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menkhu · 1 year ago

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wait. ok. hold on.

#i wonder if my struggling to focus on books is part of my struggle with focusing on visual things #i wonder if maybe i should have been listening to audiobooks all along #this changes the game ?#well. i'll have to experiment #also. just maybe. if i'm lucky. fixing my vision problems might make it easier to write descriptions and draw settings?#i've always said i wasn't a visual person and now it makes so much more sense #another interesting thing the doc said was that my brain showed signs of hyperactivity even though i don't present any at all #she posited that i might be channeling all that extra energy into making up for all the other shit my brain tries to pull #since i scored well on persistence #if we can fix this maybe i'll have energy #i love this doctor sm she's so confident that this is something she can fix #she talked about how important it is to her that she's able to help all her patients #that she put a lot of her own money into making sure her services are affordable #i am in good hands. i truly believe this.#dear diary #anyway if u have audiobook recs u can leave a comment :3

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panstarry · 7 months ago

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my final from last semester that i made into a zine. cooked this one up in a couple hours before the critique (the ink was still wet!), so it's very raw and kind of sloppy but the sentiment is there. i love you trans people of color. we are the backbone of this community 🌟

#pan draws #pan designs #zine #risograph #i'm not gonna lie i don't love how this one turned out OTL and i think the wording is not done but well... a deadline is a deadline #i'll probably touch it up and rewrite it in the future but who's to say.. i need to stew on how to articulate my feelings coherently #anyway my transness is so closely tied to my experience as a person of color. the current political climate is so fucking ass to exist in #but more than anything i am pissed off at white punks & leftists & trans people that refuse to have meaningful solidarity with us.#so yeah anyway. i was stuck on this one forever and only really got anywhere with it after attending 2 punk noise shows in a row where they #actually used their fucking platform to do like. anything. our struggles are connected you need to careeeee YOU HAVE TO CARE........ ok bye #tdov #trans day of visibility #<- i was sitting on uploading this for a while so the stars kind of aligned for it to be today huh.... happy tdov i love you #xines

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tzarrz · 5 months ago

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i listen to fog lake too much

#falls through the ceiling with a mighty crash hello #it's been what...8 months?#I was too busy w uni and being mentally ill #thank u everyone so much for the tags on all prev posts.. i re-read them oaccasionally 💗#they make me v happy thank u for giving me a moment of ur time #that means so much #anyway! vashwood!!#i hate them so much #i want to eat them #i want to ugly cry #i want an ideal world where they could've had something for a little bit #im eating drywall and pacing around the room in a cold sweat #so trimax-atypical overt intimacy it is #more coming...in maybe another year #It's a big project!#to me. yeah #my dream is to be put in a terrarium for a while #if only u knew how many wips I have w vashwood..#maybe i'll get tired and pile them into one post all unfinished and no less ok for it yk #whatever u r doing doesn't need to be perfect to make someone happy #didn't u experience a positive little zap from my imperfect colored doodle rn?#what a speedrun of a drawing that was #(<spent 10h on it. that's the minimum for anything ever)#hope today is treating you well! so long stranger!#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trimax #trigun #tzarrz

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 25 days ago

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hope you feel better soon!

I am riddled with ailments, but I stay silly!

#ask #non mdzs #My health journey has been: Hernia -> acid reflux -> Vocal pain due to aforementioned reflux -> chest infection.#I'm terrified to know what's about to hit me next. Please let it be something kind. PLEASE.#The consequence of living with linguists is that you'll wake up with a wacked up voice -#suddenly you're sitting you down in front of a program called something like Praat having your shimmer and jitter levels calibrated.#They gave me a GRBAS of 33012. I have a fun thing called a pitch break where a whole octave just does not exist.#My vocal pain was bad enough I ended up seeing a speech pathologist and that whole experience was super neat!#I learnt a lot about voice - to be honest I might make a little comic on it after some more research. Fascinating stuff.#For example; your mental perception of our voice modulates the muscles of the vocal folds and larynx.#meaning that when you do have changes (inflammation = more mass = lower frequency)#your brain automatically attempts to correct it to what it 'should sound like'. Leading to a lot more vocal strain and damage!#And it gets really interesting for trans voice care as well - because the mental perception of one's voice isn't based on an existing sampl #So a good chunk of trans voice training is also done with the idea of finding one's voice and retraining the brain to accept it. Neat!#Parkinsonial Voice also has this perception to musculature link! The perception is that they are talking at a loud/normal volume #but the actual voice is quite breathy and weak. So vocal training works on practicing putting more effort into the voice #and retraining the brain to accept the 'loud' voice as 'normal'.#Isn't the human body fascinating?#Anyhow; Now I have vocal exercises and strategies to reduce strain and promote healing.#Which is a lot better than my previous strategy of yelling AAAH in my car until my 'voice smoothed out'.#You can imagine the horror on the speech path's face. I am an informed creature now.#I'm my own little lab rat now. I love learning and researching. Welcome to my tag lab. Class is dismissed.#I'll be back later with a few more answered asks </3 despite everything I'm still going to work and I need the extra sleep.#Thank you for the well wishes! And if you read all of that info dump; thank you for that as well!

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deeva-arud · 7 months ago

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So, about that one AU that's been marinating in my mind for years

#'second canvas will be just simple sketches' *half cleans sketches* *adds base color* *adds shading* *adds bg* WHY AM I LIKE THIS 😭#anyway- you know how the flower that gave Rapunzel her powers (and also the Kingdom) is associated with the sun?#well. here it's the opposite bc Deeva is moon coded! :]#Gotta love the fact that her wings emphasize the bird in a cage symbolism....#Ofc she doesn't have much experience flying in this AU since Mother Gothel forbid her from going outside #Talking about Mother Gothel... it's Azul HGSAHD #at first I thought maybe Vil or Crewel? but since the character later kinda makes a deal w the twin thieves it fitted him more(?)#Also yes. Cater's alias is Cameron Mägi bc... Mägi Cameron..... Magicam.... 💀💀#it doesn't sound as cool as Flynn Rider but honestly I didn't know what to call him LMAO #I'll be back w this AU someday! I still haven't drawn the iconic lantern scene!!!!#twisted wonderland #twst #twisted wonderland oc #twst oc #twst cater #deeva twst #cateeva #my art

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keymintt · 6 months ago

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it's all "fuck it, we ball" until someone decides you're qualified for the thing you applied to despite not being qualified, then it's "fuck it, we ball (slightly scared)"

#i will be building painting and installing. a 24 x 8 foot mural this summer yeehaw #the application was like 'we want someone who has experience with installing large-scale murals' and i was like #well i don't have that. but i'm going to apply anyways #and now i am facing. the quencies #i'll be fine though like i'm not despairing or anything i think it's fucking funny really #this is not the first time and it will not be the last time i do some shit like this #no i won't shut up

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mobius-m-mobius · 7 months ago

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thought we had it all, thought we had it all, thought we had it all...

- So Much (For) Stardust - Fall Out Boy (i/n/sp)

#mobius #loki #lokius #mcuedit #lokiedit #marveledit #well y'all #somehow hit another follower milestone #and in my disbelief and appreciation may have made a set with enough layers to carry the weight of the world 🤣💖#couldn't love them or any of you more for what an amazing experience spending time on here has become #so just unbelievably happy these gifs turned out in a way which hopefully reflects that and our time collectively shaking and sobbing lol #will also be taking gif requests to celebrate if anyone's got some in mind so just let me know and i'll do my very best 🥰#that goes for all my fandoms btw even if lokius taking the lead there is the understatement of the century 😅#owen wilson #tom hiddleston #marvel #owenwilsonedit #dianagifs #flashing cw

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lloydfrontera · 8 months ago

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lloyd 'survived on one meal per day for years' frontera would absolutely see sharing food as a love language and javier 'lived in the streets for months as a child' asrahan would be fluent in it

i do believe there is a point in their lives where they both heal from the trauma of going through severe food insecurity but neither of them ever quite really forget just how important food can be. and when the other shares their food with them, they appreciate it as the show of affection it was meant to be

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #javier asrahan #i've talked before about food as a love language in tged which mostly affects the relationship between marbella and lloyd #but i do think it would bleed over to other aspects in lloyd's life #and there's a scene in the hell arc where javier figures out something is wrong because lloyd complains about the food #something javier notes he never does. no matter the quality of the food how plain or unpleasant it is lloyd never complains about it #and he explicitly calls it out as the way someone that had been starving for years and knew the preciousness of food would act #which if you then take into account that this is been said by a person that survived on his own as a five year old child in the streets #in the middle of winter... well. it sounds less like speculation and more like someone speaking from experience.#anyway. all this to say lloyd would peel an orange and then give half of it to javier and javier would absolutely swoon #and when they're on the road and they sit down to eat javier will always give the fuller plate to lloyd #and lloyd will have to swallow the knot in his throat before he can start eating #llojavi #yeah fine i'll tag it

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forgettable-au · 1 month ago

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How long/how many pages long do you expect for the chapters to be on average?

...I have no idea....

I'm super duper close to finishing chapter one!!(maybe in like 3/4 updates more?) And it's been 36 pages of that so far!! So... uhh...hmm....

I think most chapter are gonna be the same length! (Except maybe chapter two...?)

SOOOO...maybe 50 pages per chapter average??? I GENUINELY HAVE NO IDEA

I guess we're gonna know when it happens!

In my mind, every chapter is a 22 minute episode........I don't think that's relevant but that's how I'm pacing the story lol

#honestly this is a big project...I should have started with something smaller😭😭😭#but oh well #at least I'll gain some experience #answered ask #hehe

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classicslesbianopinions · 10 months ago

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the thing about being a disabled grad student is that if you want even half a chance you constantly have to not only reveal but interrogate and explain your softest most vulnerable parts. while people around you act like this is just completely normal and actually that is not the softest most vulnerable part of you and actually you are exactly the same as all of them. so you feel like you are in disguise as exactlythesame while also completely exposed. and you just have to live like that. absolutely insane

#mod felix #general disclaimer that this is my experience and this is how i feel and not necessarily how everyone feels obviously #but . i feel this way . currently #well and i think part of it is that like... people act like the institution isn't actively hostile to like. any marginalized person really #i mean this post is about disability but i'm sure it applies to other people too #and if you read this and say 'this is also how it feels to be x' i see and support you #anyway. posting this here because like... i feel like as a blog with a relatively large (for tumblr) audience like.#i feel the need to be honest and transparent about my experiences in academia #because i know there are people following us who like. want to be in academia or who already are #and like . i really like the program i'm in and i'm learning a lot but it's also a very hard thing to do even if you're totally abled #which like. i'll be honest i think the sort of person who says 'i want to learn ancient greek for the rest of my life'#is unlikely to be totally abled #like i'm not the only disabled person in my program either. and most people i interact with like.#have a base level of understanding about disability #but it's still like... surreal to operate in like. an institution that puts pressure on everyone to act like disability doesn't exist #i feel like there's just like. constant dissonance

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sciderman · 11 months ago

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Oh no Sci! Are you okay?

i have a thingy in my peepee hole (and not in the fun way)

i've been through a lot this year.

#sci speaks #i had a lot of bad experiences this year. really bad. like a slew of really bad luck.#family issues. health issues. career issues.#but i'll be okay. i'll be okay next year. i hope.#i think i feel a lot braver now. at least about surgery.#doctors arent so scary.#maybe i can make steps towards top surgery now that i've had this experience. i'm less scared.#gonna have a bunch of surgeries coming might as well just add one more to the list.

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screamingwiththewolves · 4 months ago

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I generally don't make posts like this, cause I don't wanna start an argument or disagreement, but I do find the "Is Hyde really a person?" discourse, a bit odd...I know it's a comic, and maybe I'll be proved horribly incorrect but...

Does he have emotions, with personality traits and preferences? Yes.

Does he insist he's a person? Yes.

Then he is, in fact, a person.

#and if you disagree...lets not discuss it because I'm not good with fandom discussions XD #idk...i feel like if something say's they're a person than they're a person XD but that's just my code i guess #and i'm not trusting Franky because she's made this mistake already with her corpse son. and still can't read people well enough to know th #major violation of privacy she's currently doing to both Jekyll and Hyde #maybe i'll be proven wrong but i don't think so #cause i recall an OLD hyde drawling from Sage about how much she loved a certain scene from the musical because it was like Hyde was-#fighting for his own person hood. and thus i feel like that's where the theme is going #if the plot was just “well actually he was never really a person.” i would have the same outta body experience i did after watching-#multiverse of madness #like that just feels incompatible with the rest of the comic #BUT i'll respect whatever writing choice she makes :)#(but i will make a fix-it-fanfic to heal my heart if that's the case XD)#the glass scientists #glass scientists

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reineydraws · 11 months ago

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shanks reminds me of jmw turner's paintings so i wanted to put them together 💥

sketch for the painting under the cut!

#shanks #akagami no shanks #red hair shanks #red haired shanks #red force #one piece #one piece fanart #op fanart #it's kiiiiiiind of what i wanted #i was thinking about how people's eyes flash red when they use conqueror's haki #so i wanted to marry a red sunset by turner with a shanks portrait but it proved kind of difficult to balance the degree of abstraction lol #he's not as terrifying or scary or intimidating as i wanted to convey but the pro of that is that it looks more like a turner portrait #maybe one day i'll try again with a more stormy vibe but yeah the colours and emotion were pretty difficult to put down #i love turner #i tried to explore the more painterly brushes in procreate but i just ended up falling back on my favourite ones aha #the vibe i tried to capture is better conveyed in the sketch 💀 it's the shading. the shading helps convery it better #and i had to sacrifice the shading for the abstraction around his eye. ah well; learning experience!#anyways i know i just posted smth yesterday and also three hours ago but this is my blog and i will post if i want to #(i have to affirm this to myself literallt every single time i feel like im posting too much lmao)#i digress #oh btw that's a marine ship on the left about to go down from haki. jsyk.

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youchangedmedestiel · 7 months ago

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It's been a while (months) since I haven't read a long fic, today I had time so I read psalm 40:2 and now. NOW, I'm fucking destroyed. A well spent Sunday afternoon and evening.

Fortunately, against all odds (but not that much), Cockles is there to heal my heart and make me smile again before going to bed.

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dawnthefluffyduck · 3 months ago

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Took me a while to figure out what I wanted to see you draw, but I think I got it now:

Would you be able to draw a character of your choice being "bear"-hugged by a Hildebear (haha see what I did there)? I feel like it might be excellent for comedy purposes, and I know how much you adore them :P

Thank you in advance :3

See, now you're starting to see why they're so cool, their arms were made for bear hugs :3 (surely your character would be inclined to agree, right? /s)

(but also, it would be a crime to miss an opportunity to draw Ralsei)

Thank you for the request! I feel closer to the Hildebears already :D

#i'm sure your FOmar would adore these cuddly friends /s #this weekend i learned traumatizing others' ocs is fun #i did not mean to spend as long as i did on the first one but i was having fun #pso is a bit anime-y (esp the concept art) so i've been trying to match that #i kinda(?) borrow elements of anime/manga in my non-realistic art but i almost never draw it directly so this was new #that's why this one took so long; i spent a lot of time experimenting with the tones/hatching/effects #i still shaded it like i do any other drawing though so it's kind of my normal work with a little bit extra plopped on top #idk how well it worked but i tried haha #the second took me like ten minutes lmao #that's all of them so far so i'll leave the requests open a little longer than last time :D #will be closing them thursday night though!#requests #ralsei #deltarune #FOmar #hildebear #phantasy star online

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tinukis · 4 months ago

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i went to one piece orchestra tonight !!

seeing/hearing kohei tanaka and hiroshi kitadani... was amazing... ESPECIALLY having the honor to listen to we go, over the top, uuus, and we are all live !! literally we are, over the top, and uuus are my FAV one piece openings so clapping and singing along with hiroshi himself was just so... magical.

it made me really happy that i've become a one piece fan 🥹🫶♥️ im a little sad i had to experience it all by myself and i dont know many who are into one piece... but still a wonderful occasion regardless.

#my hands and throat hurt from all that #one piece #dain talks #im gonna unwind and watch the new op episode i have missed #really fun event and orchestra + AX is on its third day i think so there was a LOT of cosplayers #one day i'll have the courage to actually cosplay at one piece events/collabs 🥹🫶♥️#but like. oh my god. when we got to We Are #i jusy... cant put it into words how amazing and wonderful that was #hiroshi encouraging us to clap and sing along (did this whenever he was on stage) and it's just... so good #PLUS THE NUMBER OF US PUMPING ARE FIST IN THE AIR FOR EVERY 'WE ARE' AAAAAAHH #maybe it was a good thing we werent allowed to photo/record but it still wouldve been nice to permanently have this moment #ah well... it's all about the moment and experience #what a fantastic orchestra

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