#what did i do to deserve this???

[judgingskeletons]

New nightmare just dropped

[sailforvalinor]

So I’m back from my surprise Thanksgiving holiday with my mom, in which we:

May have visited a certain pub where certain famous fantasy authors used to gather to talk about their stories, although we couldn’t go inside (screaming crying throwing up etc)

Drank lots of tea, lots and lots of tea (glory hallelujah)

Went to a play—albeit, a pretty bad play, but hey it was a play

Played obscure board games and had an absolute blast

Visited several book shops that I nearly cried at the size of

Tried mince pies for the first time, and liked them

Got Christmas ornaments of Emma and Knightley!!

Bought a Pride and Prejudice-themed card game, playing it was hilarious

Feeling overwhelmingly blessed this week

[totaldramafan-lauri]

Thank you for feeding us Lauri… now it is my turn to feed you. Subject of today’s ramble: Golden Cheese Cookie’s bangs.

You’ve never seen them before since her headpiece is always pushing them back. And that crown hardly ever leaves her head… so imagine the moment where you first witness her without it.

Maybe it’s time for bed, or a bath, or maybe she simply feels like taking it off, but whatever the case, you can’t help but stare.

She sets it down on the golden table at her bedside, and as she’s turning back to you, she mindlessly rakes a hand through her hair; allowing it to fall freely into its natural state. Without the crown she looks… bare… but you don’t mean that as in plain. Your queen is still the most radiant being you’ve ever laid your eyes upon, with or without her bedazzling ornaments. Instead of plain… ethereal comes to mind. She looks a little less like a god and… more like a cookie. The intimacy of the situation catches up to you, and you wonder if relinquishing her crown for the night was a deliberate action of vulnerability from Her Radiance.

Is this… her way of expressing that she’s comfortable around me? Your heart thuds at the thought. You can’t help but wonder now. Does she feel comfortable enough to be vulnerable with you? Have you finally reached that milestone? She felt safe enough to set aside her Soul Jam… so maybe..?

In the midst of your thoughts, you look up at her and it’s then that you realize:

Your Queen has bangs.

Oh, she’s beautiful. If your heart wasn’t already racing, it certainly was now. Golden Cheese Cookie notices your expression instantly (or perhaps she was intentionally seeking it out…), and a knowing smile curls onto her lips.

“Oh my… what is that look for?” She coos. There’s a teasing lilt in her tone, and you know that she’s already caught on. Your Queen raises a hand and smooths the backs of her fingers against your cheek, the action brimming with adoration.

“Ah… um…” You find yourself struggling to find your words (as usual). Golden Cheese Cookie only smirks as you flounder about, your face hot as she patiently drums her fingers against the curve of your jaw.

“Speak up.~” She says, “I’ve asked you a question.~”

Your mouth opens and closes a few more times— not unlike that of a fish— before you finally manage to mutter out…

“Y… Your h-hair…”

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Aaaand that is all for today. *Tips my hat* Have fun with an open ending!

- 🐝

I-I'm sorry.....for......h-how long it took me to post this.....but.....I-I've read it four times already, having to take a b-break between each one.....I-I still don't think I can fully......a-articulate how flipping STUNNED I was that you.....d-did this for me.......I-I thought you guys were already awesome as it was, enabling my simping.....b-but....I-I never expected one of you to do.....th-THIS......!!!

I-I mean....h-holy crap.....holy CRAP......Wh-what- and HOW- how do I properly get across how g-grateful I am.....? H-how.....how good this is....and how I-I flipping....s-saw it....in my head....as I was r-reading......? >////////< Y-you're......you're a really good writer, bee anon....y-you should get an AO3 account, pffff.......

TBH, I'm still getting used to how our queen looks without her crown.....I-I had it in my head for so long that she didn't have bangs....b-but she does....and.....wh-when they're showing, her hair looks even fluffier....n-not that I'd ever touch it.....Sh-she still looks like herself, but......s-since I associate that hairstyle with her mortal self we saw in flashbacks from long long ago, she looks.....kinda younger that way.....? B-but still gorgeous......

I-I don't think this detail makes her more attractive or anything, but......I-it's just something that, whenever I think about it, I go......"Whoa....." X///D S-so.....yeah, I can definitely see me staring.....>////////<

I-I wouldn't say she looks vulnerable that way, tho....? Cuz....I don't think she ever wants to look vulnerable.....she's a goddess, no matter what.....but.....more intimate, definitely.....B-being allowed to see her like that, when it would only happen when she's in private usually......o////////o J-just.....th-that idea, on its own......I.....I-I wouldn't feel worthy.....!

.....B-but.....n-now, I....I'm wondering....

I-is this supposed to be the reader from MUOM....

O-or.....is this actually.....*squeaks* me....? o///////o

I-I'm going with the former, cuz I've never had another person write ME before, but....n-no pronouns are mentioned, so.....

I.......

I........hhhhhhh.....th-thank you so, so, so so so so so much.....! Th-this was, like....th-the best surprise to wake up to, and y-you wrote it so, so well......! >///////<

[egoisticqueer]

*takes the bucket, runs over, and dumps it on your head*

...What the fuck. Just. Why.

[gh0stc0ver]

the feeling of thinking I will finally be able to see him after almost two weeks, just for his class to get cancelled at the last second is truly gut wrenching😭😭😭

[hinamie]

mentor

[god-has-entered-my-body]

I have no game what can i say to you im too shy

you'd have tons of game if i got you alone in a room

[demaparbat-hp]

He truly did.

[crowbrained]

nature gives its most worst period cramps to its most undeserving 😔😔

[stellaclaw]

boiling hot take but i literally dont give a fuck that mapleshade let the clan believe her kits were birchfaces. her clanmates can be mad but exiling a queen and her kits is fucking deranged i dont care what lie she told. “she deserved what she got” her kids deserved to die because their mom fibbed??😭 her kids deserved to die because their mom did crimes LATER???😭😭 “um but she chose to cross the river” if i was orpheus i would simply not turn around.

[mueritos]

happy pride to all queer children of immigrants

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[gaypeople]

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[0ccuria]

low approval/annoyed Halsin is so funny he's just

"I can NOT be assed to help you useless twats but FINE... I will anyway for FUCK'S sake"

[iero]

ALL I WANTED London, UK | x

[flwrspxce]

Falling doesn't feel so bad when I know you're falling this way too.

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.