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@1rstflight is giving Kyle a fucking heart attack >w>
hal jordan has always been known as a man that acts before he thinks. brave and bold and ready for action, but also infinitely reckless, it had made him well-known as a hero. it had also made him a tragedy in the making, but that is perhaps the other side of being hailed as a hero to begin with. it's one moment, one second of a decision and then, the story shifts from glory to horror. this time, though, he can't say he regrets it. from his angle in the battlefield, he has a clearer view than what kyle may have while facing their foe du jour. he sees they are keeping him busy with their numbers, and while he has his own few aliens to fight, his peripheral vision always returns to his partner. it's when he sees them charging one of their anti-matter weapons; they had been here for the qwardian tech these people seemed to wield and lo and behold, they bring them out against them. it's when two things come to hal's mind in quick succession: 1) it's charging and kyle isn't seeing it, 2) it's charging and he won't manage to build a construct strong enough to shield him from this distance. it's almost as if his brain catches up after his body: with a burst of green energy, a bright flare trailing behind the older lantern, he finds himself between the charging weapon and rayner, pushing their assailants out of the way with the motion. the issue is, it puts him right on the path of the beam that the qwardian weapon fires as he shoots back at the one holding the weapon. the searing pain that burns through him disrupts the force field of his ring, but it neutralizes the two threats kyle had been fighting. it's a profit of itās a three for one, he thinks through an unhealthy dose of gallows humor, body plummeting down as his suit fizzles out into his civil wear. it's good they were within the missionās planet; it at very least has a breathable atmosphere, so the malfunction of his ring won't kill him instantly. the impact may cause him severe harm, sure, but he's survived through worse. if he doesn't survive, well, he's come back from that, too, is the grim thought that runs through his mind as his conscience fades on the way down. all that matters is that it's not kyle's body hitting the ground, that it isn't his failure killing someone he loves again.
He isn't anywhere close to getting overwhelmed, but there are still a freaking lot of them. Kyle had known when they'd gotten this mission that it would be akin to kicking over an anthill, but he hadn't quite been prepared for this. Their enemies are swarming, Kyle too busy just keeping them off him to actually do anything about the Qwardian weaponry that's the actual focus of this mission. That's just fine, though; if their enemies are too focused on him then that means that his partner is clear to go after the weapons.
And there's no way Hal Jordan will let him down.
It's still incredible, partnering with Hal; feels almost like Kyle's earliest days with the Justice League, standing there among legends as a rank amateur. Of course, he's no rank amateur now, and Hal has always treated him as an equal, but that doesn't change the fact that there's still just a little bit of hero-worship from the younger Lantern.
Kyle dives down into a knot of enemies, ring flaring as his will works through it. Whatever plan they might have had has gone completely out the window at this point, but they'll pull through. Kyle can play distraction while Hal takes out the weaponry that brought them here, and then it'll be back home for a celebratory drink and probably razzing the hell out of Guy who'd all but thrown a fit over not getting this assignment.
His ring constructs a suit of armor around him - samurai armor, this time; he's been on a Kurosawa kick lately in hs media consumption - as he drives off the enemies around him, entirely focused on the fight.
Maybe too focused.
Some unseen force behind him surges forward, driving his enemies back and knocking several out of the sky without doing much more than ruffling his hair. Kyle turns, just in time to see the last rays of the antimatter weapon fade away along with the green light of Hal's ring as his partner takes the full brunt of a shot that was so clearly meant for him. And then Hal is falling, his ring spent so entirely even his uniform fades away to reveal the civilian clothing underneath, and there is no time for thought. Kyle simply acts.
"HAL!" He's diving, his ring flaring as he races against gravity. Beneath Hal an emerald air mattress fades into view, catching and cushioning him in time for Kyle to reach him. No no no no no! One shaking hand reaches for Hal's pulse, Kyle praying silently for the man to still be alive. Hal's pulled through worse, hasn't he? He'll live through this, he has to. But overhead he can hear shouts; their mission isn't over yet. And the bastards just took out Hal.
Behind his visor, currently-emerald eyes flare and harden in angry determination. The mattress holding Hal floats down to the planet's surface while Kyle all but shoots skyward again, his anger sharpening his will, honing it, lending it strength. Hal took out the weapon that shot him, but there are others.
Well. Were others.
Kyle's not playing distraction now; he's going to end this and remind these people just why dealing with Qwardian weaponry is a bad idea. It shouldn't take long. And not a damned one of them is going to touch Hal again, either. The remaining anti-matter weapons go up in a series of explosions, knocking the wind out of the enemies' sails and most of them out of the sky entirely; shame, what happens when you connect your glorified jet-packs to your weaponry, really.
Only once the fighting is over does Kyle descend back to Hal's side. He's a little bloodied after cutting loose like that, a touch the worse for wear, but thanks to Hal he's still breathing at all; a few cuts and bruises are a small price to pay for returning that favor. Now he settles beside the glowing green mattress that's held the man he loves unconscious Lantern through the rest of the fight, praying the older man is still alive. He has to be, right? Kyle caught him in time, that anti-matter blast didn't just outright kill him, right? Otherwise the ring wouldn't still be on his hand. The hand that Kyle's is now holding tightly, his other now able to take time to check for a pulse. "Halā¦? Come on, man, don't do this to meā¦don't you dareā¦"
#1rstflight#kyle ic#kyle verse: honor guard#[so turns out it doesn't matter if it's soulmates or not kyle's still gonna lose his shit if Hal nearly dies >w>#went with standard tho bc#gimme feels about realizing you love someone/they love you#-grabby hands-]#halkyle: leave a light on
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Good morning, happy Thursday, who wants to read a fun idea I had about giants in Soul Society?
So! I was reading this @littleeyesofpallas post about wuxing symbolism and was particularly struck by this passage in a section about the gate guardians:
There is no central guard but conspicuously Kirinji's name comes from Qilin, but apparently according to official height he's actually not nearly as tall as Kubo's drawings always made him seem. Not that he was on the same scale as the gate guardians even then...
No, I said to myself, of course not. He's powerful enough to control his size, because I was thinking of the part where Grand Fisher claims Isshin is too small to defeat him and Isshin responds with a lecture on soul reaper lore:
Now, bodies are not swords, but maybe the same mechanic applies! It certainly applies to Hollows. Earlier in this same scene, Kon mistakes Grand Fisher for a Menos Grande, and Grand Fisher is insulted by the comparison, but it's the same thing. Menos are huge and scary, but when they become Arrancar, they shrink down and become scarier. [Aside: I think this is why the Yammy-is-secretly-Espada-0 reveal doesn't quite manage to hit. It goes against the lore Kubo has been laying down for ages]
On a meta level, this is just a shounen storytelling tactic where X is an indicator of strength, but then later on, it's like "Reverse Uno! Not-X is the real indicator of strength!!" That's exactly how this zanpakutou-size thing is used when it's first introduced.
Exhibit A: Renji, a court jester, being impressed by the size of Ichigo's sword:
Exhibit B: A handful of issues later, Urahara, an intellectual (lol), sets us straight:
Genre convention or not, I think it lends itself some interesting world-building. Among low-powered people, size is impressive, but as you scale the ranks of power, it's kind of pathetic. Weirdly large people are like the petty bourgeoisie of Soul Society power dynamics.
But that's actually the perfect niche for a gatekeeper! In general, your typical Joe Shinigami is going to be able to take on just about any rando from the Rukongai, but maybe not a particularly strong ryouka. Ganju was able to take on Yumichika, after all. A single shinigami wouldn't be able to take on a planned rebellion, like in the Bount arc, and they've got to, like, sleep and stuff. The Gotei could, in theory, have an entire gatehouse and a gate patrol, etc, but that they are perpetually short-staffed as-is. Instead, how about one medium-powerful gatekeeper whose size makes them well-suited for fighting groups of people (or siege weapons), and who is going to be intimidating overall?
Furthermore, it's implied that Jidanbou isn't actually a shinigami. He wears a shihakushou, but his axes don't seem to be a zanpakutou (he doesn't release them and is distressed when they are destroyed). His neighbors offer this comment on him:
It's not quite right, though: after all, many shinigami are from Rukongai, including Gin, who is the reason Jidanbou is being healed at the very moment this panel takes place. I think what this guy means is that Jidanbou is of Rukongai, which is to say not of the Seireitei.
So what is he, then? Here's my big idea: I think that the gigantism in Soul Society might actually be a reiatsu-developmental disability! It's always been my impression that growth, especially for powerful people, happens in fits and spurts, rather than linearly, and that furthermore, big changes in growth tend to coincide with developments in reiryouku. Somewhere, either in childhood or adolescence, someone's spiritual pressure grows more quickly than their control over it, which results in their body growing uncontrollably. They become very powerful "physically", but their strength is all in their mass/reishi, which takes most of their spiritual pressure to control. This may end up limiting the upper end of power they are able to achieve and some cases means they get cut off entirely from the other forms of power used by shinigami (connecting to a zanpakutou, kidou). I think this might be especially common in children from the Rukongai, who lack access to education and training. I can also imagine it leading itself to cautionary tales in the outer Rukon that if you feed your hungry children too much, you'll end up with a giant on your hands.
This offers one explanation to why Jidanbou is a giant and his brother Jiroubou is large, but not remotely on the same scale (the Souls Data Book lists his height at 7'7" vs Jidanbou's 32'5"). There are a handful of other shinigami of larger-than-human height, which could be a milder form of this, or it could mean that some sort of special training or medical intervention helped keep their growth manageable. I think you can squeeze in a lot of interesting character insights into this headcanon, from Hachi (8'5"), who perhaps worked exceptionally hard in an effort to control his power and ended becoming incredibly skilled at kidou as a result (interesting that he, too, is not actually a shinigami). Or Oomaeda (6'11"), who gets by a lot on his family's wealth and clout, but is definitely on the weaker end of the lieutenant power scale. In his case, his large size kind of speaks to his entire "thinks he's classy, but is really just gaudy"/can't-even-tell-how-outclassed-he-is-by-his-peers deal.
Then, as a counterpoint, you've got Hitsugaya: immensely powerful from a young age, and one of the hallmarks of his character is how in-control of himself he is, down to having developed an actual visible power bar for his bankai. Whether this is some effect of his personality, or whether it's an intervention on Hyourinmaru's part, his growth has been choked off as a side effect. He's the direct opposite of Jidanbou, who additionally seems somewhat childlike in personality (crying over his axes, for example, or his attachment to his extremely dubious "rules of the city"). To me, it's very sweet that their friendship might have roots in opposite expressions of the same reiatsu-growth-fuckup.
Much in the way that the Shiba use some sort of magic that's distinctly different from shinigami-kidou, I guess I really like thinking about other ways power might manifest itself in Soul Society outside of the shinigami-industrial-complex. And also the way the Seireitei may or may not try to control those powers."Guard this gate!" they say. "We won't actually let you live in the city or give you city wages, but you can have a cool outfit and, uh...do it for the exposure?"
#soul society worldbuilding#gate guardians#jidanbou ikkanzaka#soul society inventing new forms of ableism that are only accessible at the highest level of power. incredibly on-brand for them#toshiro hitsugaya#hachigen ushoda#marechiyo omaeda#this may or may not be relevant to zaraki (6'8") but that guy is in his own category#werewolves are also their own thing but i wonder if their size firmly predisposes them towards the 'melee' side of things#not sure we ever saw komamura do a kidou and his hex chart rating was p low#ngl even tho it's a little silly later on i LOVE it when the characters in early bleach have no idea how the worldbuilding even works#rukia-doesn't-know-what-a-quincy-is i am looking at you#like it's not graceful or anything but learning how the world works is a thing that goes along with character and power growth#it underscores how 'young' characters like rukia and renji are even though they are old by human standards#and also how soul society is not. uh. committed to the ideals of the free spread of knowledge and education#i just think it's neat! my favorite lil dystopian afterlife!!#the reason i read that wuxing post is bc i woke up this morning and missed troius and went to go scroll thru his blog and it was there#troius i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu i hope you're having a great day
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its past midnight and here i am planning a sweater i have neither the materials nor funds to make
#once 10:30 hits i enter a fugue state and i just start making shit#i was like making little drawings and grid patterns and looking at knitting patterns for few hours and then 10 hit-#-and i was like ohh. okay so i have to make a mockup right now#so i put on one of these really long series recap videos and just went to town with the yarn and needles i had#im not going to use these colours (maybe the same cream shade but i dont have enough rn anyways) bc i want a darker green#but idk if i will use a different weight of yarn im not sure about that yet#i think it looks really good in just standard weight (worsted or w/e) but ik it would take a v long time and strain my wrists/arms a lot :(#so idk what i will do about that. maybe ill look at the same style of sweater but w/ thicker yarn to see examples#basically i want to make one of those christmas sweaters that have the patterns at the top + bottom trim but tma style#its supposed to look like open and closed eyes if that wasnt clear#and i might do lettering in the middle if it will fit? i wanted to do the whole ''ceaseless watcher'' phrase but it would def not fit sooo#just the name is fine. i will maybe put one on each side (front + back) or if theres room for like 3+ than i could do a repeating pattern#its going to take a lot of math + planning tho so O_o wish me luck#i dont even have yarn yet lol idk what im talking about#i gotta get to bed....#tma#the magnus archives#ceaseless watcher#my art#kinda#knitting is art
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Yesterday I've been doing some proper physical exercise for the first time since last year and I'm just imagining how proud my f/os would be of meš„¹
#it was just a 20 minute beginners home workout and I can feel every muscle in my body now but I think they'd be so happy I pushed through!#I've had particularly Heinz and Maximilian on my mind I think they would be sooo happy that I'm trying to take better care of myselfš#Heinz because he's always there anyway of course but I kind of imagine Max is probably overall the fittest out of my f/os#he seems like the kind of guy who'd want to be an example for his soldiers and always hold himself to the same standards as them#he'd be so supportive and cheer me on and be proud of me every time I get myself to do somethingššš#I've never particularly enjoyed doing sports (aside horse riding but in the past year I didn't have time anymore for that bc of unišš)#so I didn't really do anything anymore after I finished school#I started doing simple home workouts last year but in winter my mental health went a littleš and then I had no motivation to keep going#dunno how long I'll go through with it this time but better than nothing I guess#again with the home workouts lmao bc driving to the nearest gym ain't worth the time for me and I'd need some basic fitness first anyway#I'm doing it mainly for health reasons but this time I'm also motivated to actually get a bit stronger#I don't mind looking like a stick figure and I'm overall content with my body (maybe it could help me to look a bit more masc tho?šš)#but I know especially for my posture and such it would be good if my muscles were just a tad bit more developed#my mum was proud of me too when I told her about it hehe :) she works in healthcare she's always a little concerned#she's just a little worried about me getting health issues when I'm older that could be avoided by taking proper care of my body now#I get where she's coming from but it's not easy but at least I'm motivated to try again now :)#selnia talks
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He's swiping right on literally everyone now. Fuck it. He's gonna find a date.
#[ nnoitra you already had no standards LOL ]#[ y e a h he does need a date tho 8) ]#[ man oh man i actually managed to sleep despite my cough ]#[ probably because i went to bed at like 7 lmao ]#[ today i'm gonna drink a ton of water to heal myself ]#[ AND WORK ON DRAFTS ]#[ thank you so much to everyone who sends me asks t-t i'm very spoiled ]#[ just gotta focus on drafts now bc people have been so patient and they deserve to have replies to our threads!! ]#[ cannot get over how kind everyone is to me hhhhhhhh ]#[ will work hard!! ]#despair for me. ā± in character.#burn the city. ā± main verse.#[ hope you're all doing goood! ]
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I definitely have some kind of undiagnosed personality disorder I am Not normal
#it's probably paranoid. tbh. cluster a at least#have forced myself to have some kind of filter bc if I posted all the shit I genuinely think u guys would Not want to be around me#me wearing a tshirt that says ASK ME ABOUT MY PARANOID DELUSIONS#cannot get into them all but it's standard fare I suppose. being watched hidden cameras being spied on etc etc you know how it goes#that's also not getting into my very strong belief about like. this whole potential serial killer thing Don't Ask it's years old now#but I went crazy w that one. don't worry about it tho#and then your typical self hatred and self loathing and seeing and hearing things on occasion#interpreting my dreams as having a greater meaning and thinking mundane things are signs. should probably bring this up to my psych#next month when I see her. I'll probably forget again though. oh well#there's also like. I know it's her job but I'm scared to bring any of these things up idk why but the idea of telling her all this scares me#idk though! cross that bridge when things get awful
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i don't usually share wips,,, but 'm pretty happy with how it's coming out so far,,, plus it's also killing my hand so i might as well share a sneak peek since 'm not continuing this tonight,,, dkjdkemwkjssk. anyway have i told you guys how much i like the fic vagabonds
#my art#my sketches#<- i guess that's my wip tag?#dsmp#<- for blacklist#services for vagabonds#anyway i am dying š <- dramatic#michael and tommy have freckles bc i do what i want /lh#<- same reason for tubbo have blonde undersides even tho he definitely doesn't have 'em in the fic#i'd say i can't wait for chapter four but honestly i can and i have been dkdnsonsks#still- 'm excited !!!!!!! been thinking 'bout this fic constantly#i need to eat the words#i need to print out this fic; prepare it on a plate with some condiments; and eat the words right off of the fic#<- things a normal person would say. (scorpio if you see this no you don't)#had no clue what to give as an outfit for tubbo so i just went with old reliable;; hoodie + collared shirt#i should really try and venture out more for him; but. ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ#as for colors i just kinda. idk man i just slapped some green onto the hoodie and then figured it out from there#and i drew michael's and tommy's outfits before;; they're pretty much my standard designs for their fic characters#added that lil blue scarf-thing for tommy recently; tho#supposed to be like that thing that one dog wears in that one movie;; disney's oliver and co. why? bc i wanted to that's why#also my usual tubbo eye color is grey but due to Reasons i don't think that's vagabonds!tubbo's eye color;; so i just went with green
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#went downhill yesterday already but Iām so full of hatred towards my familyā¦#everytime a conflict happens Iām reminded of just how many unresolved unaired issues I have with my parents and arghhh#worst thing is#grandmother had a point this time as much as it pains me to say that#and yāknow#and maybe if I was in a better mood I wouldāve just agreed and let things go#but she started off with a provocative tone and a verbal attack so#smh#disappointed in myself from yesterday tho bc I couldāve kept a better discussion etiquette#there are days when I see motherās language in my own sentences and Jesus#like. I donāt want to be like her#even in the smallest details#I will have to keep an eye out on this particular matter bc while it wasnāt exactly foul playā¦ I still donāt want to erode the standards#anyways itās so clear on days like these that the teenager in me that didnāt get to be rebellious wants their share#it takes a while to make the buzz of hatred calm down and deal with the encounter as seriously and objectively as I can#it doesnāt happen often but sometimes I argue just to argue and tire the other party out#ngl the argument yesterday made me feel pretty much like a kid again#the worst part is that while itās true that it was grandmotherās tone/wording that triggered the face off#she was right in saying that I was just engaging with her for the sake of making a scene so she isnāt ārightā#d0 stuff#I hate her so much though#none of this wouldāve happened if she was just a normal person instead of just constantly looking for things to poke and complain about#like I get it#this one was pretty much on me#(thankfully it was just about how to talk to people through the phone - I tend to have less initiative when talking to the vn folk)#so like. truly. nothing worth spending energy on ig#but sometimes she pisses me off so much in her holier than thou attitude that it makes me want to just keep it up until she starts coughing#do I realize the current state of things exists bc of how many unresolved conflicts I have with her? yes#does it make it any easier to manage this fucked up relationship whenever I should back off? nope#mostly tired (the phone call we got was around midnight so ://)
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#so thinking abt my inability to do things in thr context of my 0cd is interesting. bc i would say my primary problem is my obsessive#compulsive behavior and inflexibility. idk if thr inflexibility is inherent to me bc its part of the reason i got stamped with aut1sm or but#its part of what maked it so hard to tell if i had 0cd or not. bc im just so fucking rigid and structured abt literally everything without#any reason. y do i have to do X thing and i cant do Y thing? idk my brain just says i cant. which kinda does align with 0cd more or just#like something compulsive. and its sorta weird bc i think im a lot more aligned with purely obsessional 0cd. so i dont do a lot of external#ritual. its more abstract. like constantly i have to work or b perfect or else i start getting intrusive thoughts. always thr same ones. and#to make them go away i have to physically suffer usually thru overworking to my mental breaking point or sometimes more direct ways#when its really bad. and then i have to keep working. and i do a lot of fucking ruminating. fucking constand catogorizing and pathological#self reflection. again i have high standards and high affinity for self punishment which is a lot to deal with. its exhausting and misery#making. and the annoying thing is that im like this for a reason. i mean it makes sense. having a learning disability plus bad short term#working memory plus some mood weirdness. ive created a structure that makes me productive but also creates so much pressure thst i cant#function at all sometimes. and whats worse is that even then even with the amount of checking i do i am still a master of fucking up the lil#things. i forgot to write my name in the autoclave list and caused problems for ppl bc i forgot when i went up there Even tho i new i needed#to. i also forgot to put thr foam cap on a liquid nitrogen tank which would have been SO FUCKING BAD if it all evaporated. so many samples#woulf have been lost bc i just fucking forgot to put it back. that was just this week. idk i just forget things like that. i left a freezer#door open in hs and we lost everything in the freezer. i also fucked up an whole experiment by not reading a schedule right. and its really#frustrating not being able to trust that youve done the right thing in the past. not to mention all the bullshit i mislabel but thats more#dys1exia realated. alas. i check and check and get anxious spikes of: FUCK DID I DO X? for a reason. but also its no fun#unrelated
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Hwhwbwbsbsbsbyb
#sorry i remwmbered the way he :(#the. when i got teased for my dialect and he just went ''she said [standard vers of what i said]'' all serious like...š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ#like i was just doing my usual ''i will look at you in silence until you realise you're being rude'' bc i got sick of telling that guy to#knock it off and he was just ..š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ my heart skipped a beat ngl#I'M TOTALLY OVER HIM THO. DW ABOUT IT.
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i love the term omnisexual/omniromantic bcs it feels like god
#āÆ ź°ļæ½ļæ½ starry thoughts ą»ź± *Ā·Ė#omnisexual = omniscient = omnipotence#and those two latter terms remind me of orv and then gbf respectively LMFAO obviously so for the first but for the second#it is very specific to a certain guy ^_^ more like a song ..... but yeah ^_^#hiii i'm alive btw LMFAO life has been fun. altho i have not been taking care of mysef much and i am a mess. whoops.#i love my friends tho and it is all okay..... :3 life goes on and so do we! memento mori!#i'm scared to graduate tbh sigh only a few months more but i am so attached to my teachers and classmates and friends ... anyway.#last field trip in my school and in hs was just a few days ago !!!!! crazy.#i'm not going to ramble here even if i do miss rambling abt random stuff and also my interests for reasons#but uhhh my friends say i am pogi a lot ... <3 i agree HELP LMFAO but nah fr it makes me rlly happy and giddy :333#i mean there was also them calling me a fuckboy bcs look. all of us wearing our pe school uniforms.#but i wore my browngrey hoodie the whole time (found out later in the field trip i could not take it offeven if i wanted to for embarrassin#reasons i blame my forgetfullnes for) so uh yeah. my hoodie BUT ALSO my headphones#both of which none of them have seen me w actually which is funny. but abyway at some point i wore my headphones and hoodie over my head#+ a cap my friend lent me for the sole purpose of taking pictures of me wearing them (they wanted me to... all of them...) bcs i looked like#a player. funnily enough i took a lot of pics w my friends too and you have me and them like. Soft Launch pics. im two-timing..........#player fr LMFAO ANYWAY RIGHT :3#idk. confidence ig and loving yourself and also mu haircut in 2022 went a longlonglong way#short hair >>>> for me !!!!!!! also im probably a tad bit in asian beauty standards but in a cute way so rip#also idk i just. love myself LMFAO#i nerded out sm actually bcs one of the 3 places we went to was an art museum#which we went to b4 for another field trip so at first i was not excited but KABOOM. yeah.#so theres me playfully flirting w friends (cue in me being a 'player' too)#but also seeing a statue of narcissus but by an actual bond and also another named psycopompus uh i forgor how to spell#but a statue of one of those but Artsy and i basically rambled to my friend abt it and my fav teacher was there and asked me abt it AGGGGHHh#so yeah :3 bye <3 take care loveu all !!!!!#im not omnibbtw. i used to go hy that but isk i just go by pan or queer now.#party tho ngl bcs omni is less used and also harder to explain... so ya
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Local politics in small towns are so weird bc this morning my sister and I were taking a bus to go to a con and above the bus station next to where we live there are election banners for the upcoming local election and one of the candidates or whatever it's called is an old friend of our mom who's basically an old family friend who walked all the way from the other side of town to get to my little sister's bat-mitzvah a few weeks ago So the bus gets to the station and both of us haven't seen the guy irl in a while and my sister's skin was blue as a kinda Chiss/Thrawn cosplay and as I get on the bus I catch the eye of a guy that just got off the bus and it's the fucking election candidate that has known me since I was a child but he wouldn't recognize me nor my sister bc she's blue and I now have a buzzcut what is this place
#we had a rosh hashana meal with family friends#and turns out my elementary school crush's dad is also running for smth local????#my mom used to be a local politician also it's v weird#there are two guys running for office or whatever currently i know pretty well#so first time the banner was in the bus station i went there at like 7 in the morning half asleep and suddenly above me was that fucking gu#i never thought people knew people in my town bc it is pretty big#(not in american standards tho)#but i do know so many people i hate it
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I was at 67 pity and I got Al-Haitham in the first ten-pull!!! Also got Xinyan's C5 in the same pull
Then I got Jean's C2 and Yanfei's C6 with five standard wishes from the tree & levelling up Haitham
I'm crying what is happening tonight I need to go buy lottery tickets or something omfg
#i was FULLY PREPARED to grind through this patch to get him if I lost the 50/50#I can now devote my energies to the weapon banner and I usually win the 50/50 on featured vs standard#but not the 50/50 for the one I'm aiming for#but that's okay bc my strongest character is Xiao and a PJWS R2 would be amazing on him too#but i dearly hope I get Haitham's weapon#not holding my breath tho bc I've been really lucky with the weapons banner already#just#AHHHHHHHHHH#genshin impact#i was so surprised I forgot to take a screenshot lmao#i went to the place he was at in thw teaser#and had the other three sumeru husbandos on my team with one empty spot#abd i set the time to late afternoon#and just. BAM. im still riding the high lmao#but i need to get back to work#i have to finish a lot of assignments by the end of the month#BUT HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FOCUS?!?!#al-haitham#genshin#laisai plays video games
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hi sorry to bother u about this, i searched around transmasc subreddits for an answer to this and while i saw a few people joking about getting dry cramps, nobody seems to know what this is. and i vaguely remember seeing a post by you mentioning "mystery cramps" in a post also about vaginal atrophy, but I didnt pay attention to the post much at the time bc at that point i wasnt experiencing atrophy or mystery cramps.
but now I'm a bit over a year on T, (my periods stopped only about 4 months ago though, because i was on a much lower dose than most for a lot longer time than most. that ~4 months ago time frame lines up with upping my dose from 0.2 to 0.3ml. i'm on 0.4ml tho now as of about 3 weeks ago) and suddenly i'm getting "mystery cramps" sometimes, it seems to happen especially the night before my T-shot day, (but i cant say that with certaintyāi know i'm having them right now and my shot day is tomorrow morning, and i think thats been the case, but i dont know for sure) and they feel exactly like period cramps. to the point where i feel super paranoid that maybe i've been injecting improperly and the testosterone isnt absorbing right and my period is actually coming back. (something i often have nightmares about)
i searched your blog again for that post and did find it, (the one about estradiol cream treating it) but the wording of it is a little unclear and i wanted to just clarify that this is the same thing youre talking about? or if what im experiencing is different than the "mystery cramps" you meant and i should see a doctor
I am for sure not a doctor, and I think you should see one either way!
My personal understanding of the "mystery cramps" is that it's a part of "vaginal atrophy" that some, but not all trans folks who go on T experience, and it usually doesn't start until a couple of years on T ( which is also, to my knowledge, based on more standard doses as opposed to "low-dose" T).
Mine started about two years in, and was happening occasionally at first- always at night, and often the day before my T shot- then progressed to several nights a week over time. Nowadays I tend to experience cramping almost every time I so much as miss one dose of estradiol. Ibuprofen and Midol are the only OTC pain relievers that seem to do the trick, and the cramping will keep me up through the entire night untreated. It also tends to come in fairly predictable waves (spaced maybe 15-30 minutes apart) and right before I started estradiol, I remember getting some light spotting as well.
iirc, I talked to my PCP when it was just starting up, and their response was along the lines of "that's weird, let's keep an eye on it". I moved and didn't have a PCP for a while, so when the spotting started, I went to a walk-in urgent care clinic and talked to them. They gave me a referral for an ultrasound, and encouraged me to go to a "women's health" clinic that had long history of specializing in trans care as well. When I talked to the folks at that clinic, they encouraged me to go through with the ultrasound (I didn't), and prescribed estradiol cream because I asked them to and they didn't see a reason not to try it.
If you think it's possible this is what's going on with you, I would really encourage you to talk to a doctor, specifically bring up research around this issue and estradiol cream as a treatment option, and ask them if there's a reason not to try it just to see if it does anything for you. If nothing else, estradiol cream also treats vaginal dryness, tightness, and inflammation (other symptoms of "vaginal atrophy"), so it might be worth a shot for those reasons anyway!
And don't do what I did; if they want you to do an ultrasound or whatever else, go with it, and rule out other possibilities. Listen to medical advice from medical professionals who know your medical history and who you trust are listening to you & know what they're talking about.
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Not me deciding that I wanna figure out how does Macaques dojo work, cuz I couldnt seem to find any ideas of it on the internet lol
Okay so long long LONG rant:
Ik that in canon the whole place looks kinda-- moldy and shit and I get the lot of hc about how Macaque probably doesnt even live there since its in a very industrial outer neighborhood of Megaplois, and also it probably isnt really decorated or looks like someone is living in there at all, but I like to think that he has standards and they put like 272636373 nois cancelation seals on their bedroom so he can sleep camly when he actually can sleep (since in my hc Macaque suffers from insomnia (its a pretty common hc tho, but you get it)) and I think the outer circle of Megaplois is even tho industral and under constructuion on most parts, its probably more quiet than downtown
And I also like to imagine, Macaque even tho if not commited to a place will make it more homy. But looking at my reference pictures, in the dojo there were also a lot of posters and paintings (and in MKAGC Macaque did mention he might have a poster of wukong soooo~~)
For the layout I went after whatever felt right, since I had like 4 pictures to piece together a two-story house with a gallery(??) so its actually just me deciding what I want and where I wanna put it
(Here are the screenshots from lmk s1ep9 I used:)
Okay Okay if you couldnt tell, for some reason im really hyped about this stuff so im going to lead you trough my thougtprocess, when imagining this whole thing, in order from ground level to gallery
1. Ground level:
Ahh yes ground level: the problem child
(Im going to keep it somewhat brief here cuz I wrote a shit ton of explanations for it, but that somehow got deleted which I am super pissed about btw)
So I saw that a lot of hc with Macaques place are mostly that first floor is the dojo and the second floor is the living area, buuut~~ based on the screenshots of the series that doesnt make any sense. My reasoning? Simple really, its bc you can see the ceiling If you are standing in the dojo. This could lead to the conclusion that:
"Okay maybe then there is no second floor just a gallery in there somewhere and thats it".
Sure we can say that, but then you would ignore the fact that you cant see the front door of the building when Macaque slams Mk into a weaponstand.
"Okay then its on the other side of the room that we never got to see in the episode"
I mean maybe sure but to me from an animation point of view it just doesnt make sense, just why would they flipp the camera angle like that (I mean anyone can think whatever they want, everyones opinion is valid, its not like anyone would ever argue me on this one ((or read this whole brainrot trough in the first place lol)))
Haha anyways regardless of anything, let's go back to talking about the first floor, shall we?
Everything is pretty self explenatory: when you come in on the front door youll see a little shoe rack where you can but your shoes, and one stair to seperate the ante-room from the rest of the house
Then theres a long hall that leads to the enterence of the storageroom, the random room and the staircase that leads to the second floor
I couldnt decide on what to put in that big room-- I had no clue -- I was thinking maybe Macaque could let other people rent it for a few days of maybe theres a shop with an owner whos ranting the place from Macaque (I think thats an interasting concept, but I didnt explore any of them) oh well thats that tho
"""somewhat brief""""
Second floor:
This was probably the easiest, since 90% of it is the dojo
But before that when you walk up to the second floor you can see a big boubel door that opens to the dojo, and a normal door that opens to the bathroom, which is strategicly placed there by yours truely. There is big brain logic behind it,, it might be inconvinient for Macaque to walk down the stairs from his bedroom trough the dojo to the bathroom (but also he can just shadow portal there--), but when ocasionally he mentors Mk, he might have to go to the bathroom while hes at Macaques place and I dont think Macaque would apritiate someone stomping trough his personal area, and thats why the bathroom is conviniently placed next to the dojo and not that far from the bathroom I know im a genius (**read everything in the bathroom part with a lot of sarcasm**)
Anyways, we couldnt even see all four of the dojos walls so that was also a 'gamble', but I went with a simple bouble door that I mentioned before and two weapon stands (yes those are weapon stands) and other than that you can see the rest of the room on the screenshots, theres also the staircase and that has some closet underneath it, but thats about it
The gallery (my personal favorit):
Looking at my reference pictures i could see that the dojo took up a lot of space almost taking up the 1/2 of the building, which I think is reasonable and kinda cool, but that means small living area which I think is even cooler (I am a huge fan of small practical spaces, they feel so so cozy)
So Yeah the living space: mostly two rooms that I also illustrated on top of this post, (you probably saw it) with a balkony thingy before the enterence of the rooms, where you can look down and see the entirety of the dojo, good for observing.
When you go in the door (actually havent decided if I want to put a door there or curtains for style but meh who knows who cares), youll enter the small but spacious kitchen. I dont see the Six Eared Macaque as a homecook, more of a fake cooking guy (only making basic foods like eggs or toast, maybe ocasionally pancake), hints there is no built in stove or owen just a portable stove, a kettle and a toaster and a small fridge that has MKs drawing (that he drew for them at the end of season 3) magneted there :]
Other than that theres a sink and an old television, he got from the randomest place ever, maybe he fished it out of the trash idk, but he put it on top of the cabinets (rarely watches anything on it)
On the baseplan you can see that there was supposed to be a small table next to the sink with a chair, but it didn't make it to the final drawing cuz let's be honest: drawing interior in correct perspective without a reference picture is just not my strongest artskill I posess, so I got pissed and put a trashcan in there, Macaque can eat in his bed
Talking about bed, let's move on to the Six Eared Macaques room:
It is very small but pretty comfortable with a small bed but a shit ton of pillows for a good nights sleep, other than that there are a nightstand that has the Lantern on it (I know it sorta got lost/destroyed after defeating LBD but I wanted to put it there) and a drawer.
The nightstand probably doesnt have a lot innit, just some nick-nacks and tissues and maybe snacks, or a book or something, the drawer stores some of his clothes, but since I like to think that Macaque is a fashion icon that wont be able to fit most of their clothes, so maybe he stores them in a pocket dimension of shadows, and only has some esentials there when he needs to get ready quickly.
And we could talk about the posters plastered around the room, but most of them are kinda self-explanatory, but there are the poster of his shadowplaly of the hero and the warrior, some drawing, a "Hang in there babygirl!" Poster with a cat on it hanging in there, a poster of the monkey king (heh), phantom of the opera poster and a-- well--- that ones for my bestie hope she'll notice it, its a spies are forever poster (really fun musical a of spies, go watch it its on youtube), and a drawing he brought( maybe)
And thats about the bedroom
And we are still not done, how are we feeling about that?? Huh?? (You dont have to answert, this shit took me about 2 hours to write :] )
LAST PLACE: the corner of the windows opposit the kitchen and the bedroom. Its just a chill little place with pillows and blankets, where someone can bundle up and enjoy some tea or read a book or brood, whatever the monkey prefers. The special thing about it, is that you cant access the place without knowing how to levitate, fly, jump high, or use portals, not that much of a game changer since more than half of the lmk cast could get up there, but still a bit of a barrier in my opinion
AAAAAND~~~ thats it omg
Hi hello if you read this trough could you please comment or reblog with this: "šµ" cuz I wanna know about the brave soilders who went trough this immense amount of clownery,,, holly mother---
If you read this all ššš you are amazing thank you for appreciating my work this much, have an amazing day or night āØšŖ²
#clowning ā#clown does art#lego monkey kid#lmk#lego monkey kid macaque#lmk macaque#lmk six eared macaque#lmk headcanon#interior design
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Omg Till is so cute whattttttt. Excuse my brain rotting I just needed to get this out of my system.
LOOK AT THEM SO CUTE
ALL OF THEM SO CUTE!!!!
Ahem.
Now time for some serious analysis š§ (I donāt rlly get anywhere tho so less of an analysis and more just me asking a bunch of questions hoping for an answer from the void)
One thing I noticed aside from how cute Till is his eye bags.
This baby Till doesnāt have eye bags yet, so we can conclude that Till was starting to become sleep deprived after the age of 3 and before the age of 8. (Iām just making a guess based on the pics of their age Till could be 12 in that picture I truly couldnāt tell you)
Now what does this mean when a child is continuously sleep deprived by a stupid alien?
Impacts Behaviors: Harder to pay attention, prone to mood swings, and increased impulsivity (Yep thatās Till)
Impacts Mental Health: Increases the risk and severity of depression and anxiety (What do you know thatās also Till!)
Impacts Brain Development: Negatively affects the memory and intelligence parts of the brain (Do you guys remember that brain scan that showed a brain suffering from trauma?)
As you can see from an early age Till was already put through the wringer before he even got a bruise. I say this because sleep deprivation is extremely torturous regardless of whether itās forced or self inflicted. Mentally and physically not getting enough sleep fucks up every aspect of your life. The lack of sleep could be bc Till was staying up late, it was noted by other Anakt kids that Till kept them up at night bc he was practicing his music. It could also be bc Urak forced him to stay awake.
Like when he made Till watch videos of a younger Luka. Overall my heart broke once again at the way they treat a literal baby. Another thing I want to point out is their necks.
Iām leaving out Ivan cuz he doesnāt wear the collar anyways. But Mizi and Sua both wear the standard (Iām assuming standard bc theyāre the most common) collars both lit up green. Theyāre living in a little bubble and while they look cute, knowing how their story goes makes them look uncanny. Anyways this is the collar most of the kids wear.
But Till is wearing a different collar and also is wearing a green patch. It always made me curious why he has different collars compared to the rest. Like I get itās bc of the fact that he rebels a lot so he has a lot more restraints. But this collar is thinner and more metallic than the other ones. Youād think that if they were trying to punish him more theyād give him a bigger collar or a more restrictive one. They forced him into one that restrains his arm to his torso and one over his mouth. But this is just a thin collar that he wears on stage and it doesnāt seem to have any function other than to be a small collar. It also doesnāt show a mood indicator like the other ones do. I guess bc Urak doesnāt care what Till is feeling so he didnāt bother getting that feature. But it also makes it ambiguous what Till is feeling. In the picture while Mizi and Sua look happy, and Ivan looks focused, Till looks shocked and perplexed about writing in the air. (And adorable but when doesnāt he look adorable?) Anyways I canāt for the life of me figure out why his loser alien would get a custom collar that is so simple. From what Iāve gathered abt that freak he grew up in the slums but due to his greedy nature and inability to have compassion was able make it big by doing illegal shit. So maybe it was cost effective to just make simple collars instead of getting the standard one? What a cheap bastard.
Another thing that confuses me is the green patch on his neck.
Just what is this? My first thought went to nicotine patches and insulin patches. But those arenāt suppose to go on the neck, usually on the arm. Then as I did my daily watch of Round 6 I noticed that Till has been injected with unknown substances through his neck.
My guess is that the green patches are injecting him with some type of drug. And because the skin around the neck is so fragile the drugs can seep through easier. (Itās completely unsafe but in line with how the loser alien acts)
There are two possible explanations.
One is that Till has become addicted to the drugs they pump him with. And in order to keep him normal and keep him from showing withdrawal signs they use the green patches like a nicotine patch. Drugs have been used by artists as a way to further their craft. Some have even become reliant on it in order to make art. Thereās a sense of enlightenment as well, some use it as a way to gain a new perspective on life. I personally canāt understand using drugs for that purpose, but some of the greatest works of art have been created through the use of substances like these. So itās possible that Urak in his attempt to create a weapon that could topple Luka tries to make Till produce songs using that method. Such as injecting a bunch of drugs and leaving him in a room to write songs.
Two is that they use the green patch as a way to sedate Till, or as a way to enhance his performance. As evident by just looking at Till you can tell heās running on fumes when heās on stage. So maybe as a way to push past his limit they drug him so that he can keep performing even when his body is at its limit. The patches are only seen in Round 2 but that could explain why Till got a nosebleed when he was performing in Round 7. His body was finally catching up to him.
Alternatively they could just be there to cover up the wounds from injections while also looking cool lol.
As you can tell I am very confused ;-; but also very curious abt these experiments. They seemed to be focused on the throat and mouth which makes me think theyāre trying to modify how these kids sing. Like are they trying to make it so that they can sing outside of their vocal range? Are they trying to make it so that they can sing without having to breath? Or maybe the drugs can affect their literal genes. I know human editing is a procedure in Alien stage universe but what does that actually mean? Can you edit their appearance? Their personality? Their memory? Their thoughts?
My attempts at analysis have only left me with more questions.
Thanks for reading byeeeeee
#alien stage#alnst till#alnst ivan#alnst mizi#alnst sua#alien stage till#till my baby what did they do to you
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