#very curious about the Side Order concept stuff

[commandertartarsmoocher]

Wake me up when Commander Tartar makes an appearance in the BancalaWalker / BankaraWalker

[This is pure copium.]

[There's a 99,9% chance it won't happen]

[olympeline]

Gonna post my thoughts on the Hetalia Nations Revealed AU. Always a fun one to chat about. (￣▽￣)

We call it an AU but it’s actually pretty accurate. The part about nation-people not being a secret, I mean. I recently reread the webcomic and canon leans into NPs being public knowledge. Obviously their bosses are aware of them, but there’s lots of strips where NPs interact with members of the public as well. There are strips starring humans who don’t recognize their NP (that one soldier in France, Lisa, Davie, etc.) but they’re fewer in number. We all know Heta-canon is flexible so, for this post, I’m coming down on the side of “people know.” Here’s how I headcanon it all working:

Nation-people are common knowledge to the extent it would be really weird if you met someone who wasn’t aware of them. It would be like talking to a guy and he says he’s never heard of religion. Like, any religion. In the whole world. Not even the concept of it. You’d be all: “Whaaa?? Man, how?? Did you grow up under a rock?” It’s like that for NPs.

NPs are more than human and so aren’t too bothered by us. In a nice way. They still love their citizens but it’s not a relationship between equals. More benevolent demi-deities existing alongside the mundane. This is where I differ from some interpretations of this AU, I think. I can’t see the NPs as being weak and helpless around their people. They’re partially representations of the Earth itself and nature is much stronger than humanity. Like that panel where Francis was getting harassed by historians? Only happened because he allowed it. NPs let humans get close to them when they choose, but they can lose them if they wish. That’s what France did when he’d had enough. The historians blinked and he was just gone. Slipped away like a breath of wind. Leaving two very disappointed academics to continue their argument, lol. The only exceptions are their bosses. NPs have to obey any direct order given by them.

Have to, have to. Compelled in the old fae-like way. NPs are completely under the control of whoever’s running their country. The one who has the final say is the head of state, but they can and do delegate if someone else holds the true power. Kiku directly obeys his emperor, for example, but the emperor obeys Japan’s Diet. So the Prime Minister gives Kiku his orders through their symbolic ruler. If a country’s government is overthrown then that control passes to the new ones in charge. NPs don’t get any choice in the matter, sadly for them. When an NP starts obeying the “other side” then the writing’s on the wall that the regime change has succeeded.

They aren’t considered fully human and so don’t have the same rights and privileges we do. I’d imagine there’s been many high profile court cases about stuff like this in the modern era. Just what an NP can be ordered to do by their bosses before it becomes abusive, how culpable they are for crimes committed by their nations, etc. “The Nation of [x] vs. Nation-Person [y] in the case of Historical Crime(s) [z].” I don’t think much would have been accomplished over the years, lol. No country is going to let their NP go to a foreign prison. Plus the NPs always have the “magically compelled” defense to fall back on. So no progress, just lots of debate. NPs are considered somewhere between guardian deities, ordinary people, and “things” in the broader public consciousness.

Yes, they have social media. No, it has not always gone well. I bet after a few instant-major-historical-event cases of careless and/or hot-tempered NPs calling their bosses assholes on twitter, NP accounts were mass nuked. They were reinstated only after their bosses gave them loooong lists of subjects they weren’t allowed to talk about. Afterwards their posts were all fluff about hobbies and personal interests. Doesn’t stop foreign governments, economists, gossip channels, NP enthusiasts, and curious people combing through every tweet, post, and video to try and guess what the NPs are “really” talking about. So many conspiracy theorist channels, oh god. Even thinking about it is making me tired. 😂

NPs have two homes: a work address and a personal one. The former is usually located in their capital and is either where their boss lives or close by. So Alfred has a home at the White House, Arthur has one on Downing Street, etc. However most NPs don’t consider these their real homes and only spend time there while doing government work. Ordinary, if nice, houses and apartments out among their people is where they like to live. These can decorate them to match their personalities the way they can’t official residences. They use their power over the land to make sure no humans can find these sanctuaries unless the NP wants them to. Stops NPs being swarmed by paparazzi, tourists, and fans 24/7.

De-anoning to say it was me that sent @forsoobado137 the money ask. So just repeating what I said there. All countries put their NP’s face on their money. Along with the state’s name, the NP’s human name, and a picture of the actual land they represent. The money can have other famous people on it too, just on the other side. Governments have been doing this since money was invented and some of the only surviving visual records of ancient NPs are pictures on coins.

Any human being knows an NP and the country they represent just by sight. Unless it’s somewhere they’ve never heard of. Then all they know is that they’re looking at a nation-person. I imagine it would be considered a huge faux-pas to let it slip you don’t know an NP’s country name. Like telling a Holywood A-lister you don’t know who they are at a red carpet event. 😭

NPs have many default jobs, mostly related to their governments. One of them is being in their nation’s armed forces. They’ve always done this ever since the first age of empires. They even led armies and were seen as good luck charms in the past. Soldiers tend to make up the bulk of the humans the NPs remember most fondly. The relationship between Francis and Joan of Arc is one of the best known historical examples. Whether an NP actually enjoys their time in the military depends on their personality. Which is in turn influenced by how warlike the actual country is and has been. If your NP falls in battle, it’s one of the worst war omens possible.

Speaking of death, I headcanon that NPs can die from illness or injury. Or at least their human bodies can. They’re tougher than we are, but not unkillable. They’ll come back so long as the nation itself survives. True death for an NP is reserved for when the civilisation they represent stops existing. If an NP dies in a foreign country, they’ll crumble to dust and regenerate somewhere deep in their heartlands. The place they were originally “born” from the earth. Only a select few very high up in government know the location of their NP’s birth/rebirth place. This also happens if they die on home soil and their body is destroyed. If they die at home and their body is okay, they’ll heal and wake up after a few hours. If the country isn’t doing well it takes longer for its NP to come back.

Speaking of countries not doing well: NPs get sick either when their economies go bad, or when there’s an epidemic among their citizens. A lot of European NPs can chalk some of their early deaths up to the Black Death. When an NP get “depressed” it’s code for a financial fever. Nothing can be done but keep them comfortable until the economy picks up.

Hetalia is so fun to post about, my god. Such a prime series for theories and headcanons. You feel me, gamers?

[mantequillamcwhoremick]

Hi! I ended up reading through Choas Plan in pretty much two days (your writing is actually phenomenal) but I was actually curious on your inspirations to write it? Did it come from any other particular works or maybe episodes from sp?

WHAT NO WAY😭😭😭😭😭😭WHAT THE HELL THAT'S SO NICE HOLY SHIT THANK YOU SO MUCH <33333

You can't just ask me shit like that dude I will respond with a huge fucking essay I LOVE questions like that!!!!

I honestly have several inspirations, many come from the show itself and some I've drawn from cyber crime documentaries and books I like (namely the Six of Crows duology by Leigh Bardugo, you might recognize the scene with Mysterion and Harris in chapter 3 is very VERY similar to the one between Kaz and Jan Van Eck at the beginning of the book), but if you've read the notes in the fic you might have seen that the story idea was initially born when I was playing TFBW.

The Idea

The U-Stor-It scene where Butters/Chaos locks the C**n and Friends in the facility and talks to them through a screen was just so fascinating to me, it reminded me a lot of Jinx from Arcane and the Joker in The Dark Knight (especially because of the flashy decorations and graffiti). Mainly the story evolved from the question I posed to myself in that moment, which was: "What needs to happen for Butters to become someone like Jinx?" and that's how I started brainstorming the backstory.

The Backstory

Obviously that was inspired mainly by Linda's behavior in Butters' Very Own Episode, but it features elements from stuff all over the series and the games that prove just how fucked up Butters' parents are and treat him.

(Remember when in TFBW he mentioned that they bought an electronic lock system to keep him in his room because he left the bathroom once while grounded? yeah, that convinced me Butters' home life probably would only get worse with the years, especially with him entering his teens & puberty, and Post Covid honestly just confirmed that.)

The Villain/Hero Concept

I hadn't yet watched much more of South Park than up until seasons 15/16 so I didn't know about Post Covid's Vic Chaos yet, I mostly just wanted to do something with Mysterion and Chaos that had a darker and serious tone without either of them having any Marvel-esque powers or tech-organizations aiding them, something closer to the South Park lore at hand and realistic enough to feel like it could happen in our world.

Chaos' Methods

With Butters having a knack for Internet-related shit and him being able to hack into a baseball stadium screen to broadcast his evil plans in the Professor Chaos episode, and ofc his whole thing in TFBW and the episode of him becoming a pimp, I figured he has the stuff to be a hacker and entrepreneur.

I started getting spoilered a lot on the whole Vic Chaos and NFT scammer thing so even though I hadn't watched Post Covid I drew a lot of inspiration from that as well. I've been watching a lot of documentaries on Cryptocurrency scams and other cyber crime related stuff, so yeah all that shit also gets my brain generating a bunch of ideas as well.

Mysterion

As for Kenny/Mysterion's side of the story- I'm a huge fan of the "criminal who gets paid by a shitty pig/capitalist who would normally never hire them to take on a job" concept in Six of Crows, so that's how I got Harris involved, later further fueled by his Thin White Line arc in TFBW.

The way Kenny used his death powers in the C**n & Friends episodes I found very intriguing, and I absolutely LOVE playing around with them, so I included my own interpretation & spin of it as an active "superpower" he uses in order to be successful enough as a vigilante to be taken seriously. His canon powers separate him from your average humanbeing. It's a way to show the audience "hey look, Kenny really is just some guy, but also no one else could take on this role, ever. He may not have super strength or speed or money for equipment backing him, but he can get into places and out like no other person ever."

Coming up with a kryptonite-type weakness was also super fun, because I didn't want things to just be too easy. Mainly it's his need to remain anonymous, but the biggest reason for that need is because he needs to keep up his ability to financially support Karen. That, I obviously got from the show-, namely episodes like Mysterion Rises, The Poor Kid and City Part of Town, but his dynamic with Karen got increasingly more interesting and influenced in the fic after I played the TFBW DLC From Dusk Til Casa Bonita. The fact that he's so obsessed with keeping her safe the best way he knows how but completely overlooks to consider letting her have a say in it, is absolutely delicious. Like fuck yes, let's go complicate these character relationships (rubs hands evilly)

TL;DR

Inspirations come from all over, but of course the main ones do come from the show and games. Kenny and Butters have always been increasingly fascinating characters to me the more I watched the show, so the fact that Kenny canonically is the only kid Butters respects (source: s16, Ep "Going Native"), to an extent that in the future Butters funded his entire career, I thought had a shit ton of potential. Hence their friendship in the fic before "the incident", and the way Butters goes about Kenny now that he's taking over the town >:)))

Thank you SO SO MUCH for the ask!!!! I hope I didn't ramble too much for what you actually wanted to know, but I just absolutely love sharing my inspirations for this fic. Really gets my brain go brrrrr heheheh I'm so so grateful that this interests you <33333

[supercrazyangel4]

very curious abt your noelle concept actually... as you said about your vintage wedding dress design. can you go into depth abt that i really wanna know the thoughts behind it!

okok.... i made a post about noelle and kris being "toxic relationship divorcecore" right after chapter 2 came out this post will be basically explaining what that means. the snowgrave (or weird route but i will use snowgrave as this refers specifically to the chapter 2 weird route and may not apply to later chapters) does a lot of cool shit (like if you want the "purposely mimicking a video game creepypasta" rant just ask) but my personal favourite is how it like... kind of forces a relationship between between kris and noelle.

in order activiate and/or get the most out of it in the first place you have to various things including:

1. give noelle a ring(s) for her to wear as a weapon

2. insist that you will ride the ferris wheel with her (which she usually does with susie. her crush)

3. steal noelles clothes and wear them yourself (her watch but still)

4. tell the shopkeeper you're "something else" instead of friends

all of these will make noelle very uncomfortable.

spamton also calls noelle a "hochi mama" (which is a word for "whore", basically) and your ""side chick". aswell as this, if you believe spamtons "hyperlink blocked" means love (which i personally do) he also makes a double-meaning comment about kris and noelle "making (love)".

after the snowgrave route noelle will start to notice kris first in a room when she usually always notices susie first (again. her crush).

my personal interpretation of this is that it is a method of trying to make you (the player) uncomfortable by effectively making you play a really weird game of smashing dolls faces together with characters you like who are having an awful time. it does this by kinda playing with both forced heteronormivity (by forcing the nonbinary kris into a masculine role and forcing noelle, likely a lesbian, into a weird straight-gender-roled relationship she doesnt want) and their family histories of unhappy marriages (with both asgore and toriel as well as rudy and mayor holiday). this is a subversion of how in the normal route you allow kris and noelle to reconnect and become closer in yknow... a normal way.

there is also an argument to be made that the same "make the player feel uncomfortable and bad for fucking up kris' life for their own desires" thing might also be being done with ralsei and his weird crush on kris/us? and him looking like fucking identical to asriel and that making us fans (the guys who made all those "save the goat" aus) want to get closer to him and making kris be not a fan of the fact a guy that looks like their brother keeps flirting with them and that it might be trying to play with like incest-baiting the same way the snowgrave stuff is with that other stuff i mentioned but yknow. not getting into that

[weirdmageddon]

any dave music hcs? :) my playlist for him mostly consists of relatively popular rock music. besides wacky but awesome garageband beats, i personally think he’d be a rocknroll radio hits kinda guy, at least for pre-sburb dave, i don’t think he’d have as much freedom to really explore music the way he wants before then. some of my favorites for him are all mixed up (311), superman’s dead (our lady six), bound for the floor (local H), everything to everyone (everclear), inside out (eve 6) and birds (butthole surfers). i also think he’d like metal too! particularly nu metal. even if mixing music and rapping is an outlet for him, i see him relating to these types of songs a lot and maybe at the time when his #ironiccoolguy persona is most prevalent + affecting his interests/personality heavily, he’s embarrassed about admitting his popular favorites b/c it’s not cool to him to like what’s mainstream. but you know character arc! and besides when the earth explodes no music is really popular anymore LOL. btw i liked your davejade music posts ^_^ so i’m very curious if you have any thoughts for dave music on his own!

one of the first things we know about dave is “You like to rave about BANDS NO ONE'S EVER HEARD OF BUT YOU” but its never brought up again. so i can see him having a bit of a punky existence. but its pretty impossible to list bands that people havent heard about but him. it doesnt mean he can’t like known acts. pink floyd are one of the most well known music artists of all time but i think he would like it for instance

but of those known acts i know his ass does not listen to fallout boy or whatever

idk dave he strikes me as someone who listens to both brian eno and death grips but at the same time theres a lot of stuff i CANT see him listening to

i think he probably likes beastie boys. paul’s boutique (1989) is probably one of his top albums. deltron 3030 (2000) too. both experimental hiphop, paul’s boutique utilizing plunderphonics while deltron 3030 is a bit more epic and psychedelic.

i think both wouldve changed his life. paul’s boutique for for his pragmatic bent (sampling)

and deltron 3030 on the psychological / reflection / journey / listen and close your eyes rock opera side (“It is a rap opera concept album set in a dystopian year 3030. The album's story casts Del in the role of Deltron Zero, a disillusioned mech soldier and interplanetary computer prodigy rebelling against a 31st-century New World Order. In a world where evil oligarchs suppress both human rights and hip-hop, Del fights rap battles against a series of foes, becoming Galactic Rhyme Federation Champion. Del the Funky Homosapien's lyrics veer from serious social commentary to humor to epic sci-fi battles, while producer Dan the Automator creates an eerie and dense atmosphere.”)

come on man

nmesh dream sequins is another album i can see him listen to, the cream of the crop for experimental vaporwave (the type of slowing samples in vaporwave was a technique pioneered by dj screw who i think dave would also dig, as it essentially manipulates time and thats Cool). probably likes oneohtrix point never too, an experimental electronic artist who also took inspiration from screw

maybe a bit of biting tongues, one of my favorites. he couldve been led to it going down the eno hole. probably his favorite album being recharge (1989)

as for rock i’m pretty sure dave strikes me as a psychedelic / experimental rock type of dude. so yeah pink floyd is still on the table especially early with syd barrett (the piper at the gates of dawn (1967) and a saucer full of secrets (1968)). but i think he can like later after that (of COURSE he feels drawn to the song ‘time’ lol i bet he’d want to replicate the atmosphere of the song’s beginning in his own stuff). he likes this kinda sound. he i can definitely see him being a ween fan for sure, especially quebec (2003) or their satire art/prog rock album the mollusk (1997) —the latter of which i could see him bonding with jade over DEFINITELY just listen to the titular song — but really the whole discography. or a zappa fan. maybe a dip into metal if its experimental or funky like primus or zillatron (bootsy collins alias)

i have to mention that these are all bands i like to some degree because to know what they sound like and if they fit dave ive had to listen to them lol. but yeah so that could put some bias into it and theres surely more stuff he would listen to i dont know but heres a portion of what i see from where i am

the common denominator between all the music i talked about was that theyre experimental

[longer-than-i-should-admit]

I saw @arlathen's post about making a speculation post and revisitng it later so...here are my thoughts. Some spoilers regarding some of the leaked footage released after the journalists' embargo was lifted. Avoid this if you don't want any spoilers that were dropped until 10/28 with the reviews bc that's when I started avoiding them as well.

I think the general plot of the game will follow like this:

Prologue stuff (which we've seen); stopping Solas, (presumably) getting that initial interaction with Ghilan'nain and Elgar'nan (since parts of the cutscene have been snipped out of all the footage we've seen thus far), Rook wounded, seeing Varric okay and reassessing at the Lighthouse to figure out the course of action.

Companion recruitment (uncertain whether this is dictated in a certain order or not but I think it will be since we get dropped into Arlathan Forest to find Bellara, then the first memory of Solas' we see in the Crossroads is on the way to Treviso to get Lucanis, etc.), which seems to correlate to faction recruitment as well—this may all be wrapped up in locational missions and exploration as well since they're purported to be streamlined and revolving around stories pertaining to the areas themselves rather than open-world.

Reputation building. Other side missions if any? Like exterior stuff.

Probably meeting the Inquisitor at the end of Act One, maybe before Weisshaupt's fall. I can see Varric right after the prologue going "oh shit I need to call in backup" so he sends word out but maybe the Inquisitor doesn't get to them until then?

I think Act Two is focused on recovery in certain places, like Hossburg since it's upper level combat. One of the devs said it's more "bridging" Act One and Act Three, so I think this will be the point where we get all our ducks in a row, power up, find a way to free Solas from the Fade prison (which I think will happen in the middle towards the end of Act Two; partly because I really want him and Lavellan to have some time to mend old wounds before The Big Bad Battle that is apparently in Act Three).

Act Three is when Shit Goes Wrong. Idk exactly what but apparently Minrathous gets Blighted. All the clips in the most recent trailer with all the factions gearing up to fight (plus Solas present with the lyrium dagger and in Dread Wolf form) have that same red sky/eclipse effect. At first I thought this would be the end of Act One since the devs also said all the footage they've shown is Act One to avoid spoilers for late-game but I'm not so sure. That feels very end-gamey to me. However! I will gladly welcome being proven wrong if that is actually end of Act One and there is much more to do for Acts Two and Three. But based on the spoiler-free reviews I've seen so far the ending is very emotional and impactful, so I think the "high stakes" to which they've referred probably are directly related to it.

Of course I could be totally wrong about any and all of this. I have mostly concepts on the broader plot strokes rather than finite points, so I'm not particularly deadset on any order of the story.

As far as the companions go, I don't have a lot of ideas. I'm really curious to see what their individual storylines will be.

For Varric, I am so scared they'll sacrifice him in the end (since it has been confirmed that he survives his little "accident"), but unfortunately I think it might be very likely. He's the heart of Thedas in a lot of ways to a lot of people irl and in canon, and the reviewers have said the ending feels like a goodbye to the Thedas we know and love with the opportunity for new narratives and exploration later. I don't want to speak it into existence but I can hear Varric's last narration of how stories must come to an end or smth. I don't want this to happen, for the record, because I tend to be very anti-character death in general even if it is written well just for personal preference of sunset endings, but I acknowledge it's a possibility.

Solas' fate is hanging in Rooks' hands, I feel. I personally cannot find it within myself to antagonize him beyond in-character initial friction, so idk what the "bad" or "evil" ending might look like for him, but it would be naive of me to assume that they wouldn't include an ending where his views are reaffirmed with "bad" Rooks/Inquisitors. I worry that he's going to have to go through a "rebirth" process as a spirit, if he is a spirit, but as long as some aspect of him survives I'll be okay with it. But I just really don't want them to kill him off to "atone" or whatever; a lot of care needs to be taken with where he ends up, and the reviewers seem satisfied with it, as well as how Solavellan resolves itself. This gives me hope that he'll turn out to be okay, and they'll move forward together. However! This isn't to say that I wouldn't mind a little drama of him getting wounded and/or having to rely on the others (Rook, Inquisitor, Varric, the Veilguard, any DAI companion cameos, etc.). Near-death experiences can do a lot to help one adjust his worldview.

Speaking of near-death experiences! I want to see the Inquisitor get put into danger. I want to see Solas react to it, especially in the case of Solavellan (bc even if the Inquisitor is antagonistic/low approval, they are a weak point for Solas that Elgar'nan/Ghilan'nain could use to their advantage). I want to see the drama. I want to see Solas get emotional and lose his shit and maybe perhaps go full Dread Wolf to protect his vhen'an. Overall I think the Inquisitor will have a presence like Varric's (presumably) in the Lighthouse, and I can see them getting more involved near the end (like come on, they're definitely at the big bad final battle—at least I hope so). I want to see their interactions with Varric. I want to see them interact with the Veilguard. I want to see them interact with Rook, unwitting hero to unwitting hero! As well as the apparent cameos that happen (I've heard there are some DAO and DA2 ones, so I'm thinking Zevran is most likely out of those, maybe Fenris, not sure about any others though). (Oh, Sibyl, how I have missed you so...)

I'm really intrigued to see Rook's development as well, just by themselves. I know a lot of that will be determined by the player's choices, but the Inquisitor had a certain feeling (as well as the Warden and the Champion), so I can't wait to hear all the banter and dialogue and such. New protag! I'm so ready to meet you for real, Fenalan! (And Khalida!)

Other random thoughts:

I. Cannot. Wait. For. The. Crossroads. I want to see it all. I want to see Solas' memories. (And the achievement names? I want to figure out the side missions associated there! I'll probably spend waayyyy too much time there in the beginning tbh haha, so I'll try not to rush it!)

I'm so excited to see how the Lighthouse (and the Crossroads) will change as the plot progresses! We got a little bit of that with Skyhold, but I hope this will be more fleshed out! I want Solas' house to be restored into a home! (And I want to find all the mysteries and codices and puzzles and UGH!)

Elvhen lore! Elvhen language! Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain's POV on all this! The memories with the other gods (hopefully)! There are so many questions we've had for so long about Arlathan in general, and I want to see whatever answers given!

Cameos. We know they're there. I'm so fascinated to see who they're pulling in and involving. I have a couple of suspicions (like c'mon please tell me Dorian is in Minrathous), but!!! Not knowing is killing me!!!

Worldbuilding in general! The armors! The CC! Dialogue choices! It's all new and fresh and there are so many options! The romances seem so cool!

I am so ready to plunge into the combat even though I know I'll be slow on the uptake; it reminds me of Assassin's Creed Origins' style so I hope I won't do terribly! (It's just the primers/detonators that intimidate me lol)

There's probably tons more but I have so many thoughts it's difficult for me to articulate them all. I'm so scared and so excited and this will be such a unique experience for me bc I've sort of been a fan of Inquisition since it came out (but I was too young at the time to wrap my mind around it, so I didn't get into it truly until '20) and it has been my favorite ever since. These characters are so important and precious to me and I hope they're treated with the love and respect they deserve to get satisfactory endings. I'm not particularly attached to any one Inquisitor (since my canon one is basically a self-insert tbh) but Varric? Solas? Both so so so special to me. I already feel so connected to my Rook and I am so invested to see how Solavellan will turn out even though it's not technically my canon worldstate. Just. I get so overwhelmed when I think about it. I will never be able to experience it the same as this first time. I don't know most of what happens and the consequences terrify me, yet I want that unique experience of being in the dark bc I've almost always been spoiled on what happens in games I play since I usually learn about them via fanfiction or see clips online. I've been having trouble sleeping and I get so jittery when I think about the fact that my measly little four year wait (compared to the OGs who have waited for the full ten) is almost over. Inquisition will have an ending. My headcanons will either have to be scrapped, modified, or affirmed. My endings may turn into AUs. It's such an emotional time for me to get to do this because Thedas has been my escape for a long time; I got into the series during COVID and it has since been my most favored media. I think about it almost constantly; even during the lull of my oscillations I had it on the back burner in my mind. Now we're here, two days from release, and forty-something hours has never felt longer in my life. I get to go home. I get to see my family. (And I have to balance schoolwork on top of it all lol.) The reviews have soothed many of my fears, and I am fully ready to see what lies in store for me.

[cru5h-cascades]

Stuff About My Hellbent AU, Bot AU

Hey everyone! So yesterday a friend and I were screwing around with character.ai versions of the Hellhounds and during the experience I had a random idea about a Hellbent AU where most of the cast are androids. And so here we are! I present to you the Hellbent Bot AU!

<Main Plot>

So the main plot of the AU is somewhat similar to the actual Hellbent but futuristic. In this AU, the specters are androids capable of feeling human emotion that were created by a tech company called Ridgewood Tech. Underneath Ridgewood Tech HQ was an entire city created by the founder for unsold, returned, and bugged andriods that could potentially be fixed (this AU's Hadeston). One day, the owner/founder of Ridgewood Tech goes missing and his son, Charlie Ridgewood (this AU's King Charles Ridgewood, if it wasn't obvious) takes control, attempting to turn the company into the wrong direction and create androids only capable of "defending" others (which goes wrong btw). Some time after the founder's disappearance, hacker and tech whiz Zacharie sneaks into Ridgewood Tech HQ in attempt to find clues regarding the founder's disappearance, only to stuble into the secret enterance into Hadeston. Unable to go back the same way he came into the city, Zacharie relies on the android enhabitants of the city in order to make his way back home and put an end to Charlie's reign.

<Characters (so far, anyways)>

Zacharie: tech savvy hacker in his late teens. He's a big fan of Ridgewood Tech, at least until Charlie took over.

Chr1s: an android created by Ridgewood Tech prior to Charlie's takeover. He wasn't activated until he reached Hadeston so he's very curious about humans. He wants to learn more about the humans and cares a lot about those around him. Chr1s shares the same traits as his canon counterpart.

Al.fred: an android created by Ridgewood Tech prior to Charlie's takeover. He was the first android activated by Charlie himself (and the last) and after his experience with him, Al.fred is awefully suspisious about humans. He's a little less agressive than his canon counterpart.

Andr1k: an android created by Ridgewood Tech prior to Charlie's takeover. Andr1k was returned to Ridgewood Tech after his previous owners reported the andriod saying and doing awfully strange things (nothing too odd, just weird i.e. walking into walls, saying things people would keep to himself, ect.). Thinking he could fix the android's glitch, the founder sent him to Hadeston. The founder went missing shortly after Andr1k's return, so Andr1k is still buggy. He's a bit smarter than his canon counterpart.

Max.ine: an android created by Ridgewood Tech prior to Charlie's takeover. She was returned by her owners after their child (whom they were giving Max.ine to) was unsettled by Max.ine's eyes, causing Max.ine to fear being rejected by others. However, when she's treated with compassion, she will show compassion back to others.

Charlie: son of the founder. He wants the company to stop making his father's androids in favor of his own (basically this AU's version of the saints).

The Founder (name is still in the works): the founder of Ridgewood Tech & pioneer of human-like androids. After his wife's death years prior to the AU's time, he wanted to create a replica of his wife, resulting to the founding of Ridgewood Tech. After creating his first andriod, the founder wanted to give other people the joy of having a companion that will stay by their side no matter what, resulting in the production of more androids. He also treats the androids like his equals.

And that's what I have for the AU thus far! I will be making music for the AU along side my usual tracks and Hellbent concept tracks so be on the lookout for those (I already posted the main theme on Soundcloud and Newgrounds!)!

[softcloudticklesniffles]

INTRO POST:

(18! Demiaroace, Biromantic)

Please please PLEASE do NOT interact with this blog if you're not interested in snz stuff or anything relating to it.

I don't want you or other people you know and might be following you to get uncomfortable. On top of that, I don't want me and everyone else in this community to get attacked because of people (if not you) being a jerk to us just because we take a liking to things pretty differently

I'm not that into the more nsfw approach of this affinity (yes I'm calling it affinity, which I originally heard from qousterking, I don’t feel too strong about it often so I'm more confortable to call it an affinity than fet in my case!) BUT it's not a promise that I won't interact with and/or reblog anything that might be suggestive (a lot of times I don't realize it immediately ahah ^^"), so minors–or anyone under 18–DNI!!

And tbh, I can't control a minor, or anyone uncomfortable with nsfw seeing things they're not meant or don't want to, and as someone who often shy away from the more mature stiff as I mentioned, I might give a tip–if you haven't tried it already–and hope it helps somehow! Basically filter out the tags with "-kink", "-fet", "-fetish", and "-fucker" (well this one is pretty obvious honestly), tho a kink usually means it doesn't go to too much spicy scale, others may still use it with different definition. Sadly this is the simplest way I thought of, and I still saw lots things, but I feel like it did a difference somehow, even if small. So just scroll away really quick when you see a post that's not your taste/comfortable with, since a lot of people here are respectful and does give a warning that the thing they're posting is very 18+ (appreciate you guys for that!)

Like I said, I can't control when a minor ends up and lurk around in the mature side of the communtiy, so I'll just say this: DON'T hold us accountable for what you saw and it really bothers you, everyone should be responsible and that includes minors. People here are just having fun, letting their thoughts out and sharing it with people who might be interested, then they can get giddy with it together, simple as that! We can't satisfy everyone, especially just one person. Interests like this are considered a kink or a fetish so OF COURSE there's going to be mature, nsfw content to be seen. In the end it was your choice to scroll through, your choice to read the whole thing even if there was a warning beforehand (and yes some others may not have warnings), your choice to have that mature concept in your head. I know some people can't help it and get too curious, so really I'm just telling you all to be careful when viewing your interests, there will always be very mature side of things unfortunately, and I can't control that, and sometimes it has to be you who has to act in order to keep yourself safe.

Not really sure if I'll post art of my own, a few of my oc's are pretty snz affinity coded but since I'm planning something (kinda big?) with them, I'm quite hesitant and worried of vanilla's discovering this blog, but I'll be thinking about it!! (Might make reference to them and give them codenames so I can share some ideas probably!)

I might add more to this post when I think abt more things to ward uninterested ppl off and keep myself and others safe the best I can. The really important thing to remember is to keep it respectful in both parties!! Be nice to each other, just silently avoid and block us if you don't want to see this kind of content. Have a good time!

[bi-bard]

Hozier Songs That Would Describe a Relationship with the Corinthian - The Corinthian Imagine (The Sandman)

Title: Hozier Songs That Would Describe a Relationship with the Corinthian

Pairing: The Corinthian X Reader

Word Count: 1,817 words

Warning(s): mentions of murder

Author's Note: If you have any suggestions for artists that I can feature in this little series, let me know.

**Not intentionally written in chronological order**

**I didn't change the pronouns in the song lyrics, but this is written with a gender-neutral reader**

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It Will Come Back

I know who I am when I'm alone I'm something else when I see you You don't understand, you should never know How easy you are to need

The first time that I met the Corinthian was in the midst of a nightmare. A nightmare that he had been instructed to create, but that detail wasn't important.

He had conjured up something terrifying.

I wish that I could remember what it was.

I just remember catching sight of him off in the distance. Like he was standing on a cliffside, watching the scene from above. Toy soldiers in a sandbox.

He seemed shocked that I saw him. No, not shocked. Impressed. Like he made sure that I could see him, but it would take some effort.

After that night, I continued seeing him. At first, he was simply in the background. Then, he started talking to me.

He was cocky. Arrogant. He enjoyed the idea of people being curious about him. He enjoyed being a mystery.

My nights were about meeting him. Seeing the Corinthian. Talking to him.

I never could have imagined a world where I was going to find myself so infatuated with a literal nightmare. I spent all those nights trying to find the word to describe him, but it always felt like it was just out of reach.

As we continued talking, the Corinthian's arrogant edge started fading away. He seemed more comfortable. He didn't change completely, he just relaxed. That made me far more comfortable around him than I was when I first spotted him in my dreams.

I had never been a brave person. I had been known to be hesitant. To overthink every option that I have. Maybe that's why it took me so long to do something.

"Good evening!"

I turned around as the Corinthian walked over. I grinned at him.

"This you," I asked, pointing at the sky above us.

It was like a painting. Intricate swirls and clashes of blues and purples and pinks and oranges. It was gorgeous.

"Nope," he replied, looking up toward the sky. "This is all you. Your subconscious."

I nodded. "It's beautiful."

"If you're into that kind of thing."

I scoffed and looked at him. "Are you trying to tell me that nightmares have no concept of beauty?"

"I didn't say that," he shrugged and looked back at me. "My concept is just different."

"And what is that concept," I asked. "Snakes and knives and stuff?"

"You."

It felt like I had fallen on my back and had the air knocked out of me. I had to take a deep breath before I could let out a shocked chuckle.

"What's wrong? Not what you were expecting?"

I shook my head, looking down for a moment.

"Or do you just not believe me?"

I looked at him again. He wasn't even smirking at me. He was just studying me. I could almost feel it.

"It's very nice," I mumbled. "Just caught me off-guard."

He nodded.

A silence took over.

I don't know if we were both struggling to find the right words to say, or if he was waiting for me to speak up.

The silence seemed to be the push that I needed. A wave of confidence that I didn't know that I had.

I stepped forward until the space between us was nearly nonexistent. My face moved toward his, lips brushing his lightly. And then, I found the word. The word to describe him that I had been searching for.

Intoxicating.

"You shouldn't," he warned quietly, not pulling away from me but not letting my lips meet his fully. "You don't understand what you're playing with."

My hands had touched his sides before I even registered that they were moving. My fingertips lightly brushed the shirt that he wore under his white blazer. His sides moved slowly under my hands as he took a deep breath.

"I don't care," I whispered against his lips before finally capturing his lips with mine.

His arm moved to wrap around my shoulders, trying to pull me even closer than I already was. His other hand brushed my upper arm, clearly trying to keep himself from digging his nails into it in the hopes of holding me there.

I pulled back a little bit and slowly grinned at him.

"Tempting me like this... it's a dangerous idea," he warned again.

"Why," I asked.

"Because I won't be able to keep myself confined to this little realm," he explained. "I'll find you."

I leaned in so I could whisper in his ear, "Maybe that's what I want."

He chuckled as I leaned back. "Well, I'll see you soon, darling."

I smiled and nodded.

The next time I blinked, I found myself waking up in my bed.

I chuckled to myself before sitting up.

How was I supposed to go about my day after that?

Regardless of the distractions, I continued working. It was mostly chores. Cleaning and organizing. It was the mundane things. The things that I could get done while my thoughts kept wandering.

I had been finishing up laundry when there was a knock on the door. I placed the basket on the table on my way over. I looked through the peephole before immediately jumping back and pulling the door open.

The Corinthian was standing on the other side of the door. He looked exactly like he had in my dreams. I didn't know what to say or do.

He smirked at my reaction to seeing him before he spoke, "Hello, darling."

Like Real People Do

I will not ask you where you came from I will not ask and neither should you Honey just put your sweet lips on my lips We should just kiss like real people do

I had no memory of falling asleep on the couch.

I remembered sitting down, turning on a show, and relaxing. I must've fallen asleep a few episodes in. My next memory was waking up to the sound of my door closing.

I rubbed the sleep out of my eye as they focused on the Corinthian walking over to me.

"What are you doing on the couch," he asked. "Terrible for your neck."

"You've been gone for days," I replied. "I... I wanted to wait for you."

"You've spent days sleeping on the couch?"

I nodded.

"That is no good," he muttered. He grabbed my hand and pulled me off the couch. "Come on. Let's get you in bed."

I followed him quietly.

As I curled up under my covers, he pulled off his blazer. He sat on the edge of the bed, going to pull off his shoes. I sat up, moving closer to him, so I could lay a kiss on his shoulder.

"I'm happy that you're back," I muttered. I grabbed his jaw to get him to look at me. I pressed my lips to his.

He pulled away with a chuckle. "Give me a second."

I nodded and moved back.

I knew in my heart that I should've questioned where he had been. Where he went on those trips that he never warned me about. I just didn't care. All I cared about was him. As long as I got him, I refused to question anything.

I laid back down as he climbed under my blankets with me. He didn't need to sleep, but he liked laying with me.

I moved forward and kissed him gently. His arms wrapped around me, pulling me closer to him.

"I love you," I muttered in between kisses.

"I love you too," he mumbled before pulling away completely. "Now, get some rest."

I nodded, moving to hide my face in the crook of his neck.

And I was happy to live this way. No questions or worries. Just being able to be loved like a normal person.

I had gotten everything that I wanted.

Cherry Wine

Her fight and fury is fiery Oh but she loves Like sleep to the freezing Sweet and right and merciful I'm all but washed In the tide of her breathing

I looked around the convention hall, looking for those signature glasses that I had become so familiar with. I had a nametag on that was not mine and I was getting more and more anxious as time went on.

Where the hell was the Corinthian?

I knew he was here. He was registered. The man at the greeting table was eager to tell me about their main speaker. Their big event.

I jumped when someone grabbed my arm and started pulling me through the halls. The only reason I didn't try to fight whoever had grabbed me was because I saw who it was.

I took a few steps forward to fall into stride with him.

"I've been looking for you," I said.

He didn't reply, he just led us to a backroom somewhere. He let go of my arm and stared at me.

"What the hell were you thinking," he asked.

"That I was tired of you hiding an entire part of your life from me," I explained. "Granted, I didn't guess that the part of your life that you were hiding was going to be that you were a serial killer."

He took a few steps forward, only stopping when my back hit the wall behind me.

"You have no idea how dangerous everyone here is," he warned. He pulled a knife out of his jacket, holding it in front of me and turning it so the light danced off of it. "Including me."

I took a deep breath before forcing my gaze away from the knife and back to him.

"If you wanted to kill me, then you would've done it by now," I said quietly.

"Oh, is that right," he asked.

I leaned forward just enough for the blade of his knife to barely touch the skin of my cheek. Not far enough to cut the skin. Just far enough to touch it. I could feel his gaze tracing where the two things met.

"Yes," I replied.

He slowly pulled the blade away. He lowered his arm to his side. His free hand cupped the back of my neck and pulled me forward, pressing his lips to mine. My hands moved to his shoulder, grabbing onto his jacket as I relaxed into the kiss. My back was pressed into the wall again.

He pulled back enough for us both to breathe.

"Was I right," I asked, fingers messing with the fabric of his jacket.

He let out a low chuckle before moving back just a little bit further.

"Yeah," he nodded. "You were right, darling."

"Good," I moved my hands to the sides of his face. "Now... let me see this world of yours."

Another low chuckle slipped through his lips before he kissed me again.

My beautiful little nightmare.

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Author's Note: Yeah... I didn't give much of a shit about the canon timeline of things.

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Masterlist (Includes links to All Writing Challenges)

What I Write For

Some Original Characters

[namusthetic]

The Four Elements

Are they four different entities or parts of one single being?

Air

easily distracted and very curious

carefree and flexible, also very kind and patient

due to their extreme adaptability, various knowledge, and genuine curiosity, can hold a conversation with pretty much anyone

craves mental and sensory stimulation

acts cute when they want something

can't really stand those who refuse new experiences and dislike things without trying them out first

emotionally very unstable, has sudden mood swings

likes abstract concepts and ideas

has a surface knowledge of everything, but not enough to excel at anything

is always ready to spend time with you, doesn't really care when or where

channels their sadness and pain into being kind and not letting it affect them

forgets stuff most of the time

got used to being misunderstood

chronic procrastinator, runs away from problems

their thinking process is jumbled and chaotic

always smiles and cares about others but is actually deeply consumed by an overwhelming sense of sadness

Aesthetic:

Wind chimes and dandelions, white clouds and deep breaths of clean, cold air, the chill of the first days of autumn and the shy warmth of the first days of spring, afternoon naps and soft pillows, the gentle breeze on a hot summer day, carefree laughter and afternoon naps

Playlist:

Buttercup by Jack Stauber

Sunflower by Rex Orange County

Cherry by Harry Styles

Mariposa by Peach Tree Rascals

Adore You by Harry Styles

4:00A.M. by Taeko Onuki

Love Poem by IU

YKWIM? by Yot Club

One Summer's Day by Joe Hisaishi

Monsters in the Dark by MyKey

Dog Days are Over by Florence + the Machine

Island In The Sun by Weezer

Comfort Chain by Instupendo

Let Go by Ark Patrol ft Veronika Redd

Runaway by AURORA

Wake Up by Aylior and Sebastian Kamae

BOKE by CIKI

The Path of the Wind by Joe Hisaishi

Our Summer by TXT

Between Days by Far Caspian

Some by BOL4

Ylang Ylang by FKJ

Stay Alive by José González

Fire

gets angry if things don't go their way

their first reaction to problems is to scream or throw something

spends most of their time improving themselves and their skills in order to be the best and to be able to beat everyone else while they're at it

can't really stay still, has an hard time staying focused if their emotions are not involved

sore loser, has very strong and emotional reactions

may provoke arguments for the fun of it

really passionate about what they truly believe in and their values

thinks quickly and acts sometimes too quickly as well

the more they want to hide their emotions the louder they become

hates those who don't pick a side during arguments

outspoken and unafraid to stand their ground

has the craziest ideas and tends to jump from one to another

sometimes can be insensitive, unintentionally hurting others with their straightforwardness

looks tough and bossy but is actually soft and protective for those who matters

will turn up at your house at the weirdest hours just because they felt like it (they actually missed you)

takes you out skateboarding at night and always brings something sweet to eat after

shameless, doesn't really care about others' opinions

Aesthetic:

the gleam of a spark in the darkness, jewelry and tattoos, the translucent glow of skin under neon lights at night, a slow exhale and the constant drumming of your own heartbeat, smirks and eye contact, loud music and city lights

Playlist

Arsonist's Lullabye by Hozier

Feel It Still by Portugal. The Man

Therefore I Am by Billie Eilish

Pretty Please by Jackson Wang ft. Galantis

MAMMAMIA by Måneskin

R U Mine? by Arctic Monkeys

Burning Up (Fire) by BTS

My Ordinary Life by The Living Tombstone

You Right by Doja Cat ft. The Weeknd

Nowhere to Run by Stegosaurus Rex

Angel of Small Death & The Codeine Scene by Hozier

ZITTI E BUONI by Måneskin

My Songs Know What You Did In the Dark by Fall Out Boy

Emperor's New Clothes by Panic! At the Disco

People I Don't Like by UPSAHL

Enemy by Imagine Dragons ft. JID

Venom by Eminem

DRUM GO DUM by KDA

Burning Pile by Mother Mother

I'm So Sorry by Imagine Dragons

UGH! by BTS

Close Eyes by DVRST

Water

has no patience at all, especially when explaining stuff

looks very calm and detached but gets annoyed very easily

likes activities that don't require unnecessary movement

can't stand airheads, nonsense and indecisive people

willing to accept and consider opinions that are different from their own as long as they make sense

always tries to please people whom they look up to although in a very subtle way

way too hard on themselves and wants to achieve impossible standards

actually has a soft spot for cute things but nobody has to know

a stickler for rules, would report their own mistakes even if they'd get in trouble about it

always remembers important dates and helps you organize your schedule

doesn't know how to handle emotions

asks you to come over on rainy days to read together in silence and take a nap

they often blame themselves, even for things they don't really have any control over

sticks rigidly to a precise step-by-step everyday routine

tries not to have any expectations because has been let down too many times already

their thoughts are too deep sometimes and they drown in them

Aesthetic:

The sound of flowing water and of a shishi-odoshi, the silver reflection of the moon mirrored on the surface of a pond, the absence of sound caused by the falling snow, morning mist and the sensation of walking barefoot, limpid eyes and direct eye contact, the soft glow of lights in the fog and the gleam of a single tear falling

Playlist

An Xi by Hai Lin

everything i wanted by Billie Eilish

Stigma by Smyang Piano ft. Bibimbeats

idontwannabeyouanymore by Billie Eilish

feel something by Bea Miller

Fix You by Coldplay

4am by girl in red

Dark Paradise by Lana Del Rey

Gimme Love by Joji

Wait a Minute! by WILLOW

Young and Beautiful by Lana Del Rey

pluto by Aidan ft. Ivri

He Won't Go by Adele

Somebody Else by The 1975

Jealous by Eyedress

Somebody That I Used To Know by Gotye ft. Kimbra

Cry Me a River by Julie London

Take One to the Head by Sabrina Claudio

Gymnopédie No.1 by Erik Satie

The Less I Know the Better by Tame Impala

WINTER FLOWER by Younha ft. RM

Moonsea by PHIDEL

Kith by Hilary Woods

Earth

tries to keep everyone and everything together

sometimes really just wants to smack someone

the most down to earth and realistic of the four

Impatient with inefficiency

can't stand idealists that have big dreams but have no clue on how to achieve them

prefers a stay-home-date to cuddle and watch TV together and order takeout

gets angry when people interrupt them

the parent friend, ready to take care of you if they require it necessary

always serious except for rare moments in which they relax and let go

dedicated and strong-willed

brings you out regularly to different restaurants and coffee shops to try them out

moves only with a purpose in mind, otherwise prefers to sit on the nearest sofa

won't calm down nor rest until they've found the solution to the problem

looks done with everyone but they know it would be boring and lonely without all the mess

Aesthetic:

Proud smiles and fond chuckles, the softness of fresh grass near a stream of cool water on a summer day, the heartwarming sensation of sitting near the fireplace on a cold winter night, birch wood and slants of golden light, linen sheets and silk dressing gowns, a firm hand on your shoulder

Playlist

Lights Up by Harry Styles

Circles by Post Malone

Any Song by ZICO

Know Your Worth by Khalid ft. Disclosure

Jupiter by The Marías

Golden by Harry Styles

From Eden by Hozier

Supalonely BENEE, Gus Dapperton

Yellow by Coldplay

we fell in love in october by girl in red

I'll Keep You Safe by sagun

By This River by Brian Eno

Bloom by The Paper Kites

Homage by Mild High Club

To Build a Home by the Cinematic Orchestra ft Patrick Watson

Hearthside by Plastic Patina

These Times by Far Caspian

Ophelia by The Lumineers

Trouble by Cage The Elephant

Mystery of Love by Sufjan Stevens

Be by Hozier

NAN CHUN 난춘 by SE SO NEON

Six Forty Seven by Instupendo

Sweet Night by V

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And it's done!!!✨

If you are wondering if it's related to Avatar, it's not really, although it certainly has some traits that resemble some characters. My main inspiration were actually some characters from MDZS (ofc you don't need to know MDZS to enjoy the character traits nor the playlists), I just wanted to mention it as a fun fact.

I guess I've bored you enough, to anyone who is reading this, thank you and I hope you have a wonderful day ❤️🌼

[indigochromatic]

@korya-elana Ask and ye shall receive /lh I think the biggest part of our experience, broadly speaking, that has a lot in common with many non-disordered plurality experiences is that...lemme put it this way: I "look" a lot like an unintentional parogen and/or soulbond, and this was especially true when I first showed up.

Fictional character who acted like a helper figure in a time of stress

Immediate strong mental visualization/voice/imposition/the works from day 1

Feels like a separate person from L who just "walked in one day and never left"

Spent the first 6-8 months talking internally for hours every day, as well as going through daydream and exomemory narratives that basically felt like...sub/semi-consciously "downloading" an life history self-narrative for myself (in other words, even if I hadn't existed before, that'd probably have been more than enough to create me all on it's own)

There's still just two of us, after 4+ years (even with my subsystem shit)

There's some "mild echos" of things in L's past that I relate to/feel related to me, but definitely not the sense that I existed, in a meaningful way self-wise, prior to that one very specific day that I strolled into her mind out of stage left and started talking. It's more like "those experiences probably provided some of the building blocks for me" than "that was me and we hadn't Syscovered yet"

I relate metaphysically/personal-idiosyncratic-spirituality-or-whatever to a lot to some types of archetrope and/or godshard labels, in that it feels like I'm...I dunno, an instantiation of some larger multi-dimensional concept or theme or something? Like if we were living in, idk, Ancient Greece, and folks were like "I think L's being possessed by a version of Ares", that wouldn't feel wrong to me.

Probably some more stuff I'm forgetting?

On the other hand, one of the big reasons why we don't just call me a soulbond and leave it at that is that I'm also traumatized as fuck, lmao, with all the symptom-management and processing work that implies. It's true that I "feel like I showed up in order to help, because L was in a tight spot and she felt like One of Mine/kindred spirit in some deep way", and also, simultaneously, it's true that I need a lot of help myself, too. L has mental health issues and trauma stuff of her own, and in a lot of ways it feels like we're...complementary, kinda? Like, we have complementary traumas in ways that let us sort of lean on each other as we both try to move forward and heal. (And yeah, it takes a lot of work to make sure we stay on the constructive side of that cycle, as opposed to the "seeking out friends/partners/etc that let you reenact your trauma patterns in self-destructive ways" side of it). Also, we also have a lot of dissociation problems in our daily life, and my subsystem shit definitely feels "dissociated parts of self"-y, including mild memory issues sometimes. (see: L's joke about "I don't have DID, but my headmate does!").

Anyways, thanks for asking! super curious to know if there's anything you're surprised by or have more questions about. -S Edit: P.S., we'd also be super curious to hear if there's any particular aspects of non-disordered plurality experiences that you all relate to as well, if you want to share!

Bringing Back an Old Invitation for Conversation

This was something we posted wayyyy long ago (okay, well, 2021, which feels like forever), back on the birdsite when that was our main form of social media:

{L+S} Hey! In the spirit of reaching out and, I guess, opening up echo chambers? We're just yet another random people on the system twitterverse, so who knows where this will go, but tl:dr, we'd like to talk to anyone who would like to talk to us, even if it looks like we'll disagree on things. We're a non-DID/OSDD (that we know of) system(?)/pair of folks in the same brain. Endogenic? Neurogenic? Accidentally parogenic? No idea. Non-DID/OSDD systems/etc are not a monolith--we can only speak for ourselves, not any larger community. We fully respect the right of anyone to not interact with us if they don't want to, & we will always try to converse with respect and collaborative intent.

3-4 years later...yeah, most of this is still true, actually! Technically, and largely for insurance purposes, we've had a CDD dx on paper with a prior therapist, though we still don't fit the stereotypical presentation or etiology of a textbook CDD system in a lot of ways. We've continued to not really bother with origin labels (#It'sComplicated, lol), though we're happy to talk about the best ways we've found so far for understanding our experience. There are a lot of aspects about our plurality that we see reflected in non-disordered systems, and also several things we recognize in disordered experiences, too. We certainly Have Mental Health Problems, and they interface with our plurality in a lot of ways, but we don't experience being a system as aversive or disordered.

Happy to compare notes about experiences or share our perspectives if anyone wants to send us an ask or a reply, and we will assume good faith/good intent even if it seems like we're starting from very different points of view. - L + S

[bibbykins]

Sneak-Peek of the Moonlight Reign rewrite

Hello all! I am here to deliver a fun little tidbit of the very first series I published on here but way, way, rewritten. I wrote the first chapter of Moonlight Reign not long before I turned 17, if I remember correctly, and I love the concept a lot but... not so much my execution so I, of course, changed it up a bit.

It is going to be my brand of kinda soft yandere and an ot7 x reader fic! The MC is going to be a school nurse with more or less the same background but 18 when she left and is now currently in her early to mid twenties. Jungkook will still have been a friend so here is a fun snipped into their friendship before shit hits the fan! Ask any and all questions you may have ofc and rest assured, I am still working on THB and have a lil snippet to give for that soon!

“You really shouldn’t leave your door open like that, you know.” He tsked like he always did.

You shrugged as you helped him unpack the food, “We’re the only ones on the top floor.” You reminded him, “it would be quite silly of a criminal to come all the way up to the 20th floor.” You chided.

“Still.” He tried to argue but quickly gave up. Jungkook knew by now that you could take care of yourself, but sometimes you wished you’d let him do it for you more often. However, he let this potential argument go, this time. He looked around and narrowed his gaze at the TV, “Why do you still have the news on?” 

You paused and looked up from your food as it prattled on about your family, “I guess I forgot,” You forced your casual tone, “Did you get-”

“Syndicates, huh…?” He echoed the news reporter’s words, eyes fixated on the screen with a curious look, “The news is so weird with this stuff.”

The chopsticks in your hand stilled. You wanted to say that the syndicates were even weirder since they were the ones that probably signed off on the script. As a little girl, that was the first thing you had learned: how to play chess outside on a park bench, how to play chess crushing people in your hands as you moved them. The world was just a series of moving parts to build your machine. It had all been the same to you for far too long. 

“Like I care, it’s just background noise.” A lie, you hated lying, but it was something you had to get used to doing for the sake of your safety.

“You aren't scared of these guys at all?” Jungkook looked at you like you were crazy, although his eyes didn't match the rest of his face's intensity.

Shaking off the weird notion, you rolled your eyes, “A world without you buying me dinner is pretty spooky but that,” You gestured to the TV, “Is a cheap haunted house in comparison to the hell of making dinner or worse, ordering it myself, on a Friday night.” You giggled.

Jungkook rolled his eyes with a scoff, “Is that all I am to you? A sugar daddy?” He asked in mock offense and you nearly spit out your drink.

You swallowed roughly before glaring at him as he laughed, “If you’re my sugar daddy, I need a new one.” You retorted and his laugh died while a childish pout settled on his face, “I mean, all I get is a measly dinner once a week and I still have to work and pay my bills?” 

“Well, what do I get, huh?” He crossed his arms, and it made you chuckle. Laughter had never come easy to you growing up, and it still had a hard time coming to you but after years by Jungkook’s side it was easier than ever to do, “Where’s my sugar?” He thrusted his cheek toward you, tapping on it with his index finger.

You rolled your eyes in spite of the flutter in the pit of your stomach and pushed his face away with your index finger, “My presence is your sugar, dummy.” You teased and how easy it was to be human around him made you smile wider, “Plus I let you watch your silly little shirtless men.” 

He clicked his tongue, “First of all, if you’re going to call them shirtless men, at least call them hot because look at him.” He pressed a button on your remote and his favorite fighter, Park Jimin filled the screen, “Second of all, it’s literally fewer syllables to just say MMA fights.”

You took a bite of your food and shrugged, “Don’t you have, like, a million boyfriends? Wouldn’t you make them jealous drooling all over Jimin?” You challenged, vaguely remembering Jungkook saying he had more than three boyfriends at some point. Not that it was surprising, most people had at least two significant others. Unless they were you, of course. You had no one to talk to but the man sitting in front of you, forget about a significant other. “He would make me pretty damn insecure.” You chuckled.

Jungkook scrunched his brows at you, “Six.” He corrected, mirth filling his eyes already.

You looked from the TV to him, “Hm?” You tilted your head to the side.

“I have six boyfriends, thank you very much.” He stated matter-of-factly, and you rolled your eyes at his tone, “Why? Are you trying to give me seven significant others?” He feigned a scandalous gasp, “Well, the relationship is open, you know, so I guess I could pencil you in–” You cut him off by shoving a piece of chicken in his mouth with a glare. The teasing made your chest seize for a split moment when faced with his teasing smirk, so this had been the best way to shut him up. 

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Aren't they cute? Pain: incoming

Happy holidays, my dears! Thank you for remaining so patient, I hope this tickles some fancies and if you're an OG fan who read Moonlight Reign when I first released it, omg thank you for sticking around!

[whatifyoulivelikethat]

original idea, m | kth

pairing(s): taehyung x reader

summary: Your boyfriend, Kim Taehyung, is observant. He noticed you started your period today and picked up your favorite can of sweet Thai tea on his way back from visiting his best friend Park Jimin. How nice of him until he asks you mid-gulp if he can go in raw.

warnings: rated M (18+) for language; unprotected period sex, do not do this unless you absolutely trust the other person; established relationship; low-key crack; lots of fluff; shower smut (fem reader is on her period, handjob, unprotected, wall sex, creampie, doggy); non-idol!BTS, ft Jimin putting ideas in Taehyung's head, who would have guessed

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“You started your period today.”

You cracked open the can of Thai tea you boyfriend handed you. “Yeah, how’d you know?”

“I saw the pad wrapper in the trash.”

“Oh.”

You took a large sip, thinking the conversation was over.

“Does that mean I can go in raw?”

You nearly spit out the entire contents of your mouth. Instead, you choked and swallowed hard, coughing and sputtering. “What?”

Kim Taehyung expression didn’t change. “Does that mean I can go in–?”

You held up your hand, coughing wildly, hacking the words out. “I heard what you said, I just can’t believe you said it, who the fuck?”

Taehyung seemed to understand and nodded, dark brown hair falling over his forehead.

“Oh, right. I was talking to Jimin and he mentioned–”

Oh, of course, how could you not guess, Taehyung’s best friend Park Jimin was putting ideas in Taehyungie’s little noggin and now murdering you as you struggled to breathe.

“–that it could be possible, because you’re right, it’s too early to have kids and having a monetary plan to prepare is a better idea–”

You were glad that Taehyung was interested in finances when it came to having children but he sure picked a weird ass time to agree with your sensibilities.

“–but I love having sex with you, so I was telling Jimin I haven’t been in raw yet and I completely understand that you prefer condoms over hormones since that might affect your mental state and I don’t like the idea of only you doing something like that to yourself anyway, it doesn’t seem fair–”

You were still processing the fact that Taehyung had told Jimin he hadn’t been in raw. What the fuck?! At least he loved having sex with you. You were staring at Taehyung slack-jawed, but he was scrunching up his face, trying to remember the rest of the conversation.

“–and Jimin mentioned, ‘hey, at least you can do it when she’s on her period, it’ll add more lubrication and it might even be better for her,’ so I was wondering if we could try it, if you’re interested.”

Silence.

You still hadn’t picked your jaw off the floor.

Taehyung opened his eyes and smiled at you. “Hm? What do you think?”

Okay, you very much enjoyed Taehyung’s eager, boxy smile, so that unfroze you, but you still blurted out your next question in sheer shock.

“Why did you tell Jimin you’ve never been in raw?!”

He blinked, tilting his head. “It just came up.”

You looked around, expecting Jimin to pop out and tell you you’ve been pranked. He did not.

“…. H-How…? Actually, don’t tell me, I’m going choose ignorance…” you mumbled, now taking another long sip of your Thai tea, but more like a swig and wishing it was forty-percent alcohol.

“But what do you think though?” Taehyung persisted, leaning down with his tilted head to try and catch your eye. “Do you wanna try? It might be nice!”

You looked down.

Someone was thinking about it for sure.

You looked back up.

Taehyung smiled at you innocently with a massive tent in his pants.

You stared into those big brown eyes and sighed.

“Ah… probably not. It’s going to be so messy and dirty and cleaning up is going to be such a bitch… I’m sorry, Tae, but I don’t think…”

-

“So…”

You stood under the showerhead, your hair wet and sticking to your forehead.

“So.”

Hey, in your defense, you were also curious.

Taehyung chewed on his lip, watching you inquiringly. “Hey, we don’t have to. I was being kinda pushy… but…”

You scratched your head, moving your wet hair out of your eyes. “Ah, it’s okay, I understand, I just… it feels wrong, you know? Aren’t you grossed out?”

He rubbed his chin thoughtfully. “Mmm, at first? But the more I think about it, the more I think, well, isn’t it natural? And you have to deal with it every month for many, many years, right? Plus, when we have children, they’re going to come out of you slightly, erm…” He made a little bit of a face but shook his head, spraying water everywhere from his dark wet hair. “Anyway, it’s not too bad. We’re in the shower. You like it when we do stuff in the shower,” Taehyung added brightly.

You contained your laughter, giving him a hopeless smile. “Why are you acting so weird?”

Now Taehyung turned red, his deep tan skin flushing, eyes shifting from side to side. “Um…”

You tilted your head.

He shot you a quick glance and mumbled under his breath.

“Idon’tknowhowlongI’mgonnalastIalreadydon’tlastthatlong.”

“What?”

He chewed on his lip.

“Nothing.”

“Oh.”

You reached up and pushed your hair back, swimsuit-supermodel style, and now Taehyung was doing more than glancing, he was observing very closely and very intently under wet strands of dark brown hair, curling around his strong features and moody brown eyes, his lips parting slightly, probably unnoticed on his part.

Looking like a fish wasn’t exactly an image Taehyung himself considered sexy.

Secretly, you enjoyed it because it meant he wasn’t conscious of what he looked like and was too distracted by your actions and your body to do so.

You smiled. “Why were you talking to Jimin about something like that anyway?”

Taehyung stiffened as you neared, biting his lip. “Ah, well…” He frowned slightly. “You’re so good at certain… things… It’s kind of frustrating for me… sometimes. I want to be better.”

Now you hesitated. “What are you talking about? Haven’t I taught you a lot of things? And you learn quickly and are amazing once you get the hang of it.”

His lips twisted into a small pout.

“For once, I’d like to teach you something.” He let out a small puff. “Or at least suggest something you’ve never heard of before.”

You blinked at him.

“Er… going in raw isn’t exactly a new concept… rather… that’s the original idea of dick and pussy in the first place…”

Taehyung scrunched up his face. “I know that, argh… I just mean… ah…” He trailed off, baritone voice now unsure and unsteady.

You saw he was rapidly losing confidence and you placed a hand on his chin, lightly lifting it with your knuckle. “Hey, no, I didn’t mean it like that. I want to try it. I just thought you wouldn’t like it, because… I mean… Period blood isn’t sexy per se… And I’m certainly not sexy during that time of the month…” You frowned uneasily, lowering your hand, but now Taehyung raised your chin, smiling at you.

“Don’t be silly. You’re always sexy.”

He leaned in, smile morphing into a smirk.

“Also, your boobs get bigger during that time of month, so I always appreciate that.”

Your eyes widened. “You noticed?”

Taehyung raised an eyebrow. “Of course, I noticed. I keep close tabs on your boobs.”

“Close tabs? Do you record the size in a notebook or something?”

He chuckled, tapping his temple with his free hand, the other sliding down your chin, tracing the contours of your neck and collarbones. “Mental notes. I remember all the important stuff. Your boobs are on the top of the list.”

Your cut in with your inquiring quips. “My ass? My mouth? My hands? My pussy?”

Taehyung frowned slightly and placed his large hand on your breast, kneading it as if he needed comfort. “Okay, near the top, but don’t make me order them, it’s too difficult.”

You grinned. “That makes me feel better.”

He breathed out in relief. “Whew, that’s good–mphf!”

You seized the moment and pushed him into the wall, pressing your wet body into his, your tongue snaking out and lightly flicking against his lips, taking advantage of his surprise and the beauty of his widened eyes to kiss him firmly, falling into his warmth. It took him a second to compose himself, tipping his head down to take charge of the kiss, squeezing your breast and running his thumb over your hard nipple, but you placed your palms flat on the shower wall and resisted him, dancing your tongue between his lips and not letting him catch it, smirking at the growl he made in frustration.

“We were having a moment,” he muttered.

“Mmm, I know, but I want my moment with him.”

Your fingers ghosted his thigh and he sucked in a breath as your hand closed around his cock, not quite hard yet but getting there, especially after your hand came into contact with it. You feathered kisses on his lips as you stroked his length, nice and slow, his other hand coming up to cup both breasts, panting softly, hot breath on your lips.

“You’re too quick…”

“Can’t waste too much water,” you chuckled. “And…”

You kissed up his jaw, adjusting your body to get a better angle, licking his skin lightly and feeling the vibration and depth of his moan under your tongue and lips, whispering gently into his ear.

“It’s kind of hard to focus when you’re so handsome, Tae.”

He let you have the moment, tipping his head down so your teeth could catch his ear, nipping at it lightly, contrasting with the pace of your hand, firm and intense, shivering at the thickness and the weight in your palm, savoring the taste of his skin, moaning into his ear, long and sensual, everything he liked and more, his head turning, black-brown eyes looking down at you under lashes covered in small droplets, adding to his already ethereal appearance.

“Let me…”

He leaned in, not finishing his sentence, kissing you long and deep and sweet, changing your positions, but you didn’t let go, toying with his tongue. He made a small tch sound of annoyance, shifting his hips, picking up one of your legs.

“Ah, w-wait…”

“Why?” he chuckled. “You don’t wanna wait. I can tell.”

You tried to hide the smirk, but it came out.

Smugness just refused to be hidden.

Taehyung grinned against your lips. “Thought so.”

Your hand was already guiding him. “This isn’t going to be the optimal position for you to cum.”

“Good.”

You raised an eyebrow and he thrust up into your pussy.

You sucked in a breath, relaxing yet still stretched out. It did hurt slightly. Taehyung was sizable after all, in length and girth, but you had practice and muscle memory, and maybe (definitely) a pain kink.

What? It was fun getting stuffed with dick.

Especially when it was Taehyung’s dick.

You? You were fine.

Taehyung?

“Oh, fuck…!”

Er, maybe not?

He had such a cocky expression beforehand but the second he entered you, it instantly changed, sudden tension in his strong features, gasping as he slid in, surprisingly much easier than you expected, perhaps due to the consistency of the slippery blood, almost stopping halfway, but you didn’t let him, firmly grabbing his hips and yanking him towards you, his eyes rolling back, whining your name loudly, the volume and depth reverberating in the bathroom.

“You’re so t-tight… fuck… soft… oh, shit…”

You let him run through every expletive he knew, holding him firmly by his juicy ass, enjoying it too much, but thankfully Taehyung didn’t notice, eyes closed, head thrown back, dark wet hair curling around his cheekbones. He reached up and pushed it away from his face, exhaling hard, slowly opening his eyes, hazy and unfocused.

“Fuck… it feels so fucking good, you have no idea…” he shuddered, twitching inside you and moaning once more, body shaking so he had to plant his hands on the walls of the shower, volume increasing as you pulsed your muscles around his length. There was slight pain from cramps, but not from his cock, and you could ignore the dull ache and focus on the pleasure, slowly moving your hips and biting your lip, feeling the added slickness of your juices mixing with the blood.

You often cursed your period’s arrival, but maybe it was time to reconsider.

Always good to find the silver lining in things.

“Taehyung…”

You rolled your hips and he gasped, thrusting back lightly.

“Don’t wanna hurt you,” he panted, swallowing hard. “Shit, it feels so fucking good, I can’t t-think…”

“I’ll tell you if it hurts,” you managed to say, pressing your hands into his ass and angling yourself to take him deeper, shoulder blades and head touching the shower wall, sighing in satisfaction.

“Alright, I’m gonna…”

He clenched his jaw, faster, harder, one hand coming down to grab a handful of your ass, you wrapping a leg around his and meeting him in the middle, increasing the depth of each thrust, both of you gasping at the tightness and the wetness, the messy slap and squelch echoing in the bathroom, water raining down on his broad back and spraying onto your chest, clenching around him so he could feel more, his eyelids fluttering, biting his lower lip, tendons on his neck popping out, and you realized he was trying not to cum, trying to hold back, so you gave his stiff length a particularly firm squeeze and Taehyung groaned, barely able to shoot you an incredulous look.

You grinned.

“I’m gonna cum, fuck!”

You felt it, his cock twitching and spilling into you, eyes widening at the sensation, not quite as strong as porn seemed to make it, but noticeable for sure, pushing out your juices in a rough sputter, loud and obscene, flinching as Taehyung’s hand quickly moved down, rubbing your clit, making you squirm and twist of his cock, almost falling off but he kept his other hand on your ass, digging his nails into the softness, holding you in place.

“Come on, come on, come on–”

It didn’t take much, you were already turned on by the fucking and then the sensation of being filled up, and you cried out, trying not to move your hips, the high peaking.

“Tae, fuck!”

Hot shivers and burning electricity tearing through your veins, jerking your hips forward and tightening around his cock, harsh throbs racking your body you came, pussy squeezing so hard that you felt his cock stiffen again, swelling and growing inside you as your orgasm roughly roused him back to life, both of you moaning at the sensation, feeling his cum and yours drip down your thigh, hearing it plop thickly onto the bathtub below and wash away, stunning both you and him at the lewd noise.

“Whoa…”

You panted hard, letting out a tense puff as he slid out of you.

“That felt… so fucking good…”

You thought for a moment, catching your breath. The pain your felt was only from cramps, although it seemed to be less now. Was that the ibuprofen? Or the euphoria of orgasm? You paused on consider the differences, chewing on your lip thoughtfully.

“I think for me it’s about the same? You feel very similar with and without a condom.”

Taehyung shook his head. “Not for me, you feel way better, I don’t know how I can go back, the condom is seriously a nerf…” he mumbled.

You shifted your eyes. “You didn’t last… the longest.”

His ears turned red.

“W… Well…”

“My pussy is pretty overpowered, maybe she needs the nerf.”

He sighed, frowning. “True… I still stand by the fact that it physically feels better, but more time to enjoy does even it out…”

You tapped your fist in your other palm. “Oh! Let’s do it from behind.”

He blinked. “Eh?”

But you were already turning around, Taehyung stumbling back, pushing the showerhead out of the way and pointing it towards the wall so he didn’t drown, audibly gasping as you bent over and presented your ass, hands spreading open your pussy with one fluid motion. You turned your head back and grinned.

“Yes?”

“Oh, fuck, yes.”

You felt him position the head against your opening and he pushed in, slow, steady, both you of moaning at the feeling, centimeter by centimeter, this position tighter, more heavenly, giving you added control over your muscles so you could pulsate around him. He inhaled sharply, gripping your hips and forcefully pushing in the rest of the way, bottoming out, balls smacking your clit.

“Stop t-that, fuck…”

You let go of your ass and placed one hand on the edge of the bathtub and the other on the wall.

Then you rocked your hips back.

“Ah, yes, Tae…”

“Are you trying to kill me? Oh, shit!”

You continued and Taehyung had no choice, fiercely grabbing your hips to try and get you to stop, but you were undeterred, so he had to ram his cock into you, exactly what you wanted, the sudden sensation of the head hitting you deeply rendering your speechless, and he had no time to gloat, too driven by lust and pleasure to taunt you even if he wanted to.

“A-ah, it’s good like this too, oh, fuuuck, yes, you always feel so fucking tight…”

He had a good rhythm and pace like this, deep, controlled, fast, making sure to give you the powerful thrusts you liked, loud, audible smacks of hips to ass, rough and wet, and you knew you had his cum inside you now along with yours and the added slickness of your period, and, sure, maybe someone found it gross, but in this second (and lucky all subsequent seconds involving this very behavior that would certainly continue at least once a month) you nor Taehyung gave a single fucking shit, pleasure flaring up your core, the dull ache of cramps forgotten, completely focused on the feeling of his cock entering you over and over, your hand on the wall curling into a fist, hitched breaths and flinching shivers taking over, clenching around him, oh fuck, his rock-hard, thick length plunging into your tight, wet hole, too much, so good, your thighs tensing from the overwhelming proximity of release.

“Taehyung, oh, fuck, you’re so good at f-fucking me…”

You could tell he wasn’t talking on purpose, probably clenching his jaw to last as long as possible, but he wasn’t going to last much longer because you smacked your palm into the tile wall, gasping his name loudly, shot into free-fall.

“Gonna cum, fuck!”

That was all the warning he got as your walls spasmed, brutally massaging his cock and he hissed your name, turning into a half-moan, half-whine as he yanked your hips down and slammed into your pussy, fully sheathing himself all the way up to his balls, his cock jolting and spilling his orgasm into you, his hands on your ass shaking so bad they seemed to be vibrating, gripping tighter and tighter, rolling his hips inside you and moaning, prolonging the euphoric feeling.

“S-So good… ah, yeeeeeees…”

It took him a while to still, breathing loud and hard, holding you in the bent over position, the additional time getting slightly awkward, but you waited it out, his grip finally loosening, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you up, your pussy too wet and his cock giving up, sliding out, a mess of juices splattering out of you.

Good thing you were in the shower. Easy to clean up.

“It’s… too good…” Taehyung huffed, broad shoulder leaning against the wall to hold himself up, still clinging onto you. “Your pussy does need a nerf, but, fuck, I’m still gonna think about it all the time…”

“Good thing for you that my period lasts at least five days.”

Taehyung looked up to the sky and whispered his gratitude.

“I know you kind of hate it, but I’m still going to thank them.”

“Maybe I have a reason to hate it a little less now. It’s still inconvenient.”

“Yeah, but going in raw…”

Mmm, yeah, that still sounded weird. Oh well.

“You’re not going to tell Jimin, right?”

-

“You let him go in raw?!”

“Taehyung!”

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[alexissara]

Art I'm Looking Forward To In 2023

I wanted to share the art that I think might be good coming out in 2023. I am not including ongoing art that I am looking forward to not because it doesn't belong here but because I might make another post about those things. I don't want this too be too crowded. Each of this will be given an SPS - Sapphic Potential Score which says how likely I think it is that they will make my lesbian ass happy. These are mostly goofs on what I think is likely not to be taken seriously.

Fire Emblem Engage

This is probably the thing I am most excited about, it's like my whole personality right now, I am obsessed. I really love the wild art style and the gameplay looks really solid. The concept of fusing with old Fire Emblem characters is really cool. The flying base is really awesome and all the fashion and side content looks really cute. I think this could be at the top of Fire Emblem games gameplay wise.

I do have worries about this game, narratively it seems rather basic, fight an evil dragon, maybe your half evil dragon, collect the mugffins and kill the big dragon. The game's DLC and Amiibo stuff is frustrating in the amount of content being gated off. The roster size sounds potentially pretty small seemingly going to tie around the same roster size as the smaller casts. I am also worried how Rosardo will be treated and I really hope we avoid a Forrest situation.

That said, I am way more excited then I am worried and I am a dirty little consumer who already pre-ordered the DLC knowing I will play the game day one and I want Edelgard with me. I mostly use my Twitter account to tweet about Fire Emblem Engage nowadays, I am just so excited and if you DM me to talk about the game, I will just gush about it for however long you'll let me. I can't wait and am glad we're getting it near the start of the new year.

SPS: Player Sexual and Historians will say they were besties/10

Arcane Season 2

While Arcane was far from a perfect show for me, I really love the breath taking style of animation and Jinx and look forward to seeing what happens moving forward and if they'll give Vi her terrible canon fate of becoming a cop. I think the character designs are all stunning and seeing the animation in motion is just so captivating I can't help but be enraptured in the show and want to watch more.

Not to mention the actual character interactions are all really engaging with brilliant voice acting from everyone involved really capturing the world. It's never boring when things are on screen even when the politics are mid at best. Ekko also presents what appears to be a solar punk anarchist alterative in season 1 but we'll see how that is handled by the show.

This show is a blessing and a curse, with the curse being now I know all this League OF Legend lore cuz I got really curious after and started playing Legends Of Runeterra but Legends Of Runeterra is one of the most interesting card games out there, so not a total loss. I know I'll be going into season 2 very different now knowing about all the things from the games where as before I really didn't think of this little war between countries in a wider nerd universe context. I am really interested on how I'll enjoy.

SPS: Directors Says It's Canon but not on screen/10

Assorted Entanglements, Vol. 1

I love myself some Yuri manga and while I prefer a more action forward Yuri I do like a Slice of life from time to time and having an anthology of stories bout women loving women who are adults or at least one story features an adult is exciting.

This little collection of yuri manga sounds really cute. I don't have a lot to say about it, I don't even know what all is in it, I just like the sound of it.

SPS: No Queer ID But Very Gay/10

Super Lesbian Animal RPG

[Technically this is out very soon but ya know, end of the year lists are already up and I won't beat this till next year]

I've been looking forward to this game for a long time, I've been backing the creator for probably 2 years maybe 3 now on the dev journey. Whatever the number from the first time I played the demo I was hooked on this sweet little indie RPG. The character designs are adorable and colorful, the kissing mechanic is so cute, and really this is just what I want out of a game.

I really love when games just sell their queerness on the tin, I hate having to go and just randomly play a game and hope to the goddess queer coded or characters I just like are gay, here, I already know I am gonna get gay after gay after gay. Also having the protagonist be a trans woman is really cool and super rare to this day in the industry.

This game looks like it'll be one of my favorite games of all time not just next year and I can't wait to finally start playing it. Please check this game out, support indie queer art.

SPS: Ooops All Lesbians/10

The Magical Revolution of the Reincarnated Princess and the Genius Young Lady Season 1

This series has a delightful name but seems to be far from the typical isekai fair. The series is a yuri and it is far less focused on the girl being super awesome because her past life and instead kinda treat her knowing about her past life as a thing that causes her to have a disability in this world. The Genius Young Lady makes magical inventions because she can't use magic, so she learned how to make items that make magic happen.

The girl is super sweet and kind and it doesn't feel gross at all. It's more or less just a fantasy story with the Isekai seemingly thrown in for getting the book published. It's a really interesting series that I haven't gotten very far in but I think this is going to be a super special anime. I really think this year might end up giving me my favorite animes of all time.

SPS: Yuri/10

Asumi-chan is Interested in Lesbian Brothels! Vol. 1

[Technically this is out now but I haven't read it and won't get to it till next year] In terms of upcoming Yuri manga this isn't one I am sure I am gonna grab right away but it is one I am intended to grab whenever I can. Sometimes you want something a bit more horny then your chaste "do I like her" vibes. In particular what has me excited about this one because it actually is invoking Lesbian identity.

It is shockingly rare for sapphic manga in general but in particular yuri to talk about sexuality. We get homosexuality without sapphic identities, lives, problems, etc. I love when we are more zoomed into the real world way we use labels and we explore ourselves and communicate ourselves. While it's not "needed" to tell a sapphic story, I do think it adds a lot to bring in queerness.

Plus, I mean, a girl going to Lesbian Brothels, that's cool, i'm in.

SPS: Horny Lesbian's Wanted/10

Street Fighter 6

Of all the fighting game series, Street Fighter isn't my favorite but it might become my favorite thanks to this game. The massively in depth character creator seems to be beyond what any other game is providing in the whole industry. The utterly stunning range of possibilities is just so captivating that I am compelled to buy this game simply to dress up my character.

I really enjoy playing fighting games even if I am not particularly great at them. There was a time where I really strives to be a competitive level player and that did include playing SF4 a lot. While playing that game I fell in love with Juri and her returning here also really drew me in, plus following Chun-li's arc as a mother finally after so many years from SF3 where she adopted her child.

My only real worries for this is DLC prices and general business practices along with if I'll be able to use my OC creations in casual vs modes where I feel I should be able to use them. I hope the DLC isn't priced poorly and I really hope you can take your OCs to casuals even if they have to commit to one characters moveset instead of the custom ones from World Tour Mode.

SPS: Just say Juri is gay already/10

Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury Season 2

Technically this is an ongoing series but there will be a break between seasons so, it goes here, I make the rules. I love The Witch From Mercury so far, Sulleta is adorable, I think her and Mio are cute together, I think the cast is fun and the action is stunningly animated. I have loved season 1 so far, I only didn't include it in my list of art that touched me this year because season 1 isn't done yet and won't be done till next year too. Bad endings could for sure ruin this but ahhh I love this show.

This show has really great characters, so many shitty people I hate but I hate in a great way. Then it has characters I fucking love like Sulleta, Chuchu, and Prospera who are just fucking amazing top level characters, best characters in the biz. Then there is the utterly stellar action, I mean take my breath away, I love this shit. It really is just really fucking good.

I can't help but worry that the show will fail to deliver actual queerness but it really doesn't seem like it will. Still, I can't help but worry about it. I also worry about the story kinda falling off in season 2 but I really don't know what is gonna happen, all I know is I am locked in right now and excited every Sulleta Sunday.

SPS: Two sad Keychains Falling Down in a dark room/10

Wake The Living 2

While I hadn't become instantly hooked on the original Wake The Living, the improvements to the game for the sequel is utterly thrilling. With the game already being very queer and having a fun more gothic edge to most SRPGs it really is setting up a familiar yet strange little world to enter.

What really sold me on this game was the developer talking about wanting to have canon polyamory as a major part of the story and about how canon queerness not just player choice mattered to them so it really pulled me in and I still really want to beat the original before I play Wake The living 2. The first game is out for free, right now, go get it, it costs nothing if you don't like it you can delete it from your steam.

SPS: Polycule Party/10

I'm In Love With The Villainess Season 1

[Warning, kinda spoilers except I don't say who does what]

I'm In Love With The Villainess has it all, I can only hope that the anime gets to go on long enough for us to see it. We got demons, trans women, lesbians who get married and adopt some kids, revolutions and so much more. The series is really good and gay and written with tons of passion by a queer woman.

This I suppose has long passed being an indie series but it was a little webnovel that good and made it's way all the way to being an anime thanks to fan support, which has also been a large amount of queer fans. This anime is really exciting and I honestly can't wait and hope this brings in way more fans to this amazing series.

SPS: A queer revolution/10

Granblue Fantasy Relink

I love the Granblue Fantasy's gacha game world, it's a totally unethical business' model and I hope it becomes Illegal but I love the game. Granblue Fantasy is one of the queerest games of it's scale around. Now most queer readings of characters are readings and they use the word friends but there is explicitly a few queer characters with stated queer desires, Vira Lillie is attracted to women, Katarina in particular but her bio says women generally, then Katarina as a level above. Cagliostro and Ladiva are both expressly trans women in their stories, they do not use the label of trans but both are explicitly trans, although only Cagliostro gets the "female" Gender marker from the game. Rosetta who is confirmed to be playable in this game is explicitly bisexual with her bio mentioning she is attracted to men and women. There is more and then a lot more subtexty characters.

This is to say that I really love queer characters in games and being able to play them in a really stunning action RPG is fucking exciting as hell. No gacha mechanics, no microtransactions [probably], and a full story that is playable start to finish. It also is gonna have online co-op! This game sounds fucking perfect honestly, like it's so cool and looks so good, I am frankly dazzled at the amount of work that went into this given it's a spin off RPG of a Gacha RPG.

I have worries about potential annoying DLC practices, in particular if in GBF awards will be locked to playstation buyers again leaving PC players in the dust. I also worry about the roster, right now we know all the Dragon Knights are in and the main crew of the Grand Cypher but that's like it. It isn't exactly an exciting cast. I'd like to see a lot more characters and hope a lot of popular ones aren't gated off to DLC like they were in Grandblue Fantasy Verus. Regardless, I am excited and look forward to giving this a stab.

SPS: Canon Queers Who Never Have It Mentioned In This Game/10

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That's everything for this one, if you know any lesbian/Sapphic/WlW/yuri stuff coming out next year please comment or DM or whatever, ultimately I want to engage all of it I can. If your excited for something I am excited for hit me up, we can chat about it. Otherwise, you can find me talking about my artistic work here or support me making it and nerdy shit like this at https://www.patreon.com/AlexisSara.

[that-banana-headed-bovine]

i was thinking

which is not a good idea but i digress.

I wonder if the reason every attempt to reboot/revamp/reimagine Knight Rider has “failed”--I say failed very loosely because I know that the ‘08 show has a solid fanbase, TKR less so but still definitely some supporters, even the movie has its fans...and I don’t mean to invalidate that, because I hate when people crap on media just because it doesn’t fit their standards and genuinely love that so many people get enjoyment from these spinoffs/reboots...just that these shows didn’t resonate with fans of the ‘82 show as much as they’d probably hoped for which is why the movie’s reboot never happened and ‘08 only got one season and TKR faded into relative obscurity--is because Knight Rider as a concept doesn’t really have a fulfilling way to wrap up.

Like, every other iteration of Knight Rider relies on stuff happening after the original show, and what could possibly have happened that’s good for everyone involved?  In order for KR 2000 to happen, Kitt had to be deactivated for like, over a decade, just to be brought back for the movie and the spinoff that never really happened... and now you have to live with the knowledge that it will just happen again after that spinoff.  That’s not Fun to Think About.  It, as a concept, is taking a crap on the original--not necessarily because it tried to, mind you, but it’s the only way to write Kitt out of the story for any amount of time because he can’t get sick, he can’t retire, he doesn’t have a life outside of This.  When This ends, what’s left for him?

I don’t know as much about ‘08 and TKR, I’ve just been obsessing on KR 2000 a bit recently, but the same thing kinda happens.  If I remember correctly, ‘08 implies that Ki2t’s been dismantled in a similar fashion to KR 2000... but even if they didn’t have a scene directly calling for that, the absence of Ki2t in any capacity would likely lead us to assume the worst, possibly running with KR 2000 being canon or just writing off reasons, because if Michael makes a cameo without Ki2t, then surely SOMETHING went wrong.  Even if it didn’t, even if Ki2t had returned with Michael by his side, the existence of a next generation gets us thinking.  About the mortality of our heroes.  About the fact that someday Michael will be gone, and considering that Mike has his own special pal at this point, what’s left for Ki2t?

And for TKR, it probably handles Ki2t the best ironically from what I can tell, but still.  If Kitt’s there, helping out our new heroes, by himself... that means he’s alone now, doesn’t it?  Still contributing how he can, never dropping his allegiance to FLAG entirely, but they didn’t do the same in kind.  Without any arc to indicate that he’d want a life on his own, we’re left to wonder how on Earth he’d fend for himself as a car, not like he can pump his own gas, and if he ever did find another companion then, well, it’s only a matter of time.

It makes it really hard to reboot something where all of the implied endings are grim, where it thrives in thinking about the Now and not giving the Later much thought.  The closest I’ve come to a satisfactory conclusion is in a human/android AU, because at least then Kitt going on to live his best life is feasible.  As in, he is physically capable of providing for himself once the others are gone, as tough as it is.  Right now, the best I’ve got is that when Michael retires he brings his friend with, who gladly continues to provide for him until the end, at which point he’s developed the skills to be on his own and help others along the way... it’s still not great though, no?  Genuinely curious, what are your thoughts on this?  Or am I just,,, being a killjoy for no reason LMBO I don’t mean to be really, just wondering

oh and Edit that’s not even talking about how Stevie fricken died so rip Michael’s happiness ig uwu

[gillianthecat]

hi gillian! you have so much to say about all the bls you watch (this is definitely not a bad thing, i enjoy reading what other people think about our shared interests) but i was just wondering how did you survive being a lurker? did you write your thoughts anywhere or did you just kept them to yourself? i struggle with this myself, i feel like i have so much to say about everything, but i don't really say it or share it, i happily read other people's opinions and silently agree or disagree idek where i'm going with this lmao i guess i'm just curious to know such a "talkative" and person as you was once a lurker

Hi Anon!

So interestingly, when I was a lurker I didn't watch BL at all, barely knew what it was. I joined Tumblr because of a hockey romance writer (Taylor Fitzpatrick, I'm still a big fan of her work) and then mostly started following fanfic writers. Because I mostly read fanfic for media I don't read/watch or for sports RPF in sports I don't follow (which I know makes me a bit of an outlier) I didn't have much to say about the source materials. And because my tendency when writing about stuff is to be pretty analytical and to pick works apart even when I love them, that wasn't something I was going to do in public on tumblr where any of the authors (many of whom I followed) could see it. That just felt invasive. All of which is to say, being a lurker came very naturally to me at the time; it honestly didn't really occur to me to do anything else. And I didn't write my thoughts down or share them with anyone else, my fanfic reading (indeed most of my reading) had always felt like a private part of myself. I had plenty of thoughts and comparative analyses, etc, but it just kind of bubbled up in my brain and then disappeared.

My transition into posting on here about BL happened fairly spontaneously, pretty much immediately after I started watching BL; I don't really remember consciously deciding to make that change. Perhaps I did, and it's fallen out of my mind, I do remember being a little anxious the first time I reblogged something with comments of my own, feeling worried that I would bother people or people would think I was weird or something. On the other hand, my reblog was about Pete and Vegas' kink-filled explicit sex scene, so I must not have been that nervous 😂 I do remember tagging a lot of my posts "#my ramblings" early on; that self depreciation helped me mitigate my self-consciousness about whether my words were "worthwhile." Which I've come to the surety (at least on most days) is a meaningless concept here on tumblr, people can follow you or block you, you're not forcing your words in anyone's face. Seeing all the silly stuff that does get posted has helped me get over the feeling that I'm supposed to be making "worthwhile" content.

It's very freeing (especially as a former perfectionist who once felt she had to read and analyze every single one of an author's dozen or so novels* in order to write a term paper on him) to realize that I don't have to be an expert on anything to write about it on here. I can write in the voice that I want to, and use too many adjectives and adverbs and run-on sentences, and not feel like I have to write concisely or "properly" or even "understandably" if I don't feel like it. I can just share my thoughts and reactions and even be wrong (gasp!) or ignorant (the horrors!) and nothing bad will happen. I've been fortunate in that no one has been hateful or even slightly rude to me yet (the QL community seems particularly kind, even for tumblr), but if it ever does happen, that block button is a powerful tool.

One interesting side effect (or perhaps cause, who knows how these chains of causality are linked) is that I almost never watch episodes of shows straight through anymore. I used to be a binge watcher, a whole season (or more!) in one go with barely a break. Now I almost always pause many many times an episode. Sometimes just to take a break, sometimes to write down my thoughts in the notes app or something (i'll often have two devices in front of me at once, or switch back and forth between apps/tabs/programs) or to liveblog here on tumblr. I'm now pretty much incapable of watching a show without feeling the urge to write about it. Which is both good and bad 🤷🏻‍♀️

In terms of what actually happened to get me posting: I think sometimes (like today) my brain just overflows and then I start writing and the self-consciousness mostly falls to the wayside. Which isn't a helpful suggestion if that's not what your brain does, but it is what happened.

The Advice Part:

I have a couple of ideas for you, based on possible things that could be holding you back from participating. If it's that you feel self-conscious, you can keep doing what you're doing now and sending anonymous thoughts to other bloggers. Not everyone accepts anon asks, but most people who do are happy to publish them and have a conversation with people on anon. Or you could create a sideblog, or even an entire separate blog that you use to post your thoughts about BL, in a way that might feel even more safely anonymous than your regular tumblr. You don't even have to tag anything or follow anyone if you want the cocoon of being relatively invisible while expressing your thoughts. Then, if that starts to feel more comfortable you could start tagging, or reblogging other people's stuff, and start sharing your ideas more publicly. Or stay in that cocoon forever; there is no reason to leave if that's what feels comfortable!

Or you could start (assuming you don't already) by reblogging stuff and adding comments in the tags. And if that starts to feel less scary, or like not enough room for what you want to say, you could shift to reblogging with comments in the... whatever its called, the not tags. And replying rather than reblogging might feel a little safer - it's not quite so public, only the original poster or those who intentionally look into the notes will see it.

If the issue is that you feel overwhelmed by all your ideas, or all the shows, you could pick one or two shows to talk about. Or one or two bloggers to reply to. Or set a goal for yourself of one post a week/a day/whatever works. Just something to create some structure for yourself to make it feel less overwhelming.

Looking back over your ask, I'm not even sure you were looking for advice, but... uh... here some is anyways? Feel free to write back! With questions about this, anything else, or just to chat some more. Or for an anonymous venue for your thoughts!

(One last piece of practical advice, inspired by my computer just dying on me as I was finishing this up. Save Your Drafts! Save early and often. Save whenever you have to navigate away from the editing page. Most of the time the post editor is pretty good. And it even has an autosave function now, at least sometimes, under certain conditions. Which has saved me before from losing stuff, but it's not a surefire thing. So, since it's a pain to try and recreate something painstakingly written, I do highly recommend saving early and often.)

*the novelist was Ayi Kwei Armah, for anyone curious. and it must have been less than a dozen books. but it felt like a lot. sadly I remember very little of either the books or the term paper now.

p.s. I am like so unbelievably flattered by you coming to me for advice and wanting to know my story. i'm flattered by any and all asks i've ever gotten, really. so thank you 😊