#very loud and violent abt it and it was not mentioned but that was only bc i was trying to be polite w my friends hm boyfriend

[cinnabeat]

i love when i make a post abt a topic and then the tags get derailed and it becomes abt something else

[whataboutsimple]

I can just see domino effect play out starting from when Gabriel meets Hadrian and Romeo. Romeo’s got no admin powers but he’s still an evil gremlin and Hadrian just escaped with Mevia. In walks in Gabriel who helps them and tries to get them to go good and then they both fall in love separately (Mevia is totally teasing Hadrian). Gabriel then reunites with Ivor, the two catch up and Gabriel talks about the people he met and formed a crush on and the names mentioned made Ivor spat out his drink and do a double take; “S-sorry… I think I misheard or perhaps I’m mistaking someone else who shares the same name. You said that you like Hadrian and Romeo?” “Yes, I did. Hadrian is a skilled builder, it amazes me how fast he can build with the resources he has and while Romeo is quite dramatic, he’s also funny at times.” “… Gabriel?” “Yes?” “THOSE PEOPLE ARE DANGEROUS!!!” “What? But they’re very nice and give great hugs. Sure they can be violent at times but they’re not too bad.”

Ivor flips his cauldron in sheer anger shock and disbelief and the protective instinct he thought had died in him cracked up through the roof. He’s shaking Gabriel, trying to convince him that these men are people he should stay away from but poor Gabriel and his darn optimistic golden retriever personality thinks that they’re alright and can improve which only makes Ivor panic and dread even more. He knows for a fact that this is a result of the order because Gabriel wasn’t like this and now that he’s left without supervision he got mixed into a bad crowd and Ivor is berating himself for thinking that Gabriel would remain the sanest, he was so wrong.

And so Ivor drags Gabriel to Beacontown and calls an emergency meeting with Ellegard/Magnus, Jesse’s gang, Harper, Otto and Xara to discuss the problem and needless to say, everyone lost it. Petra is in disbelief and denial, ready to shank a man, Axel and Olivia are completely baffled because why Gabriel?! Why those two?! There are better fish in the sea that give better hugs! Lukas is watching this all unfurl, gobsmacked and shaking unable to get everyone to calm down, Jesse’s trying to stop the old order from going on a killing spree, Harper and Otto are worried and Xara who started believing that there’s food in the world again, took one look at Gabriel, the man who somehow reminds her too much of her friend Fred and goes, “Alright, screw it. I’m going to murder Romeo. Who wants to join me?”

“I’m gonna make them regret getting close to my innocent boy!”

“Ivor I’m around the same age as you!”

“No, no, absolutely not! I am not letting those guys even lay a hand on my dad!”

“Wait, dad?”

The commotion gets so loud other people hear it and subsequently started freaking out because what the heck Gabriel. And later on, in the depths of the end Soren has been training the enderman to pick up more blocks, picked up a paper from an enderman who brought it alongside the block and screamed across the dimension, “GABRIEL HAS A CRUSH ON WHO?!?!”

Dear Anon, I don't know who you are, I don't know why you doing with, and I don't know what did I do to deserve this, but two things I know for sure: THIS IS PURE PERFECTION AND I LOVE YOU!!

My poor pillow got beaten up while I was reading this bc it's freaking funny, hilarious, silly and so on, and on, and on!

At this point I really think that Hadrian and Romeo are the ones who's in danger because- look at the gang. They aren't joking. Someone's going to be murdered.

It's also funny how I've come from talking about RomeoXGabriel with @yourdarlingwarrior to talking about polycule between Hadrian, Gabriel and Romeo with you. When I joined the fandom, I couldn't imagine I would have a chance to even open my mouth abt something like that.

And Soren's screams in the End are pick of humor. Old man hoped at least one of his friends kept his mind, but no, no he didn't. Oh gosh, what have he done?

You know what else is funny? How those two gremlins probably will do everything in their power to annoy each other. They both have "god-complex" and whole Gabriel is someone who gives them "admiration and attention they deserve", for each other they are more like.. "Who is this fool trying to imitate my greatness? And what is he doing near MY diamond admirer?"

But since Gabriel loves them both, they can't hurt each other bc he'll get sad. What now? Of course they will piss each other off.

"Wdym your house was blown up? Idk watcha talking abt."

"Huh? What was that? You fell into the hole full of slimes? Aw, poor thing."

And so on.

So our golden retriever wet puppy dog Gabriel sits there, pets his doggy (who's name prob Lucky or smth) and talks to Nurm cause he's the only one who kept his sanity unlike others (Jack lost it after Petra told him what's going on cause "THIS? THIS RED MAN? GABRIEL, I THOUGHT YOU WERE A SMART WARRIOR-").

Pure chaos. We can see here pure chaos of a big and strange family, chat. I will never get tired of talking abt them.

Anon, have my best wishes, good day/night, luck of life and ect. because I love you!

[proxylynn]

…..Im starting to like Damon…please tell me some canon facts abt him and his personality.

[*cracks knuckles* Okay...Here's everything from his bio page.]

Name- Stalker (real name- Damon) Color- Red Age- 30 January 6, Capricorn, chinese zodiac: Rooster, 1993 Height- 194 cm Gender- Male sexuality- Pansexual and poly but only with MC and DG Horoscope- Capricorn Personality- quiet, forgiving, curious, clingy, caring but also violent when he loses his temper, gets jealous easily. Ability- Good sense of smell, strong bite force. He pretty much has ability of wolf. Likes- gardening, roses, meat, calm music, bees, MC, taking photos. Dislikes- loud noises, the feeling of loneliness, getting heart broken, rough/bad scents. Work- Florist Voice- Similar voice with Legoshi from Beastar favorite animal- Bees favorite food and drink- Meat and coffee/energy drinks Kink- knife play/blood play, biting, gentle and rough sex, teasing, sadism/masochism, hair pulling, praise.

Backstory- During his younger years Stalker had always been very quiet and awkward around others. He wasn't very popular during his school years and he was bullied heavily due to his shy nature. To stay calm he would carry a rose in pot with him, this would lead to even more bullying. Eventually he became used to being bullied but things became more difficulty when he developed a crush. Being so shy he didn't have the courage to talk to her so he started to stalk her in hopes of getting to know her better. When he finally got enough courage to talk to her and tell her about his feelings things didn't go so well. When she realized that he had been stalking her she became very angry and disturb with him. She rejected him and ruined the rose he tried to give her as a gift of his love. She told other people about what he did and from then on people started to call him Stalker. He didn't care about being called Stalker and over time he accept it as his new name. But being rejected by his crush hurt him very deeply. This rejection angred him so much that one day he killed her. He was never caught for his crime but people suspected him to be the culprit, however they thought he's was to weak to do something like that. He was still bullied and he did his best to avoided others. The bullying did stop when he lost his temper after one of the bullies attacked him and ruined his potted rose. In his rage he attacked the bully and brutally beat them. Afterwards his parents decided to move away to get a new start for him.

As an adult he continued to avoided people but his loneliness and depression became too much for him to bare. He yearned to find someone he could be close to and love but he was fearful of being rejected again. So he went back stalking people he developed an interest with. Even though he believed he won't find anybody he hoped that one day he would find the right one. And even though they were just crushes he would get extremely jealous if someone flirted with his crush. He would kill the ones who tried to take his crushes away. During one of his killing episodes he meet Delivery guy who was trying to find a new victim. Delivery guy was very interested in Stalker and wanted to get to know him better and eventually they became close friends.

-He had crush on Angel but since she is very popular he never really got a chance to get close to her and tell her about his feelings so when the times passed he slowly began to lose the hope that he could ever be her boyfriend what eventually end up to giving up and moving on with his life. It was tough for him but it hurt even more not being able to reach to her. (not to mention he doesn't like being constantly jealous. Which happens a lot when he had to watch others fawning over Angel.)

Extra- -He works at flower shop. -loves dancing. -He played piano when he was younger. -loves swimming. -Has sensitive ears. -He doesn't really know how to cook (maybe simple ones) but pretty much because of this he usually eats the meat raw. (He can eat raw meat without any problem. He won't get sick.) -He owns a big bee plushie what he usually hugs when he's sleeping or when he's feeling sad. -He likes to play games with DG even though he's not very good at playing. -He's only ok sharing MC with DG but he can get jealous if DG gets more attention than him. -Loves chocolate. -Damon has sometimes thought about getting help because there been times when people has told him to get help so he gets these thoughts that he should but DG doesn't like the idea and always tells Damon that he doesn't need it and those people who has said that are wrong and he's perfect how he is. DG tries his best to turn Damon's thoughts away from it because he worries he will lose his friend.

[fckedinlove-inactive]

my boy and i finally got the chance to actually fuck around and not just something super quick while his roommate is sleeping and fuck, was it worth it.

our first round was the first time we’ve talked abt anything violent (while i’m getting him off) in a really long time. earlier today i made a few small cuts in the middle of my chest, at the bottom of my sternum, and he went fucking insane for it. i showed him videos and photos of me dragging my knife along my torso and pressing the point to the gap between each half of my rib cage. i told him all about how easy it’d be just to drive the knife all the way into my body, and his response was to make a post abt exactly what he wanted to do to me (which i’ll add a screenshot of). tonight when i was letting him use his toy, i talked abt how i’d let him dig his hands all the way into my abdomen and feel my warm body around him while he rides me. i reminded him that when people die, they get especially hard—that he could very likely get me to cum inside him even once i’m dead. i don’t remember the last time i heard him get that loud. we talked more abt how he could bite my tongue off and drink the blood from my mouth, taste me while he cums around my necro cock. he came so fucking hard; i could hear him caught in limbo, his body stuck hesitating on the edge right before it finally fucking hit him and he came harder than he has in probably a month.

the second round started with him asking me to call him a good little boy. of course i couldn’t help but oblige him more times than i’d like to admit. after that i was sure to make up for it by humiliating him for how fucked up he is. ageplay used to be in his “hard limits” list on tumblr, then he ended up taking it out just a few weeks into knowing me. i never forced it on him; all i did was call him a good little boy every now and then and he completely threw himself into it, asking me for more. i just gave him what he wanted so repeatedly that he realized no normal person would be in tears begging to get fucked like a little boy, so he took it out of his limits. it was only a matter of time before he moved it into his kink list. i made him do exactly what i mentioned, by the way—repeat “please fuck me like a little boy” over and over. the way his breath caught in his throat as he turned his toy up a setting genuinely sent chills throughout my entire fucking body. i had him grind up against it nonstop (and now that i’m laying here writing this out and imagining his hips working against his toy, i’m struggling to finish this post). he came nearly as hard as the first time once i finally let him. he sounded so fucking pretty too, especially because i’d kept telling him that i wanted to hear him, that it was the least he could do after all the work i’ve put into making him worse.

the third round was a lot more relaxed. baby boy was getting sleepy so i had him drink some water and get comfortable in bed before letting him use his toy again. i don’t remember a good amount of what i was saying; from what i can recall it was a way more toned down version of the second round. i vaguely remember lots of praise, though. he accidentally came after a short conversation about me using his throat and mouth while he’s gagging, drool and tears running down his face. i think that’s what actually pushed him over the edge—me telling him in the softest voice there’d be drool coating his face just like a pretty little boy and i’d have to wipe it off. he made the sleepiest, most adorable moans before a couple quiet whimpers of “cumming” and then finally the sounds to prove it.

i want to emphasize how much i fucking love this boy and how important he is to me. i don’t usually mention this, but i always check in with him before, during, and after. he always gets as much aftercare as i can offer with lots of “i love you’s.” i don’t generally like to mention it because i consider it very intimate and would like to keep it as such, but i also want to state that my baby boy is very loved and very well taken care of. i expect a lot of praise from whoever reads this so i can show him and put a pretty smile on his face. (he does have a very cute smile, by the way.)

[coelacat]

I am very intrigued by adam harding and stu sullivan please share a crumb of their lore🙏

hehe hi ��

okay okay ill finally gush abt them

also i should warn that some fucked shit!! happens to these characters. dont read my lore about them if abuse/rape/substance abuse/bigotry isnt stuff you wanna see. anything under the cut is just a brief mention, but its there

so most of my ocs (the guys with relatively normal names, anyone named like. blade or some fantasy name ignore them for now) are a set of young adults in the 80s in small town midwest USA (some town in iowa, probably) (if any of this sounds familiar to anyone keep it to urself :)). i wanna cover their struggles with highschool, struggling with transitional periods, and then growing into adulthood. im debating if i wanna add and supernatural/scifi elements of have it focus on their relationships and internal struggles mostly, but those are minor details for later on down the road

adam!! hes like. My Main Guy. the one i ended up making this whole lil universe for. bold that i created all of this for him basically and i still named him after adam from the bible, yet it gives me a complex i deeply enjoy so i do it anyway. i am a god who created the world for man, not man for the world.

most of these characters play off 80s media stereotypes and expand on them, and i think adam is like. the most blatant example of this. you know that movie from the 80s-90s you last watched that had a misogynistic metalhead who pulled chicks because he viewed them as objects to win, loved his car, and was angry and violent most of the time, while people who were scared of him vaguely assumed he was satanic in some way? thats adam harding. bleached blonde hair done in a perm mullet, a shitty stache hes convinced makes him look mature, sad brown eyes, leather jackets, and steel toed boots, with tattoos to really top it all off.

semi repressed devout christian faggot who struggles with his own sexuality and identity. hes got daddy issues AND mommy issues (though his mommy issues are much more prominent) and an abusive and neglectful home life, he has to adapt to having a sister after being an only child his whole life, and he has to adjust to a move half way across the country, from southern california to the middle of nowhere hick iowa. as a result, hes quick to anger, never lets his guard down unless around other queers, but ultimately he wants to be good. he was told to be good by his mother, its been ingrained in him from a young age to be nice and do good things. its just unfortunate that his environment allows for that as little as possible. when he has the patience and energy, hes often a lot gentler, but its rare for him to not be running on fumes and a bit of nicotine.

his hobbies include chasing milfs and cougars, working on his car, working out, surfing, blaring Dio as loud as humanly possible, chainsmoking, basketball and wrestling. keep those last two in mind.

on the other hand, stewie "stu" sullivan is the star example of what a highschool student should be. athletically, hes the top of the school, hes got pretty hair and a handsome face, a kind of preppy style, and girls go wild over him. soft brunet hair, sweet freckles occasionally dotting his skin, and lovesick hazel eyes. hes even a total sweetheart who usually treats his girlfriends really well. his only downsides are his mild stupidity, petty mean streak, his shitty guard dog entourage, and his twin brother, kurtis.

stu comes from an upper middle class home, and hes got high expectations set on him. hes consistently been great on whatever local sports team hes been a part of, and the success of his whole future rests on his shoulders to continue doing well. he'll have a free ticket to college, if only he can stay the top of his school, athletically. in terms of popularity, hes pretty slow to give up that as well.

you can probably guess that having the constant pressure to be perfect from his parents creates a lot of friction, however, hes always been seen as the "good" of the two twins. he cant really rebel in any meaningful way, as the expectations placed on him keep him locked in place of being well mannered with adults. towards other students, however, stu will happily pick some fights to blow off steam. its usually with the teens that dont fight back, of course, and its usually only a couple petty insults and a half hearted shove. one affected girl thought that she mightve seen remorse in his expression when he walked away. she was written off as being down bad for him.

oh, right. remember those hobbies of adams i asked you to keep in mind? basketball and wrestling?

yeag .... that might be because stu is the top of the team for wrestling and basketball, and is constantly regarded as the schools mvp.

you can imagine how easily theyd hate each other. theyre both hormonal teenagers who are angry all the time and feel insanely guilty about being angry so they only get angrier and now theyre both challenging each others masculinity. adam very quickly comes for the top spot in the sports stu is good at, so they end up beefing with each other fast and hard. its a constant cock measuring contest with them, and they frequently bloody each others noses.

this sorta fued carries on, and they make no real progress with each other for like 6 months, until adam meets eve, a mysterious newcomer to the town who refuses to say much about herself. shes very obviously queer, and he latches onto her almost immediately as a result of that, and verious other reasons. eventually, eve will coax out adams queerness and he'll be a little more comfortable with himself and end up realizing "fuckkkkkj dude ive got a crush on that prettyboy whos blood ive tasted!!". stu will eventually be coaxed into realizing himself and fixing some of his issues as well as they get older, though all that stuff is a lot more vague in my mind at the moment.

the post i rbed from you tagging as them, id imagine is after adam meets eve, and starts spreading his faggot agenda to stu, but before either of them are fully comfortable with the fact that theyre into men.

stu will eventually have some gender fuckery going on too, but like. thats complicated and i wanna wait and explore that once i have a more comfortable grasp on his character.

if you want a voice claim for adam, i particularly like Randy from Idle Hands (1999) for him? i still gotta nail down voice claims for most other characters though. sorry that adams my favorite

[fckedinlove]

my boy and i finally got the chance to actually fuck around and not just something super quick while his roommate is sleeping and fuck, was it worth it.

our first round was the first time we’ve talked abt anything violent (while i’m getting him off) in a really long time. earlier today i made a few small cuts in the middle of my chest, at the bottom of my sternum, and he went fucking insane for it. i showed him videos and photos of me dragging my knife along my torso and pressing the point to the gap between each half of my rib cage. i told him all about how easy it’d be just to drive the knife all the way into my body, and his response was to make a post abt exactly what he wanted to do to me (which i’ll add a screenshot of). tonight when i was letting him use his toy, i talked abt how i’d let him dig his hands all the way into my abdomen and feel my warm body around him while he rides me. i reminded him that when people die, they get especially hard—that he could very likely get me to cum inside him even once i’m dead. i don’t remember the last time i heard him get that loud. we talked more abt how he could bite my tongue off and drink the blood from my mouth, taste me while he cums around my necro cock. he came so fucking hard; i could hear him caught in limbo, his body stuck hesitating on the edge right before it finally fucking hit him and he came harder than he has in probably a month.

the second round started with him asking me to call him a good little boy. of course i couldn’t help but oblige him more times than i’d like to admit. after that i was sure to make up for it by humiliating him for how fucked up he is. ageplay used to be in his “hard limits” list on tumblr, then he ended up taking it out just a few weeks into knowing me. i never forced it on him; all i did was call him a good little boy every now and then and he completely threw himself into it, asking me for more. i just gave him what he wanted so repeatedly that he realized no normal person would be in tears begging to get fucked like a little boy, so he took it out of his limits. it was only a matter of time before he moved it into his kink list. i made him do exactly what i mentioned, by the way—repeat “please fuck me like a little boy” over and over. the way his breath caught in his throat as he turned his toy up a setting genuinely sent chills throughout my entire fucking body. i had him grind up against it nonstop (and now that i’m laying here writing this out and imagining his hips working against his toy, i’m struggling to finish this post). he came nearly as hard as the first time once i finally let him. he sounded so fucking pretty too, especially because i’d kept telling him that i wanted to hear him, that it was the least he could do after all the work i’ve put into making him worse.

the third round was a lot more relaxed. baby boy was getting sleepy so i had him drink some water and get comfortable in bed before letting him use his toy again. i don’t remember a good amount of what i was saying; from what i can recall it was a way more toned down version of the second round. i vaguely remember lots of praise, though. he accidentally came after a short conversation about me using his throat and mouth while he’s gagging, drool and tears running down his face. i think that’s what actually pushed him over the edge—me telling him in the softest voice there’d be drool coating his face just like a pretty little boy and i’d have to wipe it off. he made the sleepiest, most adorable moans before a couple quiet whimpers of “cumming” and then finally the sounds to prove it.

i want to emphasize how much i fucking love this boy and how important he is to me. i don’t usually mention this, but i always check in with him before, during, and after. he always gets as much aftercare as i can offer with lots of “i love you’s.” i don’t generally like to mention it because i consider it very intimate and would like to keep it as such, but i also want to state that my baby boy is very loved and very well taken care of. i expect a lot of praise from whoever reads this so i can show him and put a pretty smile on his face. (he does have a very cute smile, by the way.)

(originally posted oct 6)

[ranboo5]

Dropping the Ranboo mixtape

Anyway at time of starting to write this post I had two likes and two affirmative replies, which is Good Enough For Me, so here I am :D I was gonna link the YT but on second thought my YT channel is a mess so this is gonna be one of the annoying ones that doesn’t link to one you can actually listen to but 

This is also a running list and currently organized roughly by increasingly hotter takes and it’s under a cut bc it’s 13 songs and I justified all of them 

Everybody Likes You (Lemon Demon) - LISTEN THE ANIMATION MEMES WEREN’T LYING THAT EVERYBODY LIKES YOU CAN RANBOOCORE. The increasingly distorted, incredibly bright repetition of EVERYBODY LIKES YOU EVERYBODY LIKES YOU EVERYBODY LIKES YOU until you can hear it morphing in and out of EVERYBODY LIED TO YOU? Tell Me That’s Not Him In The Spiral Depths 

Tall (Naps the Block on YT) - This is a) literally a theme for the End, b) sounds stumbling and anxious/high-strung, and c) echoes the Pigstep melody in the middle while still very much doing its own thing this is self explanatory 

Dance of Thorns/Old Secret mashup (Tensei and James Roach respectively, feat. woodfur00 on YT) (yes this is Homestuck music) - It’s just the vibes. The energy. The way the elegance of the violin lines of Dance of Thorns sounds almost nervous especially against the almost noir mystery vibes of Old Secret, and the guitar lines of Dance of Thorns add like. Initiative/urgency especially when they underlay the other music it’s so good I don’t think either song alone is Ranboo vibes but this remix definitely is. Just the mix of perseverance and desperation and melancholy and mystery and Class 

Touch-Tone Telephone (Lemon Demon) - This one is old news but tbh it just works. Man decides he’s the correct one in this situation and he’s losing his entire mind that no one is listening to him because he just is not 

2012 (Will Wood) - This one isn’t really clever it’s just about memory loss, derealization, identity, and often self-hatred (“A miserable fuck, but a loud Tao mystical” is a lot). “Did you lose yourself?/It’s always in the last place that you check” sounds so mocking in ways internal monologues like Droice have been and “I might find myself/By retracing my steps” is literally just Ranboo dealing with the Enderwalk; “And not until lobotomy abolished my monotony/Did I applaud autonomy, and modify a lot of me!” works so much for him Dealing With Himself generally, and also “I heard the world would turn to hell/Compared to that, I’m doing well!” is a Him sentiment 

Hand Me My Shovel, I’m Going In! (Will Wood) - Jokes about the three hour mining/grinding streams aside. Not only is the chorus so heavily a spiral/self-evaluation mood, but literally consider his thought processes abt the things he’s done/allegedly done and then consider “My dreams were shattered like a stained-glass window/Jesus in pieces! I believe I through a brick right through Him/But my memory could not be saved!/It just seems unlikely that it’s me who was to blame/So I bookmark my DSM, ‘cause I need to remember my place.” And now with the advent of the “experiments” the second verse’s “Take the road on higher ground, and tell me ‘don’t look down! You’ll fall and break your back’/But that just reminds me how there’s more to be found beneath the black!” is more relevant than ever 

Friends With You (The Scary Jokes) - Oh my god. Oh my fucking god man. This could be on here for “I put myself to bed just halfway through the party/I love all my friends, but I hate when their eyes are on me” alone but the general almost empty saccharine vibe of the song is immensely his vibe; the humorlessly-smiling vocal fry on “don’t know” in “Why do you pretend/You don’t know who’s to blame?” is probably responsible for 80% of this read. Not to mention the first lyrics are literally “How long do I have to wait/’Til my lonely days are over?” which is really the. The waiting it out man the So When Do I Get To Be Okay of it all. Shoutouts also to “And the crumbling infrastructure no one else can see,” the self hatred of “I miss being friends with you/But what can I do/What can I do/But leave you alone?” and to “And I can tell you really love me/Can you tell I’m really sorry?” Just. The mix of hope+affection and dejected cynicism and self-hatred in the lyrics

Saline Solution (none other than Mr Wilbur Soot) - Remember what I said about waiting it out until you get to be okay? Anyway that’s crystallized in “If I could just break one more night/Maybe I could wake up and feel alright” and also this is literally a song about catastrophizing and self-evaluation just,, in general and I will not be highlighting all the lyrics about this but I will highlight the fact that he literally calls himself pragmatic and also the lyric “blurring the facts and the fiction.” Also, the sheer desperate anger-concealing-breakdown vibes of “I think I’ve made my choice” to “I think I’ve found my voice” deserves a mention, as does the culminating end of “saline solution to all your problems” with the tears+now splash water motifs of it all with Ranboo I am going to die 

Funny (The Scary Jokes) - This is actually a softer take but not only does it literally start with the singer pleading with the addressee to look away, it  continues with “I went up in the middle of the night and I climbed right onto the stage/And I raged/And I cried/Oh, what a funny joke am I” disregarding everything as performance, reemphasizes the opening demand with the qualifier “it’s not that I hate you, it’s just that I’m funny these days,” and then kills you with the last couple lines which. Yeah he does care and it does,,, just,,,,, a

Chemical Overreaction (Will Wood) - This is where the mood VIOLENTLY whiplashes because this is where we get unhinged. Anyway “I won’t stop to drop to draw a line in the sand/’Cause I’ll be picked apart to pieces by coyotes!” is LITERALLY the whole “I don’t do well with ‘peer pressure’” thing. “Where the sentimental value of the city around ya/Is deleted obsolete, but still completely will stun ya” is the single most L’Manberg lyric I’ve ever heard, especially from the perspective of a character whom I will repeatedly insist is narratively in the role of someone who’s shown up and seen the status quo as an outsider after it’s been established (hence the eternal New Kid vibes). Chorus very much has vibes of Ranboo Is Seized By The Urge To Do Something, and like. The entire dramatic end part. The last two lines especially (be very careful if you look up the vieo for this by the way it is NOT pretty; cws in the video for flashing, blood, suicide imagery) 

A Mannequin Adrift (The Scary Jokes) - The Bitterness. This song is just fully The Bitterness at the environment he’s stuck in; the saccharine comes back as does the “peer pressure” thematic and just the Having An Awful Time; the sarcastic saccharine comes back too, which is always good I love passive aggression. Honestly the first verse is just everything like just listen to it it immediately makes sense

Poison Ivy Grows (The Scary Jokes) - This is overall a song about having bad brain and not knowing what the hell to do about it; it’s so faintly bitter and distant and melancholy and also so zoned out. Also, it’s not the only lyric that matters here but it is enough to be a full argument on its own: “I used to spend so much time/Wandering around outside/Now I’ve got too much on my mind/Now I’ve got too much on my mind” 

Spring Haze (Tori Amos) - Listen. Do I know what Spring Haze is about? No. Is that gonna stop me from saying it’s about Ranboo? Also no. I just think “You say we’ll never make it there/So all we do is circle it” is so much, the fact that the bridge at the end is just “Why does it always end up like this?” repeated, and that it just feels so much like overall the song feels like a desperate attempt to figure Something out, and the chorus is just inexplicably him? It might be partially influenced by the fact that “Uh-oh, let go, off on my way” and, to a lesser extent, “Uh-oh, way to go” is not only in accordance with character vibes but also vaguely evocative of Ranboo’s speech pattern

[minnie-mei]

yandere oc | jackson hyde

yandere oc intro !

note; this is the first of 4 yandere oc's I'll be introducing. i take requests for all of them and will answer any questions asked. i tried to give just the basic info so nothing in this is too long. I wanna explain more of him through scenarios :)

WARNING(S): Obsessive/Possessive behavior, abusive themes, mentions of kidnapping and other sensitive topics

general.

full name: jackson rose hyde

nicknames: hyde, jack, skullface

age: 23

gender: male/he/him

height: 6'5"

hair: black

eyes: hazel

occupation: auto mechanic, serial killer

likes: his darling, his height, repairing cars, puppies, piercings, knives, killing, hickeys, movies, fighting

dislikes: losing, roses, being ignored, strong perfume, crying, loud people, lying, being looked down on

personality: he's a smug individual, overconfident in everything he does. he's sarcastic and teasing, and loves to make others feel as though they're below him. socially, he comes off as kind and funny, but it's just a cover-up to hide his true psychotic self.

abt yandere.

yandere type. possessive, protective, aggressive

he'd only ever have 1 darling, he never wants another even if his current darling dies

despite being generally sadistic, he aims to treat his darling better than he treats others

he gets tattoos inspired by his darling, including one of their name

kidnapping is unavoidable, given his possessive nature and occupation as a serial killer lol

he's very reliant on sex and physical touch; he's not against forcing his darling to do what he wants

he's the type to enjoy mocking, degrading, and intimidating his darling

calls his darling 'doll', ‘babydoll’, ‘doll face’

he likes carrying his darling around, even if it's just around his apartment it's one of his few soft habits

he can be both masochistic and sadistic; wants to be bitten and have his hair pulled, and to return the favor

his darling is only ever allowed to wear his clothes. usually just shirts with nothing else underneath.

sometimes he'll get them new cute underwear, but that's all they're getting from him

there's not many 'set' rules, as he's not very strict, but this can be scary bc whenever his darling does something he doesn't like, they get punished

they aren't ever told what it was they did or given any warnings

he's mean :/ but hot lmao

fun facts.

he hates his middle name because his mother chose it, not because of it's feminine nature

he was raised primarily by his single father, his mother having left when he was young

he's closer to a sociopath rather than a psychopath, despite his violent tendencies

he has a total of 11 piercings on his body, as well as two full sleeves of tattoos

he thoroughly enjoys his job, although he hates the hours he has to work

he smokes cigarettes

he can drive a motorcycle, but prefers walking due to living in a busy city

he was born in dorchester, boston, massachusetts; so he has an accent

he's very happy and confident in his height

he has a bit of a size kink oop-

a blood kink too he kinda nasty

not even necessarily his or his darling's blood either

he's considered attractive and knows it, which only feeds his already large ego

his killer alias is skullface, a nickname that was given to him bc of his skull mask he wears when killing

his existence is only known due to being caught on footage once

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next yandere oc . . . Kody !

- Admin Duckie

[funny-house]

huhu u got me to watch opal the other day since u keep talking abt it and im glad bc i Really Enjoyed It but !! anyways , i saw u mention mirror man doing makeup for someone and i keep thinking about it so Thoughts Incoming sorry in advance lmao. i think he would like to do claires makeup (and teach her abt it in general) when she gets a bit older,, both bc it seems like a legitimate hobby he would enjoy (i imagine if he werent Like That he probably could have been a makeup artist or something similar!) and bc he would like to ‘prettify’ her a bit.

and ah well,,, a lot of parents Like Him sometimes try 2 make their child a carbon copy of themselves or of an image they enjoy so if he grew to like claire more or already does like her enough for that (or just, wants things to revolve around him More) hed try to nudge things in that direction. and in his own way i think He might think hes doing something good, he knows when he was her age he would have killed to have a parent so eager to help him learn makeup and stuff but. claire isnt him. she probably isnt even interested in it at all but shes kinda desperate for Nice Moments and also doesnt wanna risk making him angry so she goes along with it. she always has her head in the clouds so all the things hes saying is too much at once but shes trying to comprehend it,,,,,

nd he keeps giggling at her for how awkwardly she moves her arm when putting on foundation and blush nd gets kind of annoyed with her for repeatedly flinching when he tries to help her with mascara nd teases her a bit for trying to taste the lip gloss (and keeps pointing out a flaw or two on her face “well, youve always had a sort of weird shaped face but youve always had the cutest little smile, its like Mine :)”) but they do it !! together !!! and nothing (that) bad happened !!!!!! so claire is happy,,,,,,,,,,, until that inevitably opens the gates of him trying to pick out what she wears for her and “””suggesting””” hairstyles for her and getting manipulative and even flatout Angry when she doesnt do what he wants her to (bc even when things Seem like theyre about claire they Are Not, its what He wants for her , in the end its still all about him) but, ive rambled enough to you already <:o) sorry for talking so much i just wanted to chat a bit abt opal with you !!!! hope ur doing well hehe . and im sorry this is rambly nd probably incomprehensible i just did a lot of work hkehri

ohhhhhhhh !!! FIRST  I am super glad that all my constant rambling about this man has allowed you to go watch Jack Stauber’s awesome little short, it’s really good and deserves all the support !!!

also i totally appreciate you wanting to share your thoughts with me ;u;

AND I TOTALLY AGREE  the whole idea of him projecting himself onto her, trying to take over her, I think that is so fitting for the short itself tbh, because it’s a reflection ( mirrors, hehe ) of what the mother wants from Claire as well. The thing that terrified Claire near the end is the mother reaching to hold onto her, specifically after the mom said that she was going to become just like her. The idea of her becoming her parents? it terrifies her, clearly!!

And Mirror Man, he is what they call a “archetypal narcissistic abuser”, in my eyes at least,  and it would be really really common to see someone like that not only be so controlling and self absorbed that they treat their child like a decoration to themselves, but also use that child, especially as they get old enough to have opinions on the situation, to turn them against their partner-- such as.... the mom

so picture this

Claire is like 10-12, and she’s bright and she’s got a good heart but she’s WELL and truly Affected by the years of being brought up in that ridiculously toxic hell hole-- I mean house no idea if the grandpa would live that long uhhh in his state, but even if he does, he’s still very sick, disabled, and senile and he isn’t going to be much help. and Claire, she’s starting to have Opinions,, on how things are running around here,,      but in swoops Mirror Dad

He’s like........ it’s your mother’s fault. Oh, absolutely, have you seen her? I mean look at her, she’s disgusting. she’s a drug addict, she’s a drunk, she’s ugly, she’s the reason you feel like this-- and maybe some of that is understandable, i mean she’s a real mess of a mom, no mistake, but hey

Nobody’s going to tell Claire who made her that way! Nobody’s going to tell her Mirror Dad was the one who trapped her in an unloving, possibly violent relationship, with a kid, and ripped apart every inch of her self worth !!!

Nope. she just sees the aftermath. So mirror dad...... turns claire on her. And she starts to side with him on things and she starts to even kinda talk like him maybe even....... learns how to do that dark and scary insecurity voice of his and one day She walks by the.... Reflection Chamber and Mirror Man is there in that way He Always Is in that seat he always sits in, and he says something very very odd to her!   he raises a finger and curls it in and says    come sit on my lap you haven’t gotten too big to sit on my lap have you?? come here!! and i mean Claire is still very very uncomfortable even being near him, and this feels like a trap, but i mean she can’t just say no, and there’s a part of her that’s kinda hoping... maybe he really is trying to be nice. and so she does and she sits with her but you’ll notice he is never looking directly at her. Even as she’s approaching literally right in his line of sight, he stares straight into her reflection, never her face.  It’s like she’s not even real unless she’s in those mirrors.

And he tells her he wants to do her makeup! yay! how fun! and he tells her to close her eyes and pout her lips and try not to flinch when the sculpting starts or he’ll use his deep voice-- and how he’s going to finally FIX her. Goody!! then maybe the constant barrage of insults and negs and criticisms will stop!! (p.s. they wouldn’t have )

And so she opens her eyes..... and the face of her abuser is looking right back. It’s her face. Or it used to be-- now it’s literally his and it’s hideous-- it does not AT ALL belong on that body, and the only thing left of her is her big shiny eyes

and she  S C R E A M S that way Claire does,,,

but this time, loud enough to crack the mirrors, and stun the dad just long enough for him not to catch her in his hands when she leaps off his lap and books it for the attic the attic, the view of the billboard with the same worn out, not updated ad for Opal’s in the window. She locks the door, it doesn’t take long for mirror man to come banging on it, telling her she’s ungrateful, she doesn’t deserve what little she has, taking back every nice thing he ever said, etc,,,

and Opal just starts clawing off the makeup/clay/whatever from her face in the mirror’s glass reflection, putting her hair back into the pigtails her father said made her look stupid

but she isn’t Opal, she’s changed, she’s aged, but Opal-- she’s always the same!! happy!! cared for!! and what is she supposed to be under the makeup? huh? Who is she besides the abuse she’s put through, that billboard and what it sells to her?  she doesn’t know! nobody does nobody ever bothered to get to know what it even means to be Claire.

[zenosanalytic]

People What Aint From Round Here Is The Problem...

So I just watched Once Upon a Time... In Hollywood and I have THOUGHTS:

Ive read a few reviews&ruminations on this film at this point and I can’t believe that none of them got(or at least, mentioned explicitly) the primary thesis of this movie, spcl given that Tarentino flatly states it out the mouth of his primary protagonist within, like, the first 15-20mins of the film: “...most important thing in this town is when you’re making money you buy a house in town. You don’t rent... Hollywood real estate means you live here. You’re not just visiting, not just passing through. You fuckin live here.” i.e., the most important thing in Hollywood, to Hollywood, is the people FROM Hollywood; Everyone else is just a filthy, trouble-making tourist or profiteer who is “Passing Through” and “Doesnt Get It” and  “Is Fucking It Up”(It being the film industry), and probably “Secretly Hates Movies”. There are places and aspects of this movie that are basically a Nativist Angeleno rant, written by a life-long Angeleno film-nerd-turned-film-maker, against Hollywood’s critics(and his critics which he just totally conflates with the former), and probably non-Angelenos(and non-Californians?) in general.

There are two ways to read this thesis: Straight and Subverted/Satirized.

The evidence for reading it straight is pretty plentiful. Lots of reviews have puzzled at where the line connecting the constant hippie-bashing, the weird focus on knocking Polanski’s Polishness & preference for shooting in London, and the inexplicable pot-shot at Bruce Lee is, and I think this is it. “The Hippies” are repeatedly presented as a corrupting force: digging through trash, living in squalourous filth at the Spahn Ranch dragging members of “Old Hollywood” like its owner into it with them, selling drugs, and using sex to “control” men. And attached to this is presenting “The Hippies” as foreign; not only from another place, but refusing to assimilate with the LA way of life and hostile to it. The Manson family are the only explicitly identified “Hippies” in the film(other than, possibly, the one who sells Cliff an acid cig). The only “positive” portrayals of Bruce Lee in the film are silent ones of him teaching anglos kung fu, which has some fairly obvs and well-understood Implications.

But there’s also good evidence for reading it as subverted and satirized. Both Tate and Dalton are NOT from California, let alone LA, and Booth’s origins are left unclear. Dalton’s the only one of them explicitly id’d as being from elsewhere(Missouri), but Tate’s easy to google and she was a military kid who grew up all over the place. When Dalton returns from Italy, that sequence and his look in it are VERY reminiscent of the scenes introducing Polanski at the beginning of the film. The side-characters around Tate, perennially shown in a positive light, are also non-Angelenos. Doing Spaghetti Westerns revitalizes Dalton’s career, despite his disdain for Italian cinema. Tate and her crew, while not explicitly ID’d as “Hippies” and often shown in Mod and other fashion styles, are also presented in “Hippie” fashion, shown listening to “Hippie” music, smoking the “Hippie” Reefer(Im sorry, but Comedy Demanded this phrasing and I am Devout u_u), and implied to be living a polyamorous “Hippie” life.

It really is difficult for me to say which predominates. On the one entirely metaphorical hand, the ways in which Dalton’s Angeleno chauvinism are subverted and mocked are fairly obvs, but on the other emh, the film is FILLED with LITERALLY GLOWING nostalgia for this pre-Hippy, pre-Lefty, pre-70s, Conservative and Republican California&Los Angeles. Dalton’s focus on property-ownership&the film industry in the opening thesis could easily be seen as resolving these subversive contradictions to allow for a straight read(ie: Tate, Booth, and Dalton are “Hollywood People” who’ve both bought real-estate in LA, and who’ve grown up in film or film-adjacent fields and choose to center their adult lives in the film industry). So much, in fact, that I kinda started to wonder abt QT’s politics while watching it. And, if it WAS satirical, then what’s the point of the knock to Bruce Lee and focusing criticisms of Polanski on his Polishness and shooting in London? Is that just meant to characterize Dalton and Booth as nativists and racists?

It really cannot be said enough that there are REALLY MORE APPROPRIATE CRITICISMS to make of Polanski than 1)begin Polish, 2)possessing boyish effeminacy, and 3)preferring to shoot movies in London instead of LA. Which are this movie’s only problems with him(though it also takes the time to show him bitchily smoking a cigarette in an evening gown while being rude to a dog). Obvsl I dont object to villainizing an ACTUAL REAL LIFE VILLAIN like this shitstain, but I DO object to being asked(albeit gently) to participate in this film’s understated nationalist bigotry.

It’s possible that Cliff’s turning Pussycat down during the drive to the ranch was intended to be this but I highly doubt it. And if it was it’d be misrepresenting Polanski’s misdeeds enormously, considering that Pussycat, the too-young girl, is the sexual instigator in this film. Polanski liked to manipulate, drug, and rape underaged girls(he pulled the same shit with models in Europe before getting busted for it in LA, btw, then continued doing it after fleeing back to Europe); really not the same situation.

There’s another irony in that, while the film goes out of its way to call Polanski “boyish” and imply that makes him feminine and that this is Bad, there’s also a subtle under-current that... Tarentino sees himself in his youth the same way? He’s certainly never been short like Polanski and Jay Sebring are/were, QT’s 6 1, but the actors he cast to play them and the description made of the pair in-film are more than a bit reminiscent of how Tarentino looked&was discussed in the press back in the 90s when he was starting out. AAAaaand the film explicitly calls that Tate’s “Type”; leaving me with the question: would Tarentino be able to stop himself from implying a dead starlet would have been attracted to him? I leave the answer to your imaginations, Dear Readers u_u

Having said all that it IS a really good film, which I liked, I dont think it’d be very hard to set aside this political stuff while watching, the driving sequences are especially emotive&exhilarating, and there’s some seriously great acting in it. IDK if I’d say I liked it more than the recent Emma movie, tho.

I feel like each of the trio, Tate, Dalton, and Booth, were meant to symbolically Embody LA/Hollywood/California? Like Pitt especially seemed to be channeling movie characters and CJ from GTA: San Andreas throughout his performance, while I couldnt help but think of Ronald Reagan watching DiCaprio(spcl given the character’s likely politics). So there’s this sense in which the film is a fantasy of “Old Hollywood”, embodied by these three, Vanquishing its “Enemies”, represented by The Hippies(moralizing, pretentious, gross leftist) and potentially Polanski&Lee(foreign film ppl who refuse to integrate into the LA scene). Again, given the political history of Cali after this era, this embodiment raises some questions for me abt the film and QT’s politics(particularly in re: misogyny and feminism).

Also DiCaprio is totally going to get pitched a Reagan biopic off of this role and I sincerely hope he has the good sense to turn that shit the fuck down.

Circling back to the ranting at his critics, this movie was definitely and consciously a response to them. Like: up until the last 5-15 minutes of the film, and aside from a handful of too-lingering too fetishistic too on-the-nose creep shots of the female cast that Tarentino simply could not stop himself from making, OUATiH is precisely the sort of “Serious” film Tarentino’s critics have been saying he should make for decades now(of course he did Jackie Brown, which was that and which he blew Completely out of the park). And then there’s that bloody, gross-out, exploitation-movie ending. I dont actually think it was as bad as many critics were saying it was? For some reason I was thinking there was gonna be a massacre of the ENTIRE Manson family, which would have been totally out of left-field. But it WAS clearly a stinger of a major tone-shift thrown in as a Fuck You to the ppl who’ve called out his violent and exploitative preferences throughout the years. As for me I generally like his movies and think he’s a great filmmaker but he absolutely does go too far sometimes.

Rick Dalton, in an evening-gown, with a mixer full of iced-margarita in one hand, getting all up in the face of the driver of a loud exhaust-spewing jalope in his PRIVATE STREET was TOTALLY Tarentino himself :| By which I mean NOT ONLY that That’s ABSOLUTELY the sort of cameo he would have given himself 30 years ago and if it made any sort of sense at all in the film(which here it wouldnt have, obvsl), BUT ALSO that I feel 94% confident that Tarentino has actually done that at least once in his lifetime :| :|

I think the monologue&interactions T gives Bruce Lee leading up to the fight were probably more insulting to him than the fight itself. Contrary to popular discussion, it isn’t Pitt’s character totally trashing Lee, he gets in one good throw after Lee repeats a successful attack at his request(which I doubt Lee would have ever done from what little I know about him; not being predictable in a fight was his whole Deal), but rather an even duel between them(most of the fight is just the two blocking each others’ attacks). I dont think the film was trying to say “Lee was full of hot-air”, if it wanted to say that it’d have shown him getting trounced instead of showing him knock Booth down then trade him blow for blow, but more “Lee was pretty arrogant and a bit pretentious”.

OK, that’s abt all that I can think of right now: thanks for reading ^v^

[saltyaos]

@whistlingwindtree

I feel like the ppl who would complain abt Jemma space-napping the team, probably complain a lot about Fitz too? Idk just me but granted I follow like 2 aos blogs

oh, my bad for not being more clear, but of course I’m just generalizing, there are people who hate both and are harsh on both, people who hate Daisy and forgive everything they do, people who just hate one of them and forgive the others. But thing is, when it comes to big numbers of people, I was always very active in their tags and it was always so... loud, the difference between what Jemma was allowed to do compared to many, including Fitz.  And there have been posts of people who did say that they were mad about Fitz and Jemma in s5 but more about Jemma. Like, they could partly forgive Fitz for what he did to Daisy in s5 but not Jemma. Jemma is a worse friend. 

If you look at season 3, when Jemma asked Fitz to let hydra kill her instead of opening the portal, Fitz put the whole world in danger by helping Hydra. While I do understand the attitude of ‘nope, can’t let you die, we’ll have to deal with the consequences and if I can I’ll close the portal behind me anyway’. the majority of people, by far, found it romantic. Unless they didn’t like the ship. But aside from die hard fs fans, everyone agreed what Jemma did in s5 was fucked up.  People found heartbreaking Iain’s performance when he saw Ward in vault D, understood why he did what he did, taking his oxygen away. Talked about Fitz and Ward as a ship and as friends and heartbreaking relationship, and it was pretty much unanimous. When Jemma tried to kill him after warning him she would, and even asked him to kill her, there were a big amount of posts about how she’s this horrible judgy hypocrite who deserved to suffer. (Daisy was also judged very severely over similar things. Coulson, not so much unless by Ward fans. So there is definitely a good amount of misogyny involved)  

And to say that Jemma doesn’t pay for her mistake is just... it’s only true if you let the fact that she acts ‘normal’ make you forget the actual incredibly violent consequences of everything she does. Not to mention the overblame from the fandom. Did you know in s4, when Fitz tried to keep talking about Aida to Jemma, who was already clearly afraid/uncomfortable and wanted even her severed head covered by a sheet, and Jemma asked him to stop because he was starting to talk about basically options that would still make It a good idea, he got quiet, then explained it was to protect her, yeah, and then started to work on Aida in secret and lied tot Jemma about it, the fans said it was Jemma’s fault, of course if Fitz was keeping secrets and if Fitz generally won’t talk about his feelings because she shuts him down? And when she does to ask him to talk to her it’s too late or ‘well she already told him to stop talking about Aida’. 

So like yes, definitely, people who don’t ship FS can hate both, there are people who will always extra-hate Fitz over her too. But at least when it comes to me, when I scroll down or read conversations, I always end up finding more unfair posts about Jemma, blatantly ones too where they acknowledge Fitz did maybe a couple of things wrong but Jemma is the one who really fucks up and a bad friend. No attempts to understand what she goes through if the show doesn’t spell it out for them. Like they are also harder on Daisy than they are on male characters. But Jemma is also less important than Daisy, has no powers or kick ass moves (writers being weird about it because come on, 6+ years in the field suffering over people getting hurt for you and you don’t train to be self-sufficient?) and is in a relationship with a fan-fave that people also shipped with others, especially Ward, so every season there is always a bit less compassion for her, a lot more vitriol than for Fitz, and things getting blown out of proportion (Jemma being ‘genocidal’ in s2 and never having redeemed being an example of it)

[unproduciblesmackdown]

here’s the only other thing i can personally say abt d.e.h. because im not really #into musicals, i take them on a case by case basis, anyways:

so obviously i have ~volume issues~!!! don’t like loud ones in general tho its nbd if it’s like a consistent volume or supposed to be happening In A Good Way( like a concert or smthing); i can be kinda “mild” ptsd-y abt sudden sounds of any volume or even someone suddenly speaking even if i expect them to and/or it’s at regular speaking volume; i generally HATE people speaking loudly and yelling even if it’s to shout something to someone across the room; and i never raise my voice myself, i only yell if i’m like on a roller coaster or at a concert and wanna be like Hell Yeah (which i do. i like to be loud when it means you’re having fun)

and in fact i generally Can’t raise my voice. i only kind of speak louder than a sorta-on-the-quiet-side conversational volume if i’m enthusiastic abt something and with ppl im comfortable enough with: aka rarely to never. when i’m stressed in certain ways i can also sometimes just not speak at all, and/or speak a even quieter than usual

oh i forgot to mention that i also hate any time ppl’s choice of venting frustration is to be fairly genuine in violently cursing and being angrily loud in general. can you not if you aren’t completely alone!! thanks!!! yet i keep encountering this. it’s “fine” but very unpleasant and unnecessary stress on my end thanks again....

anyways back to ME being quiet!! approx half a year ago (may? yeah) there was this afternoon where there was nobody around for probably like. several hundred feet. fantastic. for no particular reason i decided i wanted to sing!! LOUD BABY!!!!!

i like to sing, and i don’t even mind singing loudly, but you usually don’t have places to do that unless you are alone in your car, or are one of those theatre people who does this with impugnity. and see where i am going with this? how musicals have those either Fun And Boppy or Dramatic Anthem which are meant to be even louder than usual? and don’t sing them at me unless we are all in agreement to do so and its a party basically? segues are my specialty

anyways even when using choir participation as an excuse to hang out and get Proper Catholic I Swear Lol points and/or help out good buddy nuns while the soprano and bass section fumble around and you, a perfectly competent tenor, are just hanging around to save the whole situation—even then i could never truly belt it out b/c as a single tenor you have more Power than like fifteen sopranos, even if that’s probably a good thing and your harmony is great and everyone should know it

anyways here is my point. since for once nobody was around i decided i wanted to absolutely yell-sing at the top of my lungs, which i don’t believe i have ever done before, even when singing pretty loudly, like in the car at 2am or at a concert when you can’t even hear your own voice. and the songs from deh i know are WTAW (the one everyone knows if they know one) and sincerely me, it being the other song everyone knows if they know another one, and as it is also the real Upbeat Fun One it was one of the songs i Yelled, like five times b/c it is so in my range and i like to try to do all the parts / harmonies for every song ever no matter what, and i like to put songs on repeat. I’m Good

so anyways!! loudest i’ve been in my life as far as i know!! yeah!!!!! it accomplishes nothing, but i had fun.

here’s the other potential application i can think of. i’m in an unauthorized production of DEH. i wanna be the jerkish friend, the alive one, the guy. frankly i would love to do that. lemme be the non-central-cas basard. i’ve got it in the bag. so we secretly put on this performance, don’t even memorize half the shit, hell just skip some parts entirely who cares. its about the experience!! and then since musical theatre is so precious with its exclusivity and such, we the cast end up in county jail. i connect to local activists and go from there. and i owe it all to, uh, youuuu~

anyways. me: yellin

[bondsmagii]

i'm not gonna argue the point abt OP any further bc yeah, you do make a good point about the flippant tone, but i think your sidenote in the tags missed my point? of course abusive women exist, but that One Specific Fear i mentioned is something that men and only men can do. not all men DO do it, and very few do intentionally, but they all can. i too know many kind men, but i also know they could do it, too. it's just something fucked-up that the stucture of western society has allowed to happen

i really don’t mean to put down your experiences at all, i’m very sorry you went through that, i was just making a point about a different set of experiences that relate the the patriarch in a different way

I put it in the tags as a tangibly-related side rant, so while it’s related to why OP’s attitude annoyed me so much it’s not directly related to the book/film itself. while we’re discussing it, though (and I mean this in a completely non-aggressive way) I guess I’m wondering why it’s only men who can induce that fear? I’m assuming you mean the loud, violent behaviour that then results in fear when a victim of abuse hears a man talking loudly, sees a drunk man, etc, which is understandable. but I’m genuinely wondering why that’s apparently unique to men? I get the same rush of unease and discomfort when I hear women yelling, and drunk women of a certain age demographic make me highly uncomfortable. they remind me of a female abuser I had who was very much like Jack – she was a loud, aggressive, sometimes violent alcoholic. I suppose I’m just confused as to how that Specific Fear (of a loud, maybe violent man and the fear of what he can potentially do to you) is only ever levelled at men. I’ve experienced it almost exclusively with women.

however, I know not all women are abusive, and I don’t look at a woman and immediately think about her potential to abuse me. I suppose I’m wondering why this seems to be the norm for men? you say you know kind men but you know they could do it, but what about the kind women? it really does sound, when people say things like that, that the only reason a man’s potential to abuse is considered is because only men have the potential to abuse. I’m sure you understand what a double standard that is.

as for any other feelings around men – any vibes they might give off, for example, you have to wonder where it’s coming from. I see a lot of posts on this site that really scrape the barrel with what’s classed as threatening, and sometimes I wonder if there’s not a level of paranoid projection going on. while anyone has a right to be concerned for their safety, you have to consider if it’s coming from internal or external forces. it’s awful if someone has been abused, but every man shouldn’t be held accountable for it. same way as I don’t hold every woman accountable for the abuse I suffered. a vast majority of them are decent, innocent people. the climate on this website really does blow everything up to be so hyperbolic and extreme and it’s easy to believe every man is a potential rapist if you only listen to what people are saying here, but in the real world men are normal, boring people who just want to do their own thing. a vast majority of them are not abusers or rapists, and they have no more potential to be awful than anyone else.

finally, this kind of all-men-are-abusers narrative is so harmful to anyone, male or female, who has been abused by a woman. the idea that paranoia is alright when it’s directed at men but misogynistic if directed at women is a terrible attitude to have, ans the constant posts about how all men are inherently wired to be abusive and women are strong perfect angels really fucks you up when a ‘strong perfect angel’ has beaten you or starved you or sexually assaulted you. it’s fine to be wary. it’s understandable to be scared if you’ve been abused. but I do wish that this idea that all men and only men give off vibes or have a potential to abuse would stop, because literally everyone has the potential to abuse and tumblr’s numbers are way off, even more so when you consider that many male victims of female abusers are too scared of backlash to speak out.

I’m sorry this got so long and please don’t think it’s all directed at you. I kind of used the opportunity to put all my thoughts on the matter down while we were on the subject, so this is as much a 'this is where I stand’ as a response.

[wonhuis]

hank u! i got a 5 lol, so everything is good for now. Rn i’m studyin english, like in depth but a few years ago I was studying literature and philosophy and since i did 3 (almost 4) years i didn’t want to lose all that work but i didn’t take some finals so they sent me a mail telling that i needed at least one okay. i loved exo m but my bias is chanyeol lol, i think both cheol and him can be very loud sometimes (most of the time!) and i love that 1/? 🍰-sss

and i don’t follow nct a lot so i can’t give u an answer. such mood! rn i’m listening to some horror stories (podcast style) ah yes, some songs are meh, i really liked the reve festival day 1 (most of the songs). i hope u can be able to play gta soon, it’s a old game but i love stealing cars(? i started to watch it, so far so good but i’ll give u my final review when i finish it. 2/? 🍰-sss

FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST! i love love love that anime, both versions. 2003 one has a special place in my heart. ahhh all of those are really amazing ones! i remember ouran was one of my firsts mangas. currently i’m trying to collect the yu yu hakusho ones. kyoukai no kanata is still my fav anime, i remember i watched it in one day before my sociology final lmao. and then the movie! i wanted to make a svt/knk kind of edit but im lazy! 3/? 🍰-sss

jun’s pink/lilac hair was iconic!! such a good look, his whole aes in clap era had such a strong energy

reposters have no respect, unfortunatelly a lot of people that are into social media just want numbers but they don’t even work hard for them. bc alright u care abt the amount of followers u have, at least do smth to earn that. but no, they just steal bc it’s the easier way, honestly such a disgusting move. gfx, gifs, fanarts, etc take effort, talent and time. it’s really sad that some people don’t appreciate that, damn a lot of them sound like ignorants 5/6 🍰-sss

(reminds me of when my great aunt told me literature wasn’t a valid major to choose, smh. not everybody want to be a lawyer karen). !!! the foot fetish omg jfbsdfs. and don’t worry! hahah i luv ya, we can ramble and share our hate towards twitter. how is your weekend going so far?? 6/6 🍰-sss

yayyy, that’s great!!! i’m happy for u 💕💕 ohh i get it! i’m glad u could do well on this one then!! CHANYEOL! YES! A HAPPY BOY!! u cant write chanyeol without cheol so that’s cute LMAO and yessss they’re both rlly loud!!! god i love chanyeol but i can never see him next to baekhyun without feeling anxious bc of the shippers lmao right now not as much as a few years ago but i still got the trauma lol and!! idk if u know but noses are my fave thing ever right and chanyeol has one of my fave noses in kpop i love it :/// i used to cry about his nose as much as i cry about vernon’s now lmao 

oh i don’t remember if i actually listened to the albums lmao idk but sometimes if i dont like the title track i feel rlly unmotivated to listen to the whole album :/ also what did u think about psycho? to me it kinda felt the same as umpah umpah like i enjoyed the song but it kinda sounded more like a b track? also as i was listening to it and watching the mv it reminded me a lot of an ending song? like not an anime ending sort of song but like a goodbye song if it makes any sense lmao like goodbye by 2ne1 or lonely by sistar idk wHY BUT the album actually has the word finale in it and i was actually shocked to see it but it made sense in my head lmao

stealing cars is amazing but i actually like it more to punch random people on the street :/ i have anger issues and sometimes i do wish i could do that irl but i CANT so i do it in the game lmao also shooting random ppl god i LOVE it, love me some violent games where i can do whatever i want and then pretend i’m sane irl LMAO

fma is my fave thing in the world after my cats and maybe tied with pjo i LOVE that anime/manga and you’re completely RIGHT the 2003 version is just as good the 2009 ver supremacists are wrong bc both versions are amazing and they complement each other really well!! oh ur so brave to try collecting a whole manga lmao like it’s my DREAM but i only have bits and pieces of some of them bc i mostly buy them second handed

KYOUKAI NO KANATA I LOVEEEE, did i mention it on my list or did i forget? either way i LOVE that anime, i’ve watched it so many times it’s one of my absolute faves!! also i’m rlly sad there’s absolutely no english translation for the light novel i think? i searched a few years ago and couldn’t find anything, i’d love to read it even if i don’t usually read light novels lmao and god i fully support you and ur gfx idea but i do understand 100% about being too lazy to do it lmao i’ve had a gfx idea i wanted to do for the longest time but i’ll be SO hard and it’ll take me so much time i’m just zzzzzzz lmao

god jun in clap era was rlly something!! the hair, the outfits, the earring, ahhh i miss it lmao

reposters can just fuck off honestly lmao and yeah!! i’m rlly grateful my mother always allowed me to do whatever i wanted to when it comes to college so i never had that problem, but i’m rlly sad about every artist who got told that art isn’t a “real job” or stuff like that, same with stuff like literature/philosophy/sociology like some professions get sooo neglected it’s sad :/ 

also i do wanna thank you for letting me ramble and never complaining about it bc my friend (the only friend i talk to, in fact) always tells me that if he were u he wouldn’t read half the things i write lmao and he does indeed NOT read half the things i tell him lmao bc like i talk a lot and ramble a lot but not everyone is like this so i’m sorry if i’m making u talk more than u are used to but also thank you for doing so akdjnfsd

and my weeked was pretty ok i think? i dont rlly remember what i did, might have just slept a lot lmao but i don’t have any complaints either! what about yours??

also i’m going to the beach for a couple of days with my friends this week so i’m exciteddd i love the beach and i was sad thinking i wouldn’t go anymore, it’ll be for 3 or 4 days only but that’s already something!!