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barkingangelbaby · 9 months

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hoooo babeeey, I am depressed n annoyed n anxious n I don't want to be any of these things !!!

#was gonna vent in the tags but i just. don't have it in me #i think im gonna talk about embarrassing stuff w my therapist on friday instead of all my underlying trauma tho #bc like. my trauma will always be there and I've lived with it so long that i understand how it leads me to certain patterns #and there will always be time to talk about it #but i really desperately need to change certain things about myself *now* that control my moods #it's all dumb and embarrassing but im just gonna say fuck it and bring it up bc like. i just can't keep existing like this lol #ok rambling over bc im sinking and don't want to go too low #rAMbles

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spaciebabie · 3 months

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socializing w/ppl when you have bucket loads of trauma from past abuse is so hard b/c has this person accidentally triggered me unknowingly and now I feel like I'm being backed into a corner or are they actually trying ta hurt me. they both feel the same and finding the rationality ta be like, "they misspoke or used language that they didn't know would hurt me" is extremely difficult!

#spacie spoinks #most of the time it's just them accidentally triggering me #I don't tell people when they do b/c I don't know what ta do abt it myself #and also I don't want ppl ta coddle me b/c they think I'm fragile or something #but. I think I'm in a place now where I'm surrounded by ppl who truly don't want ta hurt me so #maybe if I tell them when they do it on accident it will be okay #maybe #it's especially hard when I don't know something is gonna trigger me like fuck #every thing could be chill and then the next moment I'm having a panic attack it's full on not fun #vent #I usually don't tag my vent post but thisigbt be triggering ta ppl so #mention of abuse

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coderzxd · 5 months

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Don't know how to answer people when they ask you a question? Get quiet or stressed because you kind of don't want to answer but you also can't explain why, lest you start to answer? Getting called secretive because you Just Don't Respond??

Might I introduce you... To The Cards!!!!

#Sheldon Cooper #tagging him for the normal tagging reasons but also bc I know he's Not Super Liked in the autism community #also no I don't have autism so I'm not gonna tag that i just got Other Stuff going on #Sheldon is a big kin for me / used(????? I GUESS???) to be an alter. so like. its fine.#not that i need to explain myself but also this is the vent blog so I can do what I want lmao #communication cards #idrk what to tag this bc i want people to see but idk who would benifit #bc this isn't really a DID thing either #shrug emoji #hopefully this will find the right people through sheer force of will

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thevioletcaptain · 1 month

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#so one half of the couple i'm house/dogsitting for had an unexpected medical emergency on their trip #which -- i won't go into details but it culminated in a pretty serious diagnosis and emergency major surgery #and now they're coming home today after getting medevac transport back to california #and have asked me to stay here for a few more days while they settle in #as the one who had the emergency needs 24/7 care during recovery but is being released from hospital to recover at home #and they need someone to basically keep looking after the dog/keep her from getting in the way while they figure out what care he needs #anyway i agreed to stay a few days like they asked #which means i'm trying to finish my coursework before they get back later this afternoon but man my focus levels are LOW #and honestly they have been for several days at this point because once again it seems that waiting to hear about medical stuff has become #somewhat of a panic response trigger for me since the extended nightmare of february this year with my dad #and mostly i've been able to compartmentalize but the energy that takes has truly wiped me out #to the point that i'm genuinely shocked it hasn't set off a fibro flare up (touch wood)#also i really don't know this couple very well at all -- they're mostly friends of my parents-in-law #i've looked after their dog for them several times over the past couple of years #but obviously that's been while they aren't home #and i've only had fairly brief interactions with them #so i do feel a bit awkward about being here while they're going through something so serious and personal #but they're nice people and they need the help and i'm able to provide it so i'm gonna push past that #anyway just a tag post venting thing

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poorly-drawn-slugcats · 9 months

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birthday sluggy (it is NOT my birthday yet but i needed to draw them before i go hide)

#rain world #rainworld #slugcat #oc #i guess?#im never gonna draw them again #i am NOT excited for my birthday #dont mind the venting in the tags pls #but like the holidays have not been kind to me #weeee are not financially stable enough to properly have christmas #so for my birthday im anticipating i'll have to buy my own gifts #and i rlly don't Wanna because im also very broke #so im just. gonna try to hibernate till my birthday passes

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seventh-district · 4 months

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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go

(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)

#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill #well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst #like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made #bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you #but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings #and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste #there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc #so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything #if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is #which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose #anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages #or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing #i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know #it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess #as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence #the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education #i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype #sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen #there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions #like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity #like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem #but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.

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lillotte17 · 2 months

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#not gonna make a real post but i gotta vent a little #there was that one poll abt which DA man has the most annoying fans #which i did not vote in bc as someone who values my own sanity i don't hang out in tags of characters that get on my nerves #but i'm just dumb enough to have looked in the notes and apparently solas was sweeping i guess #which by itself is whatever #but then the tags were just dozens of ppl complaining that solas fans were annoying bc they *checks notes*#post about solas a lot???#and 'flood the lavellan tag'? you know...the only character you can romance him with w/o a mod???#and they hate that we're 'acting like DA4 is going to only be abt him'...you know. the game originally called 'dreadwolf'#idk my guys i get that if someone jumps on your post and makes it abt a character u hate that's annoying #but it sure sounds like ur just bitching abt ppl having fun in their own fandom space #this sounds very much like a YOU issue #like i remember someone literally made a post like 'UGH why do Solavellans even like him?!' that ended up on my dash #and I answered in good faith not feeling like i was being mean or aggressive #and i promptly got yelled at for 'not staying in my lane'#my brother in Christ YOU asked MY part of the fandom a question #Not saying there aren't Solas fans w/ Rancid Takes but i swear half the complaints i see are people just mad that we're having a good time #curate your own online experience guys it's not that hard #i waited 10 years for closure with this dumpster fire man #and no one is going to spoil my fun about it #block me to the moon and back idc

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hyptanyl · 3 months

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strung up by metal strings

#this wasnt a vent piece or anything but i did feel an emotion #i wanted to try to flesh out how lucky got his scars #joker monent #I don't have a specific story behind them yet but what i can disclose is #the scars on lucky were self inflicted #or at least thats what he thinks #lucky has a bad memory. very bad actually #my art #warrior cats #lucky #wc #waca #tw blood #tw harm #tw slight gore #im not gonna put a lot of tags on this just cuz i dont want to trigger people with #lucky getting hurt at all #let me know guys

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moronic-validity · 1 month

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Post about my weight, numbers mentioned. Slight vent/brag post about weight loss.

THIS IS NOT ED CONTENT, DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE A PRO ED BLOG (I've been working really hard to recover, please don't interact)

Okay so, I started my first genuinely healthy weight loss journey in January of 2023 at 284.9 pounds. Okay? Okay. I didn't want to lose weight to be skinny or because I couldn't look at myself, I wanted to lose weight because my health issues were getting worse (thank you multiple chronic conditions) and it was a last ditch effort on my end.

Except I didn't actually start trying to lose weight until my gallbladder attack and finding out it was functioning at 13%. Ain't that just so great :'). I don't do anesthesia well so I talked to my GP and we went through ways I could potentially get my gallbladder to function again (he's seen patients and his own friends do it before). I brought up weight loss, he did not. He told me he'd support my decision and to keep my mental health team in the loop because I've struggled with disordered eating (not going to be specific) since 5th grade (age 9).

I wound up discovering I have a gluten and lactose intolerance, as well as PCOS (more doctors visits), got my diet under control, tried and failed the 75 hard...twice, discovered I'm still a fucking beast at Just Dance, started going to the gym, rediscovered hunger signals (I thought I was dying), and haven't had a gallbladder attack since.

After a year and 8 months of constant hard work, I am at 208.4 and am in the gym (usually 3 times a week), building muscle.

Additional side note: I haven't been under 214 since pre covid + my ed.

So why am I sharing this when I am so staunchly against people being told to lose weight? Because this was my choice, that I made for me, and I have worked so fucking hard to do it without compromising my mental and physical health in the process, and I'm proud of myself.

Like...I don't want people complementing me on my weight loss or telling me I look so much better because in all my pictures, I look GENUINELY happy, because I am! I'm not doing this to look good. I'd be okay if people were like "damn, that's a lot of hard work and dedication! Good job!" but like...my family doesn't see it that way, nor do most of my friends. Alex does though, so that's a win...but like...I just wish other people saw it too.

Anyway, that's all. Don't lose weight bc you feel like you have to and if you're starting a weight loss journey, keep a trusted doctor and your mental health team in the loop.

#teddy talks #theo's thoughts #weight #tw weight #tw weighloss #losing weight #weight loss #slight vent at the end #someone please just tell me that they've noticed the hard work #like please #I don't want people telling me I look good/better now #I just want someone to recognize how hard I've worked for this #and please don't tell me I looked better/happier before either #I was happy then and I'm happy now #Idk how to tag this but I have a sinking suspicion this is gonna wind up somewhere I don't want it to #healthy weight loss

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curry-and-gunpowder · 8 months

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I knew Dazai was a talented young man, but I'm amazed how he apparently managed to be the first 18 year old minor. What can't he do.

#/salt #not gonna tag fandom or anything #just venting #antis stop smelling your own farts so much challenge #also plz don't come to try and argue with me #just block me and move on #i don't give a shit about anything you have to say

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shirogane-oushirou · 5 months

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[little vent -- tldr definitely not gonna have the planned art ready for the renniversary lol.]

me: "oh hell yeah i'll have a dog-sitting "job" for the next few days, so i'll have plenty of time to work on the art leading up to friday :) "

the dogs: untrained, poorly behaved, require constant attention (not their fault but it's the reality of the situation)

so uh. i might have some simple chibi art for friday if i have enough energy between putting the dogs to bed and going to sleep hghghghgh ;;;;; i'll finish the more detailed pics as i have the time and energy :')

#(edit: just to be clear -- the 'job' is in quotes only bc in my case i'm not being paid as much as a proper job LOL LMAO. :') )#the last post abt this was more 'i'm giving myself an out if i can't do it'. now it's 'i can't do it' ksjdnksjn #i'm still gonna try to do some other things that don't require as much undivided attention as art does though...?#blah blah blah ren wouldn't want me to stress etc etc etc. still disappointing.#he came to me RIGHT when i needed him... but also... why did it have to be 6 days after my other closest main's anniv JKASN #i'm debating making the wedding the same day as the r!ren anniversary just so it's one less date to worry about LMAO ;;;;;#anyway. just venting about the fact that so much is happening Right Now and not Literally Any Other Time.#at least i'll have a little extra pocket money for a comm or two once i finish redoing his ref sheet...!!#and the reality is... i've made SO MUCH art of him over the past year. i won't be struggling to find posts to rb on the day ksjdn #i should probably get started gathering that art for the yumeship sheet though jsdnk time to dive through my tags.#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -

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vt-scribbles · 5 months

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Something seriously lacking in my art is the ability to tell a story in a single illustration.

I've gotten so used to drawing my characters standing around doing random things that I've never practiced telling a full tale/putting implications into my pieces that require more thinking/looking.

It also comes from a lower amount of details in my works by default [since I like to get pieces done fast], but I'm tired of using that as an excuse.