#we transmascs have ONE type and it is MY GIRLFRIEND. we just love her.

[giantkillerjack]

So I ended up going into more detail about Kitty in my tags, but then I thought I'd include this part in the post proper because it bears repeating:

As an autistic Trans queer nerd, it has been my experience that my unbridled enthusiasm for all things I love - including Pokémon and skipping and shipping and puppies and Steven Universe and DuckTales 2017 and the list goes on - has absolutely gotten me more good pussy and incredible wonderful romance than it has lost me in my lifetime.

I mean it i am so dead serious that tamping down on your love and enthusiasm for life in order to seem more "adult" is INCREDIBLY common and it is a TRAP! A big grey and beige, box-shaped, joy-crushing, everything-a-child-is-afraid-to-grow-into trap!!!!

Like, yes, maybe allistic cishet people are largely bemused by me - they think I'm something of a novelty with my loud laugh and my infodumps and my intense passion for the things I enjoy - but the queer autistics desire me carnally! And I them! We infodump TOGETHER! Even when I don't share their love of something, what bliss to see how happy they are! And who else would want to work with me to create an elaborate roleplay storyline involving swordfights and character development?? Autistics and queers, that's who!!!

Also, being loudly and unapologetically myself is why I have such a wonderful partner of nearly 10 years now! That is the exact thing that first attracted her to me romantically, and it is the thing that most often has her looking at me like a big ol' sap!

For example, when she was a kid, she hid her love of Pokemon because she was convinced it would ostracize her. When I tell her now about my Pokemon go PVP battle strategy, she smiles SO BIG because she says she never dreamed of having a partner who would say things like that! Also, she thinks nerds are hot, which is great news for me!

Anyway, my point here is that I hope you never have to dull the shine of your life's joy by tamping down on the things you love - because although there are people who will infantilize you for it because they are fools, there are many MANY people who will love and desire you specifically because you don't do that!

I think one of the reasons I get annoyed with Kitty being infantilised is because exactly the same thing happens to me in real life.

So, I (apparently) look a lot younger than my actual age. I constantly get told that. I’ve also kept a lot of my interests from when I was a child, or have interests that are seen as “childish” (Pokémon, Horrible Histories, etc.).

The result is, I often get treated like a kid, even by people younger than me. People will actually apologise to me if they happen to swear/make a dirty joke and notice that I’m in the room. I can never understand why, it happens even when I laugh at the jokes.

I’m an adult. I don’t know how to make people take me seriously without changing myself and trying to act like an adult “should be”. I don’t want to give up my interests, to lose the enthusiasm I have for them.

Kitty is canonically an adult (her father said that she had come of age), but because of the way she acts, people point at her and are like “that’s a child”. People say that she’s not allowed to have a romantic/sexual relationship, because she’s just a little girl.

At the same time, Kitty reads smutty romance novels, she’s clearly very interested in sex. She can show surprising maturity at times, like when she was pretending to be Thomas’ PR agent. But still, people treat her like a kid because of her optimism and naivety.

Kitty wants romance. She wants sex. Why shouldn’t she be allowed to have those things if she wants them?

I often worry that no one will ever take me seriously enough to be attracted to me, and that I won’t be able to experience romance or sex because of that. Seeing the way people in the fandom talk about Kitty just makes those insecurities even worse.

[musicalmoritz]

Yuri HanaNene Headcanons

• Since I headcanon Boy!Hanako as transmasc I like to think Girl!Hanako would be transfem (it’s me, ofc I have to make all my headcanons as queer as possible)

• I also headcanon Nene as transfem so they’re still t4t in the Yuri HanaNene Universe (YHU)™️

• Hanako being a girl would definitely add a layer of complications to Nene’s feelings for her. She wouldn’t be thinking abt it in the heteronormative way of “he’s a boy so he probably likes me so I should give him a chance.” More likely she’d be freaking out at the idea of Hanako liking her because if she likes her back then that means something deeper for her personal identity

• Meaning that the Confession Tree chapter would center more around Nene having a sexuality crisis. She may have had some idea that she liked girls before, but now she’s having to seriously consider her identity and that’s scary for her (maybe Aoi’s advice to her is a bit more meaningful and we get some earlier hints that Aoi is also hiding parts of herself)

• But by the time she meets Hanako under the Confession Tree, she’s starting to wonder what it might be like to date a girl. It sounds intimidating, but also kind of nice. And just as she starts to open herself up to it, the confession turns out to be part of a scheme

• After 65 years Hanako has probably figured out her own sexuality, and since she had to repress that part of herself when she was alive (due to it being the 60s and all), she’s totally girl crazy and v much like the overly flirty Hanako we know in canon

• Nene already has enough reason to be secretive about her crush on Hanako due to her being a ghost but a girl as well?? There’s a lot riding on it

• That could give her something to connect with Kou over rather than his romance subplot being very separate from the rest of the cast and almost secretive. They both know about each other’s crushes and tease each other accordingly

• Imo Kou and Hanako would definitely still be just friends (girl or boy Hanako isn’t Kou’s type lol) but they’d still have those slightly flirty moments that they have in canon. Bicons

• Nene would initially be shocked that Hanako is so open about her interest in women, but that would eventually inspire her to accept her own sexuality

• True to the ASHK chapter, Nene would absolutely love giving Hanako makeovers. She does her hair up in different styles and lets her borrow her clothes

• Hanako’s defensive behavior whenever a man gets too close to Nene is more out of overprotectiveness than jealousy (tho that air of possessiveness is most definitely still there lol)

• In addition to writing poetry, Nene makes playlists about her crush on Hanako (wlw canon event)

• Nene tries to get Hanako to engage in “girl talk” abt their crushes but it always ends in Hanako flirting with her (cue a lot of blushing and “you’re not my type”)

• Since Nene is more affectionate with women I don’t think she’d mind Hanako’s clinginess as much

• In general Nene is a total girls girl and befriends women very easily so I think her and Hanako would get along better at first, but they’d still have that teasing nature of Nene bullying her that’s true to canon HanaNene (and every TBHK ship lol)

• I think their dynamic would be similar to Rae and Claire from I’m In Love With The Villainess. Hanako is very flirty at first and Nene thinks it’s just a joke, and at a certain point she’s just confused because she doesn’t think she’s lovable so Hanako must be joking. That would only be at the start of the manga tho, as I mentioned before the Confession Tree is a major turning point

• I could see Nene being very overprotective of Hanako in an “I’m the only one who’s allowed to talk shit about her” way

• Nene is bi with a preference for boys and Hanako is bi with a preference for girls. bi4bi t4t girlfriends

• At some point during the story they start sharing hair clips and regularly get into arguments over who lost one of them

• While Nene doesn’t initiate physical affection as much as Hanako, she does cling to her and hold her hands a lot more

• Matching hairstyles and outfits ofc

• Nene buys extra snacks/candies at lunch to share with Hanako after school

• Their feelings for each other are less obvious to others at first since they’re both girls but once they really fall for each other it’s impossible to mistake their relationship for friendship

• Picnic dates on the school roof

• Sometimes they slow dance when Nene has finished cleaning the bathrooms (Hanako’s not too good with romance so she takes these opportunities to make things magical for Nene)

• That’s All, Folks!

[frenchkanna1808]

WHAT YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTERS SAYS ABOUT YOU: YTTD EDITION

PART 1) THE PARTICIPANTS

SARA CHIDOUIN:

You can’t stop praising her about how amazing of a protagonist she is compared to other protags in similar games such as danganronpa. You would and WILL fight anyone that says anything bad about your homegirl an you DEFINITELY need therapy

JOE TAZUNA:

You have the terrible habit of falling immediately in love with the best friend archetype that we met in the beginning who’s clearly gonna die. When they die you keep telling yourself you won’t be fooled again and then you do. Anyway you are in denial

KEIJI SHINOGI:

You keep justifying you love for him by using the “he’s a complex character, he’s deep and shit” but that’s just an excuse to not say “i want him to carnally fuck me and treat my little bitch with his huge arms and tits”. Whatever sexuality you were before, his deep look probably turned you gay. Anyhow you are horny as fuck and you definitely need therapy, you little whor-

REKO YABUSAME:

Either you are the the most gay motherfucker on the planet or you’re veeeeeeeeeeery straight.  you’re favorite ship is naoreko. NEVERTHELESS you want her to step on you. 

Q-TARO BURGERBERG: 

there is exactly two type of q-taro fans, The meme lord or the 20 page Reddit post defending his character from any criticism. We allllll know which ever type of fan you are, you cried like a baby in his final moments.

 KAZUMI MISHIMA:

You definitely made every possible outcome in ytts, an replayed it multiple times. You probably follow  “ mishima-in-places-he-shouldnt-be” and is still sad that this gentle loving dude had to die first why it is. always. the. cool. dudes. who. dies. first., WHY, WHY NANKIDAI ?

KANNA KIZUCHI: 

You are awesome, smart, and just the perfect person to be around, you’re aura smells pure awesomeness, no, NO i am not biased.at.all it’s not like  she’s my profile picture. 

In all seriousness, you probably crave any green bling content and also loves shin too but kanna passion and pure kindness made you make the choice to kill shin. It seemed to difficult to vote for a kid so you voted shin. You relate to kanna struggles And ADORES her character development in 3b. Also you definitely need many therapy session (not projecting at all) .

NAO EGOKORO: 

If being a joe fan is sadness, a greenbling fan depression, well being a nao fan is literal despair and anger with anguish. Bro what the fuck did she do to have such an horrible end like that, her entire experience in the death game was  a pure nightmare. Homegirl did nothing wrong, she shouldn’t literally even be here dude😭😭. You have only one consolation is that now she’s in heaven with her girlfriend, also obviously you ship naoreko

GIN IBUSHI:

You are right in fact you are 99.99 percent of the fandom. And i know that if one day you see anyone put gin below S tier or say anything relatively negative about him, you WILL find them, you WILL track them , and you’re gonna BOIL THEM ALIVE. And i will probably cheer you so go on, pop off, girlboss or mansplain bestie !  

KAI SATOU:

You are mesmerized by his beautiful aura and luscious long mane. Every time the characters talk about him you feel so much happiness that his sacrifice was in the end really worth it, but still you cry that the cutest malewife had to go first.

ALICE YABUSAME:

His atrocious hair made you burn your eyes, his cringe fail personality made you laugh but his death destroyed you entirely. In the end you fell for this transmasc king. If you played logic rote you probably died a second time lol.

S H I N  T S U K I M I:

Shin tsukimi, oh, Shin Tsukimi the character of all time. So from what i understand he’s your favorite character. Were you the weird kid in your class when you were in high school or that one queer kid that tried to hide your identity but everyone knew just by a single look? Just by looking at you i can see a lot of self loathing and unaddressed personal issues that you try hiding under a rug instead of actually addressing them. Do you take time to eat, to drink, don’t forget to take a break from negativity when you are at your lowest, okay ? Diagnosing you is pretty hard you probably have a thousand problems but at least, i hope, not as much as this little dumbass.                                           There is two type of shin fans:

-the one who want to punch him, shove him into a locker and bully him 

-the one who want to give him a warm hug, a nice soup and a good night of sleep.                                                                                                                    In both cases, you are exactly like him and projecting so hard onto him. Also you are supeeeeeer gay like extra gay. Like your aura smells GAY you know. No cis het allo kinnie of shins exist actually, it’s as possible as dividing 0 by 0.  

So conclusion go to therapy

KUGIE KIZUCHI:

Ao3 is your god, your lord and everything that you need to live. Every time ao3 get down you die inside. You crave any content of her and wish that we can know more in the future about her (i do too) and you probably feel in love with her trough fanfic.

MEGUMI SASAHARA:

You guys exists? Well you like evil boss woman, i guess.

This shit full of errors and mistakes also this is a joke don’t get offended, remember as a greenbling fan i am probably the least respected type of yttd fan, well above the keiji simps you guys are wild. 

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

Ok so context needed: I am acearoapl and neurodivergent (autistic). It was always hard for me to try to "make friends" with other people, and even when people tried to make friends with me, it was horrible because everyone had the same conversations that bothered me (romance, crushes, marriage, kids...). But, a while ago (more specifically about 4-5 years) one of those friends told me that he liked me (in the romantic sense, as you can imagine).

At that time, I already knew that I was aroace, so I just said it, explained the definition to him, and tried to comfort him in his feelings and his identity (because apparently thanks to me he found out he was bi). He really took it perfectly well and it was the first time anyone had taken me so well. He didn't even try to convince me to have a relationship with him, he just accepted it and unintentionally, we ended up getting closer.

He ended up discovering many other things, and in less than a year, he found out that he was transmasc and aroacespec, and a little over a year later, he found out that he was also neurodivergent. Since then, the two of us have simply become an inseparable duo. It was just wonderful, everyone was talking about romance and sex, except for us, we had a unique friendship!!

He was the only person who understood me, our conversations were exactly what I expected from a friendship, and even with very strong social anxiety, I trusted him like I never trusted many of my family members. He was practically a brother to me and he knew it. But at the beginning of the year, something happened that changed everything.

He decided to try dating a friend of his (who he and I had known for about 3 years). I know very well that aromantic people can enjoy romance and relationships and even though this is not my type of aromantism, I was very, very dedicated in encouraging him to have his first relationship! I tried to help with everything he needed, relationship advice (which I only gave based on anti-amatonormativity ideas), positivity, validation... I was really trying to make him happy. It was strange for me to see him dating or talking about romance or even in love in general, but I didn't care much, after all we still had the same conversations as before, but now some of them included romance, and I could get used to that. I still had the same amount of attention from him, so I didn't mind him dating.

After a while, he started to pay less attention to me, but he was in trouble so I tried to help him. Unfortunately, despite my advice, the problems were not resolved and his girlfriend ended up breaking up with him, and even though it was very peaceful, he was very sad. I tried to help him not feel so bad and try to deal with it in a healthy way (and I was also trying to prevent him from saying something to her on impulse and ending up regretting it later). In the end, it ended up working out, as they went back to being friends like they were before!

And while all this was going on, he was making other friends at his school (since we weren't studying together anymore) and I couldn't be happier for him, really! I was also making other friends, so it was a relief to me that none of us were doing badly. But my friends ended up slowly drifting away from me (for the same reason as before, the conversations I never seem to be able to join) and so now things weren't so balanced anymore.

It got to the point where I went back to the way it was before, where I was alone at school and he was my only friend, except now we talk exclusively on the cell phone (because I can't leave my house) and now he has other friends. At first he gave me the same amount of attention as before, and then it slowly subsided, but I kind of coped well, I was hoping that everything would go back to normal when he managed to organize his time better.

It turns out that about two months ago, he still hadn't paid attention to me, and it seemed like I was the only person trying to bring up a subject (even if the response was pretty curt) and the little he came out to talk with me, it was to vent about one of his crushes. Yes, crushes. He started to like some people. And those crushes changed frequently. And now I was sharing my (minimal) attention with even more people and when I received attention it was to comfort him from one of these relationships, but thinking about it seemed selfish so I held back and didn't say anything. He was still my only aro friend who understood me, even though he was a different kind of aro.

And that was until a week ago, when he told me he was starting to rethink the "aro" label. He said that he no longer identified himself that way, and that the allorospec experience felt much more like his experience. I would never want to make anyone feel bad about changing labels, so I, again, sided with him and tried not to get hurt. But it has only gotten worse these past few days.

Now I realize that he has become exactly like those "friends" that I turned away from because I couldn't talk to them. And I tried really hard to fix that, to find subjects that we both like, but he already assumed that he's literally struggling to talk to me because he doesn't like those subjects the same anymore. I don't know exactly what to do. I've been insisting for so long, and it seems like it's only hurting me, it's like insisting on something knowing it won't make a difference. I wanted him back, but I feel like I'm never going to get that thing back.

My only question is: should I give up dwelling on it, or continue? I'm tired now, but I swear I would insist if I could get that connection back.

While I wouldn't advise dwelling, it is OK to acknowledge that the situation sucks and maybe even mourn the relationship you used to have together. You can also accept and support who someone is now, and at the same time miss who they used to be.

If you're having trouble moving forward, sometimes journaling can help, try writing out all your feelings about the situation, or document all the events and whatever else you feel is important. You can also try a little ritual to say goodbye to your old relationship if you want, like maybe burning (safely) the above journal entry, or turning the paper into compost and growing something with it.

I definitely feel you on feeling frustrated with just how much some people/groups talk about romance/relationships. It can feel like everyone, but there are people out there who are less interested in that, or people who have other interests you can steer things to. Anecdotally at least, this does seem to get better as you get older and people do tend to start finding interests in other things. So don't lose hope at finding connections with other people if that's something you want.

All the best, Anon! Take care.

[starocide]

Oho you can't reply that and walk away now! Gimme YOUR unib gender opinions! I wanna see the whole tier list! All the nuance! Gimme food for thought :3 pretty please

Okay hi sorry for the late response but since I have many thoughts on this subject there is no tier list. Otherwise the tiers would be too long. Under the cut... my thoughts will lie.

HYDE KIDO

Could go either way with the guy that started it all. Personal opinion is leaning towards cis for now but trans Hyde will always be in my heart due to a certain friend of mine. And while not a gender identity, he is also half Canadian.

LINNE

Going on T could save Linne but she would stay with she/her out of convenience. Otherwise? only cis because it's what she's always been.

WALDSTEIN

Cis. And old.

CARMINE PRIME

Michael Menstruation. Period Patrick. Theodore Tampon. Many nicknames this guy has. Either way is really funny but I'm leaning towards transmasc for now. But who knows! This may change...

ORIE BALLARDIAE HARADA

Need I say more? I don't think I do. Trans girl.

GORDEAU T. HARVESTER

One of the most cisgender guys to ever do it

MERKAVA

"While he was alive, he was… a man, probably. Well, just like his body has changed, so has his voice. It's still too early to discard the possibility that he could be a girl."

As close as we got to a canon trans(masc) character.

VATISTA

Prototype versions of Vatista's design were written to have no conception of gender and I'm choosing to carry it over to her incarnation we know and love. Nonbinaryyyyy

SETH

Going on E could save Seth I think. But regardless there's no need for gender if all you do is kill and whatnot.

YUZURIHA SOUGETSU

Cis+, probably? But I'm willing to change my mind on that.

HILDA THE PARADOX

Insane levels of cis woman radiating from her. It is PALPABLE.

KEI "CHAOS" ASUMA

(points) CIS. But I honestly don't mind trans Chaos.

NANASE

Constantly fluctuating, if I am being honest. I wrote a fic in which she was implied cis but I also kept that ambiguous enough that it can be interpreted in other ways. Either way I love you girlie more than the writers ever will.

BYAKUYA

Maybe he'll get rid of his gender when he feels better. Right now? Kill feast and rest ad infinitum.

PHONON

This character. Thiiiiiiis character. I am so normal about her. Her name literally sounds like "pronoun". No way in hell she's cis. Nonbinary 4ever and ever.

MIKA RETURNA

She literally wears a binder but I don't think she even knows what gender is.

MIYASHIRO ERIKA WAGNER

Erika is EXTREMELY cis girl to me. She loves her trans girlfriend though.

GAIEN "ENKIDU" ENKIDOU

Coolest guy in the game. I think trans Enkidu is cool but I think he's cis myself. Not that he cares about gender that much.

LONDREKIA LIGHT

No one comes out of the womb with a name that has part of the onomatopoeia for something that matches their special magic power. Trans guy but nobody is allowed to know about it.

TSURUGI

Cis. But a good ally nonetheless! Has "Hey girl I mean they"d Phonon on accident once.

KAGUYA JINGUU

Transfem as fuck just look at this multiple year difference. No way this woman is cis.

^ This is Londrekia and her. Trust me.

KUON THE ETERNAL

Being nonbinary could save him but he either doesn't know what that is or thinks he's too old for that.

UZUKI

She killed her gender and resurrected it as something more cool and goth. Nonbinary but in a girl-adjacent way.

OGRE

Butch nonbinary lesbian or cishet man and I can't decide which. It differs between days.

IZUMI

I mean... her EXS ability is literally called "Transition". You know what that means!

BONUS ROUND

Lex is Nonbinary but doesn't know it yet. Either Strix or Zohar are cis but not both of them. Azel is like a boy-shaped apparition. Kuu is kuunonically devoid of gender. Adelheid is the first cisgender woman ever.

Well, thanks for reading all the way through! This sure was a hell of a lot to type. But I love rambling about this game so it's okay in the end.

[tunawithsoysauce]

Stuff you might wanna know :3

about ~me~

Name: Finn/Todd Henriksson

Age: 13 (2011)

Swedish, third generation Finnish

Weird

Transboy

Bisexual

👆 the main stuff. Scroll for a bit more detailed bullshit.

▪︎I LOVE MUSIC!!! I go to a music highschool, my parents are musicians and I love singing and playing french horn. Fun thing, right!?

▪︎I'M TRANS (wow!) I'm transmasc, and have been as long as I can remember (I came out at eight, I believe?) And my pronouns are he/him! I'm a boy. Only boy.

▪︎I USUALLY DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING (wha) I don't know what im doing. Most of the time. Id like to believe im kind and try to be good, but you know. It is what it is.

▪︎HAIR DYE AND ROCKS! (lmao what) i love dying my hair. And rocks. Not cool rocks. Just... rocks.

▪︎ART!!!! (YIPPIE !) I love drawing and writing and stuff like that. Very fun. Its like the only thing I do haha

▪︎NERD!!! (OFc) I love fixating on stuff. Which leads me to our next segment...

▪︎Interests (online)

The main ones AREEEE: *drumroll*

1. Doctor who! (My sister used to love it. She showed me it all and now im as big a nerd as she is.)

2. Sherlock holmes! (Or Sherlock & co. Both. Mostly just the novels. The BBC show if you make me.)

3. Good omens! Or Neil gaiman in general! (He's very cool)

Eeeeh otherwise im very obsessed with loads of stuffs. Just. Ask me if ive seen something, ill probably have.

Family!

▪︎Mum & dad! (My mum's mean sometimes. Not all the time. She can be good. She’s just... she has a diffrent way of loving.) (Dad! He's amazing. I love him.)

▪︎ main siblings! (I have two fully bio siblings. Otto, and Ruben. Otto is 6 and Ruben is 14. Otto is silly, my big brother is amazing. He's my true rolemodel :))

▪︎ half siblings (I DONT ACTUALLY CALL THEM HALF SIBLINGS)

A) -Anna!! She's the one im closest to. She’s the youngest (26) and has a cat and a fiancee (Jim.) Jim's cool. Very silly. He's also sort of a role model, for me. He's been in my life for all of it, I think? My sister had a boyfriend before that. He was very quiet. Anna is very nice and I love having sleepovers with her. She was also the one who introduced me to Doctor who!! We always have so much fun. She really likes the beatles. Don't know why I put that there. She just really likes them. Felt important.

B) Malin!! My middle big sister. She’s awesome, and She’s got a whole family. A husband (He's amazing and so so so smart i literally think he's so cool) which i think is very rad, and my neice !!! He's called Einar. He's 3. He calls me "uncle Todd" (AJSKSJJDKD)

C) My biggest brother Mattias. He's quiet, but also very awesome. His girlfriend is very nice too. She has green hairdye in her hair. :3)

▪︎FRIENDS!!!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!

This includes:

1. Leija! We met in the beginning of fourth grade. She’s weird like me. And awesome. I love her.

2. Elsa!!! She's been my best friend all my life. Our mums know eachother. She’s kind and beautiful and always makes me happy.

3. Elvira!!! My mandatory lesbian friend. That's a joke. She’s cool. And very nice. She never speaks ill of anyone. She’s truly the kindest human ever.

4. Sofie!!! A non-binary chaos machine. I love them. They're always a joy to be around.

5. Max!!! My absolute best friend. He's amazing even though we barely met even a year ago. I visit him frequently.

5. Jack!!! (Love interest? Kind of dating?)

Side characters (wtf)

▪︎My therapist!! She's called Emma. Uh.

▪︎My father figure!!! Otto. Not to be confused with my little brother.

▪︎ My Swedish teacher!! I just think she's awesome. She’s also called Anna. Not to be confused with my sister.

▪︎ All my finnish friends! Jesus christ if I named all of the finnish blokes ive befriended id die typing.

▪︎ this random dude I met on reddit i haven't talked to for two months :D

▪︎Sofia!! A lady at my school. She’s awesome. She’s practically my step mum. She’s held me while I cried in the nurses office more than I can think.

▪︎ uhm

Hobbies!!

Mondays: french horn B)

Tuesdays: dancing!! (With Elvira:))

Wednesdays: orchestra!! (French horn)

Thursdays: TSS!! (A place you can hang out at)

Fridays: bugging my music teacher and playing drums with my bassist friend until I get kicked out!

School

As previously mentioned i go to a music school. We have music everyday. Its awesome.

I love swedish, music, art, english, french, and history.

I hate P.E, math, science and homeroom.

Bye :33

[cebwrites]

gender/sexuality HCs (Heart Pirates pt 2)

a/n: for point of reference, i’ll be deferring this intro since not all the hearts are named yet and we still don’t know much about them ; 3 ;

as a reminder you’re free to agree or disagree with these hcs, these are just how i write them and my personal opinions o(￣▽￣)ｄ

onto the HCs! word count: 0.7k

Clione

he/him (cis man)

a raging dumpster fire disaster bi if i’ve seen one

clione shoots his shot a lot with airs of confidence to cheer himself on, the only downside is that people often see right through him and turn down the inflated persona he wears just so his knees don’t buckle

there’s a certain appeal to his awkwardness and fumbling, maybe clione wants someone to match all that energy he puts out, or maybe he needs someone tall, dark, and handsome to help slow him down

Ani

bi, they/she (gnc transfem)

their gender journey has always been something that Ani’s kept close to heart and at the same time, just a cog in the background that no one’s drawn too much attention to outside of her initial mentions of it to clear up any confusion

the realization happened gradually over time along their journey with the Hearts - she’s grateful for such an understanding crew but supposes with a captain like Law and a partner like Fang, any response that wasn’t acceptance wouldn’t be tolerated

Fang

bi, he/him (transmasc)

in direct contrast to his girlfriend, Fang is out and loud about just how trans he is - captain worked hard on his top surgery and Fang’ll be damned if he doesn’t show off the scars any time he can (the opportunities are slim in the sub and their boiler suits so that makes him even more keen to go topless outside)

he’s not the “yodel from the heavens about how much i love my partner” type unlike some other people on the crew, but Fang shows his affection a lot through small gestures throughout the day - they have different stations in the sub but even then he manages to swing by Ani’s for a quick kiss on the cheek with his snack drop-off and vice versa, it’s the little things that they manage together

(yes I know his canon name is Hakugan but I got attached to Fang long before Oda revealed that bit about him fairly recently so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

Dorie

he/they/she lesbian (cis woman)

every crew needs a stone butch to keep things on the straight and narrow, right? right

despite how private he can be about his personal/romantic life, dorie still manages to be quite the open flirt - hitting mainly on other butch women but hey if you’re a gal interested in other gals that’s free real estate in their mind

everything is kept pretty casual, they don’t expect to form lifelong bonds in a coupe nights when the crew typically don’t dock at an island for more than a week at a time, give or take how much trouble they get (dragged) into - she takes what she can get and for the moment, it’s enough

although, some part of him does wonder when they’ll meet up with the Kidd Pirates again, for no particular reason...

Hake

they/them (enby)

demiromantic but what kind of pirate doesn’t kiss their crewmate goodnight? or on the forehead sneakily before breakfast, or on the cheek- just.. cause...

point is! they’re very affectionate and like to sling at least an arm around whoever they’re talking to if it’s someone close

they’re chatty and amicable too with a friendly disposition to boot, something you’d breathe a breath of relief for to find in your tattoo artist, no? well--

Hoki

they/he (genderqueer)

unlabeled yet down horrendous for their best friend

this dumb gay bitch has gotten a bunch of small tattoos all over their body just as an excuse to spend more time with and/or be physically closer to Hake rather than just talk to them like a normal person

because the feeling of their arm around his shoulder sends Hoki’s heartrate skyrocketing normally but for some reason, seeing Hake in their element, at their most focused, calms them just enough to stay still for another hour or so

yeah he’s down so awful someone send HELP

And because I don’t have enough to say on the rest of them to make another post but wanted to mention these goobs anyway-

Jean Bart, Marl, Gul, Bas, and Laeno are the older gays of the crew - the queer elders (peepaws even) if you will Marl and Bas are trans men, Laeno is unlabeled but certainly not cis, while Jean and Gul are cis (all he/him, all mlm) Jean Bart didn’t have much of an opportunity to explore himself a la pillaging and terrorizing as a fearsome pirate captain before he was caught and sold to the Celestial Bastard that owned him - but now that he’s free and has a lot more time to his own thoughts, he’s able to examine himself properly and even reconsider experiences in the past as maybe not so straight after all

[longlivefanfic-net]

i do not ship harringrove IN THE SLIGHTEST. stommy & stonathan r just kinda funny to me,but steddie has my heart. buttt the thing is,all these guys have deffo played a huge part in steve figuring out that he’s into guys. maybe at one point,he found himself looking at jonathan a little too long. or when tommy was with carol,and he’d try to make some sort of “bros over hoes” type comment so he could spend more time with him. or when billy got a little too close under the pretense +

oh. OH. I am so glad someone is giving me the opportunity to go on my long winded rant about how Jonathan was actually Steve's gay awakening, like canonically, because trust me I HAVE SOME THOUGHTS.

In s1, when Steve picks up the nail bat that becomes his signature--who was holding it only seconds before? And who does he use it to rescue from the demogorgon? Jonathan fuckin' Byers. I think it's so important that Jonathan can't protect himself and when Steve does it for him--not protecting Nancy, but protecting his supposed rival for her affections--it becomes one of his defining characteristics for the rest of the show.

In s2, when Murray is talking to Nancy and Jonathan he says "you've got the important shit: shared trauma!" The night before, Nancy and Jonathan had admired their matching demogorgon-summoning scars. Steve doesn't have a scar but he was there too--he has that same shared trauma. We already know how it affected the way he feels about Nancy; I think it's reasonable to assume it gave him some pretty strong Emotions (TM) about Jonathan too.

In s4, when Steve and Nancy are talking and he says "you gave my head the biggest thump of its life." Yeah, you know who actually gave his head that thump while he beat Steve's ass (starting the trend of Steve Harrington Can't Win a Fight)? Jonathan. Fucking. Byers.

Steve is wildly obsessed with him, too. It's more than just "he's the weird kid," it's more than just "he's my girlfriend's guy best friend," it's this whole additional layer of masculinity and pretenses and wanting to be tough but also being gentle (I know Steve paid for that camera Nancy gave Jonathan for Christmas, I just know it) that is just...so queer coded.

Some day, far in the future, Steve Harrington is going to sit straight up in bed, drenched in a cold sweat, and rub his hands down his face while he goes "did I have a crush on Jonathan?!" And then Eddie will sit up in bed next to him and simply say "Yes, sweetheart, now go back to sleep."

I don't even ship Stonathan, honestly--I think they would be a wildly poorly matched pair, their respective weirdnesses don't compliment each other like Steddie imo--but, like, the Duffer brothers have so aggressively bisexual coded Steve with the Steve/Nancy/Jonathan love triangle. I also personally love the Jonathan is transmasc HC and I could so easily see s1 Steve explaining his feelings for Jonathan away by misgendering him, trying to rationalize that he's "still straight," whereas by the end of s4 Steve is like, yep, Jonathan was the first boy I had a crush on.

Anyway. This is almost definitely NOT what you were hoping for when u sent this ask in so. please feel free to send more/other stuff and I'll try to write for it.

[fandommomhater]

okay so campie wampie..... i was in le appalachia and she was so pretty literally mountains do so much for us a society.... okay highlight reel

- got stung by a wasp had a bad reaction(im allergic ^^) but the nurse didnt want to use an epipen and call 911 so she gave me 5 benadyrll in the span of less than 6 hours which made me severely out of it. i slept for an entire afternoon, woke up, read half of a star trek novel but then got really upset about wesley and stopped, rolled out of bed to meet with the group and was apparently doing a “chaperone at a middle school dance” dance every time i was standing talking. there was a picture of gary the snail on the stage for a talent show and i was absolutely convinced he was looking at me. had an extremely vivid dream about the italian mafia coming after me. got so fucked by the concept of stairs when i was trying to go down a single flight and almost fell about 8 times

-also my counselors while this was happening were looking up “how much benadryll to get high” (spoiler it was the dose i was given ) and laughing their asses off at me. my cool counselor told her girlfriend about it. NOT COOL. anyway.

-also for the rest of camp my besties kept trying to mimic my dance they dont GET IT you have to bounce the kneess.... swing the feet... the arms are mildly desperate....

-erm lets see i had to do an amongus skit in front of the camp. the less we say about that the better

-like one day into camp my entire bunk started to use me as google because we didnt have internet and they thought i knew a lot. neurodivergent girls CANT stop winning at dead parent camp.

-my counselor put me in charge of the group so many times like girl i know i walk around with a little confident walk but i literally have the constitiution of a victorian orphan im shy im supposed to be stnading in the corner drinking a lukewarm water. not making announcements to the camp.... sighs.

-got to ride on a boat with our favie transmasc boat driver.... should clairfy he is actually transmac. i couldnt do the water activity cuz my hand was injured from le wasp sting so we fucking vibed..... i love boats so much....

-oh also i got to. theres this big blob thing in da lake and u can throw yourself off like a 1.5 story platform to jump onto it but everyone else was a pussy and couldnt jump so i did it like 7 times just me and da lifeguard hanigng.... everytime i hit it i got massive head truama and was like i shouldnt do that again. i have a terrible headache. and then i climbed back up and i was like wheeeeeee.

-erm okay this one is . okay i brought my favie little star trek magazines to camp cuz i needed SOMETHING to read.... anyway. one of them was an interview from an actor we can all guess who this is who may or may not be on this site i know how this sites search feature works i am not typing out his name you all KNOW who im talking about. okay. anyway my 4 person bunk loved him and made him like our unoffical cabin mascot. this is fine except that when i would come back from a grief activity and be like crying my eyes out and i would go to sit on my bunk and the magazine was just sitting there looking at me like. NOT THE TIME!!!!! HI NOT THE TIME!!!! it was fun

-they also gaslight me to thinking he died when we were at camp cuz no one had internet as soon as i had service i was like pleaseeee pleaseeeeeeeee. say it isnt so....

-omg speaking of i also had to wear so much mascara and eyeliner cuz thats my thing (goth) except i would always end up crying cuz. grief camp. and my mascara would run and i would go back and immediately apply more and then cry more . i couldnt just stop putting it on but i also couldnt stop crying so. functional impasse <3

-on like day 2 i was standing on the basketball course in the rain and just staight up said “i miss molly” except everyone heard me cuz i said it outloud and thought i was talking about molly our bunkmate and i was like. okay. okay well. okay well i have a parasocial relationship with this british cunt. i need him.

-also there was the camp director tee hee he had such pretty eyes omg every year its like omg hiiiiiii hiiiiii like. hee hee hi. i did this everyday when i saw him (not to his face im not that annoying) and it literally took until the last day of camp for my bunkmates to realize i was bi and not a lesbian.... nice job 10/10 guys also had the bi flag pattern ON MY NAME NECKALCE..... smh

-one girl did see my neckalce and go “are you bi” and i said “yes ^^” and she said “i couldve guessed from the unbuttoned hawaiin shirt cargo shorts and converse” and i was like. ok. ok. and then she was like “im bi too ^^” so i let that slide.

-one girl fell down a really steep hill but since i carried my little starfleet duffel with me everywhere and kept a first aid kit on me i did SUCH good first aid on her like 30 minutes before the aforementioned nurse came.... had those alcohol wipes disinfectant gauze bandaids AND a cold pack booyah! everyone thought this was very funny and thought i should be a doctor i say again IM JUST A LITTLE GUYYYY dont give me responisblity im just :pleading:

-last night i got to make a fire the counselor literally went inside and was like yah you can do i fire i trust you with that im going to sleep . and so i did it was fun i went mildly manic with fire privileges

-one night i had to replace a counselor and watch the 13-15 y/os at nightime and keep them quiet except i was still coming down from the benadryll and they were so rowdy and mean and i was there for like THREE HOURS.... ended up istting on the porch head in my hands getting really upset about mike townsedn

-SPEAKING OF PATHETIC MEN at the talent show when i was loopy someone wore wraparound glasses and i remembered norman my friend norman and went insane.

sorry tis is so long it was actually a really good week ^_^

[speedycubed]

use the sleeves of my sweater.

summary: luke had been glad when his dysphoria shifted from being in the wrong body to being in no body, but that all comes crashing around him after playing the orpheum.

notes: this story features trans & autistic luke. i draw from my own experiences as an autistic transmasc individual when describing things that have to do with those features. // crossposted on ao3 if you would rather read it there.

triggers: descriptions of dysphoria, unsafe binding (not taking a binder off for extended periods of time & exercising in a binder)

The one thing Luke had been on board with after becoming a ghost was the lessened dysphoria. Without a corporeal body, most of the dysphoria the first few weeks had been about being intangible as opposed to being in the wrong body. It was blissful to have something else to focus on when it came to his body.

But after he had adjusted to being a ghost, and especially after the Orpheum performance, dysphoria came smashing back into his life. It had happened one day in rehearsal. He was jumping around, strumming his guitar as he always did when he felt a pressure on his ribs. Luke stopped jumping around, deciding to stand still, figuring that would solve his problem. A few minutes later, after they finished that runthrough, he sat on the couch, claiming to be worn out. That was when he felt it.

The press of his breasts against his binder.

He had died wearing it and since they didn’t need to breathe anymore and were made of air, he felt no need to ever take it off. After all, the phantoms had been distracted by the fact that they were ghosts with no bodies to speak of to focus on changing clothes. Even after they figured out that they could, it was all just to regain some normalcy in their (after)lives.

But after jumping and sweating for the hours of rehearsal, he was finally feeling it. That was going to bruise.

Luke looked up, noticing the concern in Julie’s eyes. “It’s fine,” he said, waving a hand to dismiss concern. “Just my ribs hurt after all that exercise.”

“Your ribs? That’s weird. Don't you mean, like, a stitch in your side or something like that?” she asked, wanting to make sure her boyfriend was okay.

Fuck. He should have just gone with that. Now he’s stuck between a rock and a hard place. Most people don’t get rib pain from exercise. They get other types of pain, sure, but this is a trans issue.

“Uh, y-yeah,” Luke pointed at her, nodding to cover his shame at almost getting caught, “That’s what I meant. Have a stitch in my side, yep, that’s what my pain is.” Stupid brain making him flap his hands and stutter through the agreement. Now she would know something was wrong.

“Okay. Well, if you can take it, there’s some Tylenol in the bathroom behind the mirror.” She nodded, dismissing herself, a worry still clear on her face, but not wanting to make it worse.

As soon as Julie was out of the studio, Alex was next to Luke, sitting on the floor in front of him.

“Take it off,” Alex said, voice stern.

Luke laughed it off, which only made the pain worse. “Take what off?” His nervous laughter filled the studio followed by coughing.

“You think we didn’t notice?” Reggie said from up in the loft. He tossed one of Luke’s bigger hoodies that still had the sleeves on it over the railing before poofing to be next to the guitarist. “You died wearing it and haven’t taken it off since.”

Luke huffed, crossing his arms. “It’s not like I needed to breathe! And until just now I didn’t even notice the pressure.”

“Breathe?” Alex and Reggie looked up, seeing Julie with a water bottle in hand. The bottle dropped, plastic making it bounce a couple of times before stilling. “And the thing with rib pain earlier…” She walked up to her boyfriend, kneeling in front of him. “You don’t have to answer, but this sounds familiar. I’m so sorry, I wouldn’t be asking unless I figured that knowing would make me able to help more. Luke—” Julie looked him in the eyes, wishing she could hold his hands as she spoke to give some comfort, but that might make it worse. “—are you trans?”

Luke looks up, fear in his eyes. Thoughts ran through his head a mile a minute. How did she find out? Is she going to want to date me anymore? Is she going to quit the band? How will I cope if she leaves? Fuckfuckfuckfuck.

She seems to see his panic and backtracks. “I’m so, so, sorry if you’re not and this makes it seem like I’m assuming things, but with the breathing problems and the sudden need to rest and the rib pain… It all sounds like what one of the boys at school was talking about during one of our gay club meetings. And if you are I want to be supportive and help in any way that you’ll let me.” Her words rush out, apologizing for what she said, telling them that it was rude of her to ever ask and that she shouldn’t have, it’s none of her business, that she wouldn’t have asked without a reason.

The other two boys in the room got it, nodding along to her apology while they tried to comfort their friend.

But the one she was apologizing to didn’t hear any of it. Luke was quiet, his brain still telling him that this was a bad idea. All he could do was let out some tears before grabbing the hoodie Reggie had brought him and fleeing off to the bathroom to change.

Yanking his binder off proved to both lessen and enhance his dysphoria. Now he couldn’t feel the pressure of having his chest tied down, reminding him that he had breasts, but now everyone else could see that he had them. Luke put his shirt back on, slipping the hoodie over his head, and poofed off to the beach where he didn’t have to deal with the fact that he was just basically forced out of the closet by his girlfriend.

He chewed on the sleeves of his hoodie, having chewed the strings out long ago, staring out at the people on the beach. Now everything felt wrong. His skin pulled tight and he felt all of the body dysphoria he thought he had escaped after becoming a ghost.

The corners of his sleeves were soaked in his saliva before he got tired of staring at the people on the beach who all just reminded him of what he could never be. He poofed into the bike shop that stood where the Peters’ house had once been.

There was only one worker, a teenager dressed in all black. But it was the music playing over the speakers that he really noticed. It was classical. Something he didn’t expect from a bike shop, but it helped. Classical had been the only genre he ever listened to before developing his own music taste. His mother and father were both classically trained string players who had signed Luke up for viola lessons as soon as he expressed interest in his parents’ instruments, so their house was always full of symphonies.

As much as it hurt to hear music that he always associated with his parents, it was nice to have something else to focus on. Now Luke just focused on picking apart the instruments used during each section, wondering how he would play it if given the sheet music. It was calming to try and remember each position and each fingering. It was calming to try and pick apart each line, each note, in order to try and find the key.

His concentration was broken by the sound of the phone ringing. The employee sighed, rolling their eyes as they picked it up. At the same time that happened, Luke heard a little “poof” next to him. He turned only to see Alex.

“How did you even think to check here?”

“Saw your silhouette in the window as we checked the beach,” Alex said.

Luke groaned at the “we.” That meant that the others were here.

“Did you tell her?”

“No.”

Luke fell silent once more. A part of him was glad that the boys hadn’t spilled his secret. It wasn’t theirs to tell, after all. But another part of him wished that they had just told Julie. That would have taken all of the pressure off of him.

He looked at Alex as the final notes of Vivaldi’s “Four Seasons: Summer” faded and the host began to introduce the next piece.

“Can you tell her for me? I’m pretty sure that she already knows after earlier, j-just confirm it for her.” The guitarist hated that he had to ask—it put unfair pressure on Alex. Having to ask someone else to come out for him was a coward’s move, but Luke was so, so scared. He didn’t want to have to face Julie, knowing that no matter what she said, it was likely to worsen his mood. And that would worsen his dysphoria as his mind sat in its darkest corners.

“Yeah.” Alex nodded, poofing back out to the beach.

Luke turned around in the bike shop so he could see his bandmates. Even though he couldn’t hear them, he could tell exactly when the words left Alex’s mouth. He could tell because he knew Julie’s body language. He saw her nod and bite her bottom lip before opening her mouth to talk.

He could imagine her voice as she told the boys how she didn’t love him anymore. Logically, Luke knew that this wouldn’t be something that Julie would break up with him over. She often talked about Los Feliz’s gay club (the offical title was the Los Feliz GSA, but no one called it that, according to Julie) and suppoting her non-cis friends. But anxiety is a bitch. The voice in his head said that the reason he saw tears on his girlfriend’s cheeks was because she thought he had lied to her. The voice in his head said that he was about to get broken up with.

Luke decided that the voice in his head was a little bitch and poofed out of the bike shop, landing next to Julie.

She turned to him, wiping her tears. “You know I don’t think of you any differently because of this, right?” Her eyes were wide, pleading him to soak in her words. She loved him and nothing would change that.

I kn-know, j-just…” He pursed his lips, bringing his sleeve up once more. Luke hated his stupid stutter, especially when it came to difficult conversations. He chewed on his sleeves, trying to find the words. “Anxiety.” It was all that he could come up with as an explanation without devolving into word vomit.

Julie nodded in understanding. “Anxiety’s a bitch.”

The group fell quiet as Luke flopped onto the beach. He removed his sleeve for a moment to ask for hugs, which the boys gave. Julie sat next to him and held his hand so she wouldn’t be seen hugging air. They may have figured out how to talk to them in pubic (a pair of cheap earbuds with the wires cut off made for an excellent pair of fake AirPods that made people think she was just on the phone), but they couldn’t figure out how to make her be able to touch them in public without looking insane.

“I’m sorry,” she said. “I was out of line, that was an invasive question that I shouldn’t have asked. I keep talking about boundaries and yet I completely broke one of yours today.”

“It’s fine.” His voice was muffled from the stimming, but the words were easy enough to make out.

Julie looked to her metamour, asking for help. Reggie had known Luke a lot longer, so she figured he might be able to get the point across a little better. Reggie shook his head. This was between her and Luke.

“Hey buddy, are you better enough that Alex and I can leave? I think you and Julie need to have a talk—boyfriend to girlfriend.”

Luke snorted. “But you’re my boyfriend, idiot.” His eyes got sad once again, “But you’re right. See you guys.”

Reggie and Alex poofed out, heading back to the studio.

“You may say it’s fine Luke, but that’s not going to stop me from apologizing. I’m sorry. It’s none of my business.”

“But y-you’re my girlfriend… Doesn’t that make it your bus-business?”

“Only if you wanted it to be. If it’s to become my business then you have to be the one to make it my business. You would have had to have told me first.” She shed a few tears, trying to hold back from crying until they finished this conversation. “I’m sorry I took that opportunity away from you.”

“I wanted to tell you, but I figured it didn’t matter anym-more—” he laughed at Julie’s confused eyebrows, “I haven’t felt major body d-dys-dysphoria until t-today. And I’m air, so I haven’t taken off my b-binder all this time.” Julie gasped. “It’s off right now if that’s what you’re worried about,” he glanced at his chest, nervous. “But, yeah, it’s not like I can do anything about it. I’m intangible, so I’m stuck in the body I had when I died.

“I figured that I would t-tell you down the line, after we had m-more time to get used to our relationship. But then dysphoria hit me all at once during rehearsal. Suddenly I could feel all of the things that I got rid of when I be-became a ghost.

“Sorry that you have a broken boyfriend.” He ended his explanation and stared down at the sand, putting a finger in his mouth, nibbling on the tip to give his sleeve a break. He didn’t want to ruin another one of his dysphoria hoodies. A few holes were nothing, but too many would destroy the sleeve.

“You are not broken. Not in any way.” Julie says, grabbing onto Luke’s shoulders so he has to look her in the eyes. At this point, she only cared about getting her boyfriend to believe her, not the people who would think she was crazy as she held onto nothing. “You are Luke, mine and Reggie’s precious boyfriend, a massive dork, guitarist for Julie and the Phantoms, one of the best songwriters I’ve ever met. There is nothing wrong with you—you’re just you. No one is broken, they just have different pieces. Please don't ever refer to yourself as broken ever again.”

“Okay,” he whispered, fear still jostling his thoughts around. “Let’s go home and cuddle pile with Reg.”

Julie laughed softly, sounding like a fairy from Tinker Bell. “Sounds amazing.”

[the-ghost-king]

I still don't have words to explain my feelings but:

"For a while I just thought: it’s completely normal to have friends that differ from your gender- and it is- but there was something different here. Not only was I the happiest I was in elementary school when we were all hanging out, but I was also very angry. I was angry that I didn’t get to sit with them when we split up into boys and girls; I was angry that they sometimes said I couldn’t kick a soccer ball as hard as them; and I was angry that I couldn’t join their sleepovers. It didn’t seem fair.. "

"Transmasc comphet is also about the misogyny part of common comphet. Men are considered “dominant” and women are considered “submissive’’ which is a wildly misogynistic thing to say. When I was with my girlfriend, I was butch. I didn’t wear dresses, I had short hair, I told her I loved her first. For these reasons, to society, I would be considered the “dominant” one. Which subconsciously made me feel like a man, which is what I wanted all along."

Yes and yes and just fucking yes oh my fucking god thank you for this goddamned fucking article I need a word that's not comphet for that experience but fuck fuck fuck thank you

This makes me feel so incredibly seen in a way I don't yet have words for, and I still don't have words for all of this but fandom culture and how it treats people who consume mlm content but aren't guys (and generally anyone who isn't a cis guy) is deeply flawed and messed up, because I didn't need to spend years being told a I was a fetishist when I was consuming content because it was the type of relationship I wanted, and when mlm content was the space I needed to understand not only my gender but also my sexuality, and instead I needed to be told that most fetishists weren't consuming mlm content because they were picturing themselves as one of the guys in the story. I still don't have full words for my feelings, but there was a much better way to handle this discussions back in like 2015-2018 and I'm actually kind of pissed they weren't handled that way, and still aren't being handled that way...

This doesn't really belong here but I need a place to store the link and lots of trans masc people follow me here so eh

Tw for the F slur but I had an "oh fuck look it's me" moment when reading this because I was down a queer theory rabbit hole and I don't think the term "comphet" really describes this experience but it's the closest word currently in existence so whatever but also I have incoherent thoughts rn on this so ehhh I'm thinking

Again sorry, not my usual content

I don't usually post stuff like this I just need somewhere to keep the link so I can access it from somewhere else later