#vent. i think????? i dunno

[nardos-primetime]

Maladaptive daydreaming and hating/having no sense of self is so hard like i feel like I see people go "Oh I daydream about myself with my favorite characters" I. I cannot do that. Instead my daydreams are concepts that play out around me and I have little to no control over it unless I'm FIGHTING to keep that shit down so hard I can't do anything else. I'm not there. A fantasy version of me isn't really there. It's just the characters I like/make.

It sucks sometimes bc like I feel like I'm outcast from the small group of outcasts almost? It's weird but the perfect place for that "You're faking it" little mind trap to nestle into its comfy little spot in my brain.

[satorisoup]

i’ve been blogging for 3 years n’ one picrew + katsuki texts got some attention… now m’ getting many asks about tha way i type n’ i got my first ever hate (?) ask tha other day… T^T

is tha way i act or type makin’ any of yous uncomfortable ?? pwease let me know, i didn’t know it would cause such trouble… i feel so bad :,<

[enixamyram]

You know one of the weirdest things about the Toxic side of fandoms I've seen? It's the way they try to treat all shows like they're supposed to be setting examples for the audience.

Take Hazbin Hotel for example. I have seen so many people pulling up a single bad trait that Chaggie or Huskerdust may or may not have and use that as the sole reason why they shouldn't be together at all. Which is so dumb but also bizarre because real life couples have their own good and bad qualities and having one possibly negative aspect about your relationship is more often not a reason you should immediately break up.

But sometimes fans and trolls act like these characters need to be in Disney-style-picture-perfect romance otherwise they're unhealthy and shouldn't be together. Like they seem to be under this really strange idea that all entertainment should be educational for the audience and if they're not setting a good example then it's bad TV.

It's so weird.

[feybeasts]

I gotta be real, after seeing what the hell kinda mutation the perception of a RTVS stream of all things has undergone over the last few years, I think I can’t take Capital F Fandoms seriously anymore.

Like- I don’t mean “people who are fans of a thing and form a community based on that,” I mean the sorta wild tumblr shit that gives us people so detached from what these real-ass-people are that they have no concept of RTVS outside of HLVRAI, who get despondent because last night’s stream, perhaps The Most Radio TV Solutions Thing, “wasn’t the thing they wanted”

I will fully admit to never having understood how these sorts of things mutate like they do- the sort of insular game of telephone that must happen over three or so years to bring people to the point where their interpretations of characters and events is so wildly off from the real thing that they might as well be entirely new characters- but what I saw goes beyond that. The sheer hostility that seems to arise from these spaces over getting what they want, when things aren’t as they’ve deluded themselves into thinking they should be- towards the creators OF these things! Like-

Look. I was there for the peak of “The Bronies” back when MLP Gen 4 came about. I didn’t just watch the fandom from afar, I took part in it, I saw how toxic these spaces can become- I imagine that particular space will go down in infamy as one of the worst- so I shouldn’t be surprised by any of this, but I dunno. Maybe it’s looking at this through the lens of age and some small degree of experience has softened me enough that I’m able to be shocked again.

And it isn’t just this one, is it? I’ve seen people talk about South Park- SOUTH PARK OF ALL THINGS having a fandom that treats these characters as a version of themselves that is almost a polar opposite of the crude, reactionary garbage they are, it almost feels like fandoms have these templates that always spring up, “token ships” and “token OCs” that they MUST HAVE, and characters are warped and twisted and squeezed into these templates regardless of what they are or were. Maybe that it happened with RTVS is only shocking to me because I just see these as real-ass people, not characters. I don’t know.

Look, I’m not out to yuck yums, I would be the mother of all hypocrites if I did, as a Weird Niche Furry Subculture Member, but I had to put these thoughts to words, express my bafflement. Maybe I’m too old for this shit…

[mrstsung]

Anyone who thinks kuai liang as the mantle of scorpion is or was remotely a good idea is a bit racist or at very least very ignorant to me. Sorry not sorry.

Kuai liang is chinese and always a cryomancer. Bi-han is also Chinese and a cryomancer. Both are brothers. And from the lin kuei. A CHINESE,ASSASSIN GROUP. And sub zero is their mantles. Tundra was kuais beforw he took his bros mantle after his death.

Hanzo hasashi is scorpion,he gave himself that moniker. Scorpion is shirai-ryu,is Japanese. A Japanese ninja,assassin. He used fire. Always has.

Just because two characters are far east asian doesn't make it right to exchange them because THEY ARE STILL TWO DIFFERENT CULTURES! They both have different characteristics and both characters are not to be irechangeable like a palate swap. This isn't the 90s anymore. They actually have a fucking history,personality,and different fucking problems.

Kuai is Chinese. Scorpion is a moniker for a JAPANESE ASSASSIN CLAN.

Not the fucking same.

Besides. This isn't actually groundbreaking as people wanna fucking claim. Oooo you switched the characters. Big whoop. They all get screwed over in the end. You dont really change anything. And it doesn't make sense.

Not to mention you legitimately give kuai hnazos backstory. That makes no sense. And you give him a "happy?" Ending?! Oh but hanzo has to suffer because status quo?! Fuck off boon go eat trash and die for that!

I will never forget boon for fucking ove rthe ninjas. A mk staple,the bread n butter.

Not to mention if y'all just don't actually get it. Then you never will. Don't play mortal kombat if you can't understand how fucked up them screwing over kuai liang and hanzo is.

No this isn't a ship post. I dont ship them. (Im more of a sub smoke enjoyer anyways. For many reasons) This is just over their characters in general.

Kuai liang and hanzo. The true and only sub zero(KUAI) and scorpion (HANZO) didn't go through so much character development and history for you to treat their characters as a prop. What's the point in a story or lore then? If you're gonna disregard it just so damn easily?

Anyways

Kuai is fucking subzero

Bihan is subzero og and noob saibot.

Hanzo hasashi is fucking scorpion.

DEAL WITH IT! CRY N SHIT ABOUT IT. THAT'S HOW IT IS. DONT LIKE IT? DONT PLAY MORTAL KOMBAT!

Vent over. Fuck the "new" era game,mk12/mk1(2023). It can go to hell.

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Ngl some days I'm like writing crackships and ships and rarepairs is so silly goofy and fun and then OTHER days I'm like wow I wish I'd never written or drawn a ship ever in my life how do I erase this and OTHER days I just go about forgetting ships exist entirely and I swing WILDLY between those three options with no chill whatsoever

[cliff-and-the-kid]

(/tapping my fingers, glaring at the stupidly tall Omega Lock)

[just-a-little-anxious]

ngl i have a lot of trouble seeing the main characters of Hazbin Hotel as a found family or even friends.

[800-dick-pics]

i hate tik tok culture around ST/HT like.............. i prommy that guy asking you for $20 outside your car isnt tryna traffic you!!!

[glitchyko]

So I know I said I wanted to try and check out different things and make not just lmk art, but now that season 5 is said to be completed and they’re just waiting to release it, I’m scared LMK is gonna break into my brain again with a vengeance and that’s all I’m gonna make art of again even though I wanna try making art for multiple fandoms-

[thr4shit]

Hear me out, (sort of AU-ish but not really, just my mind filling in blank spots with headcannons.)

the period between A Summoning and Wake Up where Evan just slowly sinks further and further into a depressive state because he basically has nothing.

He finds himself doing things for STEPH rather than himself.

Things she loved.

Things to keep her memory alive.

He drowns himself in her interests as if it was their first two dates all over again.

Even though he'd rather be dead, he doesn't know what else to do.

He falls in love with her over and over again, more and more and more.

Maybe he's even constantly looking at the ring he got for her... Imagining what could've been.

(I personally think Evan was going to propose soon, if he hadn't already. That's why I say ring.)

Because it's all he has left at this point.

All he can do is try to drown out the memories, but it won't work.

To suffocate himself in the GOOD, to ignore the BAD.

None of it works.

Eventually he just gives up.

He doesn't care anymore.

Well... he does, but he doesn't have the energy to deal with any of it anymore.

So instead he just internally rots away, stuck inside his own guilt.

After all, what's the point of caring about ANYTHING if HE'LL just ruin it?

[theultimatekamehamehavoc]

Random Togami Headcanon 13

TL;DR - Byakuya's bettered himself but he still has a long road of healing. Also, heads up. This one's not happy like most of the others. Gets a bit hopeful at the end but there's still a lot of sad topics here. Viewer discretion is advised. Now that he feels more empathy for others and possesses some capability for putting himself in another's shoes, thoughts he used to have about the lower class make him feel... off. Perhaps guilt or discomfort with himself. It doesn't help though looking at his classmates every school day and being reminded of the mindset he was raised with. It especially doesn't help when he looks at Makoto who helped him. Makoto being the commoner of all commoner's also hurts. He appreciates what Makoto's done to help him but it unintentionally stabs him hard within his chest that he needed someone's help to get to this point and the someone being a commoner he once wrote off. Next, with this empathy, the heir feels better with his life and happiness but fundamentally worse. It's as if he deteriorated though, logically, he knows it's not the case. He knows that the illogical side of his brain covers itself in the hides of reason and rationale. Essentially, Byakuya ends up having a grueling struggle with dealing with these emotions that, for the majority of his life, he buried and repressed. Emotions that both make him feel more fulfilled in life but that tear him apart inside. Bouts where he feels either extremely content with how he's turned out or that dread and despair that he's slipping back into his old ways. In fact, at times, it becomes overwhelming for him to handle which he especially hates. Being overwhelmed is yet another thing he once viewed as a weakness and, to some extent, he still does. Sometimes, to cope, jokes to himself on whether existing itself is something he feels is a weakness. However, though he has a lot of emotions and thoughts that upset him now as a bettered person, one big thing that pains him is that he has the capability and the intelligence to notice all of this. It's the acknowledgment that stings. The heir notices that he has a problem, that he probably needs help, maybe even therapy, but then he spirals more because of that realization. Why should HE need HELP for these problems of his?! He's an independent person! He should logically be able to handle this himself. He's always handled his problems on his own! Why should he now need someone or just a support system of people to aid in his path of healing? He feels gross for that support system being the classmates who he once adamantly despised with such vitriol. With the added empathy, he also feels shame as he doesn't want to hurt any more people in his life now. He has the hindsight to know this now. He questions himself. Is the situation he's in even that big of a deal and should he keep searching for answers on the "why" and "how"? Is it worth it? Comparisons to the peasants he used to once adamantly demonize also do not escape him. He feels worse because, while he's breaking at the seams, countless of other commoners have similar thoughts too. He's not unique and a bit of that stings his lingering superiority. Then, there is the fact that Byakuya feels even worse about this BECAUSE commoners can handle stuff like this and yet, he keeps saying that he can't due to his mental spirals. Either that or the older thoughts of hating commoners bites back by making him feel like he's "acting like one". He knows by this point that he's actively tearing himself down and that he needs to escape this cycle of mental abuse. He feels shame in himself though. He feels humiliated. Pathetic. Overly emotional in ways he's never felt before. He still has that hope though. The hope that he can get through his. The heir's already delt with so much whether canon, non-despair, or an au of some kind. He's continued on despite it all. And, though long ago, he would have pushed some of this hope off for it being too optimistic, he's grown to care less about that sort of thought anymore. Byakuya can do this.

[floatingwithlaura]

my therapist wrecked me with the closing statement of the session being ‘i think you have been alone for a very long time’.

[mayisgoingnuts]

Random existential crisis where I realized that I'm now SUPER close to be an adult,, but I still act like a 14/15yo or smth so I won't get along with people my age either inside or outside the internet because of that

And obviously I won't talk to ppl so much younger than me

Uhhh destiny ig let's go?? Let's fucking go?? I guess /ref /lhj

[malikselfindulgence]

Sorry for the uptick in system stuff Im lowkey struggling and need to see system positivity posts or I'll explode

[alaskan-wallflower]

(vent in the tags and under the cut. don’t read if you don’t want.)

sometimes i wonder if people would care if i was gone. there’s just no point anymore tbh.