#we have a very complicated relationship (?)
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I hate when people try to talk to me about god like u know nothing about my god
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ranting for a bit because the entire scene where elphaba tells glinda her secret makes me go rabid and actually makes me want to chew concrete because not only is it actually absolutely heartbreaking to see just how deeply elphaba believes all the horrible things her father reinforces; how she thinks she's responsible for her mother's death and is the reason for nessarose's disability even when it's literally not her fault in any way and is actually DIRECTLY her father's fault.
and just the fact that elphaba tells glinda all this and tells glinda her father hates her and that everything's her fault and glinda looks at her and she's absolutely heartbroken to hear elphaba saying all these things and she becomes the first person in elphaba's life to look her in the eyes and tell her that none of that is true and that it is NOT her fault, it was NEVER her fault despite whatever anyone said.
ik a lot of ppl see glinda's "it was the milkflower's fault" line as a very sort of shallow take by glinda (I'm explaining it poorly but ik some ppl wonder why she didn't just call out governor thropp directly) but I've got to disagree with that take because personally I think glinda heard elphaba talking, heard her describe her secret and heard how her father forced her mother to chew milkflowers constantly during her pregnancy all because he was afraid the baby would come out green like elphaba and she heard all this and she hears how elphaba thinks this is all her fault.
and yk they're roommates. glinda sees the way elphaba talks about her father and how even though she says that he hates her in an almost casual manner despite how she says he's justified for hating her, elphaba still loves her father and she still wants to do right by him and she still wants him to love her.
so glinda knows that elphaba will not listen to her if she straight up tells her that her father's fucking mental and completely wrong and that it was all his fault and that she's probably going to bludgeon him to death. she knows that elphaba will never accept this and she knows that right now it won't do any good for anyone.
so instead she tells elphaba it was the milkflower's fault. and she looks her in the eyes and she tells her this was never your fault you shouldn't think this was ever your fault and anyone who ever told you that it was your fault was completely and totally wrong and I need you to know this.
because the primary concern isn't about telling elphaba she's got a shitty dad the primary concern is telling elphaba that it is not her fault for simply existing. and to let her know that there is nothing wrong with her and that there is someone here, right now, who loves and cares for her so so much and wants her to know that. that there is someone who will hold her hand and who will tell her that they are there for her and that she is fine the way she is. that she is loved.
#wicked 2024#wicked#CHOWDAH THINKING ABOUT GLINDA AND ELPHABA FOR TOO LONG GOT ME FEELIN UNWISE#honestly without kidding#major props to ariana grande and cynthia erivo's acting#the tiny details make everything honestly#like the changes in facial expression and the way their voices change and all#10/10 we love to see it#makes me go feral#i will actually never stop thinking about it#and will just go analyze this shit for the rest of my life#but it's fine it's fine#dw about it ill be fine#i have to go to bed#but what about my 40000 page essay on them yk#glinda upland#elphaba thropp#gelphie#i despise the thought that glinda's vapid and stupid honestly#because we are consistently shown that that is not the case#she may be airheaded at times and she is extremely privileged which leads to her being shallow at times#but she is NOT stupid or unaware#we are clearly shown how she notices things and picks up on things#and IK she very clearly sees the complicated relationship elphaba has with her father#and she sees how vulnerable elphaba is being with her#and she decides to reassure her#because that's what she NEEDS rn#but she is going to sneak out later and kill governor thropp#that is a side quest for later yk
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Solomon & Thirteen
Headcanon:
Thirteen sometimes sees Solomon's candle go out. The first time she rushed to check up on him, genuinely thinking the immortal sorcerer met his end. Instead she was met with an... unsavory scene.
Solomon did die, yes. But he didn't stay dead. She was a first hand witness to his body regenerating, limbs cracking into the right place and wounds closing up. A mangled body back to being a person.
She still comes every time his candle flickers out but the scene she sees never will grow any less unsettling.
(She pretends to be mad at him for forcing her to come over but she's just relieved he didn't actually stay dead.)
#Their relationship is complicated.#obey me#obey me shall we date#obey me one master to rule them all#obey me hc#obey me headcanon#obey me solomon#om solomon#omswd solomon#obey me thirteen#om thirteen#omswd thirteen#tw death#cw: gore#I tried my best warning about it. I don't think it's bad?#I'm not very sensitive to it so I have no feeling for the trigger warnings. ^^'
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And You and I
#inspired by Yes's “And You and I” of course!#this is not necessarily ship art but it can and should be interpreted as affection of any form as long as its intense#what if we were both espers and had a fundamental trait that made both of us lonely and insecure#because we were afraid that without our powers we weren't worth much and nobody would care about us#but we had very different experiences and traumas that shaped us into opposites and made us hurt each other#which shatters one of us's worldview and makes them obsessed over the other in a unhealthy way in order to cope#but then they have to leave this behind too and start to see the other as an equal and a flawed human being#and we have to start this relationship all over again and learn about ourselves and each other in a positive more vulnerable way#promising to not do harm again like we did on the past while developing a real and more sincere bond#for the reason we are the ones who truly understands the other the most?#its not enough for me for them to like each other it needs to be insane and have a weirdly complicated transition between stages#mp100#mob psycho 100#mp100 fanart#teruki hanazawa#shigeo kageyama#terumob#lalarts
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Complicated Relationship with God (As Seen Through Lyrics in the Character's Playlist)
#my art#wc#weirdos class#seth#hes SO weird abt religion it drives me insaaaane every time i listen to his playlist im like aughhhh#the complicated relationship is basically 'god never answered my prayers im done trying to believe. i shall take his place#and burn this whole place to the ground to create a new world' hes not okay if u were wonderin <3#anyways. this collage is an epic rama vulnerable moment ( i am very reluctant to share what music i like beyond certain bands)#(its bc i got made fun of so much for my bad taste </3 so now im embarrassed abt every single thing i like)#showing someone music i enjoy is like. such a big thing for me its like. im entrusting u w rama secrets...#and if ur mean or dismissive i WILL be sads forever. that applies here btw <3#if any1 is mean abt my lyric choices ill. delete my blog and disappear off the internet forever. okay?#HOWEVER on the same vein. ur invited to tell me if u know the songs...and if u know more than 5 of them we shall have a summer wedding
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Dick, Bruce and Cass for the Ask game
Please and Thank You 😊
Dick
Bruce
Cass
#we all know I absolutely love dick grayson#so my thoughts on him mustn't be a surprise#with bruce I have a very complex love/hate relationship#he's so complicated in every aspect#I want to take him to therapy as much as I want to punch him#he deserves good things as much as he does consequences#cass my girl I seriously need to get into your comics#I feel like a great part of the fandom does not do her justice#really hope her new run is good#dick grayson#nightwing#bruce wayne#batman#cassandra cain#black bat#dc
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a hero that’s forced to kneel in front of villain??🤨🤨😏😏😏 (I know it’s kinda cliché but still a classic)
“Don’t make me sad,” the villain said. “Don’t make this worse.”
The hero stared at them with burning eyes, with ignited hatred. Once, they’d been something close to friends, somehow close to solving these problems together and bring peace to the city.
What a fucking joke that was. Betrayal could cut deep, the hero was fully aware of that but the villain giving them hope, making promises to work together and looking at them the way they did, didn’t only cut deep but truly severed.
“Kneel,” the villain said softly. And the hero didn’t really have a choice, did they? With the mayor and the superhero taken as hostages, they would vault the villain into a position on top of the food chain if they didn’t obey.
Killing political figures was usually not the villain’s approach. They rather became them by weaselling their way into politics. But if these two died, the entire city would burn. Killing the most powerful superhero in the city and murdering the human responsible for managing it? It was like killing the queen and checking the king.
So, the hero didn’t have a choice. Their actions could prevent a war.
The hero got down on one knee, eyes boring into the hard concrete beneath their feet. Nothing of it had been real and the hero hated themselves for their naïveté.
Why had the villain saved them that night? Why had they stitched their wounds messily? Why had they brought them to the hospital before fleeing into the dark? Giving them painkillers? Hell, putting their cape around the hero’s shoulders?
It didn’t make any sense to the hero and it stung, upsetting their muscles, torturing their heart…
Curiously, humiliation wasn’t part of this. They only felt like they’d lost someone close to them.
Which wasn’t even the truth.
“Look at me.” The villain lifted the hero’s chin with their index finger gently. “No matter what happens, look at me.”
The hero didn’t understand. Their brows knitted together but they didn’t break the eye contact with the villain, looking at their sharp features which only softened in the light of dawn. All of this, so the city could survive. The hero was quite aware that they were the only one to change the city’s fate.
One wrong word and the villain would cut their throats and with that, conjure chaos.
“Do you hate me now?” the villain asked. One thumb brushed over the hero’s bottom lip. “Do you want to kill me?”
“No,” the hero said.
“Answer truthfully. Do you want me dead?”
The hero paused, thinking about that. No, they didn’t want the villain to die, they didn’t want anyone to die. Yes, the hero loathed them for the things they’d done. Breaking their heart like that, leaving them to wonder if things could’ve been different if they’d made a different decision.
“…no,” the hero said. They still looked at the villain, stared into their eyes. In this moment, they seemed as tender as they’d been when they’d rescued the hero. “I don’t want anyone to die.”
“Do you think you could forgive me for the things I’ve done?”
The hero thought about that too.
Fuck, they probably could. Although they were angry and frustrated, they knew they forgave easily. When they thought too much about it, put themselves into someone else’s shoes a little too desperately…
“Yes, I could. Probably.”
The villain waited.
“Okay,” they said. “Kill them both.”
The hero’s eyes widened and they wanted to yank their head towards the mayor and the superhero but the villain’s grip on their chin hardened, commanding them with a gaze to keep looking.
“I’ll take care of you.” The villain wiped one of the hero’s tears away. “Don’t worry, sweetheart. You can stay with me.”
#h h h h h h h what about we have a very complicated relationship rooted in love but hhhhhhhhh manipulated by exterior factors#writing snippet#heroxvillain prompt#heroxvillain snippet#heroes and villains#hero#villain#hero x villain#heroxvillain#an answer for an ask#request
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Someone: What's your sexuality?
Me: well you see, I never had a serious crush on anyone. Also, I had trouble understanding what a crush even was for most of my life. Also, I identified as aroallo for a while because I thought I was aro but not ace, but now I think I'm ace too. Also, fictional crushes. Also, I enjoy learning and reading/sometimes even writing about kink but have no idea if I would be comfortable actually participating on it. Also, some days I'm perfectly happy like this but other days are still confusing and shitty because it's all still new to me. Also-
#aromanitc#asexual#aro#ace#aro ace#im what experts call a very complex individual#by “complex” i actually mean confused and weird#but whatever#im still awesome#so are other people with complicated relationships to their sexuality!#or gender!#or anything really#you're not “difficult”#or “too many things/labels”#or anything queerphobes might have told you#especially if you're young and just started questioning#it's okay#(im literally just saying things I wish more people had told me)#FUCK I MISPELLED AROMANTIC#aromantic#there we go
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more monochrome practice I suppose
#tumblr getting this version of this drawing bc i dont want to get in trouble for drawing them nakey#so its date night vibes instead of like eden vibes#i have such complicated feelings about this ship in part bc we havent really met lilith so dont know what shes about yet#but i know in my heart there was a time they loved each other so much and so this is that#honestly would love so much to get backstory on the eden crew and the happenings there even just like a flashback in an episode or somethin#but lowkey im on the 'hoping they get divorced but deeply care about one another and are a part of each others lives' train#bc thats kind of more interesting to me than them getting back together bc i think the crux of it is how much theyve changed and a part of#their relationship getting to the point where lilith disappeared maybe being them both trying to desperately to salvage it and in doing so#making it worse bc they felt like they ruined their lives to be together and so what was the point of it all if they weren't anymore?? but#like theyre immortal so of course theyre going to change and of course theres a chance that the relationship doesnt work even if they deepl#love one another and always will and i just like the closure of that and admitting they arent right for each other in that way anymore but#they still love and care about each other and will never lose that#this is rambling and doesnt make as much sense as when i was typing it on a different post i am wondering now if theres a limit on how many#tags i can put here bc im just yapping at this point whoops#anyway i need to buck up and actually finish/post that draft i have about my very long and complicated hazbin ship opinions#lucilith#hazbin hotel#lilith morningstar#lilith hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel lilith#lucifer hazbin hotel#hazbin lucifer#hazbin hotel lucifer#lucifer morningstar#hazbin lilith
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It's so incredibly funny to me that by ep 12 Peem and Phum have kissed like a hundred times already and done and said the sweetest things to each other, yet they're not together yet
Phum finally confesses and Peem has the guts to play hard to get asdfghkljkkll "no I will not tell you I like you too, but I'll let you kiss me and kiss you back tenderly and lovingly, I'll be your safe place, I'll book a trip to the beach for just the two of us, and I'll even get a room with only bed so we have to sleep together" lmao they've been hitting on each other since day one, pleaseeeee
"try and win my heart", BRO YOUR HEART HAS BEEN HIS SINCE EP 5 WHO ARE YOU KIDDING
#we are the series#peemphum#i love them your honor#like it seems ridiculous that they're not together yet but in context it makes sense#its done very beautyfully and kts very realistic bc real relationship are complicated like that#but like theyre so funny to me#you could have been together since day one really#you havent been his slave for ages#youre just sticking to that stupid deal to have an excuse to see him#which you dont need since youre friends now anyway! youre both in the same bug group of friends!#you literally dont need an excuse like that to see each other lmao#theyre ridiculous and i adore them#my posts
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Do you have any particular characterization for Splinter in your sep au that you’re able to share?
personally i see him as a little more active in his sons' lives than he is in canon (donnie stepped up with money and resources that allowed them to live comfortably, and without his presence in the family they have to be a lot more careful to conserve what they have, which requires him to be a much more active presence) but he's still withdrawn from them enough for raph to still have some of the issues he has in canon; after all of the trauma he went through leading up to the sudden children thrusted upon him, he struggles a lot with his mental health, which is something raph at times directly had to feel responsible for. it's probably not good to feel like you're co-parenting with one of your children, but that's kind of what ended up happening!!
raph and splinter are TECHNICALLY closer than they were in canon, and a lot more communicative, but i would say their relationship is a lot more complicated in a lot of ways. it's why raph is a lot more serious here, because even more than in canon he's kind of always had to be an adult. he didn't get the opportunity to be a kid at all because they always had to fight to survive. (it creates both great exhaustion, and intense protectiveness. he is EXTREMELY overprotective of mikey because of it, while splinter is a lot more lenient and encouraging to let him have some independence)
#ask#where we went wrong#ironically i think splinter's relation to raph is actually very similar to canon LEO'S#which i guess fits. leo is a lot like his dad after all#but it explains why things are ermmm complicated there#because thats less excusable when thats the relationship you have with your Dad pfft#but to lend some credence to splinter. parentification is INEVITABLE when you live in poverty#he is a B- parent here he did his best
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it is kind of really funny that at some point silco must have realized jinx was very mentally unwell and was like hmm... the child should still get to have her machine guns and explosives..... would be fucked up otherwise....
#the heart#arcaneposting#um saying coming close to realizing/accepting/whatever because silco is honestly also very deeply mentally unwell so I have a feeling his#acknowledgment of it is... complicated#<- when I think about that in relation to how he handles jinx's mental illness to me it's like...#to me it's like if he was called into parent teacher conferences fo discuss jinx's behavior and how she likes bites other kids#which is objectively kind of funny#and he would most likely dismiss it. and then when she starts showing symptoms of schizophrenia and such and he continues to dismiss it tha#is where it stops being funny. not to say I think he would be like the type of parent to deny that their child has issues bc they take it a#an insult but he would be like she's perfect and we don't need to do much about that. here are my own unhealthy coping mechanisms. and a fu#gun* lol#if i'm making sense. i could talk about the shared mental illness aspect of their relationship though because it's fascinating and tragic#no ship as always#changed the wording but like know my nuanced thoughts are in the tags and my head I guess. this is just a jokey moment
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Being reminded once again that a lot of people have fucking sleeper cell agent triggers that make them instantly fail to see the human being in front of them, regardless of any personal history they have or any rapport. instantly, that person is an Enemy that cannot be reasoned with. Permanent fight or flight.
And that instead of this being seen as, you know, a rather maladaptive attitude to bring to your relationships that will permanently strip you of the capacity to experience full love and companionship, there is a dominant strain of thinking that this is a reasonable, righteous, moral good.
That a "boundary" looks like building an impenetrable wall that nobody can see but you; That conversation, negotiation, and collaboration aren't just avoided--They're treated with contempt. The very notion of trying to understand why another human being that you care about may suddenly act in an unpleasant or even monstrous way is spat upon and trampled underfoot. Complete abandonment is considered a first line of defense rather than a last resort.
I think we all need to do our best to get over this kind of thinking. And I don't mean that we should be push-overs; In actuality, moving away from this kind of rigid "boundary" often means advocating for yourself and fighting for what you think is right. I think we all deserve friends and allies who can compassionately challenge us when we adopt ways of thinking and behaving that hurt others without immediately assuming the worst.
#indexed post#Nothing happened to me specifically just pissed due to events in the orbit#The only qualifier I'll include here is that we have limited energy and this is specifically geared toward people you have a relationship w/#I think random strangers also deserve respect and compassionbut I'm not taking the time to give it to em. That's another person's problem#Also don't give me any 'yeah except for x' shit. I do think if we were able to perfectly know the heart of a person#and see that they are causing or wish to cause harm and refuse to change course at all#Then yeah sure we can say that there's a hard line#But I think very often peoples' convictions are more complicated and contradictory than they may seem#And we cannot rewrite someone's entire experience and nuance with one data point we arbitrarily decide is 'too far'#Anyways this is just a rant it's not the best thesis or anything but hope it resonates or stirs some thought
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I dare not speak it in the tag because I value my energy but no one has the correct opinions about nosferatu 2024 except for me
#Everyone has opinions about which parts of nosferatu are the problematic parts and everyone is wrong#Like!!!! I would love to talk about the potential implications of a story#Of a vulnerable young woman taken advantage of by an older more powerful man in her youth#And the lasting impact it has on her life and her relationships especially in the constraints of an 1800’s upper-class society#And how she believes herself “unclean” for her new husband because of it#And how said husband very firmly says “no you are not unclean or lesser for what was done to you and I love you no matter what”#And how ALL THOSE IMPLICATIONS feel tragically undermined#by the end of the story essentially saying that she HAS to have sex with the older man (and then die) to resolve the problems#And that’s just. Never challenged really.#There’s no twist to it not even some attempt at an angle of empowerment or reclamation of her sexuality or something#yknow that trope of how if we the audience are told the protagonist squads plan that plan is bound to go wrong#We are told the plan and it just happens#No the mustache guy having a breakdown and going to his wife’s crypt does not count as the plan going wrong#Because we got told the REAL plan that the van helsing stand in and Ellen had behind Thomas’ back#And THAT goes off without a hitch!#The ending just. Happens! And it’s bad that it just happens I think!#But then I go in the tag and there’s people like “it’s bad cuz they showed tiddy”#Like guys pls it’s more complicated than that#I was just reminded of the line “I do not need redemption” from Ellen and like YES THATS SO RIGHT#but then the story says “the only way to stop the count is for you to die”#And like there’s also something there about how how much she hates when Thomas gets her flowers at the beginning because they’re dead#And then at the end the professor scatters cut flowers around her body when she can’t tell him no#and like! That’s something! I can almost FEEL this movie trying to make its point but it just falls short#You cannot have it both ways you cannot be condemning this unfair treatment of Ellen but also leaving it completely unexamined#“goddamn you see that shit? That was fucking crazy. Anyway I’m Robert Eggers”
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sapphic tashi/patrick/art
Patrick who has been in love with Art since she was twelve, and Art who has no idea.
But during the Junior US Open Art has a major sexuality crisis, and realizes Tashi Duncan is so fucking hot.
Patrick thinks Art is just following her lead and is absolutely clueless that she likes Tashi romantically. It isn’t until they are all in the hotel that Patrick realizes Art likes Tashi too. Art likes a girl, and it isn’t her.
So the rest of the story goes on as normal. Patrick is frustrated that she fell in love with Art, and even worse is than Art being straight, she just never liked Patrick.
And Art goes through her adult like realizing that her and Patrick’s friendship wasn’t necessarily platonic, but she didn’t understand it at the time. And it’s so much easier to understand that she loves Tashi, because who doesn’t, but to fundamentally understand she’s like girls, that she loves Patrick, that’s much harder.
And Tashi is like, “How did I get stuck with the two most useless lesbians ever?”
#i think this would bring a really interesting dynamic to tashiart#they would not be public with their relationship#one because they aren’t very public people#but also it’s 2010-2019 the world is a different place#i also don’t think art uses labels#partly because she doesn’t care too mind but also because she’s art in love with tashi#it gets more complicated when she realizes she also like other girls *patrick*#anyways i think tashi would get more recognition for being art’s coach compared to the canon#okay i’m having fun now#imagine interviews#‘i hear your coach tashi duncan lives with you’#art holding her tongue trying not to tell anyone that tashi changed her name#‘yes i have a pretty intense training schedule we thought it would be for the best’#‘we hear that miss duncan also has a child’#‘mhm she does she is one of my biggest fans’#and patrick seeing these interviews and fuming because these fucking dykes#anyways art is butch#because#butchfemme tashiart#soft bottom butch art#lesbian!challengers#art donaldson#tashi duncan#tashi donaldson#patrick zweig
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hi!!! long time no see!!!
my life kinda took a sudden sharp turn in mid august and i’ve been kinda sick and depressed since then. so sorry i’ve been away and or answering asks or doing requests :( i miss you guys!!! im currently kinda bedridden but i can get to my pc pretty easily now!!! i’m going to try to crank out some conversions for you guys soon!! my sims 3 (which had gone untouched for months) also requires another fresh install because it straight up can’t run for more than 5 minutes anymore??? it was fine a few months ago and we have added no new mods since early august idk what happened there lmaooo. but once all thats dealt with i’ll be back around!!
thank you so so so much for your continued support and for keeping me in your thoughts. 💕💕💕💕
#elaborating in tags rn#tw death#tw family death#tw health#tw stroke#so our last post was posted like two weeks before our dad died#and we’ve been really really depressed since he died tbh#and he died of a stroke caused by incredibly preventable shit#we had kinda a complicated relationship but we were repairing it#i had stopped posting because of a feeling of impeding doom lmao#and he had been showing pre stroke symptoms for the past year before tgat#but he refused to go to the doctor so…#and then about 2 months later after that i#got diagnosed with hypertension and POTS and have been in a near constant flare up since then#have meds to control the blood pressure and high bpm though!!#ALSO I GOT ENGAGED!!!!! which is bittersweet because i’m very happy but also#i wanted to be walked down the aisle by my dad once we had repaired our relationship#so that fucking sucks#ANYWAYS!!! feeling better emotionally and symptoms are slowly improving#so i’m excited to be back!!!#LOVE U THATS ALL!!!#bomi.txt
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