#we'll live in the night if we have to

[imonthemoonitsmadeofcheese]

Eris Morn, lightless guardian, the Drifter's moonlight.

“Be someone’s light when they are hopeless.”

— Dave Grohl

[danwhobrowses]

Well Critters the year is almost up, at least for me here in England. Aside from the general pensiveness and reflection of the past year, it also means I'm about to (technically) complete my first full year of following the CR episodes as they came out; a year full of twists, turns, uprisings, downfalls, and just so much going on - only for the campaign to now be nearing its end.

We knew the end was coming sure, but since December's 4SD announced itself as the last of the campaign the number of episodes remaining has grown more finite, likely to be around 1-4 more episodes, and confronting the end is very different to acknowledging it ending. Admittedly in the confronting part I've become a liiiiittle bit of a mess, loaded with panic and worry beyond my own control; I sometimes tell myself that I'm being silly, they're fictional characters, the story's likely already recorded its end, and I never had any control or influence on the story to begin with, but as expected such attempts are both hollow and in vain. It's been a while since I was this invested in a story, or fandom for that matter, and the fact that most key and decisive moments will be determined by dice rolls continuously does nothing to soothe my nerves, or my uncertainties towards how it'll end - after all, the hardest battle has yet to be fought, the biggest decisions yet to be made, and Ludinus Da'leth is way WAY too calm about being trapped in a Force Cage for my liking.

I wonder if the fear and dread was the same for those watching the end of the previous two campaigns? If it was more or less than it is now by comparison? In hindsight, while the final stage so far feels more grounded compared to the more spectacular, massive miniature, larger-than-life endgame battles against Vecna and Lucien's Neo-Somnovem phases, it feels like the stakes are riskier for Bells Hells, on a low Level 15 with no cleric, dismal openings for additional support, and little wiggle room to get creative, especially since killing Ludinus - who continues to be touted as the 'strongest mage of our time' and could get even stronger depending on which way Matt goes with him - alone potentially won't end the overarching conflict, though he should still die nonetheless. At the very least I want the Hells (as we have for VM and the Nein) to all be free to live happily, be it settling down, embarking on new adventures, or just being the best they can be - and doing so with the people that mean the most to them - and at the very most I want them to make the best and kindest decision for the world as a whole, which I hope they get the chance and take the opportunity to do so.

It's still difficult to ready myself for it ending mind you, since I could have very easily spent another year with these idiots and still not be fully ready to say goodbye to them. On that however, I know not everyone shares my sentiment; some are truly ready for the campaign to be over and for C4 for explode (pun intended) onto the scene with brand new characters that in a few years time we'll also likely be unready to say goodbye to, and that's fine. But for all that can and will be said about Campaign 3 - positively and critically - it has very much delighted, disheveled, and deranged me for most of the year, usually at my desk of work, so trying to brace myself for the climax has, and continues to be, a lot of mental effort. Keeping myself positive and hopeful in these situations is tough especially when on the verge of a big battle; sometimes the negative thoughts creep in, Youtube videos full of pessimists and clickbait titles appearing unwantedly on my recommendations don't help, nor does the memory of what happened the last time the Hells were in a major boss battle at the tail end of their time on Ruidus, but when the campaign does end I want it to be looked upon fondly, and a lot of that does hinge on its conclusion. Obviously, I trust the group and Matt's storytelling, but that is only to an extent; defeating Ludinus is something I know Bells Hells are capable of doing - so long as the dice gods play ball and Matt doesn't inexplicably overbuff Ludinus to the nth degree like he did with Otohan - but the Predathos decision remains the root and focal point of the campaign's criticisms for good reason, often overshadowing and playing obstacle to character growth and direction. There is a satisfying and spectacular conclusion in there, but navigating it - even for a group that embraces 'when given two options, we pick option 3' more times than not - let alone achieving it is a very delicate path of fine margins, one that can indeed make or break the campaign - and a lot of my worries lie there, that and approaching/confronting an entity so voracious and eager to escape that it makes the gods terrified enough to deliberate breaking down the Divine Gate.

Without talking more to death about the god stuff and Predathos thing like we the fandom have already done aplenty, there's not much else I can say except that I'm worried but also trying to be hopeful. The campaign ending in tragedy or a pyrrhic victory is possible but it's not an outcome I personally desire or want to entertain. You could perhaps aptly translate that to my general feelings towards the new year too; having wants and wishes, hopes and hesitancies, fears and fandom, just currently a bit more compressed here than it is for the full year - and given our recent run of the years playing dystopia simulator, I'm more hopeful in one than the other right now - and perhaps it would do good to start the year with something to smile about. Right now, it's just that it's happening; it's happening, it's soon, and it's very apparent how close we are to finishing, which means I'm panicking and rambling, and panicking, and of course, rambling. I don't know what emotions will January send me through, but I do hope with all my being that they'll be positive ones.

So whether or not you reached the end of this, I wish you all a Happy New Year and, much like the end of Campaign 3, I hope it's a good one.

[girlivealwaysbean]

i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point

[ivalice-tifalucis]

With the release of From The Rehearsal Room - Tokyo to Ramin's youtube I finally, finally, continue and finish this side project I'm doing.

Initially, I used AI to mastered it because the first version I got from bilibili were not in good quality but I wasn't satisfied and I found the much better quality. But with Ramin uploaded it to youtube, I re did all the mastering just with audacity for both Part 1 and Part 2. The Part 2 is still from the better version I found from bilibili, by the way.

What you need to do is just download the file and put it on your music player. The metadata is all completed as if it's whole legit album. Enjoy, guys!!

And I'm being weird so all the lyrics that are put there are from my listening although I still use what I found online but I still listened and compared. They made few ad-libs and changes and I notice because for the songs that I wasn't familiar, the lyric that I found online and what they sang was slightly different. Perhaps they sing the newer version of the lyrics or mistakes? Even each Sheytoons songs they sing one in both parts differ from the ones I found online.

Another sample from my favorite:

Source and Credits Part 1 | Part 2 (Ramin's upload) Album cover Photos

Vocal & Guitar: Ramin Karimloo, Hadley Fraser Piano: Ryohei Mori

[jenna-louise-jamie]

you know what i would love to see one day? an animated adaptation of alex rider. it's far fetched but imagine how awesome it would be. biblically accurate character designs. fully leaning into the silliness of it all. more freedom to adapt the books. ugh it would be so good.

[yoosung-ah]

trust me Ray I am actively out here trying to get got but it's a lot harder than it seems

[fvaleraye]

we need everyone who actually got Manager of La Manchaland Don to send us 10 dollars as compensation for us NOT getting her. /hj

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Fucksake I was awake something like 20 hours yesterday and I do NOT feel like I've had enough sleep but I still got 2 days of work before I get a fucking break

[this-hopeless-war]

UHHWHGWHGSGSUHW IVE SEEN A BROADWAY MUSICAL

[phagodyke]

happy flat fuck friday I feel likr I've been run over by a steamroller <3

[glassanimalcollective]

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[learn-and-accept]

I will truly never understand how I managed to find such a truly incredible partner let alone on the first try

[horny-ex-catholic]

Oh congrats on graduating!! 🎉🎉🎊

And long-distance relationship gang 🤝

Thanks! It was a very long and very boring ceremony, especially since I was I think the tenth person in line. Me and my friend texted about our dnd characters for most of it, lol

And yeah. It's been. Interesting. I'll hopefully be able to visit more often after the summer, but right now we're all still adjusting

[kindahoping4forever]

When 5sos say the show is available on demand what does that mean? Like what platform is it available on, I don't see it on YouTube? Thanks for the help!

I'm glad you asked, I've seen a lot of confusion about this!

This release is being handled as a movie would, so it's available on the platforms you would typically go to rent or purchase a newly released film. For example, in the US, I see it available on Amazon, Google Play, Vudu, Microsoft and YouTube Movies. (These are US links so if they don't auto redirect to your country's version, try searching on your store!) It looks like pricing is generally in the same range (Amazon is a bit higher, go figure), $3.99 for a 48 hour SD rental, $4.99 for HD and $9.99 to purchase in SD, $11.99 HD.

I assume the promise of "more territories soon" refers to the platforms listed above possibly not being available in all countries (I believe Vudu in particular is US only) and they're working on getting it on similar rental/purchase platforms worldwide.

The continued usage of the phrase "on demand" rather than "streaming" leads me to believe that there are currently no deals in place with a subscription service (such as Netflix, Apple, HBO, Disney, Hulu, etc) and that it will remain exclusively on these types of rental/purchase platforms unless something changes with the licensing.

Hope this helps! 💙

[nihiltism]

ELF BOWLING????

LISTEN. LISTEN. ITS NOT TO WATCH ON MY OWN. THERE IS NOTHING BETTER THAN DRAGGING A FRIEND TO WATCH ELF BOWLING WITH ME AND WATCHING THE HORROR ON THEIR FACES

[mudstoneabyss]

the having good takes is over How do you get the impression that Kevin is giving up on Charles from the ending Symphony girl what