#v: average joe

[joyfulmagic]

[ trace ] — sender traces up receiver’s stomach/chest - keife

@escapedartgeek // Sensual Touches — Zora xx Keife

“Zora, just…mind avoiding the scar please?” Keife asked sheepishly as he and his significant other began fooling around, Keife’s shirt unbuttoned and Zora’s top off. He was still shy about his scar, regardless of the fact it was apparently ‘hardcore badass’ how he got it.

[dandyshucks]

This is gonna sound rude as hell but i do not mean it that way: are you currently medicated? My meds have helped me a lot with my own physical responses to anxiety and yours seem severe so that’s why i ask

this is the funniest ask i've ever received in my life and also incredibly kind, thank u anon fjdskl, my anxiety really is severe huh LMAO (not laughing at you!! laughing at myself and my situation fsdjkl)

yes i am medicated but ... not well LOL. i live rural in an area that is infamous for having poor healthcare (plus canada's healthcare system is kind of broken lately RIP) so my medical team is pretty useless and incompetent to say the least fdsjkl. plus unfortunately my entire situation is just... really difficult to fix (and cope with) in many different ways fdjsjkl, and this makes medicating me properly kind of impossible ^^;;

i appreciate the concern and inquiry/suggestion though, genuinely !!! and i've got the heart pounding/palpitations i struggled with under control with a relatively recent addition to my medication cocktail, so its not all bad !! :]

[suppenzeit]

need to know which country you have to be in where even mentioning being trans gets you instant hormones and surgery and a firm handshake. can the transphobes PLEASE tell me where that happens

[deus-ex-mona]

get yourself a guy who

is tall,

is skilled in the kitchen,

is great at running,

has impeccable taste in music,

and looks at you like you’re the most precious thing in the world

[triviareads]

talking with @jeanvanjer and we realized if some of these Harlequin authors (especially those who write for the Presents imprint imo) published longer billionaire romances outside the Harlequin umbrella and marketed them to the current gen's standards, they could make a killing.

[respectthepetty]

I stay on my "poly is the answer" bullshit, but poly would do wonders for Joe as a hinge.

It would be hell for Ming and Sol, and they would drive Joe crazy, but they'd also give Joe every single thing he ever wanted as they continuously one-up each other in this V-relationship.

And think about the sex?! Neither one would be average in bed. This is a competition. They have to make sure they are doing it better than the other. They'd never have sex with each other, so the need to win would remain intact!

Poly should have a solid foundation of love and mutual respect, but fuck that! This is Battle Royale!

[mcytblrsexymen]

MCYTblr Sexyman Bracket Final Results Infographic

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[ID: Infographic titled MCYTblr Sexyman Tournament Final Results: 16,000 Nominations, 96 Contestants, 10 Days, 1 winner. 1st Place, Joe Hills, 96,700 votes. 2nd Place, GoodTimesWithScar, 97,000 Votes. 3rd Place, ZombieCleo, 58,750 Votes. All Votes Cast, 1,317,539, over seven rounds.]

[ID: Infographic titled All Seven Rounds At A Glance. Wheel graph showing percentage of votes by round: Round 1: 255,131 votes. Round 2: 383,455 votes. Round 3: 259,428 votes. Round 4: 203,383 votes. Round 5: 131,966 votes. Round 6: 46,057 votes. Round 7: 38,119 votes. 

Top 20 Contestants with the most votes in order: GoodTimesWithScar, 6 rounds, 97,036 votes. Joe Hills, 6 rounds, 96,707 votes. Quackity, 4 rounds, 65,210 votes. ZombieCleo, 5 rounds, 58,744 votes. Ethoslab, 5 rounds, 53,963 votes. MumboJumbo, 4 rounds, 47,937 votes. Technoblade, 3 rounds, 45,551 votes. Grian, 3 rounds, 34,075 votes. WilburSoot, 3 rounds, 32,444 votes. BDoubleO100, 4 rounds, 32,152 votes. Docm77, 4 rounds, 30,623 votes. Charlie Slimecicle, 4 rounds, 30,608 votes. PearlescentMoon, 3 rounds, 27,405 votes. ScottSMajor, 3 rounds, 26,923 votes. Joel SmallishBeans, 3 rounds, 25,896 votes. Renthedog, 3 rounds, 25,017 votes. LDShadowLady, 3 rounds, 21,792 votes. MythicalSausage, 2 rounds, 17,689 votes. Pixlriffs, 2 rounds, 16,371 votes. TangoTek, 2 rounds, 15,062 votes.

Most Voted matches: Round One: Dream v CPK, 11,605 votes. Round Two, Schlatt v Zedaph, 16,548 votes. Round Three, MythicalSausage v Quackity, 21,018 votes. Round Four, GoodTimesWithScar v Technoblade, 46,459 votes. Round Five, Joe Hills v Quackity, 61,775 votes. Round Six, ZombieCleo v Joe Hills, 24,964 votes. Round Seven, GoodTimesWithScar v Joe Hills, 38,119 votes.]

[ID: Infographic. Average Votes per Poll, By Round: Round One: ~8,000. Round Two, ~12,000. Round Three, ~16,000. Round Four, ~25,000. Round Five, ~33,000. Round Six, ~23,000. Round Seven, ~38,000.

Closest Races: Round One: ClownPierce v Tubbo, 50 - 50. Round Two, Martyn InTheLittleWood v Charlie Slimecicle, 49 - 51, and Jschlatt v Zedaph, 51 - 49. Round Three: Pixlriffs v Charlie Slimecicle, 49-51, and BDoubleO100 v LDShadowlady, 51 - 49. Round Four: Joe Hills v Wilbur Soot, 50 - 50, and Grian v Quackity, 50 - 50, and GoodTimesWithScar v Technoblade, 51 - 49. Round Five: Joe Hills v  Quackity, 50 - 50, and Ethoslab v MumboJumbo, 51 - 49. Round Six: Zombiecleo v Joe Hills, 48 - 52. Round Seven, GoodTimesWithScar v Joe Hills, 50 - 50. 

Biggest Sweeps: Round One: LD Shadowlady, 91 - 9. Round Two: ZombieCleo, 90 - 10. Round Three: MumboJumbo, 78 - 22. Round Four, Mumbo Jumbo, 63 - 37. Round Five: GoodTimesWithScar, 80 - 20. Round Six: GoodTimesWithScar, 61-39. Round Seven: Joe Hills, ~160 votes. ]

[ID: Infographic titled Average Votes Per Contestant Vs Youtube Subscriber Count. A scatter graph. Dream: 31,400,000 subscribers and 3,598 votes. Technoblade: 15,900,000 subscribers and 15,184 votes. CaptainSparklez: 11,400,000 subscribers and 6,914 votes. Stampy*: 10,700,000 subscribers and 2,402 votes. MumboJumbo: 8,580,000 subscribers and 11,984 votes. Grian: 8,080,000 subscribers and 11,358 votes. LDShadowLady: 7,010,000 subscribers and 7,264 votes. WilburSoot: 6,330,000 subscribers and 10,815 votes. Quackity: 6,320,000 subscribers and 16,303 votes. Sapnap: 4,680,000 subscribers and 3,483 votes. Fundy: 4,340,000 subscribers and 3,181 votes. Karl Jacobs: 3,940,000 subscribers and 2,491 votes. Ranboo: 3,910,000 subscribers and 7,009 votes. Jschlatt: 3,840,000 subscribers and 6,624 votes. BadBoyHalo: 3,670,000 subscribers and 3,745 votes. Joel SmallishBeans: 3,550,000 subscribers and 8,632 votes. Charlie Slimecicle: 3,240,000 subscribers and 7,652 votes. Philza: 3,050,000 subscribers and 7,035 votes. Tubbo: 3,020,000 subscribers and 4,926 votes. Joey Graceffa: 2,840,000 subscribers and 3,505 votes. RTGame: 2,770,000 subscribers and 3,973 votes. Ethoslab: 2,420,000 subscribers and 10,793 votes. Keralis: 2,370,000 subscribers and 5,169 votes.

There is a note that this graph does not include NPCs or Contestants without Youtube Channels, and a lower segment of the graph with more contstants expanded on the next page]

[ID: Infographic titled Average Votes per contestant vs Youtube Subscriber Count* Expanded view. A scatter graph.

GoodTimesWithScar: 1,990,000 subscribers and 16,173 votes. Jack Manifold: 1,930,000 subscribers and 2,165 votes. BDoubleO100: 1,860,000 subscribers and 8,038 votes. Xisuma: 1,820,000 subscribers and 5,959 votes. Iskall85: 1,640,000 subscribers and 6,248 votes. VintageBeef: 1,570,000 subscribers and 3,978 votes. GeminiTay: 1,550,000 subscribers and 5,512 votes. Katherine Elizabeth: 1,450,000 subscribers and 3,149 votes. ScottSMajor: 1,410,000 vs 8,974 votes. Niki Nihachu: 1,400,000 subscribers and 5,350 votes. fWhip: 1,340,000 subscribers and 5,483 votes. ImpulseSV: 1,190,000 subscribers and 4,550 votes. MythicalSausage: 1,130,000 subscribers and 8,845 votes. TangoTek: 1,090,000 subscribers and 7,531 votes. Docm77: 1,000,000 subscribers and 7,656 votes. Shubble: 958,000 subscribers and 8,270 votes. Pixlriffs: 917,000 subscribers and 8,186 votes. PeteZahHutt: 883,000 subscribers and 3,051 votes. Cubfan135: 827,000 subscribers and 5,428 votes. Ashswag: 756,000 subscribers and 723 votes. Renthedog: 686,000 subscribers and 8,339 votes. SeaPeeKay: 682,000 subscribers and 5,798 votes. Oli Orionsound: 665,000 subscribers and 7,356 votes. PearlescentMoon: 662,000 subscribers and 9,135 votes. Illumina: 631,000 subscribers and 3526 votes. Branzycraft: 621,000 subscribers and 2,633 votes. Fruitberries: 596,000 subscribers and 2,219 votes. Rythian: 576,000 subscribers and 1,794 votes. Clownpierce: 576,000 subscribers and 4,752 votes. F1nn5ter: 552,000 subscribers and 4,570 votes. Jimmy Solidarity: 550,000 subscribers and 7,210 votes. Welsknight: 546,000 subscribers and 3490 votes. Hbomb94: 513,000 subscribers and 4,413 votes. FalseSymmetry: 456,000 subscribers and 6,485 votes. FoolishGamers: 448,000 subscribers and 4,894 votes. Legundo: 435,000 subscribers and 1,545 votes. Hypnotizd: 390,000 subscribers and 2,531 votes. XBcrafted: 381,000 subscribers and 3,041 votes. Eret: 372,000 subscribers and 6,193 votes. Punz: 357,000 subscribers and 4,199 votes. Stressmonster: 339,000 subscribers and 3,759 votes. ZombieCleo: 308,000 subscribers and 11,749 votes. Zedaph: 304,000 subscribers and 7,409 votes. Sneegsnag: 278,000 subscribers and 4,865 votes. CaptainPuffy: 245,000 subscribers and 3,858 votes. ConnorEatsPants: 240,000 subscribers and 5,094 votes. AimseyTV: 192,000 subscribers and 5,759 votes. Reddoons: 191,000 subscribers and 2,187 votes. Joe Hills: 159,000 subscribers and 16,118 votes. Martyn InTheLittleWood: 154,000 subscribers and 7,161 votes. TinFoilChef: 125,000 subscribers and 4,309 votes. BigBSt4tz: 106,000 subscribers and 2,306 votes. OwengeJuiceTV: 80,500 subscribers and 4,378 votes. ItzSubz_: 69,300 subscribers and 2,025 votes. ZloyXP: 61,700 subscribers and 2,815 votes. Skizzleman: 45,300 subscribers and 3,219 votes. JoJoSolos: 36,200 subscribers and 3,409 votes. Reignex: 12,100 subscribers and 1,321 votes. Bekyamon: 9,270 subscribers and 3,038 votes. Laurance Zvahl: 9,260 subscribers and 2,125 votes. VikingPilot: 6,180 subscribers and 2136 votes]

[ID: Infographic: Pie Graph showing servers from which the contestants were nominated: Hermitcraft: 28 Nominations. DSMP: 25 Nominations: MCC: 24 Nominations. Empires SMP: 21 Nominations. Last Life: 13 Nominations. Origins SMP: 11 Nominations. 3rd Life: 9 Nominations. Double Life: 8 Nominations. Rats SMP: 8 Nominations: Afterlife SMP: 7 Nominations: Lifesteal SMP: 6 Nominations: Vault Hunters: 6 Nominations: Crazycraft: 5 Nominations. Create Mod: 5 Nominations. MCSR: 5 Nominations. TFTSMP: 5 Nominations. Other Sundry Servers: 73 Nominations.

Voter* Ages, a bar graph: 32 or higher: 3%. 30-31: 1%. 28-29: 2%. 26-27: 4%. 24-25: 6%. 22-23: 12%. 20-21: 19%. 18-19: 23%. 16-17: 19%. 15 or under: 11%.

Percentages of Voters* on each Continent, a map graph: North America: 64%. South America: 3%. Europe: 23%. Africa: 0%. Asia: 4% Australia & Oceania: 5%. Antartica or At Sea: 1%.

*From a demographic survey size of approximately 6,000 people]

[moonheecore]

hellooooo can u do B, X, and C for jake please??? thank youuuu <3

Hiii, here you go! Thanks for the askkk

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

He likes showing off his abs and V-line, always having excuses to flash them at you, whether it be wiping his sweat and fanning his T-shirt. In the bedroom, he likes it when you kiss and lick the crevices of his abs, letting your nails scratch the skin feathery. He lets you ride his abs, watching your pussy spill your juices into every ridge, flexing the muscle to let you rub your swollen clit desperately. Jake is also pretty proud of his lips—they're pouty, big, and plushy. They distinctly add to the overwhelming pleasure when he chooses to bite, suck, or kiss any parts of your body, mostly your lips and your leaking pussy.

Other than your scrumptious and delicious perfect ass, Jake also likes your thighs. It's like his own little pillow for him to lay his head on. When he turns to you, he hopes that he can get a glimpse of your cute panties and squishy thighs by flipping your skirt and dress up when you're sitting. Okay, but imagine looking down and seeing his whole head underneath them. Your thighs are also perfect to put his cock in between from the back, fucking them jiggling flesh like his own personal fleshlight, and to see his swollen tip appearing in front of you as it presses on your clit.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

Please don't hate me but I think Jake's dick is your average Joe, but there's definitely nothing inherently bad about it. He's freaking proud and makes good use of what he beautifully has, leaving you and a lot more girls begging for more is the proof of that. One thing, though, is that Jake's cock is full of huge prominent veins, just like his hands. Because of that, the amount of blood pulsing straight to his length makes him feel so solid and rigid when you suck him real good or when he's fucking your pussy. So, he will never make you feel empty, that's for sure. Also, I feel like Jake's dick has a nice curve and arch pointing towards his stomach, so he definitely will never miss pressing on your sweet spot repeatedly in any position.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

I've mentioned a lot about cum in his K alphabet, but Jake has such a fetishism about them that he's obsessed with how it smells and how it feels so lewd on each other's bodies. I feel like Jake thinks they're an extension of your bodies that needs to be appreciated as well. Sometimes he has an existential crisis about whether he wants to pull out (where he can drown your body with ropes of his creamy semen) or to fill your needy womb (where he can watch his white seed seeping out of your puckering pussy hole). Don't take this too heart, but I think Jake's cum is quite sticky, like when you scoop it up and smack it between the pads of your fingers, it forms visible strings.

send an ask based on the NSFW alphabet template together with one or more members in the hyungline.

[hajihiko]

Here is my explanation for that, in a v recent insta reply

Average joe parents are powerless in the face of a giant corporation. Similarly with Sato's parents, the Kuzuryuu parents, and anyone else who lost their life while within Hope's Peak's reach.

[virginburial]

.·:*¨༺    a little death.    ♱   chad meeks-martin   ༻¨*:·.

SUMMARY: in which you have a pretty intense night terror alternatively, in which you, a friend of the core four, is stuck at a slumber party, where Chad comforts you after having a nightmare

SHIP: afab!reader x chad meeks-martin WARNINGS: explicit content (minors stay out), unprotected p n v, praise kink, sub!reader, soft dom!chad, choking/gagging, reader jealous as fuck towards Tara, ethan/chad rivalry?? for your attention, "i kIsS tHe sCaRs On hEr SkIn!1!1!!1! XD" type shit, chad is coochie drunk (and a heavy dirty talker), random storytelling/porn with a plot. fluff if you squint. TW FOR: mentions of murder, character death, grief, recovery/healing, ptsd related topics, body image.

WORD COUNT: 6.1K

SONG: a little death by the neighbourhood.

A/N: hello hotties!! i told myself "this is going to be a short one it's pretty to-the-point" but then i forgot who the fuck i was and realized i don't know chill and wrote 6K words of this. typical me behavior. this is for my shawties you love some emotional intimacy <3 chad is the actual loml, i'm shocked i'm writing for him now when i should've done this more last year lol REBLOGS, NOTES, AND COMMENTS ARE ALWAYS APPRECIATED !!    

.·:*¨༺♱༻¨*:·.

you woke up to your scream. 

It was Halloween weekend, and the news had just broke about the two murdered college students, and their film professor. You, a Woodsboro native knew exactly what this meant. You weren't just any Woodsboro native; you were directly involved with the recent Ghostface massacre of 2022. You had lived in Woodsboro for only a short fraction of your life, yet what happened there impacted everything you do now. 

You had moved from the south; Georgia-Florida-Alabama-ish. You met your current friends in your eighth grade year; coincidentally, the year one of your friends, Tara, had an issue where her sister ran from home. you enjoyed your little life there until it was viciously torn from you by your best friend and her psycho-groomer boyfriend-who you always had a bad feeling about. you were dating Wes at the time of his death, and after he went, so did all of your patience for the slasher genre. fuck the box office, fuck the critics, fuck the movie. 

when things had finally settled down, you and your newfound family decided to make the ambitious move to new york.  you were stuck being undeclared though as you slowly figured out what you want to get out of your experience at Blackmore. which all leads to now; October 30th, and the boogeyman you only saw in your dreams or in old photos of amber, was now prowling Manhattan for the survivors and fresh meat; ridiculous and fucked, that's what that is. your new friends; Ethan, Quinn, and Anika barely knew the drill. but you did. you've played this game before, unaware you were playing; now your focus could not be shaken.

Sam had suggested a fucked-up slumber party of sorts; "if we all stay together then he won't attack." "or we could be feeding him an all-you-can-eat buffet." Mindy croaks after Sam. Regardless, you knew that it was probably for the best everyone stayed together, especially the new ones. you had your suspicions about Ethan, who seemed to have taken a liking to you. the average sweet nerdy boy who's a bit corny, it all seemed a little too familiar. he would still try to get you to talk to him, stare you down, you could've sworn he stole something out of one of your drawers some time ago while looking for the restroom. you would never admit this out loud, because everyone is always so fucking uptight, but you never really cared about how he objectified you. you liked the attention. 

but he gave off joe goldberg energy, and you were more of a steve harrington girl.

it beats having to look at your long-term crush, Chad, who was falling for Tara. you always felt like the silver lining of both of your partners dying would be that he would finally look at you; but just like Wes when she first got attacked, Chad's eyes were on Tara. fucking Tara. nothing wrong with her, she was your friend. maybe you just needed to stop crushing on and dating boys who would all rather fuck Tara Carpenter than give you the light of day. but then again, you don't even think you're ready for romance to reappear in your life. last year you were manipulated, stalked, and stabbed; Tinder sex would be a nightmare. so there goes that pipe dream. 

you were sleeping in Tara's room with Quinn, Mindy, and Anika, while Chad and Ethan slept in the living room and Sam slept in Quinn's room; which was closer to everyone. It took everyone until midnight to get ready for bed, then Tara's music was too loud, and then Mindy and Anika started getting frisky which caused Tara to yell out "ARE YOU GUYS FUCKING?!" which led to Quinn screaming and laughing, which caused Ethan and Chad to rush in like knights ready to save the damsels, who were just making out. so Anika and Mindy were banished (by Chad) to Sam's room. you made a mental note to remind Sam to wash her sheets. 

you knew, despite the horrible situation that was starting to arise, that right now felt like any other night with your friends, and that it might be the last time things will ever be this way. so what had you screaming the way you are now? if not, a horrific night terror you had about how everything went down last year: the look in Richie's eyes piercing you through the mask as he violently stabs you, leaving gashes as you screamed out for the one person who can't even rescue you; Wes. this happened three hours after the last person went to sleep, making it 3 am. 

the thing with you that the others don't understand is that you had frequent nightmares about what happened. it's nearly a nightly occurrence and every night it's something different; Mindy's under the mask, Amber, Tara, Chad, Ethan, Sam, Anika, the Bodega guy, the guy who played Billy in Stab one, fucking Gale Weathers.  It keeps you up half the night, flashing your phone flashlight in the corner of your dorm and waking your dormmate. you used to sleep with a hunting knife; stuffing it under your pillow and holding it under there. you also have several cans of bear mace; you were Wes's girlfriend after all. you inherited all of his self-defense tools. 

the only one who understands is Sam. You can't believe the situation that's been happening between her and Tara; you would've killed to have an older sister who cares about you like Sam. Of course, your ID starts talking and tells you that Tara is just ungrateful to have a supportive family and Chad's attention and not want it. It fills you with envy. Sam gets it. Sam gets you. Sam tells you to try tea or get a medical marijuana card like she did, or try Zoloft like Mindy is doing. Mindy sarcastically suggests substance abuse. 

you scream, having it rip through the still silence that filled the apartment. with a flip of a light switch, the big overhead light shines over the scene of you; hyperventilating and pacing around as Tara rubs her eyes. The boys, with Mindy, rush into the room on queue as Quinn stands up from the bed. "hey! hey y/n!" she tries to get your attention, anything to break you free from the sobbing mess you were starting to become.  Tara decides to do the worst possible thing and start shaking you, she seems almost confused and pissed off as to why you woke her up. "y/n! look at me-" Tara tries to get your attention. "hey! Tara, that's not helping-" "-y/n, girl, what's wrong?" Quinn talked over Ethan.  

then, finally, Sam chimes in and pushes past everyone; shooting Tara a worried look as she slowly wraps her arms around you. you slowly sink in Sam's arms and sob as she softly pats your back. "another one?" she asked, and you nod, unable to speak as you take a harsh gasp and slowly breath out, trying not to sob more than you already have. you hated being so emotional in front of your friends, you hated being emotional in general. 

"wait so there was no one in here?" Ethan chirps.

Sam shakes her head. "no." she huffs out. "no no, just a night terror...I had one like this the other night. she'll be okay-" "-like hell she is, Samantha! I mean, look at her! she's shaking like a chihuahua!" Mindy blurts out. "I'm gonna make you tea, y/n," she announced as she went to the kitchen. Sam sighs, you could almost feel another brick weigh Sam down with the way she carried herself, then Tara spoke up. "Sorry I shook you, I...I panicked," she admits, which you knew was the truth. 

you sigh softly, your face beet red, blinking away the last of your tears. "it's f-fine-" "-it's really not, I mean, do you shake someone when they're having a seizure?" Tara lightly jokes, earning a small laugh as you sniffle. 

Sam speaks up. "I think one of us should stay here with y/n, at least until she falls back asleep. I would but I am very tired." 

"I don't mind-" "-i'll do it," Chad and Ethan said in unison, which ended with Ethan's side-eyeing Chad. then Chad spoke up again. "I can bore her with one of my old football stories, plus i've known her for years." if only you could read Ethan's mind, even when the look on his face said it all. Sam looks down at you, getting your nod of approval before glancing back at Chad. "yeah, that sounds good." 

Chad, who had come in charging with a chunky remote controller, just passed it to Ethan as he went back into the living room to grab his pillow. Sam rubbed her eye. "the girls can move to my room-" "-yikes." Mindy jingles as she came in with a mug. "I might've been sleeping there, with Anika, if you know what I-" Sam's face falls flat. "-you better be fucking joking, Mindy." she deadpans

"It's not like you're using that new mattress at its full capacity."

"okay gross." Chad gags, clutching his pillow and throwing it on the mattress. by then, Tara and Quinn already moved into Sam's room, probably collapsing at the door and sleeping on the floor as Mindy handed you the warm tea. She gives you a look that makes your stomach flip, it was almost sympathetic. almost like Mindy herself knows how it feels to be woken up like that. Mindy retreats to the room before Sam can say anything else. she sighs. "now I have an excuse to go to Target, and burn those sheets." she turns to you. "you sure you're gonna be fine here, with Chad?" she asks, Ethan, peering right behind her.

"Yeah, thanks, Sam," you tell her as she walks out, leaving just you, Chad, and Ethan. Ethan just purses his lips and gives you a weak smile before shutting the door and the lights off. you sit back down on the bed, grab the mug of tea, and sipped it sweetly, feeling the hot liquid run down your throat as Chad turns on the lamp. The room was cold, dimly lit with autumn new york air hitting your skin from the window next to you, the one Quinn cracked open. 

Chad groans softly as he flops on the messy bed. he's surprised anyone is even getting a wink of sleep tonight, especially you, with how stiff and cold you got the moment everyone left. he stares at you for a second, unable to say anything before blurting out. "...do you wanna watch a movie on my phone? it can be a funny one." he offers. "I have We Are The Millers downloaded." but you just retract even more. why? why can you just shut off whatever's stopping you from opening up? maybe it was the stark realization you never really trusted anyone, ever. 

you stayed silent, unsure of what to do; he wouldn't have offered if he didn't care a little. plus, it was only until you fell asleep. he was not going to stay with you the entire night. you turn to him, biting the inside of your cheek as you sip more of the tea. "no thanks, i've already seen it." you say. he isn't like Ethan; Ethan would just start leading the conversation with questions like 'Oh so what's a movie you haven't seen?' and whatever movie you think of off the top of your head will be the one that'll play. Chad just kind of stops after that; less of a nuisance but you were sure he wasn't at his full power since he hasn't really slept. because Chad can be annoying. 

"you know you hit the floor, right?"

you furrow your eyebrows. "what?"

"you fell off your bed, that's what woke you up. it was very loud, and woke me up," he says as he scoots over to you, sitting right next to you. "I'm a light sleeper now, it's a recent development. it's not all that fun...Tara said you were murmuring in your sleep too before you hit the ground." your face burns with embarrassment. "...how often does that happen?" he curiously asked. 

"What is to you?"

"just looking out for you. y'know, since the masked killer that tried killing us last year is trying to kill us again." his voice dripped with sarcasm. you scoff. of course. "...it happens a lot, maybe one of two times a week? it used to be every night." 

"I guess that explains your caffeine addiction."

you chuckle weakly. "thanks doctor dudebro." 

"I'm just saying, I wish you would've told one of us you were having nightmares..." he voices. "you know, Mindy used to have really bad nightmares. She would call me almost every night around the same time, just screaming and hyperventilating. it feels pretty real at the moment. then you wake up and it's not real." he mumbles towards the end. looking down a bit. you study the expression on his face, you knew Chad was more than some meathead jock, he gave you butterflies, and he seemed to be the healthiest among the survivors. he looks at you. "I'm on like 75 milligrams of Zoloft at all times so...I know what it's like, I've had my fair share of Richie-Amber adjacent nightmares," he confesses. 

your stomach churns from what comes out of his mouth. "is that why you agreed to stay here? to talk me into talking about what happened and get medicated-" you jumped.  Chad shakes his head. "no no, I'm not here to tell you what to do, or how to heal,  It's just...hard seeing you this way." you know exactly what he means, so you dropped the stubborn act. "I know none of us are really dealing with it, but now it's happening again...and I don't want to get hurt again. I don't..." he processes what he's about to say before expressing it; "...I don't want any of us to get hurt again."

"...do you think about her?" you blurt out. "liv, I mean." 

Chad freezes. you almost start to feel bad about bringing her up before he responds with. "most days." he croaks out softly. "sometimes I think if I would've just done what she wanted and went upstairs with her, things would be different." he fiddles with his fingers. "but then again, probably in the worst way, right? I don't know what I would've done if...if it was Mindy. or you." he flashes you a frail smile. "I think about her every time I hear a Paramore song, or when I see orange is the new black on Netflix or pink box dye. I hate the smell of that sugar cookie body mist that Quinn uses, it's the same one Liv had. She wanted to study 'abnormal psychology', she would've loved it up here...what about you? Do you think about Wes?"

"every night." your voice slightly breaks. "his Spotify account is still up, all the music he neatly organized into playlists for us is still on there, just collecting dust," you mumble, then, you feel pressure slowly lift off your chest as you continued to talk about him. "I deleted Spotify, though. can't be on there without seeing something he made for me or seeing his face, and Instagram too. His dad gave me a box of his things at the funeral and I brought it with me here, I can't look at it for very long without crying," you confess. "...can I be honest?"

"This is probably the most honest you'll ever get me, so shoot."

You let out a sigh, feeling your heart drop to your stomach as you stared into his eyes. "things in my life were already starting to go downhill before everything, and now...it never will feel the same, you know? I will never get over this, i'll just have to learn how to live with it when it's already happening again." Chad watches you, seeing your eyes sorrowly hang as the words spilled from you. he hates seeing you like this. you used to be so full of life, animated, and passionate; now you were just a shell. he softly bumps his shoulder next to you and gives you a reassuring smile. "...you're not alone." his voice softly spoke. "it feels lonely, but you're not alone." 

you finish the tea, setting it on the nightstand before Chad speaks up again. "what makes you say that, though?" he perks up. "that things were starting to go downhill?" he asks, maybe genuinely curious. you bite the inside of your cheek. "I had this feeling that Wes was in love with Tara. I thought I was just going crazy but after Ghostface attacked her, and I saw the way he looked at her, I knew I couldn't keep denying it anymore. I just wanted him to look at me the way he looked at her, everyone looks at her like that, but now he can't because Amber wanted to cosplay Stu Macher." you spat, your condescending tone dripping in anger. "...i've just been filled with jealousy ever since, mostly towards Tara, sometimes at Quinn...the whole situation made me feel...ugly."

Chad scoffs a little, and you immediately get defensive, but the better half of you knows Chad is not going to judge you. "you? jealous of Tara?! Tara Carpenter? The same Tara in this apartment?!" he seems almost appalled. "y/n...Tara Carpenter is a mess." he exposes. "Tara shows up to class drunk. Tara got her driver's license suspended. Tara's mom dropped her after her dad and Sam left already. Tara almost died three times!! Wes was crazy for you, he loved you-it annoyed the shit out of me really but he did. Tara might be pretty but she isn't you...I know what you're trying to say, but the last person you should be jealous of is Tara." Chad rambles. silence falls on the both of you for a second as you process what he told you; he's right. Tara has some horrible luck, you needed to stop comparing yourself to her. 

"...if it makes you feel better, I get jealous of Ethan."

well, that was a shock. "huh?!"

Chad chuckles softly. "yeah, I do, I get jealous of Ethan sometimes." you can notice him getting a bit flustered. "he-he's just lucky, you know? he didn't experience what we did, so he can walk alone at night and go to bars without feeling like he's being watched...he isn't active, which annoys me so much." he raises his hands in defense. "I know I know, it's not my life, but when he does tag along and goes to the gym with me, he can work out a lot longer than I can. he can wear whatever he wants. he can take his shirt off and no one will stare at him or ask questions. he doesn't have chronic pain. he can go and date whoever he wants and not feel bad about his body, or feel bad that he's cheating on his dead girlfriend...little shit like that makes me jealous," he admits, pressing his tongue against his cheek. "my injuries from last year were so severe that I can't even play my favorite sport anymore, and Ethan just gets to sit around and play World of Warcraft with his perfect nervous system." his words stung. 

you couldn't think of anything to say, because he was right; it's not fair, none of this is fucking fair. suddenly, you can't help but slide your hand over to his, squeezing it softly. Chad studies you for a second, his brown eyes scanning how beautiful your features looked in the dark, you couldn't help but notice how clammy his hands were starting to get, he opens his mouth to say something, then he stops himself before saying something else; "...can I show you?" he asks. 

you glance over at him, seeing how close to you he already was. you could feel your cheeks heating up as your eyebrows slightly raised from his request. you were shocked that he trusted you. "you...wanna show me? you won't even show Mindy-" "-Mindy can never take anything seriously, y/n. She's gonna call me Tony the Tiger if I show her." that made you chuckle, considering one of the scars that you had also looked like animal print; or you romanticized it to the point where it reminded you of a zebra stripe. so you nod. "yeah...yeah you can show me."

Chad, noticeably nervous, sighs before lifting his shirt slightly, revealing not one, not two, or three, but four or more deep scars that dented his already chiseled chest. your face flushes, blood traveling to your cheeks as you examine his body, how his skin was still healing, how deep the valley of his abs truly was. your throat goes dry, almost like you can't process the amount of pain Chad might be going through or what he went through when he got those scars. It's almost like he sees you contemplating on what to say; if there was anything you can say to make him feel better. your lips slowly part as you lean in closer. 

"you can touch it." Chad chimes. 

you look up at him for approval, even though he told you that you could. shakily, your hand slowly grazes down his chest, your fingers running down the canyons of his chest, reminding yourself that this was the case for you too, both physically and mentally scarred. you could feel Chad's breath hitch softly, and you stop. "did I hurt you or-?" "-no, no you didn't hurt me..." he says softly, his pupils growing in size as he watches you feel him. you know the room was not well-lit but you knew he could see you blushing. before you know it, Chad's hands slowly creep over to your hips, pulling you closer in the most unsubtle way. "may I?" he asks.

you were flustered, and all the blood that ran to your cheeks ran down to your core, feeling your heartbeat slowly revive itself down there as Chad's big hands rested themselves on your lower back. you squeezed your thighs together; you've wanted this for so long, you wanted Chad's attention since sophomore year, so you nod your head. Chad smiles softly at you before lifting your shirt slightly and exposing the scar on your stomach. you blushed from the tension and the embarrassment. you could feel Chad's hot breath on your neck as his fingers slowly graze your curves, just softly skimming past the waistband of your pajamas as he looks into your eyes. "...did I mention that I get jealous of the way Ethan looks at you?... Same reason I was so annoyed with Wes-"

the desperation of having Chad's hands on you drives you over the edge as you crash your lips into Chad's, feeling how chapped they were as you relax into the kiss. you did this for your inner teenager, who's probably doing summersaults because you're finally kissing Chad Meeks-Martin. before you knew it, Chad eagerly kisses you back, one of his hands squeezing your waist as the kiss grew more and more passionate. you weren't expecting this, but thinking back at it now, you should've seen this coming. you pull away from the kiss, realizing that your hands involuntarily wrapped themselves around his neck, and your faces were just a few inches apart. "well shit..." Chad mumbles as you notice his cheeks turning a dark shade of red. 

he then grabs your chin delicately and kisses you softly, making sure you were present as his hands drop to your hips. the last person you were with like this was Wes, and you knew Chad was in the same boat with Liv. you pull away, seeing his lips chase after yours as you placed his hand on his chest. "Chad...should we be doing this?" he stares into you, his bottom lip caught in his teeth as he gnaws on it, unsure of what to say. "I would like to..." he said softly, pulling you closer. "We should make some new memories..." he huskily whispers before attaching his lips to your neck. your breath hitches as you grab onto him, and once he does that, you realized you wanted nothing more than to fuck Chad. "w-we should." you respond.

Chad manhandles you, again, pushing you back up against the mattress, grabbing your neck and jaw as he leaves open-mouthed kisses, his teeth grazing your sensitive skin as a soft gasp leaves you. he hovers on top of you, his breath getting heavier with each kiss before pulling away from your neck entirely. the look he gives you is full of passion. "besides, can't watch you squeeze your thighs like that and expect me not to want you..." he mumbles softly. your heart feels like it's on crack at this point, your stomach cramming with anxiety and lust as you kissed him roughly. 

his lips felt so right on yours like they were always supposed to be there. he quickly gets in between your legs and reattaches his lips to your collarbone, his hands sliding down to your hips as you press them up against his growing bulge. a small moan escaped passed his lips as you grab his face and bring him back to your neck. every touch fills you with passion, your moans getting increasingly louder before Chad completely pulls away. "shhh." he chuckles softly, grabbing your jaw and making you look at him, squeezing your cheeks a little. "our friends are right outside, don't wanna wake them, right angel?" god he's so fucking fine. "no matter how cute you sound."

Chad delicately pulled your shirt off, revealing your tits, since you pulled your bra off before climbing into bed. his eyes could not peel away from them, as hard as he tried to focus on anything else. he gently flicked his tongue around the bud off your left tit, then slowly slides his tongue down your stomach, over your scar, and down to your abdomen. your face soured up from how different it felt having Chad kiss and suck and lick down your stomach. he leans up and kisses you. "your body is so beautiful, you know that?" he mumbles softly against your ear, and you respond by nodding, because deep down you always knew, just never affirmed. 

Chad's hands slowly found themselves sliding off your silk pajama shorts, which might've been driving him crazy all night. he slowly reveals your panties, basic cotton white boyshorts with a wet stain conveniently down the middle. he pulls you to the edge of the bed, standing up as he gets a better look. he smirks at the sight of it, you could see his mouth nearly watering as his left hand softly grazes your clothed core. his class ring hitting your sensitive nub as your hips gently jerk to the sensation of it. then, his hand softly slaps it, a soft, wet squelch coming out of you as your body jolts again. you whine as he starts to speak; "fuck...poor angel, must be very desperate, huh?" he taunts. 

you can barely think of what to say, already so desperate to feel him that you just lazily nodded your head. he grabs your face. "cmon, use your words." he says gently. it makes you feel so weak in the knees as his free hand softly caresses your cunt. "when was the last time you came, angel? you're so sensitive..." he uses his thumb to rub your throbbing clit in circles, still waiting for you to answer. "l-long ago..." and you weren't lying. it's hard to focus on yourself and your needs when you're constantly in survival mode, and it's harder to make yourself cum when the last person who did got brutally murdered. Chad gets it, considering how flaccid his anti-depressants made him. seeing you in this position, though, finally gives him the hard-on he's been waiting for. "let's fix that." 

He slowly slips two fingers into you, watching your back arch as he quickly covers your mouth, his hand taking up half of his face as he thrusts them slowly in you. he sees your body slowly adjusting to his fingers as your muffled moans pushed pass the cracks of his knuckles. his class ring hits your clit with a certain rhythm, making you twitch as you hold onto his wrist. "fuck" you mumble in Chad's hand as he starts to recklessly pound his fingers into you. his actions were so rough but his words were so sweet, causing your brain to almost malfunction; "taking my fingers so fucking well." he pants softly. 

your faint moans turned into muffled screams when Chad stuffs a third finger in there, curling them and thrusting them deeper and deeper into your aching hole. his hand clamping harder around your mouth as your screams got louder and higher. he looked so determined to push you over the edge, it's almost like he wants you to cum all over his fingers. 

your eyes flutter as his thumb grazes over your clit. fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. you wish you had the entire apartment to yourself so you can scream and moan and do Chad on the dining table. for now, you're settling with him shutting you up with his knuckles deep in your hole. you can't help but feel your walls tighten around his fingers. he drags his fingers out and glances up at you, seeing how flustered and aroused you were as he slowly pulled off your panties, shushing you gently and moving his hand away from your mouth. "open wide angel." he hums before stuffing them in there.  

you could taste how tart you were, saliva staining the panties as he slowly slides his finger down your folds, using his free hand to whip his cock out. You faintly groaned out in frustration. you haven't felt this good in so long, your skin hot to the touch as your fingernails dug themselves into his shoulder blades. your eyes pleading as they found themselves staring at his cock; you knew Chad was pretty big, Liv might've ranted a little bit about how she was 'sore' from the first time she did it with him. you weren't expecting him to be so thick either. you could see his cock tremble, his tip already soaked in precum as it glistens in the dim lighting, the lamp hitting it just right as he smirks at you. "come on, angel, show me how bad you need it." he coos softly, brushing your hair behind your ear.

you rest yourself on your elbows, staring down at that Alaskan bull worm Chad calls a penis as you imagine yourself getting nearly split in half by him. how badly your hole was begging for any kind of contact as Chad's muscular arm wraps itself around your thigh. you could see his hand slowly pump his cock as he waited for your answer, maybe you propped up the way you were could get the job done for him. you whine and try to squeeze your thighs again before he forces them open, prying them apart like a Venus flytrap as he slowly inserts himself.  His tip slowly sinking into you "o..oh-f-fuck..." he groans softly, his voice getting even huskier as he pulls down on your hips. "your cunt sucks me up so well, angel...you're s-so tight." he mutters.

he slowly starts lunging his hips against yours, sweat gleaming from his forehead as he admires your reaction to every thrust, seeing your eyebrows furrow, your mouth falls open, your eyes fluttering, all of it just drives Chad insane. "such a pretty girl..." he nearly growls as he throws one of your legs over his shoulder; it's almost like he wanted to pace himself so he wouldn't get lost in the pleasure she was giving him; but it seemed nearly impossible as his pace increases. 

your muffled moans got louder and louder, causing Chad's strong hand to wrap around your neck and squeeze it softly, your moans becoming inaudible as he starts to brutally fuck you into the mattress. you thought this whole exchange would trigger something primal in you, freak you out too much that you end up running out of the room, but it was quite the opposite. Chad leans down. "your pretty moans are gonna wake t-them up, angel." he warns her again, his tone was so sweet though, it made you melt. "how do you t-think everyone's gonna f-feel when they see you getting fucked out-mhm-like the doll you are-?" he groaned out softly, his teeth grazing your ear and tugging on it. 

pleasure began to overwhelm you, your moans and whimpers turning into gasps and yelps as Chad clapped the hand he choked you with over your mouth, again. "f-fuck baby...you w-wanna be my angel, don't you?" he mumbles softly as your body started to jolt with pleasure, you could feel the panties hit the back of your throat, the essence of your juices left stuck on your tongue as your nails scratched up Chad's back. he then answers his own question. "I know you do, sweet girl...fuck, you hear how good you're taking me?" he praises. 

your own pleasure starts to build up as your back arches, and you can't help but cry out from how good it made you feel, it almost made you regret waiting so long before making a move on Chad, or anyone else really. Chad's dirty ramblings keep you on edge: "My cock fits so perfectly inside of you a-angel...wanna be buried in you like t-this all the time-mhmfuck-" his whispers start to turn into strained statements, the sound of skin slapping echoing inside the room, if anyone else was awake in the apartment, they probably would have already noticed the intense fucking happening in that room. 

the tip of his cock starts punching your g-spot like a boxer and his punching bag, you can't contain your muffled moans getting any louder; which causes Chad to cover your mouth for a third and final time. you could feel his cock seize inside of you as Chad's own groans start filling up the room. you were almost worried that Sam or Ethan were going to charge in here and see Chad balls deep inside of you. the pleasure starts to overwhelm you as your thighs shake uncontrollably, your hot breath wafting back into your face as Chad groans out quietly. "y-you need my cum, baby? mhm? that'll g-get you sleeping-" he manages to get out before feeling your juices gush out of you; realizing you had cum all over his cock, your body jerking in response as your eyes fluttered close.

involuntarily, Chad's cock squirms before you felt the thick ropes of his cum spill inside of you. you watched as his tense body finally relaxes into your touch, his heavy breaths and soft groans hitting your neck. seeing him slowly pull out and realizing he forgot to grab a condom from his wallet or check if Tara had some, oh well, it's not like he's gonna get murdered on the way to the pharmacy and back. he notices how limp you've become as he moves his hand away and pulls the panties out of your mouth. you can't help but notice how charming his smile was. he was glad he can catch you at this moment, all worn out and lazy but perfectly content, and finally dozing off to sleep. Chad gives you a lazy, soft kiss before you finally fell asleep.

the next morning, Chad and Mindy had run out to get breakfast; you were the last one to wake up, which Quinn noted as a good thing: "It means you finally caught up to your sleep schedule." which couldn't be further from the truth. you couldn't help but think about just a few hours prior, how good it all felt, how he basically fucked all the nervous energy out of you; feeling zen before the wave of reality hits you. The news was on, still talking about the new local Ghostface killings. you weren't sure if the slumber party kept you safer from the attacks or put you right in the middle of them, all you knew was that you had Chad as a bodyguard now. and when Chad finally comes back with several bags of Dunkin' breakfast sandwiches, he gave the only sprinkled donut he ordered to you. 

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[charmedreincarnation]

hi i’m sorry for this small rant. i really hope you reply to it because i’m spiralling so bad. i have been listening to v powerful luckiest girl and get all your desires instantly forced subs and i had two really bad days and overall my life feels so shit and i feel like nobody gives a shit about me feel left out with my friends and am really regretting some past choices i have made as in subjects i chose to study. why do subs not work on me ever? i detach but subs just don’t work for me idk what should i do i want to enter the void and live my better/dream life but i keep failing and i’m so spiraling so hard rn. i am not even seeing small success i can’t even manifest my acne away or to grow a few inches how will i enter the void and magically change my life entirely. please help me out. how do i manifest or enter the void as soon as i can. i am being delululu living in 4d but yes ik if i am truly living in the end i shouldn’t have doubts but it’s been so many months when will i see results in my 3d. manifestion should be instant right. i’m sorry for my negativity i hope you have a great day

Hi love! I feel like any of this could be answered in another ask, but you seem really worried, so I'm going to answer it anyway!

First and foremost, you are allowed to have doubts. Just because you have doubts doesn't mean you're producing those thoughts. From a psychological perspective (which aligns with LOA), our thoughts are not entirely our own. This is a scientific truth, whether you believe in LOA or not. Scientists say that our thoughts are influenced by external factors such as our environment, upbringing, and the thoughts of others. Sound familiar? They also claim that we have the power to change our thoughts and create our own reality by consciously choosing the thoughts we entertain. So, just know that you're going to have doubts until the end, but as long as you categorize them as random thoughts and not your own beliefs, they don't matter! For example, if someone dressed as Chucky the doll jump-scared you and you started having "scary" thoughts about it, that doesn't mean you actually believe Chucky is real and coming to get you. You have psychological responses to certain things that have been ingrained and coded in you for a while now. What LOA does is help us intercept these false messages and reframe them as "useless" instead of messages we encode in our mind and assumption.

I've always been interested in psychology and neurology, and even though it doesn't directly relate to your question, it's important to mention that you do have a brain, and your brain is wired to act in certain ways. Once you're aware of why you're acting and believing certain things, it becomes way easier to understand that the 3D world is malleable. I really suggest reading books by authors like Joe Dispenza so you can understand yourself better. Also, watching YouTubers who explain anxiety and reading self-help books can provide helpful ways to manage your own anxiety.

The second thing is, if you don't believe in subliminals, I don't know why people do this, but if you don't have faith in something or assume it doesn't work for you, just use something you have a little faith in. For example, maybe you're more logical. You can read about brain waves and then listen to binaural beats for anxiety,manifesting, and faith. Have faith in it, because you'll understand and know that those waves genuinely change your brain's alignment. That's just one example, but subliminals are not the only type of audios out there. There are many other methods to explore.

Also, meditation is very helpful. Not just to reach the void, but do you know how many conscious thoughts we have in a day? On average, it is estimated that a person has around 60,000 to 80,000 thoughts per day. These thoughts can range from conscious, deliberate thoughts to automatic, repetitive thoughts. That doesn't even include the number of unconscious thoughts we have, which is probably 100k+. You constantly have these little things running around in your head, trying to keep you alive, keeping you repeating the same thought patterns, beliefs, and assumptions. You can't consciously control them most of the time, but your brain and mind are working overtime 24/7. It's not your fault, so that's why meditation can help you. Not just to reach the void, though you can tap into that using some form of meditation as well, but to clear your mind and then it’s there it will be better to affirm and believe you can do whatever you desire. If you're not truly embodying the desired state, which you're not because you sent this ask, do you think a few measly affirmations can counteract the hundreds of thousands of thoughts you've been having every day since birth, most of which you don't even know exist? Affirmations do work, but trust me, I've been where you're at and worse. This is not the state to solely rely on "miracle affirmations" because you won't believe them, and when something doesn't happen, you'll just want to give up and confirmation bias will make you subconsciously think, "Well, see? I knew it. It isn’t real" But in reality, your mind is just looking for proof to align with your negative beliefs.

I know you say you haven't manifested anything, but can you really think back to something you thought was a "coincidence" or something you didn't really ask for but it just appeared? We usually brush those off as just the world at play or a small world, but nope, that was you. Maybe you don't have clear skin or whatever your desire may be, but as you probably know, that's because you've put it on a pedestal compared to all the other "small" but great things you've manifested

I know you probably wanted me to tell you exactly what to do, but I genuinely don't know you the way you know yourself - your own self, mind, and behaviors. You know best, fr! I could have said anything I've said before, like imagination is the real reality, the 3D being malleable, if you can see and feel it you can manifest it, try SATs or lucid dreaming lalala. But I've learned that you know what you have to do. Sit and meditate to learn about yourself and your mind, and why you think what you think. What past experiences do you still hold onto, reliving them in your mind and creating assumptions that no longer serve you? They can still affect you, we are humans and emotions cling to us like bees to honey, and that's okay. But we need to start moving those experiences into the past and start creating with what we are now, which is the present. Any given moment is a time to say, 'Okay, this doesn't serve me anymore, and this does. I don't want this life anymore, I want this type of life,' and consciously start creating with those desires instead.

Acknowledge your doubts, they're just doubts, and they're really just an extension of life factors that have been slowly consuming your mind. You may have them, but as a god, do you have them? No. But as a human, you are influenced by them, and who cares? You know who you are and your power now, so if you disregard them, work around them. But I can't tell you what to do because I'm not you! I wholeheartedly believe that you will get through this because I have as well and the lows are just apart of your journey as the success as corny as it sounds. But when you do succeed I promise you’ll back to this movement and just be very happy you didn’t give up despite how hard it was 💝

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

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LETTERS FROM AN AMERICAN

August 25, 2024

Heather Cox Richardson

Aug 26, 2024

The Democratic National Convention buoyed the Democrats. Thirty-four million dollars worth of donations came into ActBlue on the night of Vice President Kamala Harris’s acceptance speech. That money added to the other donations pouring in to make a record-breaking total of $540 million since July 22, when Harris’s campaign launched. 

Analyzing voter registrations in Michigan, pollster Tom Bonier found an immediate increase in young women registering to vote in the week of July 21, and his models suggest a 20-point Democratic advantage among those new registrants. FiveThirtyEight shows Harris up 2.7 points over Trump in the national polling average, a six-point improvement from Biden’s last day as a candidate. Across the country, the campaign has 400,000 volunteers.

Harris and Minnesota governor Tim Walz will cross southern Georgia by bus next week to build on the momentum of the convention, working with the 35,000 volunteers, 174 staffers, and 24 campaign offices across the state. 

Trump and the MAGA Republicans have not taken the Democrats’ momentum quietly. Trump has been frantically posting. 

On Thursday morning he assured readers on his social media channel that “My Administration will be great for women and their reproductive rights,” although he has boasted about ending the 1973 Roe v. Wade decision that protected women’s access to abortion and suggested that women who obtain abortions should be punished. Maureen Dowd of the New York Times wrote that his posts “were too ridiculous even for Trump,” and she wondered if his account had been hacked by Iranians. 

Then Trump went to Montezuma Pass, Arizona, to praise a section of border wall constructed there. A Border Patrol union leader called it the “Trump Wall,” and Isaac Arnsdorf, Marianne LeVine and Erin Patrick O'Connor of the Washington Post wrote that Trump’s visit was designed to recapture the storyline of this presidential race from Harris. But it turned out that the section he visited was actually built under President Barack Obama. The nearby Trump portion was unfinished and cost at least $35 million per mile. As president, the reporters note, “Trump spent more than $11 billion to finish more than 450 miles of wall along the almost 2,000-mile southern border, one of the most expensive federal infrastructure projects in history.” 

Harris’s acceptance speech had Trump apparently beside himself. During her 38-minute speech he posted 59 times on his social media platform, saying, among other things, “WHERE’S HUNTER?”  referring to President Joe Biden’s son. After the speech ended, he called in to the Fox News Channel to rant, in what Dowd called a “scream-of-consciousness,” in which he insisted he is “doing very well in the polls,” until host Bret Baier cut him off. So he turned to right-wing media outlet Newsmax, where he continued his diatribe.  

That night, apparently increasingly concerned about his chances of election, Trump—or his team, because it didn’t really sound like him—reached out on social media to Georgia governor Brian Kemp, whom he has lambasted since 2021 for refusing to help him steal the 2020 election. As recently as August 3, Trump went after Kemp, but on Thursday he thanked the governor “for all of your help and support in Georgia, where a win is so important to the success of our Party and, most importantly, our Country. I look forward to working with you, your team, and all of my friends in Georgia to help MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN!”

Josh Marshall of Talking Points Memo commented: “Nothing tells you Trump is in full panic more than seeing him crawl back to nemesis Brian Kemp begging for help in Georgia.” “Kemp wanted a public groveling,” Ron Filipkowski wrote, “and that’s what Trump did tonight.” 

It wasn’t just Trump who was concerned about the Democratic National Convention. A number of prominent Republicans who will be voting for Harris spoke there, providing a permission structure for other Republicans to shift their support to Harris and Walz. But that message did not make it through to viewers of the Fox News Channel. Media Matters, which monitors right-wing media, reported that the Fox News Channel did not air any of the Republicans’ DNC speeches. 

In the Wall Street Journal, Peggy Noonan complained that Democrats “stole traditional Republican themes (faith, patriotism) and claimed them as their own”—as if somehow Democrats shouldn’t be able to claim either faith or patriotism—and worried that Trump “is famously off his game.” His “old insult shtick isn’t working,” and when he tries to read from a teleprompter, “he talks like a tranquilized robot.” Because he has insulted everything, when he now disparages something, she wrote, “it seems part of his act.”  

Recognizing the momentum of the Harris-Walz campaign, the Trump-Vance campaign on Saturday sent out a memo predicting a post-convention bump for Harris-Walz but promising the bump would be temporary. It also did not mention that Trump and Vance did not get the normal post-convention bounce after their 2024 convention in July. 

Friday brought more bad news for the Trump campaign when twelve Republican lawyers who served in the administrations of presidents Ronald Reagan, George H.W. Bush, and George W. Bush wrote an open letter endorsing Harris because they believe Trump is a threat to American democracy and the rule of law. They continued: "[W]e urge all patriotic Republicans, former Republicans, conservative and center-right citizens, and independent voters to place love of country above party and ideology and join us in supporting Kamala Harris."  

They join conservative jurist J. Michael Luttig, who endorsed Harris on Wednesday and wrote: “In voting for Vice President Harris, I assume that her public policy views are vastly different from my own, but I am indifferent in this election on any issues other than America’s Democracy, the Constitution, and the Rule of Law, as I believe all Americans should be.”

Also on Friday, Robert F. Kennedy Jr., who was running for president as an Independent, suspended his campaign and endorsed Trump. He joined Trump onstage in Glendale, Arizona, to the music of the Foo Fighters, who made it clear the campaign did not ask permission to use the song, they would not have allowed it, and that they will donate all royalties from its use by Trump’s campaign to the Harris-Walz campaign.

It is not clear that Kennedy’s endorsement will help Trump much. He was polling at under 5%, and his numbers were dropping. Kennedy also is a poor candidate to help Trump combat the “weird” label the Democrats have attached to his campaign. His odd past includes recent stories that he claimed in court to suffer from a worm in his brain and that he dumped a dead bear cub in New York’s Central Park and tried to make it look as if a bike had hit it. Josh Marshall added that the endorsement also “puts a spotlight on the fact that [Trump’s] desperate and trying basically anything now to shake up the race.”

Five of Kennedy’s siblings called the endorsement “a betrayal of the values that our father and our family hold most dear. It is a sad ending to a sad story.” Quoting President John F. Kennedy, his grandson Jack Schlossberg endorsed Harris on stage at the DNC. 

Trump seemed thrilled with the endorsement, though. On Saturday he shared a post calling himself and Kennedy “the Strongest anti-establishment ticket in American History.” But, of course, Kennedy is not on the ticket. J.D. Vance is. 

Vance’s dismal rollout has not gotten better. He appears to have taken on the task of actually campaigning for the ticket, but he is enormously inexperienced, and it’s not going terribly well. An awkward visit to a donut shop in Georgia where Vance ordered “whatever makes sense” has become a viral TikTok meme. An AP_NORC poll has Vance at –17 (27% favorable versus 44% unfavorable); Walz is +11 (36 to 25). 

Finally, in a post on his social media site tonight, Trump appears to be hinting that he will pull out of the planned debate between him and Vice President Harris scheduled for September 10. “I watched ABC FAKE NEWS this morning,” he wrote, “and I ask, why would I do the Debate against Kamala Harris on that network?... Stay tuned!!!” 

One other item came from Trump this week, but it got little oxygen with everything else that was going on. Donald Trump Jr. and Eric Trump have been teasing a “big announcement” this month related to cryptocurrency and decentralized finance, or DeFi. On Thursday, Trump announced a new cryptocurrency project called “The DeFiant Ones” and linked to a Telegram channel set up on August 6, the same day Eric posted that such a project was in the works. 

Telegram is a social media app launched by Russian-born billionaire Pavel Durov, and it is the main communications tool in Russia. Durov was arrested today in France on charges that Telegram has been used for money laundering and other crimes. 

LETTERS FROM AN AMERICAN

HEATHER COX RICHARDSON

[slugtranslation-hypmic]

Hi, different anon, but the full lyrics for Bounce Back are available on youtube music under the lyrics tab! https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=7hjgf54VxTY

Your lyric translations have been great! I enjoyed how deeply you dug into Shinogi 💙

Looking forward to anything you post in the future! 🙌

Thanks for providing that! Then, as requested, a translation of Bounce Back under a cut for length.

There's not a lot going on in this guy, so it's pretty literal. That doesn't mean word-for-word, especially around figurative language. For example, the common Japanese "our proof of being alive" is written as "creed" because the latter is a more common way to express this idea in English. There are a couple sections where they say things purely to force a rhyme, and in those sections, I translate the overall meaning of the line without worrying overly much about their word choice. As usual, there no consideration for line length, rhythm, or rhyme in English.

Incidentally, I'm understanding the Eng title as 跳ね返す, ie counterattacking or opposing (making an attack "bounce back") and not recovering after a setback. Hey, bounce back! (Tobari) Bounce back! (Tobari) Opposing the good guys is our creed. Hey! Bounce back! (Zansei) Bounce back! (Zanen) You'll know it's us once we rough 'em up. Hey! Bounce back! (Tobari) Bounce back! (Tobari) We're the unbeatable duo of brawn and brains. Hey! Bounce back! (Zansei) Bounce back! (Zanen) You'll know it's us once we rough 'em up. Hey! We're the better than all those average Joes. We're Zansei and Zanen! Here come the Tobari brothers! Our first priority is whatever makes us feel good. Hey! Zanen: Zansei's number one. Zansei: Aw, you'll make me blush. So long as we're here, evil will rule the world. Hey! Bounce back! (Tobari) Bounce back! (Tobari) Opposing the good guys is our creed. Hey! Bounce back! (Zansei) Bounce back! (Zanen) You'll know it's us once we rough 'em up. Hey! Bounce back! (Tobari) Bounce back! (Tobari) We're the unbeatable duo of brawn and brains. Hey! Bounce back! (Zansei) Bounce back! (Zanen) You'll know it's us once we rough 'em up. Hey!

Our hearts are pumping with ambition and greed. So if anyone tries to stop us? We'll get rid of them, no holds barred! For us, violence is always the answer! Hey! Hell still has lots and lots and lots and lots of space for more victims! Hey! Zanen: The Tobaris are number one. Zansei: That's obvious! So long as we're here, evil will last forever. Hey!

Bounce back! (Tobari) Bounce back! (Tobari) Opposing the good guys is our creed. Hey! Bounce back! (Zansei) Bounce back! (Zanen) You'll know it's us once we rough 'em up. Hey! Bounce back! (Tobari) Bounce back! (Tobari) We're the unbeatable duo of brawn and brains. Hey! Bounce back! (Zansei) Bounce back! (Zanen) You'll know it's us once we rough 'em up. Hey! Bounce back!

[ssaalexblake]

So, liked you talking about Orphan 55 and finding a new interpretation to it! Are there any other Chibnall-era stories that you feel people really don't get?

On the whole? the whole era seems to sail over peoples heads imo, but that's the salt talking. Okay, it's not Only salt talking, i think S12 particularly is very interconnected in its themes the whole way through and when people miss one thing they tend to not see a bunch of others. But still.

On an episodic level, I think Arachnids in the UK sailed way way way over peoples heads in a massive way, not necessarily in a they didn't get it way, but more of a 'didn't bother to look at it' kind of thing bc there are giant spiders and a tr/ump stand in making a lot of noise, not to mention Najia's 'are you dating' riff distracting a different subset of people. I admit that all of the above was very distracting, especially if you're arachnophobic.

But yeah, a rich guy with no morals is out to make a fast buck. He picks Sheffield of all places to do this, working class, known for it. On the way to making a fast buck he cuts corners and forgive me, i've not watched it in a long time and i may be slightly off on some of the specifics, but the illegal/irresponsible disposal of waste by some rich guy, in a place where working class people live in an effort to make it more ~fancy to attract richer customers (like, i assume he was after that?), causes an environmental disaster to the local ecosystem by producing harmful gasses and litter is everywhere (hence Yaz's dad convinced there's a conspiracy of some kind), this in turn affects local fauna to the point something Weird happens to them (in this case, they get really really big) and the next domino in this long list of cause and effect, is that this effects the people living in said city because the now massive huge spiders are a danger to people and kill them.

Rich people fucking up the lives of the working class by destroying the environment to line their own pockets. Rich people harming wildlife to line their own pockets causing environmental disaster that in turn fucks over the working class.

it's almost like, in real life, the people doing the real harm and damage to the environment are the rich monsters content to do whatever they can for that new yacht no matter the environmental disaster it causes for us average joes.

They uh, were going somewhere with that one! And it's one of the least mentioned ones i think? When people talk about episodes with messages about protecting the environment/the destruction of it, Orphan 55 and Praxeus tend to be the only ones mentioned, but they're not alone. Orphan 55 and Arachnids live specifically at the intersection of capitalism VS environmental protection and how these two things Cannot coexist. Praxeus takes more of a dig at a different area.

I think War of the Sontarans flies frequently over peoples heads for it's themes of contextual morality in war. The show does not tie its opinions on violence up with a neat bow. We have two lead characters in two vastly different times (Dan & 13), one is fighting tooth and nail to stop some general starting a pointless ego driven fight and getting people killed, the general is unequivocally portrayed as awful. Meanwhile, Dan is in present day Liverpool fighting for a cause, trying to stop colonization and being portrayed as entirely in the right for doing so.

It was wrong of that cowardly general to start a bloody, awful, horrifying battle that got other people killed just to satisfy his bloodlust and make himself look big, to place the glory of war and the British empire over a legitimate solution that avoided bloodshed and solved the issue. Meanwhile, in the same breath, the show says It was morally correct of Dan to fight back against a colonizing force in his home city, even when it meant blood.

The context of this genuinely seems to throw people. I've seen complaints that the show can't even make up it's own mind on what it's view of violence is and like... Yeah? You're SO close to getting the point here, guys. Of course you cannot offer a blanket judgement on violence in general! 13 was called a hypocrite for having tears in her eyes when the general killed the retreating sontarans but not caring that Dan and Karvanista used violence to remove them from Liverpool in the future and Entirely missed the nuance of how those situations differ.

I just think it flew over peoples heads that the show was maybe saying gratuitous ego driven violence when peaceful solutions exist is Bad, while at the exact same time also saying that you are morally correct for fighting back against colonizing forces with violence because those peaceful solutions Do Not Exist here.

I mean, it's vastly more complicated than the summary, but yeah. That theme pops up more than once in the era. Trips people a lot, as well.

On a small scene level, i think people misjudged what was going on in It Takes You Away with what the solitract did. I remember people being angry that 13 got a frog and not a person from her past, but Graham and that dude only got their spouses because the solitract was actively trying to trick them into staying with them. The thing about 13 in this scene is that she is the one seducing the solitract, not the other way around (it is Genuinely the most aggressively flirty 13 is her whole run. I don't feel bad using the word seduce in its traditional usage here. She was using every bit of doctor charm that 13 does not normally Want to utilise but proves here can do so if she wants).

Once 13 is alone with the Solitract, the solitract does not Need to trick or manipulate 13 into staying because 13 was the one asking to stay. So when the solitract just appears how it wishes, that makes perfect sense. Also, 13 would have been angry had she had some piece of her past pulled from her brain and shoved in front of her, lbr.

The rest i have are more theme related than episode related specifically? I think? yeah.

[dissentersrising]

v models, sornieth edition

>dragons, unlike humans, do a lot of things with their mouths (biting people. carrying things. okay that’s about it) so while the v models weren’t designed to be super accurate to any given dragon, this still came through in the design philosophy >v1’s jaw has sharp spikes for slicing through things, mostly used just in case it needs to refuel immediately. did i mention these things run off blood because now i did um look that’s literally ultrakill canon don’t look at me man >anyways magic’s a lot more of a concussive force than, say, a whole bullet so a blast of magic isn’t guaranteed to make anything bleed, so it’s just a failsafe >not incredible for holding things, given the rest of its (and by extension, mirage’s) jaw is smooth, but that’s an afterthought in its case anyway >v2 a) isn’t designed as an actual warbot b) can’t absorb blood directly through its plating so its jaw is designed differently for actual grip >it can actually hold things. woohoo >also more emotive because it’s designed as an enforcer, ergo the average joe is expected to see one of these things running around sometimes. less uncanny when you can see some facsimile of facial expression, i guess >technically v2 is supposed to move its mouth when speaking. less uncanny or whatever. it stopped doing that after it ran off because it can’t be assed to bother >mirage just doesn’t because she doesn’t give a shit >i dunno if v1 can even talk actually

[thevindicativevordan]

OMG suit reveal by Gunn's Instagram !

Been the talk of today, of course I've seen it.

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I don't hate it but I don't love it either:

This is straight up the Fortnite suit where it's the New 52 suit + the trunks. Kind of amusing route to go honestly.

Ugh the collar. It's not too bad, it lacks the v-neck and because the suit is clearly not armor, it doesn't quite have the same authoritarian vibe. Will never be pro-collar myself though.

On the positive side I love that the suit is battle damaged! Always disliked how Cavill never showed any wear and tear despite theoretically fighting bad guys who were on his level of power. Rewatching the Raimi Spider-Man movies again reminded me how important the battle tear aspect can be to increase tension. Really hope Gunn brings some of that same approach to the fights here.

I also like the long cape and the color for the non-scorched sections of the suit look good.

Yay for the spitcurl!

I guess the background is Ultraman trying to heat vision Guy to death? I'd like to think it's Solaris or Brainiac but at this point I prefer to go into the movie thinking it will only be the boring leaked choices, and then be hopefully surprised. Better that than getting my hopes up to see some Superman villains I actually want to see, only to be disappointed.

I get that it’s probably trying to evoke a more human feel (Superman puts on his boots one at a time just like we do!) but the background event kinda makes it more comedic than touching

Can't lie, it's a weird way to reveal the suit. You've got Corenswet with a stoic/glum look on his face, putting his costume on while his comrades are getting beaten up. The background looks AI made. This doesn't exactly scream WE'RE DOING SOMETHING DIFFERENT FROM WHAT SNYDER DID to the normie who has no clue Gunn is rebooting. Not exactly the strong first impression that you'd want, but whatever. Trailer will be what really decides whether the average Joe takes an interest or not. I am pleased to see that the reveal is provoking a reaction, people are clearly interested in this movie in a way that they haven't been with other superhero movies outside of Deadpool 3 and Joker 2. It's when people are totally apathetic that you know you're screwed.