kiss between her brows, taking note of how she seemingly pressed herself further into your touch, burning her head under your chin and into your neck as though she were a cat.

[popcornforone]

MAY

From the Marcus Pike Fan Fic Diary

Master list

April

Sorry you were meant to get this a few weeks ago & then I had an idea so delayed this, but the diary is still going strong. This is more about their relationship than the sex, but it’s still there.

Synopsis:- Marcus plays in a band & you always tag along to see them perform at the local bar.

Word count:- 1850

Warnings:- DO NOT READ IF TOU ARE UNDER 18! Established relationship, pining, swearing, admiring, anal sex, other sex implied as well, alcohol, being a muse. Yea I think that’s it. If you’ve read any of the 4 chapters before this you will know what this diary is like.

Thanks as always for the read peoples, I hope you enjoy.

I love band night. Our local bar every Wednesday puts one on. We’ve seen loads of acts that have made it big over the years. It was the third night that Marcus & I went to this that he popped to the toilet & left me at the bar. The bartender knew what was about to happen, they winked at me as the mc took the stage & then on walked Marcus & his band “So Selfish”. My jaw hit the floor, my panties damp instantly as he strummed that base guitar. We’d only had sex a few times & I wasn’t sure exactly how I truly felt. Safe to say that night, he strummed me like a man possessed . So in the zone. It was the first time I ever squirted as that thumb & fingers had me quivering in desire.

So last night I knew he was playing. I no longer have to turn up with Marcus when he played. The staff knows when I get here what my drinks order is & where my favourite spot to watch him from is. I want the correct amount of reverb from his voice. I know how he’s gonna sound smooth then rough & then smooth & it’s gonna make me feel all unnecessary when he screams the word “& I know you’ve gone all naughty just for me” I know it’s about me. He is the only man I’ve left fuck my arse & he knows that there’s a huge chance that this happens after band night. I turn into a little groupie for Marcus & he can have a back stage pass.

On he & So Selfish walk. Gone are his agent clothes, replaced by a lose grey tshirt that will stink of sweat by the time I peel it off his body tonight. His jeans dark charcoal & those doc martin boots peek out below them. The hair is ruffled but it’s not quiet bed hair. His belt buckle in silver & black has a snake on it. The eye a red gem. Keeping its eye on the crowd. His arms are bare from just above the elbow, his wrists have bracelets & ties on them. Who’d have ever thought soft little Marcus, the worlds best & most professional agent, would be a rocker like this for peoples enjoyments every couple of months. I notice the brackets & see there is one that’s slightly different, it’s glistening white & blue when the rest are black or red.

“What’s up the jesters” he grabs the mic & says & its meet with a very large cheer. The bar is always packed on Wednesdays for band night. “If you don’t know us by now we are So Selfish we play soft indi rock & for 90mins tonight we are here for your entertainment, so please try not to get drunk until our third half an hour.” It’s met with laughter & Marcus scoffs & he looks up to see me. I do a shy wave. I’m not meaning to match him but I’m in my long floaty grey vest top which has a butterfly embroidered on it. My pale blush wash jeans & my converses can’t be seen bellow the counter I’m leaning on. There’s about 10 rows of people between Marcus & I but I don’t care. I see his little smile. He knows where to look for me & I raise my glass of whisky to him & wink. His eyes dazzle & he smiles. “Right let’s get to this our first song is Ruined” he turns to his band who i know all to well by now & they all nod. The drummer counts in & they begin their first 30mins at 7:30pm.

During their second 30mins a group of girls, very blonde giggly & busty make their way to the front to cry & catch Marcus eye. I’m happy for him to look but I know he’s not gonna touch. On a normal day none of these girls would give my man the time of day. He’s said before he met me, that being the lead singer in a band meant he got attention but they just wanted the fling & he’d always been after the real thing. They might stand inches from my man screaming wanting him to drip sweat on their boobs but they will never get the satisfaction I get from him. I can still smell him from here. His scent is extraordinary anyhow, but when his adrenalin pumps & he’s in the zone, it’s a real turn on. My pheromones go into overdrive & always make me broody. He entertains the girls a few kisses are blown as he sings “but you’re just trouble”.

Before the third & final 30mins he & the guys hit the bar & I order 2 double whiskys, with a dash of water on ice. As they both arrive at where I’m sat, a large firm hand graces my waste.

“Baby”

“Handsome” he nuzzles his head into my neck as he says this & I gasp. His lips pepper me with kisses making me turn red & close my eyes as I start to moan. I flinch when he retracts.

“How’s it going so far?” His large fingers trail around the rim of his glass.

“Phenomenol as usual Marcus”

“Well you always say that”

“It’s the truth”

“Is it or are you just addicted to the lead singer?”

“Maybe” we both take large gulps of our drink. “I mean he’s so sexy, & not just tonight” we both smoulder at each other, our lustful gazes not dropping. Eyes only close when he takes my lips deeply. The way that hand feels against the side of my face & neck. I hear a few people murmur about the kiss but it makes Marcus go deeper. A kiss of lust, sweat, whisky & love connecting two people who feel so alive.

“God I love you” he whispers in my ear.

“Right back at you Marcus” I say & grab his hand, stroking over those fingers. I then feel him shuffle off the new bracelet & slide it onto my wrist.

“Don’t look at that until the time is right baby, you’ll know when” he downs the rest of his whiskey & we kiss once more before he & the band get ready for the third round.

The temptation to look at what he’s put on my wrist is huge. It feels like beads, as I run my hand around it. But I don’t. He always has little Easter eggs in his shows for the select few who know the band. Today is obviously a joke about us.

I sit there in awe during them performing. They don’t want massive fame. They are happy playing a gig every couple of months just here in dc. They are all just good friends who like to play & are decent. I sit there sipping on my next drink & smile at him. He is definitely getting a back stage pass tonight. He sings the song about that & then they pause. He looks at his lead guitarist. The way the sweat drips off his head when he is in side profile is so sexy. I’m so turned on. My man looks so hot, so rough. He’s my sweet little Marcus who calls me his good girl, but tonight he can choke me out & call me a slut.

“Before we do are normal last 3 songs I want us to do a cover song if that’s okay, we only rehearsed this recently but it means a lot to me & someone special in the crowd tonight.” My eyes widen he isn’t is he “so if she looks down at her gift, she will know this song but to the rest of you just enjoy.”

I look down. It’s a blue & white friendship bracelet. A black & a pink heart are on two beads with the letters YOYOK & then blue & white beads. It’s my favourite Taylor Swift song & Marcus has always laughed that I love my rock & proper music & then that I’m a Swiftie. But tonight he’s singing it. The band play it & I try not to cry, stroking the bracket for comfort. My man & his friends are playing something so personal to me & I sit there trying to be calm. Inside my body my heart races. My brain is screaming. Everything is shivering. This is so personal but also so much more than that. I eventually give in & let the tears fall down my face especially when he winks at me. I’m an emotional wreck.

The rest of the gig is a blur I was in a trance, but I remember kissing his lips like I needed it more than water after the show. He squeezed by arse & the way his sweaty hands roamed across me gave me a sensual sensation. I don’t remember the drinks afterwards or the taxi back to our place. The first thing I remember is him sucking my nipples.

“Marcus” I moaned. My own hands inside his boxers getting him harder, precum staining the insides. We didn’t even make it to the bedroom. I was naked & on all fours as he licked away at me & then growled as he eventually rubbed his throbbing head against me.

“Back stage?” He slapped my arse.

“VIP my sexy rock… OOOOOHHH GOD!” I screamed. He’d lubed me up before this but he didn’t go slowly. Marcus was rampant, my arse was filled to the brim as I gripped onto the sofa with all my might, trying to catch my breath.

“Like that baby”

“Fucking love it” I moaned back his base fingers are holding one of my hips while the other strums my clit, I know how fast those fingers go.

“Mmm mmmm Marcus”

“Fuck baby” he has never been so rampant in his life. I didn’t know anal could feel this incredible but it does. He didn’t even tease with his fingers to open me up like he usually does. He’s balls deep pumping away into my arse as I screamed for more.

“Fuck oooh fuck yea baby, it’s so fucking good”

“Fuck oooh fuck, why is this even tighter than your cunt.”

I have no idea how long it lasted but I know that when he’s about to cum he takes his penis out of my arse, slotting it quickly inside my quivering pussy. I’d had multiple orgasms & he knew I wanted the ultimate satisfaction. He then fucked me until we both couldn’t go anymore, in a sexual haze we drifted off.

We both were late to work this morning we’d both passed out after our exertions on the sofa & our phones battery had died. It was a major panic suddenly hear Marcus shaking me going fuck baby it 9:30. There wasn’t even time for a shower for either of us. We had to be out, & at work, but was it worth it for last night with my rockstar & the special treatment we both received? Fuck yes.

June

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What is Destiny: Become Legend?

Destiny: Become Legend is a custom tabletop roleplaying game fan project co-created by @frombrad2worse and @cassiefisherdrake , crafted from the ground up with a unique dice system designed to capture the rich universe, expansive lore, and tactical combat of Bungie, Inc.'s sci-fi shooters Destiny and Destiny 2.

To start playing your own Destiny: Become Legend TTRPG games at home, you only need...

The Abbreviated Handbook (Light Mode) OR (Dark Mode)

A fireteam of friends (1 Vanguard and 3-4 Guardians is best!)

At least four 6-sided dice

And that's it! You're ready to begin! All of our content is FREE to access and will always remain that way, so go wild and play this game however you like with any story you like. Click below the cut to find out more about us and this fan project TTRPG!

Who created Destiny: Become Legend (D:BL)?

We are B (@cassiefisherdrake) and Danger (@frombrad2worse), two long-time Destiny 2 fans and the creative force behind the Destiny: Become Legend TTRPG. B is a proud Titan main (Missile Titan Supremacy) and Danger is a filthy Hunter main (with a crippling Gunpowder Gamble addiction). Here's a picture of our Guardians!

As a reminder, we're just fans! We're unaffiliated with Bungie and do not make any money off of D:BL - and we never plan to! All D:BL content will ALWAYS be free to access and play.

What is playing D:BL like?

In D:BL, the players, as Guardians, explore the vast universe, interact with its colorful inhabitants, and fight back against the forces of Darkness. When a situation with an exciting and uncertain outcome arises, you roll 2d6 and add stat modifiers to determine what happens. If things get dicey (pun intended) and weapons are drawn, combat begins. In combat, you have a pool of 4d6 you can expend every turn to fire weapons, activate Light abilities, and perform various Heroic Actions. Combat is designed to be fast-paced, tactical, and exciting - players don't even have assigned turns and must instead discuss amongst themselves their strategy before their enemies can gain the upperhand.

Just like the video games, D:BL is designed to be easy to pick up and fun to play for beginners, but contains a wide array of character customization options to provide a rich and rewarding experience for players that want to dive deeper and build the Guardian of their sci-fi fantasies. It even includes build-crafting for all Subclasses!

Want to see D:BL in action?

Each Monday at 8:45PM ET on our twitch stream, we'll join one of our two fireteams as they race to save the Last City from the invading Red Legion. But something is different about this Red War: the Cabal are working with the Vex! Join us as our heroes race to save the Last City - and maybe even the timeline itself! Many sessions will even come with their own lorebook entry, read aloud at the end of play to further delve into Destiny's depths!

Whether you're ready to find out about the campaign, hear a fan-made lorebook, or just want to see how the mechanics of the D:BL system shake out, join us every Monday, at 8:30PM Eastern / 7:30 Central as we play live on our twitch!

How soon can I play this at home with my other Destiny-loving nerd friends?

Right now! In case you missed it, scroll back up to the top of this post to access the Abbreviated Handbook (in light mode or dark mode) to begin making your own character sheets and stories with friends. This abbreviated handbook is best used by Vanguards and players who are familiar with the video game and have played at least one other TTRPG system (ex., Dungeons & Dragons, Powered by the Apocalypse games). We'll also soon be adding full, unabbreviated players and Vanguard handbooks for completely new players!

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Eyes up and have fun, Guardians!

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Unsung Allies

October 16, 4:30pm

"That's what you wanna know?" Giacomo turned his head slightly and scratched the back of his neck. "As it happens, we're actually waitin' on a pal... Though we don't know if they'll be comin' back."

"A pal...?" Clive pushed his glasses closer to his face as he pondered the words he heard. "A close friend of yours, are they?"

Arven rolled his eyes as he listened to the man in the giant pompadour talk to the now-former Dark-Type Team Star boss.

This is so stupid, he thought to himself.

Not only did he have to take on 30 pokemon, but he had to battle this joke with his obnoxiously decorated Revavroom and loud music. At least his Vespiquen seemed to be in a good mood to listen to him.

The whole ordeal didn't come without it's challenges. Vespiquen had been the only Pokemon on his team that really had an advantage. He was lucky that the pompadour-clad man had a Quaxwell who was just as competent, not to mention healing items on-hand.

While it did feel like a waste of time, surprisingly it did make for some good training, especially for his Wooper.

He was far from where he needed to be, of course. With two Pokemon not even ready to evolve yet, he had a lot to learn, and a long ways to go. If nothing else, however, battling Team Star and convincing them to leave him alone seemed like a surefire way to get him there sooner.

"We haven't heard from 'em in, I dunno...must be a year and a half now. We thought that if we kept Team Star going-"

He had tuned a good majority of the conversation out as he thought about his next course of action. He figured that his best move were to take down at least two more gyms before taking on the next titan, then the next team star raid. More than likely, he would have to build up more of his team this way.

At the current moment, he was not too concerned about finding another Pokemon. He had two Pokemon with a type advantage for the next two gyms, not to mention the stony cliff titan. He needed to think more on what moves he could teach his Pokemon at this moment.

"So, Team star and this Big Boss of yours... They're really that important to you?" asked Clive.

"Is the sky blue?" Asked Giacomo, now beaming. "Let me put it in a way that an egghead like you'll understand: They're my greatest treasure!"

"Cool story," said Arven, finally speaking up. "Are we done here?"

"Yeah, guess so," said Giacomo, his expression and tone becoming somewhat dejected "Sorry we've been bothering you so much, Arv."

"Don't call me that," said Arven, as he started walking away, "We're not friends. You don't get to nickname me."

"Right- gotcha... See you around, Arven!" Replied Giacomo, waving to the boy.

"I suppose I'll head out myself... Thank you for speaking with me," said Clive, waving to Giacomo as he started on his way.

"Wait a minute, hairdo," Giacomo called out to Clive, "I got one more thing to say to you."

Clive stopped in his tracks and turned back around to face the student. "Of course," he said, "What's up, man?"

Giacomo sighed. "Listen..." He walked up to Clive and put his hand on the old man's shoulder, speaking in a hushed tone. "That kid walkin' out? Keep an eye on him, alright? Think he really needs someone, right now."

"Do you mean Arven," asked Clive, before smiling. "You don't have to worry about my home slice over there, I got his back."

"No, I mean really keep an eye on him," insisted Giacomo, "He's not in a good place in his mind right now, I can tell."

"I see..." said Clive, as his tone leaned slightly towards the softer tone of a concerned Director, "I suspected as such, but might you elaborate on what you mean?"

"I'm not exaggeratin' when I say that Team Star is the reason I'm still around," said Giacomo, "And as someone who's been in a dark place myself, I got a sixth sense for knowin' when somebody needs help. And I think he needs all the help he can get right now. He won't accept Team Star's support, but maybe you could get through to him, somehow."

Clive fell quiet, his expression becoming somewhat horrified, but quickly he shook it off, giving Giacomo a soft smile. "As long as I'm around," he reassured, "Arven won't ever go without a means of support."

Giacomo smiled and patted the disguised director's shoulder. "Thanks. We're all really worried about the guy. He might be angry but he's a good guy deep down, y'know? Watched him stand up to a kid making fun of another kid's mom, before. He didn't gain our respect for nothin'."

"Anyway..." Giacomo turned around and started walking off in the opposite direction. "See you around!"

"Giacomo, wait!" Clive called out. "I would like to give you my number."

"Yeah?" Giacomo stopped in his tracks and peered over his shoulder. "What for?"

"If, per chance, you need anything at all," said Clive, "I would be more than willing to help you. And I know the Director would too, if he knew. I could, perhaps, put in a good word for you."

"... Sure, alright." Giacomo turned around and pulled out his phone. "I dunno what's gonna happen if Team Star does disband. So... I appreciate you havin' my back."

Clive smiled, before taking out his own phone. The two exchanged numbers, and in only a moment, they went their separate ways.

[endternal]

WHERE: outskirts of pinella pass WHEN: late afternoon, sunset (around 4:30PM); january 2024 WHO: anyone! ( @anchoragestarters ) CAP: 4/4 FULLY CAPPED

In the overgrowth, he sat half-hidden, crouched low and in silence save for the scratching of his ballpoint pen against a tattered paper bag. He was sketching the tree in front of it, its leaves long since lost to the cruelty of Winter. The bark of it was gnarled and twisted but it spoke of a free life lived out in the open, something to which a much younger Karam could have never related. At this time of year, this part of town was not much to look at. Unlike the Spring, when the road was dressed in lush greens, all that survived now were the plants hardy and wretched enough to survive the cold. Still, Karam liked it. He often came here on his days off, just to be alone, for it was usually quiet while the sun was up. What happened after dark, he did not care to look into; he had his suspicions about this place and was happy to leave it alone.

The deafening snap of a twig cleaved in two echoed out into the clearing and Karam snapped to attention. He shoved the bag and pen into his pocket and pulled himself to his feet. Time seemed to run away from him out here; although the snow had taken on a cool peachy glow, he had only just noticed that dusk was falling. Peering through the branches of a dying bush, Karam saw that the intruder was nothing more than a regular person. That likely wasn't a good thing.

Karam slipped noisily out from behind the overgrowth. He could have chosen to be silent and run off without a trace if he'd wanted. A part of him did want to, it was about time he left this place anyway. But, because he needed to catch their attention, he had no choice but to make his presence known. Once he was back out in the open, he pulled himself up to his full height. Karam had never been tall or physically imposing but, with his hair littered with twigs and grass, but he stood with purpose. One might even mistake him for some sort of strange spirit, bound to guard the trees. "You shouldn't be here," he said, words sharp but not quite hissed, before looking up at the dimming sky. "It's getting dark."

[rxfecameronsslut]

And you are?

-you’re late

summary- you and draco both need to learn where to place your priorities. Even if it might hurt others as well as them. But where do Draco’s priorities lie for you?

warning- use of y/n, slight touching and teasing (not sexual) fluff, angst.

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4:15pm

It’s Wednesday. It’s now 15 minutes into mine and draco’s free period and he’s late. He said he would be here at 3:50pm. But for some reason i’m here first.

Maybe he forgot. I haven’t seen him since, so i might have made other plans with friends. This study period isn’t that important anyway but i wish he had just told me if he wasn’t going to be able to come.

Maybe i should just leave. Or just sit down by myself and enjoy the peace and quiet and study for defence of the dark arts. It can’t be that hard right. But it’s been 3 weeks and Snape has given me 5 different assignments already.

Maybe Draco had decided to stay in the common room for our free period, i could try and catch him and ask him if he is still coming to the library to study with me.

4:30pm

He’s definitely not coming. He said he would be here 40 minutes ago but he’s not. Oh well, i’m just gonna leave, maybe i can find him on the way to my next class.

‘Hey, y/n, wait up’ a voice behind me called out. ‘where are you going, we are meant to be studying together’ he said. Draco? How dare he. i have been waiting for 30 minutes and he’s mad at me.

‘What Draco?’ i said clearly trying to show him my annoyance. ‘where are you going?’ he repeated as he is face to face with me now. ‘where am i going? better question, where have you been?’ i say stepping away from him, packing the rest of my stuff up into my hands, ready to walk out and get ready for charms class. ‘where have i been?, i’ve been busy doing stuff, i have way more important things to do than help you study’ he said beginning to raise his voice at me. ‘oh i’m sorry Draco i didn’t realise that our plans to study weren’t set in stone, what “things”happen to be more important than this?’ i say trying not to show my hurt feelings through the expression on my face, but it clearly was not working.

‘Why are you so hurt by this?, you don’t need my help to revise, do it yourself. I have been very busy doing business with my father thank you very much, not that this is any of your business’ he said nearly shouting at me at this point. ‘i’m hurt Draco because i thought you cared enough for me that you would show up and spend time with me. But i guess i was wrong about you’ i say calmly, but avoiding eye contact with him. ‘i do care abo-’ he started.

‘Actually i’m not finished. i have been sat here for ages, even when we were supposed to meet 30 minutes ago, i even got here 5-10 minutes early because you said yesterday that you would be here early. you’re late.’ i say finally stopping my efforts to avoid eye contact. ‘i do not know or understand what was so important and urgent about this so called business with your father, but you could have tried to find me first to tell me that you could not make it. you made me look like i fool, making me sit here for 40 minutes just for you to turn up and act confused why i am leaving’ i say raising my voice at him before barging past him to get to charms class.

He gently grabbed my arm and turned me towards him, ‘i know i’m late y/n, but i could not find you, actually i didn’t even look. But that’s not the point, when my father needs something done i cannot just leave him. But i told him that i had plans but he didn’t care. i’m sorry but family comes first. I didn’t mean to get angry or rude. i do care for you and our plans were stuck in stone, my father angered me today. He pushed my plans and what was important to me away and only thought about himself, i tried to fight back but he only shut me down, And i am forever sorry’ he said finally calming down and lowering his voice.

I tried to find a single speck of lies to his words in his eyes but i failed. ‘you really mean that draco’ i say looking up at him as i had now sat back down. ‘i truly do y/n, i am sorry for my lateness but i cannot promise it won’t happen again but i’ll try and find you next time.’ he said gently placing his hand on mine. His hands are freezing, this is the first time our skin has came into contact with each other, and he is as cold as ice. I wonder if the rest of him is cold. No don’t think like that y/n.

‘you’re freezing Draco. Are you always this cold?’ i say letting my mouth move faster than my mind. ‘haha, yes i guess i am, why you wanna warm me up?’ he said pulling his famous smirk and laughing at me as my face begins to go bright red. I may not see it but i sure can feel it and Draco’s laughter proves me right.

4:50pm

‘wow, we do not have time at all me study now draco’ i say looking at the giant clock, rocking behind Draco’s head. I point to the clock behind him, signaling him to turn around. ‘for gods sakes, sorry y/n, i promise i will make it up to you next time we hang out okay.’ he said grabbing my hand again as i stand back up and grab my books for to second time today, this time prepared to actually leave.

‘hmm, isn’t that what you said yesterday, and you did not make it up to me.’ i said pointing out again that he was in fact late. ‘your never going to let this go are you?’ he said smirking down at me, still taller, even when i’m standing. ‘maybe you should make it up to me by something other than studying’ i say hinting at him.

‘okay, maybe you want to go to Hogsmeade with me on the weekend, i heard the butter beer at three broomsticks is gorgeous. so what do you say’ he says looking down at you hopeful.

‘hmmm, okay i guess that sounds kinda cool’ i say trying to hide my excitement. ‘kinda cool? anyone would be over the moon to spend time with me, especially when i’m offering a date.’ he says starting to be cocky again like yesterday.

‘a date? i didn’t realise this was serous like that’ i day slightly teasing him. ‘i would not like it to be a date, because i doesn’t have to be.’ he says with a slightly disappointed look on his face. ‘no i do want this to be a date, why don’t we meet at the common room at 11:30am, that way i’m not waiting alone’ i say still not letting him forget that he was in fact late.

‘okay cool, a date. i’ll meet you in the common room at 11:30pm, i can’t promise i won’t be late though’ he said starting to walk with me to our next class. ‘at least you are warning me this time of the probability of your lateness’ i say teasing him, yet our hands are still touching, strange but i like the feeling.

‘we have reached our destination, i’ll see you on Saturday at 11:30am, right?’ he said clarifying. ‘yes, at the common room at 11:30, goodbye draco’ i say letting go of his hand. ‘bye, oh and y/n?’ he says making me turn to look at him. ‘yes?’ i say confused.

‘thank you for warming up my freezing cold hand’ he says pulling his extremely annoying smirk at me. ‘oh your so welcome draco’ you say giggling softly to yourself.

‘oh hello my fellow students. you’re late, but not to worry, please grab a book and join us’ Slughorn said, making me and draco break eye contact and walk into the class. I quickly wave Draco goodbye and walk to my place.

i understand that i have not been active for many months, 5 to be exact. But i am finishing college this week so i’ll have way more time to write.

[softbogs]

the way the sunset happens at 4:30pm now is really throwing me off. my routines have all changed or disappeared. i start work when it's dark and get off work when it's dark. my bones are achy from the cold and my spoons have dissolved along with the sunlight.

been playing a lot of persona 5 royal because it's all i have energy to do. but playing it makes me happy and i love the whole concept of gaining lil points for different things. if you water your plant, you gain some kindness. if you read a book, you get some knowledge. if you watch tv, you get some guts or charm. i wish i could think of my life that way, because being autistic and seasonal depression is REAL and debilitating.

note: i love autumn and winter. i don't like summer but do love sunny days where i spend it outside. i'll always eat outside during autumn and winter because i need the fresh air and connection. i also have been feeding the same crows, jays, and squirrels for about a year now and it's a massive part of my schedule, but with the days getting shorter, i don't get to see them as much as i used to do.

anyways. this is all over the place. i just wanted to vent. i would love to hear about what you during the fall and winter to keep yourself cozy and balanced. especially autistic adults: what do you do when your routine is all out of whack? how the heck do i cope with it all... i swear i've been through many winters and it never gets easier.

[feuqueerfire]

Cherry Magic TH Live Blogging

Couldn't decide whether to watch Blank Season 2, The Boyfriend reality show, or jump into the first 2 eps of 4 Minutes even though I can't watch it as it airs next week. Wasn't really feeling any of them fully though, so there I am with Cherry Magic TH which I've been meaning to watch for a while. One of the only recent GMMTV series that I've heard pretty much only positive things about because Last Twilight, the other GMMTV BL I've been meaning to watch, had a divisive last few episodes.

About TayNew, I thought their Kiss series side ship was alright but didn't really like Dark Blue Kiss, was annoyed by all the characters. However, I like Tay as a person and have liked him as different characters since then + I was quite impressed by New in The Warp Effect. So I have high-ish hopes, especially because of the general positive buzz toward them for this show even from non-TayNew fans.

Also, it's a long weekend so I can just watch it grey on my laptop for these 3 days and my beloved uorigin.

Ep 1 (Aug 3)

ah, office settings, how I hate them. tend to avoid watching office BLs, esp boss/employee romances because there's nothing romantic about that setting to me but I wanna watch this one.

It really is a little strange to watch this remake because I'm like anticipating things that will happen before they happen. it kinda feels like when you know spoilers but I know more than a random scene that will happen sometime in the show, it's like I'm waiting for the events/sequences like getting his power -> the elevator scene etc. but good thing kinda is that I don't actually remember the Cherry Magic JP much, so it won't be like this for long.

Achi smiling to himself as he tries to find who Karan is complimenting lmfao only to be confronted by the realization that it's him

not Achi finding the Cherry Magic manga during his search. so that also canonically exists?

aww a cute surprise party for Achi from the 2 women whose character names I don't know yet. but hello Jan <333

ahhh Karan looked through reviews for a month to find this cake for Achi omg

the friend's name is Jinta? I just think of 1) Triage mystical Jinta and 2) DFF Jinta myths

loll so fun how everybody also slinks away as soon as the boss leaves. anyway i think i'd pass away if i had to work like that

girl what the hell the samples arrive at 10:30pm and they have to confirm the order in half an hour? After just one person has seen them? omg

Karan and Achi are sooo cute to me already

not Karan's condo romance fantasy lmfaooo

I kinda remember this sleeping in Kurosawa's condo thing but I thought it happened a little later tbh

Good start, very cute.

Ep 2 (Aug 3)

hehehe bonding over manga despite Karan trying to keep up the cool appearence

pajamas Karan specifically bought for Achi?!?! he's crazy lmfaooo

I'm cryinggg Karan is actually so obsessed, the doodle is of Achi's ear and mole?!

Achi's heart beating faster at the good night + smiling when he realizes Karan practiced making the egg for him

ah, Rock got broken up with but also gave Achi more fuel for his am-i-taking-advantage-of-karan's-crush crisis

why did the boss not have any thoughts played

trying to remember if the side couple had an antagonistic beginning like they're doing here.

not Jinta also hearing the cat's thoughts!!! lmfao

ahh the office party and forehead kiss already? Why do I feel like things are happening faster than the Japanese version or do I just not remember. In my head the scene where Adachi has to placate the boss who needs that dessert happened before this scene but maybe not

ahh my poor Karan feeling bad about liking Achi and making him uncomfortable

ahh i love the rooftop convo (and thoughts)

Ep 3 (Aug 3)

almost kiss

Achi ended up accidentally giving Karan more hope than he's ever had

I can't remember anything about a resort or beach trip in Cherry Magic at all so I can't figure out if they invented it for this version or not

Karan buying the drink to give to Achi + making the executive decision to switch seats with Rock + wishing for every misfortune that would delay the bus so that he could sit beside Achi longer lmfaoo

god, Karan being too good at stuff that he wants just as hobbies. wish I had that problem so bad

We didn't get to see Rock and Mr.Tanaka but it's funny that Rock keeps getting stuck with him

We don't get to hear Karan's presentation about Achi?

we're supposed to believe New isn't built?

why do i have to see women being harassed? and was this in the OG Cherry Magic? can't remember

Karan saviour

yayyy Karan bad at singing

oh, Papang appearance. Did I know he was in this? I don't think he'll appear again

yaas let's go Pai. and hope the guy's fiancee breaks up with him too

oh, we do see the presentation final

cryinggggg at Karan's internal screaming at Achi leaning his head on his shoulder that startles Achi awake

Ep 4 (Aug 3/4)

Jinta's heart beating faster because Min thought he smelled nice nad like his grandpa lmfao

okayyyy the client incident is here, idk why it left such an impression on me, I'm looking forward to this rendition of the scene too

Pai likes Achi too?

Achi feels nothing towards Pai but his heart beats for Karan

I think there was a storyline about Kurosawa's sister coming into the picture and being mistaken as his fg right? and lived in his house for a bit? Did Kurosawa sleep over at Adachi's house during that? I'm vaguely rmring some things

I feel like there was a scene of Kurosawa getting jealous/misunderstanding Adachi and his friend's relationship, was that supposed to be here and they didn't do it or a later time?

I thought the heartbeat pen was gonna give Karan's increasing heartbeat away when Achi does something cute

time for sleep, i'll watch the last 15 mins tmrw

oh lol we kinda get Achi's racing heartbeat w the pen

not Pai being a fujo which is fine and expected but the screaming and running out at Karan and Achi being cute is so wtf lol

not Achi passing out when he thinks the sister is Karan's gf

Ep 5 (Aug 4)

ahhh Karan thinking about wanting a keepsake for their first boat ride and Achi doing an origami for him

cryinggggg, not Jinta's sasaeng Hira tease

Karan being jealous of Rock is so cute omg and is also a type of angst that i like a lot where it's not like overdramatic considering what it is but is still a little sad and achy

now Karan's gonna get jealous of Jinta? plss

were Rock and Min in that band from before? I can't remember if this was also in the Cherry Magic JP live action but it probably was, right?

Rock and Min are cute but too long, let's go back to Karan angst c'mon!

omg Karan confessing !! but I wish there weren't random people in the both who can see/hear them

This was such a sad Karan episode! I thought it'd just be a little cute jealousy towards Rock but I love that it's a more melancholic, deeper thing.

Ep 6 (Aug 4)

ahh confession

man it always hits whenever somebody apologizes for being queer to their parents or for having queer feelings toward somebody... it speaks to me

i feel like this scene + Karan walking away needs like a kdrama OST right now

wait Ms. Kem is Gun/Li Ming's very attractive mother, hellooooo

not them letting Karan be sexual harrassed! and being basically given as a sexual favour!! >:(((

my poor fucking Karan T.T

it makes sense that Karan started liking Achi after this

Karan seeing Achi take care of the office and doing small things to take care of Achi is soooo cute omg

and Achi even figuring it out!

cryinggg Pai takes her fujo duties so serious, letting the motorbike driver keep her id and stuff hostage so that she can drive Achi to the airport

enough Rock and Pai, take me to Karan and Achi, the episode is almost over!

I'm gonna pretend they didn't say there were 40 minutes left before the airplane lands and i also don't get why he has to catch Karan at the airport like just go to Karan's place? talk to him tmrw? smth??

aw, confession from Achi too

Ep 7 (Aug 4/5)

5 am?! for a full day date?! girl

Karan buying an expensive shirt for Achi for their first date, that'd stress me out so much if I was Achi

Achi's gonna be nervous about sex all day bruh

interesting contrast between Karan-Achi's highly planned but kinda meh date vs Jinta-Min's impromptu cute date

did OG cherry magic also have a dating prohibition among coworkers?

this ep kinda reminded me of PeteKao's Our Skyy episode lol. in general a kinda meh episode for me even though i get why it's needed and what it's conveying. I ended up doing 1.25x about 20 minutes in and might continue with that tbh

Ep 8 (Aug 5)

naurrrr not Ms. Kem >:(((((((

she wants Karan to kneel and apologize?!?! i'm so mad and even more so bc i would love love loveeeee to see Tay Tawan play a role where he kneels in front of women but not like thisssss D:

I kept waiting for the boss to speak up but why did he not do it until Karan was already kneeling and had his hands together and was already basically apologizing >:(

I have vague memories of the mind reading thing happening in either Adachi or Kurosawa's home in the JP version, so I can't tell if they'll fr reveal now or if it'll be like haha joking

They should not have had Karan go through with all this with Kem, I'm so aghhh >:(

Ep 9 (Aug 5)

lol yeah Kurosawa also took the mind-reading thing extremely well

ohhoooo they're so cute after moving in together and Karan constantly touching Achi and being like test, test hehehe

Jinta-Min is so cute and funny lol suchhh an improvement from the jp ver.

"The scariest thing is to limit myself because I'm scared beforehand." I need to believe this fr...

kiss! and it's pretty good to watch too, not too awkward/stilted (though i was like ok n stopped paying attention halfway through)

Ep 10 (Aug 5/6)

I wishhhhhh that this was still on Youtube so that I could easily down it for my commutes.

practice time apart... for both the couples

ooh, I do enjoy a celeb-ish/non-celeb couple where the fame and celeb culture affect the relationship, like Jinta being jealous that Min's being shipped with another member of his group

aw, Min's group didn't win

Achi doing something nice for Karan

Ep 11 (Aug 6/7)

idk if Achi not telling his new coworkers about dating Karan will come bite him later but I fully get why he doesn't say

Karan goes to sleep at 8pm???

Min reading hate comments, I can't believeeee this show is randomly giving me idol or celeb dreams and the things that come with that!

aw the coworkers are fine with Achi having a bf

i have neutral feelings about Pai and Achi together, though a bit sad about losing our aro queen from the jpn version but this is annoying

i’m on the subway, so i’m not watching 12 mins onward - to watch at home

okay update from home later: *thumbs up*

Ep 12 (Aug 7)

goodbye Achi’s magical powers

i’m skipping through Rock and Pai scene

i wasn’t expecting Too Much of a hassle with the parents but doing the fake-out “they come out and the coworkers/parents seem upset at first but aren’t actually and it’s just a funny thing” twice back to back (11-4 and 12-1) is like give it a rest. i wish the parents had at least some sort of reservations regarding the queerness or were affirming in their support, not this jokey thing like we Just got that last ep!

Min telling fans that Jinta is his bf the day he gets confirmed to debut like let’s chill and think and plan first

lol author fansign basically

okkkk angsty meeting the parents with Karan, i was wanting a bit of this

okay nvm ig bc they’re like ok as your parents we support you but like… why was the mom saying on the phone that they’re busy then? and they acted quite cold with karan and achi too

okkkk yes the parents don’t want Karan to tell others that Achi is his boyfriend

let’s go Karin

goddd, Karan wanting to put his hand on Achi’s but turning around to see his mom looking at them and so keeping his hands to himself and they’re shakinggg

Karan tearing up in happiness/relief at hearing Achi and his parents talk wuahhh

“I didn’t disappoint you, did I?” one of my fave lines in general when it comes to coming out and parents ahh

aw marriage proposal even though it’s too quick for meee but theyre in true love and will be together forever so it’s okay

i loveeee a gay double proposal

the cherry theme for Jinta’s novel, Min’s band name, Achi and Karan’s wedding is killing me like lol

and Achi Karan do get to register there marriage now, aw

and Achi Karan do get to register there marriage now, aw

i’m quite meh about weddings in shows in general but this was is cute enough

so cute Min thinking like D: is he that serious about me? and Jinta jolting from his sleepy state to be like i only haven’t proposed bc of your idol dream, pls come and propose to me whenever you’re ready

on the other hand, don’t give me lovey dovey Rock and Pai

ah, mentioning the mind reading powers again, I did feel like it had disappeared without enough acknowledgement

Was I more picky and annoyed watching the first half of ep 12 because it’s like 8am and I’m on the train to go to work?

Overall:

I had watched the Japanese Cherry Magic live-action, which everybody seemed to love but was pretty meh and forgettable to me, but I’m glad that I ended up liking this adaptation better. I was quite unsure about the whole thing when it was announced like 1.5 (almost 2?) years ago, so I’m eating my words.

TayNew’s BL work after multiple years apart and they were both better than their Dark Blue Kiss days I think, helped by the fact that they’ve individually done a bunch of acting work since then. Karan and Achi were cute and endearing (and felt more human/real to me than Kurosawa and Adachi I think? but i can’t remember much from CM JP to say it with certainty). The ship is kind of “boring” in that there isn’t much angst between the characters, not as much tension, they don’t end up breaking up 3/4 through, etc. and I find that it can be hard to care about those sorts of couples for 12 whole episodes but Karan and Achi were cute enough and had enough outside struggles to pull it off.

i’m so charmed by Jinta and Min actually, a vast improvement from the japanese version’s equivalent. How cute and endearing and I liked getting my little taste of celeb/non-celeb dating and typical idol show problems bc I enjoy these tropes, even though they weren’t fleshed out at all in this instance (I will love Thame-Po forever if they actually give me a good, proper show but idk if they will lol esp considering what I’ve heard about Only Boo!). I watched Mark and Junior first in their Midnight Museum storyline and it was good enough, a bit heartbreaking the way the stories in that show were but not mind blowing and I don’t think I’ll be watching Perfect 10 Liners, but I’d still be curious to see them in something different later on.

On the other hand, I didn’t care about Pai and Rock whatsoever. I knew they were gonna end up together based on people’s comments + the SingJan ship but it’s a shame that they didn’t keep aroace Pai though i know she’s not aroace in the OG manga). Even without that, I just didn’t care about it, I just wanted Rock to give up and leave Pai alone. Pai is great and I liked her putting her ex his place and choosing happiness etc but not the part where she screams whenever her real life coworkers Karan and Achi do anything cute like okay you ship them but keep it in your head pls.

I enjoyed the adaptation and how it had the Japanese touches (the company try work for specifically) while also introducing Thai elements (religion, festivals, dialects). Great improvement on the kissing department and I’m glad they also squeezed the wedding in there.

Another of those I enjoyed it and it was well-made but I doubt I’ll be thinking much about this and it didn’t give me any soft of brain worms.

Rating: 6.5/10

[rainneverstopped]

July 29th 2024, 4:30pm

Another day of intense grief, guilt, confusion and so much sadness because you don’t belong and need love that never, ever comes. I woke up so tired today for no reason and I wasn’t sure I would be able to function. The constant sleepiness is becoming a daily thing. I’m scared of having moments of calm because I don’t want to be magically punished for them later. I miss having weeks where I felt all right and had fun. When did it become this fucking helpless?. The worst part is everyone’s unwillingness to see any of this as a serious issue. I did have a very good session with my psychiatrist on Saturday. I don’t want to flatter myself by thinking I’m important enough for him to give me an emergency session (I sent him an upsetting message while having a crying fit) maybe he just works on Saturdays but it was so nice regardless. I felt heard which is rare, I felt ok for a moment. Of course in true “me” fashion I asked him if he disliked me and he laughed and said he didn’t dislike his patients. I figured it would be better to ask than to wonder like I always do. I walk down the street and feel like I’m witnessing some kind of theater play where everyone is “in” and I’m kinda there watching. It feels like being somewhere where I’m not supposed to be. Like going to a foreign country except that it’s not fun or positive or constructive in any way and no part of my soul feels nourished. If anything it feels drained. This is particularly funny because at the same time I constantly feel I’m putting on a show and pretending to be human and I’m pretty sure most people just exist and leave it at that, they don’t have to spend hours wondering how to react or behave. Cried myself to sleep yesterday because I got attached to someone (not romantically) that is not in my life and now I miss him and cry desperately whenever I feel alone or just in general. I feel asleep and had some weird sleep paralysis where I could breathe (I generally can’t during sleep paralysis) but couldn’t move and I kept hearing construction like noises and voices of people yelling and calling my name. I would struggle to wake up and felt scared for my life and kept thinking I needed to walk to the window and check that everything was all right but couldn’t get my body to stand up and as soon as I opened my eyes and tried to snap out of it, they would close again and I would drift into this half asleep state where it would continue. I was terrified. Whenever I opened my eyes the voices would dim a little bit they were still there. Eventually I managed to fully wake up by moving my toes around and got up and checked at the window and the voices went away, it was deserted outside. I stayed up a bit with my phone because if I go straight back to sleep it usually just happens again. It’s like my brain needs to reset before I keep on sleeping. I went to sleep after a while. Today at the subway there was a woman who was selling pens and stationary because she was hospitalized and on disability benefits. She was schizophrenic and the hospital had allowed her to leave for the propose of selling those things to cover for the cost of her soap, toothpaste, shampoo, ect. Apparently the government doesn’t cover those things and it has to come out of her own pocket. What kind of evil, gross hellscape are we existing in?. I want to opt out. Tired of my country, tired of waking up, tired of the dark, dark sadness of it all and the constant, debilitating fear that doesn’t even let me enjoy reading a fucking book. Living should be reserved for the most horrible of humanoid monsters, nobody else deserves this perpetual panic. I hope nothing bad happens to me. I know I have it good in many ways but I wish I could spend the rest of my life crying in somebody’s arms, heavily sedated.

Edit: I noticed I sometimes write “you” instead of “I” when talking about myself. I usually core t it but I’ll leave it because it’s interesting to me and I should probably think why that is.

[jellogram]

Okay so like this is what happened. I went to this bar to watch a band at like 4:30pm and I was like no sweat I'll just have a pint and then go get some food, but I meet an American girl there and we start talking and she's like "Hey do you wanna go check out this other bar?" and I'm like yeah sure of course so we go there and then we go somewhere else and she buys me a drink and I buy her a drink and we talk about how we're both women traveling alone and how fucking hard and weird it is and she talks about her ex with she/her pronouns and I'm trying to pretend my ears didn't just perk up like a fucking hound dog so then we go to ANOTHER bar and we're just vibing and I set my drink on a table so I can dance and the drink gets knocked over and the people who spilled it are like "Oh my God, so sorry, here, have some of ours" so now I'm drinking god knows what out of who knows whose glass and it's not even dark yet. It's not even dark. And now this British chick is kissing me on the cheek and blowing vape smoke in my face and telling me she can't handle the fact that she's 40 now and she hates England and I'm like pretending I can understand more than every sixth word that she says and these girls are getting us PROPERLY shitfaced while we talk, like they are already gone to booze purgatory and they want us to join them, but then suddenly their whole group leaves and me and my American friend are just getting more hammered on all their leftover bottles and when I get back from the toilet she's like "That guy in the green sweater keeps looking at me" and I'm like "Oh yeah he totally is, are you tryna hit?" and she's like unnnnngfhhhh I don't know. So while we're discussing this the green sweater guy materializes beside us and asks for her number and I'm talking to him like "Bro thank God. I wanted to wingman but I am too drunk to handle that so I'm glad you're doing my job for me." And he's all like "Haha of course, I couldn't keep my mouth shut" or whatever. So I ask my buddy if she's good if I leave and she clearly wants to fuck this man so she's like oh yeah totally, you can totally head out now and I won't mind. And then I wander around town until I find my train.

So anyway that was my night.

[bike42]

PAWs Old World Wisconsin Ride

Monday, June 3 thru Wednesday June 5, 2024

The forecast for the next couple of days continued to look dismal, so we’re planning around weather-dot-com, and it looked like we could get out early and beat the rain on Monday as we rode from Whitewater to New Glarus.

At 6:30am we were packed up, and walked across the street for decaf latte and egg sandwich at Starbucks versus the questionable sanitation of the breakfast “buffet” at the hotel. I’m trying to not be a hotel snob here, but the crusty cheap hotels are the downside of the PAWs rides. Next to Starbucks was a nice new Marriott Fairfield where I’d have rather stayed!

Luggage truck opened at 7am, and we were riding by about 7:15am. As usual, we have a few stops and starts as we get going - stop to adjust the mirror, bug in the helmet, take off jacket, etc … but soon we were into a rhythm and heading towards Milton. I recognized a few of the roads from the IAT, pretty sure we roadwalked a similar path. The other tandem on the ride blew past us on an uphill, and we noted that they’d had a retrofitted motor on board. Hmmm.

The food stop was in a park in Milton, at about 14 miles - earlier in the day. We filled our pockets with snacks and didn’t stop long, conscious about the weather. Hal left the rest stop with us, Kendall told him he’d catch up (he’s younger and a strong rider). But outside of Milton, we had a long stretch on Cty Road M with a smooth, wide shoulder and we really moved with Hal drafting us. We had a fun 10 mile stretch going 15-20 MPH, slowing just a little on the hills. Fun for us to do that, but that’s about as long as we could sustain it. We approached Evansville from the NE and the hills started to roll, Kendall caught us just outside of town.

I needed a break off the bike, and we zoomed past “K’s Clean Eats and Treats” and saw riders on the patio so we turned around. We’d walked past there on the IAT but it was closed. We had a smoothie and listened to a fellow riders stories as we relaxed on the comfy patio chairs in the sunshine. We knew better than taking too long of a break, but we did it anyway.

We continued through Evansville, and headed NW out of town, into rolling hills. Yup, too long of a break. About 30 minutes later, the sky grew dark and it started raining. We stopped to don rain jackets, but it was still pretty warm (high 80’s), so I just put on my old rain jacket with the sleeves zipped off to make it a vest. We rode on Hwy 92 for about 5 miles in the rain, the most unpleasant part of the ride. The rain subsided, and we were back in familiar IAT territory just south of Belleville. I saw “Tunnel Road” on our route and knew that was a tough climb (as were the 3 or 4 after that). We approached New Glarus from the SE, so I was turned around and the last 5 miles felt like agony and that we wouldn’t ever get there!

The rain had let up, so we checked into the hotel, stashed our bike in the shed, and went to join Hal & Kendall and others on the patio. We’d arrived at 12:30pm, and we were hungry. There was no lunch available at the hotel, so people were walking to the BP station for snacks. I walked over there and bought some sandwiches, chips and a six pack of New Glarus Brewing Co Bock 40 beer. It started to rain again, but we were covered on the patio and it was a fun place to hang out for the afternoon. The rooms weren’t ready for many people so some had no choice. We headed up to our room, where I had a hot bath and then napped until the group dinner started at 5:30pm (that’s what happens when I drink beer in the afternoon)!

We had a nice dinner - good food, and met another couple from Arizona as well as two ladies from Iowa. After dinner, we walked around town, very quiet on a Monday night, and then walked to Culver’s for a small custard.

56.8 miles, 1981 ft elevation gain

3 hours of riding time (5.25 hours elapsed time)

Tuesday

There was an optional bike loop today, but we were ready for a day off the bike. We slept in, I got up and did some yoga, then we headed down for a really nice breakfast buffet in the hotel restaurant - eggs, potatoes, sausages, yogurts and cheeses, and really yummy pastries. After breakfast, we set off for the 1+ miles walk up the hill to the New Glarus Brewing Company. We really enjoyed the self-guided tour, amazing story of the couple who started it, their vision and their belief in giving back to the community and taking care of their employees really resonated with us. We hit the gift shop (we will have to head back there to buy the sign “Totally Naked” for our sauna as it was too fragile to fit into our suitcases).

Back to the hotel, it was time for lunch - beers and brats on the patio. It was a warm day, and that proved to be a great place to watch riders come in. We sat with a couple from Florida, Gretchen and Brent, and enjoyed their company. Then it was back to our room for a work zoom, some email to catch up on, etc.

We were back down for 4pm Happy Hour, featuring New Glarus beers. About 4:30, it starting drizzling, which thinned out the crowd a bit. We stayed until after 5, then walked down the path towards town with lots of others. We stopped at the pizza place, where we had salads and pizza, with leftovers for tomorrow. Of course, we had a cap off the night with a walk down to Culver’s for some custard! As we left Culver’s, the sky was dark with fast moving clouds. We speed walked back to the hotel, with the smell of the rain surrounding us. When we got to the hotel, people were coming out to watch the magical clouds - unlike any I’d ever seen. I stayed and watched until the heavy rain came, then went up to our room for the night.

Wednesday

We planned to get up and going early, but a check of the weather after the six am alarm showed = rain! Just a brief shower passing through. I got up and stretched a bit, dressed and finished packing, then had a leisurely breakfast. By 8am, the pavement was mostly dry and we headed out. It was a beautiful morning, and the scenery was lush and breathtaking … Wisconsin in June is really spectacular!

About 18 miles of mostly rolling hills, but a long climb as we approached Mt Horeb. The food stop was set up on the Military Ridge bike trail, nice facility, and access to a bike shop which was apparently overwhelmed with cyclists from our ride! Jeff went over there and bought a new mirror (some assembly required, so it was a longer break for us).

From there, the roads were very familiar to us, and I knew we had another big climb before we reach the WI River valley near Arena. The day was warm, and also quite windy. We were wiped out when we got to Arena, so we joined others at the gas station there and split a coke and a snickers bar. Just 10 flat miles to go, but into the wind. We were just peddling in a daze, until Hal, Kendall and two other guys came along - somehow we always do better with a challenge (or at least my captain does)!

The group is split into two hotels - most of us at the Spring Valley Inn, about 5 miles from Springs Green, and some at the Round Barn on Hwy 14 near SG. We arrived at our hotel about 1pm, time for left over pizza, showers, writing, reading, etc before a school bus picked us up at 4pm for Happy Hour at the Round Barn. This evening we met and enjoyed talking to a couple from Oklahoma - Lynn and Terry. Always fun comparing notes on other adventures, plus it’s their first time to Wisconsin and Lynn was so excited that tonight’s group dinner was at a supper club (Arthur’s). Since our dinner was our typical PAW group dinner buffet, it wasn’t the true supper club experience, but I went to the bar and bought a round of Old Fashioned’s and those were yummy!

There was a Culver’s next door and I’d hoped to get a custard, but it started raining cats and dogs again, so we piled into the school bus for transport back to our hotel.

45.8 miles, 1390 ft elevation gain

3.5 hours of riding time (4.75hours elapsed time)

[united-under-skyfall]

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i work 6am-2:30pm. i go home and go to sleep. i wake up at 6, eat dinner, try not to fall asleep. at 9, i go to sleep again. 13 hours later, i wake up, and spend the next 12 trying not to fall asleep. i am so tired i could cry. i want to. i'm thinking about it. i should not be, because i should not be tired. i have slept so much, i am sick of it. i want nothing more than to close my eyes and drift away forever and ever. i want nothing more than to never sleep again. there is a war inside me, but i am too tired to fight it. there is never going to be a victor. i work 10pm-6am. the whole time, i am so, so awake, and very aware that i could be doing anything at all with this time, with this energy and will and consciousness that has become utterly unfamiliar to me, but instead am falling into a monotonous routine in a half-dark, nearly empty building, racing the clock, tearing at my hair, reminding my co-worker who hasn't slept to drink her coffee. i go home, back by 6:40, and there is something like hope there, that i can do something, anything. i can make breakfast, i can greet my family and talk with them for what feels like the first time in ages as they slowly get ready for the day. but i am not hungry. they all have early appointments today, and are gone by 7. i am alone in a half-dark building (why does this feel familiar), and for the next hour i read, and for the next, i read and try not to fall asleep, and for the next i try to read and try harder not to fall asleep, and by 10 i'm there again. i wake up at 5, try not to fall back asleep, eat dinner, try not to fall back asleep. i stand in the kitchen and do nothing at all. "you work at 6 tomorrow," my dad reminds me. "i don't want to go to bed," i answer. "you need to," he tells me. "it feels like all i do these days is sleep." please hear, i am begging you. please hear, i don't know what's happening, what's been happening for years and years. please hear, i need your advice. please hear, i need a hug. please hear, i don't know what i'm doing. please hear, this is a cry for help. it is the only one i know how to give. "you have been sleeping a lot," he responds, and leaves saying nothing more. i do not scream, even though i want to. did he not hear? when is it that we stopped speaking the same language? i wait for 10 before i can give myself permission to let go and sleep again. i wake up at 3am because i work at 6 and i have chores to do first, snooze my alarm, fall back asleep. i wake up at 3:05, 3:10, 3:15, again and again and i want to weep. i wake up at 4:15 and actually manage to convince myself of it this time. it is not a happy conclusion. i only have time to do a few of the chores i was supposed to before i need to leave, struggling to stay awake all the while. i drive back to work and the road is empty. i think about just driving straight, beyond the road, beyond the horizon, about never stopping, about how maybe that would be almost as good as being back in bed. i arrive and it feels like i never even got the chance to leave in the first place. my hands are sluggish as they work, my legs protesting against my wishes for them to move faster. my thoughts are delayed, my words don't come out on time, and when they do, they don't come out right. my entire being is collapsing in on itself like a black hole. i cannot keep doing this. i don't know what "this" is. i want to sleep even though i know it will do nothing to ease this. i cannot remember the last time i was not exhausted at every level of my being. i think i miss it. i don't remember it well enough to know for sure.

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Thursday, November 16th

8:30am I have one more big assignment and two more small assignments. It feels impossible and I'm so tired. All I want to do is call my best friend but he won't answer. Just have to do this myself again. I'm extremely strong and resilient and I can't believe I made it to this point.

3:30pm I survived Verbal Defense! I did it! I am really proud of myself for everything I have survived this semester! It's raining really hard which is fucking up my vibe and shit but the rain will stop eventually! I'm like shaking from all the overflow of emotions. This semester took so much from me, out of me, really just beat me tf up. My life has been a trainwreck for so long. I just want peace. I just want to calm the persistent anxiety that's been propping me up for months. I just want to rest my mind. I'm literally shaking from the release of stress. Stress is so undeniable physical and just wrecks your body in so many ways. It's time to rest and heal. You've been through so much trauma the past few months and here you are, still alive, still strong. Don't ignore the trauma you experienced but it's time to heal and grow and begin another chapter, not ignoring the previous chapters, but building off of the lessons learned. We go on.

4pm Just remember that most people don't gaf what you do bro just don't hurt anyone and ur good. I just put fish sticks in the oven and popped open a mojito and I'm chilling until I change my mind and want to do something else.

4:20pm I feel like I can finally process what has happened to me. School put me in survival mode and now I'm free to heal. Yeah I'm crying when I should be feeling nothing but joy. I'm crying bc I didn't get the chance to when I was just trying to survive. I went through so much having my trust broken and my life ripped out from under me. I am traumatized but I'll heal. I know I will. This will pass and then I'll feel the joy of my success. It was all mine and all my hard work. I'm seriously proud of myself and I'll say it 1000x ❤️

4:40pm added image of my fish sticks bc it makes me happy that I'm feeding myself

5:00pm intrusive thoughts but wow I can't believe I didn't kll myself this semester I'm so proud :)

5:10pm I made green beans sauteed in the pan instead of the microwave 🥰 I love myself and I know I am worth so much and I know I can take care of myself when I'm not insanely stressed with school. I'll find myself again in no time ❤️ it's like a dark storm cloud has lifted from above my head

7:47pm I woke up from a nap and my stomach hurts lol I think I made the green beans too oily/buttery but it's ok! Haha. I need to clean out my fridge and get some me foods in here. I haven't gone grocery shopping in ages. Everything is probably freezer burnt tbh but that's ok! You were just trying your best ❤️

I have rented Silence of the Lambs and I think I will take a Tums and have some Sprite and some ice cream and rest some more ❤️

9:25pm ok so I had a finish an assignment that nobody wanted to do so I took one for the team and did it 💕 the Tums helped tremendously and now it's movie time :) I'm glad I don't feel like I'm about to shit myself anymore so that actually worked out 😂

9:49pm physical feelings/ sensations have such a profound impact on my mental status. Seeing something gross or feeling physical pain just send me into a spiral. I would like to know how to work on this more. I think the best thing to do for now is to focus on what I can control in my surroundings.

1am lol ok I ended up not watching the movie and that's ok! MasterChef marathon ftw. Got both my little boys laying on the couch with me ❤️

Woke up and I started thinking about being in a relationship and about him or whatever but I'm not really sad. I think I'm asexual or like really minimally sexual. Idk what it is but like I enjoy people for so much more than sex? Like I want to have a connection with you first and then that will follow. Idk how people just be out here jumping and dumping 😂 it's just a waste of time for me. Long story short, I'm not seeking out another relationship rn so it's hard for me to even feel sexual really. Maybe it's a trauma thing or a stress thing, I really don't know. I do know I can't be the only one who feels this way and that's ok ❤️

2am I think I have autism and yeah I mean I thought of it before but then it's like 🤷‍♀️ ok and? And yeah I just think it explains a lot of things about me. But it's like I don't know what to do with that information lol.

[thedivinefish]

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