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[audrey-library]

Jim Carroll Fic Recommendations

Headcanons

Dating Jim Carroll would include by @sivyera

Wattpad

Books

The basketball stories by @/LinnWriter ~ status: ongoing

Just Jim and I  by @/dicapdicaprio1133 ~ status: ongoing

Love is a Drug by @/caitlyndicaprio ~ status: ongoing

rooftop simulation by @/vhsgfs ~ status: ongoing

burnt out by @/deenasxgf ~ status: ongoing

Addiction by @/leoxdicaprioo ~ status: ongoing

fuck it by @/whydontwethrust ~ status: ongoing

The basketball diaries by @/julieeikjaer ~ status: ongoing

Fucked up Jim Carroll style by @/ddoollaanns ~ status: ongoing

Catholic Boy by @/sheepletears ~ status: discountined

Imagines

Theif from Imagines by @/ethrealzzz

Too good for me from Imagines by @/ethrealzzz

Bye from Imagines by @/ethrealzzz

Whore from Imagines by @/ethrealzzz

Entry from Imagines by @/ethrealzzz

Single Father from Imagines by @/ethrealzzz

Cliff from Imagines by @/ethrealzzz

Subway from Imagines by @/ethrealzzz

leonardo dicaprio (jim carroll) from 80′s & 90′s imagines/preferences by @/ICE_BEARR

[i-scavenger]

Target bag full of VHS tapes found in a dumpster enclosure.

[abiik]

my thoughts on zoe are as follows: New Boot Goofin Girlfriend what is her origin story what is her favorite candy what does her superhero getup look like if she has one and also does she know shes an aaaaaaaangelllllllllll and also WHAT do the posts mean about shedding skin like the snake posts heather i need to KNOWWWWW

NEW BOOT GOOFIN GIRLFRIEND INDEED. SHE’S SINGLE LADIES [zoe winks aggressively]

and no, she doesnt. maybe you should tell her one more time. call her an angel to her face and she just might fall in love with you/melt to the floor in a pile of gooey sweetness

hmm her favorite candy….she’s a big sweets person but stuff like gummies give her head aches. chocolate is a big contender. does candied fruit count? SUCKERS, DEFINITELY SUCKERS JENRJKE

now that we got the juicy stuff out of the way….

what is her origin story?

aight so like,,,since im still kind of idk about which faceclaim i like the most, im just gonna stick with her more concrete origin story which iiissss….basically, zoe’s both literal blackfoot demi-god (her great-grandfather is napi who knows diana which is why diana is her godmother) and a descendant of the chinese legend the white snake. her dad is the great(insert centuries of time here)-grandson of the white snake (which makes ms. wonder woman of china zoe’s great aunt) as well as the descendant of the fabled first emperor of china, huangdi. zoe’s dad is also part alien dragon thing. im not gonna get into all of THAT bc im still developing it and it’s tedious i gotta make sure everything’s right, but bc zoe doesn’t like spend a lot of her time there sober, it’s not really that relevant atm so i can be a little lazy,,,as a treat. 

anyway that should also kind of answer the question about snake shedding……..*eyes emoji* *eyes emoji*

also idk if that’s like what you meant by origin story, but like it’s kind of where she starts. she starts being a vigilante bc aunt diana is kind of very influential. also because once the twins die and she’s overwhelmed by that survivor’s guilt, she never wants that to happen to anyone again. she particularly starts out by patrolling with sex workers in gotham, keeping them safe, walking them home; then she progresses to literally fighting abusers/p*dophiles/r*pists/etc. i dont talk about that part of her origin bc i dont wanna like,,, accidentally trigger anyone or anything. the first person she uh kills is actually one of those soo uh anyway.

once diana realizes what’s up, she starts to properly train zoe, but doesn’t necessarily take her on as like,,, a sidekick or anything. which is a kick in the teeth but zoe grins and bears it because she’s not gonna let THAT stop her. she doesn’t need diana to hold her hand through this (chill, zo, you’re like twelve, pls go dance in the woods and creep boys out by being a feral little girl like the rest of us).

superhero get up?

oof and her superhero get up…hmm… still kind of working on it. but i’ve taken some inspiration from (as much as i am not looking forward to the movie, i thought about this design before the trailer came out BUT) the black widow movie suits that like - like the white one that yelena wears bc im pretty sure the fabric can like mimic your surroundings (dunno the technical name) and i thought that would be pretty fucking cool. also like,,, a lot of kon’s costumes. i don’t exactly have a color scheme for her, like esp when she was a teen titan, but i could def see her more grown up suit (during the new boot goofin arc) being white or black. 

there is one thing, though, that i’ve always really liked the thought of and that was of her having like,,, a cool tech-y retractable cowl. like the captain marvel cowl where her hair is kind of out but her upper face and most of her head is disguised. OH and like bc zoe’s bi, she of course has to have a mo’ where she wears her big oversized denim jacket over her suit. (also i am open to design options so pls do not be shy, i need help making decisions.)

[oldblood]

archive moodboard for @vhsgf

thanks for the ♥ !

[andyslinky]

Forest walk...

[surskip]

❤️

Mutuals send me a ❤️ & I'll compliment you.

jo!! you’re such a genuinely warm and kindhearted person it makes my day to see you and your posts about on my dash! your aesthetic is so pretty too!!

[kururuyakku]

kneading & russian blue ?

kneading: what comforts you or calms you down?

listening to Owl City music

russian blue: what would you describe your aesthetic/style as?

PUNK i love everything punk. the clothes, the ideology, the music just everything punk is my lifebut also circus/casino shit. i love this stuff

cat themed ask meme

[hepius]

💡☕️

💡 what hobby did you start doing most recently?

i got back into drawing landscapes! i didn’t have my drawing tablet with me for a bit so as soon as i got it back, i decided to try going back to nature and totally has nothing to do with me being frustrated with learning the human form oof

☕️ what’s your favourite hot drink?

it’s gotta be tea for me! hot tea makes me feel all warm on the inside 🥰

send me self-isolation asks!

[srrybabe]

3, 5, 12 !

3: how do you act when you have a crush? UM IDK THE SAME?????? I just wanna talk to u 24/7 and send you dumb pics and shit ig!!!5: how long do you need to know someone before you can develop feelings for them? um it depends on the person so I cannot really tell you!! if it’s like....thru tinder aka its my intent to get in a relationship it can be like 2-3 weeks ...sometimes it can take months otherwise!! 12: how do you show affection? sending dumb memes and saying “me and you”m buying you stuff, quality time, doing shit for you, hugs and kisses and cuddles, and cheering you up and getting you flowers and plushies randomly :) 

[montymontague]

14, 16, and 39!

i already did 14 and 39 but thank u taya !

16: if you had to get a tattoo right now, what would you get and where?

i have an issue with tattoos which is i am unable to COMMIT and also i would be so STRESSED about other people seeing it bc it would be a personal feeling thing and i am TERRIFIED of judgement, but if none of those things were problems i would want something pretty probably floral on like my wrist of something so i can see it easily and also bc tattoos look nice there OR i also like those kind of just geometric ones idk how to explain them but it always looks nice when people just have like bands or lines u know on their arms usually

[princelee-chang]

♡  ✧༺♥༻∞ m g a   m i n a m a h a l   k o ∞༺♥༻✧  ♡ 

a-k @anniebibananie @astreetcarnamedwynn @bethofbells @brittaden @carasynthiaas @cassianndrs  @dearestloveliestelizabeth @coredrive  @ddindjarin @donotkissmrdarcysbust @dykeeddie  @emraanhashmis @favnia @gendryatrash @gendryxaryatrash  @halfagony-halfhope @heartglows @ja9toextremes @kylorenvevo 

l-z

@lightblindingme  @malkinse @mariaromanovs @mimoitei @mileystewart @moonxtide @not-so-weary-pilgrim @oriyala @placethemoonatmyeyes @quiescentem-puella @padmesgreene @rorylgilmore   @riduur @sarma @spectroscopes @starklinqs @swishandflickwit  @thefatws @thelittlestengine @toxiccicadas @vhsgf @woahpip @yva

[coredrive]

i was tagged by @pascalplease, @zeldasayer, @tarrevizslas, @forever-rogue, and probably three bajillion others (it’s hard to keep up when tumblr doesn’t want to show me half my mentions) to share five facts about myself so we can all get to know each other better! here goes nothing.

i’ve lived in the same place my entire life and i’ve never really traveled further than the tri-state area. biggest vacation i’ve ever taken was to washington DC many years ago on a fourth of july holiday and i’d freaking LOVE to go back. i’d spend ages at all of the museums if i could.

i have thirteen cats and two dogs. all but two cats are rescues and even the two that aren’t were from the vet’s office after they had found them abandoned as kittens.

i dropped out of high school at 17 (soonest i could) and completed my GED a whole four days before i turned 18. in freshmen year i was forced to move from the school district i had been attending school in since preschool to the one i actually lived in.

my favorite thing to do is paint. i’m not the best at it but i can spend hours and hours on painting something and not even realize how much time has gone by just because i was so absorbed into my work. i used to paint with acrylics only but within the last year or so i’ve come to really love working with watercolor.

i love to play video games. my favorite from the past few years has to have been far cry 5 and far cry new dawn (the sequel). before playing those i couldn’t remember the last time i had gotten so absolutely sucked into a game and had so much fun. 

i’m tagging @carasynthiaas, @cassianndrs, @woahpip, @sarma, @minimithi, @oriyala, @vhsgf, @scorpionsandhoney, @mariaromanovs, @donnvdonowitz, @batata-elegante, @ddindjarin, @moonxtide, and @riduur. only if you want to do it, of course! ♡

[abiik]

@vhsgf replied to your post “this song made me realize i've never written about jason missing zoe”

heather this might be too forward and angsty of me to say (pls lmk if is) but now i am curious about zoe reacting to jason's death and then mirroring w jason coming back from the dead and then finding out his best friend is dead. like it sounds so PAINFUL but like. also i wanna know about it. heather what have you done i-

i had to put my hair up for this. im literally so emotional about this rn,,,like when am i not but STILL OKAY IT MAKES ME VERY [SCREECHES] (also a read more because this is fucking long im so sorry)

okay let’s start with zoe because jason’s death is a traumatic thing for her on like multiple points all relating back to when she was like elementary school aged (im pretty sure i have it where she’s like 8 ish when this happens). before jason and before going into the whole vigilante business – no matter what version of zoe you prefer – she loses her two younger brothers in a joker related accident. he kills them. and zoe… zoe is so,,, well she’s angry. because no one does anything. no one. not that fabled batman, not the police, not the fucking government – NOBODY. and she’s just supposed to keep living her life like everything is fucking fine because oh that’s just the way gotham is. and like why the fuck would she just keep living her life when her barely out of toddler aged little brothers are now dead?? why wouldn’t she want to do something about that?? why the fuck should she just let it roll off her back like no biggie?? (of course, this is a catalyst for her mother’s downward spiral and eventual disappearance, and then keme’s).

then of course, there’s zoe’s powers. at that age she didn’t really understand the extent of them, what she could do with them and all that, but as they develop and her own awareness of them develop, she is faced by like intense guilt and remorse. if only she’d been able to do something. if only she’d been there. if only she could’ve stopped the joker. if only, if only, if only. and like, realistically, there wasn’t much she could do. it wasn’t like she knew fully how strong she was; she’d barely gotten flying down at that point, but then she’s growing up and she realizes she never really had a limit. and she kind of has this complex, i’ve said it before but she really does try to bear the weight of the world on her shoulders, so everything that has happened to her up until this point after the twins die, it’s partly her fault; if only she could have been better, she could have saved them, she could have her mom, she could have keme – she could have her family back.

then, of course, there is in all of this her intense hatred of the joker. and by correlation to the whole fucking issue, gotham city and batman. (ive said that they kind of grow to like each other more, but when z and jay become friends and through their teen years until his death, it’s kind of like whenever youre gay and your bff is gay and you both kind of hate the other’s really fucked up parent who’s okay sometimes but isn’t all the time and you would totally like throw down with them if only there weren’t like,,,repercussions)

anyway, so when jason dies, it’s a big fucking deal. like he’d already been acting weird, bruce was worried about him, z was worried about him, and then he dies okay. and zoe… bruce doesn’t tell zoe right away. he doesn’t tell her and when zoe does find out, she. is. pissed. all of the shit with her baby brothers comes back. she wasn’t there. she wasn’t able to save him – because she sure as hell KNOWS that she could have at this point. and now he’s GONE. AND THIS ENTIRE TIME, SHE HAD NO FUCKING CLUE BECAUSE BRUCE DIDN’T TELL HER!!! she couldn’t even go to his funeral!!! and then, AND THEN, on fucking top of that – it was the joker who killed him. so jason’s death was like a fucking quadruple blow to her.

after finding out the details, zoe goes binary for the first time. and it’s… well it’s scary. it takes a whole lot of coaxing from old teammates and being physically restrained by diana (who lowkey is kinda like why?? are?? we?? stopping?? her?? from?? killing?? the?? joker??) and clark and donna, and they can’t even really knock her out because when she’s binary, there’s only really waiting out the duration of the high until she passes tf out from using too much energy. which she DOES and then after a good long talk with gran-gran, zoe’s going on a much needed retreat with diana to themyscira.

during that time, zoe’s super depressed. like reasonably, so. she’s so exhausted and she’s still angry but she’s also just like,,, so tired. she lost her best friend dude. like she loves jason so much, she loves him so much, and then he was just gone. poof! and at least, at least with atsa and ahiga, she got to like, be there for their send off. jason ends up being another hole in her life, like her dad and her mom and keme. he’s added to this list of people who all were just…g o n e. she didn’t get to mourn them. like obviously, she can, but every time she thinks about jason, she begins to spiral. (this is kind of when she starts drinking,,,, human alcohol can’t really touch her but she does therapeutically – which is!! not good!!) she also begins to distance herself – from jason’s titans (connor holds on with an iron grip and eddie still checks up on her, but rose was just as distraught and kyle is still kind of numb), from the original titans, from bruce and alfred, from diana, even from gran-gran and uncle bell. she fills the void with work as well as the alcohol that doesn’t really do anything to her except make her mouth taste gross and weird and she hates it but it’s become a habit. if she isn’t out doing some reckless thing while saving the world, then she’s at a bar or just sitting by the ocean.

she has bad dreams too, like horrible dreams. and like,,, they’re not necessarily horrific or anything,, she usually dreams about good times, memories with jason or with atsa and ahiga, sometimes some weird mixture of all three of them hanging out together and it’s the worst fucking thing because she wakes up and she wishes she was there too, that she could stay with them, because she misses them so much. she just wants her family back, she wants the family she had before jason and dick and alfred and the titans, but she also wants them too – she wants all of it.

and then it all comes to head with her dad’s sudden involvement with earth and shit. zoe sacrifices herself not only because she carries the fucking world on her shoulders and has a stupid martyr complex, but also because she thinks she’d be okay dying like this. she doesn’t. die that is. she doesn’t die but she also doesn’t come back.

jason’s revival story arc thing is all a bit murky for me bc I kind of like mix the whole waking up and clawing himself from his grave and also the under the red hood storyline (and like correct me if there is a version like that bc like,,, idk I can’t remember). anyway, so jason comes back, and like it’s kind of messy bc of timeline shit but he doesn’t really come back, come back, until z’s gone. like gone gone. like they held a funeral and everything for her. jason didn’t get to go and THAT is SHIT. like yeah, he wasn’t fucking alive, nobody fucking knows he’s alive anyway, but it still hurts.

and like,,, you know what else kind of hurts, is like he kind of thought that after he came back, if no one was on his side – if for some reason literally everyone was against him – he’d still have zoe. that’s the worst fucking part. he hears about what happened. he hears that she literally went ballistic. and like,, jason KNOWS that zoe would have his side, that zoe would be there for him, that even if she might not have agreed with some of the things he’s done, that she’d be right by his side, showing she cares. because like. like I know bruce is kind of stunted with emotional expression, but it’s really hard to feel like you’re appreciated when someone else’s love language is so fucking hard to translate, when you need constant validation, to be told you matter to be shown you matter to them and they can’t accommodate even a little bit, because of their pride or because they have to deem that you deserve it all of a sudden. and like I love bruce, but they way he treats his kids is shit. so yeah. jason feels hella alone when he comes back and his best friend, his rock, his ride or die (literally wfkejvnk) is fucking gone.

jason definitely has nightmares too. he doesn’t know how zoe died, like really know – no one does, because there hadn’t been a body. and jason’s mind can be a pretty dark place already, add on top of that the nightmares about his best friend dying the same way he did, or being like dick, who actually witnessed the explosion that ‘killed’ zoe. he can’t even fathom what zoe went through with his death, but eventually, as jason kind of comes back into the batfam and shit, he also kind of gets to be with the last of zoe’s family. gran-gran and uncle bell are much warmer than bruce wayne and that too big mansion and that cold fucking cave. jason goes to the ranch a lot, or finds himself at uncle bell’s antique shop whenever he needs a breather, to just be alone with something that close to zoe.

they literally both go through that period where they’re extremely reckless with mourning and regrets and fuck i never got to say this and fuck what could I have done differently, what could I have changed if I’d been there? but where jason is able to recover more effectively, zoe doesn’t do so well in space.

really, that song had triggered thoughts about jason going through her things, the things she left in his bedroom – that bruce refused to touch or move or anything – and just thinking back on their life together. it was definitely shorter than they expected and when jason thinks about it, it’s a whole bunch of salty anger and throat swelling sadness that has him kind of crippled. because like,,, he also knows how the twins died, he knows how it happened, not only did he have the firsthand accounts from those most effected, but also like, he read the reports. he KNOWS, and he feels kind of guilty, just a little bit, that what he did put her through a similar version to losing her baby brothers.

NREJKVNERLFEWLFJNEKR FUCK OKAY I THINK I NEED TO STOP LIKE THIS IS OBVIOUSLY JUST A BIG DUMB BUT BFJKERNFKJEN F   U   C   K  OKAY

[oldblood]

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JO!!!! 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[monstress]

this or that tag game: arcane elements cycle wip aesthetics by @aesterea

RULES: copy and paste the entire post. do not remove the credit in the above title. bold the option(s) you feel most connected to. tag who tagged you, and tag at least three others.

tagged by: @aesterea

SENSUAL: the meadow or the mountains? the desert or the winter wasteland? castle or village? palace underwater or castle in the clouds? ghosts or beasts? sparks or snow? black or red? red or blue? silver or gold? light or dark? day or night? silhouette or shadow? tarot cards or playing cards? fire or water?

SENTIMENTAL: defiance or devotion? memory or prophecy? beauty or mischief? creation or destruction? control or submission? like calls to like or opposites attract? live for love, die for love, or kill for love? chaos or cleverness? mystery or history? friendship or romance? haunt or be haunted? you are mine or i am yours? secrets or confessions? treasured waste or wasted treasure?

ARCHETYPAL: death or the lovers (tarot)? the magician or the wheel of fortune (tarot)? the moon or the hermit (tarot)? the savior or the martyr? the healer or the assassin? the damsel or the dragon? the songbird or the dragon? the siren or the sailor? the dreamer or the dream? the captor or the captive? the rose consumed by the flame or the flame that consumes the rose?

tagging: @vhsgf @howaboutbucky @tartts

[surskip]

13, 14, 27 !

13 - what’s your comfort food?it depends on my mood but i really like slightly salty cookies.. like chocolate chip or ginger.. salty is my favourite flavor!

14 - favorite feel-good show?any low-stakes show or show i’ve seen a hundred times before.. i cant think of any specifics atm though! 

27 - which character would you want to be?in general? hmm.. probably a background character or an npc in a farming/life sim game.. it would be cool to Save The World or something, but i am not really capable of doing that i think, at least not without getting eaten