#victuri fanfiction

[blonndiec]

It's 1 am Mexico City time, and of course now my brain and hands conspired against me so I could start writing my year-long-planned and already outlined Teen Yuuri story.

This is second part of my Sleepless in St. Petersburg Series starting simultaneously with Chapter 11 of Stamps & Sleepless Nights (Meaning: Pretty Soon)

[lucylichtenweg]

Most times I just look for the ship I want, read the summary and then don't read rest of the tags.

I let it surprise me.

[devils-sacrament-catering]

Hot take:

Kinda nice when Ao3 down for a bit cuz then I actually read my damn book

[ebonysficcollection]

Yuuri On Ice (Mostly Viktuuri) Fic Recs

Zanka by rinsled05

A historical au set in the Edo period of Japan. Yuuri is a high-ranking courtesan (basically a prostitute) that Viktor meets while on a political trip to Japan. Very well-written and beautifully traumatic. I am a massive sucker for well-written historical aus, and from what I can tell, it's pretty accurate, and even if it wasn't, it still makes you feel the absolute horror of Yuuri's situation. This fic will put you through the emotional fucking wringer, but the ending is well-worth it.

Take Strength by stammiviktor

A post-canon fic about Yuuri and Viktor adopting a son. Tooth-rottingly sweet and domestic. We desperately need more kidfics in this fandom.

Polyglot Variations by spoken

A sort of character-study of Viktor and his life examined through the lens of his multilingualism. This is legit one of my favorite fanfics ever. This is literally so good and realistic that it feels like canon. It should be. Just. Fucking read it.

hood & glove by Fahye and hawberries

Otayuri fantasy au, where Yuri is a fairy and needs Otabek's help with the plot. I love Otayuri, but most of the fics I find of them aren't really up to my tastes, but this is really good, even if it is short. Fantasy aus don't tend to be my cup of tea, but if you like fantasy aus, you'll like this one.

he's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds by wingchestr

Some of the best fics in the yoi fandom are the ones that are both extremely fluffy and extremely smutty. This is one of them. Just a cute domestic fic about Viktor and Yuuri moving to Russia with a LOT of smut. Like, it's basically just 30k of well-written smut and couple bonding, and it's amazing.

[dearvitya]

Chapter 2 is finally uploaded!

“Would you like to dance?” Nikita asks. The ribbon in his hair is loosening, his ponytail dropping lower and a few short pieces falling out to frame his face.  He really is beautiful, Yuuri thinks, obnoxious remarks aside. Like the yokai his sister used to warn him about when they were kids, some mesmerizing, impish creature up to no good. He swallows against the uncomfortable lump in his throat.  “Next time,” he promises, and he doesn’t know why he says it, why he just willingly opened up his future to more, but he finds that he means it. He just can’t do it now. How is it possible to feel so thrilled and so scared at the same time? “Next time,” Nikita repeats, and Yuuri can’t understand why his declination has him looking so disappointed. A teasing smile tugs at his lips. “I’ll hold you to that, you know.” Yuuri rolls his eyes, bumping their shoulders together. “Oh, I know you will.” Yuuri’s well aware that he will never hear the end of this promise until he sees it through—and he knows he’ll personally be thinking about it nonstop until then too.

[ddringo]

Kōri

Fire comes alive under his feet. Flames flickering and licking against his calf. Not warm, but cold and sharp. Grows louder and louder. Higher… higher…

Breath… Yuuri lets his eyes open slowly. Sees how far he’s gotten for the edge of the pound. How the figures behind him leave a story for kids to follow when they come home from school. He wonders if Victor will recognize it. His love for him. His love for the ice.

Before him a map. His map.

Yuri on Ice.

He could admire his work for hours when suddenly, the world slows. A moment stretches into a thousand. But even in slow motion, Yuuri can do nothing.

Ice, fragile and thin and abused by the sharp blades of Yuuri skates, cracks with a loud sound and shatters his masterpiece. Shatters his love for home and ballet and skating and Victor. Shatters the place that he’d called home.

Prompt: Falling through the Ice @badthingshappenbingo

[ghoullguy]

ok i caved im writing the yuri on ice fanfic and its already at 1.5k LMAO heres a lil excerpt

[googiesita]

we made history in our hearts.

A Viktuuri fluff without plot, oneshot!

Sorry if it's there any change on the pronouns, I use a translator.

This is also in spanish and in AO3, check it out!

Spanish ver: Wattpad.

AO3 ver: English.

Of crying locked in the bathroom, of defeats, of binge eating and an anxiety that ate him alive, Yuuri Katsuki was not perfect, and he believes, honestly, that everyone knows that.

And yet, there he is, Viktor Nikiforov has him, his face in his hands, his world in his hands. As if it was the cutest thing ever, and maybe for him, he is, no, Yuuri is flawless in his eyes, even with his imperfections, he knows that no one in the world is perfect, but... there was something else about the man with glasses and stupidly black hair.

Something no one else knew.

Passion and love.

No one could love Viktor Nikiforov so well, nor vice versa, they were really the only ones who could do it, the only ones who could love in such an incredible way, so pure, and so lustful at the same time, because no one else could be so passionate.

Yuuri was someone who went beyond what he always expected, Viktor always thought he was going to be alone, he found comfort in solitude, but that also held him back, and when he saw him, with an anxious burden in his chest, all he knew was that he wanted to share it.

''I gave you a thousand reasons to leave, and yet... you're still here.''

''I love you, it's really that simple.''

And his Yuuri would laugh.

''Come into my arms, solnyshko.''

He was a sun, Yuuri was really one, no, he's his sun. The one that made the mornings warmer and more appeasing, more tolerable, yes, he was right.

And yet, he was like the night sky, he was blue, that sad man, who used hunger to calm the exalted anxiety, who used to go into depressive episodes over defeats, but his passion never left no matter what, because Yuuri was made to skate, no one else could do what he did. His lover was like the stars too, maybe the moon, no, no, he was the moon, shining eternally until his time was up, that was Yuuri, his Yuuri, sometimes, that ray of moonlight, stopped shining because of his own shyness and insecurity.

It captivated him completely, because to Viktor Nikiforov, Yuuri Katsuki, he was perfect, that's right, he was a mystery, really.

Were they the same person?

Eros, and Agape, could they exist in the same person? After seeing him, at his maximum splendor, he thinks so, he was lustful, and at the same time, he was a pure being.

And Viktor loved that, honestly.

Now he had a blushing Yuuri in his arms, completely at peace, there is peace on his face and he will do nothing but beg anyone to always be like that. He's looking at him with his little eyes smiling, getting smaller, with a smitten look, crooked glasses, and clasped hands, yes, this is the man he wants to spend the rest of his life with.

He wants to worship Yuuri as a god himself, to let everyone know that they belong to each other, that there is no Viktor Nikiforov without his Yuuri Katsuki, no Yuuri without his Viktor.

Then he kisses him, and seals that promise, to love each other until all they can, until their bodies give no more and perish, because death is only a path to yet another life, another existence together and if fate doesn't want that, then they will seek each other out to challenge it.

''Liubimiy'' And it is exactly that face that is worth it, that face of happiness, of contentment and complete satisfaction with his life, that was worth having gone to Japan just for him, him and him, because Viktor would always choose him, in his most vulnerable and weakest moments, in those funny and embarrassing ones, and forever, in his good days.

Because it wasn't... surprise, Viktor had a crush on Yuuri since the banquet, (maybe since long before, but nobody knows that), where the sad life of the idol of many was going to take a turn forever, he wasn't happy with his life, skating at some point came to frustrate him, beyond the falls and failures, it was boring him, there was nothing new, and to be left without creativity and inspiration was like being dead.

Then came the great Yuuri Katsuki.

With his pole dancing, his confrontation with Yurio, his tie on his forehead, almost naked at one point, asking him to be his trainer.

That same man he heard crying in the bathrooms, or panic attacks eating him alive before or after skating, the loser boy.

And he thinks, ''What are you laughing at, Vitya?''

''You really don't remember the banquet?''

"Viktor! Don't make me think about that, how embarrassing'' he hides his face in Viktor's neck, and sighs while the silver-haired one caresses his back tenderly, drawing figures on it with his fingertips, he liked to draw little stars, hearts, everything that reminds him of Yuuri.

His Yuuri.

"You amaze me''

''Really?''

He doesn't laugh, he's never laughed at his shy little ''really?'' He knows to perfection how insecure he is, how little trust and love he has for himself, that silly, silly anxiety that only leaves him thinking about the bad, and really, all he wants to do is to love him all his life and never have doubts about his affection ever again.

''Yes, Yuuri, really.''

''That's good to know, because I'll be here with you until you get sick of me'' He says with a giggle that he loves to hear, looking at that ring on his left hand, ''I could never get sick of you.''

He looks at it with those sad, droopy eyes, but they show more joy than others.

''Me neither of you.''

Short and simple little kisses, no, complex, full of emotions to which they still don't manage to put names, but which are all positive in the end, they just call it love.

Intense looks, and thoughts that simply don't exist anymore, there is nothing in their minds but loving each other. 

Shocking foreheads, trembling sighs that mingle, and become one.

Hugs, hugs that shouldn't last so long, but do anyway.

And promises, promises sealed in the form of words already known, that they already know, but have the same meaning as the first time they said it, I love you. 

Because we call everything on the ice ''love'', or for some, (like Viktor) everything that lies on top of him, (i.e. Yuuri lying on his chest).

[blonndiec]

Monday Madness WIP

I just died while writing this scene and went to Viktuuri heaven, because there is nothing more incredible than writing Viktor from child, to teenager and then to adult and getting to this point.

⭐PURE CINEMA⭐

I wanted to share a little snippet, so perhaps you bear with me through Stamps & Sleepless Nights, until the next installment of the series.

[crumchycow]

Nine people you'd like to get to know better

Thanks for the tag @thestrangeillusion :))

3 ships

KimChay (LOML)

VegasPete (insane)

And y'know what I quite like KimChayMacau

First ship

Hmmm I don't really know. I'm trying to think about all the anime I watched when I was 12/13 probably somewhere in there. But I wasn't that active in like fandom and shipping wasn't really something on my mind. Maybe Victuri? Also think I shipped teruhashi kokomi and rifuta imu from saiki k.

Oh wait oh god I know what my first ship was

Dipper pines x Pacifica Northwest

Last song

HAHAHAHA boomerang by JoJo Siwa (look maybe kpop has rotted my brain but it's actually kinda good? Like at least the instrumental is at least. And maybe the lyrics are cringe but fuck cringe it's cute)

Last movie

I don't watch movies very often but I think it was mansuang which I haven't quite finished yet

Currently reading

Uh fanfiction mostly. The last book I read was @ae-azile novel Yours. It's really good y'all should read it.

Currently Craving

In terms of food? Nothing really, I guess I could go for some sushi.

No pressure <333 @gaylittlepieceofsh1t @wildelydawn @mr-bazongos @thestarscanalwayslookatus @vegasandhishedgehog @ae-azile @mishcatlady

[lucylichtenweg]

I'm sceard of fanfiction under 1k

Most of the time they just the most beautiful thing there is but in not many words.

And I'm left with the feeling that I need more. More words about this story.

But there is non.

[devils-sacrament-catering]

There's nothing more soul crushing than waking up to Inbox(9) and seeing

[blonndiec]

Hey there! We have a lot of what you're mentioning, so buckle up! Too much eros, katsudon and silly coach Viktor. ⛸️

✨ Welcome to the community, @see-u-next-level! ✨

There are a lot of amazing accounts out there very much still active and so many creators still putting amazing art out there! (I hope it's okay if I tag you all, just trying to spread the love) You will start to discover them little by little, but as @triptychgrip mentioned some of the accounts, I'll put here some (these are in the top of my mind right now or in the surface of my ADHD-d current hyperfocus) of the artist whose amazing art not only has kept YoI alive but still make us all reblog all the time their brautiful artwork @blended-ice, @cosmiclion @gabapple @bullsfish @zephyrine-gale @rikichie @ssselthrovv @tosquinha @nae812 @tanngeneri @rhapeseuhans @saitubaki @rosereleasestheart @crimson-chains @victuri-2024 @hinamie

As for fanfiction, there are A LOT. Like, really a lot. I still haven't go all through them (I am kind of new in the fandom too hehe) but I have a list for the ones that really consider like TOP TIER and let me put it here but I know there are still some missing there so I'll be sure to update it accordingly. But I would super recommend you works by @linisen, @triptychgrip @gabapple @muttthecowcatridesagain @miss-meri @buttercup-yoi @japansace @lucycamui @my-private-tsukuyomi @neutronstarchild @al-killer

For accounts to follow for content and most important, accounts that have permission from the original artist of posting their art here on tumblr, most deffinitely recommend @miyakuli , @alexseanchai and @fishyskates too! And for metas, love what @moonlightseve writes! Also @rikeijo does the amazing task of translating YoI content from the sources in japanese, so if you want all the insights and little details that sometimes are buried in the collection books and magazines, most definitely recommend check their account.

I myself do some writing and attempt to make illustrations too, you can find it on my Ao3 page and here on my tumblr account. But if you want to geek out about a fic, an art that you found and all the amazing YoI content out there, please don't hesitate on writing through DM. ✨✨✨Again, welcome!✨✨✨

hey there, yoi fandom!

i watched this show for the first time a few weeks ago, loved it, and am so far unable to stop thinking about it, so i thought i’d make a sideblog to post and reblog stuff about it :)

since i’m so new to a fandom that’s been here for a couple of years, what i’d really like to ask is… firstly, who’s still here? i know that there’s definitely still a lot of yoi blogs on here — seeing @jewishvitya’s (i hope it’s ok to tag you ansvsjdgdj) posts is kind of what pushed me to finally watch this show in the first place :D —but most of the blogs i’ve stumbled upon either haven’t posted in a couple of years or are about different fandoms now. feel free to interact with this post if you post abt yoi, i’d love to have your stuff on my dash!

secondly, i wanted to ask if there’s any, like, canon stuff or iconic things i should know about it? i know of welcome to the madness and the ice adolescence teaser, but that’s it. are there any like, interviews or comics or other promotional content that you enjoyed seeing, or are a kind of ‘staple’ of the fandom, if that makes sense?

and lastly i just kind of wanted to know if there’s anything y’all recommend in terms of fanworks? it can be fics that are popular in the fandom or things that you’ve personally made or enjoyed! i really just want more stuff about these characters tbh. i don’t really mind any ships or characters, and am fine with all ratings, so like, go wild :)

also… i may be stupid😭, but why does the fandom usually spell yuuri (k) with two ‘u’s, when the show usually doesn’t? i’m just curious about how/why this came about, i think i’m maybe missing smth

ahsjshdjdhd this is the only specific thing on this post but i’ve been thinking about the final episode a lot and i’ve been trying to find some kind of jj and yuuri fic that’s about the two of them and their weddings after the final, but also their feelings about where they placed, their similar breakdowns at the gpf etc. i haven’t really been able to find a fic like this on ao3 so if you know of one i’d love a link to it! :)

[asagi-s-garden]

Title: Things You Didn't Realize You Had In Common With Your Husband Until After You've Married Him Rating: T Word Count: 2,588 Summary: "I'm sorry, what's going on here?" Viktor half-laughed, half-snorted from Yuri's other side

"Oooooohhhhhhhh Yuri hasn't told you!?"

Yuri's eyes turned to the size of saucers, his expression completely stark and terrified as he stared at his freind

"Phichit don't you dare-"

"Told me what?!" Viktor chirped excitedly

"Phich-"

"About that time he bit me for an eggroll,"

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/23552452

[jenanigans1207]

Of Hands and Hips [Victuri]

   Hi. Since the Ice Adolescence trailer is dropping, I couldn’t resist writing this fic. So here you guys go, the Victuri Soul Mark AU that nobody asked me for!

--x--x--x--x 

Yuri sat next to Yuko on the benches just outside the rink, his skates half laced up on his feet. In front of them was the rink TV, airing an interview with his idol, Viktor Nikiforov, who had just won the gold medal in the winter Olympics. Yuri had been in the middle of donning his skates, preparing to go out on the ice and practice his most recent routine when he’d seen Viktor’s face on TV and gotten distracted. Yuko had all but tackled him as she dove onto the bench next to him, her hand gripping his forearm tightly as they stared, transfixed, at the screen. Her grip was almost painful but Yuri barely even registered it, his undivided attention on Viktor.

    “Viktor Nikiforov, the youngest gold medalist in history, how do you feel?” The interviewer asked, pressing the microphone closer to Viktor’s mouth so his answer could be heard.

    Viktor smiled his infamous smile, causing the crowd to erupt into cheers around him. Yuri could feel his own heartbeat triple at the sight. It was the same smile he had in all the posters that donned Yuri’s wall. It was the same smile Yuri was used to looking at— used to looking up to. His heart soared in his chest. “I feel incredible!”

    People were coming in from all sides to congratulate him, gripping his hand, patting him on the back and whispering in his ear. Yuri tried not to imagine what it would be like to be one of those people— tried not to think about how much he would give to be able to meet Viktor in person. Viktor smiled politely the entire time, always turning his attention back to the interviewer. In between congratulations, the interviewer managed to squeeze in a few more questions and Viktor answered them thoroughly. Yuri watched, enraptured, the entire time, his breath held.

    After the very last question had been answered, the interviewer reached out to shake Viktor’s hand. Viktor raised his hand to meet him in the middle, giving the camera a good look at the black soul mark that covered the entirety of his right palm. It had been rumored that he had one for years, but he’d done a good job of keeping it hidden by constantly wearing gloves so nobody was ever certain if it were true. It seemed the thrill of winning gold has caused him to go temporarily lax, something Yuri could understand. With a sudden gasp, the interviewer grasped Viktor’s wrist, pulling his hand up to look at it.

    “A soul mark! The rumors are true!” He flipped Viktor’s hand so it was facing the camera, ignoring the blush that tainted Viktor’s cheeks. It was the first time Yuri could ever recall seeing Viktor look anything other than perfectly composed— and he had seen every single interview Viktor had ever done. The blush somehow suited him even more than his infamous smile and Yuri had to fight to not reach a hand towards the screen. He wished he could have a picture of Viktor looking exactly like that— wide eyes, pink cheeks and parted lips— to add to his wall. “Who’s the lucky person?”

    It took a moment for Viktor to regain his composure, but when he did, the smile rose back to his lips. Yuri wondered how it came to him so easily, how he could possibly be so self-assured all the time. But then again, he was Viktor Nikiforov— young as he may be, he was already a world champion and the heartthrob of the entire population. It was probably easy to be confident when he constantly had people dropping at his feet and bending over backwards just to spend even a fleeting moment with him.

    “Nobody, yet.” Viktor said, throwing a wink at the camera for good effect.

    The breath Yuri had unintentionally been holding whooshed out of him in a rush. He turned his head to Yuko only to find her beaming back at him, her eyes as wide as saucers. The interview continued on but Yuri wasn’t paying attention anymore. Yuko jumped up from her seat, gripping both of his hands in hers and yanking him up off the bench, completely ignoring his untied laces. Before she even said anything, Yuri could tell by her grin that she was thinking the same thing he was, even if it was a ridiculous thought.

    “Can you believe it? Viktor hasn’t found his soulmate yet! That means it could still be anyone! It could even be you!” She cried, pulling him through the stumbling steps of an awkward dance. “Yuri! You could be Viktor’s soulmate!”

    Yuri tried not to take her words to heart, tried not to let his hopes skyrocket. Just because he, too, had a soul mark— something that was relatively rare, as it were— didn’t mean anything. They were talking about Viktor Nikiforov, living legend. There was absolutely no way Yuri would ever meet him, let alone be his soulmate. The idea was beyond absurd. And yet, as Yuko let go of his hands, Yuri couldn’t stop his hand from drifting to his own soul mark, situated just above his left hip.

—

    The rays of light stream lazily into Yuri’s room, illuminating the room in a soft haze that makes everything feel magical. Yuri blinks against the light, letting his eyes focus on the man in bed next to him. Viktor looks peaceful in his sleep, silver hair splayed out around him like a halo on the pillow. Yuri still isn’t used to this— isn’t used to waking up in the mornings to a literal angel beside him, isn’t used to the way his heart swells in response to seeing Viktor first thing. There’s a comfort in the way Viktor’s chest rises and falls softly next to him and in the warmth that spreads across the small bed and envelops Yuri. He would happily stay in bed with Viktor all day, curled into his chest, head tucked under his chin. He can’t imagine a more perfect day.

    But then, the remnants of the memory that had come to him in his dreams cling to the corners of his mind, bringing him down from his high. He glances at Viktor’s right hand, the soul mark like dark ink coating his palm. It’s stark against Viktor’s pale skin and Yuri’s white sheets, making him come crashing back to reality. His mornings with Viktor seemed too good to be true because they were. The truth of the matter, the one that Yuri did his best to deny at all times, was that Viktor likely belonged to someone else. They had never touched soul marks— Yuri had never even told Viktor that he had one— but it didn’t matter. He was Viktor Nikiforov, five time world champion. He was miles, lightyears, galaxies out of Yuri’s league and there was no chance that their soul marks would match. Yuri had considered testing it, just to put himself out of his misery but he knew he wouldn’t be able to stand the pain. He knew it would force him to finally give Viktor up and he wasn’t ready to do that. So he chose to keep his own mark hidden, chose to keep the illusion going longer, to hold on, foolishly, to that secret hope.

With a slight sigh, Yuri slides out of bed, careful not to wake Viktor. He feels Viktor stir and watches as he reaches a hand to Yuri’s now vacated side of the bed, his heart constricting at the sight. More than anything he wants to crawl back into the warmth and to ignore the world around them, but he doesn’t. Instead, he heads to his closet, drawing out a shirt for the day. Yuri’s silver medal hangs on the corner of the full length mirror next to his closet and it catches his eye as it glints in the early morning light. He reaches out to it, carefully tracing his fingers around the edges and glancing back at Viktor in the mirror. His heart feels heavy in his chest as he glances between the two, realizing that Viktor would be taken from him any day now and he would never get to provide him with the gold medal he desired.

In a futile attempt to stem the sad thoughts that were overwhelming him, Yuri yanks his shirt over his head, tossing it into his closet. He turns to the bed, reaching for his new shirt that he had deposited on the edge, only to come face to face with an awake— albeit sleepy— Viktor. Viktor is beautiful at all times of the day, but Yuri loves him the most in the morning when his edges seem to be blurring with the sunrise, making him look ethereal. There’s something about how soft he looks when only half awake that Yuri finds irresistible.  

“Good morning,” Yuri says casually, trying to keep any sadness from leaking into his voice.

Viktor smiles sleepily in response, reaching up to rub at his tired eyes. “Mornin’”

A part of Yuri wants to reach out and brush the stray strands of bangs out of Viktor’s face, but the rest of him fights against the desire. He wants to indulge himself as much as he can, knowing that someday it will end, but he doesn’t want to willingly break his own heart. Instead, he settles for smiling down at Viktor, “How did you sleep?”

Viktor doesn’t immediately answer and, just as Yuri is about to ask him if something is wrong, he realizes why. Viktor’s gaze isn’t focused on Yuri’s face, instead he is looking intently at Yuri’s waist— more specifically, his left hip. Viktor starts to reach for him, for the soul mark that he’s just seeing for the first time, but Yuri scrambles backwards, snatching his shirt off the edge of the bed and hastily pulling it over his head. He can feel the questions and disappointment swirling together in Viktor’s gaze, but he tries to ignore them. He’s not ready to have his heart broken, not yet.

Surprisingly, Viktor doesn’t address the topic, and Yuri is able to let out a breath. Instead, in a somber voice, he says, “You ready to start training today? It’s finally time for us to work on our lifts.”

After the Grand Prix, Viktor and Yuri had agreed to skate a duet routine. Yuri wasn’t exactly sure who had brought it up or why he’d agreed— skating alongside Viktor was both his biggest dream and his biggest fear— but their competition was coming up soon and they had no time to waste. The training had gone well to date, Yuri felt significantly more comfortable around Viktor now than he had a year ago when they’d met. That was only reasonable, of course, but it still helped a lot. Plus, he absolutely wouldn’t complain about spending his day at his favorite place with his favorite person.

“I guess we can’t delay it any longer, huh?” Yuri strived to sound casual but he knew his voice was a little pinched.

Viktor sat up in bed, the covers falling off of his torso and pooling around his waist. In the past Yuri would’ve tried not to look at his bare torso, too embarrassed to get caught, but time changes everything. Yuri doesn’t nothing to hide his gaze as he glances down at Viktor’s chest, as he watches Viktor throw the covers off and climb out of bed in just a pair of sweatpants. He glances up at Viktor’s face as he stretches, able to read his train of thought through his eyes. Yuri steps away from the closet, keeping enough distance in between them that Viktor can’t “accidentally” brush along Yuri’s hip.

With a resigned sigh, Viktor dresses quickly, pulling a hoodie on last. He pulls the hood up as they head out the door, protein bars in hand in lieu of breakfast. The hood pushes Viktor’s hair into his eyes and he reaches up casually to run his fingers through his hair, brushing it out of his eyes. Yuri feels his heart skip a beat at the sight of Viktor, in his casual but still well fitting clothes, running his hand casually through his hair and brushing the hood back off. Typically in the mornings they would jog to the rink, keeping in perfect step with one another, but today was just one of those days where they took the walk leisurely, occasionally bumping shoulders as they looked at the scenery around them.

They didn’t speak as they finished their walk to the rink, but the silence wasn’t uncomfortable. In the past, Yuri would have panicked in the quiet, but he was comfortable with Viktor now and was able to thrive with just his presence. He had grown a lot since he’d met Viktor, turned into the kind of person he’d always wanted to be. He’d gained confidence and a comfort in his own skin that he used to think was impossible. He had vowed, long ago, to never let the lessons Viktor had taught him go to waste. If— when, he tried to remind himself, but his heart wasn’t having it— he lost Viktor, he wasn’t going to fall back in on himself the way he had after his horrible debut at the Grand Prix Finals.

Just like it had been for the last year, the rink was empty when they entered. It had gained a huge amount of popularity after word had spread that it was Viktor and Yuri’s home base, but Yuko still refused anyone entry if it was a time when they needed it. Yuri was beyond grateful to her for her care and support over the years and swore that he’d pay her back someday. She insisted seeing him happy was enough and the skyrocketed popularity was an added bonus, but someday he was still going to do something extra special for her.

“How do you want to start?” Yuri finally breaks the silence around them as they finish lacing up their skates. Viktor looks more tense than usual, his shoulders hunched as he bends forward to tug his laces tighter in a motion that is so practiced he could do it in his sleep. “Start with the lifts? Or work on the choreography first?”

He watches as Viktor sits up and straightens his spine, finally settling his gaze onto Yuri. There’s something in the back of his eyes— nothing unkind, but something Yuri isn’t used to seeing— that sends a chill down his spine. “I think we need to do lifts. We haven’t practiced them at all yet.”

Yuri is so caught up in his thoughts over Viktor’s expression that he nearly stumbles as he steps onto the ice. He feels briefly like he’s been transported back a year— back to when he overthought everything. Viktor reaches for him easily and automatically, gripping his shoulder to steady him as he struggles to get his feet underneath him. Yuri’s cheeks flame as he sways, gripping Viktor back to help steady himself.

“S-sorry,” Yuri murmurs, ducking his head.

Viktor pulls him close, a hand finding its way to his cheek and tilting his head up. “Yuri, I think there’s something you’re not telling me.”

It’s not exactly a lie, but it’s not the full truth, either. Viktor knows there’s something Yuri isn’t telling him, he saw it stark against his skin earlier this morning. They both know what Viktor is referring to, but Yuri just pulls his head back and pushes away, gaining some distance between them. It was careless of him to have been shirtless in front of Viktor. He had been so careful for the last year to ensure that this sort of thing didn’t happen and he had gotten too comfortable.

In a desperate attempt to change the subject, Yuri insists they start working on their lifts. Viktor agrees, although hesitantly and Yuri rushes into it just to get their minds on something else. It isn’t until Viktor is reaching for him that he realizes exactly where his hand is required to go to properly do the lift. At the last moment Yuri turns, accidentally rolling himself out of Viktor’s grasp and tumbling to the ice. He hits it hard, right at Viktor’s feet. Frustrated and helpless, Yuri slams his hands into the ice. This wasn’t how it was supposed to go down. They had a competition to skate soon, this was not the time to lose Viktor.

“I’ll put my hand higher,” Viktor says softly, extending a hand down to Yuri. “If you’re that worried about it, I won’t touch it.”

Yuri looks up at Viktor, immediately feeling the tears prick in the corners of his eyes. He’ll never know what he did to be lucky enough to have Viktor in his life, to have Viktor caring for a looking after him. “Really?”

“If it’s that important to you,” Viktor agrees, hauling him to his feet.

A feeling of gratitude floods Yuri as he gets his feet back underneath him. He smiles gratefully at Viktor who, to his credit, does his best to smile back. Yuri knows it’s only a temporary fix and they’ll have to talk about it eventually but for the time being they can just focus on practicing. And that’s what they do. They practice lift after lift and Yuri falls a significant number of times but now it’s only because they’re getting their movements perfectly in sync, not because Yuri is dodging Viktor’s touch.

And then, on their final lift, it happens. Viktor is tiring out quickly, his stamina never being comparable to Yuri’s, and he’s struggling each time to lift Yuri as he’s supposed to. Still, he obliges when Yuri asks for one more. It goes well up until the midpoint and then, as he’s holding Yuri at the peak of the lift, hands bracketing just below his hips, the fatigue sets in and his grip slips. Yuri starts to drop through his hands but Viktor corrects it automatically, tightening his grip… right above Yuri’s hip bones. Yuri doesn’t even have a chance to panic before he feels a warm sensation under Viktor’s hand spreading out through the rest of his body.

He hears Viktor gasp underneath him as he sets him back on the ice, letting go immediately to look at his right hand. His eyes go wide as he raises them to meet Yuri’s gaze and Yuri can’t even believe what he’s seeing. In between the two of them, Viktor holds his hand, his usually black palm cycling through a series of colors. In disbelief, Yuri lifts the edge of his own T-shirt, exposing the handprint just above his left hip. It, too, cycles through color after color.

“Yuri…” Viktor breathes, immediately placing his hand back over Yuri’s exposed soul mark. “Yuri, you’re—”

The tears that had been in Yuri’s eyes before fall freely now, dripping down onto the ice. He watches the way Viktor’s hand lays over his soul mark, the way it’s a perfect match. He can feel the warmth associated with finding his soulmate spreading through every vein in his body.

“V-Viktor.” Yuri sobs, looking up into his face. He doesn’t know what to say. He doesn’t have words to express that this is greater than every dream he’s ever had coming true. He would give up every gold medal in the world for this. He’d never skate again if it meant getting to wake up every morning to Viktor by his side. “We’re—”

Before he can finish his thought— not that he had any idea how he was planning on finishing it anyways— Viktor reaches up with his left hand and hooks his fingers under Yuri’s chin, pulling him forward until their lips collide in the middle. Fireworks go off inside of Yuri and he knows immediately that this is the best feeling he will ever experience in his entire life. Standing on the podium holding a gold medal up to the crowd could never even come close to touching this feeling.

As they pull apart, Yuri realizes that Viktor, too, is crying. His hand tightens around Yuri’s hip, pulling him until they’re flush together. “Yuri, we’re soulmates,” He finally breathes and the words barely even sound real. “Why didn’t you tell me sooner?”

“Viktor, you know who you are, right?” Yuri says, hiccupping a laugh through his tears. “You’re the heartthrob of the entire world and you expected me to think that I would be your soulmate? Me?”

“Of course it’d be you, Yuri.” Viktor says, threading his fingers into Yuri’s hair and drawing their foreheads together. “It couldn’t possibly be anybody else. For the last year, I’ve been thinking my soul mark was a mistake because it was so clearly you that I was meant to spend the rest of my life with and you didn’t seem to have a mark of your own.”

Yuri could feel the heat rush to his cheeks and down his neck. “How can you say that?”

“I’ve told you before, my life had no purpose until I met you.” Viktor had always been one to lay his heart out openly and it never ceased to amaze Yuri. Still, it had never cut to Yuri’s heart quite as directly as it did now. He reached up and brushed his thumb across Viktor’s cheek, wiping away the tears. “And now my life has a purpose forever.”

As Yuri pulls Viktor down into another kiss to seal that promise, he can’t help but think about how surreal his life is. He went from idolizing Viktor to knowing him, to loving him and now he can say with absolute certainty that he gets to keep loving Viktor every day for the rest of his life. They pull apart a moment later, forced to go back to practicing but suddenly the pressure of the competition isn’t so strong. With Viktor— his soulmate— by his side, there’s no doubt that they’ll sweep the competition and every other obstacle life throws their way.

[ddringo]

Martazapine and Paroxetine

“What if I gain weight?”

“What?”

Yuuri nods, “What if I gain weight, Victor?”

Weight gain, and weight loss. He’d read about that when googling around antidepressants. But everyone said it wasn’t super common. It wasn’t something that Victor worried about anyway. They’d be able to manage it somehow.

Changing the diet plan or adding a bit more cardio.

It was a valid concern. Something for them to consider, to talk about, together. But there were more important things out there. Yuuri himself. So Victor counters, “Okay, well. What if you never recover?”

Prompt: Not ready to talk about it @badthingshappenbingo