#what can I say chuuyas my fave

[littleholmes]

Chuuya Nakakara. 1, 20, 25.

Thanks for the ask @alleywaymeetcute !

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?

I like Chuuya because I like his personality and his complexity. He’s so interesting as a character and one of the few, really one of the only, people Dazai seemingly implicitly trusts. Also, like many/most of the characters in BSD, he’s got that morally gray vibe where he’s done awful things but he cares about his subordinates, he’s loyal, and helps do what he thinks is right in the moment. Then there’s the whole Arahabaki thing which ahhh! I���m not gonna even get into. I’m in the middle of re-reading Stormbringer because the whole novel is incredible.

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

Ah! Why is this so surprisingly hard for me to answer. Let’s see, part of me says Dazai because those two share a bond and a history from their time in their teens in the port mafia and experienced situations together and circumstances that only they would understand and when you endure the things they did together, that bonds you with someone in ways that it’s hard for any other person match. But that doesn’t necessarily make them ideal best friends.

That said, I feel like Yosano and Chuuya would make ideal best friends. They both understand what it was like with Mori and the complexities that come from working with Mori and being loyal/allying with him. They both take no shit and they both enjoy a good wine. I think if they were given the chance they could’ve been really good friends.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

First impression of Chuuya was “who is this dude and why does it feel like there’s a deeper history between him and Dazai?”and then it was mentioned like right after that they were partners in the Port Mafia and I was like, “seriously need to know more about this short ball of rage that somehow let’s Dazai get this far under his skin yet spares him”.

I wasn’t annoyed by him and I didn’t have any strong feelings about him other than a deep need to know more cause that dynamic was fascinating to me and piqued my interest about Dazai’s character and Chuuya’s. I think I was watching the series at the time with the intent to read the manga if I thought it was good enough to continue all the way through to S3 and Dead Apple (since that was all that was out for the BSD anime at the time) and it was that basement scene and that whole episode, really, that took me from “this series is pretty good and these characters speak to my literary studies heart” to “I absolutely must keep watching and read the manga and light novels, holy smokes these characters have dimension”

Now he’s honestly one of my faves of the series. I’ll gush again about Stormbringer. I have a tag I tend to use when posting and reblogging him and it’s the truth. What can I say Chuuya’s my fave.

[osachiyo]

☆ I'd love me a man who.......who'd be fucking brutal in the sheets. Pinning you down by your wrists or shoving your face down and ass up, manhandling you into any position he desires to fuck you stupid on his length. He'd snarl at the way you struggle to keep up with him, calling you a dumb slut who's only good for taking his cock. The most embarrassing part is, he'd make you say it right back to him.

"Say what you are, little slut. Say the only thing you're good for is taking my cock in that cute cunt of yours, say it." He'd grin maniacally, laughing out loud when your eyes cross, not being able to focus on anything from the way his cock bullies into your gooey cunt, hitting your sweet spot with every thrust. He slapped your cheek with little force, growling at you to fucking focus. "I- please fuck! It's too much- I-I can't!" You'd sob, fat teardrops falling from your eyes, your mascara ruined and running down your cheeks as you struggle to form coherent sentences- or thoughts. A low rumble forms in his chest, his hand comes down harshly to your ass, still red from previous hits. You jolt up when his hand makes contact with your skin, pleas falling from your glossy lips as you beg him to take mercy. He'd only smirk at your begging, demanding you to repeat what he told you. Surely you could do such a simple task, right? Don't tell him that you're so fucking stupid for his cock that you can't even do such an easy request? God, he's so disappointed- "I-I'll say it- oh- 'm your little s-slut! The only good th-thing-" He tsks, pinching your hardened nipple between his thumb and index finger, making you jolt and sniffle. "Poor dumb little baby, can't even remember what I said? It's okay, I'll repeat it for you since I'm such a good person, yeah? Oh fuck yes, squeeze me like that- Okay, this is your last fucking chance so listen up, okay? Say the only thing you're good for is taking my cock in that cute cunt of yours." His hips slow down, making you whimper in protest but a piercing glare from him shuts you up. "C'mon baby, you can do it, can't you? Aren't you my big girl?" His hand reaches down to play with your clit, rubbing circles onto the small bud, while moans slip from your mouth. "I-I'm your little slut..mm.. the only thing I'm good for is-" your cheeks burn in embarrassment, your teary eyes meeting his own. You receive a pinch on your clit at your pause, making your legs shake. "The only thing I'm good for is taking your..cock in my...-" he scoffs, slapping your inner thigh as a warning. "Don't have all day, doll." You nod, "taking your cock in my cute cunt.." You look away in shame, your ears burning. He resumes his thrusts, grunting out a 'good fuckin' girl' while he rearranges your insides. ☆

NIKOLAI, chuuya, dazai, JOUNO, LUCIFER, solomon, SATAN, belphie when he's not being a lazy prick, AYATO, KAEYA, CHILDEEE, scaraboobs, ALHAITHAM, cyno, BLADIEEE, jing yuan on a bad day, ATSUMU, iwaizumi, kuroo idk I need to rewatch haikyuu, GOJOO, GETO, TOJIII, I don't know who else so any of your faves!

©sachiyoh— do not copy, plagiarize and repost my works to any platform, reblogs are very appreciated♡

[chuuyasheaven]

“ How about I give you the tip? ” ;)

You ringed the bell and waited, with a pizza in your hand as you sigh. You didn’t get payed enough for this, but this was the best you could do at the moment. While you were rethinking your life choices, the door opened. A really handsome guy stood at the door, looking at the pizza then you and then down on the pizza again. You weren’t gonna lie, that guy was so pretty you kinda just stared at him.

“Uhm, here’s your pizza, sir.”, you asked the guy who was lightly smiling at you. “You’re really pretty for a pizza delivery,”, this just came out of nowhere but you appreciated it.

“Yeah, thanks. That would make seven dollars.”, you looked at him and gave a small smile. He was thinking about something and then spoke up. “It’s pretty late, how many do you have left?”, you just sighed and just straight up told him. “No, you’re my last.”

He smirked, thinking of something which kinda annoyed you. Couldn’t he just give you number and pay after? “You must be tired of delivering all day, you definitely deserve more than seven dollars.”, you were flattered that he was more considerate than your manager, then he continued to speak.

“How about I give you the tip? You can come inside and place the pizza somewhere.”

Well, turns out he wasn’t talking about the tip but rather about his tip, the tip being inside your hole. But were you complaining? “Feels good, right?”, seems like a tip is still a tip in the end of the day! A sudden spank was landed on your ass which whipped you back to reality. “I was askin’ you, pretty. Is the tip good?”, he asked again rather sheepishly. “Y–yes! Oh, shit—”, you moaned in response.

He was speeding up, saying nasty things to you while absolutely destroying you and your hole. “Delivering pizzas ain’t the only job you’re doing good at, is it? Taking me this good— fuck. .”, your head was in the pillow and your ass in the air, perfect position for some random dude you were supposed to be delivering to. “Such a slut, spreadin’ your legs so fast for a tip.”, your customer laughed. “Y–you were the— ngh— i–it was your idea to— ah!”, he thrusted really deep, interrupting you completely. “And who said you that you couldn’t deny this? So don’t try to blame me, baby.”, ‘baby’? You barely know this guy! But still, he has you moaning and clenching like someone he’s fucked multiple times before.

With the source of sound being your moans you weren’t really able to warn him about your upcoming orgasm. “Yeah, wanna cum? Wanna coat this tip in a pretty white? Hm? Shit—”, you cumming without any warning caused him to cum too, ropes of white cum being shot inside you. Breathing heavily, especially you since you needed to process what just happened, he giggled drunkenly.

“Wanna get the real tip now, pretty?”

DAZAI, NIKOLAI, Chuuya, Ur faves, etc.

Something silly from my mind lol

[zukkaoru]

Do u have any kunidazai or kunichudazai fic recs at all? Seeing ur posts I wanna dip my toe in but would love to read any faves u have also!!

YES YES YES most of these will be oneshots bc that's mostly what i read + rated t or g unless stated otherwise. the rest are under the cut bc this got (expectedly) long lol

kunidazai:

let Hope die by degradedpsychotic

Dazai smirks at him, in the process of filling the rice cooker. "Need help?" Kunikida exhales, and it takes the form of a bitter laugh. "That's all I ever need anymore."

4.3k words, post-decay of angels arc. dazai and kunikida are learning to navigate the world with injuries that they will never fully recover from (dazai w chronic leg pain + kunikida w chronic hand pain)

the tragic (pony)tail of dazai’s downfall by sarcoline_sails

five times Kunikida has his hair down, and one time Dazai ensures it stays that way.

6.6k words. exactly what it says on the tin

Piled Up by KhaoticEnby

Kunikida gets sick in the midst of a busy time at the ADA. Dazai, just back from his mission, tries his best to help him

3.4k words, established relationship

sure it's a calming notion (perpetual in motion) by saffroncassis

the one where Dazai digs himself a hole, and then just keeps digging deeper.

5.3k words. instead of admitting he likes kunikida, dazai says he just wants to have sex with him. because when has dazai ever been honest about his feelings? (there's no smut, but there are references to and jokes about sex)

but in that uncertainty, i found you. by warsfeil

In which everyone gets injured and two inept individuals wonder about the meaning of partnership.

3.4k words. dazai gets injured and kunikida worries; then kunikida gets injured and dazai worries

kunichuuzai:

thin ice over a monstrous depth by luminariums

Chuuya and Dazai are fifteen years old when Kouyou insists they learn the art of dancing. It shapes the way Chuuya views his relationships - until Kunikida comes along and flips his whole world upside down.

8k words, chuuya-centric, part-character/relationship study and part-getting (back) together. this fic focuses mostly on the kunichuu and skk dynamics since it's chuuya-centric but ohhhh it is. SO good

all brutal mirrors cracked by intimatopia

The one in which Dazai and Kunikida are swapped into each other's bodies by a mirror, and then their day gets worse.

12.4k words, dazai pov with established skk. THIS FIC. oh my god this fic i read it through like 3-4 times within the first week i found it. it's such a fascinating take on the body swap trope with good angst and a happy ending. i can get really picky with dazai angst but this. this fic. this fic does it RIGHT.

Listen to Your Heart by 4_the_tainted_sorrow_21

Kunikida gets used as a pillow for his boyfriends, but he finds he doesn't mind it very much.

1k words, kunikida pov, established kunichuuzai. very short and very sweet. they just get to cuddle <3

Cover Me In Chamomile by ChaoticQuill

Kunikida has a bad day, and his boyfriends take care of his portion of the chores.

6.7k words, kunikida pov. getting together/developing relationship + domestic kunichuuzai

A Trick of the Tongue by AbsoluteNegation

“Just because I lie all the time doesn’t necessarily mean it’s my fault I was cursed to tell the truth,” Dazai said indignantly and automatically. They both sat there while that statement unfurled its full glory before them.

47.5k words, 9 chapters, dazai pov. part character study, part getting (back) together. dazai is cursed to tell the truth, which he takes exactly as well as you would expect. but everything works out in the end <3 warning: this fic is rated e with smut in chapter 8 (i believe it's just that one scene with implied/referenced sex in the epilogue/ch9 but the smut can definitely be skipped)

and idk if you've read them or not but here are my fics as well:

warm leftovers

after the threesome, kunikida and dazai take chuuya home

2.1k words, chuuya pov, established kunidazai + pre-kunichuuzai. personally one of my favorite bsd fics i've written i think

desperate prayers of a cursed man

dazai can't remember the last time he slept through the night. if anyone were to ask, he'd say it's not a problem. but when the rest of the world is asleep, humanity is a hard thing to come by.

4k words, mostly a dazai character study with background established kunichuuzai tbh

though i burn, how could i fall?

kunikida assumes the position of agency president. somewhere between shaking hands, pastry boxes, and dazai leaving the door open, he learns leadership also means knowing when to take a step back and trust others will help you shoulder your burdens.

8.8k words, kunikida-centric. spawned a series that currently has two other fics but since this is the first, it can easily be read as a stand alone. features kunikida with hand tremors and dazai with chronic leg pain + crutches

if you look back and you hate my past

dazai contemplates his (lack of) humanity while kunikida tends to his wounds

3.3k words, dazai character study, pre-kunidazai with nods towards past skk. i wrote this after i finished reading dazai's entrance exam light novel and had a breakdown

the sound of love 

kenji gets sick. luckily, he has a lot of people who are looking out for him.

4.5k words, kenji-centric with established kunichuuzai mostly in the background but there are soft and sweet moments with them so i'm adding it too

i'm probably forgetting other fics i've read and enjoyed but this is long enough as is so i'll just leave it here skgfhgjhk hopefully you can find some stuff in here that looks interesting 🫶

[grimmweepers]

✦ intro: ryu, 25, she/her, sagittarius, infj, straight as a circle and the switchiest of switches

✦ fandoms you can find on here: genshin, jjk, hq, obey me, bsd, aot, black butler, naruto, one piece + more

✦ i work two jobs so my writing will be sporadic. i only write when i’m inspired and for characters im interested in

✦ fun facts: i love doja cat, i’m a fragrance specialist, i have 2 tattoos, i once had 10 kittens, i built a murderous dps barbara, i once cosplayed as pieck at a convention

✦ my brain works like a broken record. i’ve been told i have the habit of repeating things but i can’t help it. sometimes i just say what’s on my mind and don’t process that i’ve already said it before. i’m sorry if it gets annoying

✦ likes: cats, make up, perfume, the paranormal, gothic architecture, classical music, doja cat, monsters, reading, giving myself a big beautiful bouncy blow-out

✦ dislikes: spiders, rushing, small talk, cliques, sleeping late, forgetting to put on perfume, forgetting my earphones, olives, my temper, and did i say spiders? seriously, don’t send me anything related to them, even if it’s a joke

✦ faves:

genshin: zhongli, ei, miko, alhaitham, wriothesely, clorinde, pantalone

jjk: yuji, sukuna, toji, higuruma

hq: tsukishima, hinata

omswd: lucifer, leviathan

one piece: ace, nami

naruto: itachi, pain, konan, madara, sai, rock lee, iruka

aot: levi, pieck

tokrev: sanzu

bsd: chuuya, fyodor, nikolai, sigma

black butler: sebastian

hsr: caelus, blade, ratio, boothill

wind breaker: togame, umemiya, tsubaki

demon slayer: inosuke, genya, kokushibo

ryuboards | picrews

[bnesszai]

uhhh how about tecchou & jouno + judgement? (you can make it platonic or romantic... i always forget their ship name lol)

orrrrrrr (bc i like giving ✨options✨)

kunichuuzai + safe

I can never remember their ship name either fosbfknskx

"Stop judging me."

Jouno feels his eye twitch. "Stop eating the egg that way."

"If it wasn't meant to be consumed this way, why was it made this way?"

"Because!" Jouno doesn't have a solid answer for Tecchou's question. The answer boils down to common sense but Tecchou has never seemed to have a shred of that. Jouno sighs. "Because sometimes you have to work a little harder for the good stuff."

Jouno can't see it, but something in the air shifts and he can imagine a smirk growing on Tecchou's mouth.

"I think I've worked plenty hard."

"Fucks sake."

Tecchou scoots closer. "Do I not deserve a reward?"

"You disgust me. Please remove yourself from my presence."

Instead, Tecchou presses closer, fingers ghosting his arm. "I would never do something to make your life easier."

Something crawls up Jouno's throat, sickly sweet. He tries to swallow it down, but the increase in his heart rate makes it difficult to do much of anything but choke on it. He grabs Tecchou's chin instead.

"Do the hard work, and maybe I'll show you the good stuff."

~

Dazai has spent their entire life at war with everything.

The world, themself, the people walking around, emotions that crawl up their throat, and touch that sends their skin crawling. Danger was at every corner. It lived within themself and every single piece of the world around them. Living in the shipping container was a means of solitude, a means of escape. It meant that they were alone, without prying eyes or wandering hands or anything that might make them feel.

Death they fought with the most, solely because death refused to come to them.

"Oi, idiot," Chuuya says, snapping Dazai out of their thoughts. "Whatever you're thinking about, stop."

Dazai grins. "I was thinking about how fun it would be to send the Mafia a bomb threat but have it merely be a confetti bomb planted on your desk."

"You piece of shit."

"Dazai, please stop riling Chuuya up," Kunikida sighs.

Pouting, Dazai flops over Kunikida's lap. "But it would be so fun. I can imagine Mori's face."

"Look at my fave instead," Kunikida says, and then seems to realize. His face flushes and he tries to push Dazai away.

"What a wonderful idea," Chuuya says, draping themself over the back of the couch. Their fingers brush against Dazai's cheek and Dazai leans into the touch.

"Yeah," Dazai agrees, grabbing Kunikida's hands. "Let me admire you."

"Don't--"

Kunikida doesn't get to finish his thought before Dazai lunges forward, kissing his cheeks, forehead, nose, eyes, every inch of his face.

"My turn," Chuuya says, but surprises Dazai by gripping their face and peppering them in kisses.

A mere five years ago, Dazai would have never let themself truly laugh or be held or touch anyone else with any sort of gentleness.

Now, Dazai giggles, safe and warm under the hands of their partners.

[tenjikyu]

Not gonna say a lot but

Ran and Dazai

(Dazai and Mikey, both the bane of waitresses)

Kunikida and Kisaki

Kunikida and Draken

Atushi and Takemichi

Atushi and Hakkai

Smiley and Nikolai

Mitsuya and Sigma (they would drink tea together)

Lucy and Chifuyu

Chuuya and Chifuyu

(Fyodor would find Kazutora's psyche interesting, but he'd definitely toy with him)

(do NOT put Kisaki and Fyodor in the same room.)

Hang on let bro cook he’s onto something 😃

I’m resisting the urge to write an AU where these mfs meet

Also just saying Fyodor would cook Kisaki up and make him into a full course meal. Kisaki wouldn’t stand a chance against Fyodor. 👏🏻

Lucy & Chifuyu would get on SO well thank you for giving me that eye opening piece of information.

Atsushi and Takemichi can bond over being reduced to useless protags in favour for the mysterious fan fave by the fandom (which is WRONG THEYRE both top tier protags let me give you a 50 page essay on why-)

Dazai and Mikey would send Kunikida and Draken into cardiac arrest, especially if you add Ranpo into the mix.

MITSUYA AND SIGMA MY BELOVED PURPLE HAIRED CHARACTERS !! They’d also bond over keeping the fort down for their organisation/gang as well as being absolute UNITS in battle.

May I also bring to your attention Hina and Louisa? They’d bond SO quickly with being the backbones of their boyfriend/boss, + Hina’s gentle nature would be SO good with Louisa’s timid personality.

Emma and Ranpo. The duo nobody knew they needed but when you think about it you’ll KNOW I’m right.

Bonten!Mikey and PM!Dazai would cook ESPECIALLY PM!Boss Dazai. (By cook I mean attempt to defeat eachother, I’ll let you decide who’s gonna win.)

Sanzu & Q have the ability to achieve world domination.

Put Nikolai in a room with Smiley and Japan itself would crumble.

Look what you’ve done to me anon 😕 (jk ily for this imma be thinking about this for the next 3 days)

[musicalmoritz]

BSD Fandom Groupthink

Note: At some point during this yap session I mention my dislike for the Atsushi and Lucy ship. This is not a shipping essay but it is mentioned, and I’m pretty blunt about it, so if that’s going to bother you please just scroll. I also mention Hisoka for like a sentence so TW

It’s very interesting to me how fandoms can shape individual opinions via groupthink. The first time I watched bsd, I understood the themes perfectly. I really admired Dazai’s character arc for his growth towards the light, and how he was able to use the harmful skills he learned in the mafia for good. I wasn’t exactly jumping for joy when his past with Akutagawa was revealed, but I accepted it as a necessary part of both of their character arcs. I didn’t dwell on that or him leaving Chuuya behind in the mafia, because I understood that his character was meant to be morally gray and that the bad things he does move the story along (same with characters like Mori and Fukuchi). I viewed the core themes of the story as overwhelmingly hopeful, to the point that it got a little cheesy even for me. And I want to reiterate that I had nothing but positive feelings towards Dazai

Then I get on TikTok and- *heavy sigh*. Then I get on TikTok and all I see are Dazai hate posts. He’s still the most popular character so I’m not trying to pull the “woe is me” card saying it’s rare to like him or anything. But I was genuinely confused because the overall attitude towards this character I had never even been mildly annoyed with was “ohmygod when will this gross bitch shut up.” I say gross because of the overload of jokes abt him not changing his bandages. It was basically the same post over and over again, even the guy’s fans couldn’t stand him. Granted, a lot of it was jokes, but the joke had gone to the extent that saying anything to contradict it was deemed a sign of poor reading comprehension. After all, they did have some credibility. Dazai has done a lot of bad things, so if you don’t hate him at least a little then obviously that means you support abuse

Now, as someone who was new to the fandom and wanted to fit it, I quickly conformed to this mindset. I felt bad for Chuuya because Dazai abandoned him, even tho before I entered the fandom I had never once paused to question how Dazai leaving impacted Chuuya. I acted frustrated with Dazai for abusing Akutagawa, even tho I had previously thought that was a very interesting plot point that added a lot to both characters. I slandered Dazai every time I talked about him, which confused one of my friends since she remembered me initially loving him. For a bit, I even called Chuuya my favorite character because that was more acceptable than saying Dazai (nowadays you get called basic for having either of them as a fave so me and Chuuya fans are in the same boat)

It wasn't until I found other Dazai fans that actually understood his character that I realized it was okay to stand by my own opinions. This sort of snapped me out of that hive mindset and made me realize that I'd been subconsciously changing my opinions to fit in with the fandom. It helped me to take a step back and to my own analyses, make my own assessments. I was able to disagree with Dazai defenders more easily than I initially could with the rest of the fandom because I felt encouraged to start thinking for myself again

I know what some of you are probably thinking, "Roxy, it sounds like you were just being a pussy," and I was. But the thing is, this wasn't usual for me. I joined the bsd fandom after years of doing my own heated analysis for other fandoms and priding myself on being different. So it's weird to me that bsd is the fandom that made me a sheep. I will say that the bsd fandom has an insane amount of discourse, more than other fandoms even, and they can't really handle other people having different interpretations. This is true of a lot of TikTok fandoms tho, and I got TikTok as I was getting into bsd so it could just be that I chose the wrong platform (Tumblr bsd fans are literally so much better I love ya'll)

Another moment of cognitive dissonance I had was with shipping. I don’t often talk about ships I dislike so if that’s going to offend you, look away now (I’ve given two disclaimers know pls don’t come for me)

When I first watched bsd, I absolutely hated the Atsushi and Lucy romance. I thought it was so forced, and that they were essentially the Chipmunk/Chipette versions of each other. My sister agreed with me so we just kind of made faces whenever they were on screen together. That’s not to say I hated either of their characters, I actually loved both of them a lot. Just not together yk

But when I got on TikTok…holy shit people defend that pairing with their lives. And no shade, I’ll always support people defending something they love. The problem is so many of the shippers followed the rhetoric of “we have to protect the innocent straight ship from the evil gay one.” It really rubbed me the wrong way and didn’t do anything to increase my enjoyment of the ship. In fact I don’t have many straight bsd ships for that reason, I don’t like how they’re viewed as the only healthy ones in order to put down the queer ships. This is coming from someone who’s a big fan of a lot of straight ships, I just can’t really stomach a lot of the bsd ones. At first I even viewed Tachihara and Gin as siblings but I got over that interpretation was I found out abt Aku and Gin being siblings. Nowadays, if I had to pick a favorite straight bsd ship it would most definitely be Tachi//Gin, I think they’re super cute

Got a little off subject there so onto the cognitive dissonance. Just like with Dazai, I pretended to like the straight ships that the fandom protected so dearly. I sought out edits and scrolled to the comments only to immediately find people bringing up rival queer ships for the characters…literally every single time. I looked at headcanon posts and scrolled through ship accounts to try and see the appeal. Then one day I had to take a step back and ask myself why I was looking at content for a ship I didn’t like. Why did I care so much about making myself like something that clearly wasn’t for me? My favorite ships were already the most popular, so wasn’t I already conforming? Why did I feel the need to conform more, when my personal ships weren’t impacting these people whatsoever??

This even led me to abandon ships I once loved. I dropped a Kouyou and Yosano fic I was reading because I saw so many posts about how the ship is lesbiphobic and shallow. This is particularly upsetting because femslash is obviously very important to me, and without Kou//sano I didn’t find a lot of it in the bsd fandom. Rest assured, I’m back to loving the ship, but it took me way to long to accept that I was allowed to like something other fans deemed problematic…which is a lesson I thought I already knew. I was a fucking Hisoka fan before I watched or read bsd, you’d think I would know a thing or two about unpopular opinions

I recognize that a lot of this is personal issues, I am a people pleaser to a fault. But since I’ve learned to stop this behavior, I’ve begun recognizing it in others more and more. Fans who repeat other people’s arguments when they haven’t done any analysis themselves. Fans who admit to pretending to like popular things just so they won’t get “cancelled.” Fandoms, especially the bsd fandom, having mass trends of hating on or loving one specific thing. And a questionable number of fans who seem to agree with everything the fandom says

Guys. You’re not gonna get cancelled for having a different opinion. Okay, if you like Mori you might (Mori fans I’m literally so sorry for ya’ll, you guys have it so rough). But guess what? That’s okay. Do not sacrifice something you enjoy or try to force yourself to like something you don’t just to appease strangers on the internet. It may sound small since we’re talking abt fictional characters here, but these habits will set you up for independent thinking later on in life. Professors and employers admire individuals who are able to think for themselves. People in general admire others who can think for themselves. Also fandom is something that should be fun, you shouldn’t stress yourself out over a difference of opinion. I got into bsd during a pretty vulnerable time in my life so it’s no wonder it took me awhile to strengthen my own opinions. If you’re a person like me who attaches the things you love so much to your identity, it can be hard to see people shitting on those things. You either double down or conform. Either way your harmless opinion has no tangible impact on anyone else in the fandom so it’s much better to stand by your own preferences

So the message here is don’t be a little bitch, develop a mind of your own. And also the TikTok BSD fandom sucks ass

[ticklish-n-stuff]

🌸~My fave fics:

🌸Blue Lock🌸

The elephant in the room @/giggly-squiggly

Sore spot @/giggly-squiggily

A game of whodunnit @/giggly-squiggily

Heroes always save the day @/giggly-squiggily

Doodle boy @/giggly-squiggily

Of ogres and princesses @/giggly-squiggily

I think we can work this out @/giggly-squiggily

The most ticklish @/giggly-squiggily

Provocation and motivation @/tastybluesprite

Time to get up! @/lee-lucius

🌸Bungo stray dogs🌸

Delightfully indulgent @/helleboretks

Chu chu chuuya-san @/ticklygiggles

Liar @/intheticklecloset

Tell me what you want @/intheticklecloset

🌸DC🌸

Say it with me now... sleep! @/kourtniwritesagain

Time to wake up @/theritingraven

Near the wood fire @/nataliewritez

Lee!Tim & ler!Kon @/tickletastic

Call for help @/tickletastic

Okay, but who do you main in mario kart? @/tickletastic

Angsty @/13phantom13angel13

🌸Demon slayer🌸

Tktober day #6: chase @/duckymcdoorknob

I'm (not) ticklish @/mystwrites

🌸Dr. Stone🌸

Love your laugh @/intheticklecloset

🌸Enstars🌸

Comfort @/sunlit-tickles

Curiosity kills Arashi @/sunlit-tickles

🌸Genshin impact🌸

Lee! Aether & lers! Xiao and Kazuha @/italeean

Sakura x Kazuha @/italeean

Relax, it's just a massage @/lilianlay

A quiet new years @/fanfic-chan

Ticklish kiss @/fanfic-chan

Down bad for Wanderer @/silentprincesstickles

Tan lines @/keru0

You are loved @/keru0

Wake up~ @/keru0

Wonderous ways @/nataliewritez

Bubbles @/lovelynim

Nature's embrace @/lovelynim

Drunken love @/lovelynim

Jealous hound @/lovelynim

A poor bastard @/lovelynim

(Un)wanted company @/lovelynim

Backfire @/lovelynim

May the best one win @/lovelynim

Thomato tickle fight @/xsezzie

The table @/xsezzie

Scaramouche x reader @/ticklygiggles

Wild instincts @/ticklygiggles

A baton and a magic wand @/aticklishpercivalwriter

My honey ♡ my bee @/aticklishpercivalwriter

Ticklish interrogation @/wertzunge

Relaxing time @/wertzunge

An Adeptus' way to make you smile @/wertzunge

Nari's bakery @/ticklystuff

To scare a samurai @/ticklystuff

Bad luck @/anon-giggles

Ler!Scara x reader @/blue-little-angel

Sensitive paws @/kusuguricafe

A helpful Cyno @/featherlight-touches

🌸Haikyuu!🌸

Manhandling @/itslittlegiggle

🌸Honkai Star Rail🌸

Fox and the crow @/xsezzie

🌸Jujutsu Kaisen🌸

A simple question @/mystwrites

Just trust me @/giggly-squiggily

🌸My hero academia🌸

Love language @/ticklishfiend

Meanwhile, at the Fatgum agency @/rosileeduckie

Perfect three @/rosileeduckie

Rest day @/wigglywormy

🌸Obey me!🌸

Tickletober day #1: Anticipation @/giggle-bee

🌸Tokyo revengers🌸

Taught a lesson @/infrequent-creator

🌸Wind breaker🌸

Gardening advice @/fanfic-chan

[giggly-squiggily]

Out of curiosity, do you have like an all time favorite lee or a ler? Dont have to be from the same anime etc. just someone you really really love writing for or reading about👀

Ooo, that's a fantastic question! Unfortunately I don't think I can give you a proper answer though? Thing is- my all time faves change up a lot depending on what anime/series/game/etc. I'm really into at the moment. I can give you a more or less current faves list though!

Fave Lees As Of Right Now:

Chigiri Hyoma (Blue Lock) ~Granted this one will probably be a fave forever lols~

Dabi (My Hero Academia) ~This man is moreso a ler but I THRIVE for Lee!Dabi kjrjajrkejkarjekjrakj Something about breaking down such cocky bastards is just *chef's kiss* delightful~

Akaza (Demon Slayer) ~TICKLISH STRIPES!~

Grusha (Pokemon: Scarlet and Violet) ~I'm having terrible brainrot over him right now akjerkajrjejr I'm sorry- he is my BOY (brassie is a close second though!)~

Dazai (Bungo Stray Dogs) ~Need I say more? Cause I will if prompted- no joke. I ADORE him as a lee akjekjrjakrjkajkr~

Fave Lers Of Right Now:

Tengen (Demon Slayer) ~Just: YES. Team Ten-Ren is always a blast to write; throw in Mitsuri and you've got yourself one terrible trio of entertainment~

Sagiri (Hell's Paradise) ~Not to be bi on main but ✨Women✨; I just adore writing her as a Ler. She's got the best of both worlds: the strength of an executioner and the secret playful side you get bits and pieces of when she's interacting with others.~

Sidou (Blue Lock) ~I don't write him enough. God my Ryusai heart is hurting, I need to make more fics of him absolutely destroying Sae (and getting kicked in the face ala retalliation) akjekjajkrjejr But no seriously he DRIPS ler vibes~

Geto Suguru (Jujutsu Kaisen) ~LISTEN...y'all can't tell me this man isn't a ler. Even when he goes all JJK 0 on us, he reads such ler vibes karjkajkrjke I still love him as a lee but something about Ler!Geto is just EVERYTHING~

Douma (Demon Slayer) ~He's just- so fun to write wrecking people akljerkjarjejjk~

Fave Switches Of Right Now:

Hawks (My Hero Academia) ~Literally BIRB. I love writing Hawks so much; while I usually make him a ler, ticklish wings are just *multiple chef kisses*~

Gojo Satoru (Jujutsu Kaisen) ~Season 2 has made him a proper switch in my eyes. Like- he kinda was already but now we get more SatoGuru moments and I'm pleased :) It's just so FUN to write him getting wrecked akjrekarjkeajkr~

Chuuya Nakahara (Bungo Stray Dogs): Another one I don't write nearly enough of but my god it's so fun all around aakjerjkaejkje Especially when Dazai's in the mix!~

Gabimaru and Yui (Hell's Paradise) ~My soft OTP! I could write them all day everyday! It's a perfect 50/50 split on how I like write them- though I really do wanna write more Lee!Yui cause she's beyond cute.~

Bachira Meguru (Blue Lock) ~Literally a tickle monster- I love him getting tickled and I love him doing the tickling! It's a great time all around when I get to write for him ajrjaejrjkejk~

I'm absolutely missing characters in this little list but these are the ones who immediately come to mind! Of course if you'd ask me in a month or so who my faves of each group were they'd probably be different (except Chigiri- he stays lols) but yeah!

Thanks for asking! :3

[silawastaken]

So chapter 19 kinda slayed !!!! I would very much like to burn Mori for being like “yeah you can go to school tmr” bc what the hell blud just tried to top himself and ur telling him to just go back to school…. Someone give this poor child a hug pls

SUMMER!!! CHUUYAS DAD CALLING DAZAI HIS KID!!!! OH YOU MAKE ME SICK SILA!!!! also just the subtle mentions of chuuya not understanding that dazai is suicidal like “why would you jump that would hurt” TO REALLY BUILD ON THE WHOLE MISUNDERSTANDING THING!!! UGH.

Ranpo and dazai are my faves fr pls ranpo tell ur dad what’s going on plsplspslspsksplspslpls. ALSO KOUYOU MENTIONING ODAS DEATG PLS HELP A GAL OUT AND SAY SOME NAMES QUEEN LET CHUUYA REALISE (she probably also doesn’t know but one can dream)

ANYWAYS CHAPTER SLAYED AS ALWAYS CANT WAIT FOR THE ELISE AND ANGO ANGST TO COME FULL SWING ONCE DAZAIS OUT OF HOSPITAL PLS ANGO GIVE UR ADOPTED SON A HUG

Also praying screaming crying for chuuya to realise next chap plspslspslpslspskspsks IM DONE W UR GAMES MR NAKAHARA GET ON BUSINESS U DELUSIONAL IDIOT

the idea with Mori telling Dazai if he complied he could go to school was that he thought Dazai would want to see Chuuya, and you know, just pretend nothing happened ✨

APPARENTLY I MAKE EVERYONE SICK. START A SUPPORT GROUP. Chuuya just not even considering the fact someone would do that on purpose 😋

KOUYOU KNOWS NAMES. She just didn't give any 😋 she knew Ango cause they're in the same law school/class, but she DIDN'T know Oda was Ango's soulmate, and therefore didn't believe Chuuya would know who Ango is. I probably could have been clearer on that tbh

WE NEED ANGO TO COME TO THE RESCUE AUGHSDHD

oh honey... keep praying, because it'll take intervention from god for that to happen.

I'm pulling an all nighter (theoretically) so maybe new chapter quickly 😋😋

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

who's your fave BSD character and why?

what's your fave work of fiction?

Oppenheimer or Barbie?

Do you write OG stories too?

In your fanfictions, would you rather write fluff or angst?

do you have a best friend?

when writing, do you focus on plot first or characters first?

also how do you do such good analyses on characters with barely any screentime JFIRGR is that like a psych major thing? hehe anyways..

laast question: do you have a pet? TT and what's one problem (external or internal) that you want to fix in your life?

(lmao those are two last questions but uhm, yeah.)

(sorry for the rambles, im just bored and rlly curious TT)

Oh hello! It’s cool I don’t mind!

Favourite BSD character: This is really tricky because every time I think I have a favourite I remember something really cool about another character… I don’t think there’s a single character who I don’t find interesting. In terms of writing I really like Kyouka, Mushitarou, and Akutagawa. Atsushi I would actually hang out with and I am prepared to defend as an excellent protagonist. I also really like Yosano, Chuuya, Teruko, Ranpo, and Odasaku! Also my extremely overlooked fave is H. G. Wells from 55 Minutes… I love her so much she’s so cool…

Favourite work of fiction: Hmm… you know I’m honestly not sure I could pick a favourite. I’ve read a lot of stuff and watched a lot of things… however for the purposes of this blog I have been overrun by Trigun emotions and Hatoful Boyfriend had a death grip on me for most of high school.

Barbenheimer: Probably I’ll go see Barbie at some point. I actually don’t watch a lot of movies but this one seems pretty cool!

Do you write OG stories: Ohh how do I answer this…? Yes 100%. I have so many original plots in my head, and I have tried to write them several times. I have one ongoing right now on my side blog called The Capture of Light… I’ve been very slow to update but it’s there. My oldest story that I’ve been working on is a series called the Interworld… I’ve been working on it and revising it since I was 13. I worry it’s too needlessly convoluted though. The problem is that I’m never satisfied so I keep scrapping and restarting it… so can I really say I write them? :/

Fluff or angst: Angst all the way. I like to write suffering, but I generally will write in a bittersweet hopeful ending. :) Depends on what’s tonally appropriate though.

Best friend: Yes I do have a best friend! I’ve known her for 9 years now. She’s actually on here; her account is @doodle-storm. She doesn’t update a lot but I’m sure she’d appreciate it if you checked out her art or said hi. :)

Plot or characters first: I make a rough plot outline with key points I have to get to, then I make detailed character notes and designs. The way I see it, the best way to make sure your plot stays cohesive is to make sure you know your character’s motives at all times. That way, even if the plot winds up changing a bit, I still have a good idea of how the characters will react, no matter what situation I put them into. If I can transplant them into any random scene or situation and know how they’ll respond, I feel comfortable that I know them well enough to write.

Analyses: Hahaha, honestly the psych knowledge helps but… I think that might just be me. I’ve kind of always done stuff like this it’s just now I have people who actually read it instead of telling me to shut up ehehe. I think the key is to isolate the main themes of the story. A good story will have its characters all model or echo these themes in some way. From there, it’s a lot easier to read character motivations, even if they don’t have a lot of screen time. Another important thing to remember is “explanation not justification”. You should be able to explain the motive behind a character’s actions. This does not mean they’re justified. This really helps with analyzing villains or morally grey characters. It also helps you to understand people in real life!

Pets: None unfortunately. 😞 If I weren’t allergic to cats I would have a cat though. I love cats. They also tend to headbutt my legs a lot so I think they tend to like me too. I have to resist the urge to pet them every time. …I fail. Every time. I go home and sneeze for two hours with itchy eyes. It was worth it.

Problem I wish I could fix in my life: Well I have some mental health problems so I guess I wish I could. Not have those. Yeah. I’m looking for support about it. I’m trying. Hehe.

This was fun! Thank you! Can I shoot some of these questions back at you? I’d love to hear your answers! :D

[frankenjoly]

Akutagawa and Atsushi for the send me a character thing? 👀👀 I'm curious to know what your first impression of Akutagawa was like. I hope you're having a sweet day / night!!

Akutagawa

First impression: i didn't think too much of him besides "cool ability" methinks? then started warming up to him properly when starting to learn abut his story + development.

Impression now: I love him so much,,,,,

Favorite moment: if I had to pick just one, I think it'd be the "the words of your past" sskk scene (I also adore the fight against Fukuchi but I'm still sobbing).

Idea for a story: aus aside, the whole "established routine at the Aku siblings place with Tachi and Atsushi being around often" is Very Tempting.

Unpopular opinion: as funny as the omake where he shows his salary details to Atsushi is... I don't really see how that could be seen as him being a big spender/classist even (and I've seen a bunch). Like, spending a ton in durable clothes I can see, but not idk, gold-coated food.

Favorite relationship: Gin and Atsushi, I don't think I have to say why. Also Chuuya, for obvious reasons too.

Favorite headcanon: from an rp plot, the Akus adopting a kitten (the one from that wan chapter specifically). Also trans gay Aku, and Gin gifting him one of those reversible octopus plushies that only gets angrier as an inside joke.

Atsushi

First impression: I had a bit of a softer spot for Atsushi bcs I liked his will to go on and how he remained kind despite everything, but he didn't got the Fav™ status till longer.

Impression now: one of my Faves™ from bsd and one of the characters I write about the most, I love him.

Favorite moment: same as Akutagawa bcs they mirror each other, and how he goes all the way to save Kyoka.

Idea for a story: I have a ton, but to add something new... I wanna tackle more my idea about him basically having religious guilt (since the orphanage looks like a church and there's the director's design too, etc) specially around sex (there won't be straight up smut but there'll be signs). Mostly bcs, I've done/I'm doing it on rp but hadn't really used it for fic yet.

Unpopular opinion: I hope it's not that unpopular but, pls, give this boy his sass. He canonically has it.

Favorite relationship: To nobody's surprise, Akutagawa, Kyoka, Dazai, Lucy and Kunikida. And I'm all about sskk ant atsulucy, but ofc I can work with them platonically and so.

Favorite headcanon: transmasc Atsushi (and bi but that's soooo widespread it's kinda a given). Also he's a great cook and loves learning new recipes.

[not-poignant]

Unnecessary throwback, I just reread The Wind that Cuts the Night AGAIN (one of my faves) and I think about this every time i do, are there any authors or books in particular that influence your writing style? Because the vibes are impeccable in this fic and it’s something that makes me wonder about any inspiration you may have had <3

Hi anon!

I have read literally thousands of books, and I think every single one of them - especially the ones I've loved - have all influenced my writing style a little. From non-fiction to fiction.

There's definitely no single writer I want to emulate, because I pretty much never find exactly what I want to read out there. It's more like I find moments, and then I think 'oh I want to make a reader feel the way this writer made me feel right now' but that doesn't necessarily mean I want to write in their style? Or if it does, it will still be influenced by all the other things that have influenced me in the past.

*thinks* I've read so many authors it's almost impossible to single out the ones I love the most re: writing style, but here's a few: Ursula K. Le Guin, dgalerab on AO3, Robin Hobb (though I feel like I've aged out of her writing now), CS Pacat, Suzanne Clarke, Bill Bryson, Robert Holdstock, Mark Z. Danielewski, Asumiko Nakamura, Andrea Gibson, Martha Wells (particularly re: Murderbot), Hinako Takanaga, Chuuya Nakahara, John Fowles, Orson Scott Card (for all that he's a bigot homophobic dickhead), Sarah Monette / Katherine Addison, Alan Ball, Mike Schur, Brian Jacques, Cecilia Dart-Thornton, Dan Harmon, Randall Jarrell, Thomas Harris, Yana Toboso, Ono Natsume, Kim Dare, Moto Hagio, Scott Heim, Gerald Durrell, Tanith Lee, George Mackay Brown, early Lyn Gala, early Sidney Bell, early Roan Parrish, Ann-Marie MacDonald, William Goldman, a bunch of classic authors and poets that we don't have time for, Tamora Pierce, Philip Pullman, and like...more fic authors I'm forgetting, lol.

(There's a mix in here, including fic writers, poets, essayists, scriptwriters and novelists).

(Also I am under no illusions that I am anywhere as good as any of these writers, they're just the ones whose styles really inspire me. Except I know I'm missing like 100 others and that's going to annoy me, lmao, I am okay with being mediocre, when I have this greatness to aspire to).

(For all the people who've ever asked me to rec some stuff, there you go, there's the list sdalkfjas).

(For anyone who thinks my writing is good, all I can say is read broadly, widely, across genres, across mediums, it's the best way to improve what you do. Though I'm mad as fuck that the list doesn't have more POC in it. I need to read far more broadly).

(Anon I'm SO glad you enjoy that fic! It was such an indulgent little story :D)

[vveirdnobdy]

20 questions !!! I was tagged by both @fanfiction-artist-prototype and @salaapaoo so here you go !!!

how many works do you have on ao3? Currently 6 works, technically have had 8 previously but i've deleted two of them. One will probably come back, but I want to rewrite and rework it before then.

what's your total ao3 word count? Currently 32,948

What fandoms do you write for? Actively I'm only writing for Trash of the Count's Family, previously I have written for BNHA but I've long sense left the fandom. I am working on a fic for Scum Villian Self Saving System right now, but thats going to be awhile before it gets released. In addittion! I also write my original works, none published yet but one day! perhaps.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos? Heya Eruberry, Presents, Baking Treats, Autumn Leaves/Warm Drinks, and then Your Beauty Coming in a Flood

Do you respond to comments? why/why not? Yes I do!! I make a point to try and respond to every comment, mostly because happy chemical go brrr, ofc I dont always respond because sometimes im just hmmm how to?

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Probably Baking Treats, with Autumn Drinks a close second, both fics have an angstier and suspenseful endings, both were also intended to get even angstier follow ups that are just... not happening.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Your Beauty Coming in a Flood Defitnetly !! It's the ending that has gotten me kicking my feet the most. Though it is the first part in a series that have both many fluffy and angsty momments planned for, so it might not be the best to say ending for it. If not that defitnetly Presents, as that is very much my silly goofy lil crack fic.

Do you get hate on fics? Not Actively I have gotten comments in the past relating to disagreeing with ship choice, as well as awakward dialouge at times, but thats cause me and dialouge are of two minds, its silly goofy's or just a lil awakward at times, I think I am improving thought from then hopedully.

Do you write smut? if so, what kind? No... I do plan to... we will see how that ship goes, but as of this moment the most i've written is a kiss and I am heheuheuheuh over it, let along the smut i plan on writing later on dear lord.

Do you write crossovers? what's the craziest one? No I do think of them actively though, people who do KHR crossovers I love you keep doing that its so good its my favorite thing I love them. I do have an idea for TCF and KHR crossover, however the likelyhood of it being written anytime soon let alone at all is not looking good.

have you ever had a fic stolen? Not to my awareness yet, if anyone finds one of my fics on something that isn't ao3 its def not me, ao3 is the only fic platform I use.

have you ever had a fic translated? No I have not, however if anyone ever approached me about it I 100% agree, my only request is that it's onn ao3

have you ever co-written a fic? Yes I have, its deleted now, but it was for a coffee shop BNHA au my friend created that I helped with

what's your all-time fave ship? Im very much a multi-shipper so I don't really have one thats like this this is the one, I am very much a shipper though, If I had to pick a favorite though, it would either be AlCale or Dazai and Chuuya from BSD, because im so insane over them I cant-

what's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will? A MDZS fic i have thats an AU centerlized on Meng Yao, I do plan to get back to it one day and write it out, as i genuinely really like the idea, but its not on my list of priorities.

what are your writing strengths? Idea's I'm very good at coming up with ideas and silly goofy moments, and overall I think im a good writer. Another thing is when I want to explore something let that be a character dynamic, or a specfic thought process, you bet your ass you can get an essay out of me over whatever I have concluded, and that will be reflected in my fic.

writing weaknesses? Dialouge is probably my weakness, its always where I find myself in a writers block. Partially i think its because i have a very silly way of thinking and talking, and my writing can reflect that, which makes writing more immature characters specfically harder for me if its not in a joke moment. It's defitnetly where I sturggle the most, however I do think I've been actively imporving in it, which I'm very happy over.

thoughts on writing dialogue in another language? Unless its a commonly used phrase, I would just put in italics and specify 'hey this is a different langauge' However things like nicknames, and phrases I'm relatively confident most people should know, I'd probably write out in the actual langauge.

first fandom you wrote for? It's been a very long time, but I wanna say Young Justice, and it was self inscert, I do know its somewhere on the internet, however I will not share, so good luck finding it!

fave fic you've ever written? Currently Your Beauty Coming in a Flood, I spent months on that bitch I'm genuinely so proud of how it turned out, and I'm really excited to continue the series. A close second is My King which I just posted the second chapter for, and will be working on the 3rd right after i finish this. Both I have a lot of ideas and plans for that I'm so excited to get to and share!

Now I'm ment to tag people, but the only mutuals I have that I'm aware also write fics are who tagged me, so if you see this and want do it, just say I tagged you I love to see! Have a lovely day <333

[inkykeiji]

I don't want think about Jouno, being that. Nor do I want to think about Chuuya being undead. Which means dead too, right? My heart is in pieces.

Little guy just demanded that I stopped watching latest episode, because he wanted to watch too. I teased him that would still watch the last few without him. You should have seen his face. It was so adorable.

Oh, he and I talked about Chuuya being cured of his vampirism (don't know of that's possible, now that I think of it), how pissed he's going to be. And how devastating duo Dazai and Chuuya would be then. What do you think? -🦒

bsd spoilers!!

i'm not sure undead = fully dead!!! chuuya's case is different from aku's and jouno's because he wasn't killed before he was bitten; he was fully alive. but i totally feel u!!! all my faves are dying :// jouno makes me fuCKING FERAL THOUGH oh my good god i swear to the lord i become so fucking primitive every time i see him i can't even explain it!!! i love him!!!!!!!!

AWWWWW HEHE that's sooooo cute omg <3 i think it's really sweet that you guys watch anime together and have something you can share and enjoy together like that!!

oooh okay! so take this with a grain of salt but in bram stoker's novel dracula, there technically is a character that gets cured of her vampirism, so i wouldn't be surprised if there is somehow a way in bsd to cure those bitten before they died as well. i think all hope is lost for aku and jouno tho, which really kills me to say because they're two of my absolute favourites :(((

chuuya is definitely going to be beyond livid if he does come back from being a vampire HAHAHA aaah i have no idea how he'd feel to learn of what he was forced to do to dazai, but i'd put money on him being upset that it happened. truthfully, i don't think chuuya actually wants to kill dazai despite how much i do think he genuinely dislikes him (hates him but respects him, essentially), but i could see him framing it as being ‘upset’ that he didn't get to kill dazai of his own accord, in his own way and by his own choice.

if dazai isn't actually dead, i could see him holding this above chuuya's head in his trademark silly sarcastic condescending way without actually harbouring any hard feelings toward chuuya for what happened, since it was technically fyodor who did this.