#wake me from this horrible nightmare

[decayedraven]

Some nights are harder than others,

They both know.

[martyrbat]

one path i was debating, the one before bruce ACTUALLY breaks it, is he and khoa never have their snow fight or their rain breakup. they stick together, they train together, they STAY together because of the loop and the trauma bruce faced, the realization that he's in love. love has always fueled him and after losing minhkhoa again and again, after cradling his corpse again and again, he actually chooses khoa. he chooses to believe in his honey-promise of returning to gotham as men instead. and like.... that alone i want to write and but the time loop aspect can very quickly get sidetracked or forgotten about and like... NO idea how to tackle it with the skill it deserves lol

@martyrbat

[i3utterflyeffect]

i genuinely do think that it's really funny to imagine victim having nightmares and being like. 'yeah same shit as always'. like, never jerks awake. that happens. i've experienced it. just calmly opening your eyes after a nightmare and going 'oh. alright'

[saucy-mesothelioma]

A few (primarily Southern) superstitions I found while doing an Antrho project. Most of these are from my family's history, but a lot of them are also just very common Southern superstitions that I thought were cool.

The first male to enter the house after the New Year has to give the family a dollar, which has to be taped above the front door indicating that money will flow throughout the house for the new year. According to my mother, this comes from a side of the family that she believes was Polish. She's not sure if that's true or not, but my grandmother on that side did this every New Year's until she died.

Eating black-eyed peas, collard greens, and pork on New Years brings good luck. This one's very common and my family does this every year (my parents cut out the collard greens, but my grandmother keeps them in. She also uses hog jowl instead of regular pork). The peas are for luck, the greens are for money, and the pork is for prosperity.

Putting a mirror on your porch can prevent the devil from entering your home. Basically this comes from the idea that the devil can only enter a house at night and must return to hell at sunrise and by placing a mirror on your porch, his vanity will cause him to spend the entire night looking at his reflection until the sun comes to banish him.

If you plant a cedar tree and it grows to be six feet tall, you'd lose someone close to you. This one comes courtesy of my grandfather and was honestly one I'd never heard of before.

To prevent spirits from entering your house, paint the entryway/porch of your house with haint blue to confuse them since spirits can't cross water. You see this a lot here and mainly it's the porch roof that's painted haint blue, but I've seen doors and shutters also painted this way.

If you have cracks in your house, a boo hag (a trapped spirit that kind of acts like a vampire) can use them to enter your home. Boo hags mainly use a person's breath as sustenance instead of blood, and it's believed that if the person being fed on by a boo hag struggles, the hag will just take their skin. The hag also has to return to their own skin (as when they feed at night they have none) by morning or else they will be trapped forever without skin.

Having a bottle tree can ward off evil spirits. This is the same thing as painting your porch haint blue, except you hang blue bottles on a tree instead. A lot of people have these regardless if they believe the superstition and they're honestly really beautiful.

[magicstormfrostfire]

[erisolkat]

woah i just woke up from a crazy as fuck nightmare

[ryuseitai]

ijust had such a torturous tineloop nightmare that felt so so so long but it was only 2 hours.. im scared to go back to sleep but I have to wake up in 4 hours

[robotic-maid]

How things are going again… update I guess? Still can’t figure out how to read more on mobile. I’m just typing this out so it can leave my head.

[evilmom]

🌱.

[caffeinatedopossum]

Events of last night:

Me: *crying*

My girlfriend: what's wrong?? :(

Me: *struggling to form words* intrusive thoughts are bad... I don't want to talk about them because then I'm scared that they're true and you might think I'm awful

My girlfriend: ah I actually get that. I have those a lot. It doesn't mean anything though, intrusive thoughts are just like dreams. Like the things you do in them aren't really things you want to do, it's just stuff your brain comes up with.

[thestarmaker]

At least this time my brain waited until it was nearing time to wake up anyway before it blasted me with an awful nightmare

[rottingcompost]

Rest in peace my sweet prince. You were my light through dark times, you were my baby. You were my bastard and I loved you so much.

I remember when I first saw you, I fell in love instantly and knew I needed to get you! When I eventually got to pick you up about a month later, you were a scared little kitten, you didnt even dare go on my bed. At night you cried because you were alone, so I slept on the couch for a week until you started being comfortable with the bed. You were so small, and you would be with me at every moment of the day. You grew up so fast. You were comfortable in your harness and went on walks with me, but you still got scared when you saw another human being nearby. You loved going outside. You would sleep next to me every single night, and almost every morning i would wake up with you taking up half the bed and slowly scooching me out of bed. On days where I felt like nothing was worth living for, you would still remind me of why I still had a reason to live. On days where I had cleaned my apartment you would get excited, knowing you had wet food to look forward to. You were extremely good with having your claws trimmed. I could click the claw scissors and you would come running to me. You sometimes didnt sit still for the entire thing, but you were still always such a good boy. You always got treats afterwards and that was why you were always coming running.

Whenever I came home from being anywhere, be it at moms place, at work, or just at the store, you would greet me at the door by screaming your little lungs out. When your other parent, Greyson, my partner and fiance, was here, you would scream whenever I left and keep them awake. You took a while to warm up to some people, but Greyson was allowed to pick you up and hold you just like I was allowed to.

I introduced my parents to you as your grandparents, and you to them as their grandson. Every single person who got to meet you loved you the instant they saw you.

Your favourite toy changed over time, going from the small purple squid, to the big white mice, to the sparkly mice, to the felted strawberry.

You would always beg to come into the bathroom whenever I was showering, so much so that I sometimes thought someone was trying to break my door down. You would always come and lay on my drawing tablet and then my paper whenever I was drawing, even if it was annoying and I would try to make you leave, you did it out of love.

You would sleep in my lap every single night when I talked on voice chat with Grey, you would hide when my friend Simon came over, we still have no idea why other than our joke that you were cisheterophobic, you would prefer Adrian's scritches over my scritches whenever he was over at our apartment, you would be curious around Ham, as he smelled like other cats, and you would go into any visitors' shoes and sniff around, you got so tired out from playing with my brother the first time he visited after you came home, but I could tell you had so much fun with him, you chased my sister just to mess with her, because you thought it was funny.

You would be easily bribed with treats, and often times you screamed when you knew treats were on their way. You learned to open my pasta cupboard and climb in, so I had to tape it shut while putting off getting a child lock on it.

The first time Adrian and his boyfriend came over to visit you surprised me so much when you agreed to being picked up by the boyfriend, someone you had never met before, because you always would be wary of strangers. You avoided my mom the first few months you lived with me because she had grabbed you and hugged you, you were curious of my dad when he first came to visit, even if he had brought his kids and wife along.

One of my favourite photos with you is when Grey had just come from the train station and was taking a very needed nap, and you came out and looked at them while also drooling on their switch controller, and how afterwards you woke them up by walking on them and sniffing their face.

Every time you did something bad that made me upset with you, I couldnt stay mad at you for more than a few minutes, you were that cute and you always looked so innocent. The few times i was angry with you for longer i felt really bad about it afterwards, and would feel like im a bad parent to you.

You had so much energy all the time, and you were very vocal. When I visited you for the last time and saw you, you got some of that energy and voice back, surprising the vets as well. You jumped around, climbed, rubbed against things, and you almost seemed to have the energy you did when you werent sick.

You lost that energy after just 30 minutes, after that you would only really lay, sometimes get up and go somewhere, and then lay down again. You were so sick and I would never have known exactly how bad it was if I hadnt come to see you. The vets told me that even if you were to get better your quality of life would not be good and you probably would be really sick and in pain for life. I originally wanted to keep trying, because you mean so much to me, but when they told me the severity of your sickness i realized that that wouldnt be possible.

I would do anything to make you healthy and happy again, but im only human and i had already done all I could do. You were allowed to finally have your final sleep, you were in your favourite position you always laid in, you had me with you, and I was petting you and whispering how much you have always meant to me. I would much rather have been the one who was sick, I would sell all of my internal organs for your sake if it meant you would get better, I would go through the worst moments of my life all over again if it meant you would get better. The next best thing I could do to help you was to let you go. You will never feel pain and sickness and fear ever again, even if it hurt so bad to make that decision.

It all just went bad so fast. On the first of december, when me and my mom took you to the animal hospital, they were really optimistic and thought it would only be over the night, and by the fourth, you were so sick and so tired.

The worst feeling was to come home with you and have to get you ready for being buried. It was horrible trying to clean you off to make you look more like yourself, not dirty and sickly, it was horrible to even think about having to put you in my freezer for storage until we could bury you, and even gathering your things you would bring with you was hard. Looking at your favourite toys and putting them all in a bag with your favourite treats, your harness that you loved, and your favourite wet food was one of the worst feelings i have ever had to deal with, because i knew they all meant so much to you, and you would now bring them with you.

Everything about this last week has been a nightmare i havent been able to wake up from, and I will never wake up from it because it is just the harsh and cold and bitter reality. You meant so much to me that even believing all of this has happened has been so extremely hard.

I have been so unbelievably lucky to be allowed to spend this year and 11 months with you, celebrating your birthday, spoiling you with toys and treats, taking you for walks, just spending time with each other. You did not deserve this and you were too young to die, but I am so very grateful for the time we had together.

Even if I myself have trouble believing it sometimes, friends and family have been telling me from the start that this was the best possible home for you, and that I was the best human for you, because you got to be showered in so much unconditional love.

I still am not sure if I can believe that, not for a while at least, but i know you were happy with me for as long as you lived with me, you had a good life, even if it was cut so fucking short so suddenly.

I have trouble organizing all of my thoughts and emotions and memories into one single post like this, because I cant sum up almost two entire years in a text post on a micro blogging social media website, but I did my best to try to write it all down. I cant organize every single feeling im feeling right now, because my entire head is overflowing with so many thoughts.

I have been so lucky to have you in my life. I can never say that enough. I can never express enough how much you have always meant to me since the moment i first saw you, and I can never stop laughing and crying and smiling at all of the memories I have had with you and all the pictures of you. You were my little tiger, and will forever be my little tiger, my little bastard, my little ass child, my rumpnisse, my baby boy, my son, and all other nicknames i gave you. You are finally not sick and in pain, which is all I could really ask for now.

You will now be resting beside Gusten, a dog you never met but who was just as important to me when he was around. You will have all of your favourite things with you, and you will be able to rest in a place where I will be able to come visiting often, a place i know you will not be disturbed or displaced, and a place that is peaceful and close to nature.

While it isnt the most beautiful grave right now, I am going to find a nice stone i can use to mark your place with, and around spring im going to plant some nice flowers for you.

I love you so much, and I will always miss you. You were a good kitty, and you were taken too soon. You have brought me so much love, so much emotion, so much of everything. Thank you so much for your time you spent with me, and for always being so unconditionally loving.

It is really hard, but we had to say good bye.

Rest in peace Kohga, 2020/10/24 - 2022/12/4

[kyosaya-enthusiast]

Been very tired recently ahhhhhwahhhwqhdhfh I want everything to be over already ...

Let me rest let me rest let me rest!!!!!!

[sheldonkisser]

Arghhhhh I can't sleep but I rlly DON'T wanna take Quetiapine

[thewispsings]

Hi can u do a smau with max where reader is a doc for f1 and when max unfortunately has an accident she is one of the first responders(dont know what they are called!!!) And he just stares at her and its like love at first sight for him(he fell first and HARDER!!!!!) and everyone online could see it as well

Some teasing from other drivers as well

And proceed how u deem fit

Loved the sister in law one!!!!!!!

doctor lady | max verstappen

pairing: max verstappen x doctor!reader

summary: max never thought he would be happy getting a injury that puts him out of racing for three months, but when he has a doctor like you? he can’t help but be a little happy.

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maxverstappen1: we are allllm good guys!!!!!!!!!!!!! we are aliveee wnd well babybyvy ����AND me and lanHOE (becuare he id a BOE) got a pretty doctory lady 🥰🥰🥰 she’s sooooooooioiiooooo nice and prety AND she made us NOT feel pain so we love her 😍😍😍😍😍

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user1: they got him on those GOOD painkillers

user2: we’ve seen drunk max, but drugged max? a whole new level

landonorris: guy our lady doctor is soilioooooooooo prety 😍

maxverstappen1: HEY NO 😡😡 i alreadys called dibs!!!!!! she’s MY prety doctor lady. she game ME her instagran and i’m takin HER on a date!

yourusername: if my supervisor is reading this, i gave him my instagram and agreed going on a date with him because he was being difficult, started crying, and wouldn’t take his medication until i did.

maxverstappen1: HELLO MY BEAUTIFUL LOVE

user2: started crying??? max verstappen started crying???

user3: pain meds do that to you 🤕

user4: i need a video of that right now

user5: he is out of IT. i can’t wait till he wakes up and realizes what he’s done

charles_leclerc: happy you’re okay mate!

maxverstappen1: oh charles i have missed you dearly 🥰🥰 so happy you got 1st!!!!!!!

charles_leclerc: thank you max ❤️

maxverstappen1: i can wait for you to meet my future wife!!!!!!!! you’ll love her! she saved me life ❤️

charles_leclerc: someone please take his phone away

maxverstappen1: NOOOOO I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY FUTURE WIFR 😡

user6: max, charles is just trying to save you from the embarrassment

user7: when he sobers up, he either won’t give a shit and continue OR he’ll be so embarrassed and he’ll never show his face again

yourusername: everyone, please don’t pay mind to max, he is under very heavy drugs, and is not in a right state of mind. we have tried confiscating his phone, but he starts kicking and becomes difficult.

user8: i know this girl is scared for her job 😭

user9: having max as a drugged out patient seems horrible

user10: literal nightmare material

maxverstappen1: MYYY LOVVER HELLO

user11: good lord #freeyn

danielricciardo: i would say, i hope you recover, but i have a feeling you don’t want to recover?

maxverstappen1: I DONTTTT I NEVER EANT TO RECIVER BECAUSE THAT MEANS NOT SEEING MY BEAUTIFUL LADY DOCTOR SO NO!!! NO RECOVERY FOR ME

danielricciardo: screenshotting all of this for later 🤣

landonorris: i’m hungry, maxie can you tell lady doctor i’m hungry?

yourusername: you can talk to me lando. i’ll go get you something.

landonorris: NOOOO I CABR TALK TO THE LADY DOCTOR MAX SAID I CANT AND HE DAID IF I DID HESS GOING TO KILL ME AND I DONT WANT TO BE KILLED AHHHH

maxverstappen1: YOU FONT GET TO TALK TO MY PRETTY DOCTOR LADY IM GOING TO JILL YLY LANDO

user12: this is genuinely like the funniest shit ever 😭

user13: can’t believe in 10 years from now we’re going to look back at this and laugh

user14: 10 years?? bitch im LAUGHING RIGHT NOW

redbullracing; speedy recovery max! 💓

maxverstappen1: NOOOO NO SPEEDY RECOVERY NO RECOVERY FOR MAX

user15: head injury so bad he lost his love for racing

user16: on a serious note, his injury’s did seem pretty bad, especially his leg…

user17: honestly i’d be surprised if he returned to racing immediately

landonorris: maxie and me got separated :(((( 😞☹️😕😭🥺 lady doctor is is MEAN

yourusername: you two were arguing and disturbing the other patients.

maxverstappen1: DONT CALL MY LADY DOTCIT MEAN!!!!

user18: went from being worried to laughing out loud because wtf is this??

user27; lando and max crashing was NOT on my 2024 bingo card

user28: f1 having a big crash was not on MY 2024 bingo card

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redbullracing: unfortunately, due to last weeks crash regarding lando norris and max verstappen. max has been forced to take a three month leave of absence from racing, as he has severely fractured his lower leg. he has immediately started physical therapy, let’s wish him a speedy recovery ❤️‍🩹

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maxverstappen1: what a shame 😕 truly saddened by this outcome 😞

user19: what??

landonorris: take a wild guess as to who’s going to be his doctor for three months?

user20: PRETTY LADY DOCTOR???

maxverstappen1: maybe 🥰

user21: we’ve entered the era where max does not gaf about racing as long as he gets to see yn

user22: does this mean he’s not winning the wdc?

user23: he still can, he just has to win basically every race after the 3 months, which isn’t exactly impossible for him

charles_leclerc; so sad for max!

user24: your ass does not feel sad for max 😭

user25: he has his eyes on the wdc!!!

user26: HE ACTUALLY HAS A CHANCE TO WIN BOW

maxverstappen1: @/yourusername, ready to take care of me for 3 months :D

yourusername: no

maxverstappen1: 😕

user27: HAHAHA

danielricciardo: LOSER

landonorris: HAHAH GET REJECTED

charles_leclerc: EMBARRASSING

oscarpiastri: that hurt to read

maxverstappen1: SHUT UP WHO ASKED YOU

user28: tbh i wouldn’t be excited to have max as a patient for 3 whole months with how he acted that night in the emergency room

user29: that man is secretly crazy and you can’t convince me otherwise

user30: i love how max is clearly like head over heels for yn, but she can’t date him because he’s her patient 😭

user31: she can’t?

user30: NO!!! that’s unethical, she can date him after the 3 months but not during

user32: that not being common knowledge to some people is concerning…

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maxverstappen1: day one of physical therapy a success ✅

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landonorris: so, how many times did she reject you today?

maxverstappen1: ZERO.

yourusername: 10**

landonorris: TENN??????

maxverstappen1: i just don’t understand why she won’t say yes 😞

yourusername: because it’s severely unethical and will get me fired

maxverstappen1: so what i’m hearing is that you’ll go out with me when i’m no longer your patient?

user33: let the countdown begin

charles_leclerc: missed you at the race today!

maxverstappen1: no you didn’t

charles_leclerc: no i didn’t! MAX IT FEELS SO GOOD TOO WIN

maxverstappen1: yeah i KNOW.

yourusername: don’t worry charles, he was watching you during his whole therapy session, and cheered so loudly when you won that we got complains from patients on the other side of the building!

charles_leclerc: I KNEW IT!!!

maxverstappen1: you said you wouldn’t tell anyone yn 😕

user34: it’s so…unsettling seeing max be so publicly affectionate

user35: RIGHT?? like why is he so open about this??

user36: he has no shame…

yourusername: i told you to stop taking pictures of me while i’m working

maxverstappen1: but you just look sooooo pretty

danielricciardo: she doesn’t want you bro

maxverstappen1: SHUT UP

user37: she’s stronger then me, because if i had max verstappen down bad like that?

user38: no literally, i would’ve made him mine the same day we met

user39: why is max posting regular pictures?? it’s weird

user40: he’s trying to impress yn

user39: well he’s going about it all wrong. because these photos just don’t match?? cat, hospital, and then a crappy photo of a therapy room?? horrible horrible HORRIBLE

user41: damn…

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maxverstappen1: 2 months down…1 more to go!

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user42: HE IS COUNTING DOWN

user43: WE KNEW IT!!!

landonorris: i can’t belive you tricked me into going to a photo shoot for you

maxverstappen1: that is not what happened.

landonorris: you told me we were going golfing, next thing i know i’m watching you get your picture taken like 92884 times 😑

maxverstappen1: just say your jealous

landonorris: OF WHAT???

user44: he’s getting better at being aesthetic

user45: he’s learning!!

user46: are we all going to skip past the fact that max, a hater of everything, had a whole as photo shoot for his instagram?????

maxverstappen1: yn told me i should post more photos of myself for the instagram

user47: so you had a whole photo shoot????

maxverstappen1: yes

user48: oh he’s in love

danielricciardo: looking good max 😍

maxverstappen1; thank you for the support daniel!

landonorris: was that a dig to me?

maxverstappen1: yes.

landonorris: I WAS EXPECTING GOLF

yourusername: looking good max

maxverstappen1: really??? you really think so??

yourusername: yes (with the upmost professionalism)

maxverstappen1: 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

user49: why did max just add “yn thinks i look good 🥰” to his bio

user50: LMAOO I THOUGHT YOU WERE JOKING???

user49: no 😭 he very literally put “yn thinks i look good 🥰” in his bio

user51: why does it look like max is in the doctor training room?

maxverstappen1: because i am!!

user51: THEY LET YOU IN THERE????

yourusername: my boss is a huge f1 fan. so he lets max do whatever he wants 🙄

user51: i’m sorry that’s so funny 😭

user52: does max just follow her around all day??

yourusername: pretty much, yeah

user53: you have no idea how much i want to be you

charles_leclerc: wow max looking good

maxverstappen1: thank you charles

charles_leclerc: aren’t you going to put “charles thinks i look good” in your bio?

maxverstappen1: i don’t care about you enough for that

user54: DAMN THATS COLD

user55: those cats are so cute 🥺

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maxverstappen1: guys i did!!!! i got a date with the pretty doctor lady 🥰🥰

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user56: when he falls first and harder >>

user57; this man is literally obsessed with yn it’s insane

landonorris: beat me too it

landonorris: THIS IS A JOKE PLEASE DONT KILL ME

maxverstappen1: nothing funny. i didn’t laugh. you aren’t funny.

landonorris: 😕

user58: WE CHEERED!!!

user59: i still think it would be funny if she just said no even after the 3 months

yourusername; i thought about it, but he’s rich and pretty so 🤷‍♀️

maxverstappen1: pretty :D

user60: she’s so pretty

maxverstappen1: like i’ve been SAYING.

user61: i’ve never seen a man so down bad before

user62: it’s unnerving

user63: a doctor, pretty, and funny?? max hit the jackpot

user64: they both hit the jackpot 😒 it pisses me off

user65: LMAO WHY??

user64: seeing people live the life i want makes me unexplainably mad

danielricciardo: you’re joking right? she’s not actually dating you?

maxverstappen1: what’s that supposed to mean

danielricciardo: it means she’s too good for you @/yourusername are you being held hostage

yourusername; yes

danielricciardo: OH I KNEW IT. DONT WORRY HELP IS ON THE WAY

maxverstappen1: you guys are mean.

yourusername: this means i can never be your doctor again

maxverstappen1: what if once day, on my way home i crash, and its a big crash with smoke and fire, and i get taken to the hospital but i refuse to let anyone touch me that isn’t you, would you still not help me?

yourusername: there’s just something so undiagnosed about you

user65: HAHAHA

user66: max is just so unexplainable

charles_leclerc: are my eyes deceiving me or did she finally say yes 

maxverstappen1: SHE SAID YES

charles_leclerc: OH YEAH OH YEAH I KNEW YOU COULD DO IT BUDDY

maxverstappen1: OH YEAH OH YEAH

user67: my lestappen heart 💔

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notes: enjoy this while i spend the rest of my night learning how to play the sims

thank you for requesting!!

[stillhaventgotmydriverslicense]

STOP! DYING! IN! MY! DREAMS!