#what a mindfuck for her
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[Image: three panels of Agatha ranting, starting out frustrated: "And I'm the evil madgirl with the death ray and the freakish ancestors- And the town full of minions- And the horde of Jägers- And the homicidal castle full of sycophantic evil geniuses and fun-sized hunter-killer monster clanks and goodness knows what else-
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And you know what? I can work with that!" /end ID.]
It’s really fascinating to compare the way Agatha handles the Heterodyne Legacy compared to her father and uncle. Because these are the two known generations of ‘Heroic’ Heterodynes after a long, long legacy of the Heterodyne family being known primarily as Evil Bastards - but they have such a totally opposite relationship with that villainous legacy.
Bill and Barry grew up deep inside that Evil Heterodyne Legacy and know all about how truly rotten it really is. Their father was an Old Heterodyne to the bone and an Extremely Reprehensible Human Being. Like, not just Cartoon Evil Overlord stuff - according to the Novels, he forced Bill and Barry’s mom to marry him by threatening her family. And he tried to kill them because they weren’t evil enough to his tastes.
And when their mom killed him to protect her sons, the Castle killed her in retaliation. The very manifestation of the Heterodyne Legacy has cost them their beloved mother who just saved their life. And all of this in addition to the fact a non-evil Heterodyne was really an unthinkable concept when the Boys started - meaning they had to work extra hard to distance themselves from their family if they wanted anyone outside of Mechanicsburg to trust them.
And Heterodyne Boys worked very very hard to prove to the world that they’re not monsters. Both to fight off against the constant suspicions that they were monsters, and because they most likely wanted as little to do with their father’s legacy as Spark-ly possible. For them the Heterodyne Legacy was mostly kind of a Curse, the thing that tormented their mother and killed her and almost killed them, the thing that makes people wary of them.
And as such, they distanced themselves from anything that’s even remotely to do with that old legacy of monsters, from anything evil or scary or messy or ugly. Much to the chagrin of the Castle, the House of Heterodyne’s many other monsters, the Jager Horde Mechanicsburg’s proud Evil Minion population and many others who felt abandoned by them for the sake of PR.
Then there’s Agatha Heterodyne. And it’s not just that Agatha grew up in a post-Heterodyne-Boys world where the general populace associates the family name less with evil barbarous mad kings and more with good-natured heroism. Where even those who remember the Old Heterodynes are at least willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. Where even those who would like her to be like the Old Heterodynes are at least willing to give her some wiggle room to express herself....
It is all of that, but more importantly Agatha didn’t grow up as a Heterodyne at all.
She grew up as Agatha Clay, with the Spark-Suppressing Locket that dulled her mind and made her a miserable klutzy mess who couldn’t do anything right. She grew up hating the constant feeling of being powerless.
And discovering that she’s a Heterodyne came up… pretty close to realizing she’s a Spark, and both of these revelations gave her a certain kind of Power that she never got to have before. She is now both a powerful Spark and a powerful political player in this grand Europa political chess board.
And as much as she has the same heroic values and upbringing as the Boys did (courtesy of Barry and the Construct Duo), not growing up so up-close-and-personal with the worst consequences of the Old Heterodyne’s evil means she’s not as immediately repulsed by it like the Boys were.
She encountered all of these old monstrous pieces of the Heterodyne Legacy - the Jagers, the Castle, Mechanicsburg, even just the fear her name can put into people’s hearts - not as the Evil Legacy Forced Upon Her. But stuff that was taken away from her, and she had to earn back. And in a world stacked so heavily against her, so determined to rob her of her agency and newfound sense of power, these things represent the assertion and security of her power.
For the Heterodyne Boys, the worst thing they could ever imagine being was monsters - like their father and the rest of their family was. For Agatha Heterodyne, the worst thing she could imagine is being powerless again. She would take being seen as a monster a thousand times over being condescended and ignored ever again.
Being seen as a monster isn’t actually all that bad at all, she discovered.
All of these things together make Agatha not quite the second generation of Actually Heroic Heterodyne or just another link in the Old Heterodyne Legacy - but another new kind of Heterodyne altogether. One that can both retain a moral code and embrace the family’s monstreness at the same time.
#Girl Genius#Agatha Heterodyne#misc meta#yeah#Agatha has had a very different life from her dad and uncle#heck we even have some parental loss parallels with this#Bill and Barry lost their mother because of their father and his legacy's evil#Agatha saw Adam and Lilith killed in front of her#both because she was powerless to stop it#and because she was viewed as an inherent threat to the world#what a mindfuck for her
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hey are we gonna talk about how in 2.8 how during The Fight when Sauron says The Line it was with Halbrand's accent. everything else was in that uber-creepy gentle elven-accented Annatar voice but that line was Southlands again. Hey Sauron that was fucked up even for you buddy.
#like are we talking about it.#because i'm going crazy.#WHAT DOES THAT MEAN SAURON#YOU DON'T LIE TO HER SO WHAT DOES THAT MEAN#i'm writhing.#the rings of power#saurondriel#i guess???#like he then went into mindfuck form-shifting mode and i am sure that was outright deception but The Line????#i'm not 1000% convinced that was deception. manipulation maybe but i do not think he was lying!!!!!!!!#what an ASSHOLE#like leave galadriel alone!!!!!!!! she never even got to fuck halbrand can you FUCK OFF
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Roy and Keeley were only dating for like a little more than a year and yet not only did Roy introduce her to Phoebe very early on, he also enmeshed her in Phoebe’s life so readily and openly that when they broke up they had to have a discussion about not only how they would break the news to her but also how they could arrange for Keeley to still be an active and constant presence in her life. I don’t know where I’m going with this, but I just think there’s something in how Roy doesn’t allow himself to be vulnerable with 99% of the people in his life but once you’ve crossed over into that 1%…well, you’re not leaving it. You’re family and he wants you to stay even after he’s told you to go. Also Keeley and Phoebe are precious and their relationship is one of glorious under-tapped potential and we do not talk about it enough.
#I think it might have been a bit of mindfuck for keeley tbh.#because it’s not like she’s ever dated anyone with a kid before.#let alone a kid whose life her partner has actively wanted her to be a part of?#so I think when Roy breaks her heart it’s like.#she just can’t understand. and it’s heartbreaking to be around phoebe without him. and she doesn’t know what to say to his sister.#so she just stays away.#lots of thoughts lots of thoughts#roykeeley#Roy Kent#keeley jones#phoebe o'sullivan
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psychologically traumatising sybill today my darlings… 3.5k words of trauma so far actually and i’m not stopping i don’t think
#sorry sybill#bless her she deserves better than what i’m giving her#going crazy over this fic idea i had and my minds not letting me rest til i’ve completely destroyed her#there are sweet moments!!! or there will be when i write them but….#rn it’s just a bit of a mindfuck
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One of the weirdest things about finding out you're traumatized/mentally ill/neurodivergent as an adult is looking back at all the very obvious signs in your childhood and realizing none of the adults responsible for you were paying attention
#it really is a mindfuck#like all of yall were really asleep at the wheel here#me: exhibiting very obvious symptoms of neurodivergence and mental and physical illnesses#ever parent teacher coach and other authority figure i interacted with: shes just Like That.#fun fact i when i was in elementary school starting in 2nd grade id have to walk to the front of the classroom and read a section of the#board at a time and then go back to my desk and copy it from memory because I couldn't see well enough from my seat and not a single#teacher said or did anything about it until i was in fifth grade. guess who needed glasses.#like they didn't even ask they just let that happen until my fifth grade teacher was like. what are you doing. and i told her i couldn't#read the writing from two rows back and she told me to tell my mom i needed glasses#anyways ms. [redacted] you're the only valid mfer in this place#not even gonna get into the number of coaches who called me lazy or out of shape in middle/high school (even though i was playing multiple#sports a year) when i told them i couldn't breathe after running for only a minute or two. guess who has sports asthma.#maybe this is just being the middle child but like of you're not going to pay attention to me can u at least not immediately call me a liar#when i say something's wrong maybe#those aren't even mental/neurological those are very obvious and easily demonstrated physical issues and you STILL didn't say anything#not even gonna get into all the very obvious signs of mental illness and neurodivergence
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i can't wait until we get a better understanding of the show timeline in s5 because what do you mean max might be in a coma and mike doesn't find out about the painting and they're all living in apocalyptic hawkins for 1.5 years???
#like logistically it's such a mindfuck for so many reasons#suspending my disbelief here but#max's body would not sustain being in a coma for that long without her body seriously deteriorating#and how are they going to keep her alive if most of Hawkins seems to be evacuated#like are they gonna have to transfer her to a diff hospital? are military personnel taking care of her?#also you're telling me they won't be in school for 1.5 years? these mf are gonna have to make up all that schooling?!?#and what about nancy and jonathan like they're just...not going to college ig?#idk but WE NEED ANSWERS#stranger things#stranger things 5#text post#mine
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WHAOFH
This is literally so fucking funny I was just laying down thinking about all the potential for stupid family/found family dynamics and was like. Man... I really haven't given Thrasir a lot of thought .... I wonder when she'll be summonable again..... Oh? Now? Hm. Okay. Freyja color sharing? Augh.... it May be useful to get her........ for studying purposes .......... maybe I'll give it a shot -- AH
#feh#i do like veronica i do have a soft spot for her... i'm just soooo fixated on the askr sibs lmfao#literally for real as i was laying down flat face down like. ah .... idk if i'll even get her..... like ever...........#maybe i'll have no choice ...... but to read wiki page........ <- my absolute last resort for studying The Character.#i REALLY prefer Having the character bc just the voice lines alone can IMMEDIATELY endear me to them#which is EXACTLY what happened like OUGHGHH..... THRASIR......... girl......... 🥲🥲💔💔💔💔#THE HOSTILITY AT ALFONSE. ALWAYS FUCKING GETS ME whether it's her or veronica it's always SO funny to me#and the softness at sharena....... ough....... AND THE. IMMEDIATE EMOTIONAL CONFLICT/SHUTDOWN.#ough.....#also hey. what even is thrasir's goal now. now that (as much as i try to ignore/deny it) bruno is like. DEAD dead.#like surely the bruno of her world is dead like lif's sharena and you know. everyone else on earth (zenith?)#but like. actually. maybe that doesn't even matter??? bc lif hardly even interacts w our sharena anyway????#feh lore always mindfucks me tbh i can't think about it too hard or i get all thunked out.#still i think it would be neat. if they brought bruno back. by. any means necessary.#thrasir
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????? Phoenix's monster has a name????? since fucking when????
#kotlc wings au#what?????#I named it??????#in chapter 28 no less??? not as an afterthought at the very end??? but solidly in the middle???#hello????#I genuinely had no idea i'd done that#she calls it goldie btw#because it looks like it has golden cracks in it#and she's like 8 so. her naming skills aren't the most advanced#anyway. wow. mindfuck
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will also say that all my thinking about bleach and thus also my old bleach ocs, i am rethinking ways to combine two of the stories i had for them (lorcan's story, and alice's story. like they both originally involved a certain bat lmfao) and now i am like. i mean it started as me just thinking "well this would be a good way to consolidate everything" and now i am thinking about shipping them together and i am losing my mind. how do i keep doing this to myself.
#bleachposting#lorcan's story was about being the original fourth espada and ulq being his only subordinate#(though lorcan would never frame it that way; he always tried to tell ulq that they were equals)#and then lorcan ends up getting really cagey about working for aizen and fearing for ulq's life bc he sees how depressed and nihilist he is#that he ends up betraying aizen and aizen goes ''lol'' and mindfucks him and then seals him into that crystal tomb ulq was found in#and alice's story is about. well being a quincy. being sent off to hueco mundo to be part of the jaegerdame. and uh. defecting.#bc she grows a conscience.#and originally her story was part of my ulq au where he reconstitutes from the dust cloud he became in canon lmao#and is like severely depowered bc hes still recovering (high speed regen only goes so fast when you get completely deleted like that)#and like. the place where he reconstitutes is his crystal mancave tomb. you know the one. from the masked comic.#and alice literally crash lands in there and ulq who is newly reawoken is like ''hey. why are you here. what are you.''#alice as a character is like a year? or so? older than lorcan#so lorcan's story came about way after this. so i am combining them. alice crash lands onto lorcan.#and hes like ''hey thanks for freeing me from my eternal slumber lol hey whats going on out there''#i think you can see where this is going :/#sighs into my hands. this is so dumb#literally it started bc i was like ''whats a slightly sarcastic and dramatic thing lorcan could say to her''#bc thats the kind of character he is#and i wrote him calling her a ''fallen angel'' bc of how she crashed into his prison#and i just. i mean it writes itself at this point. need i say more.
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The "Oh Dear God How Does Shit Keep Getting Worse" Nadir: Titus Andronicus
"problem plays" this "romances" that I'm proposing new and exciting Shakespearean Play Groupings for your amusement!
The Bad Dad Triad: King Lear, Henry IV Part 1, Romeo and Juliet
The "My Wife's A Floozy" Trifecta: Othello, Much Ado About Nothing, the Winter's Tale
The "Me And My Shitty Little Minion Are About To Fuck Up Your Shit Hardcore" Trilogy: A Midsummer Night's Dream, Richard III, the Tempest
The Falstaffiad: Henry IV part 1, Henry IV part 2, The Merry Wives of Windsor
The "Holy Fuck There's Two of 'Em" Saga: Twelfth Night, the Comedy of Errors
The "Dear Diary My Homoerotic Bullshit Has A Body Count Now" Series: Richard II, Julius Caesar, Coriolanus
The "Why Are The Fucking Trees Trying To Kill Me. Hate This Shit" Trilogy: Macbeth, the Winter's Tale, As You Like It
#cackling#shakespeare#new categorizations#i did consider calling it “the 'he made her do WHAT with his hand' mindfuck”#because seriously what the actual fuck is that scene#although#i suppose it could also be called “the elizabethan 'your momma' joke” play
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Maturing is just realizing you kind of hate everyone and you just have to suck it up and do it anyway.
#smaeemo#Life is a highway#i have that song stuck in my head#and also the batcave#like im imagining scythe curie driving into her house but house is the#batcave and her car radio is blasting life is a highway#does tumblr know about#scythe#Yay#RIP dean winchester#you would have loved youtube#ik he was still alive for youtube#but he never had the time for like actual videos#dude my uncle just discovered youtube and it was glorious#fully grown adults learning about modern social media is a mindfuck that I was not ready for#like my parents have tiktok and it’s very funny because they are so confused by the edits slang and ttends#its better than the youtube shorts they had before#my sister also asked me what SUSSY BAKA meant the other day and im embarassed to say that I told her in great detail
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i'm actually going to go berzerk. my lawyer is fucking me over horribly. i made an appointment with him some months ago about a horrifying legal development and he told me to take a hike so since then i've been exploring extralegal options like "tearful phonecalls" and "midnight googling and contemplating suicide." i've told family about the situation and gotten some begrudging help but it's all really just expanded the idea that nothing can be done without specifically my lawyer's legal help, because his name is the one on the books for this situation, even though he won't help me. my grandmother asked if she could call him (he is her old friend, her recommendation is why he's my lawyer) and i said sure because well. what difference does it make. at this rate i'm going to lose everything so i guess i'll try anything. i'm about one week out from making calls to the governor.
my lawyer told her he can definitely help me out and make some calls and get it all handled. after i've been telling her for months that he refused to help and laughed at me for expecting any. and they've known each other longer than i've been alive. even if he doesn't get this ironed out (though god i hope he does obviously) she's gonna write this down as me fucking things up. i can feel it. she told me on the phone that all she had to say was that she read on the internet that he can handle it and suddenly he was perfectly obliging. i'm gonna kill myself. i guess that's my bad for asking him to do his job, i should have told him that google told me he COULD do his job. duhh. 🙄🔫
#it's one thing that horrible things keep happening to me#that is one mindfuck#the real issue is that everytime something like this happens my family finds a way to blame me#when i told my friend about the situation months ago and told her everything i'd done she said 'wow you're being really proactive!'#and i nearly started crying because yeah ;_; i am always really on top of things and i always try to get ahead of any issues you're right#but if you ask my family then i don't know what i'm doing i'm out of my depth and i'm 'making problems' where there are none#god i just want this to end#i want every waking day to stop being a minefield of 'oops you didn't do this thing so now you'll lose everything 🤭 idiot'#i want to have nothing but normal people problems again#i've had some normal people problems in the past couple of years and they're so easy. painless.#i can tell i'm very good with adult problems#just not ones where the stakes have truly never been higher#😭#adam yaps
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unrelatedly.... Refreshing pickled ginger palette cleanser bc as Ive said Lev uses my english and habits for writing a lot of the time (and im heavily influenced by him lately), and lately ive been like "ugh god i dont know if im just not getting him across..." no lmfao, looking at how Hermes speaks in that last piece YEAH NO IM NOT CRAZY
#if I sit and watch lev which. i dont usually do when hes in my body bc it interrupts the brain sync shit. ive seen him a couple times#or more than a couple like hehe let me have fun with how you write bc its (autistic lbr)#i THINK you can still tell the difference but its hard for me to see beyond the similarities. like. i think im just used to the fact that#the last spirit ie my ex that i channelled for years before he got booted was very distinct to my style at concurrent time?#his blog is still up though do NOT listen to what the fuck hes saying because its confirmed 100% with everyone i know now#that he was lying he is NOT a pc pagan spirit... but if youre curious about his writing style his blog was cosmicallynightmarish#mathi didnt really talk much on her blog so i wont link that but. yeah no tldr i think lev has a distinct style but its subtle and he#majorly just speaks through my head. which. is a fun experience in the astral actually#God its so fascinating like last night i was just hearing his voice and i was like damn. wow. love this. you never speak so low or. rarely.#and then id be like hold on its english why are you Speaking english so id stare at his mouth and it wasnt moving?#i was like bruh. NOT AS IF I HAVENT NOTICED THIS A BUNCH BEFORE but it was so wild to be HEARING his voice so vividly#and its. projected in my head using MY language?? im like. woah. eye emoji mouth emoji eye emoji#~abyssal murmurs#leviathan //#BC LIKE. im in my body - i hear him vividly in the astral - i look in the astral - hes not talking in the astral but in my mind. like it#was a bit of a mindfuck to be receiving astral impulses from the mind of my body in the astral
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I just binged chainsaw man anime and manga 2 days in a row. You call it a waste of time i call it a superpower, we're not the same.
#one would think i'll prioritize the endless worksheets in my desk and my two unfinished projects that drove me insane for years#but noooooooo#it's MY free time and i get to choose how to waste it#my work assignments are gonna fuck me up real bad later on#but a free time is a free time and a show is a show#i'll be an idiot if i choose work#anywho what was i talking about again ?#oh yeah csm#well that was a depressing and a giant mindfuck#but overall not that bad#tho i liked better where i left it#the rest is confusing#and kinda dissapointing at some level#but at least i can get that off my watch list#signed by power's adoptive mom#she's my baby and we get along so well#i wanna be her. or adopt her whichever is more likely.#chainsaw man
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#like yes id have loved a little bite back for fun (i wrote a post abt it)#i love people who go 'what if it she said ok he doesn't want this so for his happiness ill call it off' (i rbd a post abt it)#and frankly i kinda wanna write a fic about it bc he'd freak out. we know he would. he'd be like 'no god please i didnt mean that#you have to marry me please please please' it'd be fun i know#but truly truly thinking she should blow the whole thing up bc he said one angy thing is. like. have yall ever been in a relationship or na#at the very least you definitely don't understand theirs#cause this line is also (i rbd a post abt this too) colin holding onto the marriage with his nails. and i think pen knows that a little bit @anastacialy
Respectfully? No.
These tags are so antithetical to what this post is about that it's almost insulting. Because, once again, it misses the entire point of this couple. Write what you want to write, but I don't think you understand just how out of character that would be for Penelope, and for Colin, too.
People WANT this comment to be Colin holding onto the marriage with his nails, but what it really is is a manifestation of his hurt. He loves her and she hurt him, and he's lashing out. Sometimes that's just what it is. Yes, he still wants to marry her, not out of obligation, but because they have history and he has feelings for her. But people really just want to gloss over the fact that she hurt him.
Y'all, she hurt him. Lying to him continuously and keeping that secret from him is a painful thing she did to him. So if she said 'fine, no entrapment then, we're done' that is, realistically speaking, the death of their relationship. He's reeling from the realization that she just kept an entire secret persona from him, and not a cool one with superpowers, but one that has insulted his family and him to the entire city, taken their trust and turned it back on them, and kept that truth from him even after they were intimate with one another. She lied. She lied to him more than anyone had ever lied to him. And he had to find out on his own. His trust in her is broken.
Thinking he'd go 'oh god, please I didn't mean that, you have to marry me, please please please' is such a. . .idk how to even say it- dehumanizing? way to view him? He loves her, yes, but like. . .god, how does that NOT turn your stomach? Taking the hurt and trauma she inflicted on him and then making him beg for the relationship? When SHE should be the one apologizing and trying to understand him?
I guess the closest scenario to compare that is the 'Goodnight Mr. Bridgerton' line. She calls him cruel, and someone writes that he'd be like 'oh, okay? So I'm cruel? Fuck you, then, no more friendship' and she goes 'no no no, I didn't mean that, I missed you, I value our friendship, I was just mad, please please please'. It's equally as out of character of a scenario. Colin understood she was just lashing out because he hurt her, and he didn't hold it against her, but you want Penelope to be petty and cruel to HIM? I genuinely hate the fics where she blows up at him for that line, because there's just such a lack of empathy for Colin's character in this fandom where we just don't CARE that he's hurt, and we can't STAND the fact that SHE'S the one who hurt HIM. It doesn't matter. HE doesn't matter. And Penelope can't EVER be the party who was wrong! So we can humiliate him or kick him when he's down, because he's the only one we want to put emotional labour into this relationship.
Wouldn't it be cute if Penelope bit back at him and then made him beg to have her back in his life after he found out she hid so much from him and lied to him? Wouldn't it be FUN to see Penelope emotionally manipulate him and have absolutely zero sympathy for this man she's claimed she cares about? Isn't it just such a nice, lighthearted read? Your fanon Penelope is an awful partner if she does that. She's coldhearted, and proud, and she's demonstrating that it doesn't matter the magnitude of her own harms, her hurt feelings take precedence over everything. That's not a woman worth holding onto, fam.
But a Penelope who recognizes that Colin is hurt? A Penelope who assures that she loves him? A Penelope who sees that line for what it is and wants to reconcile with him and make amends for the harm she's caused? A sympathetic, warm person who has the comment roll off her back because she knows who he is at his core and that's what matters? THAT'S a woman worth marrying and working through issues with. And that's who she is. Why y'all insist on making her a bad partner, and not to explore her character but just to make Colin an accessory with no valid emotions of his own, I'd never know.
This fandom just doesn't get it.
The entrapment line comes about *because Colin now doubts that she loves him*. He already was spiraling because he believed she didn't, and that she was just overcome in the carriage and didn't actually care for him. She didn't say that she loved him back when he said it, or when they had sex for the first time. She said she had to tell him something, and that something was that she's Lady Whistledown, but then she tells him that she loves him, instead. For the first time. So in his mind, she very well could have been lying about loving him as a save from admitting her secret, because that replaced her confession about being LW, and so the fandom's solution is to have her reassure him that 'Yeah, no, you're right, I DON'T love you' Not enough to empathize. Not enough to stay. Not enough to want a marriage.
We expect Colin to stay through a three year long betrayal, but Penelope to up and leave from one comment?
Y'all don't get Penelope and you don't get Colin either, frankly speaking.
I guess what I find most funny about the 'She should call off the wedding because of Colin's entrapement line!' crowd is like. . .y'all really don't get Penelope at all, do you?
She has loved this man for YEARS. She's loved him through his engagement to someone else, she's loved him through him saying he wouldn't court her, she's loved him through multiple countries, through her family mocking their closeness, through a potential marriage to a Lord. She loved him so much she couldn't even DENY having feelings for him to save what she thought was her only chance of getting married. Do you know how easy it would have been for her to go 'No, we're just friends, I don't like him like that, you're proposing to me and that's what matters'? She couldn't denounce her feelings for him even THEN. Even when she doesn't think he reciprocates them and she's made peace with a life with Debling and is expecting his proposal. Colin was *always* first in her heart, through all those hurdles.
Because Colin has been kind in a cruel world, and he's made her laugh, and he encourages her confidence and he's warm and he's gorgeous and he centers her and he values her and he listens and makes her feel desired and beautiful. He's a good man, and her love for him makes her feel good, she treasures it. Even in the books she says it feels good to love a good person, whether he loved her back or not. And now she knows that he does and you think one line that Colin says in obvious hurt after finding out she's been hiding a secret persona for him is enough to shake that love? She spent what? Half a decade looking out her window pining for him and now on the eve of getting to live a life with him as husband and wife, she's going to chuck that away because of one sentence? How lowly do you think of her? How *stupid* do you think she is? To throw away the love of her life over what? Her pride? This fandom's OOC Fanon Pen is a disservice to Penelope's actual character.
Her love for Colin is steadfast. It's made of tougher stuff than all that. It has survived everything that has been thrown at it. Distance, other people, Portia. And y'all really, truly believe that a singular statement will make her go 'Naw, I don't want it anymore!' PUHLEASE. Even when she offers him that annulment, you KNOW she knows it's not on the table.
Stop playing. OF COURSE she didn't call off the wedding. Of COURSE she chose to understand where he was coming from and went 'I didn't mean to trap you, Colin, I love you'. Of course she asks what the marriage will be and is comforted by the fact that he still wants to go through with it.
Penelope Featherington has loved Colin most of her life. It has been one of the few constants in her existence. He has been good to her in said existence, consistently. He's listened, he's cared, he's apologized to her, he's taken ownership of his actions, he's invited her to be more open, he's joked with her, he's supported her, he saw her when she was invisible. She. Loves. Him. And for good reason.
It's not going away because of one line. Or two. Or three. Come back next time when you actually understand her.
#like idt y'all understand: he WOULD freak out but not the way this fandom wants#he'd be like 'are you serious? are you REALLY SERIOUS?' because she'd crack his heart clean in half#and he'd likely have so much trauma related to love and marriage that he would never go through with it ever again#that is so fucking traumatizing what y'all want her to do to him and y'all want him on hands and knees begging for her?#when he'd probably fuck off traveling again to try to heal from that horrible mindfuck? When he'd never trust anyone for a LONG time?#i think this fandom really needs to have a sit down and realize that we can't ever hold penelope accountable for the pain she inflicts#so we HAVE to have it be colin's fault and we HAVE to have him be the one to put work into the relationship in a way we never want her to
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Otherworldly Attraction ⭑˚🔮⭑ 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑢𝑒
yandere!jjk x f!reader
yandere, reverse harem, isekai, jujutsu kaisen x fem!reader, slowburn, slowburn yandere
You don't know how or why, but you've been isekai'd into the world of Jujutsu Kaisen. Although your first instinct is to stay away from the plot, you've been blessed with an abnormal amount of cursed energy, and for better or worse, you find yourself sucked into the storyline. You decide that you may as well use your newfound powers for the greater good, and if you're lucky, you might succeed in rewriting some of the characters' fates. But it turns out that your presence in this world is an even bigger deal than you first thought, and soon, everyone wants to make you theirs.
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What the actual fuck.
You blink, absolutely dumbfounded. There’s some kind of grotesque, insect-like creature in front of you, buzzing obnoxiously as it flaps its wings. It bears the appearance of a fly, at least somewhat, but it’s much bigger than a normal fly, and its face looks like it came straight out of a low-budget horror movie.
The point is, it’s not normal. It's not the kind of thing you’ve ever seen before. At the very least, not in real life.
And yet, you’re the only one who seems to notice it.
“...I keep telling you, it’s weird,” a girl mumbles, scratching her neck impatiently. “I can’t get rid of it. There’s this chill that follows me around no matter where I go, and my shoulders feel weirdly heavy lately. I even went to a chiropractor to see if it would help. I feel so gross these days.”
The fly-like creature is hovering closely above the girl, a disturbing smile plastered across its already unattractive face. It’s literally right next to her, and not only her, but the other girls that are gathered around. They’re all just talking like nothing’s even going on. Completely blind to the abnormal presence that lurks nearby.
You’re the only one who can see that yucky-looking thing. How does that make any sense? How is it even possible for something like that to exist in real life?
Actually… where are you right now?
Once again, you blink. Something utterly strange is happening. The last thing you remember is going to bed, in your perfectly ordinary bedroom, so how in the world did you wake up in the middle of what appears to be a field?
You’re at a school, by the looks of things. But certainly not the school you’re used to attending. It seems like you’re even wearing some unfamiliar uniform, and it would make sense for this to be a dream, but by all accounts, it’s way too realistic.
Pinching your cheek doesn’t help. The scenery refuses to change, and sure enough, the creature is still hanging above that girl. It even lets out a shrill, high-pitched laugh (which she of course doesn’t hear), almost as if it’s taunting her.
You’re not sure what you should be doing right now. This is all one hell of a mindfuck, if you’re being honest. But that creature can’t be good news, and even though you’re admittedly pretty scared, it seems like you’re the only one who can see it. You’re the only one who even realizes it’s here.
Swallowing your apprehension, you take a deep breath and approach.
“Excuse me…?”
You call out to the group of girls. There’s no easy way to break this to them. How do you bring up the fact that there’s some weird creature in the vicinity? If they can’t see it, there’s no reason they’ll even believe you. They’ll probably just think you’re crazy or something.
As it so happens, though, you aren’t required to recount some absurd, seemingly nonsensical tale.
You’ve barely taken two steps forward when all of a sudden, the creature sharply turns its head in your direction.
And then it screams.
Just like its laugh, the sound is high-pitched and wholly unpleasant. You’re not even sure what prompted that kind of reaction, since it seemed pretty chill up until this point, but now, it’s trembling like a leaf in the wind.
You’re worried that you might have triggered it somehow, and that it’s going to attack you, but that doesn’t happen either. It turns out that the scream it just let out wasn’t one of aggression, but rather, fear.
So, it flies off before you can get any closer, and the girl who was complaining until just a few moments ago suddenly blinks, expression brightening.
“Whoa, wait,” she mumbles in disbelief. “It’s… it’s gone. I think I feel better now. No way. It’s actually gone! I thought it would never end!”
“Are you sure it wasn’t just all in your head?” one of the other girls frowns, visibly unconvinced. She then turns towards you. “Oh. Sorry, were you talking to us just now? I didn’t really hear what you said.”
“Uh.”
You’re not sure what to say. The whole reason you came over was so you could warn them about that weird creature, but it disappeared in the blink of an eye. It screamed right as it saw your face—which is kind of offensive, honestly—and then it flew off like no one’s business.
A bit hesitant, you try asking, “Sorry if this sounds weird, but where are we right now?”
Now it’s their turn to look dumbfounded. You can only imagine how visceral their reaction would have been if you’d actually brought up the weird fly creature.
“What do you mean where are we? We’re… at school, where else?”
The girl gestures all around her, as if it should be obvious. Granted, you deduced as much, but that wasn’t really what you were asking. All of this is just so ridiculous. How in the world does a person manage to go to sleep in their own room and wake up someplace they’ve never been before?
The group decides to walk away, probably because you weirded them out with your stupid question, and you can even hear them whispering amongst themselves.
“Why’d she even ask that all of a sudden…?”
“I don’t know. She transferred here just recently, right? Maybe she’s still getting used to things. It was kind of weird, though.”
They keep talking about it as they leave, probably not realizing you can still hear them. Whatever. You’ve got bigger fish to fry right now. As things stand, you woke up god-knows-where, and you just saw some freakish creature a second ago, so you’re starting to worry that you might be going insane.
The only explanation is that this has to be some kind of dream. A lucid dream, perhaps? That’s what they call these kinds of things, right?
This is way too freaky, though. Can I make myself wake up? I really don’t like this. It gives me the creeps.
You desperately try to force yourself awake, but regretfully, it doesn’t work. And you’re not even given much time to speculate on the issue any further.
A soccer ball comes flying at you and hits you right in the face.
It hurts. It hurts like fucking hell. In fact, it hurts so much that you’re knocked flat onto your back, groaning as you cradle your poor nose, which feels like it’s just been split open.
“...holy shit, are you okay?!”
You can hear a student running towards you, but since you’re lying on your back convinced you’re about to die, you don’t pay it much mind. The immense amount of pain you’re feeling is absurd. Even for a lucid dream, isn’t this too much?
However, things are only about to get weirder.
Like way, way weirder.
“I’m so sorry!” the same student apologizes. It’s a boy, by the sounds of it, and you hear him drop to his knees beside you. “I swear I wasn’t even trying to kick the ball that hard! I barely even used any force!”
From afar, another student chimes in. “Even when you hold back, you’re way too strong, Itadori! Is she dead? You killed her, didn’t you?”
Did he just say… Itadori?
For just a moment, the pain subsides, and clarity overtakes your features. You manage to squint your eyes open and find a boy staring down at you. A boy with bright brown eyes, and spiky pink hair styled in an undercut.
A boy that you’ve most definitely seen before.
Your jaw drops open. There’s just no way. This is… Itadori Yuji? The protagonist of Jujutsu Kaisen? A fictional series, which, by definition, means he doesn’t actually exist?
Yet here he is, fussing over you and looking immeasurably guilty for having just kicked a soccer ball in your face. And even though you keep trying to tell yourself that this is a dream, it’s getting harder and harder to deny. The sensations you feel—the pain, the confusion, and the excited fluttering in your chest—are impossible to ignore.
It all makes sense now. That weird creature you saw earlier was a cursed spirit. That explains why those girls didn’t even notice it. Ordinary humans normally can’t perceive curses. Most of the time, they’re completely unaware of their existence.
You realize how utterly absurd this is. People don’t just wake up and find themselves sucked into their favorite anime. No matter how badly some fans might wish for it, this kind of thing just doesn’t happen.
Or at least, it’s not supposed to.
“Wait, your—your nose is bleeding!” Itadori exclaims. “I need to get you to the infirmary! Can you walk? Or should I carry you?”
He appears frantic, which of course he is, since he’s a good guy. He’s the kind of guy who always cares about others. A guy with a big heart, a friendly demeanor, and a penchant for justice. Truly, the perfect protagonist.
…so, is this seriously happening right now?
“I-I’m fine,” you try to insist. “I just… need a moment. And then I’ll be okay.”
Itadori seems entirely unconvinced, so you suspect your nose is probably bleeding even more than you fear. Right now, you honestly couldn’t care less, though. Your heart is pounding relentlessly. The excitement and awe you feel can’t even be put into words.
“I’ll take you to the infirmary,” Itadori says again. He resists the urge to outright pick you up into his arms, and after a moment’s pause, he offers you his hand instead. “Here. Try standing up. If not, I’ll carry you there, okay?”
It’s difficult just to form a response. You’re overwhelmed by the sheer magnitude of his presence. The fact that you’re face to face with someone you never thought you’d be able to see in person, let alone speak to.
But even if it seems hard to believe, even if it makes you want to question your sanity, this is real. This is actually happening.
And so, you take his hand—changing the course of your life as you know it.
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