#what do i do for text posts umm ummm

[oornithologistt]

sigh. i should make more original content here. 99% of my stuff is reblogs i wanna be more .. me. i wanna make mutuals and post art and be so cool. Unfortunately most of the art I make (like all of it pretty much) is ocs. And nobody gaf abouyt my ocs

[disaster-racing]

I don't usually do text posts, but I just have to ask - has anyone else noticed something strange with the Screaming Meals streams recently? James and Clem have been making some weird comments about Marcus, and they sound... a bit worrying? So I went back to their previous streams to check, and here what they said:

Qatar quali stream:

C: "We're trying, you know, to really promote this channel… trying to make it grow, got no idea what we're doing. And Marcus Armstrong doesn't wanna help us." J: "Yeah. To be fair, he doesn't have a say these days in what goes on his Instagram." C: "Does he not? Oh! That's true, I forgot about that. That is true."

C: "So, so, can you… is that the real reason, the fact that you haven't got enough devices, that you're not listening to our stream, or is it sort of censored in the household, per se?" M: "Yeah, the US has actually censored Screaming Meals, umm…" C: "Oh, see, I didn't think it would have been–" J: "Sort of a North Korea situation, is it?" C: (laughs) M: (laughs) "For obvious reasons, mate, for obvious reasons." C: "Yeah, doesn't seem to be the US, but err…"

J: (talking to Marcus) "I don't know about you but the last time I checked my bank account, fuck me, there was some… there's gotta be some numbers missing, but…" C: (closes eyes, laughing)

Qatar sprint stream:

J: "Marcus gets to the UK sometime in November so we'll definitely be filming some stuff in November, as long as he's allowed to. Um, then you can get some more pods."

Qatar race stream:

J: "Marcus says please call a bit later than lap 15, with an x." C: "What a loser! Just always skiving off work." J: "Yeah, why, like… I dunno, he's probably getting screamed at or something, I dunno." C: "Marcus is? Yeah… well, he has been under quite a lot of pressure hasn't he, recently." J: "Yeah… " … C: "No, he hasn't lost control of his downstairs. He has lost control of his credit card, though." J: "He certainly has lost control of his credit card. Anyway!"

C: "Marcus joining us as well for a short trip [in Brasil]. Interesting." J: "Yeah apparently we're not allowed to talk about that." C: "No, we're not. Good times."

J: "Shall we give Marcus another go?" C: "Nah." J: "Fair enough." C: "He was being his usual 'I'm too cool for you guys'…" J: "He was being a bit, wasn't he. He's probably on another sanction from speaking to us." C: "I think so yeah. Must be one of those sanctions."

Mexico race stream:

J: "I'm gonna give Armstrong a buzz." C: "No chance he answers." J: "I believe he's due to fly out 9pm Mexico time." C: "He'll be under heavy control. …has your number not been placed on the 'banned' list?" J: "Ah, no, this is a burner." C: "Oh, mine has. Mine has." […] C: "Quite a lot of restrictions to get in contact with Armstrong these days."

Q&A stream:

(talking about what they would buy if they had to spend £1million on each other) J: "Then for Armstrong… ummm, I'd, I dunno, I'd probably just help him pay off his credit card debts." C: "True! Paying off his credit card debts would be something. Definitely."

C: "Look, we've got Loraine with the hashtag Free Marcus." J: (snorts) "No comment."

And when Marcus was on the sprint race stream last night, he seemed a bit tired and low energy, quite different to how he was on the streams earlier in the year. Maybe I'm just overreacting, but I really hope he's okay and some of the things they've said aren't as concerning as they sound...

[ask-boreal]

Pokeask Star Sending 2023

>BOREAL: OH!!!! IT WORKED MY LITTLE FLAG WORKED wow i'm so smart I wonder where mine went??? it's not here any more either BUT THIS IS SOMEONE'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that's so NEAT it's like I have my own little post office now

Okay so I have to … do this! Then. oh gosh I hope i can read this

[ Boreal took the list by hand and read it to herself. It was from a Pokemon by the name of Somni, and it had a list of three items:

Something soft I can lay on or wrap myself in.

A warm, comforting drink.

Dessert made in the shape of a star. ]

>BOREAL: so… a blanket, a warm beverage, or dessert… hmm. WELL!!!!!!!!!! I can do one of those I think!!! I don't think I can make a blanket unless they want sand … or leaves… but that doesn't sound ummm soft. leaves are too crinkly. DRINK though I think there are some good things to make that from back in the forest off the shore. I remember mom making some nice hot drinks out of berries back home… I think I remember how to do that!!

I guess we'll see what I can find…

>BOREAL: Okay!!! The mug should work just fine!! and the leaves can help keep it warm, should be toasty still… I guess I just uhhh … leave it at my post office??? I GOTTA STAY UP THOUGH I wanna see how this all works!!

...

[ The note was written on a rather large leaf, but nonetheless it was crammed full of hand written text... ]

"HI THERE STAR SENDING FRIEND!!!!!! I hope this finds you well!! i don't really know how all this works but umm I made you a hot drink!!! It was something that my mom always made for me back when I was home… it was always so cold there and it warmed us up so well!! I helped out some times with making it so I was able to do it again, but with some berries and ingredients I had with me… It's sweet!!! I hope that's okay I always liked sweet myself umm i'm running out of room to write but I hope it's still warm enough it should be and I hope you enjoy it take care where ever you are!!!!!!!!

-Boreal ★ !"

[ Happy Star Sending @cutemonclub!!! ]

[inspiredartisticcreations]

FANMADE NETFLIX SERIES

Meeting riz ahmed! 😱

"He is a worldwide superstar, well known for his amazing roles and activist beliefs, his upcoming career will be a blast, so hear we have Riz Ahmed everyone, give him a cheer and clap" said Jimmy kimmel. Rina heard the door bell of her apartment then she turned off the TV quickly and went to open the door, it was her older sister she walked in with lots of shopping bags in her hands, she put them on top of her kitchen counters and shook her hands down in pain, "those were heavy" she said Rina raised one of her eyebrow, "who told you to carry them all the way up like that?" Rina said her sister scoffed, "it's done now, anyways what were you doing?" asked her sister, Rina tried to play it cool, "me... ummm I was just sorting out my clothes" she said her sister looked at her with a knowing face, "what?" said Rina questionly, "nothing" said her sister.

They both put dinner together later on in the evening, they sat down on the sofa to eat, her sister was swiping and texting through her phone and Rina was watching TV as she eat, "hmm this actually came out really good" said Rina her sister agreed, putting the phone down and taking a mouthfull, "hey how's your cake bakery going?" asked her sister Rina stopped before taking a bite of her food and looked down, "umm yeah, it's alright not many new customers but do we get the regulars" she said finally eating, her sister looked at her with bit of sympathy, "hey Rina you do know that I've always got a place for you to work in our family business, I mean mum and dad would definitely like it, and I mean come on its not every's hand when it comes to making a small business big?" said her sister, Rina felt a little urge of annoyance build up, then she slammed her plate of food down "what are you trying to say, sheena? she said angrily, Sheena looked a little surprised, "Oh I'm sorry Rina, I honestly didn't mean it like that" she said Rina rolled her eyes and sat back down grabbing the plate again and eating angrily stabbing the fork into her food aggressively, her sister sighed and then slowly put her plate down, "look hun, I understand it can be annoying, at first but trust me, myself and mum, dad only want the best for you, I mean come on, there's no need to be like this, if you even need me my help, then I am always here for you." Said her sister facing her and slightly touching her shoulder, Rina stopped eating and then gave her sister a side hug, her sister stroked her back smiling tenderly, "okay, I need to be off I've got stuffs to do" said her sister grabbing her bag and phone, Rina said her goodbyes and closed the door.

Rina got ready bed and completed a series of night time routines, she jumped into bed and then got scrolling on her phone, she then came across a post on instagram where the actor Riz Ahmed had posted a picture of his recent movie poster, she smiled then liked the post and started to read the comments, "wow some fans they are" she said as she giggled "but then again he is quite good looking?" Rina said, she eventually decided to put her phone down and fell asleep.

The next morning Rina quickly got up as her alarm went off, heading to the shower and getting a fresh wash for the the early morning, she got ready really fast, keeping an eye on the time, she finally grabbed her coat and bag and ran out, as soon as she went out of the main building she noticed it was heavy rain and then moaned in pain, "seriously?" Rina didn't have time to grab her umbrella so she covered her head with her coat and ran off.

She finally made it to her bakery and quickly ran inside already her two workers were inside working then watching her as she ran in and tossed her coat aside, she gave them both a look then they quickly got back into work, "urrggh this horrible rain" Rina said getting into her apran one of the female workers slowly went upto her "have you seen the news, it says there's a chance that the rain may cause flood" she said Rina looked a little concerned "a flood you say?" she said the worker nodded yes "tonight it can happen if the rain don't stop" said the worker. Rina looked out the window and watched the heavy fall of rain, later that afternoon it was still pouring and it looked very dull outside Rina was working on cake sample and then stopped for a short break, one of her other colleagues left a little earlier and now there was just the two of them. "So doing anything this weekend?: Rina asked her colleague her colleague just scoffed a little "well not in this weather I don't" she said now slightly laughing, Rina smiled a little then they decided to get back to work, now it was late afternoon and time to close Rina and her colleague tidyed up the bakery and then as they were about to leave they noticed the rain on the ground a little rise. They looked at each other feeling a little nervous to step outside then Rina opened the door and her colleague followed her outside she gave her a quick hug and said goodbye.

They both walked off in different directions. RIna was struggling to walk without a umbrella as she used her coat again to help her protect from the heavy rain, the gust of wind was forcing her back as she was heavily walking through the ground which had seemed to risen more now, she could see some people walking around with their big umbrellas and raincoats she had wished that she had one of those, now regretting to even have come to work.

She decided to take shelter under some big library building, and put down her coat as her arms were aching her, she let out a big breath of relief out of tiredness, and then other person came and stood a few inches away from RIna, she was fixing her hair as the rain had made it all wet, as she was ringing out all the water from her hair she heard a voice a few inch away, "hey do you mind, your getting me all wet with your hair" said a voice, Rina stood up straight and then turned to face the voice, she froze on the spot and then her eyes got wider in excitement, she couldn't believe her eyes it was HIM! HIM.

To be continued...

[small-tragedies]

I already answered like three of these, but I thought, “Why not make you (poor) lovely people read more of my inner thoughts and answers?” XD

1: What is your favorite trope to write? Oh, boy, here we go lol. Ummm, it would probably have to be hands-down enemy-to-lovers. I have so many parings for different fandoms that I love that can’t stand each other but secretly loooove each other. 😂

2: What is your least favorite trope to write? Hmm, that’s tough. Sincerely, I’m drawing a blank because I literally can’t think of anything besides maybe love triangles. I mean, if you’re going for a fic that has comedy in it with this trope, I think it could work, but in my honest opinion, it gets old and stale fast if the fic you’re writing is more serious and the love triangle goes on through it the whole way. 

3: What is the main program you use for writing (google docs, the ao3 writing text box, etc.) Google Docs, baby! 

4: What is the main site you publish/write on? AO3.

5: The fic you’re most proud of writing? This one right here, baby! I thought I would try my hand at writing something with horror, and I wasn’t disappointed with myself at all. 

6: The fic you’re least proud of writing? Hmm, I haven’t posted a lot of fics, but I guess this could count? I completely scrapped a fic because I really didn’t like how it was turning out, and I just wasn’t liking how I wrote the characters. 

7: Favorite ship to write? I must say it’s a very big tie between Jessica Lovejoy and Lisa Simpson and Louise and Logan lol. 😆

8: Least favorite ship to write? It’s got to be Gwen and Trent from Total Drama Island. 😂 I just wasn’t the biggest fan of the pairing.

9: Biggest pet peeve while writing? Umm, well, this is my personal pet peeve for me. It was when I knew exactly where I was going to go with it but then went to write it down, and it turned out COMPLETELY different than how I wanted it to. 😂

10: Best/funniest comment you’ve ever gotten on a fic? I haven’t gotten a lot of comments, so I can really answer this one well. 😅 (I’ll edit this if I ever do lol).

11: Do you prefer writing angst, crack, or fluff? Ahh, damn! I honestly have written all three before, sooo I don’t think I can just choose one. I love them all for different reasons. 

12: First ever fic written? My Simpsons horror fic called “Friends to the End, Lisa, Till the Very End”

13: Latest fic written/latest WIP? A Louigan fic for @seemoreseymoursbay that I can’t wait to share with everyone. 😊

14: First fandom you ever wrote fanfiction for? The Simpsons.

15: Fandom you wrote the most fanfiction for? Hopefully, if I ever get more works out there, it’ll be a combination of the Simpsons and Bob’s Burgers fics. 

16: Do you prefer co-writing something or just working on it by yourself? I enjoy doing both, and I have actually worked on a lot of WIPs with my sister.

17: Favorite AU to write? I have a very special place in my heart for soulmate AUs. I just think it’s neat about writing two characters that are destined for each other, y'know. 

18: Most words/chapters ever written for one fic or oneshot? Hmm, unfortunately, they’re all WIPs right now. 😅

19: Have you ever created an OC for a fic? Nope I have not.

20: Hardest character to write/get the characterization correct for? I wanted to say Logan, but if I’m being honest, it’s Louise. I always keep second-guessing myself on how I’m writing her, and I get sad, feeling like I’m lame at getting her character down and writing her how I want to. 😭

1: What is your favorite trope to write?

2: What is your least favorite trope to write?

3: What is the main program you use for writing (google docs, the ao3 writing text box, etc.)

4: What is the main site you publish/write on?

5: The fic you’re most proud of writing?

6: The fic you’re least proud of writing?

7: Favorite ship to write?

8: Least favorite ship to write?

9: Biggest pet peeve while writing?

10: Best/funniest comment you’ve ever gotten on a fic?

11: Do you prefer writing angst, crack, or fluff?

12: First ever fic written?

13: Latest fic written/latest WIP?

14: First fandom you ever wrote fanfiction for?

15: Fandom you wrote the most fanfiction for?

16: Do you prefer co-writing something or just working on it by yourself?

17: Favorite AU to write?

18: Most words/chapters ever written for one fic or oneshot?

19: Have you ever created an OC for a fic?

20: Hardest character to write/get the characterization correct for?

I thought it would be fun to do this with others, and I’m very curious to see what everyone says, especially @twisting-echo 😏.

@babsvibes @twisting-echo @secretsofthemourning @waytoomanyhobbies @jimmypesto @sailoreuterpe @luckierbutjinxedmore

[hometownrockstar]

I’ve been wanting to read new books/comics do you have any suggestions? I wanna broaden my horizon and try out works I haven’t had the chance to get into!

yeah sure! ive been reading quite a bit lately, mainly horror and disturbing books/mangas so obviously trigger warnings for those ones i can elaborate on specific ones if u ask but i'll keep it short... iunno what specifically you might want so i'll just shoutout my favs recently

Berserk has been the latest manga ive been reading, probably one of the hardest ones to read bc its VERY sad and disturbing but is an incredible story nonetheless. i am not phased easily by written stuff but berserk was the first thing to have a scene that i had to look away from so proceed with caution... Berserk is interesting bc it has Nietzschean tragedy themes and structure, portraying a world where evil and pain happens for no reason despite humans fearing not pain but pain without purpose, but it also holds a sense of compassion and realism to both the good and bad, exemplifying how Nietzsche saw tragedy as beneficial to enjoying and valuing the good parts of life. Sorry this got long but a lot of horror stuff i feel can be boiled down to "Super fucked up bad things happen in it" which doesnt give the whole scope of how a specific media might handle or portray it, so i wanted to explain how it feels to me, rather than just saying its gratuitous.

Something different is the manga Ultra Heaven! this was like finding gold when i discovered it, its short and unfortunately incomplete but i highly recommend it just for the incredible illustration work and playing with paneling and crazy mind stuff. its written by a guy who does drugs and often points to psychadelics as a heavy influence for his work, and its extremely apparent in this one. if you love beautiful artwork and surrealist mind-fucky narratives (like perfect blue or eva) then i cant recommend this enough.

ok i cant let this get too long ummm Animorphs! throwing a curveball but its still horror, just kid's cosmic horror. and war. and its really good, even tho i read it as an adult for the first time i loved it. actually rlly good commentary on the ethics and grey morality during war. Heres where u can download every book, the megamorphs and alternamorphs are required for the plot btw theyre listed in the order u read them in-between the series books.

A good horror/comedy manga is Franken Fran, i INSTANTLY took to it when i picked it up its my style of dark comedy exactly. i really liked black jack for the episodic chapter style, n this is like black jack but with dark comedy body horror and i love it :3

Back to books... I'll list these together, Come Closer by Sara Gran and Confessions by Kanae Misato. I stayed up all night on two separate nights reading these bc they had me hooked so well lol... I wouldnt call them horror, more like thriller/tragedies. come closer has a great writing style, its a rather sad book about a woman being possessed by a demon, really good sparse prose that emphasizes details. Confessions is just... u gotta go right into it, its GREAT. really intriguing style and premise, love the epistolary format, SO good with details.

The Melancholy of Anatomy by Shelley Jackson, short story compilation. i talked abt it best in this post so i'll link it

Bonding by Maggie Siebert is a great short story horror collection as well, the horror feels like aching and emotionally palpable in it, very well done one of my fav horror books ive read so far.

These next two things are about more abstract writing so dont expect completely clear narratives -w- but I read Amygdalatropolis by B.R. Yeager and i SUPER loved it but i might have to reread it a couple of times to get the hang of it. his newer book Negative Space has good reviews so i'll check it out soon but thats more of a grounded narrative, Amygdalatropolis juggles surrealist imagery, forum text, symbolic elements in a truly hypnotic way.

Umm finally i have been really into books of poetry by Sam Pink lately :)! theyre rather short and like some are more story-related but theyre absurdist and really like, good and resonating in a personal way, i really super enjoy it, i read You Hear Ambulance Sounds And Think They Are For You and a bit of Person and i like them a lot :)

[markets]

ok timeline is essentially a really good friend group with some people i’ve been close friends with for ages and others ive always liked forms at school -> we get super close and make plans to go to a concert in september together -> ummm relationship drama between me and my ex girlfriend i broke up with Aka my best friend Aka in the group -> pretty much all my friends side with her without asking me abt what happens but i don’t fully realize this UNTIL… -> …summer hits and they immediately ditch me And i’m depressed staring at the wall the wholeee time -> i start hanging out more with other people during this time and no longer sit with the other group at lunch or even in class which is a big change from being joined at the hip all of last year. but umm i forgot about the concert until one of them texted me the other day and i was like “i’d have to ask my parents but i’d love to!” since i didn’t know what i should do yet i was heavily considering lying abt my parents not letting me just to avoid any awkwardness UNTIL friday i ran into the guy and he was like “hey angie do you know if you can go to the concert?” and i was like “i’d love to i just have to ask my parents and i want to wait until later this week bc i think it would be best, when r u going to buy the tickets?” and he said something like “oh don’t worry i already bought the tickets just let me know what they say if you can’t go it’s fine bc i have other people who want to go so” the first part is blurry but he definitely said the last part and in a tone that makes me think he’d rather those other people go but can’t just uninvite me bc we agreed on it months ago. so now i’m DEFINITELY going maybe that is not very nice But idc Idc u didn’t invite me to shit alllllll summer after we had promised to go partying every weekend and have picnics and then you’d just post it on stupid snapchat like hello. Prepared to create a toxic and unwelcoming environment in the [REDACTED] pit. Im like the joker i thrive off of hatred and negativity🙌

[t4tbruharvey]

clarvey :)

heh heh can't wait to headcanon things for this extremely popular ship with plenty of canon content to base it off of

who hogs the duvet: harvey <3 clark's not going to stop him when it starts and also what if clark has to go do superman stuff at night :'( if he has the duvet harvey will be cold :'(

who texts/rings to check how their day is going: clark he's a njb

who’s the most creative when it comes to gifts: hhh probably clark?? it's going to become apparent that for a lot of these i'm saying 'clark, as a substitute for emotional intimacy'

who gets up first in the morning: clark, he does not sleep as far as i remember. but also if not then harvey he's uh. he's THAT girl

who suggests new things in bed: HALLIE. hallie have they. did they. oh god....

who cries at movies: UHM well. genuinely if i'm playing this dead serious and taking the context of how they've acted in this relationship thus far in writing it? harvey

who gives unprompted massages: i dont wanna think too hard abt that one. clark

who fusses over the other when they’re sick: clark??? clark would have to he doesnt get sick??? clark by default???

who gets jealous easiest: harveyyyy he goes on that paranoid spiral when he's being FUCKING LIED TO to be fair! but like it's in character for him to be jealous

who has the most embarrassing taste in music: clark. taylor swift fan

who collects something unusual: UHHHH UMMM UHM UH harvey i thiiiiiink he has the natural tendency to do that. dont ask me what he collects he just would i think

who takes the longest to get ready: harvey because clark has superspeed

who is the most tidy and organised: hm. deliberates. clark but JUST

who gets most excited about the holidays: CLARK DEFINITELY like omg omg the holidays are so fun for him he's going to do so many fun and interesting things and now he gets to take a BOYFRIEND with him to holiday events and harvey is like. enjoying himself but mostly because clark is

who is the big spoon/little spoon: clark big spoon!!!! as if he'd allow himself to be held!!!! he's putting himself in a protective position because he can't be emotionally vulnerable but he can be steady and reassuring!!!!

who gets most competitive when playing games and/or sports: CLARK he grew up on a farm and harvey isn't a sports dude

who starts the most arguments: h. harvey. in his defence 1) it's his job 2) he spends a good portion of clarvey being lied to

who suggests that they buy a pet: clark he's an animals guy! had they lasted long enough they would have gotten a dog!

what couple traditions they have: hating batman <3 no uhhh umm yeah no that's all i got

what tv shows they watch together: it's in times like these i wish i'd read hallie's post. i dunno man. new girl

what other couple they hang out with: bruce and ms vale but it's not hanging out it's bruce trying to break them up disguised as a double date and clark would have to take bruce aside and go what the fuck are you doing

how they spend time together as a couple: probably showing each other their respective hometowns and what they love about them and then like going to museums or something and THEN lying to his boyfriend/being lied to by his boyfriend

who made the first move: clark :-) he was just SO cool and suave in that interview totally 100%

who brings flowers home: uhhh gut says harvey on this one actually he would do that i know it to be true. in my heart

who is the best cook: hm. probably clark? truly don't know but just know i hold it in my heart that harvey IS good at cooking. clark is just probably better

[lunaflvms]

Hello Luna😋 I hope ur not at school rn, or sleeping😓. Thank you for defending me from that ugly anon hating🤬💢. Anyways, how was ur day today? I need some advice from you again. So, my friend, well best friend. Her name is Khloe, and um... we text each other through email bc I got my phone taken away so I like text her through my school computers email✨. Ummm so like we haven't been talking a lot, because I've been very busy with school. I tried emailing her like 2 days ago, but my email stopped working for some reason, and always glitches. So I can barely send her a "hi" message that takes like 10 mins just to send or load in. I feel like she thinks I think shes annoying or dont wanna talk to her anymore bc she said it before, but i really do bc she makes me happy and was like always there for me so yea. But I tried telling her it was my email but I couldn't really explain it well bc my email stopped working and like froze so um🙁. But I really wanna talk to her still bc we've been friends for a long time like 8 months I think or 9 idk. I've been thinking about giving her my tumblr, so we can talk easily. But I am scared she will judge me on what I post and how I act and stuff so like umm.... I just need advice if I should message her on tumblr or just struggle with emailing her still🥰🤞.

- lover anon🦸‍♀️

hello lover anon 😍😍 im not at school 😍 cuz its the weekends now but helpp im suppose to be asleep cuz its 4 am rn 🤓 and no problem :)) my day was ok so far help its only the start but i was watching i-land so that was fun also i forgot to ask but what groups do u stan? and ofc!! honestly well since youve been friends with her for a while i mean you could give her ur tumblr so its easier for u to text her or im not sure if u guys have in person school yet but u could tell her then at school? and she would probably understand but im glad u have someones thats there for u :) and if she ever judges you then 🙁 help i just woke up i fell asleep before posting💀

[wsgeon]

hey everyone! ummm this is peyton (also the mun of lee hyeon) taking a second shot at a second character — i have a lot of muse for this one, so i swear he’ll be around for a while… 🥵 this is ryu geon, yes his name rhymes with hyeon’s & no i do not care ♥️ he’s the lead guitarist/vocalist of meta and also the son of a former nobody rockstar, but i’ll get into all that below! like this post if you’d like for me to come into your ims to plot, click the read more for more info on geon, and/or click here to be taken to his pages: CAREER, DOSSIER, PINTEREST.

HISTORY.

born in autumn ‘97 to a “budding rockstar” (translation: “no yeah i swear our band’s really starting to take off, we sold twenty-three tickets to our last show!”) & a woman with commitment issues ♥️ geon’s dad always told him that his mom left because she had some dire matters that needed to be taken care of and SWORE that she cried the last time she held her dear baby boy, but all of his dad’s bandmates say that she was just some groupie and had to be persuaded into carrying her child to term… who can say for sure?

naturally, there are no pictures of this mystery woman. there was one (1) of her holding infant geon, but then he found out that that was actually a sound tech who worked for his dad’s band… and he just never corrected geon’s assumptions LOLLLL

anyway! he was always really close to his dad, considering they were a two-person family. he has a set of grandparents, an aunt and a couple cousins but they were never involved with geon’s life because his dad is the #blacksheep of the family. geon and his dad against the world, am i right?

uhhh geon was also kind of a black sheep growing up, but he didn’t really notice? he was a happy kid, very energetic and enthusiastic. a lot of adults in the area looked down on him & his dad, but he was SOOOO blind to it because his dad’s a god in his eyes and HE’S always been nice to everyone, so why would they not like him??? because his clothes smelled a little like dad’s cigarette smoke??? big deal

wasn’t troublesome (beyond talking too much), but a lot of people still expected bad things from him :/ “his father’s a dirtbag, i’ll be surprised if that boy doesn’t end up in jail by 20”, “he won’t amount to anything without a proper role model in his life”, “his dad is teaching him how to slack off”, “he won’t contribute anything to society”, etc. he kindaaa picked up on this as he got older but pretended not to because it was more rewarding to play dumb and keep being a good kid(tm) to prove them wrong

was basically a mini version of his dad. same style, similar features, birthmarks in the same places, same “live today, die tomorrow” approach in life, same affinity for singing & playing rock music. ummm he loved his dad a lot. a lot. a lot. wanted to make him proud SO BAD, started his first band when he was 15 and they sucked so bad but his dad was their biggest fan… you know how it is. a lot of people misunderstood him, but he was a very good guy and such a great parent

TW DEATH unfortunately he passed away just shy of geon’s 18th birthday and your boy still hasn’t forgiven the world for taking his dad when he was in the middle of his angsty teen phase — had he known that their time together was dwindling, he would’ve been so so so much better to him END TW

his dad’s band actually rocketed into the charts after he passed & suddenly they were getting loads of publicity, lots of “what a shame that he went under-appreciated” which pissed geon off SOOOO bad because why couldn’t they have had that energy when he was still alive? he’s still mad about it five/six years later

this is getting kinda long, so uhhh tl;dr, he ended up staying with the drummer of his dad’s band until he was old enough to live alone/READY to live alone, but he changed quite a bit. was really going through it, quit his band, stopped putting effort into school. barely graduated. went from being a social butterfly spending every weekend at a gig or with friends to spending all of his time on a pc or in front of a tv, playing console games. the internet comforted him when nobody else would/could and then he met the future members of meta <33333333 #newbeginnings

present day geon is still struggling, has to go to counseling bi-weekly but he’s coming back out of his shell! he wants to fall in love with life again, just wants to tread carefully... outgoing & will talk to absolutely anyone, but he still spends most of his time alone. hard to reach by text, so if you wanna talk to him, you better call/facetime LMAO. talks a mile a minute, especially if you get him going abt something he really likes. laughs a lot, smiles a lot, more habitual than actual signs of happiness but yk. ummm he has a really loud voice, mostly controlled nowadays but he still gets carried away sometimes. an absolute menace during long drives/flights, sorry meta.

funny but only when he’s in large groups. feeds off of other peoples’ energy, really good at reading a room and breaking the ice/making everyone comfortable, but if you meet him 1-on-1, none of his jokes land quite the same.

i envision him as being the kind of guy who carries himself in such a way that you’d assume he’s really popular/out of reach/maybe even full of himself, but he’s... not like that... at all... in fact, he’s kinda irritating when you get to know him. the personification of a flood followed by a drought and vice versa, always either too much or not enough. gets used/ghosted/dropped/dumped/whatever a lot because he’s soooo fun in the moment (if he isn’t in his feelings), but draining long-term.

really emotionally intelligent, in touch with his feelings in a way that a lot of people never thought he would be (probably thanks to counseling tbh). he’s very very rarely the type of person who will make you wonder what your place in his life is — he’s communicative, kind, honest. ummm he thinks that intimacy between friends needs to be more common, so he’s really affectionate with the people in his life. type of guy to tell you he loves you every chance he gets (calling you when he’s drunk, sounding like a clingy ex type beat) & greet you/depart with a hug. losing his dad kinda fucked him up in the way that he won’t leave/hang up until his friends say “i love you” back, gets kinda (re: very) upset if he’s denied that and/or a hug.

TRIVIA.

has been playing the guitar “longer than he’s been walking” (not really, but he swears it’s true).

uhhh he really likes nail art, but he’s kinda hesitant in what he tries? mainly sticks to black polish (or other plain colors), but sometimes he’ll get little designs added in as well. mainly does it himself because he still doesn’t feel comfortable in salons... if his work looks bad, leave him alone <3 he’s trying

inspired by people like kurt cobain, nicky wire, yungblud, billie joe armstrong & damiano david in the fact that he’s not against wearing dresses or skirts on stage. doesn’t do it ALL the time, but often enough that it doesn’t go unnoticed. some people say that he does it for attention because he doesn’t dress like that elsewhere and tbh they’re probably kinda right

interested in history (only SOME... dinosaurs, ancient civilizations, specialized areas like the history of circuses/clowns/skateboarding/punk, stuff like that yk), stand-up comedy & documentaries. could spend a whole day watching documentaries and would say he had fun, has a lot of useless knowledge that nobody gives a fuck about and is kinda dumb when it comes to things that matter

when it comes to music, he prefers playing really fast and heavy rock or punk over anything else, but he actually listens to a lot more soft indie on his own time... he’s too tense these days to be listening to anything else RIPPP

the vibe: homemade tie-dye, ripped slipknot t-shirts, frosted tips, neon crocs with alien & peace-sign charms, chipped black nail polish, calloused hands, cheesy pick-up lines used NOT to land a date but to pull a smile, driving until he’s lost, stupid socks paired with pressed suits, dramatic poetry in an iphone note, etc. 

PLOT IDEAS.

people he met through online support groups about coping with grief

uhhh an on & off relationship that’s been going for who-knows-how-long. the reason for this is up for discussion, but i imagine that he hasn’t given up yet because the constant highs and lows are a good source of inspo 🤪 artists must suffer for their art!

opposite side of the coin — someone he’s interested in, but he’s NOT disloyal so it’s a pattern of persistent courting when he’s single vs intense friend-zoning when he’s not and they’re getting tired of trying to figure out what he wants from them

someone else who likes nail art & can convince him that NOBODY cares if he goes to a salon

someone (probably female but doesn’t really matter tbh) who feels like his feminism is entirely performative… maybe they attack him directly for it or maybe they just REALLY don’t like him and they’re super vague about it idk. either way, please tell him that activism is much more than recommending one female artist a year and saying “clothes have no gender 🤪” so he can be praised for the bare minimum (his heart is in the right place but his skull is empty)

someone super introverted who comes out of their shell with geon! uhhh maybe they think that he’s the one doing them a favor, but in reality spending time with them has been doing wonders for his mental health

other people who like to skate. let’s congregate at the local skatepark and scare the middle schoolers away

someone who inspires him musically, for whatever reason. lots of late nights in studios, idly strumming his guitar and writing lyrics that definitely aren’t about how their eyes look in these dim lights… umm maybe he thinks he has a crush on them but really doesn’t and ends up hurting them eventually, maybe he really DOES have a crush but will (probably) never do anything abt it or maybe it’s entirely platonic and he just admires them a ridiculous amount

someone who likes to make music as a hobby, prob won’t publish/release any of it but it’s fun to imagine. spontaneous meetings with geon in the middle of the night, recording songs together and keeping the WORST takes for the laughs. there’s probably a diss-track of them going in on each other floating around somewhere even though geon can’t rap for shit

night owls who keep him company on the phone, even if they can’t be there physically. them talking really quietly vs geon shouting at them while he plays games LMAO

gaming buddies. come over, maybe you can carry geon through his game of the week or you can both fail but have fun while you’re at it… or you can scream while he fends off that hoard of zombies behind you

i’m typing this at the last minute (literally) so i’m gonna stop here, but i will get a proper plots page put up asap with a wider variety of connections!!! but as always, please do let me know if you have any other ideas. i’m always happy to plot and write with you all 🌚

[mindninjax]

Marquie, I've been thinking about you a lot these days. So, there's a question I've been meaning to ask forever, if you feel like indulging me.

We all know Bakumarquie is canon, like no questions about that. BUT.

Do you have like, a canon Bakumarquie storyline, and all the other imagines/scenarios/etc that don't fit into it are just Bakumarquie AUs, or is it all a bunch of paralel equally canon Bakumarquie realities?

and if you do have one storyline to rule them all, which of your written works comes closer to it? :o

Hello sweet Tippy. I know I've sat on this for a while, my apologies. I will put all my selfshipping nonsense under a cut.

Ok ok so I suppose I have only two different Aus. Like I can picture how we meet if it’s the quirk au where he’s a hero and I can picture if it’s just a quirkless au.

I think it also depends on what I’m fantasizing about if that makes sense? Like if I’m in an ok mindset I’m usually fantasizing about us in a quirk au where he’s a hero because I know it’s his dream and all I want is for him to be happy. So in that one, I fantasize about being his support and his cheerleader and his comfort. In that one I don't really need him, it’s more focused on me being there for him? So all of the silly headcanons I post or anything like that where I'm talking about taking care of him, those are in that Au.

The fics closest to that Au are probs umm… Toy Box and Fleeting moment, Love Everlasting.

Toy Box more so for the vibes of the relationship. Like we’re not roommates who fall for each other in that Au per say, we’re more like ummm colleagues who run across each other a bunch in the field. Like I’m not a hero but I work with heroes a lot. And we run into each other a lot and at first I only get close to the people he’s close to and that’s how we start talking more. I headcanon him calling me one time during one of his missions because he needs a favor and I'm the first one he thinks of to help him out with it because I'm not connected to any hero agency. And then from there romance. And that playful “Oh he’s hot but a jerk but also I think i like him” energy that goes on in Toy Box lol.

But “fleeting moments” is absolutely 100% us when we have our first kid, straight up. So I hope y'all enjoyed reading about how he absolutely dicked me down in that fic bahahahahah. But the language in it, being his reassurance while also being his like, chill down to earth wife, who takes charge but still knows that he’s strong and will protect his family is exactly how I picture Bakumarquie as parents and stuff.

In the quirkless au, those are more so focused on when I’m fantasizing about needing comfort so that one is more simple. We met in college. We get paired up on a project in a general biology course and he’s at first irritated because he doesn’t like working with people but then he kidna figures out that I’m not an idiot and I'm really chill and I give him space but keep good communication. And then, like after the project we sit next to each other more in lecture, we text sometimes about homework questions or tough quiz questions and a friendship sparks from there and soon a relationship.

For this “Au” the fics that are closest to that au are umm… Spinning Cherries, Water Under the Bridge, So this is Love and Awake. Yes most of those don’t have smut in them but it’s because when I’m fantasizing about this specific au it’s all about being comfortable with each other and knowing one another and finding comfort in the mundane. And then through that Katsu reminding me that it’s ok to feel shit and that he’s there for me. Like he doesn’t baby me or coddle me or anything he just… is there and is himself and reminds me not to be stupid to myself while also still just like being his natural stubborn gruff self and I adore that. He doesn’t make me feel weak when I already feel weak for being vulnerable and sad.

However in both aus, I annoy the everliving shit out of him. All of the stupid shit I post about him being absolutely DONE with my shenanigans( like drunkenly crying over the fact that I can’t protect my cats while drunk, or commenting stupid shit under his posts, or calling him a whore bahaha) that doesn’t change in any au baybeeee. I live to make that man run his hand down his face in exaggerated frustration every moment of his life. I want him to laugh to himself and think “she’s a smiley dabbing idiot but she’s MY smiley dabbing idiot”

[dibs4ever]

Wrote a Fic as a little prequel to the Young Justice text post I made yesterday

”Wally” 14 year old Dick Grayson groaned as he slumped down on his friends couch.

16 year old Wally chuckled coming into the living room carrying a piping plate of Totinos pizza rolls his mother had prepared for him as an after school snack just before she left for work ”Whats troubling you birdie?” he asked flopping down on the couch and popping a pizza roll into his mouth

”Want one?” he mumbled, his mouth full of food

Dick shook his head ”I can't eat.”

Wally set the plate down on the coffee table ”Oh this is serious.”

”I think I have a crush.” he ran his fingers through his dark locks

The red head rose an eyebrow ”Thats your big delema? I have a new crush every week.”

Dick shook his head ”You don't understand, I can't have a crush on this girl.”

Wally grabbed another pizza roll, popping it in his mouth “Why not?”

Dick flopped back on the couch, staring at the ceiling “Cause she’s my best friend “

Wally thought for a moment “You have a crush on me?” He pointed to himself

“No!” Dick quickly rebutted

Wally shrugged “Well don’t have to get so offended by it. What’s wrong with me”

For the first time since he got there Dick chuckled lightly “Nothing, it’s just it’s not you. I did say she” he reminded

Wally smiled “Okay so who is it, if you consider her a best friend I’ve had to of met her before.”

Dick smiled “You’re getting warmer, you have “

“Describe her for me” Wally smirked

Dick sighed “She’s about 3 inches taller than me....for now, red head, bright green eyes, a smile that lights up the room.-“

“You sure it’s not me?” Wally asked

Dick shook his head “Shes tough ,strong willed, forward and doesn’t take no for an answer. She will make the first move and will tell you like it is. She’s incredibly smart and doesn’t let me get away with anything.” the 14 year old smiled blissfully

Wally thought. There was a long beat of silence. Dick took one of the pizza rolls. Taking a bite as Wally continued to think

“The commissioners daughter?” Wally asked

Slowly Dick nodded “Yeah...the commissioner’s daughter.....Barbara Keen Gordon. Known her since the day Bruce took me in. She was my first friend....my only friend for a long time. And now stupid hormones might ruin that.”

Wally shrugged “What if it’s not hormones. What if it’s true love.”

“It’s not true love.” Dick rolled his eyes

The 16 year old chuckled lightly “You sure about that, based on how you described her it sounds like it is.”

Dick shook his head “I’m just- gonna forget I ever felt anything -it probably has to do with the kiss”

Wally straightened “Wait-kiss?!”

Dick nodded “7 minutes in Heaven—I told her we didn’t have to do anything then she ummm grabbed me and Umm kissed me.”

Wally smirked “Was it your first kiss?”

Dick rolled his eyes “Yes.” He didn’t bother to look at his other best friend

“Awe” Wally gushed “And was it hers?”

Dick sighed “Yes.”

The red headed boy sat up “That right there is proof, that is too cute for you to just pass it as hormones.”

Dick took a breath “I just-I don’t wanna ruin anything ya know. She means so much to me and -“

Wally shrugged “Give it time but don’t give up on it. Think of love like one of Bruce’s fine wines. The longer you give it to grow, and sit the better it’ll be. The quicker you go at it the less tasty it’ll be.”

Dick turned to him “That meant absolutely no sense yet absolute total sense all at the same time. And you’re right. Thanks for the advice Wally”

Wally smiled “Anytime “

[our-time-is-now]

July 15, 2019: Cheers of joy and tears of happiness

(previous play)

You can find more information about the authors, translators, content warning and additional information about the plays in the pinned post on our blog.

Monday, 11:07 am:

WhatsApp Laura/Matteo:

Laura: Hey, everything okay with you guys? Could you maybe call me when my brother isn’t around? Love, Laura

Matteo: *he and David are sitting on the porch outside of the cabin because the others left to go shopping half an hour ago* *Alex and Mia are cleaning the kitchen after breakfast and Kiki and Carlos went for a swim* *looks over at David and sees that his eyes are closed* *wonders if he’s asleep when he feels his phone vibrate* *picks it up from the table and is a little surprised when he reads Laura’s message* *gets up and sees David open his eyes* Hey… I… I’ll just go to the tent real quick, I’m back in a minute. *sees David simply nod and close his eyes again* *quickly walks away from the cabin toward the tent and calls Laura once he’s sure that he can no longer be seen* *isn’t surprised when she picks up immediately* Hey… what’s up? Everything okay?

Laura: *is sitting at the kitchen table drinking coffee when her phone starts ringing* *is a little surprised that Matteo could get away this quickly and immediately picks up the call* *smiles when she hears his voice* Hey, it’s good to hear your voice. Yes, everything’s okay here in Berlin. And what about you? How are you guys? *plays with the letter addressed to David and is almost bursting with anticipation because she really wants to tell Matteo about it, but she also wants to know how they are doing*

Matteo: *has reached the tent and sits down on the grass in front of it* Likewise… everything’s good here, we’re fine… umm… but I didn’t have to get away from David just so you could ask me that, right?

Laura: *nods satisfied when she hears that everything’s okay* *then laughs at his suspicion and shakes her head* No, that’s not why you had to get away… *takes a deep breath and then says with a smile* A letter has arrived for David. From the hospital. My guess is that it’s maybe the date for his surgery. If that’s the case, then you’re probably going to want to celebrate tonight… and I thought that you might want to get some champagne or beer or something before I tell David about the letter… or do you think the idea is stupid?

Matteo: *hears her take a deep breath* *then hears her words but it takes a minute for him to really understand it* The date for the surgery? *notices a lump forming in his throat and gets up so that he can pace* That’s… wow… already? We thought that it would take months… whoa… that’s… *swallows* *then answers her question* And of course… there are some people out grocery shopping right now… I’ll text them… is it okay if I text you when they are back again and then you can call David?

Laura: *smiles when she realizes that Matteo is just as astonished as she felt when she took the letter out of the mailbox* Yes, I also assumed that it would take longer. But it might also be that the appointment isn’t until December or January, no idea. But the envelope is quite thick, so I guess that it includes all the forms that he has to send back again… *then smiles again when he likes her idea and nods* Okay, let’s do it like that. *would love to be there in person when she tells David the news, but can also imagine that he wants to know about it right now and not only when they get back from Heidesee* *quietly and still smiling says* I’m so happy for him! Once you’re back again the three of us definitely have to celebrate again!

Matteo: *swallows again and clears his throat* No matter when, it’s a date and then it’s a fixed thing and certain and… yeah… *nods to himself* We’ll do it like this… and of course, we’ll celebrate just the tree of us. Then we’ll make him lasagna! *has been pacing and is now coming to a halt in front of the tent* Okay, I’ll text you then… later! *waits for Laura to also say her goodbyes and then ends the call* *immediately opens his chat with Jonas*

WhatsApp Jonas/Matteo:

Matteo: Hey, Brudi? Are you still in the store? Could you maybe bring a bottle of champagne? Something nice, no idea, ask Hanna, I don’t really know much about that stuff…

Jonas: Of course. What for?

Matteo: Can’t tell you yet, and I can’t tell you when you come back, either, okay?

Jonas: Alright.

*impatiently waits for his answer and briefly considers also texting Hanna when he gets the answer* *puts the phone in his pocket and was just about to go back when he remembers that he needs something to explain why he went to the tent* *crawls inside and randomly picks the first thing that he reaches, which happens to be his slippers* *shrugs and then puts on the other shoes* *crawls outside again, closes the tent and goes back to the cabin*

David: *has spent the morning relaxing and has been sitting in front of the cabin with Matteo* *when the others came back from shopping, he had helped with unloading the stuff and carrying it to the cabin and putting everything away* *is sitting in front of the cabin with Hanna, Mia, Alex and Matteo and is listening to Hanna’s story about the cashiers at the store looking confused due to the amounts of things they bought when suddenly his phone vibrates in his pocket announcing an incoming call* *pulls it out and sees that it’s Laura* *is a little surprised that she’s calling at such an hour until he remembers that she has this week off work* *excuses himself from the others with a murmur* My sister, sorry… *accepts the call* Hey, na?

Laura: *tries her best to not sound excited when he answers* Hey, little brother, everything good with you guys? Can you talk right now or is it a bad moment right now?

David: *nods at Laura’s question* Yep, everything alright with us… *is a little surprised for a moment when she asks so specifically if he can talk and looks at the others* Umm… hang on… *gets up and moves a few steps toward the fireplace* *while he’s still walking says* Okay… now… what’s going on?

Laura: *waits while he moves a few steps away* *is twisting the letter in her hands in the meantime* Ummm, I’ve got a letter for you here… from the Helios clinic… I wanted to ask you if you want me to open it?

David: *has just reached the fireplace when Laura tells him that a letter has arrived for him* *then hears who it’s from and feels his heartbeat pick up* *takes a deep breath when he realizes that this could already be the date for the mastectomy and realizes how he’s getting a little dizzy* *sits down on one of the logs at the fireplace and takes another deep breath* *clears his throat and says a little vaguely* Ummm… yes? I think so… yes! Open it! *audibly exhales and closes his eyes* *somehow feels a little surreal right now* *tells himself not to get his hopes up too much – after all, it could just be some advertising or some other information*

Laura: *hears him take a deep breath and wishes again that she could be with him right now to give him a hug* *waits until he’s certain that he really wants it* *then opens the letter and pulls out several pages* *but only concentrates on the cover letter* Dear Mister Schreibner… bla bla… September 13th, David! September 13th this year! You still have to fill out a ton of forms and go to another examination before the surgery, but September 13th! *stops and waits for a moment* Are you still there? Everything okay?

David: *hears the rustle when Laura opens the letter and digs his fingernails into the log* *feels his heartbeat pick up even more when Laura starts reading him the letter* *listens to her but at first doesn’t really understand a word she’s saying and when she repeats September 13th three times, it still takes him a moment to really understand that he has a date* *just then feels a big lump in his throat and is flooded by relief, excitement, fear but most of all, happiness* *realizes only slowly that he now has a date for the day he’s been waiting for for years, that it’s only two months away, that he’ll never have to wear a binder again afterwards, that he won’t have to be ashamed of his chest anymore, and somehow still thinks this is really surreal* *realizes that he’s shaking only when he hears Laura’s voice again and nods in answer to her question* *then clears his throat but feels that the lump in his throat is only getting bigger* *says with a croaky voice* Yes… I… September 13th… *then laughs quietly and realizes that tears are welling up in his eyes, after all* *wipes them away and takes a deep breath* That’s only two months away… of course everything’s alright!

Laura: *listens to him and realizes that tears are welling up in her eyes, as well* Yes… in two months… *swallows hard* David… I’m so happy for you… I wish I was there right now to hug you… celebrate a little, ok? *hesitates briefly* If the whole group is too much for you, then just take Matteo and get away from them… but this is… just enjoy it, okay?

David: *feels a few more tears welling up when Laura says that she’s happy for him, wipes them away and nods at her suggestions* *with a shaky and husky voice says* Yes, I will… *then laughs quietly* You can hug me when I’m back home… thanks for calling. *hears her tell him that she’ll certainly do that and then says his goodbyes from her* *stares at his phone for a moment, and now that the conversation with Laura is over feels like he has only imagined all of that – that it couldn’t be true that he got an appointment this quickly and that he doesn’t have to wait for six but only two months for a date* *as if Laura knew about his doubts, he receives a photo of the letter via WhatsApp just at that moment* *zooms in with shaky hands and reads the letter again himself – and then again* *keeps thinking “finally” but can’t really believe it, yet* *then closes his eyes and laughs quietly* *but feels the tears welling up again while he laughs* *somehow can’t really calm his heart down, takes a few deep breaths and wipes the tears off* *then looks to the cabin, puts his phone back in his pocket and gets up* *wants to share this with Matteo now so that he can keep reminding him that it’s really true if he doesn’t really believe it himself* *feels his legs shaking when he makes his way back toward the cabin*

Matteo: *has been nervous since David went away with his phone* *was hoping that he’d stay in his line of vision, but also thinks that it might be a good thing that no one can see him yet* *isn’t listening to the others and has no clue what they are talking about* *checks the time and wonders if he maybe should go check on David* *but then sees him walking around the corner and jumps up so suddenly that it startles Alex, who’s sitting next to him* *doesn’t care about that right now* *goes towards David as quickly as he can* *tries to see in his face what mood he is in, if it really was the date and if it was, how he feels about it* *but isn’t really sure* *then spreads his arms a little as an offer when he arrives*

David: *sees Matteo walking toward him when he’s rounding the corner and isn’t even really surprised when he spreads his arms for a hug* *just quickens his steps while his heart is beating out of his chest and wraps his arms around Matteo once he reaches him* *buries his face in Matteo’s shoulder and wants to tell him about the news straight away, when suddenly new feelings are added to the ones he’s just been through, like the fact that Matteo is there, that he’ll go this journey with him and that he already went this journey with him up to this point, that he isn’t alone and that after the surgery it will be a little easier and more normal for them* *feels all of that together with the relief and happiness and can’t say a word* *instead feels the lump in his throat grow bigger again and feels a sob escape him and feels tears welling up once more* *squeezes Matteo close and hopes that his hands will stop shaking and that his heart will calm down somehow* *eventually murmurs against his shoulder, barely audible and with a fragile voice* I have a date for the surgery… *thinks that it sounds so incredibly surreal now that he says it for the first time and has to laugh and sob simultaneously* *tries to somehow calm himself down and to take a deep breath*

Matteo: *immediately wraps both of his arms tightly around David when he hugs him* *just keeps holding him* *then feels that he’s shaking and startles when he hears a sob* *runs his hand up and down his back* *then hears the words and automatically squeezes him a little closer* *swallows hard when he realizes that he’s also really emotional and quietly says* Congratulations… *but still feels like this was a stupid comment and couldn’t come even close to what he feels right now* *slightly pulls away from him so that he can look at him and so that David can see how happy he is for him* *puts one hand to his face and wipes a tear away with his thumb* We’re going to celebrate this now, okay? However you want to, with everyone, or only the two of us, we can get away… I made them get a bottle of champagne… whatever you want, ok?

David: *somehow hears Matteo congratulate him through his high and takes another deep breath when he feels Matteo pulling away from him a little* *has to smile when he sees that Matteo’s happy and swallows to finally make that lump in his throat disappear* *feels Matteo wiping his tears away and runs his own hand over his face again to make them disappear* *then nods when Matteo says that they are going to celebrate and is so excited that he doesn’t even wonder why Matteo has made them get a bottle of champagne* *can’t really think or make any decisions right now and therefore only nods at both his suggestion about celebrating with everyone and to his suggestion about celebrating alone and to get away* *laughs quietly once he realizes that and takes another deep breath* *clears his throat and says with a still shaky voice* I can’t really think right now… but celebrating sounds good. *then hears Hanna worriedly calling from the porch: “Hey, is everything okay with you guys? David?”* *wipes his eyes again and then looks over Matteo’s shoulder to the porch* *nods at Hanna and says* Yes, everything’s alright! *then looks back at Matteo, smiles and repeats again* I have a date for the surgery! September 13th! *is still shaking his head in disbelief and then kisses him briefly* *quietly says* I can’t believe it! You have to keep telling me that it’s really true, okay?

Matteo: *laughs slightly when David simply nods to every suggestion* Celebrating sounds very good! *then also hears Hanna calling behind him, but doesn’t turn around because he doesn’t want to let go of David* *beams at him when he tells him the date* Wow, this soon? God, that’s in two months! *kisses him back* *nods immediately* Of course, I’ll remind you gladly and constantly. September 13th! *kisses him again and then again* *then looks at him again* *tilts his head a little and smiles* Are you able to think again and decide if you want to tell it to the lot, or if you’d rather not?

David: *nods when Matteo asks him again about September 13th and says a little breathless* In two months! *returns Matteo’s kisses and wraps his arms around him again* *then also looks at him and smiles quietly when he mentions the lot* *briefly looks over to the cabin but then thinks that they will soon find out anyways and that they would otherwise ask themselves all day why Matteo and he have disappeared yet again* *takes Matteo’s hands and then decides* We’ll tell the lot… and tonight we’ll celebrate again just the two of us, okay? *then runs his hand over his face and through his hair again and hopes that it isn’t obvious that he had been crying* *holds onto Matteo’s hand a little tighter and then turns toward the cabin where Carlos and Abdi have now also joined Hanna, Mia and Alex* *while they walk he realizes that he’s still a little shaky and still has this feeling of incredulity in his head and stomach* *reaches the porch and can feel questioning looks on him* *first reaches for his half-full mug of coffee and takes a sip of cold coffee* *somehow needs this right now* *then hears Carlos: “Brudi, something’s wrong. You look upset…”* *looks at the others at first, but then looks down at the ground, after all, because it’s somehow weird to say it out loud in front of so many people* *takes another deep breath, and without letting go of Matteo’s hand says: “I have a date for my mastectomy…”*

Matteo: *holds his hand tightly and then nods* Tonight we’ll celebrate again, just the two of us. *then runs his free hand through his hair and says with a smile* You look good… *then goes to the cabin with him* *has to laugh when David first takes a sip of coffee while everyone is looking at him more or less questioningly* *then hears Carlos and looks at David* *wonders if he’ll really say it when he already does* *then it’s silent for a second before everyone starts cheering* *grins really wide* *then sees Jonas, Carlos and Abdi jump up to pull David into a group hug* *unfortunately has to let go of his hand* *hears Carlos yell the loudest: “Awesome! Finally, Brudi! That’s great!”* *sees Hanna smile at him, probably because he’s been sidelined a little* *but doesn’t mind, on the contrary, he thinks that David deserves all the cheers and hugs*

David: *carefully looks up when the others don’t say anything at first, but then already hears their cheers and has to laugh quietly when he finds himself in the middle of a group hug a moment later* *feels Abdi jumping up and down and hears Jonas say: “I’m happy for you, really awesome!” and feels him pat his shoulder while he says that* *eventually hears Mia: “Hello?!? There are other people who want to congratulate him, as well!” and feels the guys slowly letting go of him* *then gets a hug from Hanna first, who also congratulates him, and then from Mia, who first pats his shoulder but then hugs him, after all, and hears her say: “I didn’t know that you were planning this, but I’m still really happy for you!”* *smiles slightly and murmurs* Thanks! *then Alex is in front of him and he grins slightly when he holds his hand out for him and hears him say: “Congratulations!”* *reaches for the hand, but then gets pulled into a hug by Alex, as well* *doesn’t even get the chance to be surprised about it when he already lets go of him* *then looks around for Matteo, who has been sidelined a little by the others, and immediately pulls him closer again* *somehow needs him close right now* *then hears Abdi: “And how do you know that all of a sudden? Did the hospital call you or what?”* *shakes his head and tells them about the letter that Laura had read to him* *then hears Mia: “And when is the date?”* *grins slightly because he still can’t really believe it himself* September 13th! *then hears everyone cheer again because the date is so soon and pulls Matteo to their seats with a smirk* *is a little shaky and excited once again, or maybe still is, and reaches for his mug again* *then hears Jonas: “Yeah, I’d say we have to really celebrate this now, right!?”*

Matteo: *watches with a smile as everyone congratulates him* *but immediately goes back to David’s side when he pulls him closer* *loosely wraps his arm around his waist* *then they sit down again* *immediately nods at Jonas’ words* Definitely… did you put the champagne in the fridge? *sees Hanna jump up: “Yes, we did, I’ll go get it… and some glasses…”* *then hears Carlos again: “Woah, man, Brudi, September 13th is really soon… maybe we can even still go swimming afterwards.”* *slightly shakes his head* No, no, afterwards he first has to rest for 4-6 weeks… *sees Carlos grin: “Are you his guard-dog, then?”* *nods and only says* Yep.

David: *somehow realizes only now that Matteo had already mentioned champagne earlier and that he mentions it again now and is a little surprised about it* *was just about to ask him when Calos interrupts his thoughts* *then nods at Matteo’s words and laughs quietly when Matteo also confirms that he’s his guard-dog* *adds* Well, 4 to 6 weeks are recommended. I’m not allowed to lift anything heavy and not exert myself too much and stuff like that* *then hears Mia: “And how long will you have to stay in the hospital?”* *shrugs* If everything goes well then five to seven days… *sees her nod: “And after that bedrest? If you’ll recover at the flatshare, then I can already imagine that you won’t only have Matteo as your nurse but also Hans and Linn who won’t leave your side…”* *laughs quietly and shrugs* Then I really have to think about what I prefer: My sister and Matteo or Linn and Hans and Matteo… *then sees Hanna coming back with the champagne, followed by Amira, Sam and Kiki, who are carrying the glasses* *hears Kiki complain: “Hanna wouldn’t tell us what we’re celebrating!”*

Matteo: *listens to the conversation* *laughs when David says that then he has to think about where he’ll stay* As if Hans wouldn’t come visit… *then also sees Hanna coming back followed by the rest of the girls* *looks at David when he hears Kiki’s question, who nods briefly* David has his date for the surgery, for the mastectomy… *sees Kiki beam: “Oh, great, congratulations!”* *then hears Sam: “For his what?”* For his chest surgery… *then also hears Amira: “Yes, excellent. Congratulations from me, as well.”* *sees as everyone sits down and Hanna hand out the glasses* *lifts his glass together with the others* Well then… to David! *hears everyone join in happily “To David!”*

David: *laughs when Matteo says that Hans would come visit him* Ture… so basically it doesn’t matter… *thanks Kiki and Amira when they congratulate him and then accepts one of the glasses* *gets a little flustered when everyone’s toasting to him and quietly murmurs “thanks”* *then takes a sip and is quite glad when the friends start their own conversations, which are to some extent about his mastectomy, but it still means that he’s no longer in the spotlight* *uses this moment to turn towards Matteo and quietly ask* Champagne? *smiles slightly* Did you sense something or did my sister text you?

Matteo: *is quite glad when the others are talking amongst themselves and all of their attention isn’t on David* *looks at him when he turns toward him* *then grins slightly* Yeah, I’m clairvoyant, didn’t you know that? *then shakes his head* No, she texted me when the others were shopping, told me to call her when you’re not around. When I went to the tent earlier, you know? She only said that there was a letter for you from the hospital and that she thinks it could be the date, so I texted Jonas… *tilts his head a little* That was okay, right?

David: *gives Matteo the secretary’s-office-look when he says that he’s clairvoyant* *then listens to him when he talks and grins slightly because he somehow finds it cute that Laura and Matteo had already planned in advance that they would probably celebrate* *nods at Matteo’s question* Yes, that was okay… *leans forward and presses a tender kiss to his mouth* *murmurs* Thanks… *then hears Abdi through the murmuring of the others “Hey, Brudis, we’re having a little argument right now… so what is it? Aren’t you allowed to have sex for six weeks, either?”* *is still looking at Matteo instead of Abdi, raises his eyebrows a little and grins* *then quietly murmurs to Matteo* Your question!

Matteo: *grins slightly when he gets the secretary’s-office-look* *is a little relieved when he says that it was okay* Well that’s good then… *kisses him back with a smile* You’re welcome… *then looks at Abdi when he interrupts them* *slightly draws up his eyebrows* *looks back at David and shakes his head when he says that it’s his question* *murmurs* You can’t be serious… *then turns back to Abdi* He isn’t allowed to exert himself, so yes… no physical exertion for 6 weeks… *sees Jonas smirk a little and hears him say: “Hey, Luigi, don’t take it personal if I stop contacting you after 2-3 weeks…”* *is a little confused and even more so when Carlos laughs and nods* Huh? Why that? *hears Carlos laugh even more: “Oh, boy, you’ve never had sex withdrawal, huh? Once you’ve reached the second week you’ll know what we mean.”*

David: *only keeps grinning when Matteo doesn’t want to answer Abdi’s question, either, and pats his shoulder in encouragement* *then reaches for his champagne glass and takes another sip* *follows the guys’ conversation slightly amused and wonders when he’ll get frustrated about the fact that they can’t have sex or if he’ll really be in pain for so long that he doesn’t even want to have sex* *then shakes his head and says quite optimistically* We can do this… *then hears Mia: “You’re really acting like horny teenagers. I guess they both know what they are foregoing sex for and that it’s worth it if David feels more comfortable in his body afterwards!”* *throws her a grateful look and nods* *then hears Sam laugh: “Hey, guys, you usually show so much solidarity with them… how about you also try to go without sex for six weeks?!”* *sees Jonas and Carlos looking at each other in shock, then sees them laugh and shake their heads* *hears Carlos: “Never!” and Hanna: “Well, if you guys won’t show solidarity, then maybe we’ll do that this time. What do you think, Kiki?”* *sees Kiki laugh and shrug, as well: “Would be an idea…”* *laughs and shakes his head* We would never ask that of you!

Matteo: *looks at Carlos a little reproachfully* *thinks that David’s health definitely has to come first* Of course we’ll manage that! *then listens to Mia and nods enthusiastically* Exactly… the main thing is that David recuperates quickly. *has to grin when he hears Sam’s suggestion and even more so at Carlos’ reaction* *but then hears Hanna and Kiki, who are serious about it* Don’t do that, please… they would never forgive us for that… *hears Hanna laugh: “Okay, okay…” and Kiki add: “Could also get quite exhausting, 4 guys on sex withdrawal.”* *only laughs and shakes his head* But it’s not always just about sex, right? *sees Mia grin and nod at him*

David: *smiles when Matteo confirms that they can do it and laughs when Kiki says that it could get exhausting with four guys on sex withdrawal* *but somehow likes the thought that the others sympathize with them and that Kiki wouldn’t only find Carlos exhausting but all of them* *nods at Matteo’s words and thinks that it’s about something much more important than sex right now* *at that moment feels this unreal feeling again and can’t really believe again that he really has a date, that they are sitting here talking about what it will be like afterwards – and that “afterwards” is now a fixed date and not something in an intangible future* *briefly feels a lump in his throat again and takes Matteo’s hand* *then hears Hanna: “Where will the surgery take place? Can we come visit you afterwards?”* *clears his throat to make the lump disappear and then nods* At the Helios Clinic in Zehlendorf and yes you can… once I can move again… *grins slightly*

Matteo: *grins slightly when Carlos whispers thanks to him when Kiki is takes the sex withdrawal she threatened them with back, after all* *then feels David’s hand in his and squeezes it slightly* *looks over at him and smiles slightly* *was just about to lean over to whisper to him that it really is true when he already hears Hanna’s question* *then hears Kiki ask: “And before that you don’t want to see anyone? We’ll also come visit you if you can’t move.”* *only sees David shake his head a little* Maybe you’ll just wait a few days and then we’ll see how he feels, ok? *sees Kiki nod: “Okay. But you’ll be there, or what?”* *looks at her as if she had just asked him if the sky was blue and hears Hanna laugh: “I want to see the person who could manage to keep Matteo away from the hospital.”*

David: *shakes his head at Kiki’s question* *knows that it will probably be hard enough to be weak and in need of help even in Laura and Matteo’s presence and doesn’t really want others to see him like that* *grins slightly at Kiki’s question and even more at Hanna’s words* *briefly squeezes Matteo’s hand and murmurs* That’s different… I think we’re both just doing better when he’s there… *then hears Mia sigh: “Oh, man, I would also love to visit you… but that’s probably going to be a little difficult from Madrid…” and hears Alex tell her: “We’ll just do a video chat when I visit David – then you can still be there live…”* *smiles and thinks that it’s somehow adorable that they are all already worrying about that* *but laughs quietly* I don’t think you’ll miss much, Mia… *then hears Abdi: “Hey, how does that even work? When are you allowed to take off the bandages and such? And will you show us the result or are we only going to find out next summer when we’re swimming?”* *briefly exhales and shrugs* No idea… I don’t think that the bandages will have to stay on for thaaat long – but afterwards I have to put bandaids on it, which have to stay there for a little longer… and it will take a few months until everything is completely healed… *sees Abdi gape at him: “Months?!?!”* *laughs and nods* *hears Abdi ask again: “Sick dude, but why does it take thaaat long?!”* *looks at the group with raised eyebrows* Do you really want to hear the details about the surgery? *sees some of them nod, some of them shrug and others shake their heads* *then hears Jonas: “I did some research on it. There are also different surgery methods for a mastectomy. Large and small incisions and even with those there can be differences. I’d suggest if someone is interested, then they should just google a little…”*

Matteo: *smiles when everyone is making plans to visit David and when Alex is even planning a video chat for Mia* *once again finds it really incredible how quickly David has managed to sneak into their friend’s hearts* *then hears Abdi’s questions and immediately looks at David a little worried, but he answers his question without a problem* *then hears him say “months” and suddenly gets worried* *had been aware of this, but he suddenly realizes that it’s getting real, that David will really have this surgery and that there really is a lot that could go wrong, or that the healing process could take forever, or that the scars could get infected or, or, or…* *hears David’s question and really hopes that they don’t want to hear it* *can’t listen to any details right now* *presses his lips together at Jonas’ answer and stares at the table* *hopes that this is the end to that matter* *but then hears Abdi: “And what things could go wrong?”* *feels his ears start to ring and that he really can’t do this right now* *says really constrained and brief* Enough! *sees Jonas looking at him and hears him immediately help him out: “By the way, who’s in charge of lunch today? I could really eat…”*

David: *nods at Jonas’ answer and is actually quite glad that he doesn’t have to go into detail* *then hears Abdi’s question and slightly shakes his head because he doesn’t really want to think about that now, and because the probability of something going wrong is really low* *then hears Matteo’s answer and his constrained tone of voice and looks over at him worriedly* *knows that he worries about this a lot and that he’s scared and that he wants to protect him but that he can’t do this in this case* *hears Jonas’ distraction and hears Abdi and Carlos groan because they and Amira are in charge of lunch and can hear the scraping of chairs and other conversations starting up in the background* *turns on his chair to face Matteo and puts his hand on his cheek* *looks at him worried and quietly but determinately says* But nothing will go wrong, you hear?

Matteo: *is aware of people getting up and starting to go to the kitchen* *isn’t aware of Alex looking over at them* *is still staring at the tabletop until David turns around to him* *then looks at him* *doesn’t want him to worry because of him just because he’s gone into panic mode again* *smiles slightly* I know that… *then sees his look and swallows slightly because he knows that he can’t really fool him* I’m just worried… you never know… right?

David: *shakes his head slightly when Matteo says that he knows it, because he knows that it won’t really make it better and because he can’t take Matteo’s worries off his chest* *is a little annoyed at himself that he said it so offhandedly and wonders what else he could have said and whether it might help Matteo to really talk about the risks in detail* *thinks amidst all the others isn’t the right place for that, but that they could really talk about it some other time* *nods when he says that he’s worried and quietly says* And that’s okay. You’re allowed to worry… *then nods again when he says that you never know and thinks about what he could say* *takes a deep breath and says* Okay, even if something did go wrong – and we’re not talking about the worst case right now – I’ll get back on my feet, you hear?! *smiles slightly* Then I’ll just stay in the hospital a little longer, or it takes a little more time to heal or something like that… but that’s okay. I’m not really knocked off my feet that easily. And you’re there for me, I know that, and that gives me strength. *leans forward and kisses him tenderly* *then looks at him again and quietly says* We’ll get through this together, okay? I’m there for you when you’re scared and you’re there for me when I’m in pain, okay?

Matteo: *nods slightly when he says that he’s allowed to worry* *thinks that he can’t turn it off, anyways* *then listens to him and presses his lips together when he mentions what would happen if something went wrong* *nods slowly when he realizes that he’s right* *still doesn’t want for David to not be okay and hates that this is beyond his power* *lightly kisses him back and puts his hand on his cheek* *quietly says* Okay… *looks at him* I want you to tell me, okay? If something’s wrong… if you’re in pain… don’t play the tough guy for me, ok? And if I can do something, now matter what, then I want you to tell me, okay?

David: *smiles when Matteo agrees and once again feels so much love for this person in front of him, and feels this incredible feeling that they’re really together and that Matteo belongs to him* *then listens to him and reaches for the hand on his cheek* *knows that it’s difficult for him to ask for help and to show weakness but thinks that at least showing his weakness in front of Matteo has already gotten easier* *smiles again slightly and nods* Okay… I’ll try! Really. You know that this is difficult for me, but I promise that I’ll try, okay? *then pulls him into a tight hug and grumbles in pleasure* *murmurs* 3 months from now all of this will be behind us…

Matteo: *smiles slightly at his answer and nods* I know… and you know that I will still be asking all the time… then you’ll have to tell me to shut up… *wraps his arms around him and buries his face in his neck* *murmurs back* Or in 4 months… *grins slightly against his neck and kisses him*

David: *shakes his head when he hears Matteo’s words but then nods and laughs quietly* We’ll see… *also nods about the 4 months and adds* Doesn’t matter… everything will be all right again by the time it’s Christmas at the latest! *slowly lets go of him again and reaches for his glass of champagne* *holds it out to Matteo* To the time after surgery? *grins slightly* *then hears a phone ringing and looks around* *sees Mia grab her phone, sees her grin and hold it out to them when she realizes he and Matteo are looking over at her* *sees Hans’ face on the display and grins as well* *then hears Mia: “He really seems to miss us – even a video call…”* *sees her accept it and hears her say: “Hey, Hans!”* *immediately hears Hans’ voice: “You guys don’t even miss me! You’re all traitorous tomatoes! Linn is at her parents’ and the three of you are hanging around some lakes and none of you is thinking about the fact that I exist, too, and that I’m sitting here alone in an empty apartment – oh – you’ve gotten some tan, Mia honey! Suits you!”*

Matteo: *nods again* Yes, byl Christmas everything will be okay again! *then leans back in his chair again, as well* *reaches for his glass and clinks it with David’s* To the time after the surgery… *takes a sip and puts the glass back down* Actually, I don’t really like champagne… *then looks over at Mia when Hans is calling* *has to laugh at his words and yells* Hans, we miss you every day! *sees Mia turn her phone around and he and David wave into the camera* *sees Alex get up and go inside* *sees Mia turn her phone back again and hears her talking to Hans: “Hans, you do know that we miss you… all the time… we’re back again, soon, all of us!”*

David: *laughs when Matteo says that he actually doesn’t like champagne* Me neither… Next time, we’ll get something else to toast with! *then has to grin when he hears Hans’ voice and realizes in that moment that he also misses him a little* *is also happy about the fact that Hans misses all three of them and that he says it so matter-of-factly as if David were one of his roommates* *also waves at the phone when Mia turns it around to them and hears Hans interrupt her when she turns the phone back toward her: “Was that Alex? Alex honey! I miss you, as well! Don’t go away!” and hears Mia answer: “Too late!” and Hans respond: “I hope he’s not offended that I forgot to mention him. He’s always so quiet and calm that you barely notice him.”* *then hears him sigh: “So, back to the topic: All of you miss me very much, that’s nice! When will you be back again?” and hears Mia answer: “Sunday! We won’t be gone for much longer, honey!” and Hans again: “Oh, hopefully I’ll survive until then. Luckily Linn will probably be back already on Friday. Oh, do you know what, my darlings?! I’ll cook something nice for us! And then we’ll celebrate your return! Alex can also come. And David is already half living here, anyways… and maybe I’ll also invite Michi – he also misses you guys!”* *sees Mia draw up her eyebrows: “Michi is a thing again!”* *looks at Matteo questioningly* Who’s Michi?

Matteo: *has to smile automatically when he listens to Hans’ and Mia’s conversation and realizes that he really misses Hans, as well* *laughs when he mentions Alex and interrupts* David and Alex are best friends now! *looks at Mia in surprise when Hans mentions Michi* *then turns to David when he asks* Michi and Hans had a thing, or they were a couple, but not really, I don’t really know the details, either, but that was half a year or so ago? *then hears Hans tell Mia: “Yes, I met Michi again… accidentally… or fate? Who even knows that for sure! Just imagine, he was standing in line behind me at the bakery and well, you know how that goes, Mia honey, then one word led to the next and since I have the apartment all to myself…”* *sees Mia smile: “I’m happy for you, Hans. That’s nice.”*

David: *nudges Matteo in his side when he yells that Alex and he are best friends now* We’re not! We’re just working on our deeper bond! *grins broadly because he actually thinks it’s really stupid to plan such things* *then listens to Matteo when he tells him about Michi and nods* *doesn’t know if he can really imagine Hans in a committed relationship but is a little curious to meet Michi* *then keeps listening to Hans when he tells Mia: “Don’t be happy just yet. He’s playing boomerang again, but I’m scared about the fact that I’m not as scared about this as I used to be… very scary, all of that… I’m actually way too young to commit… but let’s wait and see… back to you guys: What are you doing all day? How are my butterflies doing? Did you already… whoa… are you guys having champagne!? In the middle of the day!? Without me?”* *hears Mia laugh: “It’s an exception. We have something to celebrate… but hang on, I’ll hand you over to your butterflies – they can tell you all about it…”* *sees Mia get up and hand him her phone* *takes it and then leans his back against Matteo’s chest so that they can both be seen better* *grins at Hans* Hey… *sees Hans beam at them: “Oh, my butterflies! How good to see you! Do you miss your guru?!”* *laughs and nods* Yes, very much! *then hears Hans again: “I wasn’t expecting anything else! But now don’t keep me in suspense any longer! What are you celebrating? Should I also get some champagne to toast with you guys?!”* *sees that he’s already on his way to the kitchen and hears him open the fridge* *laughs again quietly and then says* Ummm… I don’t know, yes, maybe… *then takes a deep breath and says* I have the date for my mastectomy!

Matteo: *grins as he listens to Hans* *can’t really imagine Hans in a committed relationship, either, but thinks that a quiet guy like Michi might do him some good* *then grins into the phone when Mia hands it to David* Hello guru! *only grins and looks at David when he tells him what they’re celebrating* *then sees Hans cheer really loudly, really loudly: “Oh, how great! Oh, my butterfly-boyfriend, that is great news! Hang on, I’ll open the champagne!”* *sees that he puts them aside and can now only see the kitchen ceiling, then hears a pop and something being poured and then sees Hans again, holding a glass of champagne: “Cheers, cheers, my lovelies, to you, David! When is the date? Do you want me to take the day off? You’ll come here afterwards, right? I know, I know, your sister will probably want you with her, but she can also just come over here and then we’ll all make sure that you’re feeling good, okay?”*

David: *flinches slightly when Hans cheers so loudly and laughs when he puts the phone aside* *twists around for a moment to press a kiss to Matteo’s cheek while they wait* *then sees Hans with the glass of champagne and then picks up his own again, after all, to toast with Hans* *then takes a sip and almost chokes due to the flood of things Hans is saying* *grins really broadly and waits until he’s finished* Umm… the date’s September 13th. *gets interrupted: “In two months already?! Woooahhh! I’m so happy! So fast!”* *nods and quickly continues before Hans can* And no, you don’t have to take a day off. Matteo’s there… *then remembers that Matteo’s voluntary year will already have started by then and that he doesn’t really know if it will really be possible for Matteo to be there, but quickly suppresses that thought again and continues* And it’s really super nice that all of you want to take care of me, but I don’t really have a plan for afterwards. I just learned of the date. I still can’t really believe it. Somehow, I first have to realize it for myself that it’s really happening… and then I will start making plans about where I’ll spend the time after the hospital, okay? *sees Hans nod: “Yes, sure – you first have to really understand it… oh man… it’s probably still really unreal to you. I get it. You’re waiting for this day for so long and then it’s happening… Oh, David, can I tell Linn? I’m sure she’ll cry from happiness! Or do you want to tell her yourself?”* *shakes his head* No, tell her, no problem… *is usually a little out of his depths when Linn reacts emotional*

Matteo: *grins even more when Hans is so happy and when he immediately starts to make plans and is simply being awesome* *is once again really happy that it’s really a fact that David now has an entire group of people behind him who are happy for him and who worry about him* *then nods* Yes, exactly, Matteo’s there! *smiles when Hans asks if he can tell Linn and when David tells him that he can* Say hi to Linn from us, ok? And tell her we’re also looking forward to seeing her again on Sunday. *sees Hans nod: “Will do, she’ll be back on Friday, but I’ll call her right now… Have a nice one, my butterflies and keep celebrating!”* *waves into the phone and then sees David putting it aside because Mia has already gone inside* *grins at David* Oh yeah, our Hans…

David: *also says his goodbyes to Hans and then puts Mia’s phone down on the table* *then grins at Matteo, nods and repeats* Our Hans… you immediately look forward to coming back to the flatshare again a little more after that… *then gets more serious, briefly looks at the table and then at Matteo* *hesitates and then says* Your voluntary year will already have started on September 13th… I don’t think that you can already take a day off then. I’ll just have to see… maybe I’ll ask Laura if she’ll come with me… or if she’ll at least be there when I wake up. And you’ll just come by right after you’ve finished work or something like that…? *actually doesn’t really like that thought, because he had expected and been happy about the fact that Matteo would be with him, but thinks that they will probably just have to suck it up*

Matteo: *grins and nods* Yes, that’s somehow true… who would have thought? *looks worried when David gets more serious and then listens to him* *didn’t really think about that* *but still shakes his head* No way… I’ll definitely take the day off… and if they won’t let me, then I’ll just call in sick that day. *shakes his head when David opens his mouth* No objection. Besides, if it will work out at Lambda, then they’ll definitely understand the situation.

David: *smiles slightly when Matteo immediately shakes his head* *briefly thinks that he can’t do this and opens his mouth to object when Matteo already continues* *laughs quietly when Matteo knows exactly that he wanted to object, but then sighs and nods* Okay… let’s just wait and see. Maybe they’ll understand and you can have the day off. But if not… then I’ll somehow manage on my own, okay? I mean, it’s really important for me that you come along, but you and your voluntary year are also important! *thinks that they’re somehow back to the old issue and somehow won’t be able to agree and therefore quickly adds* But let’s just wait and see how your interview goes and then we’ll see, okay? *then hears Kiki yelling from the kitchen: “Can someone start setting the table?”*

Matteo: *listens to him and also has to grin when he realizes that that’s somehow that old argument again* *therefore nods* Okay, let’s wait and see… *leans forward and kisses him* *but then murmurs* I’m sure I’ll get the day off… *then hears Kiki and gets up* Guess that was our cue. *yells back* We’re coming!

David: *spends the rest of the day in the company of the others, where they all go swimming again in the afternoon and use the raft again and just rampage around* *remembers every once in a while that he now has a date for the surgery and gets flooded by this incredible feeling of happiness every time* *is really tired in the evening and after his eight hours are up, peels himself out of his binder some time before dinner* *has to grin a lot while doing so because he realizes that this will all be over in two months – that he’ll never have to worry about how long he’s wearing the binder, because he just won’t need it anymore* *feels like that prospect is giving him strength and feels a little less uncomfortable when he finally shows up for dinner in his hoodie* *they all spend the evening together at the campfire with marshmallows and campfire, bread-on-a-stick and Jonas’ guitar* *has a lot of fun singing with everyone which sometimes sounds really off but sometimes also really cool* *at some point he’s lying in the tent with Matteo, this time being the little spoon, and after they had talked a little and wished each other a good night, he thinks back on the day’s events* *is really overwhelmed by all his feelings at some point, with all the relief and this still really surreal feeling that he really has a date for his surgery in two months, with happiness and gratefulness and also a little fear and excitement, and suddenly this lump in his throat is back and tears are welling up in his eyes* *grips Matteo’s hand on his stomach a little tighter and pulls him a little closer* *is so glad and grateful and happy that he won’t have to go through all of this on his own, that Matteo is there and that he can share his happiness as well as his fears with him* *takes a few deep and shaky breaths and tries to somehow calm down so that he can fall asleep*

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1. Red or Black licorice

Neither

2. List 3 random facts about yourself

I just woke up

Im going fishing today

I dont know what im eating for breakfast

3. Name 3 things you like about yourself

Ummmmmmm can i say nothing

My hair

My size

My autism

5. Whats your zodiac sign

Gemini, do you think I fit it? IDK

6. Do you believe in conspiracy theories

....no?

7. How long have you been on Tumblr

This ones complicated 😅

Ive had this account since March of 2018 but really only became active in about Febuary of this year

9. What are three things that make you happy

My friends (especially you, @kielemarie, @peanut-the-goalie, and @potter-redheads)

O'Knutzy

My Significant Other

11. Do you have any siblings

Oh god, yes I do. I have 3 younger siblings. My brother is 11 and my sisters are 8 and 5 respectively.

15. Favorite ship?

Umm it changes, right now definitely O'Knutzy

What's currently my lock screen?

My snek

22. Melanistic or Albino animals?

It depends. If I had to choose one for all my pets, probably melanistic just to improve their quality of life. I prefer albino corn snakes, but otherwise melanistic animals. They both have their merits and are unique in their own way.

23. Favorite animal?

Snakes and cats. Im not choosing one, sorry.

28. Do you read the tags on people's posts

Yes. Always.

29. Do you have a tumblr crush

Nope, sorry, everyone is a friend :)

31. Which characters do you relate to most?

Honestly probably Logan Tremblay or Luna Lovegood

32. Last text you sent?

Um a text to my significant other

"Good morning [redacted pet name], i miss you thats all. Love you ❤❤❤❤❤"

37. Ideal or favorite weather

Ideal - like 3 ft of snow that sticks together and it being cold but not so cold you cant go outside. Like maybe 28° F?

Favorite - sunny with blue sky and white puff clouds, no humidity, and just cold enough you wont get hot

41. What are some fandoms youre in?

😅😅theres a lot. Can i just say look behind my profile at my banner? Plus sweater weather.

47. Dark theme or nah?

Whatever the app comes on, i keep it that way. So pinterest is in dark mode and nothing else is

49. Have you had your first kiss yet?

😭no because we got together after covid. If kissing her on the cheek counts then yes? It doesn't

50. Neat freak or nah?

NOPE

55. What's your sexuality?

Asexal, Demiromantic, WTFromantic, Lesbian

58. Red or black roses?

Ummm, i don't really care? Red?

62. High-fives or Fist Bumps

If its someone im close too, hugs. But mostly snapped fingers into finger guns

63. Childhood pets name?

We had a cat named Abby when I was born, but my first pet was a betta fish named Sharky

67. Favorite drink

Georgia Sweet Tea

70. Favorite meme?

Depends on the context. From ones ive created probably these three (click to see better) but i censored the friend group ones for names and just added friend 1 and such

79. What's your full name?

Hannah Margaret [REDACTED FOR PRIVACY]

82. Favorite Song?

Umm idk Meant to be yours from heathers?

86. Dresses or suits

Depends on how much of a girl I am that day

89. What are your pronouns

I really dont care, just not He/Him

91. Long Nails or Short

Um short for practical reasons, and i bite my nails 😅

94. Ugliest color in your opinion

Chartreuse and Hot Pink

99. Have you ever been out of the country?

No I have not, the USA is big. I was supposed to go to the Galapagos Islands in june but covid. Im supposed to go in 2021 tho sooo

100. Last time you cried

This morning

Thank you for the asks love

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3, 4, 6-8, 11, 13-17, 19-22, 26-30 uwu

WOO LAD THAT’S A LOT THANK U!!! this got long and i wrote an essay or two LOL so im putting it under a readmore!

3: Best game you’ve ever played? WEEEELLLL.......let me preface this with two things: one, i am a FAKE GAMER as in my laptop is not at all made for gaming, it’s piss poor, so a big chunk of games i’m interested in is because i watched a playthrough of them lol. i have a 3ds but only 3 games on it (animal crossing new leaf, tomodachi life, nintedogs & cats). second, i’m very bad at choosing favorites of things.....BUUUUT .....i choooooose, in no particular order, OFF, pigeonetics, elder scrolls oblivion, pathologic classic HD!! i’m more than likely forgetting a few though, so sorry about that

4: Worst game you’ve ever played? as i said above, cannot choose favorites, neither can i choose whatever the opposite of favorites is but...uhh, does lif even count as a game? like lif, the stupid little furry flash game i remember playing on some shady website. it was surprisingly very active with a BUNCH of people there but i kept dying like every 5 seconds....AWFUL

6: A game that’s changed you the most? WELL define Changed.....ummm aha first thing that comes to mind is OFF. it’s one of those things where you never knew you wanted something so fucking bad until you saw it--and it’s like that for me. i NEVER knew i loved that odd, surreal, colorful, “looks playful and simple in some parts but incredibly violent and unnerving in other parts” aesthetic til i played it. like aesthetically i love that game to BITS and something about it just stuck with me til the end of time.

later in life (meaning, past year or so) it changed me because it taught me a lesson about storytelling and creative endeavors. a very useful lesson. which is: things don’t really need to have a meaning. stories, art, music, writing, whatnot, while it CAN be deep and meaningful, while you CAN use it as a way to communicate with the world about all kinds of heartfelt things, it can also be...nothing, really.

once i, as usual, got ridiculously overwhelmingly sad about small things. specifically seeing other people around me come up with all kinds of deep and meaningful characters and stories, sometimes putting them into webcomics or writings of theirs, and they were all so well-thought out and detailed and what i envied most was people put a lot of themselves and their experiences into them, venting and coping through them, whilst also making these larger-than-life grandiose complex stories and worlds and so on and so forth.

it made me look at my own ideas and get mad/frustrated at how shallow they were. but then i remembered OFF and i felt better because Fun Fact, mortis ghost has a now-abandoned dA account and if you go through the comment section on his profile, he answers a lot of fan questions and he mentions several times that the game didn’t really have a “meaning”, it didn’t really have a “deeper story” or moral or anything, really. i’m paraphrasing this but i vividly remember him saying “i wanted to make a game, so i did”.

that made me feel a lot better because it made me realise that sometimes art--especially stories, in my case-- doesn’t NEED to be DEEP or have MEANING...sometimes it can just BE!!!! sometimes it really can just be all about AESTHETICS like who GIVES a shit if there’s a hidden meaning if you take the first letter of all of your characters’ names and put them backwards, sometimes all that matters is if they just VIBE with you y’know....

yume nikki is similar in this regard bc that game doesn’t have any story other than “collect egg” and yet it’s so impactful. that game doesn’t have a story or meaning it just IS........ :) GOD THATS SO LONG IM SORRY ABOUT THAT but yeah. funny violent ghostbusting baseball man is a game that changed me :)

7: A game you’ll never forget? OFF AGAIN LOL,,, it’s just so memorable because of how unique it is. visuals, soundtrack, story, everything is so memorable. unforgettable. oh god you can tell how much i love this damn game can’t you

8: Best soundtrack? yakuza 0, OFF, there is a picture (another game by mortis ghost, again composed by alias conrad coldwood who also composed OFF), pigeonetics (the entire soundtrack of which is here), jojo’s bizarre adventure all star battle and eyes of heaven, silent hill 2 & 3, undertale....probably forgetting more but all of these...earcandy

11: Hardest game you’ve played? i am a shitty gamer so this is Most games i’ve played lol!! but uhh..well you see. hardest game i remember playing as of recent is pathologic classic hd in which it’s...not only hard to understand what any character is saying at any given time lol but also, i don’t think it’s HARD it’s just...you need to focus. you REALLY need to fucking focus and pay attention in this game. so i wouldn’t say its HARD, but i’m only putting this here bc it’s in recent memory.

i say recent memory because the true answer is susceptible to “yeah, but now you’re older, it must not be so hard.” as in if i played it now i think i’d have a way easier time. but when i was around....10-12 years old i had several ps3 video game adaptations of animated movies and i had SUCH a fucking hard time with them. g-force, bolt and up in particular were fucking HARD. like genuinely, the hardest time i had EVER had in my live playing video games is tied to these three fucking games. g-force and bolt ESPECIALLY. one particular level in bolt took both me AND my sister around a year to fucking finish.

again, i was baby, so i bet i’d have a much easier time with them now that i’m 17. but for now, in my experience, bolt and g-force for the ps3 were harder than pathologic classic. i think icepick lodge should take a few notes for them for pathologic 2.

13: A game you were the most excited for when it wasn’t released yet? STREETS OF KAMUROCHO...i spent the entire day of its release anticipating its launch lol

14: A game you think would be cool if it had voice acting? hmm..most games i like and know about do have voice acting so i dunno....i guess it would’ve been kind of cool if morrowind had like, full proper voice acting. but i can understand why it only voice acted things like greetings and battle insults because GOD that game is SO...complicated...and as a result, the conversations are so lengthy and text-full. playing morrowind is really like a goddamn book! if it was voice acted i’m sure all that information would have to be shortened bc i know no one is going to fucking voice act two whole paragraphs

15: Which two games do you think would make an awesome crossover? pigeonetics and yakuza in which instead of being about the criminal underworld it’s about shady and unethical pigeon clubs, breeding, racing, etc etc...a lot of illegal shit does happen in the world of pigeons especially when it comes to racing; prized racers have been kidnapped and held for ransom before. and then there’s Avian Cucking: The Sport, where people breed the sexiest pigeons (horseman thief pouters), release them outside to seduce other people’s sexy pigeons, and bring them back and keep ‘em, drama ensues. will kiryu ever escape his past as a professional pigeon-napper, and find solace in his new life as a pigeon hobbyist? find out now by playing YACOOZA......

JOKES ASIDES i don’t know i really don’t....umm, pigeonetics and animal crossing somehow?? :O... like, instead of managing your own town it’s managing your own loft!...orrrr, the jojo games (all star battle & eyes of heaven) with yakuza, because i think they’re somewhat similar because they’re both haha Wacky Silly AND serious over the top fighty-fighting.....or maybe a crossover with OFF and discover my body, which, despite being an incredibly short and obscure indie game i still love to bits for what it’s worth. WAIT ANIMAL CROSSING AND MINECRAFT THAT WOULD FUCK SO HARD OH MY GOD

16: Character you’ve hated most? From what game? i can’t think of any character i like, HATE...with a burning passion.. there are a few i dislike or have a complicated relationship with though.. i’m not interested in the series anymore but ouma from drv3...i’ll admit that he is a bit fun sometimes, especially in the very early beginning he’s a likeable brat but as the game progresses he becomes more irritating than anything and i have an issue with him in regards to writing, despite the fact that i have never been awake in any english class ever lol. it’s too long to put in this already long post but i’ll keep it at that. if you like him, well, good for you for finding joy in something i couldn’t! but he just doesn’t do it for me.

AH I JUST REMEMBERED....MINE......FROM YAKUZA 3....maybe i’d change my mind if i watched a playthrough of y3 again, because i think you always absorb something better on your second watch (tho i honestly Dont have the energy to do that all over again, the yakuza games are too fucking long), but i really hate his writing. spoilers for y3 but, i think mine’s writing, alongside other things in the game, were super messy...and a big part of why i hate him is that not only is he one of those “could’ve had great potential but fell flat” sorta guys but also his love for daigo is seen as some fans as good gay rep and i?????/.............um....WELL let’s just say that, i think people nowadays will see any gay character ever in any circumstance and say it’s good gay rep just based off the fact that A Gay Character exists....he was Not, good gay rep imo....he was not, let alone, Good. .........

17: What game do you never tell people you play? can’t think of any games i wouldn’t tell people i play.. idk exactly what this question’s asking. does it mean what game you don’t tell ppl you play bc you’re embarrassed about it...? i’m not very embarrassed by any of them. the only thing that comes close, i guess, is uhh lioden and wolvden. i’ve only interacted with those communities a LITTLE TINY WEE BIT, yet of what i’ve seen it’s a goddamn dumpster fire and i’d never want to be associated with them lol

19: Which game do you think deserves a revival? i’m well aware it’ll never happen and that it’s more a wet dream than anything but...PT/silent hills..... on a more realistic/”could happen” note, PIGEONETICS!!!! SERIOUSLY, it’s an amazing game about amazing animals and it teaches genetics in a very simplified and efficient way!! genetics is SO hard for me to understand, i fucking hated studying it but this game really helped me understand how it works AND its super engaging and interesting!! HOWEVER, of all the pigeon genes we know of, only a handful were seen in pigeonetics and i’d LOVE a sequel that employs new game mechanics AND new genes!! i wanna learn about bronze and stencil genes! i wanna learn about phenotypes like grizzled and pied!!! genes like sooty and dirty!!! @ UNIVERSITY OF UTAH GENETICS DEPARTMENT PLEASE IM BEGIGNG YOU

20: What was the first video game you ever played? earliest memories of Gaming involves me at my aunt’s house playing two games: super mario brothers and some kind of trapeze game. i don’t remember anything else though

21: How old were you when you first played a video game? i can’t remember but i must’ve been REAL tiny.... 6-9 years, maybe??

22: If you could immerse yourself in any game for one day, which game would it be? What would you do? immerse myself meaning go into their world...? huh....on one hand i’d like to go in the world of yakuza 0 to play in the arcades and do whore related activities but i’d also love to go into the world of animal crossing (and i’m pretty sure i’d be some sort of generic dromaeosaurid in that game!!) and shop, chat with villagers, do chores for them, go fishing, bug hunting, eat delicious fucking food like the apples mangos peaches cherries etc etc.....OH AND FOSSIL HUNTING THAT’S THE BEST PART!! though it would definetly be a little weird, to be a little dinosaur and finding a fossil of a...little dinosaur....i guess the non-sentient species went extinct and the dinosaur i am is some kind of, descendant of a sapient non-avian dinosaur that survived the k-pg extinction event...oh but who cares all i want is a cool little ambulocetus fossil or something. and some cherry pie :)

26: Handheld or console? my old ps3 just went kaput one day years ago so i haven’t used it in years so i can’t compare well... but i’d say handheld, because it lets me like DO stuff more...would love to get a console one day, a ps4 maybe but i’m kinda worried it’ll make me stay in one room all day wasting away my time when there’s other stuff i can do, y’know? but something handheld like my 3ds, on the other hand...i can do stuff with it. i can take it to my room and play it between breaks i take as i clean the room and fold my clothes, i can watch something on the tv and play the game during ad breaks, i can take it outside too if it has charge to last me a while! so....handheld i guess

27: Has there ever been a moment that has made you cry? yakuza 0 and undertale in particular have ALMOST made me fucking bawl with many of its moments....yakuza 0 especially, after that Fucking Ending i had trouble sleeping because oh my fucking god. video game people SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

28: Which character’s clothes do you wish you owned the most?

29:  Which is more important, gameplay or story? HMMM....well, if i were to play a game with a shitty story but really good and fun gameplay i’d probably continue playing it for the gameplay. but if i played a game with shitty gameplay but an interesting story, there is a chance i’d play it more for the sake of the story but also i might just quite and see the rest of the story on youtube or something. i’m more likely to go through a boring story for fun gameplay than go through boring gameplay for an interesting story, so i guess gameplay is more important to me....that is, WHEN i actually own and play a game as opposed to when i just watch someone play a game because i don’t own the game but wanna know abt the story lol

30: A game that hasn’t been localized in your country that you think should be localized? i have no idea how video game localization really works....but i assume localizing a game in india would mean something like, removing content according to cultural norm and also somehow translating it into the 22 official languages..? or just two or three language if it’s tied to a particular state, which seems way more doable. i honestly have no idea? i’ve never interacted w the indian gaming community that much to be honest, all i know of it is of the video games i’ve seen sold in some game stores and a few whispers about like solid snake or whoever from my school’s cafeteria....the most popular games here, to my knowledge, are those very streamable games like fortnite and PUBG and your call of duties and whatnot. those generic shooters. and even then, that honestly isn’t the “indian” gaming community bc this country is so FUCKHUGE, it’s just tamil nadu. one state.

soooo, according to what little i know of gaming interests in where i live, i don’t think any of the games i like should be localized here bc i don’t really think there’s an audience for it as far as i can tell :( maybe animal crossing? it’s a fun little games for all ages and i think it has a chance of becoming popular here, so maybe that is worth a shot! but i can’t think of any other game that i like that really has an audience here (other than Me lol)

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Billy On the Street

This is a lil Chris Evans one shot. I feel kinda weird writing fanfic about actual people. But my quarantine hypefixations have been Lucifer and Chirs Evans lmao. Sooo I was watching a Billy On the Street video with Chris in it and it pretty much went exactly like this. It was hilarious and Chris is so pretty, you should watch it lol. But this lil ficlet popped into my head while watching so here it is. There is also one in Chris’s POV which I will post soon! Also just as a disclaimer, I do not own Chris Evans or Billy On the Street!

 It was a bright sunny day and Sofia had just gotten off work. Living in New York, she usually took the bus home, but seeing as it was so warm and sunny, she decided to walk the few blocks from the court house. Stepping out into the warmth of the mid May sun, Sofia popped her headphones in and hit shuffle on her playlist before she started to walk.

Sofia easily weaved in and out of the huge post work crowd, her tiny size definitely giving her an advantage, and over five years of living in the city, you get used to it. She hadn't meant to stay. She had come here for college at NYU. She had intended to get her master's and head back home to Pennsylvania. But she had grown comfortable here, had made friends here. So she stayed and was now a social worker for the city, working in the courthouse.

Lost in thought, Sofia didn't see the man barreling toward her with a microphone before the mic was in her face. She blinked confusedly and pulled her headphones out so she could hear what he was saying.

"Miss," he exclaimed, "real quick, for a dollar, would you rather fuck Chris Evans or Paul Rudd?"

It was an odd question and she knit her eyebrows together in further confusion. Despite being completely thrown off guard, though, Sofia answered the question almost on reflex.

"Chris Evans," she replied, her tone implying the unspoken 'duh'. She heard a laugh to her left and swiveled to see who was laughing at her. Her stomach dropped and she just barely stopped her jaw from dropping with it.

Standing to her left, huge grin on his disgustingly handsome face, was Chris Evans himself. Oh fuck. Her tan skin flushed a little, she could feel the heat from it on her cheeks. This seemed to only make Chris's smile grow. Jesus, did the man know how pretty he was? That should be illegal. Like, excuse you, sir, who gave you the right?!

The man with the mic chuckled too and actually handed her a dollar. Well at least she got paid for her embarrassment. 

"Why?" The man asked. Jesus what did he want? An entire thesis on all the dirty things she wanted to do to Chris Evan's, all the dirty things she wanted him to do to her?

"I mean..." she spluttered, gesturing at chris. He was even taller in person. His crystal blue eyes seemed to actually be twinkling. His teeth were nice and shiny, practically blinding her as she looked straight at him. He wore a blue button down tucked into black dress pants and dress shoes. And that god damn beard. She was actually starting to get wet just standing here in his presence. "Look at him," she finished lamely, making Chris throw his head back and laugh even harder, his hand grabbing his left boob. Wow, he was so pretty. That was un fucking fair.

"Fair point," microphone man laughed with a shrug. He went to keep walking but Chris stayed where he was, staring at her peculiarly. She wanted to look away from his intense gaze but found that she physically couldn't. When was she gonna get the chance to stare directly at the sun again without going blind?

"What's your name?" He asked her. She blinked, bewildered.

"Umm Sofia," she told him. "Sofia Lopez."

"Well, umm Sofia," he said with a grin, his eyes never leaving her face. "Can I...i hope this doesnt come off too forward and you can tell me to fuck off if you want, but I think you're really beautiful and would love to give you my number."

Now it was Sofia's turn to stare intensely at Chris. He seemed sincere, his eyes soft, a small smile still tugging at his lips. She looked around, looking to see if this was a joke or something.

"You're serious?" She said finally, brown eyes wide.

"Deadly," he answered seriously.

"Ummm okay," she conceded. Chris's smile took up his whole face again and she actually had to physically look away this time. She looked down at her feet, a smile of her own hurting her cheeks. When she looked back up, Chris had his phone out, ready to exchange. What the fuck was life?!

They exchanged numbers and he told her he would be in town for the next couple of days and hoped they could go for coffee or something. Sofia just nodded up at him, dazed and smiling like an idiot.

"Yeah, that sounds great," she told him, finally able to formulate an actual coherent response. Chris smiled and pulled her tiny frame into his much bigger one. She was literally engulfed in his huge arms, surrounded by his smell and his soft shirt covering his broad hard chest. He smelled and felt so good. Jesus christ she needed to get it together. She hugged him back smiling.

"I'll text you soon," he promised.

"Can't wait," she answered, pulling back from the hug. He gave her one last blinding smile and then started to follow mic guy. 

Sofia stood there, frozen for a second, trying to process what the fuck had just happened. She then looked over her shoulder and she could still see his retreating form. She bit her lip as she watched his ass while he walked, trailing along with the guy with the mic, talking to more strangers. That really was America's ass.

Finally, Sofia started walking again, resuming her music. She smiled the whole way back to her apartment, feeling like she was floating instead of walking.