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lxmelle · 9 months ago

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Geto was loved even in death.

Wouldn’t it be nice if he were judged by his intentions in the afterlife - wherever that was? He had suffered living with the love he had. We see through the eyes of those left behind, that the ill deeds didn’t define him, as strange as that may be to us as readers in the real human world we live in. Geto’s influence and loving nature were far reaching; Gege certainly made him so treasured by many even after his death. If Gojo was touched by his caring influence, this was also Geto’s will he passed onto his students.

NOT spoiler-free as I’ll be referring to the recent chapter, 255.

I wrote this the other day:

And honestly it’s long enough; here’s part 2.

Is it obvious I’m suffering from brainrot? All my drafts from jjk brainrot are rivalling my thesis/dissertation from way back (lol)

Here is more under the cut:

I’m really moved by the reasons for why Miguel and Larue have decided to join in the risky fight against Sukuna.

It’s very obvious that Miguel is reluctant at first. He says he he’d rather terrible curses arrive at his shores than to fight with Sukuna, adding that he doesn’t see himself having any ties with Japan any longer.

We can deduce that this was part of Gojo’s plan for the possibility that he dies/loses, and I had a post about this saved in my drafts - but I guess I never got around to finishing it. Basically, in sum, he will achieve giving Geto a cremation (avenging him) and gets to show off to his students (which he does enjoy) by going all out (soo satisfying), and in the worst case scenario, he loses but gets to go all out, weakens Sukuna (for the rest to handle), and idk if he really is that romantic (so it’s really stsg headcanon fantasising) he will die on the same day as Geto.

The Opening theme is rather beautiful in that it interprets Gojo having the words, “we’ll meet again” stuck in his throat, which he doesn’t say. But I’m a bit weird and tend to separate anime from manga. But it’s worth noting that here.

I digress. Back to Miguel and Larue who have moved to speak privately without Yuta.

In a previous post I wondered aloud about what Yuta knew about Geto from others aside from being villainous and I guess this implies he doesn’t know much, since he wasn’t close to Miguel enough to sit around to chat with them. It makes sense.

Miguel and Larue both agree they followed Geto in jjk 0 because they wanted to see him become King. What does this even mean, really? Gege, you’re missing stuff out again!

Nevertheless, we understand how reluctant Miguel was. He enquires that Larue intends to do, clarifying: is it for revenge or to take Geto’s body back?

And it seems like their main motivation for putting their lives on the line... is to honour Geto’s memory. Like a traditional ritual one makes for the dead (customary in Japan on death anniversaries - not limited to the year, but also number of days).

It’s incredibly moving how much they love him. This is actually what led Miguel to reconsider. We see him go silent as he thinks “...” before he reaches a moment of clarity/a decision.

Tbh I have issues with interpreting his statement in between the two panels (re: hell) in Japanese - it doesn’t directly indicate if he is referring to the former part of the conversation (whether he thinks Geto is in hell), or the latter (he thinks the battle will be hell). The phrasing goes like this: “no matter how I think about it: it’s hell.” - I’m not a native speaker so it’s difficult for me to be certain which is right. But the consensus is as translated above. Larue thinks Geto is in heaven, Miguel thinks it’s hell, and we see the airport scene where presumably Haibara and Riko with Kuroi have been there for over a decade. lol. Who knows!

So the bottom line is… regardless of where they think Geto ends up in the afterlife, Miguel is willing to give Geto a send off that’ll even reach hell. Or, despite it going to be hellish, he will do it. It also seems so heartwarming how they still emphasise family and friendship in wanting to fight together - perhaps things we can surmise had meant something to Geto.

They will fight Sukuna because it is for Geto. Geto was so loved that they would risk themselves - not for a title, not for revenge, but out of … love. Again. That’s pretty damn loving. Can we imagine what Geto did and was to them, for them to experience such loyalty and reverence?

Sadly, it goes without saying that Geto’s body being used as a vessel and puppet by Kenjaku has possibly evoked an emotional response by those who cared for him - namely Mimiko and Nanako, and also Gojo. Arguably, even if it were a death without his body being hijacked, Gojo did refuse to cremate his body or have it processed “by the book” of jjk high through Shoko. If that’s not out of a form of love (or “consideration” as Kenjaku put it), I don’t know what is.

The twins went against what Geto wanted for them (to carry out his will) to fight against immensely power beings in hopes they could bring him home. Those were their reasons to fight. Gojo scheduled 24th December - this was after he teleported to Kenjaku immediately upon unsealing so he could bury Geto. We saw Larue and Miguel’s. Toshihisa is alleged to be quite weak, and despite potentially being considered a son to Geto (if his life situation did mimic that of the twins’ - source: jjk character book), he opts to follow the inherited will as prescribed by Geto.

It’s all love. Geto was loved, I’m telling you. I want to shout if off the rooftops because that man just looked so darned sad and deranged after he lost it.

So. Continuing where I left off: Everyone thus far has had a reason to go into battle with Sukuna. I wonder what / who will actually reach him? I hope it’s Yuji ... and that Megumi will react again at some point. They have their own themes relating to love and purpose. I’ll leave them to someone else more familiar with their characters to write about!

And now I’m going offside quite a bit, but it’s still of relevance to Geto and the theme of love that seems to surround him. Way back to jjk 0 and Hidden inventory.

I wanted to just bring this into the picture as well now that I’m already writing a post on that topic, but please feel free to stop if you’re bored now.

So. Jjk 0!

There were direct parallels with Yuta & Rika and Gojo & Geto. This was also confirmed by the director when discussing their vision for the movie. The light novel also drew a link between Geto and Yuta where they were described as being too sincere for this world.

There is a direct theme of love - the type, is open to interpretation.

Kenjaku also makes reference to this in the Shibuya arc. So to me, it remains relevant. Love in its many forms is somewhere in what Gege wishes to convey thematically.

Within jjk 0, Geto seemed to pursue power but this was also a symbolism where power = love. It is twisted. In light of recent events, we know that the pursuit of power leads to the dilution and even absence of love. Love that gives birth to power becomes cursed. So it seems.

As we know, Yuta bound his lover to himself to gain power.

If only he had Rika (metaphor for love: Gojo) he probably wouldn’t have had to skulk around the shadows consuming curses which he hated doing. Geto was lamenting on the past in the above panels. He probably was determined to carry on, as he vouched to give it all he got (Haibara’s last words to him echoing here).

A flashback to the past:

Geto doesn’t do things in half-measures. To avoid hypocrisy, and I headcanon that it was a merciful killing to protect them from him, he kills his parents. To die by his hands than to be used as a pawn to get to him. For them to see the horrors their son could be capable of. It is so very wrong, and we can see the twisted nature of his love in this interpretation.

And Gojo delivers the ultimate blow that leads to Geto reflecting - depicted by the mysterious ellipses “…..” (gege really likes the reader to work hard huh) - insinuating it is impossible for Geto, so don’t even bother trying. The blossoming possibility of discourse was nipped, as the strength differential was implied - you’re the strongest now, whereas it used to be “we”. There was no more place for Geto; it was probably a misunderstanding. Gojo was protecting everyone in his own way, and the only way he knew how.

For power, Gojo was a source - but Geto couldn’t do that in Shinjuku, nor earlier in the arc, when Gojo himself was on the brink of insanity and deferred to Geto about annihilating humans as he held Riko’s dead body. Geto in the scene above acknowledges their different paths they needed to take - Gojo had a place as part of the elite at the school - Geto was already facing an execution order.

And after hearing Gojo’s condescending tone in an emotionally-fuelled attempt to reach out to him. He turns away to protect his friend from himself, and himself from his friend. Anyway, I touched on this in my previous post. Geto feels they had fought and didn’t deserve a place next to Gojo. But deep inside, even his body remembers the sound of Gojo’s voice, reacting to it when called despite his soul no longer being there.

sigh. Moving on... back to jjk 0:

After witnessing the bonds through willingness to sacrifice and the love between these students, Geto was really moved. Gojo trusted Geto retained his sense of humanity / love / idealism - even if it would lead to him sacrificing himself.

He was finding it difficult anyway:

He could always empathise with love. I suspect he tried his best, but the binding vow for Yuta’s life was also just the cherry on top to make Rika super saiyan.

Kenjaku knew Geto probably could’ve won though, had he been more selfish.

Geto conceded without a fight with Gojo. Maybe it was a matter of trust in that they both knew his living on borrowed time. As the light novel insinuated, this was the only way it could ever end. And Gojo would have to carry the curse that was Geto. This seems... so cruel.

He did his best. He perhaps always wanted the love but set it free.

He did so many things for others in spite of himself, in sacrificing himself, in staining himself with blood drenched hands.

Avenging Riko by killing Sonoda. Note how manipulative “humans” are by using Jujutsu rules against them.

He embraces a life of smoke and daggers. Living in lies and half truths in order to live, survive, and find justice in a wicked world.

Watch me closely, I’ll protect you, I’ll avenge you, this is how you protect yourself.

This is the path I’ve chosen.

I’m not saying he was right or justifiable. His character is just tragic. The system had set him and others to fail.

The worm foreshadows Geto’s maternal nature. Calling him “okaasan”. I mean, this very worm had a binding vow with Toji. And now it calls for a new owner? I’m not sure if Gege had anything else in mind with this... is the womb protrusion domain Geto’s? But that’s tied to a sorcerer’s soul…. Anyway, I digress again. (Sorry). Geto did have a martyr complex and was written captivatingly well by Gege. The extra touches where how he has been perceived by others and the effect he has (and continues to have) on those we see.

And I just want to leave this heartbreaking thing here:

Source from twitter/now X:

Wouldn’t it be so sweet for Geto to get one (love declaration) at the end of his life, regardless of the way you perceive Gojo and Geto’s relationship?

Wouldn’t it be nice for him if he could know that his family who he instructed to flee had all loved him, adored him, and would honour his sacrifice in differing ways...

Instead, a form of love meant his body was desecrated and used by Kenjaku. His girls were killed, and his full potential was not quite realised at all.

If only things were different.

Gojo should have kept him in his basement!

But at least, I think, Gege is giving Geto some love even after his death.

For that I’m thankful.

And thanks for reading if you made it this far with my rambling!

If you want something more light hearted I have a fluffy fic up on AO3 (it isn’t great but i enjoyed writing it to fantasise about what happens at the airport) and if you want more angst and pain, please browse my tags (lol).

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vashtijoy · 2 years ago

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on forgiveness: best girl haru okumura

OKAY LET’S TALK ABOUT how most people’s idea of Haru (besides her being axe crazy or some shit) begins and ends with the first half of this line to Akechi. And also babble about how everyone reacts in the engine room for a bit:

Just to be clear here: Akechi murders Haru’s father. Not only that, he murders him after his change of heart, at the point he has a chance to turn around and do better and stop being, y’know, kind of a tremendous asshole. Would it have worked? Haru will never know. Akechi stole that from her.

However. Haru is also not a tremendous asshole. I know, I know, y’all want her to go crazy ape batshit with vengeance and her axe. However, Haru doesn’t believe in vengeance (that’s Akechi’s gig, and maybe Ann’s). She does believe in redemption and giving people chances, and she (besides Joker, who like, doesn’t have lines) is the Phantom Thief who embodies this most in regard to Akechi.

so let’s take a look

Let’s start with the second half of that line. “I sympathize with you”. And let’s put it together with the next line:

Haru understands why Akechi might have acted as he did. And when Cognitive Akechi arrives, she’s the one who tells Akechi it isn’t too late:

Because, make no mistake, Haru is also a child of a terrible father. A father who used her to advance himself. Haru relates to Akechi. She sees what she could have become in him—someone just like her father.

This becomes clearer later on in the scene, when the bulkhead door comes up—and let’s just take a moment here to see what “unforgivable” looks like.

Here’s Ryuji banging on the door as it comes up:

Here’s Yusuke:

And Makoto:

Now note that Haru and Futaba (and Morgana and Ann) have not come forward at this point. But what’s Akechi’s response, by the way, when you tell him you’ll hang on to the glove and keep your promise?

He fucking smiles. Tiny little smile. Sad, barely there, but a real smile, behind the bulkhead where nobody can see it. I swear, people are like “oh, he only dies to save you because it’s the only way left he can get revenge, it’s all part of the manipulation” no, get out of my hair with that shit, I will literally eat you all. He passes up his revenge. He starts his arc as someone who has nothing but revenge to live for, and he ends it (for now) passing up that revenge for someone who matters to him. That’s important.

And that’s level 10: incidentally this is when he gets Endure, “survive an otherwise fatal attack with 1hp remaining”

After this Cogkechi and Akechi face off, and that is when Haru comes forward:

And Ann:

... and then the gunshots, not quite in unison. Bye, kids, we’ll miss you. But note that it is Futaba who only speaks up now—to do her job, not to express any concern for Akechi. It’s Futaba who gives him a far harder ride in Mementos later in the third semester than Haru does. And yet I feel like I see Futaba easily forgiving Akechi all the time and Haru almost not at all?? idk.

so what happens next?

Well, here’s Haru when they resolve to leave:

She’s sad they couldn’t save him. Like her father, Akechi will never have a chance to do better.

what about the third semester?

So in the third semester Akechi comes out as an axe crazy killer and also kind of an interpersonal asshole, but he does seem to have laid off the hired killings, so that’s, uh, good?

This understandably impacts the way the engine room fell out: nobody wants to admit what went on there. Akechi doesn’t; Akechi wants to keep all of them at an emotional radius of ten thousand kilometres, for reasons of his own. The PTs certainly don’t, because third semester Akechi is an immense pain in the ass. and about as friendly as a porcupine on PCP.

Still, he comes back on the team for reasons, and Haru and Futaba understandably have feelings about this. Here are Haru’s:

But this isn’t all that goes on. What about all those Mementos chats?

Akechi doesn’t talk to the other Phantom Thieves—if they say anything, he doesn’t respond. (Sumire also doesn’t, which gives me an image of her, Akechi and Joker stuck next to each other speaking only in Royal Trio in-jokes.) But he’s not saying anything unless he chooses to say something—when the others respond.

And who responds how? Well, there are moments of connection—more than a few. But responses to Akechi often range from passive-aggressive through mocking to outright aggressive. And this is perfectly fair: make no mistake, these guys are not friends.

How does the count stack up?

Yusuke has the lowest number of responses to Akechi—he has five. Ann and Makoto each have seven. Futaba, Morgana and Ryuji each have eight. And Haru?

Haru has nine chats in response to Akechi. She has more than anyone else. And the reason she has more chats than anyone else is that there is one chat that only she responds to:

Yeah. Akechi is not someone who enjoys being cooped up in the back of a catbus. And when he complains about it, it’s Haru who’s the only one to reply. The Japanese is not that patronising, by the way

Haru is trying. She doesn’t want to sit down and hang out with him—she won’t join him in the Thieves’ Den, for instance. But her responses to him range from passive-aggressive through conversational. They are hard to interpret—she’s not comfortable with him; she’s keeping up her mask. She’s not necessarily concerned for him or welcoming—she’s saying the “right things”, making conversation; she joins in when they all laugh at him for bouldering. Haru’s mask has a lot in common with Akechi’s many masks. But she also has that one chat that only she replies to.

Here are her nine responses to various things Akechi says:

Haru: I think this [outfit] fits you better, after seeing how you fight. Haru: I've heard you don't actually need to be that strong to boulder. Maybe I should give it a shot. Haru: It's pretty hard to imagine a group of phantom thieves successfully getting around on bicycles. Haru: Well, the car does have ears and a tail, so I wouldn't say it's impossible to tell... Haru: Well, no one gives them orders, so it appears they just wander around. Haru: As long as you're fighting alongside us, we're happy to have you. Haru: Thanks for the concern. You should stay mindful of your health, too. Haru: I wonder... You can't underestimate the Tokyo subway system, though. It's pretty long. Haru: Then what say we take a little break when we reach the next rest area?

and what’s the takeaway here?

Pretty much this: forgiveness in P5 is complicated. The story is all about responsibility and redemption and the harm you do others. Even if you can’t forgive someone, that doesn’t mean you can’t work with them. It doesn’t make them not part of your group. It doesn’t mean you can’t take an interest in them. The Phantom Thieves have a bond with Akechi regardless of what he’s done. Regardless of whether they’re “friends” or “forgiven” or whether they will ever be close. That bond doesn’t have to be pretty, or fun, or even something most of them want too much to do with, but it is there. He is, in the end, as close to being one of them as you get.

And Haru does take an interest in Akechi: more than any of the others bar Joker, Haru is the one who seems to relate to him. Haru doesn’t model judgement (that’s Futaba)—Haru is modelling understanding, and reparative justice. She doesn’t want to be Akechi’s friend; they’re hugely unlikely to ever be friends. Any relationship they have is likely to be distant, based primarily on mutual obligation. But she understands him, to a degree.

Let Haru be the wonderful human being she is. #theend

#persona 5 #haru okumura #goro akechi #p5 meta #engine room #the squad #okumura haru #akechi goro

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ador3sturniolo · 13 days ago

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okay but a matt fic based of the song as long as you love me by justin bieber🤭

( dad of reader doesn’t approve of matt , reader and matt are dating behind his back , dad finds out and goes crazy , angst, etc. etc. )

As long as you love me

An - oh my god, I screamed when I saw this request. I live laugh love this song. His voice in this song is something else I swear 🙌🏽 You are so smart for putting that, this is prob my favorite request so far. I do love all of them I swear just this. This is the one.

Paring - Matt Sturniolo X FemReader

Summary - You and Matt are secretly dating

Warnings - Kissing, idk i suck at warnings 😭

Requested - Yes

I sat down on my bed, coming home from the triplets place. I couldn’t stop smiling from what happened today. Me and Matt are finally together. I went on my phone and added a heart next to his contact. I jump when my door opens.

“Hi dad!” I say, trying to hold my smile.

“Why are you so happy? I noticed you smiling when you walked in.” He says sitting down next to me.

“Well… Me and Matt Are together now.” I say nervously, wondering on how he would react.

“I don’t really like him. I think you could do better, you can do better. He makes those stupid car videos and dosnt make real money. You need a man how has a real job.” He says rubbing my back, thinking he’s in the right.

“You barely know him! You need to get to know him first because he’s actually a really great person. And I don’t care that he makes the videos or makes money off of that. I’m so proud of him though. But I don’t care about how much money he makes or has, I only care about the person he is. Look, why don’t you, matt and I, have dinner together so that way you can get to know him.” I say slightly frustrated. His face seems to turn angry.

“I don’t need to have dinner with him. I just know he’s not good for you and he’s a bad person. I don’t need dinner to prove that even more. I think you two should break up.” He says about to leave my room.

“Dad! You can’t do that to me! I love him!” I say is disbelief.

“Don’t argue with me young lady! As long as you live in my house, you live under my rules! And I’m saying you can’t date him!” He shouted, slamming my door shut.

“Fuck!” I shouted, sitting on my bed with my face in my hands. I grab my phone, with tears welling up in my eyes. I dial Matt’s number and put the phone up to my ear.

“Matt?” I say with a shaky breath.

“Hi baby, is everything okay? You said like you need to cry?” He spoke through the phone

“Yeah so um.. uh” I said sniffing

“It’s okay, you can talk to me.” He said with a calm voice

“So my dad doesn’t approve of you, and he wants us to break up.” I say with tears rolling down my cheeks.

“Hey hey, don’t cry okay? We can fix this.” He says, reassuring me.

“How Matt? How can we fix this?” I say fidgeting with my shorts.

“You can just tell him that we broke up, but we really don’t?”

“What are you saying?” I say wiping my nose

“I’m saying that we secretly date. And you keep it a secret from him.” He said in a curious tone

“What if he finds out?” I say going back to my thoughts

“We’ll make sure he won’t, I promise.” He says sighing.

“Okay, we can try that. Goodnight, I love you.” I say with a smile

“Goodnight my love.” He says hanging up. I lay in my bed, wondering what to do. I text a group chat I’m in with all of my girlfriends asking if they wanted to go out for the night. 4 of them said yes so I got up from my bed and started getting ready. I’m fully ready and I head downstairs, going to the door but my dad stops me.

“And where do you think your going?” He says crossing his arms

“I’m just hanging out with some of my friends tonight.” I say shrugging my shoulders

“Your not going to be hanging out with that boyfriend of yours? I told you guys to break up” He starts to get angry

“We did break up, I just called him.” I look down at my feet

“Good. I just want you to know I love you and that was for your own good.” He says pulling me into a hug. I don’t say anything and just walk out of there. I drive to my favorite club and wait for my friends to get there. We all get inside and find a booth. I get up and walk to dancing area, dragging them along with me. We all dance and have a great time till we have to go home. I’m exhausted from the day I had today and I just want to go to sleep, but I also want to do my skincare and shower. I Hop in the shower and take my time to wash off all the dirt off me, I get out and do my hair and skin care. I change into my favorite pair of pajamas and couldn’t get into bed faster. I was asleep before I knew it. I woke up happy to a good morning text from Matt.

Matt ❤️

Good morning baby. How did you sleep?

I couldn’t help but smile at my phone and reply back.

I slept good, thank you for asking :) What about you? Did you sleep good? Also, Im like, really missing you so could we hangout today?

I could have gotten better sleep if you were here 😒 and I would love to see you today my love

My face brightens at his reply. I quickly reply back so I can start to pull myself together for the day.

Yay! And you can get some sleep considering you get to see me! We can take a nap together :))

I put my phone down and I go into the kitchen to make myself some breakfast. I put some music on the speaker as I started moving around in a joyful mood, dancing to the music.

“Good morning honey” I look up at my father as I gave him a quick smile and went back to making some food.

“Why are you in such a good mood this morning?” I stoped for a moment to think of what to say, I can’t tell him I’m still with Matt and going to see him

“Well I realized that Matt isn’t a good guy and that you were right, and it’s such a beautiful day out, and I get to hangout with my friend Madi today. I haven’t seen her in a while so we’re going to catch up at the mall. Is that ok that I go?” I say putting food onto two plates.

“I’m glad you realized, and yes you can hangout with her.” He says grabbing his plate of eggs and bacon. I give him a smile as I head to my room and grab my phone to go sit down at the dining table. I open my phone to go ahead and text Matt

You wouldn’t believe what I told my dad

What did you tell him?

That I said that you were a bad guy (you’re not I love you so freaking much) and that I’m hanging out with Madi today, so he knows I’m leaving the house he just thinks it’s with Madi

I love you too and that’s great! What time are you coming over so I know when to start getting ready?

I check the time and see it’s 9:47

At 10:35? So that way I have time to get ready?

Sounds like a plan, see you soon ml

I set my phone down and start eating my food. When I’m done eating I get up and load the dishwasher so I can start to get ready. I quickly hop in the shower, nothing much but washing my body and hair, considering I shaved yesterday morning. I get into a comfy but cute outfit, perfect for a chilly day. I pop on a little bit of makeup and before I knew it, I was out the door and in my car.

I’m on my way now!!

Perfect! I can’t wait to see you!

I love how we’re acting like we haven’t seen each other in a month when we just saw each other yesterday

LMAO

I pull into his driveway and head inside.

“Matt?” I say closing the door and taking off my shoes.

“Coming!” I hear a shout from his room up stairs. I take off my jacket I had on and put it on a hanger in their closet. I’m greeted by Nick in the kitchen, him just finishing up some dishes.

“Hi Nick!” I give him a back hug considering his hands were wet.

“Hey girl! i’m glad you’re here now cause Matt would not shut up about you.” He chuckled.

“Well i’m glad to have come to the rescue” I say laughing

“Hey baby” Matt says entering the room immediately pulling me into a hug then giving me kisses

“Ew! Get a room!!” Nick fake gags

I just laugh it off as i pull back

“Hi Matthew” I give him a kiss on the cheek

“Hi my love, i missed you” Nick whips his head over

“You two saw each other yesterday” He rolls his eyes

I just look at Nick as i take Matt’s hand and walk to his room. I take my shoes off and hop on his bed.

“I love your bed, it’s so silky.” I give him a warm smile

“And i love your smile” He says coming to the bed, getting ontop and leaning down for a kiss. I wrap my arms around his neck to pull him closer when all of a sudden my phone starts ringing

“Ugh who is it” I groan as i pick up my phone “Shit it’s my dad”

Hi dad

Hey

Did you want something

No just checking in on you two, how’s madi doing?

She’s doing fine

Can i talk to her?

Not right now she just went to the bathroom

Shame, well i’ll see you when you get home, love you

love you too

“That was a close call” I hang up the phone

“Yeah good thought when you said she was in the bathroom” Matt laid down beside me

“Thank you thank you” I bow my head jokingly

“My pretty girl is so smart” Matt stares at me with lust

“Aww, and my boy is handsome” I brush a piece of hair out of his face

“What am i not smart?” He crossed his arms like a baby

“I never said you aren’t… but i never said you were..” I bite my lip

“Hey!” Matt looks at me in disbelief

“I’m just kidding, you’re very smart” I give him a kiss on the forehead. “So what’s for lunch?” I put my hair up into a ponytail

“Me…” Matt said looking down

“Matthew Bernard Sturniolo!” I hit him playfully

“I’m just joking!” He shields himself with his arms

“Aww man” I whisper

“What?!” Matt whipped his head

“I’m just kidding!!!” I get up and walk to the kitchen, looking to see what they have in their fridge with matt following behind.

“Mmm do you want a sandwich, Pasta?” I turn to look at matt

“Pasta” He says with a box of noodles already in his hands

“Wow that was fast” I smile and start making the noodles, along with a sauce. I finish making it, and give matt his lunch.

“So what do you think” I say taking a bite

“It’s really good” He scarfs down his food

“Slow down! So what do you wanna do after we eat?”

“Anything you want”

“Ooo i have an idea. Okay so what if we make your bed really comfortable and turn off all the lights and shut your curtains so it’s dark in your room, light a candle and watch a scary movie?”

“I like that” He says wiping his mouth

“Great!” I say going to his room to set everything up.

Matt walks in the room when everything is set up and i’m picking a movie

“What movie are we thinking?” I say scrolling through the tv

“I haven’t watched Smile 2 yet” he lays down beside me

“Seriously? Okay we’re definitely watching it” i turn it on and lay on his chest

At least an hour into the movie i look at him

“Hey matt?”

“Yeah?”

“How long do you think we can keep this up?”

“What do you mean?”

“Like hiding this from my dad”

“Well you could maybe move out soon so that way he can’t tell you what to do” Matt says as he starts to play with my hair.

“You’re right, but where would i live? I don’t wanna be that far away from you but there’s nothing for sale over here” I pause the movie.

“You could always live with me. I wouldn’t mind waking up to you every morning” He smiles.

“Aww, really?” I smile

“Really” He smiles

I sit up so that way i’m beside him and lean in to give a quick kiss, i begin to pull away but he grabs me and pulls me back in

“Fuck i love you” i say within the kiss

After a little more kissing he pulls away

“I love you more”

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AN - This one has just been sitting in my drafts for a year… A YEAR. And it’s not getting published? I’m so sorry!!! And i hope that this is close enough to the music video, i forgot it was based on the video for writing the last bit, but i hope it’s good enough!!!

#matt sturniolo #chris sturniolo #nick sturniolo #sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #the sturniolo triplets #christopher sturniolo #sturniolo edit #sturniolo fanfic #nicolas sturniolo #justin bieber

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bordysbae · 2 years ago

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what if the reader was out and playing volleyball or smth with her friends and some of the guys come up and ask if they wanna be in their BeReal (idk i feel like someone would have it) and they hit it off after?? with whoever bc there are too many of em

“we really gotta come here more often”

luke hughes x reader

sorry this took me so long, i’ve been really busy!! but keep sending requests!! <3 and idk if you wanted a romance out of this or just a friendship type of thing, so i decided to kinda combine the both?? i hate this so much tbh but i had no idea what to write i’m so sorry omg

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you and your best friend, abby, decided to convince your families to rent a house on the lake for the summer. you guys have been best friends since kindergarten, so of course your families vacation together almost every summer, so convincing them was easy. you guys live in the middle of michigan, so the drive to the rental house wasn’t much more than two hours.

when you arrive at the house, you both rush to unpack your things in your shared bedroom. you guys do a quick look around the house, before noticing how nice it is outside. you change out of comfy car clothes into shorts and tank tops, and go outside in the front yard. you begin to pass the volleyball back and forth. while talking about almost anything. suddenly as you’re setting the ball, someone with a slightly high pitched, yet still manly, voice calls out to you both.

“hey! excuse me?” the boy says. you turn your head to see two boys coming your way. you instantly notice how attractive they both are, but the one speaking especially catches your eye. you place the volleyball in between your arm and side, and smile at the boys.

“how may we be of service?” you joke, making the boy chuckle a little.

“do you guys mind taking our bereal? we have no one to take it” the other boy asks awkwardly, as he extends his phone out for you to take.

“couldn’t one of you just take it?” you laugh, grabbing his phone from him. you and abby pose for the camera before putting the camera in front of the boys. once the bereal finishes, you ask them to take yours, unaware the notification went off until they brought it up. they take yours, and you all get your bereals done and out of the way.

“i’m luke, this is ethan.” the boy who caught your eye earlier says.

“nice to meet you! i’m y/n, and this is abby” you say introducing yourself back.

“do you guys live here? i’ve never seen you guys before. my parents live two doors down, in that house there” the boy says, pointing to a brown house not too far away.

“we’re renting this house for the summer! are you guys brothers?” you ask.

“nope, we go to university of michigan together! what about you? are you guys siblings?” ethan says.

“no, we’re best friends. we just graduated highschool actually. we’re both going to michigan state” abby says.

“ooh yikes, one of our rival schools. i guess we won’t be able to hang out with you guys..” luke jokes, making you roll your eyes playfully as you’re well aware of the spartans versus wolverines rivalry. you four begin to chat, but eventually break off into separate conversations. you and luke begin to get to know each other a little better, as do abby and ethan. a few minutes later your mom calls you both in for dinner.

“before you guys go, i have a fire pit in my backyard. do you guys maybe wanna come over later and hang out? we could make s’mores or something?” luke offers.

“that sounds so fun! i’d love to! what about you abs, wanna go?” you ask your best friend. “of course! we’ll see you both later.” abby smiles, as you guys turn around.

“wait! can we get your guys’ snaps? gotta text you when to come over of course” luke says shyly.

“of course!” you say, as you all four pull out your phones to exchange socials. you and abby excuse yourselves and head inside for dinner. “we really gotta come here more often!” abby exclaims, making you laugh and nod your head in agreement.

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you guys spent the entire summer with luke and ethan, wether it was on the hughes’ boat, or even going grocery shopping with them. the entire summer was spent with the boys, and it was all documented through bereals.

of course you and luke continued to get closer throughout the summer, and even going into the school year. you guys started dating despite the half an hour to forty five minute drive. of course the guys gave him a small amount of shit for dating someone from a rivalry school, but he didn’t care.

abby and ethan stayed friends, but didn’t see their summer “fling” going anywhere. overall you had to say, the best decision you’ve ever made was asking you parents to rent a house by the lake.

#luke hughes #luke hughes imagine #luke hughes blurb #luke hughes x reader #hockey blurb #hockey imagine #umich hockey #michigan hockey #ethan edwards #i hate this so much #i hate this i’m sorry

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spectres-fulcrum · 1 year ago

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Some Palia crumbs and gut feelings I need to type out

Okay so I met the last “villager” I had left to meet yesterday(as I fell asleep while typing this). Tamala. I didn’t even like her in the promo art, and I had to go to her cause she never comes to town. I knew from promo stuff, she was an adult, a potion maker, and Hassian’s ex, so I was willing to be like some of my initial ick was jealousy. She just gives me SUCH bad vibes.

Like vililan vibes. And I’m intrigued but she grosses me off. Then my mind goes “If all magic is bad then does she even do dark magic if ALL magic is dark? And all you know now is that she does beauty and youth-ew, we will get there- potions.”

But she gives bad news vibes like sirens. Like there’s a reason she’s forced into the northern parts of Bahari Bay and none of the villagers dare to go to the north. Not even Hassian or Hodari who live in the Bay.

And we know it wasn’t always like that-Hassian and Tamala. They were lovers. And he’s a young adult. How young? Idk. I feel like 23/24ish. He feels like middle of the young adult age group characters. Kenyatta and Nai’o feels like the youngest, and Jel and Reth seem the oldest to me. Tamala is classified as adult and looks, idk, 30s, early 30s, and probably spun a web, but I saw in Discord she referred to an event 40 years ago, so she’s what, 45? 50? 60? Like how old was she 40 years ago is the question. (They clearly classified her by her appearence, smart)

So she;s idk how old and seduced the young hunter from the village-red flag. And she uses potions to hide her true age-red flag. And in our daily chat she was like, charming potions are so nice. They compliment you so much/hang onto every word you say/smth. And I’m just like. Angry. Cause is that what you did with Hassian, Tamala? Potioned him into “loving” you? Cause That’s so fucking noncon. Crosses so many lines. And it’s just like-Disguising.

If my gut feeling is right. That whatever they had was dressed up in potions of youth and charm and was never real at all but felt real-felt real enough. Like I grew up on Speak Now enough to know when to say “Alexa play Dear John.” Ow. I can see Hassian and Sifuu having a falling out over this gorgeous woman in the “my mother accused me of losing my mind but I swore I was fine.” Because they’re both so much more… fire…. Than Taylor and Andrea. Like full blowout argument, they don’t talk for weeks. Until Hassian realized it was all pretend and he’s broken and going home and mom doesn’t say I told you so like he’s picturing, but just has hugs and cuddles when the tears comes and it feels likes it’ll never be okay again but that’s…

And Reth once told me Hassian plays cards with Auni? Why? To keep an eye on him? So she can’t sink her claws into a child next? How often does Hodari thank the dragon that Najuma would never have any interest in witches promises beauty and love potions? Is part of why Jina can’t move the red tape an inch because Hassian accidentally moved them and touched magic too intimately?

Idk. Just theorizing some gut feelings and crumbs. I don’t expect the game to delve into any serious shit like this-doesn’t mean we can’t. Also it’s not going to anger as many people cause it’s younger man/older woman vs the other way around. I’m very well aware of that. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t gross me out.

So now I’m like. Tamala will clearly move the plot forward and I want to know what I can gleam from her. And my character doesn’t know about her and Hassian or anything. She just knows her as the recluse who makes potions in north Bahari Bay and she doesn’t like her but is also intrigued. I’m intrigued but enraged and I don’t like how she is. I also don’t like how Taylor put Mean after Dear John on Speak Now. Fucking whiplash.

We’ll see. I just needed to get this out. I am thrilled to write it though but as a game character I do not want to interact with Tamala. And there’s people who romance her??? Well, I imprinted on Hassian and I don’t typically like the goth witchy types so…

#palia #hassian #tamala #going to be so much fun to write though #but she’s a witch #in my mind i take kenyatta or jina or nai’o when i cross into her land

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adreamareads · 1 year ago

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2023 Fanfic Wrapped

Thank you for the tags @inexplicablymine @hgejfmw-hgejhsf @littlemisskittentoes !

Idk who else hasn't yet done this so @onthewaytosomewhere and OPEN TAG TO ANYONE WHO WANTS TO DO THIS!

I actually wrote a lot this year! Many of them surprised me. I'm usually an outline writer - I make notes for the stories and then that tells me where to take the story. However, several of these were kind of "let's just write and see where it takes us!"

It got long so here's a cut to save your dash. 💜✍️✍️

Watch it All Unfold (a collection of drabbles)

40 chapters added in 2023 at 100 words each

That's 4,000 words!

Over the course of the entire year; I won't be breaking it out into individual months

February:

Nora and Tu B'Shevat - 1300 words, focused on June/Nora, part of the series Nora and the Holidays. Last year, I was chatting Nora with some other fans and I mentioned that I write Nora celebrating her holidays. Someone commented (half-joking) "Tu B'Shevat fic WHEN??" I replied "When Tu B'Shevat happens!" so I wrote this little fic, dedicated it to them on Ao3, and they haven't read it. Still happy I represented for the trees 🌳 though.

June surprises Nora on her holiday with plans and a gift. Happy new year for the trees!

March:

March Book Club - 2 chapters, total 17,388 words. Rated T. Focuses on Alex/Henry and the Henry-June friendship

working title: henry gay english major

A kid at Henry's shelter inspires him to pick the Little Women series for his book club with June. Meanwhile, Alex is there, by his side, supporting him always, and Henry starts thinking more about their future in all the good ways.

Blanket Fort - 600 words. Rated G.

Alex is anxious during a storm, and so is David. Henry has a late night at the shelter.

July:

of fathers and sons - 7651 words. Rated T. Focuses on Alex/Henry and the relationship between Oscar and Henry.

Henry’s been working on the new LA shelter for months. He’s had countless conference calls with investors, contractors, city council, and more. Now, they’re ready for the final touches before opening, and Henry needs to be hands-on, literally. He knew this time would come, but he hates being away from home. He’s on the phone with his assistant, discussing hotel options, when Alex interrupts. “Why do you need a hotel in LA? My dad lives there. Stay with him. He’d be thrilled to have you there.” Henry stays with Oscar Diaz his father-in-law while he's getting the new LA shelter up-and-running. It's a bit of an adjustment, but it's actually nice. He even picks up a few new skills in the kitchen to show Alex!

October:

June and Weddings - 1216 words. Rated G. A little something I threw together for June's birthday.

5 weddings June is in + 1 time it's her own

November:

talking about feelings is a sapphic cliche - 1200 words exactly. Rated G. Another one that just happened quickly.

Nora nods. She knows June’s telling the truth, but she also can tell there’s something more. “And?” she prompts. “And,” June continues, a hint of a smile on her face, and Nora knows it’s for her, that June appreciates that she knows her so well. “I’m nervous.” “Okay,” Nora says, shifting so she’s sitting cross-legged across from June on the bed. “Specifics. Let’s hear it. You know how this goes: you tell me what you’re worried about and we’ll talk about it logically.”

December:

Christmas Visit - rated G. 3525 words. This was originally a drabble, and then people demanded more, and it actually worked.

It's Christmas Eve at Kensington. Alex's niece tells him about the ghost she saw the other day. Then, in the middle of the night, Alex sees him too.

Untitled New Year's Eve story - to be posted December 31

Total: 36,889 words over 7 new works + new chapters for 1 existing work. Does not include word count for New Year's story.

#rwrb #red white and royal blue #rwrb fic #adreama writes #fanfic #firstprince

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lumiereandcogsworth · 5 months ago

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I can't remember if I asked you this before ? maybe I have,??? but I just saw one of your posts on my dash and it made me wonder, did that traveling book disappear with the curse or did the enchantress let Adam keep it?

ahhh, sneaky sneaky!! it would be so cool and fun if that atlas had stayed enchanted and they could just USE IT. imagine them writing to their friends in like spain or something being like “hey yeah we’ll be there to visit soon” and they just fuckin show up before the letter even arrives fjskdjd. for the record i think that’s very fun and i have seen people play with that idea.

HOWEVER.

unfortunately i’m gonna be the fun police and say no i don’t think it stayed enchanted. i think it was enchanted so long as the castle & rose & mirror were enchanted. so when all that ends, it just becomes a normal atlas. like honestly i think it was an atlas that already existed in the library, and i would bet it was just chillin propped open on the table collecting layers of DUST.

i kind of like to imagine that after the initial insanity of adam turning into a beast and the rest of the residents turning into objects, i feel like agathe sort of forced adam to go around the castle and see the damage he had done. like idk how she does this, maybe he involuntarily wants to walk where she leads? maybe she can kind of Control him and make him walk? idk, she’s hella powerful. but regardless of how it happens, i think she somehow drags him around the castle to make sure he sees how dead empty it appears, now that all the people living there are objects. (of course, at this point, they’re all probably freaking out! but she probably wants him to hear their panicked cries too.)

anyway, before their last stop in the west wing to give him the spiel about the rose and the mirror, they go to the library. and there on the table, the atlas is already glowing. they go over to it and she explains that this is his way to still escape the castle and to travel this precious world of his. and he’s confused, but she emphasizes that he’ll still Look Like This, so good luck going anywhere and not immediately being hunted for sport, asshole!

(and i still do think he does try it one time, and i promise i’ll write it eventually!!!!!)

so yeah. but i definitely think, sometime early post-curse, belle remembers the atlas and is like “WAIT. do you think…?” and adam’s like “no…. can’t be….” but they’re both just a tiny bit hopeful because they were probably just chatting about cool places adam wants to take her so omg maybe they can go Right Now!!!!!!!!!! but they run to the library and find the atlas back to its original state. they’re only a tad disappointed but they both knew it was probably too good to be true, so they sort of laugh about it. i think belle still scoops it up in her arms and insists they look through it. adam smiles and agrees, and they take it outside and spend the sunny afternoon flipping the pages. and belle, of course, is just watching adam with HEART EYES!! as he infodumps about the places he’s already been, and everything he knows about each one :’)

#HEHEHE thanks dude :’) i really needed that #💙💙💙💙#batb 2017 #batb headcanons #adelle #alex tag #answered

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ohmaosama · 4 months ago

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Mahoyome ch104 reaction thread? Lol

First why I can't zoom in while using full screen mode but can zoom in usual mode... Anyway-

This is first reading, pretty much no thought head empty. Might edit it later but yep letsgoo

- awww it's so cute chise sleeping with lucy and zoey

- WHOA WHOA WHAT HAPPEN WHY EVERYONE ON ELIAS HOUSE ADHSJSKLS

- What in the world is this mean... Man idk english

- wait I don't get it... So chise turn into the red dragon right? The red dragon give chise their power so chise can change into red dragon (???) so she's the red dragon now? Or she's just have this manifesting red dragon inside her now- hold up lemme fix my word first... Imma back with this one

- ELIAS CARE ABOUT PEOPLE OTHER THAN CHISE??!? GASP MY LIVE REACTION 😧- ALSO WHO IS THAT TALL MAN BEHIND IS THAT THE CURSED WITCH FAMILY GUY*I forgot his name? NEW CHARACTER????

- Elias thinking, Elias chibi, Elias sigh hehe so funny to see him having that many expressions in one chapter

- hmmm what are they gonna talk about...

- ain't no way they give zoey booze

- also what in the world is that creature

- man....

Okay, a bit of chit-chat—rant—whatever you want to call it... So, here’s the thing after the college arc, it looks like Mahoyome is shifting to longer story arcs unlike the shorter arcs in the first season where problems were solved rather quickly and the impact on the characters was immediate. But how long is this arc going to last? Are they going to focus on the arc while also exploring character backgrounds? (But then again, this is how story usually do, so what am I even questioning lol) Like, with one of Elias past just being revealed, is his backstory going to tie into this arc now? There’s no way they’d drop that without it connecting to a future arc, right? I just feel like we’re forgetting things too quickly, Chise hasn’t even had the chance to ask Elias directly about anything it’s all being told through other characters (but again maybe chise don't have to ask elias cuz that guy *I forgot his name already explaining anything so...). I mean, I know we’re starting a new arc, but don’t we have something to talk about first???? Or maybe, like always, we’ll get the answers in 10 more chapters lol

But hold up, I can’t really say the previous arc was short… because all of that combined makes up the whole Cartaphilus arc, right? It just has sections that felt like short arcs

Idk anymore loool I just love this series

#mahoyome ch104 #I'm confused #all hail yamazaki kore

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beyourownanchor6 · 2 years ago

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temptation tuesday!

rules: share something about an idea you have/something that's speaking to you/an au you'd like to see and are considering writing/etc. etc. Basically anything that is tempting you away from your current wips!

thanks to my loves for the tags @swiftiediaz @buddierights @alyxmastershipper @honestlydarkprincess 🩵

a walk to remember au—idk this has been living in my head for weeks now and i can’t stop thinking about it. i would base it more on the movie than book bc i only read that once a long time ago. i’m thinking buck as landon and eddie as jamie. i’m not really religious so i’d probably skip that part and idk i might have to make it a happy ending, but we’ll have to see how angsty i’m feeling if i ever get around to writing it 😂

cinderella story au: this is another one i’ve been thinking about lately, well for a while now, but i haven’t sat down to work it out. i wouldn’t have to give buck evil stepparents bc ya know the buckleys are already great at that 😃 and i just love the idea of them meeting through chats, and yea..don’t have a lot thought out but i’m hoping to work on this one soonish!

fruit rollups: this one’s stupid 😂 but i found it in my notes app. but anyway have y’all seen those fruit roll up videos on tiktok, where they wrap them around 🍆 and anyway i saw a video where someone used the tattoo fruit roll ups…and yea, buck would totally make eddie do this sndjrjsk

tagging: @redlightsandicedtea @confetti-cupcake @justsmilestuffhappens @loveyourownsmiilee @onward--upward @swiftiebuckleys @monsterrae1 @spotsandsocks @elvensorceress @putijeansdiaz-ronordmann @eddiescowboy @jacksadventuresinwriting @wh0re-behavi0r @spaceprincessem

#buddie #temptation tuesday #eddie diaz #evan 'buck' buckley #911 fox #my ideas #anyway #lmk which one’s your fave #👀

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kulekrizpy · 11 months ago

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my friend/ex was really upset yesterday. his body is all messed up from various injuries, he needs dental work. i told him to call out of work bc he wasn’t going to get any sleep before his shift

he moved near his hometown with some planning but not a lot. he wants to go to school. but he won’t have in-state tuition since he was living in my state prior to moving. he works really hard at work but it’s physical labor and it only makes his health issues worse. he also doesn’t want to move up to a less labor-intensive position :/ he honestly needs to take medical leave

and he’s upset with my brother for various reasons, but last night he was drinking and it all came out and he messaged my brother and my mother about how upset he was about my brother breaking something of mine and not paying in full to replace it. he’s struggling with money on his own and he resents my brother for having a cushy job that he complains about and flouts authority on. in many ways my brother IS entitled and probably WOULD benefit from being punched in the face at least once for his shitty political views, especially bc my ex is genderqueer. but he has definitely not spoken frankly about it with my brother

speaking of which, now he’s in a less accepting place and tho he “toned down the queer” he still gets looks from ppl and it’s stressing him out a lot. he worries about going thru backroads in case his car breaks down and someone kills him

all his friends from back home are druggies or complete deadbeats or both and he’s had a falling out with everyone since he moved. he’s also worried one of his older friends won’t live beyond this year. so now all the friends he does rely on are in my area and not his and he’s very lonely and isolated. and that also means i’m his best friend rn, which he’s told me several times

a week or so ago he wanted to make a risky and illegal change in career and after i told him i wouldn’t have been friends with him anymore if he decided to do it, he told me he still wants to fuck me. when i told him i can’t be casual with him anymore so don’t say that, he said he didn’t say it properly and that he meant he wants to be with me, eventually. and it’s just a whole fucking thing. he can’t even articulate what he wants. i told him not to mention it again unless he was sure and confident he could actually be a good partner to me. and i told him i need time to get over him too

and last night, we were chatting and i realized he’d been drinking, and he’s in a negative spiral/combative. he messaged my family. i told him he should wait til the morning and he did it anyway. at that point i said whatever. the call dragged on for hours tho he needed to sleep for work. he was in such a state i didn’t feel comfortable getting off the phone with him in case he did something very risky, like driving drunk or idk what else. he talked about wanting to lay down on some train tracks…

AND he called me again at work the other day. like. on the work phone. he used to work there but it’s just… not professional. feels weird. esp bc he was doing it cuz he was drunk. told him to text or call my phone next time

he gets drunk and disregards boundaries. bc he also mentioned the dating thing last night while we were talking. and when i told him not to he sidestepped and kept going on about whatever rant. and he just argues abt everything when he’s drunk. DUMB shit. like me taking my bike apart to store it easier. like bruh leave me alone ??

in the end he called out of work, then talked to his sister and i guess she convinced him to drive up instead of doing something dumber. i asked if he was sober enough and he said yeah. which he would’ve said no matter what i’m sure :|

so. he got to his family’s place and i guess i’ll see him today sometime. i told him i don’t want to drink and my brother doesn’t wanna drink with him either, so we’ll avoid that at our house at least

he’s trying, but he’s also falling back on stupid habits. i just hope he can figure out how to get the help he needs

and i need to figure out how to keep my boundaries

the cats woke me up earlier. i need to sleep more before i see him. good night

#suicide m //#personal

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cupcake-bee-boy · 2 years ago

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I really want to make a family tree of Limited Life. I have an idea for a family AU or something along those lines. Lots of bio family and found family mixed together. Putting it under a cut because my ideas for everyone and how they fit into the family gets a wee bit long (and also maybe complicated. idk at this point of my thought process is fully understandable or not)

So, I start with the Clock family, obviously. Cleo Clock, their sons Scar and BDubs Clock. Then the absent father, Etho Clock. He lives with his roommates who are like brothers to him (Tango, Impulse, and Skizzle). I’m debating whether I should make them actual brothers, or maybe just some of them idk, but anyway.

Martyn is Cleo’s cousin. They had a rough relationship in the past, where he wanted to be close with his family and she wasn’t impressed. However, she introduced him to the man he later married, Scott (all of that is taking inspo from Double Life). So he’s newlyweds with Scott, we’ll have to see how that turns out. But he also has three grown sons who all live together. The oldest and middle, Jimmy and Grian, are from the same mom. And the youngest he actually adopted, Joel, although they all get along really well. However, the boys did start a fight with the Clock family across the street. Which did not make things easier on their dad at all. Also also, Martyn, still on his quest to connect with his cousin, is excited about being an uncle to her kids. Especially since he met Etho and crashed at his house for a little bit right before the marriage, so he feels extra connected to the situation.

Now, about his sons. The “mansion” they live in is the top floor of a shady apartment building/wannabe frat house. They aren’t exactly model citizens, though they don’t do anything too dangerous. More like typical dumb, reckless guys in their early twenties. Honestly, Jimmy is more just going along with his brothers because he feels like they’re the only one who “gets” him. He was always bullied in high school, and his brothers were the only ones who had his back. Despite also constantly teasing him about the same stuff, he knows they meant it out of love. And also, even though they’re younger, and always would stick up for him and fight whenever they heard of him getting mistreated. So he sticks by them, even when he knows they’re being stupid and reckless, because brothers got each other’s backs.

Last two to go. Pearl and Big B are the neighbors (obviously). Two college students who are roommates because they’re broke and the other one seems friendly. They have chatted a lot with Cleo and met her sons, as well as everyone else in the neighborhood. Big B knows Cleo from the past, and they’re not on the friendliest terms. I haven’t decided what he’s done in this AU yet, but he feels bad about it while also thinking they should move on. He did what he had to, it was nothing against her. Anyhow, the two college students want to get closer to the messed up family. They know they seem nosy, and maybe they are, but both agree they want to be connected to the community and this is a great way to start (also, okay, sue them. there’s a lot of drama in this family and they live for watching it. Nobody’s perfect)

So yeah. That’s my idea so far. I still want to draw it out and also come up with more ideas. I’d love to know if anyone else is interested in this/has ideas.

#limited life #limited life smp #traffic smp #lim life family au #I have no idea what I’m even going to do with this au #probably just bits and pieces of writing unless I get the urge to draw #I just really like the idea of them all being a family in some way or another #and Martyn very briefly mentioning being an uncle to Scar and BDubs my mind went wild #sorry for those huge chunks of paragraph. I just had so many thought of everyone #if anyone wants tho I can take them and split them into normal sized pieces if it’s hard to read #I just got excited and forgot about good formatting #okay anyway I’m gonna post this before I overthink it and chicken out

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tybysis · 1 year ago

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8:25pm

Well... How did I get here?

Hey Ty! Happy August! It’s Kitty month, because Kitty’s birthday is the 11th. I actually have a paid day off on her birthday to make sure I can spend as much time with her as she’d like, even if it’s only online for now. Makes me happy to know that I’ve made that time for her, special, as she deserves.

I hung out with Rose today! We went and saw the Barbie movie, and got ramen and caught up. We ended up talking about a whole lot of things, trying to catch each other up on everything since high school. We’d seen each other in passing since then, but we hadn’t actually talked, ya know? We caught each other up on The Tea™, little as there was. She told me about Cas and her living situation, and I talked about Gem and Mags and Kitty and Curse and Aza. I think as far as general overviews go, it went well. I also let Rose know that she is on the list of people I wouldn’t mind living with, and if anything happens she knows that my home is always open to her. As are my DMs, if she wants to talk. We reconnected a bit and it was really nice!

I think I’ve decided that I’m not going to do Light Brigade this year. Which… I say every off season. But it really has been 8 entire years. I think that with all the changes happening this next year, I probably need to be home more. Just getting into the groove of things. After all, that is a lot of changes - mom moving away, Kitty, Curse, and Aza moving up here, potentially getting an IRS job so I can be happier - things like that. And while I’ve been doing okay staying constantly busy… I don’t want to do that anymore. I was SO busy prepandemic, so much work and guard and classes and blah blah blah. I want a year of just rest. Of chillin’. Lol. And I love guard so so much, but maybe its time I retired. This last season was amazing, but after COVID, making it through the runs were hard. Like, really hard.

Josh and I had a chat about the romantic vs platonic thing on Monday, and he wanted to be sure that I wasn’t insulted by him mentioning that he may just think of me as a very good friend and that romance was just another room in the house, so to speak. George - his therapist - had mentioned that the phrasing may have been insulting. Lol! But I told him the truth that it was actually kind of freeing. Knowing that, I was able to assess and be truthful about my own feelings without worrying about hurting him. After all, even if Josh and I decided to just be friends, or friends with benefits, or whatever, we’ll still live together and support each other and be a team. It’s giving mom-mom and pop-pop Peebles, tbh.

I’ve been thinking about whether or not our relationship has maybe run its course? Because he stayed because of the pandemic, and we’ve been forced to be together often because of our living situation, there was nowhere for him to go. Not that I wanted him to, we just wouldn’t have been able to afford it anyway. The thing about that though is that now that we’ve had the conversation I feel… less pressure? I guess? I no longer feel like he has a stated expectation for intimacy and closeness, which in turn makes me more open to it. Therapy Works™! I dunno. Since that conversation I’ve wanted him to be closer and I’ve wanted to cuddle up more than I have in a long time? Idk bro.

I also! Today! Got my nexplanon replaced! Only TWO YEARS overdue! Lmao. So I have a bunch of gauze wrapped around my arm and a bandaid and my arm ACHES every so often, but it’s not so bad. I’m worried, though. I had a lot of really bad emotional fluxuations when I got my first one. That being said, it was five years ago, and a LOT more was happening then, but still. I have gotten to a place of supposed calm and ease, and I’m worried that the hormone fluctuation will change that. I’ll probably just cry more lol. That’s what happened before - I started sobbing because Markiplier was playing a game as a tree and then jumped into a saw. Lol. So maybe I get Even Softer with the hormones in me. Which. Sure. As long as I’m not Even Softer and pregnant!

The added bonus is that if birth control gets outlawed, since we’re in a country that cares very little for people like me, I have three (to five) years of it just in my arm. I can just pretend it’s not there lol. If the, like, birth control police or whatever knock on my door.

Today was productive and busy, so now I am sitting on the bed reading Dracula. I’m at the point in the day where I’m not sure what I want to do, but I definitely want to vibe. Kitty and I are going to watch Good Omens whenever she feels better - when she’s in pain, she can’t focus on much of anything - but in the meantime I find myself between hobbies. I am reading and doodling and rolled a dice to choose which to do. I am also rping, as I always am, and that helps. Lol. Makes me feel alive.

I also talked to Rose about Rhys, and everything that happened with that. She said that she understands how I feel about them and like, as I agree with, good for them, I’m glad they’re successful, it just doesn’t have to be With Me. We also talked about successful creativity and how hard it was to continue to create during the pandemic, and it was just a really nice talk. Now I just send her memes!

Last things last, our friend Lana decided to try going by she/her and being called Lana! I’m so excited for her! I hope that she is able to find out who she is and hope she gets comfortable with it.

I thought about it because Rose and I saw the Barbie movie, and every woman I’ve talked to who’s seen it has cried. I did not. Afterward it hit me why - I’m not a woman! Lol. It was a good movie with a good message, and apparently one of those movies where people watch it and then break up with their boyfriends (just like Midsommer and Gone Girl! lol) but it really just cemented for me that I don’t really connect with the message like I would, and also, that I don’t feel like I’m expected to or have to. That’s nice.

Anyway, Ty, thanks for listening as always. It’s a good day for a good day. :)

#kay speaks

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punkscowardschampions · 2 years ago

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JJ & Bimmy & JC

Jimmy: Are you gonna let me know?

Jimmy: you haven’t said

Janis: yeah, I will

Jimmy: go on

Janis: I’m scared I knew it was wrong the first time and I still did it and what that makes me

Jimmy: If you reckoned it were that wrong it makes you some sort of monster or some bollocks, you wouldn’t of

Janis: not a monster or some film shit just

Janis: bad, maybe, a bad person

Jimmy: Nah, fuck it, as a bad person I’m not letting you in the club

Janis: well who died and made you president

Jimmy: [some celebrity namedrop idk someone who’s died recently in your current era though]

Janis: RIP

Jimmy: so piss off, you, nobody’s having none of it

Jimmy: you’re a top person, my top person, and you made us better

Janis: I’m gonna believe you, even it’s only ‘cos I want to

Jimmy: 👍

Janis: don’t #trigger me to prove you’re such a bad boy

Jimmy: President or nowt

Janis: you can think again if you reckon I’m calling you that, boy

Jimmy: What I imagine you calling us is between me and the rest of the club

Janis: 😖

Janis: but

Jimmy: 🤐

Janis: so mean

Jimmy: On brand 🏆

Janis: 🙂 to you then, not telling you any more secrets

Jimmy: We’ll see

Jimmy: meantime, dunno how I’ll live with you being SO fit and mysterious

Janis: you were managing just fine before, mate

Jimmy: Dunno about that neither but

Janis: what happened, why did you stop wanting me

Jimmy: I didn’t, I haven’t

Janis: you had

Janis: it was different, last time

Jimmy: It weren’t about you why I stopped doing all sorts, just

Jimmy: I just took it out on you, in the end

Janis: ‘cos you were depressed and I didn’t see it, or didn’t get you help

Jimmy: ‘Cause you were gonna leave us, so it’d be better if I pushed you to it, better that it were my fault and all up to me

Janis: you didn’t know that

Jimmy: yeah, it’s what everybody does

Janis: you weren’t supposed to think I was everybody

Jimmy: I don’t want to think none of it

Janis: we’ve both done it now, like you said

Jimmy: like I said, I did what I did, can’t undo it now

Janis: cheers

Jimmy: I would if I could

Janis: is that undo it or cheers us

Janis: ‘cos I’m pregnant and driving so

Jimmy: Both, I’d undo it and drink myself to death for not being able to

Janis: we can’t fuck each other up like this forever

Janis: I love you too much

Jimmy: I love you, and I’m so so sorry I ever fucked you up

Janis: I know you are, I know

Jimmy: I don’t know when it started, what the fuck happened to me

Janis: we were just kids, really messed up ones

Jimmy: I meant it though, you did make us better, I thought I were

Janis: the good can still be true

Janis: it is, that’s why it hurts

Jimmy: The bad feels truer, that’s always gonna be what’s louder in my head

Janis: we were really fucking good, you can’t take that away

Jimmy: I don’t want to, don’t let us, okay?

Janis: fat chance

Janis: it’s mine too, I’ll protect it

Jimmy: You have to

Janis: we were together longer than any proper adult couple I know

Jimmy: And you weren’t everybody, that’s not me chatting

Jimmy: it’s what I think sometimes, not how I feel

Janis: yeah, there’s shit in your head that kicks you when you’re down, we know who it is

Jimmy: I’m sorry, I’ll keep on saying it for the rest of our one life

Janis: I am and will and all but I’ll have a go at showing you too

Janis: for accidentally proving his bollocks right, ‘cos that don’t make it true, I’m still here, better or worse

Jimmy: Can’t have that, him even accidentally half right the once ain’t on

Janis: another one for us to cling to

Jimmy: I am and will

Janis: I just can’t hack hurting everyone no more

Jimmy: Nor can I, the once for that would be too often an’ all, and it’s already not just, state of my track record

Janis: we’re even but can’t call it quits

Janis: just have to do better, I reckon

Jimmy: All I’m after

Janis: same here, Jim

Janis: we’re gonna be proper mates, no matter what

Jimmy: 😁☀️

Janis: 🐶🐾🦴😘🥰❤️

Jimmy: Emoji’s not doing her justice there

Janis: [send him a picture that this lady has just sent because you’re like hi I’m coming NOW]

Jimmy: [guestimate a time based on how far away this lady is and thus it’ll take her to get there and back like is that what time it’ll be]?

Janis: thereabouts, yep

Janis: won’t let her keep me 🤞

Jimmy: 👌

Jimmy: I won’t keep you neither, drive safe

Janis: have the kettle on for us?

Jimmy: What kind of proper mate if it weren’t

Janis: not one I’d have

Jimmy: Have to chuck the dog at us then chuck us, bit awkward

Janis: couldn’t chuck the lack of a brew at your head, real pisstake there

Jimmy: Pillow fight it is then

Janis: you having a nap?

Janis: still have a key but the puppy licking your face will probably wake you more than a knock would

Jimmy: Might, knowing what puppies are like

Janis: sweet dreams then

Jimmy: 🐶🐾🦴😘🥰❤️ weren’t it, you said?

Janis: more emojis than I’m usually after using but yeah

Janis: sounds about right

Jimmy: See how many of them I can get after in my dreams before you pair wake us

Janis: new ⏰ her

Jimmy: Earn her keep

Janis: gotta earn those biscuits somehow

Jimmy: Can’t just be giving ‘em all away

Janis: 😏

Jimmy: Night, for now

Janis: night night, see you soon for 🐶🐾🦴😘🥰❤️

Jimmy: in a bit

Janis: [now what do you wanna do, do you wanna do JC because you’ve clearly just done a moonlight flit from work on your own or?]

Jimmy: [that makes sense, unless you wanna do like JJ in person interactions when she brings this dog over first?]

Janis: [I guess it makes sense to do that first still, even if there’s some time overlap in said convos; get this little lady and the rest of her things and get her home, like to think you’d have stopped bothering him but like five minutes before sent the sort of ‘bout to be there text so he has some warning if he’s awake and if he’s not you’ll keep her downstairs until he is or whatever]

Jimmy: [I’m sure that he’d have put his phone on loud or vibrate under his pillow, whatever works, in anticipation of her sending that sort of text so he’s got enough time to wake up from his nap, sort himself out and get all this dog’s stuff from the hiding place it was in, it means you’ll definitely do the thing where you open the door before she even gets near enough to get her key out never mind knock because too overeager, but that’s adorable and I love it for you]

Janis: [definitely in this car talking to this dog when we see you like there’s Jimmy, your sort of owner, lmao at the custody situation of this dog, soz Libi; we’re the definition of excited you’re excited right now and also love to see it, letting this gal out but she’s gotta be on lead so she don’t run away so then you’re getting dragged to this door and into this boy/house ‘cos excitable is puppies whole personality]

Jimmy: [JJ can never stop being rom-com esque even in this era, love that cliche of y’all basically colliding via this puppy and then her jumping up him and being all excited and cute, let Janis shut the door while Jimothy and Peach are having this meet cute moment and then he can let her off to properly explore this gaff without getting herself or them tangled in her lead while he goes to make them all a cuppa because of course the kettle is literally also boiling while all this is happening, as his love language, to add to the scene]

Janis: [my boo says okay hugh grant and she’s so real for that, just can’t help yourselves, it will be fun watching her explore because love a new place so just following this pup around whilst this tea is being made and you’ve got yourselves and all this shit inside, would also like to note she’s bought a couple tins of paint in whatever colour we know Libi would like for the spare room, whether that is just plain ass white for that clean girl aesthetic or we have popped off with her fave colour, regardless it’s just being put in said room for whenever without mention]

Jimmy: [me like don’t you DARE ask her to help you paint, sir, because if y’all end up having a paint party and getting covered in paint and being all cute I will KILL myself, you’re gonna have to talk to Libi and ask her to do it with you as a lil bonding activity, but for now let us focus on the fact he has also made Peach her own cup of tea too cos welcome to the fam, babe]

Janis: [she’s putting her foot DOWN, also don’t think about the fact that whatever colour and whoever paints it, it’s gonna be Bobby’s baby mama’s room anyway, not yours, so that’s a slap in the face lol; ‘she’s the colour of a decent cup’ with a shrug as you’re clearly thinking of names you could call this dog that are tea related]

Jimmy: [mhmm, it REALLY upsets me actually because it will be her room for long enough for her to get comfy in it probably and then she has to literally move out of it to make room for his baby mama and eventually baby Cammie too, that’s SO rude of us, but meanwhile in the now, Jimothy just looking down at all their respective teas with an expression like there must be something wrong with yours cos Peach be orangey af and tea is simply not, but he’s amused and only pretending he’s gonna take hers and tip it away and make her a new one]

Janis: [nudging him gently like shut up and moving your tea out of his way and taking a sassy sip ‘fuck knows what she’ll have you shouting out at the park’ ‘cos truly, Libi could have really been weird and pretentious about it like lol, that’ll be fun]

Jimmy: [just a shrug because he had to deal with Twix at the worst possible time when he was a too cool angsty teen so ‘be alright’ as he loves upon this dog who’s probably trying to steal his tea like ooh what it is that, cos gotta wait for hers to cool, she’s just a baby, lowkey like he’s trying to convince himself he can do this now this dog is actually here]

Janis: [just smiling like yeah, of course it will, without having to verbally confirm that and be dramatic about it ‘she’s pretty chill’ because Peach isn’t a mental dog particularly so it matches the content and makes your life easier in the process so slay ‘she’ll pull her weight, sure he will too’ meaning Libi and Bobby because Libi better lmao and we’re sure Bobby will come ‘round to the idea]

Jimmy: [just have a lil reminisce about how naughty Twix was at first like at least she won’t do such and such then, because yeah thank god we’re giving you a slightly easier life than when it was a toddler/kid and tween/teen brother and a literal puppy, well done Ian, at least until baby Jac and Cammie are both born anyway]

Janis: [this dog is the least of everyone’s worries then, respectfully queen, you will just be there chilling lol, oh Twix, you rascal, RIP ‘was a good mate though’]

Jimmy: [‘she had her moments’ said with all the feeling because 1. She did and she was an icon but 2. He always says that about this gal and he’s looking at her as he does, nbd nbd]

Janis: [we are just looking at you, doing another push but it’s actually a feelsy lean ‘she will too’ like there’s going to be more good memories and times to come, I swear]

Jimmy: [giving this dog a look like hmm idk about that, but he’s only playing, obvs, we all know you’re gonna LOVE her and be devastated in the baby mama era when Libi has to move out and thus I’m sure takes Peaches to mcvickers as the cali gaff is a no go, proving that by getting up to set her little bed area up under the stairs where all the dogs get put, including Chubby for that very very brief time, playing with her when she’s inevitably nosey about it]

Janis: [not everyone being gutted you’re there but your mother has chucked you out alas, can’t also kick you to the curb; we’ll just sit ourselves down on the sofa whilst you do this because wanna let you have alone time with this pup and not over involve ourself]

Jimmy: [it’s gonna be a HORRIBLE time, because it’d be one thing if nobody else wanted her there but this babymama and Bobby were madly in love and thus didn’t care and had an us against the world vibe, but we know they don’t even like each other that much, so ugh, really ruining everyone’s lives here miss including your own, ANYWAY, come back and drink whatever is left of your tea, boy and give this dog hers, letting all of y’all just have that nice shared moment]

Janis: [yeah it’s not even like she’s buzzing to be there she just has no choice, what a time, it’ll be interesting, give you that hun lmao; just watch this dog make an absolute meal of this cup of tea and lol because the way dogs use their tongues to drink is amusing, just sneaking glances at this boy as well]

Jimmy: [nudging her when he feels one of these glances for the first time because of course he do, wiping his mouth with his sleeve like what, what’s on my face? with such oh you, affectionate energy as he shakes his head and does a half smile mostly behind said sleeve that he then reveals for her as they have a lil but not lingering moment of eye contact, turning the nudge into a shameless feelsy lean the next time though, and letting that eye contact last a beat longer, just rom com vibes]

Janis: [doing the thing where you touch on your own face like just there, no there but being silly about it and just covering your whole face ‘cos obviously there is nothing and we sincerely mean the ‘you look alright’ because good would be a stretch when we know things are still tough and will be but it’s good to see you interacting with the dog, joking and being more like the old you; when we get the smile reveal, reflexively adding ‘better than that then’ because we know okay > alright, smiling down into our tea when we have to break the eye contact before it turns into EYE CONTACT]

Jimmy: [doing the thing where you kinda self consciously but also kinda flirtily run your hands through your hair and touch the back of your neck too as a boy when someone gives you a compliment without being really aware of it, because we’re all aware he was having a nap just before so it’s probably slightly messy + depression era also contributes ‘Do you need to be back in work or-?’ just blurting that out when she’s looking and smiling down into her tea]

Janis: [smiling at you harder because it’s very cute to see you even vaguely flustered and it’s just nice to get to compliment you ‘I moved my appointments’ ‘cos you probably didn’t know how long this would all take and you literally just dipped so I assume that would be how you handled it ‘not very professional but-’ shrugging because the vibe is clearly that you’re good so hoes want you and you can take the piss a bit more than someone who wasn’t as good ‘can’t walk her yet but-’ ‘cos you probably need to have some injections and all that miss peachy, leaving that sentence open ended ‘cos do you want us to go, we don’t know]

Jimmy: [doing his own shrug that means he knows how good she is at her job and that she doesn’t need to worry so he won’t because he would know that, especially how in demand she is, after living with her schedule for as long as he has ‘what we can do is-’ like he’s finishing off her sentence after the but, trailing off as he leads Peach to the kitchen door and lets her out into the back garden to explore a bit, following her out and knowing Janis will too because of that deliberate we he used]

Janis: [of course we are, gonna be nice and say it’s not pissing it down today so y’all can be out here and not be getting soaked, although again, v rom-com, we shan’t thank you, just doing a deep breath like you’re enjoying that fresh air and no other reason to]

Jimmy: [we know all too damn well that wet clothes leads to getting out of them, and we MUSTN’T, be good please, lads, speaking of, after however long of being outside living y’all’s best life watching Peachy gal living hers, doing the kind of jump up you do when you remember something, saying ‘fuck’s sake’ to himself under his breath like how could I forget that was there or to tell her and going inside, coming back out with some kind of other snack she likes that he has made her, same as he did that sandwich on their lil lunchdate but it could be anything, just know the plate would be cold from the fridge because he literally made it ages ago now before he went to go and nap like a thoughtful bastard so it’s wrapped up in clingfilm or whatever and it has a little post it note on it, with some kind of doodle to signify that it’s hers and if he’s still asleep she should eat it, all of which I am FINE about]

Janis: [Mhmm, we have to at least try and not put you in such ridiculous positions like that off the bat lmao; but the way we would jump so hard too, here looking after you like WHAT, which is TOTALLY why we’re here choking back tears about it, just had us shook, mhmm, holding this cold plate to the pressure points on our wrists lowkey because we don’t wanna cry that would be very dramatic when it’s a nice gesture but it means SO much to us for SO many reasons, popping this post it note on his forehead to cover his vision lowkey for a moment to compose yourself and obviously offering you some of whatever this snack is]

Jimmy: [Like, I’m not saying y’all will NEVER AGAIN makeout or hookup in the future cos you very much could and might without it needing to burn everything to the ground or mean y’all are getting back together/can’t be mates, but for rn you’re both trying very hard to keep things platonic and we get why, taking this post it note off his forehead and crumpling it into a tiny ball like oi to throw at her, doing that but putting a hand on her arm instead of reaching for any of this snack, because duh he knows, and he doesn’t want any because it’s hers, giving her arm the gentlest squeeze ever to be comforting]

Janis: [we know it’s confusing and neither of you know what you’re doing but you’re both trying and that’s a lot, when you do a cross face ‘cos you hate when he just trashes his art even when it’s literal doodles but then you’re like oh, probably can’t take that with me, which is an awkward and upsetting realisation but you’ve gotta keep it running, have your snack and maybe you’ll calm down, leaning into this arm squeeze like thanks in all the ways, resting your head on his shoulder until you go to take your first bite because rude to cover you in crumbs]

Jimmy: [when you make a big show off picking it up and putting it in your pocket as if she’s upset at you for littering a garden which isn’t even hers anymore when we know in reality he’ll smooth it out and keep it because she can’t and they are both having that realisation, distract yourself by acting like you’ve gotta do the most to distract this dog while she’s eating so she doesn’t try and steal whatever the food is, despite the fact Peach is probably just busy happily exploring this garden until you get her attention by being a fool]

Janis: [we’re both having emotions about this but we don’t have to address it right now honey, watch this boy and this pup be fools together and have your food, it will help, in that way food do when you’re having a time ‘like you done it before’ at him, like looking like a natural, boy]

Jimmy: [mhmm, not only is it the first drawing he’s done for her that she hasn’t kept which is HEARTBREAKING enough, it makes him think about all the ones she has kept over the years and where they are and what’s going to happen to them in this divorce, so he’s just here SPIRALLING in his head about that and about all the stuff he still has of hers she might want too like clothes etc, hence ‘Is there owt you want, as you’re here?’ after what would feel like SUCH a dramatic pause but probably isn’t, and as if she hadn’t spoken the last thing she said cos did NOT hear it, the tone has shifted and he’s talking quiet and sad, nbd, lowkey sitting down on this grass with this dog like he cannot stand up, but without that looking as drama, cos it’s all internal obvs, from an outside POV he’s just sitting to continue playing and like, rub this dog’s belly or whatever, nbd nbd]

Janis: [when we know because we’re on the same spiral, obviously, because you’re in this together and there’s no getting around that fact, for better or worse, when you’ve finished your snack, coming over slowly and putting this plate down for the dog to lick as you’re sitting beside him and doing the same reassuring arm pat/squeeze he did to you like hey ‘nothings going anywhere’ with the is it? in how you’re looking at him as much as the tone ‘we’re allowed to keep it all’ because you don’t have to burn your old lives, that’s clearly not what either of you want ‘I know where all my special things are’ ‘cos you have to have some kind of memory box vibe for things like that you wanna keep but don’t just have about your house on the side]

Jimmy: [touching the JJ af rose tat we all remember Ella has even though I can’t remember where it exactly is, he obviously does, with clothes in the way or these loud sad thoughts, because what are you gonna do laser that off, I think not, just so you know he is listening to her despite not saying anything or making any other signs of the fact rn]

Janis: [excuse me for being a million years but I had to find the picture to confirm where it was and MY GOD, me thinking she was in Budapest, was in fact in Prague, ffs, but I found it and it's on the side of her knee like just below the knee cap so now we know, I knew it was her leg somewhere but kind of relevant for our feelings here thank you my messy shitty folders; putting our hand over yours to show that we know you’re communicating without saying anything rn, how you are sometimes want to do ‘if there’s anything you really want, or I do, and we realise the other person’s got it-’ gesturing like well then we’ll just ask for it ‘yeah?’ like is that okay because some people really are GET YOUR SHIT OUT OF MY HOUSE types, even though we do not think you are remotely]

Jimmy: [no worries, boo, I figured you were trying to find the pic, cos yeah I likewise thought it was on her leg but I couldn’t remember for the life of me where, I was thinking it was lower like her ankle maybe, so good to know and have in writing as a definite JJ tat and the first, even if she has others that Ella either does or does not have, I feel like he’ll be a bit more like I NEED TO GET CASEY’S SHIT OUT OF HERE when Libi’s room decorating starts but that’s valid for her sake just as much, the point is it’ll be hers, and he’s assuming for lowkey until she’s an adult now cos doesn’t know the BIG storm coming ‘you barely took nowt’ because she did not when he told her she had to leave, for obvs reasons, and it’d be as obvs how little she took whenever he was in the mindset to check]

Janis: [that’s way more valid, for the obvious reasons and also the reason of wanting the room free, so we understand that, nodding like I know ‘suppose moving is a good time to sort it’ when you don’t want to because it’s too real but you can’t just shout no in his face and run, why yes it is giving when we were a teenager and lived out of our rucksack at all times, like the way anyone else would want their stuff and you’re just like nope, I would rather it stayed where it was thank you ‘another thing to add to the list’]

Jimmy: [my heart hurts at that teen parallel you just threw out there and how real it is, EXCUSE YOU, resting his head on her shoulder and squeezing his eyes shut the way he always do when he’s sad and doesn’t wanna be here, cos he knows she doesn’t wanna pack up any of her stuff and he doesn’t want her to either, the levels neither of y’all are ready]

Janis: [excuse them everyone, not like this has been the best part of their lives thus far and entangling that takes time if not the rest of your life, should you actually want to be in each other’s in any meaningful way, WE’RE NOT SORRY ‘chuck it on a bonfire’ so quietly like genuinely would rather you burnt all our clothes and other shit we don’t care about than have to turn up and get it like well this is it]

Jimmy: [the ‘no’ being blurted out in that !! way he always will when he’s FRANTIC about something, usually her leaving, we know, it should be in CAPS despite the fact he’s also saying it quietly, cos of the depth of feeling, obviously because doing that would break his heart as much as having to hand it over to her in bin bags or whatever]

Janis: [just clinging to his arm now as if you’re being forced to at gunpoint because you know logically you should just take your fucking stuff but you feel like you seriously can’t and that goes against your whole trying thing you’re attempting to stick to ‘I don’t know, I dunno’ with the same !! energy]

Jimmy: [when you’re just crying because you can’t even think logically about it, you’re literally just like DON’T TAKE YOUR STUFF EVER!!!! And that’s the only thought you’re having, all thoughts of trying or anything else have just been temporarily abandoned]

Janis: [turning this into a proper full hug instead because you don’t want to end up spiralling fully here, you’ve got the wherewithal to know that that’s not the idea ever and you’re making attempts to not end up there, lowkey squeezing the life out of him here a bit but with the best intentions ‘keep my stuff, dickhead’ in a way softer voice than that suggests ‘I’ll be here all the time, when I need it’]

Jimmy: [likewise returning the actually suffocating energy of this hug, there’s nothing else he can do but that for however long it takes until he’s cried out for this particular crying sesh, excuse us Peach]

Janis: [just here holding you until you do, not even sure if we’re crying or not ourselves we’re in that sort of too focused on the other person mood to realise or be worried about it ‘it’s okay’]

Jimmy: [Am I an absolute dick if I want Bobby to come back while she’s still here? Because soz but I do, not while y’all are here crying on the grass but at some point lol, pull away a tiny bit space wise and wipe your eyes with the backs of your hands/palms so have to let go and you can look at her like is it? Because you feel INSANE rn, wipe your nose on your sleeve as well, like a gross kid, for a sad parallel to when you used it earlier in a much happier way]

Janis: [my boo says y’all gon’ see me today and I think you’re right for that, face the reality of the situation a bit hun, what are you gonna do, fight her, I think not lol; wiping his face for him some more even if it’s not necessary because you have to touch him as you’re nodding ‘okay for being total messes’ like this is again, very normal for people who’s lives have blown up]

Jimmy: [he wouldn’t DARE cos god forbid anyone faces up to the fact he’s like Casey in any way whatsoever except for Casey himself, but you very much do have to see this, I think, boy, as well as seeing this dog here that Jimothy hasn’t told you about, but until then, Jimothy just dropping a date on her with no context at all but we know it’s the date of his doctor’s appointment he’s made some time after that Bobby convo and she will too, I doubt it’s any time immediately soon as doctors take 30 years to get you in, but I’m glad he’s made it and he’s telling her]

Janis: [mhmm, we all know you’ll just have a sulk, you are a teenager, it is your god given right, slam a door, go nuts; immediately feeling for our phone in our pockets or whatever to save this date but saying its in the house so you tap your head like I will save it here until then, moving your hand down his arm to hold his hand again and give it a squeeze like proud of you because we are]

Jimmy: [As am I because you’ll feel so much better when you get some pills down you sir, I know from experience, yes they take like a month to start working and you feel cray during that time, but then, even if it’s not as straightforward for you as it was for me, we can still say it’ll start to make a difference over the next few months before the shit hits the fan re all these babies, for now, looking down at their hands, as always, doing a blink like oh, cos feel yourself coming back at least a little bit from that spiral]

Janis: [mhmm, it’s all going to help you deal with everything in a better way, ‘cos getting to talk to someone who’s not involved in the situation does too, manageable doesn’t mean perfect and no one is expecting that; pick your hands up and kiss the back of his gently]

Jimmy: [get up and handhold your way into this gaff again to get yourself a glass of water because you must be and feel dehydrated af, no notes, it can start to rain when you’re all in and they are passing said glass of water between them how they do, then it’ll be a cosy vibe instead of a saucy one, I imagine Peach will need a snooze from all the excitement and exploring so that adds to it as well]

Janis: [snuggle this pup up with blankets and all that goodness on the sofa with you because you’re probably also tired still because always when you don’t feel well, even if you don’t go back to sleep, it’ll be good to destress and cuddle]

Jimmy: [agreed, listen to the rain and make the most of snuggling before Bobby loudly strolls in and ruins it, makes sense y’all would lose track of time when you’re in that cosy half asleep kind of mood, especially because they should both be at work and aren’t if we’re calling this a weekday for Bobby being at school]

Janis: [thank the lord you’re loud, not that we’re being saucy but you wanna have that five second warning still lol]

Jimmy: [thank god they weren’t being this time because IMAGINE, instead we get to imagine Peach adorably barking, I’ve never heard her but I bet it’s cute, as would be her zooming about like who is this and what is going on, I’m excite and intrigued]

Janis: [me like serves you right as if it does lmao, we don’t need the tailspin that would put Jimothy in though so no, like it’s going to be awkward enough how much he doesn’t want her here but at least the dog is going to distract you like hello, who is this, will kind of be lurking like do you want me to go so you can talk about it, trying to say that with our eyes without assuming and pissing off or straight up saying it either]

Jimmy: [soz not soz Bobby but he does not want her to go and he will be saying so with his eyes because you sir are a teenage boy and not the boss of him ‘stay for tea, [whatever it is], if you fancy it’ like this is casual, because not gonna be made to feel like it’s so !! she has to leave immediately when they are doing nothing wrong and he’s already told Bobby that they were gonna try and be friends and do this]

Janis: [it is important for y’all to learn the world doesn’t actually revolve around y’all, tis true, however we’re now mentally debating staying for tea vs not and what makes sense and what is for the best ‘I better see’ ‘cos that’s honest, you need to check in with Casey but that doesn’t mean it’s a definite no or that it has to be]

Jimmy: [It could be argued that going from letting the world revolve around him to springing Janis being in his gaff and a new dog who’s literally gonna be living there, as is Libi lowkey therefore, all in the same day is a bit much, but Jimothy is nothing if not flawed and we’ve always said that ‘another brew while you are?’ as a genuine question, not like a ploy of you gotta stay a bit longer, but he’d be heading to the kitchen anyway to start whatever this food is, cos everything takes twice as long when you’re depressed]

Janis: [like yeah, lowkey this is rude and isn’t going to win you any favours but he’s a grumpy grumpy boy and nothing would’ve made him happy about any of this, even if you did it right because he doesn’t want to be happy about it so fuck it lol; just smiling and nodding ‘help you in a sec’ as we’re heading to his office or some other room for some privacy to do this]

Jimmy: [It gives Bobby the chance to come at him if he wants, depending on the vibe his sulk about all this is taking, regardless Jimothy will be in this kitchen doing his tasks, fetch the plate off the grass too because I doubt y’all remembered to bring that in with you before and it doesn’t need to stay there forever if you see it from the kitchen window or through the door if there’s glass in that, whichever]

Janis: [would you like me to switch to Bobby to do a lil of that or you switch to Casey to do a lil of that?]

Jimmy: [It’s up to you if you think Bobby would or if his vibe is gonna be to try and wait it out til Janis leaves, I don’t mind switching because that’s a convo that definitely would happen, though we might have to go back a bit to when she’s literally done her flit to get Peach, so we know what the tone is between y’all, like whether he’s angry or still asleep rn because of not getting up for work yet or what]

Janis: [let’s do some Bobby even though yeah it probably won’t be too long or anything, it’ll be easier to get in here and done ‘cos as you said, we’ll be going back some before this part in the JC convo]

Bobby: [following Jimmy into the kitchen in literal disbelief because excuse me ‘why have you done this?’ signing this AT you because you’re walking away and thus not engaging with us but we need you to know we are VERY concerned about this random dog storyline lmao]

Jimmy: [when you have to get him to sign it again because you know he’d have said something but there’s no reason for you to have caught it if you’re busy doing shit and therefore not looking, oops, that’ll really help his frustration, soz]

Bobby: [‘why is there a fucking dog here?’ change of pace to reflect that frustration because what the hell]

Jimmy: [‘it’s Libi’s birthday present, I’d have said but you told us you wanted nowt to do with none of this’ when that sounds sassy as hell me writing it, but he’s not giving that attitude at all, I swear lol, him here patiently explaining as per]

Bobby: [‘a dog isn’t a present, it’s a chore’ so true babe, it is very irresponsible to give this girl a dog as a present, hence it’s in your house, which is our point and question here ‘why is it here?’]

Jimmy: [‘I said I’d have it here, you heard I wanna see more of her, and it’s that or at her nan’s, they’d reckon it’s a right chore’ why do everything I say sound so sassy rn lol, me like um fuck you Bobby appaz]

Bobby: [‘or you could not get someone who lives with a bunch of cats a bloody dog, that’s not our problem’ like am I the only person around here that hasn’t lost it]

Jimmy: [‘It’s not a problem, it’s all sorted’ trying to get across in a chill and calm way that you want this dog here because not trying to say it’ll give me something to do that isn’t top myself ‘she’s good as lived here before, but I’ve heard you an’ all about her, I’m gonna do up the spare room this time’ calling it the spare room again, ouch my heart]

Bobby: [‘why didn’t you tell me about this, you can’t just get a pet and not let me know’ like he has but I see your point hun, it’s upsetting and a problem to you ‘you care more about them than you do me and I’m the only one who stuck around for you’]

Jimmy: [‘I should’ve, I’m sorry, it’s all happened a bit quick, but that don’t mean I’ve proper lost it’ a shrug like or maybe it does idk but nevertheless it’s done ‘or that I don’t care, you know that ain’t true, nor is it they’ve not been about ‘cause they don’t’]

Bobby: [‘you clearly don’t care because you don’t listen to anything I have to say anymore’ because apology not accepted]

Jimmy: [‘I don’t back down on us pissing off out of this house or showing them the door, more like, I’ve heard every word you’ve said, I just don’t agree, mate, I can’t’]

Bobby: [‘Well I don’t agree with you doing everything she tells you to hoping she’ll come back if you do’ and that is your cue to exit the kitchen and go to your room, sir]

Jimmy: [that went well, but at this point, who among us expected it to go any other way, lol lol, love Bobby in his teen angst phase]

Bobby: [like you got points but like all teenagers you think you’re the only one who does and are NOT up for a debate about it, thank you kindly lol]

Jimmy: [mhmm, it’s Libi being blissfully unaware ANY of this is happening for me, how funny]

Bobby: [happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you]

Janis: [okay so when we’re going to get Peach, at whatever that time was ‘cos we dropped everything and ran]

Janis: Hey, you’re sleeping and there’s no need to wake up but the dog is ready now and Jimmy is keen to have her too so I’m just going to pop over and get her

Casey: [when he wakes up which is roughly around Bobby coming home]

Casey: Where are you now, can’t still be having your ear talked off by the dog woman, been ages

Janis: oh, alright mindreader, was just about to see if you were up

Janis: yeah, she was gutted you couldn’t make it, sends her best, obvs

Casey: me too, like

Casey: dunno what you’re playing at doing something like going without us

Janis: I know, we’ll have to piss off for no reason at all but we wanna now

Janis: keen plays it down, he needs the boost and her birthday is basically here so it just made sense, I’m sorry

Casey: I get all that, but you could’ve done the tiny detour to wake us, give it a sec and I’d have been ready an’ all

Janis: it wouldn’t have been fun, like we wanted

Casey: you don’t want me hanging about round his, but I weren’t planning on it

Janis: no, that ain’t what I meant

Janis: you can read between the lines, he weren’t doing well so I just went and got it to give him something to focus on

Janis: didn’t say that in my first message because it weren’t like anything you needed to be worrying about if you did see it earlier

Casey: yeah, alright

Casey: you would say shit that’s all totally valid so I can’t even be 🥺💔

Janis: you can be a bit but then I’ll be 🥺💔 right back

Janis: I promise we’ll go on another roadtrip, soon as we can

Casey: have to take him, he’ll know you’ve cheated on him with some bitch today

Casey: be another one who’s 🥺💔

Janis: he’ll love her soon enough, not dealing with any more 🥊💔 from babies

Casey: I’m showing him her pics again, butter him up for you

Casey: sort of boyfriend I am, not that you deserve me

Janis: 🤏 pimpy, that

Janis: don’t

Casey: don’t what, let him have no mates

Casey: 🤏 of a dickhead thing to do, that

Janis: you know what I mean, boy

Casey: 😏

Casey: you coming home to us or what

Janis: that’s what I had to see

Janis: the kids just got here, so Jimmy asked if I wanted to stay for tea, as Bobby was obviously THRILLED to see me and the random dog in tow

Janis: I said I’d ask, see what you were thinking

Casey: do you, with them pair

Casey: I don’t need telling he needs the backup, as per, but if it was up to you and nobody else

Janis: it’s more about looking like a united front about it, so he can’t say I ran off tail between my legs, I guess

Casey: there’s your answer, show the little twat

Janis: you’re sure?

Casey: nobody else is gonna unless you do, and it’s about bloody time

Janis: you’re right, I don’t deserve you

Casey: what I said, girl

Casey: have a think about how you’ll sort the making up you’ve got

Janis: aren’t I always

Janis: you know the answer to that

Casey: there’s no one answer to how you could, the fun of it always

Janis: I’ve missed you, have you both been sleeping ‘til now

Casey: I reckon so, about to take him out for a mad one, lazy little shit

Janis: he’s gonna need a raincoat this rate

Casey: nah, well hard, him

Casey: [but pics of raincoats he could and might buy this dog lol]

Janis: he’s too white, looks like a proper pig in shit once he’s jumped through all the puddles

Casey: oi, don’t you be dissing my lad like that

Casey: you’re only fuming you’re gonna miss out

Janis: fuming about the mess he makes, more like 😏

Casey: time you’re back, won’t be none

Casey: he can have a bath as well as

Janis: I’ll be back before you leave

Janis: can’t miss everything

Casey: too right, or you’ll be down the club else, you know what’s good for you

Janis: 😍

Janis: you’re so

Casey: go on, least you can do is finish your sentence when you’re not here to show us

Janis: I wish you were here

Janis: its dead silent so I know he’s slagging us off right now, dunno what I’m meant to say to him

Casey: what room you stuck in

Janis: went in his office

Casey: wish I were there’s mutual then, would be the one room we’ve never done owt

Janis: not that we’ve got a problem or anything

Casey: I’ve got a problem with you on your own on his massive desk

Janis: Casey

Casey: you’ve another with how bad you wanna say my name right now

Janis: and how badly I don’t need to be turned on trying to deal with this but

Casey: that’s why I’m here to sort that for you, you can be on such a lovely comedown dealing with them once I’ve made you cum instead

Janis: don’t know how long we have

Casey: so you best stop pissing about and lie down, he’ll have a pen or something you can bite, it’s an office

Janis: gutted neither of us will ever work in one

Janis: you’re properly good at it

Casey: I had a desk I’d let you bite it, leave your teeth marks right in the wood for me to look at when I’m typing away there all day

Janis: [send him a selfie on this desk as proof]

Janis: no pissing about

Casey: that’s it, make yourself comfy, been working so hard, the pair of us

Casey: I’ll take my tie off, get comfy myself

Janis: let me do it for you

Casey: sort of co-worker you are, yeah

Janis: 😳 dunno what you’re talking about, sit on everyone’s desks and chat to them every time I walk past…

Casey: I was gonna let you borrow it anyway, it’ll look loads better on you, what I think every time you walk past

Janis: have to show me how to tie it

Casey: a good tight knot is really important, it’ll stay put no matter what if you do that right

Janis: if you teach me right, I think we can put that to the test

Casey: [I can’t remember how to tie a tie because it’s been so long, but tell her in the flirtiest way possible cos y’all love choking yourselves and each other so of course this is how you flirt]

Janis: the way you explain things really sticks in my head

Casey: why they asked us to mentor you your first day in the office

Janis: I can tell how dedicated you are, I really, really appreciate all the extra attention you’ve given me

Casey: I do take my job serious, but it don’t feel like one looking after you, you know

Janis: I’m glad because I really like you and it’d be embarrassing if you only spent time with me because you have to

Casey: you’re too good for this place, but I’m so happy you’re here

Janis: here isn’t so bad, if you have someone to bend the rules with sometimes

Casey: I’ve never worked with nobody like you before, might have to break the rules

Janis: I’ll make sure you don’t get in any trouble, take all the blame

Casey: a good girl like you, they’d not believe it, but I’m well grateful you’d risk it all for me if we was caught

Janis: I don’t know about that but I know I wanna behave for you and not them

Casey: write something for me with that pen, somewhere they won’t see it

Janis: [a picture of your inner thigh where you’ve written ‘bite me’ ‘cos you cannot stop thinking about teeth marks after what he said]

Casey: press down harder

Janis: [a little video of that]

Casey: put it back in your mouth and find your ruler

Janis: Jesus, okay

Casey: you know how many inches you’ve got to play with, no more

Casey: show me you’re still behaving

Janis: do you remember when I was the otherside of this door and I wasn’t

Janis: with the remote

Casey: how could I forget

Janis: you could make me do anything, the way you talk

Casey: we could only sign when you was on the other side of that door

Casey: I called you baby, never signed it before

Janis: you should help me practice, might’ve lost the knack for it

Casey: [a vid of him signing ILY because I’m reading that bit of that convo to see what happened and he made her touch herself and be totally silent about it using that sign because it’s 🤟 like remember when]

Janis: [a vid of you doing it back that also subtly shows you a hint of what we’re using the ruler for at the bottom ‘cos we do remember and we’re so about it]

Casey: [a vid of him posing himself with the pillows from this bed the way she did on the sofa that day which was basically just between her legs but in a pregnancy pillow kind of way as if he’s just snuggling and getting comfy to watch her, when in fact he is !! signing so it’s silent ‘sign daddy for me again’ because that day she also did over and over and it was before she’d said it I think, and definitely the first time she’d signed it and he was going feral]

Janis: [putting the two signs together because our heart eyes are off the charts at how he looked in that video and we are not okay]

Casey: [a video of him biting his lip SO hard in response to that so he stays quiet too, putting his pinky finger out because they were doing pinky promises that day too, they only stopped when he broke loads of his fingers and I forgot so gotta bring it back, like he’s promising to not make a sound either cos she can’t and won’t but also suggestive af of where he would and wants to put said finger]

Janis: you make me wanna make the most noise, it’s very mean of you to look like that

Casey: [shamelessly showing her more of his body via another vid because he’s just woken up so if he’s wearing any clothes it’s barely any and there’s so much he can]

Casey: like that, you mean

Janis: I’m drooling

Janis: you just

Janis: I’ve never seen anyone as fuckable as you

Casey: is it all over the desk

Janis: [a video of you dramatically swallowing like this is what I’m doing so it ain’t]

Janis: have to think of how to clean it up, if you want it to be

Casey: don’t go sliding off how you did the table, not there to catch you

Janis: [sign daddy at him again because protective as always]

Casey: promise, baby

Janis: [video of a pinky promise]

Janis: I’ll only end up on the floor if that’s where you want me

Casey: neither of us can piss on it unless you blame the new dog

Janis: 🥺 she’s a much better behaved girl than me

Casey: gutted she is a girl, I’d not be able to cock my leg against that desk and say she done it

Janis: have to wait for me to come home

Casey: [a 🥺 selfie because he cannot wait for that, could not wanna see her more rn]

Casey: bring the pen with you, I wanna feel your teeth marks with mine

Janis: see where they fit, where they don’t

Janis: glad I didn’t bite the ruler, bit of a harder one to steal

Casey: obvious place you could put it but would make walking out a bit hard, yeah

Janis: I’m a model, keep walking no matter what

Janis: another thing you can test later

Casey: steal it then

Janis: [selfie of the reddest face of all time]

Casey: you heard me, take it, you reckon you can

Janis: you know what I can take

Casey: you fancied a test, there’s one that you can do right now

Janis: I don’t wanna let you down

Casey: you never have

Janis: I’ll try

Casey: give us one, we can do it together, spur each other on

Janis: Hmm, what would be a challenge for you

Casey: I’ve no rulers lying about but there’s all sorts else nicked off our old landlord

Janis: I was thinking you shouldn’t be allowed to touch yourself at all but

Janis: I am intrigued what you thought you could do

Casey: [sending her pics of all sorts of household items that I’m sure you shouldn’t put inside yourself in any way sir but nevertheless]

Casey: what do you think to this lot

Janis: I think I won’t be happy ‘til I’ve seen you do every single one now

Casey: okay, dunno how much time we’ve left but I’ll try

Janis: I won’t forget how ambitious you are, got all the time to

Casey: I just wanna make you happy

Janis: you’re amazing at it

Casey: [a video of him absolutely deepthroating one of these random objects, thank god nobody could walk in on him cos he’s home alone, you will have very sadly had to mute it though, boy, so Jimothy doesn’t hear her watching it]

Janis: you’ve got better at it, I swear, practice is paying off

Casey: you can make us proud an’ all, go on

Janis: you want me to sit there, the whole time, or can I do it before I leave?

Casey: if you have to sit like that the whole time you won’t be able to say nothing, what you’re there for

Casey: but I do wanna make you, for leaving me

Janis: if you tell me to, I will

Janis: but I didn’t leave you

Casey: you wasn’t about when I woke up

Janis: baby, you’ll break my heart

Casey: set my alarm so you would be and everything

Janis: I’ll cry

Casey: you’re not allowed, they’ll see you have done

Janis: but I’ve made you sad

Casey: if it’s for me, you’ve gotta save it for me

Janis: it’s all for you

Casey: no crying til you’re home and it’s only us

Janis: you’re going to let me make it up to you

Casey: yeah

Janis: ‘til you have to leave me

Casey: come with me, I don’t want to

Janis: okay, I do wanna see you in your work clothes now

Casey: I’ll sit you on a table in the back where it’s darkest and nobody can see us how you are on that desk

Janis: I only want to be seen by you

Casey: you won’t have to be as quiet as you have been, that’s your reward

Janis: I don’t deserve one

Casey: you do, for being here with us at the minute and not them

Janis: I’d never ignore you

Janis: did I

Casey: you can’t

Janis: you know, I’ve always liked you a little too much

Casey: *loved

Janis: **love

Casey: I fucking love you so much

Janis: I couldn’t love you more, you keep getting better and I don’t understand how it’s possible

Casey: it’s ‘cause of you, how you keep on making me feel better than I was before or reckoned I could be

Janis: I just wanna make you happy too, baby

Casey: I’ll stop it sulking like one, I just miss you

Janis: you haven’t, well, that’s not how I’d describe it

Casey: 😏

Janis: I don’t think a sulking baby could have me in here desperately trying to cum without making a sound

Casey: you’re right, the sort of sulking baby I am would have you loud about it, and desperately trying to make milk for us

Janis: I wanna be a good mum to you, give you everything you need

Casey: you’re the best

Janis: I need you

Casey: [his own dramatic swallowing so he doesn’t get spit everywhere video like the one she did earlier]

Janis: you’re thinking about it

Casey: I’ve not had nothing to eat yet, I need you too

Janis: you know I’m going to have to bottlefeed you now, just to try it

Casey: you have to before we go

Janis: I wanna touch you whilst you’re feeding, it’s all I can see in my head, how hard you’d be, begging me to help

Casey: fuck

Janis: you can play with me, just keep focused on what you need

Casey: I need you to keep the bottle in my mouth and my cock in yours

Janis: God yes, let me drink everything from you, show you how to behave

Casey: you deserve a full stomach an’ all, it should be mutual, how well you behave

Janis: I want my belly to swell, it’s so full of your piss and your cum, everything you give me

Casey: that full of me you can’t move and I have to help you

Janis: I want to rely on you for everything, and you on me

Janis: nothing but each other

Casey: I’ve never wanted nothing else

Janis: if I could eat you I would, there’s no part of you that I don’t want

Casey: it’d kill us but hearing it is

Janis: I just need you inside me whilst I’m inside you, at all times, nothing else is good enough

Casey: then forget anything else, you can have it

Janis: you’re mine?

Casey: all of me

Janis: my boobs feel so tender, because of you

Casey: it’s a pisstake you can’t put your nipple in your mouth

Janis: yet

Casey: don’t, I won’t think of sod all else

Janis: I’m going to be sat having dinner thinking about giving you yours, it’s only fair

Janis: make them big enough I can suffocate you with them

Casey: [a silent but still the most dramatic response vid to that of ALL time, because he is DYING and he needs her to see exactly how much]

Janis: tell me why I want you to fill a bottle full of your cum for me, that I want you to feed me it ‘til I puke

Janis: you’re so close, please save it for me somehow

Casey: [not him literally trying to find something so he can and taking her along with him like it’s a silent little scavenger hunt vid that keeps getting more and more desperate until he finds something that will work like !!]

Janis: [show him this desk you’ve drooled all over watching him]

Casey: how massive is the puddle you’re sat in

Janis: had to kneel on the floor, thinking about you

Janis: [send him a video of the state you are in down there]

Casey: shit, that’s fucking gorgeous

Janis: yours, forever

Casey: you are mine, don’t go nowhere without us again

Janis: I’m so sorry, please please make me regret it

Casey: you know what to do

Janis: [write his name on your other thigh and send it]

Casey: more

Janis: [draw one of your hearts on your ass ‘cos idk how you’d write anything legible there otherwise lol]

Casey: now slap yourself how I did it, across your face

Janis: [you’re going to have to time this well but we’re doing it, we all know it]

Casey: [it’ll be the absolute end of him that she did, we all know it, so send her the delightful footage of filling up whatever random bottle/jar/cup you found for the purpose, lord knows]

Janis: 🥺 gimme

Janis: I’ll clean up, one step closer to being with you

Casey: I won’t, I’ll stay like this til you are

Janis: you’re so lovely

Janis: my favourite and best

Casey: how long

Janis: just long enough to eat it, show he didn’t catch us doing something we weren’t meant to, say bye

Janis: [a guestimate of how long this will take]

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