#rAMbles

[hauntinglesbian]

gilf (ghost id like to fuck)

[cornerihaunt]

i had a feeling so peculiar this pain wouldn’t be forevermore

[appleflavoredkitkats]

hey so @/emmyennit uploaded the dsmp map on mega

[garykingz]

I did not just see some fucker on twt call Charles a tax evader for living in Monaco. THATS HIS HOME ???? HIS HOUSE

[mothwithpronouns]

something that’s been stumping me about the new lore dump is “the black parade”.

how does it fit into the wider lore we already have for the black parade? A national band for a fascist regime is definetly a far cry from a marching band that leads you into the afterlife. 6247 days since the black parade is dead show, and since the black parade was “sent to the MOAT”.

it’s strange, obviously the question is “what is the moat”. I have what I hope is not too far fetched of a theory, I believe the moat could be the afterlife, or at least the place where the black parade as we know it resided.

Sending away the black parade to the moat was having it killed. Similar to how the black parade is dead killed them off (hence why it’s been 17 years since they last played). Their work privelage had been revoked now it’s been reinstated. Forced to work for the immortal dictator, forced back to a life they did not want.

the black parade as we know it inspired hope, inspiring us to carry on, to stay alive. Such sentiments would pose a threat to a farscist government, needing to be silenced. But as a cruel or symbolic punishment the dictator has chosen to revive them.

[sokuly419]

Another thought I can finally put into words (maybe):

Vi asking Cait “can I have a minute?” and then the “promise me you won’t change.” I think this was because she already noticed she changed or was changing (for the worse). Vi almost felt to be saying “don’t change like this. This isn’t you.”

And Cait saying “I won’t.” As if she wasn’t moving her finger towards the trigger as her rifle was aimed at Heenot. As if she didn’t just jump to arresting him and saying he’d spend his retirement in a cell. Jumping right into telling everyone that this is what they trained for.

Cait already changed. Vi needed some kind of hope that she wasn’t going to follow this path further. Just for Cait to not care that there was a child that she could have shot. All because her rage was set on Jinx and only Jinx. The only other thing that she cared about aside from killing her was telling Vi to get out of the way. Vi was the only one in that room she wasn’t willing to hurt. Not knowing she already did because of her actions.

And then we get that heartbreaking scene where Cait hits her with the butt of her rifle. Others have said it before me. We all know Vi has taken a lot worse and walked it off or continued to fight. A hit like that shouldn’t have put her on her knees and kept her there. Not physically. Emotionally she was shattered. She couldn’t move. The gut wrenching whimpers and the broken look on her face. That was when Vi’s fears were confirmed: Cait changed, just like everyone else.

Just me rambling on some thoughts I had last night.

[dogtoling]

General life- and blog update , since I assume at least a few people might have been wondering where I've been and what i've been up to recently. I obviously haven't been posting or drawing much this year in general. This will probably be an important post if you care about stuff on this blog, and I already rambled on Sheezy, but that site isn't very populated yet and it's also very good at hiding journals so let's just ramble again...

The summary of this post if you hate reading: I'm heavily considering just stepping away from Splatoon. That decision obviously would affect this blog (mostly, my OCs, which is kinda most of the blog at this point). I don't think the blog itself will go anywhere, and I'll probably use it for something in the future... alternatively i'll cherry pick stuff from here into an archive for people who like the worldbuilding.

Longer post under cut:

So what have I been up to this year? The answer is quite simple: NOTHING. Like, actually absolutely nothing. Aside from Art Fight, this has probably been one of my worst art output years of all time, which is really frustrating. That's between my horrendous mental health and depression chasms this year and a complete lack of both focus and inspiration (which can also get chalked down to the depression to a degree, yeah). So the very real reason to why there hasn't been much activity on this blog this year is because I just haven't Done Anything in general.

Now because I know there will be a few people who think "that's fine! you shouldn't judge yourself based on productivity!" you're right! I also agree. However the issue for me specifically is that most (if not all) the time I spend NOT drawing or creating, I spend sitting around wishing I could start drawing or creating, because that is like the 1 thing that keeps me sane on this freaking earth. Unfortunately coming up with OC scenarios in my head doesn't really result in output I can feel fulfilled by in any form as much as I wish it did, lol.

Now; The Issue. It doesn't take a genius to see that if you spend 9 months trying to finish like a dozen OC pages that you COULD do in a week or 2 if you wanted to, then there's probably more than just the problem of executive dysfunction (even though that's at least 60% of it for sure). Obviously my other major problem is that I live by imaginary rules and structures that make sense, but aren't actually useful at ALL in reality and are more than a hindrance if anything (the mental to do-list in my head that says i can't do X until I've done Y doesn't do very much if task Y takes 10 months and I also don't want to do it, and it also has no structured ending).

How does this tie into stepping away from Splatoon, you may ask. Well, the issue is that I have foreseeably fallen out of love with the series. Which isn't exactly news lol. Currently, I'm not even sure i will get the next game, if and when the time comes. Yes, the loss of interest is also expected, given that Splatoon 3 has ended and every fandom has this kind of downtime and lukewarm in-between-titles period. But the truth is that modern Splatoon (almost 10 years old!!!!) is tangibly different from the way the series was back when I fell in love with it. That was Splatoon 1, and while the series has improved in a lot of aspects and is thriving, it's grown in a direction that I just don't really like. Splatoon 3 had the most freaking horrendous, immersion breaking story mode they could've done, then they followed it up with a DLC story that was pretty cool but also compounded a lot of my fears about the series' future and played into every single thing i do not want Splatoon stories to be - fully character focused, random fucking villain, mundane event that's unrealistically world-threatening just because a kids video game needs a scary climax even though it's immersion breaking AGAIN, the whole thing taking place in cyberspace and thus offering basically no worldbuilding even though there is SO MUCH WORLD. I COULD GO ON.

The gist of it is that nowadays, rather than playing Splatoon and being inspired and excited at what comes next, I mostly find myself dreading what dumbass plot they will do next to throw a wrench in the otherwise good stuff. And when that's like THE main approach I have to what's supposed to be my favorite series, it is HARROWING. I can't even really blame the game for this; the story is NOT its selling point, the developers probably do their best to get the bits to us that they really want to tell, and at the end of the day the game is unfortunately a product. Worldbuilding for Splatoon is fun to a point. It's less fun when in order to actually write or create something coherent, instead of filling in the blanks, the blanks are 90% of the freaking thing. At that point you're just better off making something of your own instead of being anchored onto an IP that gives more problems than answers and occasionally shoots you with like a machine gun. Working in the realm of Splatoon is frustrating because more often than not, the questions I have ARE NOT MINE TO ANSWER, and the likelihood that the specific-ass questions I need answers to will ever be actually addressed is really low.

Tying this back to my OCs. Obviously I love my OCs more than I love myself which admittedly isn't that high of a bar but you get the point. The problem is that I spend a lot of time mulling over worldbuilding that, again, frankly isn't mine to do. Because if I want it to be Splatoon, then it should be mostly accurate to how Splatoon is! But the problem with that is that there's really not THAT MUCH worldbuilding in the series that you can work with, and most of the core game mechanics are just abstract enough that it's actually horrendous to try and come up with workarounds and ways for things to make sense that don't require just constructing a full knockoff version mirror dimension of the game and saying fuck everything that's in place here because Inkopolis Plaza literally has no roads in or out of there and I have no fucking idea how that's allowed when your only option is to jump the fence (or, nowadays, take the train which also isnt connected to a street as far as I remember). Between the face value issue and the lack of REALLY IMPORTANT worldbuilding, like - I will always come back to this - THE INK TANK'S FUNCTION 10 YEARS DOWN THE LINE - there's a goddamn ocean of plot holes and things that end up being obstacles to creativity rather than inspiration. I feel like I'm pretty solidly at the point (and have been for a while) where hanging onto Splatoon is really only contributing to creativity block and frustration with lack of freedom and the ability to actually do things.

So I guess those are my reasonings that I've put together just sitting here for the time being. The TL;DR is that I wish I could just do stuff without Splatoon's canon getting in the way, which is a really stupid problem to have if you're making Splatoon OCs. I feel this frustration extremely strongly every time I have to work with actual bigger aspects of the world; we still don't have an Inkopolis map, we don't know what the world around Inkopolis looks like, we don't know what the wilderness is like aside from Just Normal Forest and Desert and very few snippets as to what modern wildlife MIGHT be, I still don't know how the fuck the Inklings teleport to the goddamn arctic ocean to play a turf war at Shipshape Cargo co. These are all actually really important things if you're trying to establish a setting in any kind of storytelling that's outside of immediate city bounds (and even there, you need to know the layout of the city and its important areas). Also a fucking mutant bear and a baby salmon and a squid not wearing suitable gear went to space and fought on a rocket in space. These are some things that would give me peace of mind to not have to deal with in my own writing, probably.

So where do we go from here? Unsure. I haven't really made a decision on this front yet, though right now I'm leaning more towards actually going ahead with trying to do my own thing. That will result in obvious design and setting changes for my OCs whenever I get around to it. This blog probably won't go anywhere (again, unless I impulse delete it during a mood swing like i've almost done on like three separate occasions this year), but it will probably get less use, and I will probably end up making a new blog to post about whatever I end up doing once I get to a point where it feels like it makes sense. There's a chance that I will delete this blog and put all the interesting stuff on an archive blog for the people who are here just for the worldbuilding. My actual true passion for a long time now hasn't even been Splatoon anymore, it's just been cephalopods. I'm kind of done having Splatoon get in the way of the cephalopods, as thankful as I am that it introduced me to them...

If you read this to the end heres a treat for you = 🍪

[hyperfocusthusly]

Swinging wildly between ‘I want Tommy back with my whole heart, this can’t be the end pls help me’ to ‘I hope he never comes back, they don’t deserve him and I hope he’s having fun on a show that appreciates him’

[hauntinglesbian]

me using my hands more because of kathryn hahn? it’s more likely than you think

bonus:

[fshoulders]

So I was actually taught French in classes that weren’t sticklers for accent or pronunciation. In the crucial middle years of study where we had a very good teacher who had a pretty strong Midwestern US-English accent on her French despite having studied at the Sorbonne, and that may have shaped the approach. It was mostly fine! Those of us who cared about accent could work at it and those who had tin ears for it were not shamed or penalized academically.

However, somehow this meant no one ever pointed out the difference between “ou” and “u”. Do not ask me how we never noticed that we were saying “on top of” and “below” exactly the same way, but I felt like a huge fool when I did an exchange trip to Lyon and figured it out! Especially since my parents (both of whom studied French in school) had taught us the French ‘u’ sound as children, as like…a car game. (Yes, my parents are big nerds too.) So I knew exactly how to make the sound! But I had never been told which words/spelling required it: I can only think because emphasizing that pronunciation would have been awkward for students who couldn’t learn to say it or perhaps even to hear it.

So it can go too far!

P.S. I came back from France with a specifically teenage-sounding Lyonnais accent which faded over time, and I’m very sorry I can no longer produce it on demand. My relatives in the South of France were the first to point this out to me, and they thought it was pretty funny!

I think we need to stop aiming for native level accents when it comes to language learning

[agnesmontague]

im sure theres a word denoting the divide btwn what you believe as a citizen of civic society and what you believe as an animal with anger synapses. as a civic citizen i do not believe in the death penalty nor do i think anyone deserves to die for being stupid on twitter. as an ape,

[definite-human]

We humans are social approval seeking creatures. You would be shocked how much of an effect even just a "hey man, c'mon, not cool" can have. Teens and young adults especially are still figuring out how to be a person in society, and will absolutely internalize the message it if their "edgy" humor is consistently met with disappointed disapproval

[fleshdyk3]

everyone loves to shit on shoebills like omg this bird is SO SCARY its TERRIFYING which like first of all shut up youre annoying second they are literally just standing there what the hell is your problem

[pyrrhuria]

me: man i sure wish i could view images on a digital screen using an efficient 24-bit color display

the nefarious RGB tri-color LEDs:

[an1muuarts]

hc that laios' eyes look like this which is why so many people are scared by him