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i don't normally participate in these redraw challenges but it's megumi so i'll make an exception
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk megumi#megumi#looks at clock UHHHHHHHH oops#i got lost in the sauce that is rendering his gd chin and under his lips.... ive been in stylized anime mouth land 2 long i fear#i had forgotten how much of a pain those shadows are :'>>> eSP at a lookdown angle#fought a bit but little did he know i spent years doing coloured pencil portraits. this is My domain#god but the rest of the skin render was so FUN i love . warm grey in2 brown in2 red/orange fr the deep underneck shadow#lip tint heavy blush freckles glossier model fushiguro megumi...........im a believer i fear#had a bit of a hard time finding a middle ground between how i normally draw his hair and a more Realistic take on it#the model in the og has hair that's pretty close but i think the strands r a bit short n too heavily curved fr my tastes#its my brand im afraid i simply must give itfs both longer hair#nothing else feels Right#but god i underestimated how Good this photoshoot is as megu material . i get the hype now i get it#i did the sketch n i looked at it and i had an oh /oh/ moment#smh megumi put those lustrous emerald orbs away before u hurt some1#his gaze is too powerful . slaps a red bg on him makes him my new icon :)#anyway its 6am it is morning time do i sleep fr like 3 hrs or do i say megumi voice Whatever we shall see
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you will never get these two to play baseball
#book: gampire#(to distinguish it from the like vibes tag for this)#my art#not pjo#my ocs#viktor#ummmm ok so someone is gonna have to rename the girl. she was milyena but that's shockingly close to another oc#she is russian <3#anyway viktor would almost never dress like this he almost exclusively wears hoodies and a sweater#he is lazy he is boring he is so dull#i spent a long time looking for a lyric for the caption and nothing from the twilight soundtrack was speaking to me so. here we are
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Dead dashboard confessional parasocial hours: it’s been so nice to see Taylor kind of reclaim her place in the world and work out in real time what does or doesn’t feel good in terms of being out there, and she’s clearly flourishing on a personal level by taking in all these experiences! And idk if it’s just the late hour or the post-livestream hangover or what, but it just kinda feels like something shifted yet again last week — like she and Travis did their goofy little skit because Theatre Kids and it was fun and felt good and she’s like “YES more of that please!”
And I’m not saying that as in “omg she’s going to publish her entire life online now” at all, but more in like, it’s kind of endearing to see her try these new things and figure out her boundaries and be like “yes this sparks joy and I want more of it in my life” (or on the flip side, cutting out the things that don’t and protecting her peace). I know that ET article earlier today was just a fluff piece to keep stoking the fires until they can actually Say It, but there’s something about Tree’s the quote saying they had fun coming up with it and were glad they got to share that moment together and want to keep having fun like that was just really sweet. And again, I don’t think it means they’re going to publicize their lives regularly by any means, I really do feel like it was like, “hey you know what would be funny?” And they took it from there — almost like that skit was for them and we were lucky to be bystanders to the bit lol. They just have so much fun together and it shows. I don’t think they’re trying to capitalize off their relationship, I think it’s just the pop star on a global stage equivalent of that one couple you have in your friend group that always goes all out for Halloween with the elaborate couple costume and commits to the bit every year.
It just seems like they’re really settling into things and figuring out as they go along how they can do the things they want to do within the parameters of what feels safe and joyful and is less scary than it once was. Taylor got to take part in her own way in something meaningful to Travis (e.g. the Super Bowl) and he’s gotten to take part in something meaningful to her (the show) and it’s just really sweet how they embrace each other’s worlds. And maybe it was “new and defining” because Taylor’s never been that overt before on stage on a tour of this scale, and not only did the world not cave in, she had a blast and got to have a chuckle. For someone who said she always wished she had someone by her side to share her successes with and never did even in her longest relationship previously, it’s got to be wild to literally have her partner on stage with her on her record-breaking tour.
No wonder she’s probably gagged at all this. The universe really did shift and it was all for them etc.
#idk why I’m getting so emotional about this lol#like the et article is clearly just another placeholder until they can reveal the [redacted]#but i think the contrast of that with the sweet nothing/hoax mashup tonight#and how she spent SO LONG begging to be a footnote in someone’s life#and even in a relationship she thought was forever didn’t have anyone who fully appreciated the magnitude of her work#or how much it filled her cup#compared to her ‘yes and’ partner now who is like ‘ok how can we make this EVEN MORE fun?’ at every turn#I’m very very glad she’s no longer in the ‘hoax’ place#it’s just really sweet to see#i mean i don’t think they’re turning into sonny and cher lmao#but i do think they’re going to be cheering each other on and involved in each other’s work one way or the other as supportive partners#like it must be a mindfuck because if you had told Taylor two years ago when she was in the middle of planning the tour#that one day her partner would join her on stage just for a laugh#she’d probably tell you to fuck off lol#and now her partner’s probably getting measured for a muppet coat for karma idk#writing letters addressed to the fire
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"work wife"???? But not actual wife??
LOL no not actual wife! Both the work wife and I have actual husbands instead 🤭🤭 And my husband is JUST as crazy as I am and WILL do farther daytrips like the absolute insane mans he is! Which is one of the MANY reasons I married him--his weirdness matches my weirdness 💖💖💖💖💖
As a fun fact, the craziest day trip/road trip we have done: we went to IKEA about two ish hours away. Came home, realized upon unloading new bedframe that he had misplaced his wallet somewhere. So what did we do?
WELL IKEA was closed but you bet your ass we got BACK in the car and drove BACK to the pit stop (an hour?? ish?? away??) that VERY night and checked the trash there and asked the people inside (who were sups friendly! They checked the tapes for us and everything!) if they'd seen it. They hadn't! So, we drove BACK home and the next day, after work, we yeeted ourselves into the car and drove BACK to ikea to see if they had it
AND THEY DID!
He was so relieved and then we had IKEA hot dogs for dinner, his treat bc he had his wallet again 🤭🤭🤭 (they are pretty good but costco ones I think deffs are better!)
BUT YEAH. My actual spouse is just as unhinged as I am and I love him about it 😍😍😍😍😍😍
#dani answers#wizardshark#BUT YEAH!#anyway i get that a lot of people are like 'work spouse culture is literally insane and weird' and that is CORRECT#it CAN BE! and rest assured that we are NOT#tbh a good like 30% of our time spent together is gushing about our spouses lol#anyway she's so fucking cool it's not even funny and when i told her that she was like WHAT i am NOT cool YOU'RE cool#and i was like DING DONG YOU ARE WRONG and then friendship lol#she is very cool tho. she calls richard chard#he and i think it's fucking HILARIOUS#she's so cool and talented and i miss her bc we haven't hung out in like WEEKS bc of the horrors (i keep getting SICK)#and also bc her department moved back to the building they were in post-reno. so we didn't lunch as per the usual bc she was busy aF#and she's going on vacay for like two weeks now#she's so sweet too! she got me skin tone markers for my BDAY! i'd mentioned it off hand once or twice and this bitch REMEMBERED#her husbando is also v funny lol. gr8 cook too! and a gossipy little guy which is HILARIOUS bc so is chard lmao#anyway sorry for going off in the tags!! i have been home sick too long and am LOSING IT#if im not well enough for work tomorrow i'm gonna explode. i cant keep doing NOTHING it's driving me BATTY#(but at least I'm feeling better and resting up and such lol)
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watching isttvg with your partner and holding their hand with the sudden awareness of how close you came to death. thinking: we are alive, we are alive, we are alive. thinking: every day we save ourselves from more and worse. thinking: for the love of god, dont let go.
#i saw the tv glow#obviously we are both trans#im with my family for the summer and i forget who i am#i see her speak to her father and i feel sick with pain#but we are alive. we are here. we are crawling out of that grave inch by inch#once i said 'im not trans bc i could keep pretending to be cis'. i get made fun for it and rightfully so#but that sentiment is death. that sentiment is death. nothing else.#we have spent so much of our lives lying. suffocating and lying and apologizing for everything that's true.#this is me stopping. please come with me. please stop. for the love of god - keep crawling. please. we have to go.#this cannot be us. never again. we cannot pretend reality away we cannot choose not to see it. itll kill us.#i found our hearts and theyre still beating. we are alive. there is still time#for as long as your heart is beating. there is still time. please. dont let go.
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Happy Shun Duel Links Day!!! (party popper emoji)
#yugioh arc v#yugioh arc-v#arc-v#shun#yuto#comic#duel links#sorry for the long format but OOH it looks so clean when its all in one line!!!#this almost didn't make it out of my wip jail cells because i spent 30 mins on one of the panels#using references and everything but it just looked super duper odd and it was a waste of time overall#and don't even get me started on the toning (clenches fist) nothing was looking right at one point#but enough about the process i want to talk about the comic itself#part of the motivation for drawing this was seeing all the fluffy shunyoot celebration pics during his roaming event#they ARE cute but also i really really wanted so badly to see shun's visceral reaction that didn't reduce him to mere comedic fodder#(something i'm also guilty of)#so anyway like we always say in ygos we make our own food#wow im rambling anyways the last line of dialogue i had most trouble with but also the most proud of#no shade to the writers of the show (ok maybe like a LITTLE shade) but with this comic i really wanted to reflect the feelings of both#fans of the show as well as fans that left after the ending because that was something i saw floating on jp twitter during the roaming even#and it really made me Think#also can we talk about how in the event yuya was just like hey shun i have a surprise for you!!! haha :]#he was THERE when shun said never appear in front of me ever again did he think shun would just be omg yuto :)#this is why youre my favourite (yuya)#anyways last but not least#the final yuto panel is a healthy mix of guilt + existential dread and doubt about his own existence i hope that was obvious enough
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Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle
#my characters#i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah?#and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind#and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge#if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally#think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me#also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far#she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple#so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot#however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt#for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely#deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c#but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj#so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way#nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all#he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in#like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately#he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have#long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person#and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her#so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock#(fulj agrees)
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This is a shout out to everyone who feels like they didn't do enough with their dogs this year.
Everyone who didn't reach their official or unofficial training goals.
Everyone who didn't go to a training class or practice as much as they wanted.
Everyone who didn't overcome or make progress on their dog's issues.
Everyone who didn't compete or trial or title.
There's so much pressure to prove yourself as a handler and prove your dog, especially right now when everyone's posting their accomplishments. But it's okay if the only thing you did this year was enjoy your dog.
That's the whole point of having a dog, and that's more than enough.
#dogblr#maverick#i know this sounds hypocritical because i did post my accomplishments#but let me remind you that mav spent two and a half years doing NOTHING#i felt so much pressure to title and prove him that i didnt enjoy any of it#it took so long for me to like mav because i felt we werent moving fast enough#and that sucks!#so if you didnt meet your goals this year#or if you feel you didnt make enough progress#hang in there and go tell your dog you love them#if you enjoyed your dog at any point this year? you did great#good work#and do it again next year
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sorry im just thinking about bcs but like. why not add a few smaller scenes of gus interacting with his own men? why does it seem like, in comparison, mike is almost immediately elevated to a higher status than those two in bcs purely because we actually get to see him having normal conversations with gus? like i understand they might not keep the plot moving as well because of the fact obviously if victor is currently doing something it’s because gus told him to etc. but for the most part all of the smaller interactions gus does have with those two ends up being in a somewhat high stress situation where it feels very tense between everyone. and it’s just like damn! is it always like that?? why do those two even care that much about their jobs if their boss is a bit of a dick? etc. i think even an additional scene or two with those guys (either alone or the both of them) talking with gus in a more normal situation could’ve both added a bit more depth into how gus treats his employees (we got a lot with how he treats lyle and co., but not a whole lot with the illegal side of things), how comfortable vic and tyrus feel around him in a calmer setting, and exactly why they both feel the need to be as loyal as they are to the guy.
and also on the other side of this i don't think it'd hurt to maybe elaborate on their pay just a bit..? i'm not saying to randomly put a number out into the atmosphere but i just mean some smaller things like. do they buy nicer things for themselves? what's their housing situation? what's their car situation? are the escalade / yukon their own vehicles or does gus just use those two for business situations? do they use them when they're doing their own stuff off the clock or do they have their own cars? etc. that can also help with understanding their motivations a bit. don't get me wrong i don't think they should be visibly rich or something because that's not what gus would want but just smaller things! cause it's easy to write their loyalty off as Well they probably get paid super well, which i'm sure is true, but if they don't show a single hint of that then what's the point. even something as simple as giving tyrus a nice watch, or maybe victor having a nicer looking gun, etc. something small like that. because as it stands right now the average 41 year old viewer who watched the show once only knows and will only ever know victor and tyrus as those two guys in the background who do random stuff for gus with no clear motivation. just the personification of "On it boss (salute emoji)". and to be honest this is true for a whole lot of fans who do watch the show multiple times and enjoy thinking about it more in depth, because on screen we barely have anything about the two.
and to be clear i'm not trying to say we should have an episode just for them or something like no i understand they're side characters. i understand we don't need all that. and i understand this is also primarily Jimmy's show. but it's not like these two are on the same level as like, arlo or paige and kevin etc. these guys have been around since brba. victor was literally introduced in the same episode gus was. and they are a huge part of gus's story, especially in brba. s4 wouldn't have been what it was without victor and tyrus. and in bcs, ignacio's situation wouldn't have been the same if it weren't for victor and tyrus as well. and i just personally believe that if their goal with gus in bcs was to go back and elaborate on how everything came to be and show what he was like a few years younger, they could've dragged victor and tyrus into that. and i think his character would've benefited from taking that extra step with those two.
#gray.txt#and you know. obviously i personally have my own clear ideas of everything. and i'm content with what i got. this isn't coming from a place#of Well victor is my favorite guy so everything should be about him LOL. i know what he is.#but thats only because i spent like what? 2 years now watching random interviews and analyzing the smallest details within the show that#genuinely meant nothing while they were writing the scripts. and then throwing some random ideas at the wall to see if they stick.#and i just dont think everybody should have to do that LOL. and i think gus's character gets a lot more interesting#when do you do have this clear idea of victor and tyrus in your head and how he interacts with them. but 99% of people dont have that!#nobody fucking knows everything giancarlo and vince ever said about box cutter. nobody knows about the interview where giancarlo referred t#his entire business (meth and restaurant) as his 'family'. and they'd never think of that in those terms#because with the exception of his restaurant workers and mike#it feels like he HATES them LMAO.#tldr all i'm saying is i think we could've benefited from at least one 1 minute long scene of victor and gus exchanging words#where it doesn't end in gus snapping the phone in half out of anger. and also let tyrus speak his mind and have gus agree with him once#also yeah sorry this is all over the place but it is somehow the most coherent i have felt in months so this is as good as its getting sorr#sorry .#also to be clear about my earlier statement that’s a lie my idea of those two is not clear in my head whatsoever i just meant in comparison#to literally the average viewer. and my own personal thoughts about them aren’t even true it’s just opinions and guesses.#and i love a character that i can just say shit about but at the same time i think it’s fun to have idk something in the source material#that you can actually use while thinking and not have to dig around 11 year old reddit AMAs#and that money paragraph sort of came out of order what i meant by saying all that is like#i feel those two could benefit from a clear motivation for why they do all the things they do#and if we have neither personal reasons nor monetary reasons then it just makes them feel like one dimensional henchmen or something#came out of no where* not order you dumb fuck (< me)#also it doesn’t have to be clear in our faces or anything whatever you know what i’m saying . this is too long i can’t keep elaborating
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#megumi fushiguro#fushiguro megumi#megumi#fanart#jjk fanart#ART IS NOT SPOILERS BUT I AM GNA YAP ABT STATE OF MEGU IN THE TAGS U HAVE BEEN WARNED#anyway these draws feel empty 2 me now#i feel like the Intent fr them was snatched out from under my feet but i am too proud of them not 2 post so we ball anyway#spent 10 hours straight on it and its siblings gdi#i poured hope and grief and anger in2 them and now all of it has been snuffed out#bC WE GOT NOTHING#sighs stay patient megu nation#we've waited this long we can wait Longer#NEXT CHAPTER TRUST
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new concept that’s making me go feral: My Goodbye from Epic the musical but it’s the Ava and Player at the graveyard
#khx#khux#my posts#I know nothing about epic but the premise behind it is so cool!!!#and I just love my goodbye#dramatic show tune duets my beloveds 🥰#anyways I think player and ava had a really interesting relationship. or lack thereof I guess#a master who offers you salvation and you with a heart so big that you’re not sure if you want it#after all#what makes you deserve it over everybody else who’s been living the same kind of life as you?#I think after they spent so long looking for her player deserves to express at least some frustration at her actions#and then ava’s also dealing with her own burden of the truth…I wish we knew more of her side#ouugighhh the worms are in my brain
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lord forgive me i have more
#p3#persona 3#p3p#femc#yukari takeba#mitsuru kirijo#fuuka yamagishi#p3 monster au#yukamitsu#I GUESS. ENDGAME FOR ANYTHING I DO WITH THE TWO OF THEM BUT LIKE NOTHING ROMANTIC IS OCCURRING HERE SO IDK??#whatever we love distrust bitterness distance#quinn moment#quinn drawings#I SPENT SO LONG DRAWING ALL OF THIS SSTUPID SHIT LAST NIGHT AUUUUUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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So, you gonna play the new Hades game?
sorry just saw this notif on my desktop. i dont know why im not seeing asks on mobile??
anyways. YEAH! and im not gonna lie, im probably gonna spend most my time obessed with hypnos again unless this game hands me another muppet of a guy
#also#idk if its me#but its kinda funny how in the og it felt like there must have been a writer who thought hypnos was annoying#and hypnos comes back in this game to say absolutely nothing#i know i spent too long in spn where writers hate their audience and enact psychological warfare on them#so im ready to believe that that writer got even more annoyed when hypnos was pretty well liked#also im sorry if u wanted me to talk about generals of the game#i can but i will default to my sleepy guy#i hope u can still fish in game#or are we sticking to craft mode for mel ?
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#HISSING SCRATCHING SNARLING BITING MY PHONE ISNT WORKING I HATE MY PHONE PLAN SO FUCKING MUCHHHHHH#back in the states tho!!! (derogatory)#staying with my dad for a bit longer than expected while he helps me out with grad school stuff. but i love miami and ive missed it#so im happy to crash on his couch for a bit while i get some stuff done here#only issue is my phone now simply. doesnt work off wifi. just bops between SOS and E and roaming and nothing#spent 4 hours at the carrier's today and i have to go back again tomorrow for god knows how long#so uhhhhhhh please send some prayers that my phone works tomorrow bc if not im gonna!!!! end up on the fucking news!!!! :D :D#sorry for the radio silence but i am alive i am almost done with my travels and i am nearing the end of my sanity but we persist!!!!!!!#mwah mwah kisses and smooches to you all please keep your fingies crossed for my phone and meeeeeee#personal
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While I was reading the later chapters of Phantom of the Opera a friend of mind reminded me it was a serialization, and suddenly I had a moment of clarity in which I thought "Oh so that's why it's written like that"
#i just be ramblin#phantom of the opera#listen listen overall I enjoyed that boon however#*book#reading post Christine disappearing in the middle of Faust was a personal hell because. There was so much unnecessary rambling. So many#extra scenes we could have time skipped through or never had happen in the novel itself#At some point I was praying ''Please. I love you Persian. Please learn when to shut up. Leroux please. Save some of this explanation of#literally everything for some post story extras or something please get to the actual story''#Like don't get me wrong. I did find the explanation of how the torture room worked and was built very interesting#But did. Did we really have to cut in the middle of our very time sensitive scary moment for the protagonists to go on and on and on about#every working bit of the thing being explained to someone like they've never heard of a mirror maze before with the added dragging out of#the Persian going slowly insane trying to escape the torture room while it changes and changes and changes and the words drag on and on#And then I remember it's serialized and I'm like ''Yeah okay that makes sense.''#''Oh yeah that's why we spent like 5 long chapters reading nothing happening but the Persian and Raoul sneaking down all 5 cellars only for#the Persian to inform us that they really just needed to be in cellar 3 and had gone to an area Erik never frequents and wandered so we#could...learn about the rat man and the shade? who never show up again?''#Please understand I do genuinely like this book but knowing the period it came out in and that it was serialized really puts things#into perspective#poto
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#my home is gone.#like its all still there but nothing is the same- i am not allowed to go back#everything reeks of smoke and is covered in soot#theres strangers in there cleaning#and when we can go back it wont be for long because its not safe anymore#and we will have to move#and our first apartment together my first apartment as an adult#the space we have spent a year and a half carefully making uniquely our own in a way no other place has been#will just be gone.#and i know itll be fine eventually yknow we will move and set up a new place and itll be just as good but theres so much work and pain#between us and that#and until then i just dont have a home#i just want to go home#ghost posts
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