#we're getting there.

[demonicrhythms]

Sorry for being so lacklustre with art lately. I'm in the middle of Moving so things have been proper difficult and I haven't had time for much of anything.

I'll get back to art and my asks soon! Promise! Please bear with me my darlings!

[dirt-goth]

Last week I thibk maybe for the first time in my life thought the words "By the time I'm 30 I want to..." and it's finally hitting that I'm at a point turning 30 is more an inevitability than a mystical reality unattainable for me.

[mymarifae]

after my post-move nap i can confidently say i am SO relieved and excited to be out of that studio. like for one it was insanely overpriced ($1,000 a month for a STUDIO and if i had renewed my lease there they actually would have raised the rent again. lol.) and it was tiny and like. dark?! there was only one window... no natural light. which 1000000% significantly contributed to my recent Very Bad depression episode. this new place is a two bedroom with sooooo much natural light from large windows and the sliding glass door to the patio i LOVE it i LOVE sunshine. and it's like $885 a month. for a two bedroom. for a Spacious two bedroom. that is a HUUUGE monthly stress off my back already oh my god ... anyway i'm happy ^^

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Today is payday and I want to be excited about that but Alfie's been crunching numbers a bit and reckons we're around £150 short each month. We can cut that down a little by bring even more frugal with food than we already are but like...god

I've already basically had to quit smoking (which, sure, probably a good thing but CHRIST am I craving a fag) and we went the last week or so on a single meal a day pretty much. AND I still need to pay for my birth certificate and then wait another fortnight to get my PVG certification renewed before im even allowed to start working and earning more cash

Like...its so fucking frustrating. Once I start work we're sound! We'll even have enough to buy ourselves nice things and send cash to the folks that have helped us/friends that need it! But there's SO many barriers between me being allowed to work! I got my application accepted what, a month ago? And its going to be another month, maybe even two before I see anything from that

We're getting there. We're really close and I'm clinging on to that, but it's so so tiring

[ardri-na-bpiteog]

Also increasingly aware that a LOT of people "manage" getting through the 40+ hour work week by sleeping less than is healthy and relying on stimulants like coffee and energy drinks to keep them going.

For people who are unwilling or unable to do this...work really does just dominate your life. Like we really should not have to rely on unhealthy practices just to have a social life or keep on top of housework or whatever.

I know I post about this a lot but I'm so TIRED all the time and it's just so depressing that this is how we're expected to spend the one life we have.

[anistarrose]

the under-praised backbone of any fandom:

fan wiki editors

fan wiki editors who move the wiki off of fandom.com and to an independent host, especially

transcript writers

image description writers

fic rec list curators

translators

everyone who archives an ephemeral ARG or website-based lore dump

everyone who archives and preserves related media in general, for that matter

[me-beef]

@strangeravatar made a great point

i was gonna focus on the spike-hotboxing-celestia aspect but i got distracted somewhere along the way and i think i forgot what joke i was trying to make

but dont you think its interesting how many guards of the exact same color/body type she's managed to accrue?? i do

ooohh you want to go look at our stickers so bad

[jjkdiary]

nobara and yuji fighting sukuna so we can get megumi... oh this has truly been our jujutsu kaisen

[crimeronan]

CDC finally fuckin' recommended the new COVID boosters for everyone in the US. letting my american followers who don't check the news know because i've been turned away for wanting to get an extra booster & now won't be anymore & it's Lovely. most americans are not going to get these and are going to grumble about them, which sucks as far as spread goes - but DOES mean u can schedule with ur local pharmacy sooner rather than later. please do so. ur immunocompromised friends and ur own body will thank u.

[chimchiri]

gideon & harrow OR rd and sf as cowboys please please please

It's the cowgirl necro and her gunslinger cav! Who is so damn extra she's got three guns: one left, one right, and one in pole position! (She swears the ladies love it!)

[clawz-loopz]

They haven't even kissed yet. Somebody save them

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

[simonbrain]

sitting at the bar with your bestie and jokingly saying, "i wish that was me," when she spews about how her man made her come so many times the other night they almost hit double digits. you doubt anyone is paying attention to the two of you gossiping and giggling like fools, and you share that you haven't been laid in a while.

"it's been eight months, actually." you pout, slapping her arm when she gawks and splutters something about finding you someone to shag in the back alley right away.

if only you noticed the guy with the fuckass mohawk sitting on the other side of you, intently eavesdropping on your personal conversation. he likes your friend's idea; surely you'll let him pull a few orgasms out of you outside before he fingerbangs you in the car on the way home and finally finishes you in his bed.

ten's a big number to aim for, but johnny's nothing if not utterly determined to ruin the pretty girl who's had him rock hard since she walked in.

[caemidraws]

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[lotus-pear]

learning to love