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Silco Astrology ✨🪐🌙🔮🌞
Me musing on potential stuff for his tropical astrology natal chart. These are just ideas I'm sharing because I'm excited bout this and curious to hear thoughts or other neat observations. Accidentally fell into a rabbit hole and did this four hours, it was just gonna be simple… oops.
Side note, My astrology knowledge is very novice, so please let me know if there's any cool stuff I missed or misinterpreted or obvious goofs. I will appreciate it! Also some of these are in obvious conflict but it's okay, it's just fun ideas. 💖
Silco
Silco is imo Leo/Virgo cusp Sun in the 2nd house - He is the performer and the strategist. The man likes being the centre of attention, he can be enigmatic, theatrical, knows how to present himself and is comfortable doing so, he enjoys being seen and recognised. He likes nice clothing that reflect his status he likes a trinket. On the flip side- he has high standards and expectations of others just as he sets for himself. He’s also meticulous, calculating with the capacity seperate his emotions from an issue in order to follow logic, utilising this to be ruthless. As a cusp placement there's a delicious duality and inner conflict here too, which I enjoy as it's a major motif for his character. I feel like there's probably some Saturn shit going on here too 10th house vibes, something about hard work, building everything slowly over time, dedicated brick by brick, hard won respect, the path to success paved in blood and suffering and sacrifice. You know, the usual Saturny shit, it just feels right for him. It’s a core part of his identity. (Even in the flashback scene when they’re relaxing in the bar the nerd is taking notes. He can’t chill this is his Virgo cusp/Saturn energy) - BONUS this dark Sun is also in delightful opposition to the spicy heat of Mars in his 8th house. His ambition is partly fuelled by inner conflict. He’s a bit volatile but he keeps most of his rage hidden. When he does lash out it’s usually with strategic rage, maybe a lil psychological warfare, (but sometimes he might just go ham, yell, spit a bit and kick the shit out of someone).
(Bonus option for his sun sign is what I've often seen people peg him as, a Scorpio sun. Sassy jerk, likes to be centre of attention, lashes out. This also tracks.)
Moon in aquarius in the 8th house- You know he has a very strong sense of justice (babe it’s a subjective concept so this is his ideal of justice btw). Driven to create emotional change on a collective level (eg. freeing Zaun). He’s blessed with an innate intrigue and understanding of how people work. What motivates them, what they want, need, how far he can push, how to manipulate them. Our man is private and can appear cold at surface level but upon closer inspection we see that he’s detached but supportive, he cares, but the way he expresses it is unconventional. It’s hard for a lot of people to understand. Those few that ARE close to him, he is very close to, and very loyal to. This placements vibe is also reflected well by his hangup on death, drowning and rebirth. His willingness to embrace change and adapt, making him flexible, adaptable, versatile and resilient. He also likes to try and preach teach others to adapt and change, to transform and evolve into something more, releasing them from limiting ideas of self or belief systems.
First house in Gemini under Pluto -Conjunct Ascendant - Verrrrry powerful BDE placement, it makes him intense, piercing eyes, magnetic, intimidating, maybe he loves his own voice a bit idk, he’s complicated. An aura of mystery and/or power. He’s charming, mentally sharp, intense in how he expresses himself (you KNOW he has to fight to contain his naturally loud face) but also can be youthful, playful and quick witted. People may fear him, desire him (guilty), or distrust him without knowing why. He uses language like a weapon, always masking deeper motives with charm and wit. Some people might underestimate him early on, because of his communication style, not seeing the hidden power underneath (Marcus). Highly sensitive to power dynamics, will try to dominate a conversation/situations to feel safe or for fun, sometimes even in casual conversation. Resilient to the extreme, cockroach NRG. He has a desire to control how people perceive him. First house dictates your outward appearance, and your body. Gemini is all about duality, you see where I’m going with this? His face, his eyes? Again I’m doubling and trippling down on his duality motifs, because I love them shamelessly. Also Pluto loves to bring up trauma, to wallow in it, and make people kind of obsessed with it. Pluto has no chill, thus the intensity. But rather than just suffering, this process of being forced to face the trauma also makes a person more likely to eventually reflect on their experiences, reframe them, heal, move forward and grow, even if confrontation is difficult or slow or imperfect. Not afraid to reinvent himself, might even do so multiple times in a lifetime, -and each time he comes back stronger. Glow up king.
Cancer in the 12th house under Neptune. Big feefees. He has big feelings, can be overly emotional and throw tantrums physically or emotionally lashing out. Very intuitive and sensitive to subtlety. This also gives him a flair for being creative in one way or another (how he creatively threatens people does count as self expression). On the flipside, has a hard time setting boundaries with people he cares about, sometimes can be idealistic about his loved ones and not see the truth of their actions or the reality of a situation involving them. Leaving him vulnerable to abuse and betrayal. You know whomst.
Saturn in the 10th house under Capricorn (trine Uranus and Saturn) - He built his empire brick by brick, suffered for it, earned it. Every last bit. He started with nothing, all his respect, power, wealth, he earned it from the ground up. Even those who hate him respect his ass. Leadership is his burden, he needs to remain in control. He’s proud, won’t always admit it to himself or others when he’s struggling like an idiot.
Mars in the 8th house under Scorpio - This placement FUCKS, it’s intense, this energy runs deep and it’s focussed, manipulative, private, controlling, he’s driven, his endurance and capacity to push through is insane, he’s secretive, private, scheming, plotting. Sex, power and trust are all deliciously intertwined here as an unholy trinity of motivation. He wants to survive, transform and dominate. He studies people in order to understand their motivations, either to use them or control them. Strategic, lethal when necessary. He’s naturally attracted to taboo and/or intense experiences. He needs intensity, he craves it and chases it, power dynamics are super important. Once he truly sets his mind or commits to something, he will not give up, he will push through he will succeed even if it’s through sheer stubborn fiery endurance. Darling he holds a grudge like nobody else, he’s jealous possessive, and pushes down his anger and desire till they explode. He has control issues and a ruthless streak designed entirely around revenge. If he can evolve and heal, he can learn to share power, inspire others, transform others, channel the dark fire into constructive work. His love is fiercely, fiery, deep, passionate and hot. He expects emotional and sexual depth, and you better bring it. He might test loyalty and the emotionally constipated bastard will 100% struggle with being emotionally vulnerable.
Juno opposite Chiron across the 1st/7th house axis. His relationships are destined to be soul deep but filled with pain. He will die for those he truly loves, even if they betray him. He may feel unworthy of love, so he tries to earn it through power, protection and sacrifice (so Saturn of him tbh). Possible he might sabotage or matyr himself in his relationships, giving everything to those he loves, he can’t stop himself. This poor sweet baby both deeply craves commitment and fears it. This all leads to inevitable, destined , FATED even, significant trauma surrounding relationships, (but also there is an opportunity to overcome it.)
Born under a first quarter moon -He's destined to take action. Determined, motivated, ambitious, a need to prove himself, motivated to create a lasting legacy, long term change. Resilience, endurance to see it all through over a long period of time. Also more themes of duality here we love to see it. First quarter moon is also known as the half moon, half light half dark, very fitting.
Sagittarius in the 3rd house under Venus - That man speaks with a dangerously elegant, seductive quality that melts into your earussy. You feel what he says. When he speaks people believe it, even if it scares them. Venus doing the heavy lifting here making his words beautiful. Lecturing his philosophy, villain monologues, strategy and manipulation comes to him so easily, his natural innate gifts. His charm is layered with ideological conviction. This all brings him easy success in business, politics, networking and diplomacy.
Jupiter in the 9th house under Capricorn- He’s not just building a legacy baby, he is laying down strong foundations and putting systems in place to sustain it for generations to come. It’s giving structure it’s giving discipline, it’s giving lawmaking and cold, ruthless enforcement of those laws. Everything must be proven, built and earned.
+Random others I'm not gonna flesh out, but toss here-
This was all fleshed out better but then my battery went flat and I lost a big chunk of it as well as a big chunk of my will to live 🫠 rip
Uranus in the sixth house under Aquarius.
Mercury 6th house
Jupiter square sun? -expansion, ambition, boundless enthusiasm. but also overconfidence, recklessness, and unrealistic expectations.
Maybe some Mars, Saturn, Pluto trine a lil gift to make up for the Juno/Chiron curse.
I feel like he definitely has some Pisces drama going on as well but I'm not sure how.
Dunno what’s was for? His desire for a better Zaun, he's willing to work hard, long term, suffer, and take action for it, he wants to do it for all of Zaun. He wants change and is willing to take unique paths (crime/shimmer) to make it happen.
What do you think?
#Silco#hes definitely got interesting placements#astrology#fandom astrology#birth chart#natal chart#tropical astrology#I spent way too much time on this hahaha#arcane#silco arcane#arcane league of legends#I got it bad for the fictional mans
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Oh Mayday... Warm colors cuz he deserves some warmth 🥹
#artists on tumblr#star wars#the bad batch#star wars the bad batch#commander mayday#tbb mayday#star wars fanart#tbb#doodles#currently watching s2 to catch up tbb and just got to the mayday episode#honest reaction: MARRY ME 😩🙏💍#also why does every fictional man I love ends up dying? what kind of torture is this wtf 🧍♀️#anyway I'll pretend none of that happened#he's in Pabu at the beach#sw#sw tbb
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Gay religious vampire I love you <3
#barok van zieks#not to be a colonizing Christian but I’m taking Barok for the queer Christians#he’s got the trauma for it#this is how you know he’s taken over my brain#bc my priest has a Canterbury cross necklace and I saw it and immediately went ‘omfg it’s Barok!!’#I wonder if the resemblance is on purpose or if that particular shape is used else where#I’d feel bad if it was bc then I’d feel like one of those ignorant Christians who think everything is about them#but I tried doing seem research to see if that cross has any special meaning and…it really doesn’t?#maybe I’ll ask my priest about it but I already asked her about it and I don’t wanna be like#👉👈 can you explain it again bc I’m currently obsessed with a fictional man#also bc I go to an Episcopalian church if I were to make Barok religious I’d want to also make him Episcopalian#but it just does not HIT the same as Catholic#even though Episcopalian is basically Catholic Lite#he’ll still be Episcopalian in my mind though <3
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the view
Commissions always open ♥
#raymond delver#the mortuary assistant#yappa art#artists on tumblr#i've got it so bad for fictional old man#my roach wife everybody#every day with waymond is a good day#also can i say. when tf was the last time i did an actual painting#idek
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The fandom got forgiveness for every other character but Billy and that’s fucked up
#billy hargrove#no bc let’s face it everyone in the show was shitty at one or more point in their life#and for that i blame bad writing tbh#and also everyone got fucking flaws man if you can forgove this one why not that one#why not just have critical thinking skill for once#all things aside they’re all fictional and i love the fucked up characters so#incorrect billy hargrove quotes#harringroveera#billy hargrove text post#billy hargrove meme#billy hargrove edit#billy hargrove deserved better#antis dni
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catch me low key crying on that last MAWS episode hahahah, something abt lois´ dynamic w her dad just hits hard :´)
#he loves and he cares soso much!!! but hes got a tendency to be distant and stubborn#and attepting to bridge the gap tends to turn everyting into a lesson or an argument; its more important to make sure she´s good and capabl#even if that means he ends up being the bad guy; bc that´s his little girl; too small and fragile... in such an unkind world#but no shes not; shes independent as heck; because he raised her that way!!; and hes too preoccupied protecting her to even be proud abt it#and in a way lois *is* an echo of him; so painfully obviously his daughter; but also a direct response to her upbringing; good and bad#oughh yall dont get them like i do#shut up sheo#my adventures with superman#anyways yeah this random fictional man doesnt remind me a tiny bit of my own dad wym?? we´re chill ahhahahahahhahahhahahah#<- no like we actually are but girlll!!! catch me projecting!!!!!
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People defending Snow because he’s a handsome white man despite him:
-Thinking of selling Tigris (in like page 4 mind you.)
-Despises working with people.
-ONLY helps Sejanus because the cameras are watching.
-Spends the whole book thinking about how things can benefit him and how to make everything to his advantage.
-Tries to remind the public that Lucy Gray “belong to him” and how he was constantly angry about not owning her.
-Calls district people: bestial, not evolved and unfortunate barbaric creatures (yea including Lucy.)
-Tries to delude himself that Lucy is from the capitol because he’s shamed of liking her.
-Says he prefers Lucy in the capitol because he knows exactly where she is at all times (liked Lucy in the games because of the same reason, he could watch her 24/7 and control her.)
- Moved in with Sejanus parents after betraying their son and getting him killed.
-Killed Highbottom who was trying to prevent him from rising to the top because he could see his true nature in his eyes and was afraid of him (and his father.)
And this is all just in BoSbaS, told from his own perspective. Think about everything he did after.
#the hunger games#thg#bosbas#the hunger games ballad of songbirds and snakes#coriolanus snow#lucy gray baird#listen you CAN like a villain#im not saying you can’t because I believe we can differentiate reality from fiction#but don’t fundamentally change the character so you can like them#the book was done so you could UNDERSTAND that Snow was a bad person to the very bone and that’s why he had this idea that EVERYONE#had it in them to be bad people just like him#until Katniss came along#and he deserved everything he got in the end and he was a sad lonely man who never felt love again#and how could he? I’m his heart love would perish#he wasn’t born to love
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i really do think the systematic execution of the jedi has kinda sorta ruined all future star wars media for in the sense that i am always going to be thinking about the space empath monks who were genocided. there used to be thousands of them and now there's like. 7. functionally an entire culture dead. they can show me all the grogus in the world, im always going to think about how they had to step over the dead babies.
#:v#star wars#order 66#im glad Anakin got redeemed in the end and got to go to space monk heaven but also THEY HAD TO STEP OVER DEAD BABIES#😭😭😭#this fictional space opera for twelve year olds devistates me#reva also kinda changes how I viewed order 66#like it was always a bad horrible thing right but seeing it from the kids perspective.#Anakin was killing babies dude.#ugh Anakin my perfect horrible man#the thing is if obi wan or padme had been there they obviously could have talked him down#but they couldn't have been there#Anakin is the perfect you can't save him until it's too late#like yeah Luke was able to get through to him!#AFTER HE HAD BLOWN UP A PLANET!#they couldn't have saved him! padme and obi-wan I am holding you so so dear you did everything you could#Anakin I'm holding you but it's in a different way. a complicated way#love you as a character. you make me physically ill
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again and again i find myself lamenting that audio roleplay isn't taken more seriously by some people. like yeah, they often have a romantic element, and by nature they usually directly involve/address the listener- and i totally get that those things aren't to everyone's taste. no art or entertainment is universally appealing, and that's okay! but.. it still makes me a lil sad that the "cringe" reputation of asmr/audio rp precedes it. there's a whole lot of talent and creativity being poured into these audios by so many people that i feel goes unrecognized and/or disrespected simply due to the medium that the stories are being told through.
#this post brought to you by: me bingeing Sam & Darlin's entire storyline over the past few days and having a Lot of feelings abt it#asmr#audio roleplay#rp audio stuff#redacted audio#anyways i don't have a conclusion to this post. and i'm not Mad or Upset or anything i'm just thinkin' out loud#and i mean it's not like it doesn't get plenty of praise within its respective audience bc it does. at least for the more popular creators#but i feel it'll still always have the shadow of its cringe reputation looming over it#which makes it hard for some ppl to openly appreciate or share with others that aren't already fans of the medium#like do u know how many comments i've seen along the lines of 'this is great but i'd die if anyone knew i liked this kinda stuff' ?? :(#idk maybe i feel strongly about it bc i'm a self-insert fanfic writer. and i feel like the two have a lot in common. including a bad rep.#like. not every audio will be well-written or produced and neither will every fanfic. but that doesn't mean it's a less legitimate artform#and i'm lucky to have never (yet) received negative comments on my work. but that doesn't mean that it doesn't make me sigh when people-#-say shit like 'this reads like fanfiction' as a way of calling something bad. or other similar sentiments that make the same implication#and i wouldn't be surprised if audio creators feel the same way when they encounter certain comments or statements#like. those YT videos where ppl will 'try bf asmr for the first time' or whatever and it's just 20 mins of cringing and over-reacting? eugh#tbf i haven't watched many bc why do that to myself. so Maybe there's some that are respectful but still. imagine getting roasted like that#and yes yes i know that by posting stuff online you're inadvertently sighing up to be criticized by Anyone but still. man. i dunno#i'm going on a tangent but my point is. i'm grateful for the creators that still make their art in spite of the public's perception of it#bc some of the most impactful emotional experiences i've ever gained from fiction took place in audio rp and i'm so serious abt that.#anyways. this post almost feels like i'm 'making up a person to be mad at' but i promise it's not that serious i'm just yapping. mostly.#certainly not trying to start any kind of debate or anything either i just have a lot of fixation-induced energy and nowhere to put it#this is Eric's fault (/lh) for cooking Sam up in a lab catered exactly to my taste and making Darlin' waaaaay too painfully relatable#but it's also My fault for bingeing the Inversion /and/ the Quinn arc /and/ the Summit all within a couple days. but i can't help myself#feels like i've run an emotional marathon. triathlon. The Emotional Olympics if u will. i'm feeling Everything#who knew that beating the shit out of ur fictional abuser could feel so goddamn cathartic! it's a nice replacement when u can't do it irl#anyways i'm off on a tangent again. thanks for coming to my TED Talk i'm gonna crawl back in my hole now#actually i'm gonna go relisten to a few audios. as Research for my Sam & Darlin' playlist as well as a post i'll be making about it soon#u Know i've got it bad when i not only make a playlist but start Posting on here about the songs that remind me of them. i'm cooked guys.
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sex isnt intimate enough. i need to melt and become his skin
#this is about (redacted fictional character) im feeling sane and normal in this popeyes tonight okay#vividly recalling myself& my parents being all of us literally on the verge of death w how bad our covid got and some almost hallucinogenic#daydreams i got myself into then to the tune of kholusias ethereal everlasting light theme unmatching pieces#and i justwant.#to be that man's skin.#thx for understanding good bye.#my text#gay yearning#rawr xd
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why do shows feel the need to ruin everything?????? THOMAS AND KAT WERE MEANT TO BEEEE 😭
#the way home#yes this is about the way home. im watching it with my mom#spoilers#the way home spoilers#anyway I just watched some edits of the couple and. damn. i feel the need to rewatch the show bc they're SO good together#the chemistry is just incredible. FUCK#I mean compared to the other “love interest” kat has (I hesitate to call him that)...#yeah thomas is so right for her. and they want each other so bad. why the hell did the show throw it all away#also: it feels good to get emotionally invested in a fictional couple again.#watch twh get cancelled because they ruined kat's ships 💀 like literally both of them#and it's been a while since I watched the story with nalice but apparently those shippers got shafted too#crazy stuff man.#imagine someone working on the show saw this 👀 like umm heyy bestiee help me out here. tomkat for life
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#( ooc. )#( i got access to my old blog !!!! the archived one )#( omg i had 2k follows on there what a time to be alive )#( i am just logging in to export all my old threads bc i love them so much )#( all the years of memories! ive had artie for 11 years!!! eleven !!!! )#( i am so emo about it all....god some good memories )#( and some bad ones but the history of his character lives on! and he's evolved so much and has so much more to evolve into and give )#( dkljdflkjdsf )#( dont mind me while i rant abt my decades long journey with a fictional man of my own creation )#( i would give my life for him OTL )
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i never did any oc kiss week stuff. could use it as excuse to draw ocs kissing
#dont know when i will do it. but i could. i guess#maybe it helps me cope better#entire day got told i look bad and too serious and no matter what i try saying#people just give me more shit instead. only making my mood worse#so. maybe drawing ocs kissing fixes me. since people around me enjoy doing the opposite lol#then i guess i'll fix myself out of spite. lmfao. man#i really wonder what pushes people to make it about themselves when someone around them is feeling bad#i'm so tired. maladaptively daydreams about fictional characters kissing and fucking
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blake thorburn save me
#redtailfins originals#pact#ohhhhh miserable 20 years old fictional man we're really in it now#i have a bad sore throat and am behind on uni assignments and my group project is becoming nightmarish#hmm my throat is sore and scratchy like bark... i'm sure blake thorburn would relate <- sentence by someone who is deranged#also my wisdom tooth surgery got postponed bc of im sick so thats annoying#sure hope they don't erupt in the mean time
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I swear, Ethan Bailkirschdry could look this Hellfandom dead in the eye, knife to their throats, happy as a camper to kill them, then tell them sincerely and with his whole chest: “I love and miss my brother; I want to avenge him, and I’m more than happy to kill you!” And these bitches would start foaming at the mouth, like: “No you don’t, Angel Baby Pie, it’s all your father!!” 🙄
#I just HATE that once I finally got the Ghostface I wanted... the fandom tries to water him down into a victim. 😒#It's bad enough that Radio Silence wasted his potential as a killer! There should been more kills so he (and Quinn) could've done more!#ethan landry#richie kirsch#kirsch siblings#kirsch family#scream 6#scream fandom bs#rant#txt#Like GROW UP; stop being BORING; and accept that you're into a FICTIONAL lunatic! 🙄#And accept that he and his sister loved their brother! Just because YOU can't handle it bc you hate Richie so much! 🙄#''I can accept all the brutal homicide but Richie dating Amber is where I DRAWN THE LINE!!''#Man these people will FLIP about Roman once they read the Scream 3 script. 👀
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SEASON 4 FINALE.........I felt genuinely ill the whole time like my stomach was twisting I was gonna throw up oh my god what the FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#SAM MY BOY#SAMUEL MY BELOVED IM SO SORRY#THE FUCKING CON ........ THE WHOLE TIME!?!?!?! THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME!?!??!?!#u js have 2 respect her @ this point 4 that bc holy shit#2 season spanning game she was in 4 the LONG HAUL#cas defying fuckers 4 the gayass 1 million complex brothers 🎉#sam made me want 2 throw up so much#he js wanted 2 save ppl .... he didnt kno!!!! HE DIDNT KNO!!!!!!!!!!! (said thru tears)#THE FUCKING DEMOM EYES...ON HIM......IT MADE ME ILL#srry!!!!!!! sam thoughts im rlly biased#OUGH he PRAYED he had FAITH and he was MANIPULATED and TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF and REFUSED 2 SEE IT bc he WANTED 2 BELIEVE#that he culd do GOOD despite tbe fact he KNEWWW he had DEMOM BLOOD in himmmmmmm!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRGHHHHHHHH#im having so many thoughts. abt him. but i dont thibk im articulating them v well @ all.. oh well! do u understand what i mean#anyways unreleated i thibk sam an cas shuld fuck nasty#im making galaxy brain parallels between them i js cant explain them v well. but i think gay sex wuld help (it wuldnt)#uhmmmm what else#chucks goofy i hope nthn bad happens 2 him (smth bad always happens)#MAN!!!!!!!!!!!! can these stupid ass brothers catch a BREAK!!!!!!! for ONCE!!!!!!!!!!!!#can s5 b normal (s5 won't b normal)#why the hell did i start watching spn. worst mistake of my life#ive been reminded i CAN infact get emotionally attached 2 fictional characters. thanks spn. ive got sam rotating in my mind now#i want dean 2 punch fuck outta him and then i want them 2 make up and they shuld fly 2 sum place else and have a normal life#im so DONE w this show!!!!! (im starting s5 next wk)#why the hell os this show making me feel shit bro this wasnt supposed 2 happen :(#sigh.....................oh well#spn#rivers rambles <3
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