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dvlcecito · 3 months

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gotta werk!

#what is art style consistency #hes so #what can i say that hasnt been said #hes just divine i have to draw him all the time #ateez #seonghwa #park seonghwa #ateez seonghwa #ateez park seonghwa #psh #work ateez #ateez fanart #seonghwa fanart #kpop #kpop fanart #my art

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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

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superbellsubways · 2 months

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flavio ☹️

#thisis positive im just thinking about him #hes so stupid i need help #Why did i have to get obsessed with that guy i couldve been normal i couldve been a vivian fanatic. or goombella. fuckin DOOPLISS? no.#flarvious.#I do love the other characters dont get me wrong. i love the xnauts alot for example i think about them so much #im just insane about the yellow man #its almost been a full year since this flavio fixation started can you believe it #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#i dont jnow what to say that hasnt been said already i always get so repetitive. i like that guy.alot #runs around in my room #not normal. not normal.

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themorguepoet · 1 year

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Transliteration: Karpuragauram Karunāvatarām Sansarsāram Bhujgendrahāram। Sadāvsantam Hrudyārvinde Bhavam Bhavāni Sahitam Namāmi।।

Translation: Lord Shiv, who dwells in my heart along with Mata Bhavāni, one who is white as camphor, one who is the manifestation of compassion, one who is the essence of the universe, and who wears the king of the snakes Vāsuki as his necklace, I bow down to you.

#saawan #saawan is synonymous with worship of mahadev #shiv-bhavani yall #my parents #i cannot express much of what i feel for mahadev #he who drank the dreadful poison #he who is compassion personified #what can I even say in his praise that hasnt been said with better words before?#shubh teras

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bunnihearted · 7 months

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#i shouldnt have fav mutuals bc i get sooo sad when they soft block me #which *always* happens like im not joking the day will come when they're just like nahhh bye #🥲🥲 nd i cant help but get sad #nd i dont even agree w that anon who said that 'no wonder everyone blocks u' bc im never mean to anyone #i think it's just bc im fundamentally unlikable and unlovable and the time will come when smth abt me #ticks them off nd nothing abt me is ever tolerated i always have to be perfect for everyone so then i just get cut off like dead weight lmao #also it shows that i get attached so easily but in reality ... ppl are not at all as attached to me 💀💀#like i care abt them but they dont care abt me nd it makes me feel so stupid #why do i so easily care for ppl?????? why do i have to care nd like ppl when it's always gonna end the same way #me being me is bad nd wrong and nobody could ever truly know me nd still like me #i have to live my life constantly hiding parts of myself and making sure im not too authentic or too open bc then i will make ppl dislike me #it rlly is that. im never mean. i never fight. ppl just see smth abt me nd go 'oh ewwwwww' nd then leave #nd if it hasnt already happened it will at some point nd im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop #whenever i realize i say or did smth wrong im tense waiting for the moment where they'll leave me will arrive #ok this might sound silly bc i was like 'triggered' by smth small but like #all my life thats just how it's been. im not even mean or cruel. i just exist and ppl dont like me or who i am or what i think #i can never be truly myself anywhere. that is sure to result in being all alone 4ever. but i dont like hiding parts of myself #but i have to. but its hard when im trying to hide nd be lowkey but i still manage to make ppl dislike me T-T #idek what im supposed to do bc i just exist nd im not likable. i try to be that but im still not. idk what to do #anyway.. who cares.. j'appartiens seul #but yeah it is bc it's like this for me all the time nd ig that triggered me lmao #i mean just w my sisters.. their issue is just who i am. my personality. i havent been cruel to them. or bullied them. or put them down #they just get irritated from my personality nd who i am. thats what makes them mad. nd they kinda want me to just stop being me nd idk how #to do that and therefore we arent even talking. havent talked for a year #i wanna cry like????? what am i supposed to do??????? im so extremely fucking horrible that just by exisiting nd not being mean or cruel mak #es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that #maybe if i had irl friends and a job and a life i wouldnt care but im a fucking loser failure worthless good for nothing idiot. ofc im this

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pikonv5 · 4 months

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my job wants me gone so bad , like 1 month in and they have already brought out their no effort in communication and gaslighting full force, and telling me much of the work I am doing is wrong and accusing me of not doing the basic things like stocking, that I try so hard and am sure to keep up with being the only person working at a time? like if they are going to do this at least do it while i am on the clock..

#this morning i kept apologizing for doing what i was told and trained to do and the lady sent so many messages of 'well I don't remember #telling you' over n over like ??? so then i had to apologize for her not remembering which like no one does that #to that extent unless they are trying to affect you negatively and or try to get you to say something they can use against you #like ive been abused enough i know how it goes 🙃 ??#and then they are like 'why would you be stupid and put in so much effort when you work the busiest shifts of the week?'#when like literally ive got a good eye for design and decent with sales so like i will touch a merchandise make it more presentable #and suddenly the next people coming in will be drawn to the item to buy like im their little magical willy wonka like they said they wanted #on their original job listing #and ofc there is no mention of how the floor is no longer just perpetual dirt mud to slather around bc i actually cleaned the floor #instead of doing there method of just mopping by putting a mop back in dirty mop water.. like you can visibly see the floor crusted when it #is like that and i wont even start on the dust #nor any mention to how the backroom hasnt remained cluttered from extra my extra tidying or severely cluttered by all the work i did #the last two days #just how i have consistently done a bad job not even keeping up with the basics apparently this entire time 😐#anyways 3 hours of my day Wasted and unpaid from how much they made me cry like there is so much more bot mentioned i hate itf

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thecherrygod · 3 months

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i need to stop having people from class around me that make me feel so angry i want to eat glass.

#my posts #idk if im justified but shes been making me so Mad #this is about a group project #every time ive had to work with this girl its always Bad #and now she disappeared from a week when we have to submit the base of the assignment and she only worked when someone said #'hey are you okay we havent heard from you this week' like.......#and it looks like she hasnt seen a single thing of what we've been talking about.#we've talked. a lot. about important stuff about the assignment. and Yet she was not Aware of the dates we have to work with this #and so now that someone did the 'hey are you okay' thing publicly on the groupchat she is reacting now #did it have to be this way did she have to wait for that #'hey so i did this thing. and if you want i can try to polish the rest of but i dont know if any of you wanted to add anything else'#like Girl. you truly did not read what we talked about.#i want to complain about this with my friend from the group but also.#i dont want to be constantly complaining about her with people that know her #i dont want to make things worse im already angry i think if more of us are also angry its not gonna work out #tho we were kinda talking about her not saying anything is making us feel. stuff. concern and a bit of anger/frustration #so i also dont want to make it worse truly. but fuck. fuck this fuck her #i will talk to my friend from the group about something else i think. i needed to get this out #SHE BROUGHT THE TOPIC UP WE CAN COMPLAIN TOGETHER BABEY!

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mbat · 1 year

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okay i love the emotionally stupid gay men as much as the next guy (clearly) but man it was actually so refreshing to hear, explicitly in repeatable words!, that a character loves the other romantically and undeniably.

like, i get whats happening when characters dont say it in words, right? its been the way of doing things for years for reasons, but nowadays its mainly 'the character hasnt realized how they feel yet' or 'theyre in denial of how they feel' or 'they cant find it in them to say it out loud yet' and hey, those are all fine! theyre so super fun and add to the drama and story

but holy shit to actually hear stede be like 'the man i love is ed' (paraphrasing) like got damn and in the first season too??

just. what an absolute treat. didnt realize i wanted that until i got it. thank you.

#our flag means death #ofmd #my post #tropes #sometimes you just need mfs to be like GOT DAMN YOURE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE #and the drama isnt entirely around them just not saying it ajfjsjdjd #i love wwdits and good omens so so so so so much but man #in wwdits its still basically subtext ajfjsjdj like we KNOW but it hasnt been said AT ALL only shown #like we know those bastards are head over heels and painfully stupidly in love and its soo cute but still. not said #and in good omens. ah fuck. those two are so old how can they be this bad at using words JJSBFND #like I GET IT. its so scary to be vulnerable especially like that. and the context! fucked up context #but even during a confession he cant manage to say what he wants and again i get it but oughh #just. to hear 'ive found someone i love. his name is ed.' GO OFF!!!!! YESSSSSS #i love gay old men oh my gosh i want to be a gay old man

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gayve-strider-man-rider · 10 days

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#i dont have anything to say here actually #what can i that hasnt already been said #thumbs up

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minglana · 2 months

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so what if i killed myself.

#my moms been having health problems for a few months now so that means that she hasnt gone to the village to help my grandma #and in august since the caretaker(s) have holidays. usually its my mom my aunt and my uncle who take turns taking care of my grandma #but since my moms been having these problems. my aunt and uncle told her that she didnt have to help and that theyd do it #so like two days ago then i find out that my mom is going to the village bc my uncle is staying there. shes not gonna do any heavy lifting #but shes gonna be there in case my grandma needs anything #so i tell her that i wanna go too. and she says 'no. im gonna take a blablacar to go there'#she also said that i cant just go to the village to just see my friends and party. and that i need to help if i wanna go there #SO THEN i tell her that ok. i can go there this weekend and help her as well. SO NOW she tells me that no. i shouldve said so earlier bc no #all the plans are made. and she doesnt have to tell me everything (like the fact that my aunt and uncle didnt count her in august to help)#so like?????? im just supposed to know everything myself???????? like bro. i go to the village ONCE a year. last time i went it was christm #*christmas. and i had a shit time bc i had covid AND i was studying for exams. so like. when else am i supposed to go to the village??????#then she complains that im like. loosing contact w my aunts and uncle but its like. the only time i see them is in the village #BUT YOU WONT LET ME GO????????????? like im truly crying out of desperation at this point bc im gonna be stuck in this shithole place (zgz)#all fucking august long. all bc my mom doesnt think i should go to the village if i dont help. but also she doesnt say WHEN i could help #SO WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!!!!! im apparently just supposed to know these things #parents who have taught their daughter to be quiet and not be a bother surprised when their child (who is no longer a daughter)#keeps quiet and tries do do as theyre told instead of being proactive. bc thats what they taught her #suicide mention #z xarre

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bbgoffic · 2 months

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During a LOT of scenes from The Bad Batch all I can do is praise Jurassic Park and it's iconic cinematography.

#the bad batch #tbb #rewatch rambles #s03e05 #“theres not a lot of funny ha has in this episode and what can i really say that hasnt been said before”#<- girl totally distracted by the increased presence of a certain someone #look at the poor little meow meow go

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horrorwebs · 1 year

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why are men literally the fucking worst

#theres a guy in one of my uni friend groups who has a crush on my friend also from the friend group #and she feels so so uncomfortable plus she hasnt done ANYTHING thatd give a hint that she likes him back. bc she doesnt #and now she doesnt feel ok around because hes so attached to her and so so needy and its like. well. way to fuck it up dude. fuck you #he has been acting so strange lately and not in a good way. strange awkward and needy and like. possesive.#her and i also have another friendgroup where frankly i feel much better with and she does too. and its like. well the guy is always like #butting in but now really being part of anything? like its not like he comes over to the grouo to be with all of us hes just sort of . there #talking only to her or sometimes me but its like not nice its weird and annoying #ALSO HES SO PATRONIZING TOWARDS HER ITS AWFUL #AND hes like. a bit older.... where its not like. the weirdest age gap i dont think so. but it IS a bit weird considering some of the things #he has said. like the other day he made a comment about how my friend 'well shes so young like people her age sometimes dont get [x]' like?#if you think she is SOOO young and SOOO out of touch with people your age well why the fuck are you asking others if you have a chance w her #get away from her really #sidenote: today she was telling me and a different friend about this problem and my other friend said it was really uncomfortable and bad +#that he used to think the guy had a thing for ME BEFORE??? and i dont know if he also thought -i- had a thing for him but please god no.#even the hypothetical made me feel super uncomfortable. also i used to feel like that a bit like he might like me and it was bad and gross #so i dropped a comment that let him believe i was a lesbian i think? also got much colder towards him . like. thats what you get fucker #about the lesbian thing i meant that he told me about a friend of his that had it hard coming out as a lesbian and i said like oh yeah being #like that was hard for me also. finding out i was not straight was tough etc .#dont remember if i said the word lesbian i dont think so but i did say i like girls and i didnt mention boys at all so i hoped itd be enough #also people dont really -get- what being asexuas means + didnt want to tell him im ace + techically i Can like boys bc romantic attraction #is undefined to me but i was definetely not going to tell him that bc 1. im much more prone to like a girl and 2. not trying to get his hope #up.#so anyway it was gross to realize other people saw it too so i mightve actually not been insane to think he had a crush on me but it was bad #and also. i really need for my friend to be comfortable in class so i might have to kill him who knows. well see #spikeposting #personal

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g0thsoojin · 2 months

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miss him so much </3

#i miss him so so much #and i wanna message him that even if he wont reply :((#but i feel like i cant bc he is in a relationship now #but like he hasnt TOLD me to stop ://#he havent told me to not message him anymore or not say any of those things #he hasnt told me anything #it was easier last time tbh #bc last year when he had a gf #he still talked to me and told me i was important to him and #i could ask him like oh can i even say this anymore - and he said that like no i have to talk to my gf abt boundaries etc etc #now he isnt saying anything at all and it makes me feel like he'll just..... forget all abt me #i still want to be friends even if im in love w him. but i cant have him so i have to accept that even if it hurts #but i still wanna talk to him as friends do. but he isnt replying at all #i dont know this fkn hurts so bad idk how to cope w it tbh #i also miss that last time .. i felt like i was still his friend #he interacted w my blogs... he talked to me. he asked me questions. he said that it was always ok for me to send voice messages etc etc #and when i said smth abt like i'm here for u - he was more vocal abt boundaries #which sucks bc i dont want ANY boundaries between us 💀#but if he doesnt want me to be his gf i cant force him and i still wanna talk to him any way i can #but now it's almost been a month and i have gotten NOTHINF from him i wanna die #what is life worth living without him in it at all not even a little??

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emobatsy · 3 months

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i think what strikes me so much about amc iwtv is how obsessed the cast is with their character and the other's characters. not as in oh my god i love them but as in. i put genuine work into understanding whats happening, here is a 5k essay on the backstory of this one 0.3 second long grimace change in a 7 minute outburst kind of thing.

when all you have are set scenes and dialogues you COULD half ass it and just do that. but the sheer commitment to go all out, the work that goes into that, how harrowing it is emotionally and physically to work through things as your character. for your character. thats just what blows me away.

and i think a lot of that resonates bc of working theatre. like you have this text from 400 yrs ago and its just words and you can't ask the author what's going on. so you're relying on interpretations from other people and ultimately have to decide whether thats enough or whether you're the kind of person to go "in my mind, i'm saying this bc of xyz". and you talk to your castmates and they riff off you. and then a single exchange of 2 lines turns, for you, into an unravelling of years of backstory that you convey with the flick of a wrist.

idk it's just special to me to see it happen with this show.

#i think esp with jacob anderson. like his accent and micro expression work is out of this world #and with assad i am so so reminded of theatre. like it's just so shakespearan yadda yadda i can not voice it. but u look at him #and you know he's conveying concepts thru words that were said before and after him but are uniquely his. its so special #disclaimer i am just a community theatre kid who hasnt even read the books i am just having fun #disclaimer 2 i am not saying other actors do not have this deep a connection with their characters #i am simply here to say it is uniquely rewarding to me to get to see these actors do it this well #and ultimately this type of acting and intensity makes it easier for the audience to understand the characters.#theyre doing the work for us but also leaving the door open in case we want to join them. but we dont have to #this post has been brought to you by guy who has been thinking too much about written words vs what they mean for the past 9 yrs #'what am i really saying here' is truly the no1 thing to me #the lear comparison of the reuinon in th hurricane killed me in case u couldnt tell #he will by no means speak #ah. final addendum:#its nice to see the people involved put the same level of thought (OR MORE) into their work as fan interpretations are wont to do #like isnt half the fun of being in a fandom overanalyzing everything to the nth degree with your besties.#isnt it nice that the cast n crew are doing the same.#let me hold your hand and let us play in our sandpit together

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green-mountain-goose · 4 months

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whatever happens i cant fail is an *abysmal* strategy for living life. and yet rn....

#its not a good long term strategy #also i remember my physics teacher saying life isn't a 98% on a test lol #but also this was the same teacher that hasnt taught me very much mechanics since the start of the year because she presumes people just...#*know*#the further mathmaticians do #not meeeee though #i cant guage whats hard and whats just me being the dumbest idiot there #anyways the way i communicated that to her after the third lunchtime i spent with her doing mechanics somewhat properly was i told her #that it felt like being in plato's cave #and tbh a truer statement has never been said by moi #anyways this all ties together #i cant fail (get less than an A) in phys #and i'm not fucking giving up on mechanics #sooooooo #i'll just cope and get through it whatever way i can #btw i remember my first lesson of statics like 2 months ago #uhmmmmmm.....#she went straight into it and was like guysssss you know this righttttt? ✨#and she literally speaks with glitter at the end of sentences like this lol ✨#i should've predicted the future months of mechanics from that huh lol #i mean the only positive of this was like #in my last test #i was able to explain very clearly what principles apply *in words* to a problem #becuase those principles are fucking hammered into my head #i got full marks on those questions compared to a lot of my quite mathsy classmates #idk man im just gonna have at least a competent grip on mechanics so my grade is decent hm

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addonerror · 5 months

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it's difficult to describe exactly, but it constantly feels like I'm some kind of amalgamation of at least 8 different people trying desperately to pretend to be one consistent being. which, of course, fails spectacularly because pretending to be a real person is a momentous and, frankly, sisyphean task.

#i want to make art about this but im currently stuck worrying (stupidly) about making redudant pieces #what can i actually say with what i create that hasnt been said by someone else in a much more precise and eloquent manner #my lived experiences are not unique nor acessible enough to make something on these topics that would truly connect with the viewer #i guess maybe i am just overeducated and underexperienced? who can say. this is all beginning to sound like an ocd rumination spiral

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