#want to eat your pancreas

[jjknoraly]

if u do like any of these pls friend me (im desperate)

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(sry for so many tags)

[stupidjewishwhiteboy]

Random anime, summarized badly (stolen from my Facebook Memories):

I Want to Eat Your Pancreas: a movie that contains absolutely no cannibals, zombies, etc.

Neon Genesis Evangelion: teen angst, with giant robots

FLCL: tween angst, with robots of various sizes that burst out of the main character's head in ways that might remind the viewer of other things going on in a tween's body

Gurren Lagann: We don't have time for teen angst in our increasingly growing robot anime, it's about to get MANLY

Promare: like Gurren Lagann, with gay firefighters

Kill La Kill: Wearing clothing is fascist, join the nudist anarchist rebellion!

Fire Force: Takes the term "fire fighter" rather more literally than usual

Kashimashi Girl Meets Girl: Well, I suppose there are *weirder* ways of getting free gender reassignment surgery

Ouran High School Host Club: It's about teenage prostitution! Sorta. Not really.

Cowboy Bebop: episode antagonists include Kareem Abdul-Jabbar from "Game of Death," Cruella DeVille as an ecoterrorist, a senile old guy who likes to play chess, The Unabomber with a teddy bear theme, a bored computer with an interest in pre-Columbian South American art, Marshall Applewhite as an online avatar and Baron Harkonnen if he was also the Joker.

Outlaw Star: one episode revolves around an alien cactus who uses its mental powers to force people to eat inferior ice cream.

Trigun: why don't more shows involve insurance agents trying to deal with the fallout of your typical shonen action nonsense?

Puella Magi Madoka Magica: Just because a critter is cute and says he can turn you into Sailor Moon doesn't mean you should trust him

Welcome to the NHK: even if both you and all of your friends are genuinely messed up toxic people, hanging out together is still probably better than not

Genshiken: If you have ever self-identified as a nerd, geek, or similar term, you either know multiple people who will remind you of characters in the show, or you ARE one of the characters in this show

Shirobako: boy, making anime sure is stressful and hard!

[delulukittyy]

fireworks in anime✨

[mokacheer]

♡ 14 Days to Fall in Love ♡ with: @apparently-artless

⤿ Day 11: Every moment with you feels like a movie ☼ I Want to Eat your Pancreas (2018) ☼

[shlumbus]

OKAY THIS MAY BE A COINCEDENCE BUT..

Black hat u evil bish, for those who dont know this movie i highly reccomend watching it, it is so good but basically the whole thing is that this girl has some sort lf disease in her pancreas and she and this guy fall in love after a bit but then she dies (i promise this movie is a lot better than my explanation lol😭)

[folkloregirlfriend]

one single thread of gold tied me to you

the sun is also a star, nicola yoon // zhenya katava and neus bermejo // orestes // call me maybe, carly rae jepsen // ? // invisible string, taylor swift // ? // jane eyre, charlotte brontë // timeless, taylor swift // we were girls together // your name, makoto shinkai // lover, taylor swift // ? // mastermind, taylor swift // i want to eat your pancreas, shin'ichirō ushijima // all of the girls you've loved before // this love, taylor swift // it's a miracle we ever met, hallie bateman // invisible string, taylor swift // friends, bts

for @siriuslynephilim 🩷💛

[b3lphiee]

hii :3 i think im gonna start using yhis again so let me introduce myself ^_^

hi, my names jello

im 13 years old and a lesbian

im a girl, but i do use she/her AND he/him

im very possibly autistic (no diagnosis yet, too scared to ask)

i really like art! i usually make OCs, but i do definitely draw characters too

i also do commissions! this is an example of my art:

its not amazing, sure, but please remember im 13

PLEASEEE LMK IF YOU WANBA BE MY FRIEND 🙏

also heres some shows n stuff im interested in ^_^

banana fish

anything tmnt

fruits basket

jjk

i want to eat your pancreas

the perks of being a wallflower

percy jackson (gotta start reading the books </3)

the owl house

amphibia

gravity falls

and soo much more !!!

heres my etsy too!!! i make keychains >3< https://dinnersdesign.etsy.com

msg me if u wanna b my friend or if ur interested in my art !!! ill give u my dc there <33 ill also play rblx w u ^_^

[maddy-k-reads-all-day]

Think I'm noticing a trend with my favorite series...

The series will probably include:

A competent well-written female character(s)

Well-written characters

A very interesting plot with some sort of hidden critique about the real world.

Usually a well-balanced mix of comedy and serious/sad stuff.

Bonus points if the character has an extremely strong special interest (Sleepy Princess, Frieren, Apothecary Diaries, So Cute it hurts, Hi Score Girl, In this corner of the world, Mayonaka Punch, Soaring Sky Precure).

I was gonna list all of em in the tags but like here's my MAL favs list ig

IDK why it's blurry but if you can identify these series despite their blurriness you are amazing.

Also I am totally biased but I 100% recommend all of these!

[sufiblackmamba]

[auroratumbles]

or..

[mbirnsings-71]

Me: I don't like sad things-

also me: *is finishing Your Lie in April today, and recommends I want to eat your pancreas to people pretty often*

[bioskoop]

[knockyasocksoff2022]

I want to do an I Want To Eat Your Pancreas AU and I need help to decide which pairing I should do it with. I Want To Eat Your Pancreas is a story about deep friendship but it is open to interpretation.

SUMMARY of the original story: An aloof boy comes across a book in a hospital waiting room. He soon discovers that it is a diary kept by his very popular classmate who reveals to him that she is secretly suffering from a fatal pancreatic illness. Seeking a normal friendship the girl convinces the boy to go on a trip with her and they become friends. He finds out she is surprisingly wise.

Shin Soukoku

Popular sweetheart Atsushi finds out his loner classmate is dying of lung disease and decides to help him do the things he wants to before he dies.

Akutagawa is angry that Atsushi found out and originally refuses but then decides he may as well.

Soukoku

Dazai doesn’t find anyone interesting until he finds out his rich, popular, half-foreign classmate Nakahra-kun is dying from a mysterious disease, a complication of experiments done on him in his youth. 

Chuuya, happy to have someone to share the secret with drags Dazai off on an adventure across Europe.

[shot-messenger]

i want to eat your pancreas <3 oh how this movie fucked me up

[irlkdj]

Comparing Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint and I Want To Eat Your Pancreas [SPOILERS]

I will be mostly discussing themes of choice and love, so if you have not already I implore you to read my post about orv and themes of choice here.

I Want To Eat Your Pancreas is about a girl named Sakura who is terminally ill. A boy named Haruki stumbled upon her diary during a hospital visit. It was titled “Living with Dying.” He is the only one aside from her family that knows of her illness. Because of this, a special bond forms between them. She begins to pester him by getting a job in the library he works at. She tells him a story about how if someone were to eat a healthy version of the infected part of their body, they’d be cured of their ailments.

She begins to show up everywhere and tells him that she wants to spend the rest of her life hanging out with him. Haruki does not have friends. Much like Kim Dokja, he spends his days with his nose in a book—he thinks people do not want to know him.

Despite his expressing annoyance at her insistence, he still finds himself accompanying her. Fulfilling this list of things she wanted to do before she died. When hanging out, they have the following conversation:

He says no one is interested in him and so he isn’t interested in others. He is happy to let all relationships start and die in his head. She says immediately that she is interested in him—something that leaves him speechless. She actually lectures him on his poor habit of deciding everyone dislikes him. He doesn’t /let/ people love him. This is much like Kim Dokja’s mindset in the sense that he refuses to let people know him. He can’t comprehend the idea that anyone would /want/ to know him.

Sakura’s friends tell her they could find her someone better. Someone more interesting and not as boring. But she continues to hang out with him. They keep asking her why and she just says “we just get along.” There doesn’t need to be a reason to like someone. You don’t need to be extraordinary to be worthy of someone’s care and attention. Like Kim Dokja, whose life was another tragedy. Kim Dokja who was just a salaryman; a lousy employee who liked to read. A boy who avoided the complexities of relationships with fiction. Both Kim Dokja and Haruki think relationships bring problems. They are physically incapable of imagining a world where someone could care for someone are average as them. Being alone is easier. It’s easier to assume no one will like you because then you don’t face rejection.

Sakura tells him to stop spending so much time reading books and instead focus on spending time with /people/. Something he doesn’t do until the end of the film. In fact, one boy continuously reached out to Haruki by offering gum and he always refused.

With this continuous refusal, he does continue to accompany Sakura. After the two spend a spontaneous vacation together, Haruki even has a moment of honesty. A moment where he admits that he had fun.

This reminds me of Dokja coming to terms with the fact that even though he doesn’t believe in fantasies, he wants to enjoy his time with his companions. He never lets himself /want/ anything, but the safety and companionship these people provide him give him hope. As seen below, Kim Dokja says it’s easier to survive alone. Comfortable even. But he ends it with a “but..” I want to be with you. I want to love you despite all the problems that come with being by your side. Because with love comes pain, but I’ll carry that pain.

Later in the film, Haruki and Sakura argue and he proclaims that he should’ve never tried to interact with others. All he brings to others is pain. It’s similar to Kim Dokja coping with the fact that the novel that brought him these companions also ruined them.

She tells him that’s not true and he insists she should be with someone else who can care for her more. They just met by chance. Their relationship wasn’t special. She says it wasn’t a coincidence—that everyone is what they are because of the choices they’ve made.

“You're wrong. It wasn't chance. Everyone is where they are because of the choices they've made. Our choices led us to being in the same class. Our choices brought us to the hospital. Not chance. There's no such thing as fate. All the choices you've made and all the choices I've made brought us together. You and I met by our own decisions.”

Much like I say in my orv and the power of choice analysis, choosing to love someone is the most powerful act of free will we can choose as human beings. To /choose/ to love someone. How every day, every moment, every second is made up of countless choices we've made. How coincidences don't truly exist, because we end up where we are at each moment because of a choice someone made. Life is full of choices. Some are worse than others. It matters what we do with the next choice. It matters what we do with the choices we make. It matters how we factor in others' thoughts and feelings into the choices we make. Life is nothing without human connection. Making the choice to continue living.. the choice to have those relationships even though they're scary and uncertain. That’s what living is all about.

“Living...... Means having bonds with others. Paying attention to someone. Loving someone. Hating someone. Having fun being with someone. Taking someone’s hand. That’s what it means to live. If you’re all alone, you cant tell that you exist. Your relationship with others, is what defines being alive. I know my mind exists, since I can interact with others. I know my body exists, because others touch me. That’s where the purpose of being alive comes from. Just like we’ve been chosen to live out this moment here and now.”

Sakura asks Haruki: you want me to live? And he says yes, very much. Just like how orv teaches its readers that someone out there wants you to exist. Someone out there desperately wants to write you a story. Someone out there wants you to know that they love you.

Letting yourself want something. Wanting someone else to live. It reminds me of Kim Dokja proclaiming his wish of living in a big house with everyone. It’s not selfish to want to be loved. It’s not selfish to crave human interaction. Someone out there /wants/ to give that to you.

After this, Haruki begins to let people in. He finally accepts the gum. He expresses his care that normally goes unspoken to Sakura. He begins to truly live. When the destruction of the world began in orv, it was the start of Kim Dokja’s life. He began to let people love him.

Haruki chose to pick up that diary. Kim Dokja chose to read that story. Haruki chose to accompany Sakura. Kim Dokja chose to stick by his companions. They chose to walk alongside these people which cause them unbearable pain, but show them how beautiful life can be.

When he’s waiting for her at the cafe, he says he’s thinking about her. He says she is so much more amazing than him, and he wants to become like her. able to love and acknowledge others. Able to /be/ loved. He sends her one final message: “I want to eat your pancreas.”

He waits and waits and she never arrives. He leaves the cafe and comes home to the news that she’s been murdered. 

A man who at the beginning said he didn’t care for others, suddenly unable to walk up the stairs. Overtaken with grief. Clutching his phone with that final message as he cried. The book he promised to read and return still sitting on his shelf.

Sakura’s mother gave him her diary after the funeral, and in it contained a farewell letter addressed to him.

Haruki thought as he read the letter that he wanted to know her epilogue. She said there were many times she thought she had fallen in love with him. But that their relationship couldn’t be summed up by simple terms like love or friendship.

In her letter, she says she thinks he’s a really amazing person. In turn he says it’s not true, he’s a coward. Just like how Kim Dokja had viewed himself as average, unlovable, and impossible to be cared for. But Sakura loved Haruki. Han Sooyoung loved Kim Dokja. Despite there being almost nothing special about these two, someone saw a light within them that even themselves couldn’t locate.

Sakura always thought of herself as an average girl with a shorter lifespan. “But you cared for an uninteresting girl like me. You, who have no need for relationships like friendship or love, chose none other than me. Perhaps I’ve spent 17 years waiting to be needed by you.”

She reiterates that their relationship can’t be summed up with stuffy words, so she decides on one final message: I want to eat your pancreas. He opens her phone and finds tearfully that his final message, the same she wished to send to him, reached her. 

After reading her diary and seeing the message was received. He turns to her mother and asks: “Can I cry now?” Letting himself sit in the grief he refused to feel. Grief is all the unspoken love we have for those who have left us. He proclaims: I lived my life just to meet you. Thank you.

Her mother invited him and Kyoko (Sakurra's best friend) to come have dinner at the house sometime. After that he makes attempts to connect with Kyoko, despite her outward dislike for him. Sakura had always wished for them to get along. He tells her the truth of their relationship, and let’s her see Sakura’s diary. He chases after her when she flees the cafe where they met and asks that for her to forgive him one day. He asks that one day they can be friends like Sakura had wished.

I Want To Eat Your Pancreas and orv both tell stories of unremarkable people. Ordinary individuals who hide away from the complexities of human relationships to protect themselves. But these stories show their readers that you don’t have to be anything other than yourself to be worthy of love. You don’t need to be class president to be friends with someone, you don’t need to be the protagonist to do something amazing. You don’t need to do anything other than be yourself for someone out there to see you for who you are and choose to love you. Someone out there wants to read your epilogue. Someone out there wants you to exist just as you are. 

[chaztalk]