#utsukushii kare fanfic

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My Beautiful Man / Utsukushii Kare

Alice In Borderlands

Crows Zero

One Piece Live Action

Knuckle Girl

Like A Dragon: Yakuza (Show)

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my no's in requests

I have a few rules when it comes to requesting certain characters with certain things and here is what they are;

I will not do incest. This includes father x daughter, mother x son, mother x daughter, father x son, step-related, third cousins, or anything of that sort.

Smut / Lemon for underaged characters. If you ask me for smut on characters like a child, I will not do your request and it'll be deleted.

Vague requests. If you request, then please don't be vague. I would like to know what character, an au (if you want one), and the genre you want. If its vague, I will not do it.

Weird kinks. Those kinks that have to do with bodily fluids like piss and shit. I'll do spitting kinks and blood kinks but those are off limits.

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Upcoming works

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Crying Angel (LAD:Y) Jealousy (MBM/UK)

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utsukushii kare summary:

[ourplacetobefree]

I need fanfics of Kiyoi turning Hira into his Dom because it's clear he wants more of the little moments Hira takes control and takes care of him with his push. Just Kiyoi coming across bdsm info or talking to his work friends and realizing that's what he wants and trying to make it happen.

[underthebrightmooninterests]

My Beautiful Man fic: The explosive exhibition

3140 words, fluff

pairing: Hira Kazunari x Kiyoi Sou

summary:  It's been a few weeks since Kiyoi and Hira started dating. Things are going well, maybe a little too well.

What happens when Shirota shows up to Hira's university?

And what happens when he's clearly still salty about Hira punching him?

How do Kiyoi and Hira handle someone from their past that knows exactly how to poke their sore spots?

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Disclaimer: This takes place in between season one and two but I wrote it before season two had come out so certain things might not line up perfectly. I posted this on AO3 a while back but I corrected some things and made some changes so it fits a little more now that I’ve seen the second season. Nevertheless I hope you enjoy.

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Boyfriend. The fact that this role is prescribed to Kiyoi in Hira’s life is still a thought that leaves him feeling giddy. The idea that he’s in a dream that could cruelly end any minute, is slowly ebbing away as the days go by. The excitement stays but the anxiety lessens every time he sees Kiyoi. Every smile, every touch and every word.

As harsh as they may seem on the surface, those words laced with love and care are his biggest confirmation. Confirmation that he never got in high school. Kiyoi, a beautiful man, is in love with him.

“What are you looking at?”

Kiyoi’s voice breaks Hira’s trance and brings him back to where he’s standing in front of his boyfriend’s practice room. A frown adorns his beautiful features as Kiyoi looks at Hira. When no answer comes, he speaks again:

“What’s going on in your weird head now?”

His words no longer have the harsh bite to them that they did in high school. It’s only been a few weeks since they started dating but a lot has happened. Hira and Kiyoi got to know each other. Not as the king and his servant, but as partners. Hira now knows what Kiyoi is like and he’s proud that he’s becoming a pro in recognizing what Kiyoi is like underneath the cold attitude.

This fact alone would’ve been enough to send high school him into a frenzy. If only the Hira from the past could hear the sweet nothings Kiyoi whispers in his ear when they cuddle late at night.

Late at night, when the moonlight and stars are all that stops the world from plunging into complete darkness. Well, the moonlight, the stars and Kiyoi. Because there is no amount of moonlight that can fill Hira with more warmth than Kiyoi does simply by existing. He doesn’t want to lose that, not even to his best friend.

Kazuki Koyama and Hira have started speaking again. Hira almost expected Kiyoi to order him to stay away from Kazuki. And whether it be bad habit or just the leftovers of the blind obedience he used to move under, Hira would’ve cut the other out of his life. But upon his boyfriend’s request, Hira talked about why Kazuki means a lot to him. The way he helped him during his lonely years. Years of wandering without purpose, desperately trying to get Kiyoi out of his mind. Kiyoi surprised both Hira and Kazuki by texting the latter that Hira would be going to dinner with him. Hira and Kazuki spent some time together over dinner upon Kiyoi’s request and decided to stay friends. Hira even decided to stay in the photography club. Now that he had his high school sweetheart back in his life he wanted to spend as much time with him as possible but Kiyoi encouraged him to stay. The man claimed that Hira should keep up with his hobbies and just like with anything that Kiyoi says, Hira agreed immediately.

All of that has led to where they are now. Kiyoi is going to rehearsals for his play at the Silkroad café and Hira is meeting with Kazuki at his place to discuss the exhibition the photography club is holding. As much as the thought of a bunch of people seeing his photos fills him with anxiety, he did make a commitment to help them in this.

“Disgusting!” Kiyoi suddenly yells, pulling Hira out of his thoughts and back to where they are still standing in front of the practice building.

“W-w-what do you…” Hira trails off as he sees the small smile in the corner of the boy’s mouth. He looks down at his fingers and slowly entwines them with Kiyoi’s. The fact that bold touches like this are now able to happen without Kiyoi getting angry is still making his heart beat faster. That feeling will probably never go away. He takes a breath and looks up to see the other looking at him patiently, waiting for him to speak.

“Koyama and I won’t take long; we just need to discuss some of the logistics of the exhibition since I missed the last meeting. If you want, you can- “Hira gets interrupted by Kiyoi lifting their entwined hands up to Hira’s lips. Hira slowly leans in and gently kisses their hands, making Kiyoi smile.

“My own boyfriend thinks I’m a jealous toddler who doesn’t understand the concept of friends, how disgusting.” He quickly shakes his head; he doesn’t think that at all. Kiyoi is really smart, smarter than most people give him credit for. He is the king after all.

“Just do your best for the exhibition. I don’t want to be embarrassed by my own partner when I visit.” Hira barely has any time to react before Kiyoi presses his hands to Hira’s mouth one last time before turning around and going inside.

“I’ll do my best!” Hira screams at his back, Kiyoi waves at him without turning around and it brings a smile to his face. He will do his best. He won’t make himself a burden to Kiyoi. He’ll do his best and show off his pictures to the best of his abilities, even if he feels that those abilities might be lacking compared to Kiyoi’s amazing talent in everything.

 -------The day of the exhibition-------

 Kiyoi puts down his phone camera after checking his appearance one last time. He used to check it religiously before leaving the house in high school. He didn’t know how deep Hira’s infatuation with him ran. If one bad hair day was enough for Hira to decide Kiyoi wasn’t worth the effort, he wasn’t going to risk it. Now that they are dating Kiyoi feels less of a reason to keep up the act that he doesn’t care. It still comes out when he’s embarrassed or angry but he’s slowly getting better at expressing himself. Besides, Hira still hasn’t quite gotten over the entire ‘Kiyoi is a king’ thing so he feels like he has to make an effort if he wants to make this relationship last.

He puts his phone away and contains his giddiness about seeing Hira’s work in all its glory.

He smooths out his facial features to the best of his abilities and tries to look as unbothered as always. He doesn’t need everyone else to see how whipped he is.

He enters the university building and follows the directions his boyfriend gave him. He tries not to think about what it would be like if he studied here with Hira. He has no desire to go for a higher education and with his grades in high school it’s logical that Hira does. But after years apart, some part of him wants to spend as much time together as possible. But as much as he orders Hira around to do things like get him a drink, he would never tell him to give up his education for him. He’s not motivated or enthusiastic about a lot so everything Hira truly wants to do, he’ll let him. That’s why he convinced Hira to stay in the photography club. It’s the only thing he’s ever shown an interest in. Kiyoi knows what it’s like to have a dream and he would like Hira to be able to feel the same.

“Welcome!” a woman at the entrance tells him as she hands out pamphlets with what the exhibition holds. Kiyoi takes it and nods politely but doesn’t even look at the pamphlet as he pockets it. He’s only here for Hira anyway, he doesn’t really know a lot about photography besides what Hira has told him and experience in photoshoots. It doesn’t take long for him to find Hira, mainly because Hira seemingly found him first. His big eyes are already stuck on Kiyoi as if it’s the first time he’s seeing him. Even though they slept in the same bed last night, Hira still looks as love struck as he did in high school.

Kiyoi relishes in the attention in a way he never does with other people. He can feel more peoples’ eyes on him but can’t find it in him to care. He makes a b-line for where Hira is standing with the Koyama kid and other people Kiyoi only knows as his club members. Kazuki notices Hira staring and smoothly hides the hurt expression that threatens to take over when he realizes Hira abandoned him halfway through a conversation to stare at the one who just walked in. Kiyoi decides not to think about the pride that swells in his chest when he thinks about that.

“Kiyoi,” Hira greets breathlessly. Kiyoi nods at him and gives him a small smile before quickly greeting everyone else in the group. He met them for the first time not so long ago, so they acknowledge his existence and then return to their conversations when Kiyoi turns his back on them to listen to Hira. The one he assumes is the senior that Hira told him is the leader of the club keeps talking about how they should stand next to their own photos and answer any potential questions people may have. Hira and Kiyoi completely miss the explanation about the booth with products for sale as they are busy talking about how Kiyoi styled his hair differently today. Kiyoi notices the senior getting annoyed at the distraction, and he can even feel Kazuki glaring. He sighs before grabbing Hira by the arm and pulling him in to whisper in his ear:

“I’m going to take a look around the place, don’t embarrass yourself while I’m gone. I’ll be back in a bit.” He doesn’t wait for Hira’s response and just walks away, leaving a flustered Hira behind that gingerly touches his ear.

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He watches as Kiyoi walks away, slowly he returns his attention to the others who have since dispersed, clearly done with the briefing. He tries to focus on the exhibition and not Kiyoi’s beautiful face as he recalls what Kazuki told him yesterday. Right, stand next to the booth and answer questions about his pictures. This is far outside of his comfort zone, but he’s made a commitment and he’ll do Kiyoi proud.

Or at least that’s what his brain tells him, his shaking hands and wobbly legs don’t seem to carry the same sentiment. His section is mostly filled with teachers and quick visits from strangers, where other people have groups of family and friends lingering in theirs. He doesn’t really mind and tries to focus on something other than Kiyoi wandering around. He still catches him striding into the bathroom from the corner of his eye. He’s so focused on trying to stay focused, that he completely misses the person walking up to him.

“Hi-hi! Still stuck behind that camera I see.” Shirota walks up to Hira without even glancing at the pictures he supposedly came for. Hira can feel the anxiety claw its way back up his throat.

“S-Sh-Shirota s-san, what are you doing h-here?” His voice comes out as quiet and slow as it did in high school. It’s as if the appearance of his old high school classmate was enough to send Hira spiralling back into that headspace. The last time he saw him was at graduation when he was still avoiding Hira’s gaze because he punched him. Yes, that’s the strongest memory Hira has of him. The way he dared to dump juice on Kiyoi. He still remembers the anger and bravery that filled his chest when he saw how Kiyoi simply stood there and took the abuse. But it seems that with the departure of Kiyoi, that bravery also disappeared.

“I was in the area when I ran into a friend of mine, he said his club was holding an exhibition at his university. Who knew our little Hi-hi also showcased his silly photos here?” Hira’s brain was filled with so many thoughts and none at the same time. As Shirota spoke, he could feel Kazuki’s eyes on them. While Hira struggles to form a response, he feels the familiar hand on his back as Kazuki appears with his familiar polite smile. There’s a twinge of anger to it however, only visible for those who know how to look for it. Clearly Shirota didn’t notice it as he just chuckles and doesn’t even give Kazuki a chance to speak.

“Aww, who’s this? I’m Shirota, an old classmate of Hira’s. Did you get a boyfriend? Did you finally stop running after Kiyoi?” He directs the last two things at Hira and Hira tenses when Kiyoi’s name is brought up. This, Shirota does notice.

“Alright, no need to get wound up. I was just curious what happened. Did Kiyoi finally get rid of his stalker, or did you realize how mediocre he is?”

He shouldn’t punch him. They are on campus at a university event, it would definitely draw unwanted attention. But he brought Kiyoi’s name up in such a way. Maybe that’s what he’s trying to do. Get Hira in trouble by starting a fight. If he does something now there will definitely be enough witnesses to say Hira threw the first punch. Luckily Koyama, ever the diplomat, answers for him.

“What happened between him and Kiyoi-san is their business and no one else’s.” Hira is happy he defended them because his confidence in getting a sentence out without stuttering is very low.

“I’m Kazuki by the way, I’m also displaying my photos in the exhi- “

“Someone recently saw you two together.” Shirota says, completely ignoring Kazuki. “How did that happen?”

Hira tries to answer.

“K-k-Kiyoi is- “

“I mean he’s probably just amusing you. Entertained by how you trail behind him, he can’t possibly like- “

“SHIROTA-SAN!” Hira vaguely registers Kazuki screaming but his head is on a different planet. Whenever he’s around Kiyoi he can’t bring himself to think about such things but whenever he leaves, the doubts creep up. Every sweet word he’s ever told, how sincere they may be meant, gets twisted. Does Kiyoi really not love him? I mean, what does Hira even have to offer Kiyoi?

His breathing quickens and he feels like his lungs are being filled with water. He grabs his chest desperately trying to keep his head above water. The king can’t be in love with someone like him, he deserves better. Who is Hira to hold him back like this…

---------meanwhile--------

That toilet might’ve singlehandedly convinced Kiyoi that he never wants to go to university. From now on, whenever he’s doubting his career path he’ll just think about that disgusting toilet.

As he starts thinking about whether he’s been gone from Hira long enough, his phone vibrates. He can’t stop the disappointment he feels when he sees it’s not from Hira. He groans before accepting the call.

“Hello Kazuki-san, wh- “

“Come to Hira’s booth quickly, something happened to him.” Kiyoi’s head starts spinning. His eyes immediately scan the room, desperately looking for his boyfriend.

HIS boyfriend.

Whoever hurt him will learn the consequences from messing with the person he loves. He finally spots Hira; he vaguely registers Kazuki saying something on the phone but before he knows it, he’s running. Ignoring the people he bumps into and the people staring. Hira’s hunched over clenching his chest, something’s wrong. As he approaches, he’s surprised to see Shirota there. Did he do something?

“Ah Kiyoi? Here to support your bOYfrIEnD? I can’t believe you’re still hanging around with him.”

He waltzes straight up to Shirota with the simple plan to punch him in the face but one gasp from Hira is enough to derail those plans. He ignores both Shirota and Kazuki, who’s worryingly rubbing Hira’s back in a desperate attempt to calm him down. He grabs Hira by the arm and pulls him outside. He pushes people aside in a way that would be deemed rude in any other situation. Kiyoi can’t bring himself to care though. He pushes open a door to the hallway and is happy to find it mostly empty. He immediately turns to Hira who seemingly just registered that it was Kiyoi that pulled him away. For once he tears his eyes away from Hira’s enchanting gaze. He grabs him and tackles him into a hug.

“I love you Hira, I love you so much you disgusting idiot. I did back then, I do now, and I will in the future. Nothing will change that. I love you so much.” He repeats that and similar things over and over again.

Kazuki, who followed the two to the hallway watches as Kiyoi whispers I love you in Hira’s ear like a mantra. He never liked Kiyoi, he was arrogant, rude and frankly not worthy of dating Hira in his opinion. But this sight, Hira cuddled in Kiyoi’s arms and slowly calming down, makes him realize something. He realizes, Kiyoi loves Hira the same way he does, looks at him with the same love in his eyes. Hira will be fine. If he’s going to be in anyone’s arms, it should be Kiyoi’s.

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I love you Hira

The thought slowly sinks in as his rationality comes back. Kiyoi tried to contact him after high school, Kiyoi wanted to be with him, Kiyoi kissed him. That’s right, Kiyoi chose him. Kiyoi knows him well enough to know that what Hira needed was to get out of the crowd of watching eyes. Enough to quietly slip him a tissue because he knows he needs it.

I love you too

He doesn’t stutter when saying this. These words that he’s been preparing for years, feel almost uncomfortable to say to Kiyoi. The King. It feels selfish to keep him for himself.

But if it takes him being selfish to keep Kiyoi by his side, than he’ll take it.

It takes more than a year before Hira finally starts really believing it but deep down Hira knows;

Kiyoi, the beautiful man, loves him. More than anyone else

[tuawoonwai8]

Please fanfic writers, write fanfic for my beautiful man drama. Please, I'm begging 🙏. I'll comment on every story I read just please give me stories. I'll love you forever and ever 💛

[jellyfishright]

Still My Beautiful Man - Pt 17

**** Kiyoi*****

This was something that needed to be taken care of once and for all Kiyoi resolved.

In the past he'd been content to just leave things as they were, knowing that he'd won in the end but it seemed the other party still thought the game was being played or that he had a chance--- he didn't.

It wasn't that he was unsure like he was in the past when he'd first seen them together. He knew Hira loved him but he didn't want to keep facing the recurring decimal that was Koyama.

He remembered the first time he'd seen the guy with a "bad taste in everything, " Koyama Kazuki, younger brother of his stage director, Kohama Youhei. He was smiling broadly as he sat beside Hira.

When he'd heard that he was Hira's boyfriend his heart nearly stopped. To know that there was someone else in Hira's life, he had to see for himself.

That day when he finally saw him again, besides being deliriously happy, he also knew---those eyes still belonged to him. He thought he'd won when he invited Hira to the after party only to be turned down. Had he been wrong?He was so confident he would have said yes that his confidence was just a little shaken when Hira had said he was busy.

Busy?

Busy how?

Spending the day at his house with Koyama for his birthday.

Hira's house had always been his place---now someone else was in his place.

It was also there he'd heard Koyama say those words explicitly to Hira "I like you." He thought for sure he'd lost. That Hira had slipped out of his fingers forever until that day.

"I just want the person that I like to be happy." Those were the words that had given im hope again. He really thought Koyama would back off after that but clearly he was a persistent person.

Today would be the end of it.

"You're Kiyoi Sou." the other person in the room recognized him the minute he stepped in and removed his hat and shades.

Kiyoi nodded while Koyama looked at him in surprise.

"How come you're here?" the young man asked. 

"I'm Koyama's friend." He lied.

Surprise was etched on both Koyama and the young man's face.

"Would you mind if I had a few minutes alone with Koyama?" he asked politely.

The young man nodded profusely.

"Sure. No problem."He quickly grabbed his things and left the room.

With just the two of them present, Kiyoi locked the door.He didn't want to be disturbed.

"How come you're here?" Koyama asked. "If you're looking for Hira I haven't seen him."

An amused expression was on Kiyoi's face "Why would I come to you asking for my boyfriend?" Koyama's eyes widened, no doubt in response to the term he'd used to refer to Hira.He walked further into the room. "I came here to see you."

"To see me? Why?"

Kiyoi exhaled and walked lazily to a chair which he spun before taking a seat. He pillowed his arms on the back of the chair and rested his chin.

"Did you want to say something?" Koyama prompted since Kiyoi was just looking at him.

"You and I need to talk."

"Talk about what?"

Kiyoi tilted his head thoughtfully to the side. It seemed this was how he wanted to play this.

"You. What do you want with Hira?"

"I like him." Koyama admitted. "I always have."

Kiyoi Hmph'ed.

"You really are a straightforward person." Kiyoi replied "Saying that to someone's boyfriend."

Koyama was unmoved.

"I won't waste words." Kiyoi began ."Hira belongs to me .I didn't think I'd need to actually tell you this but it seems  you are a very stubborn person."

Koyama chuckled , though there was no mirth in the sound.

"And what is this that you're doing? Marking your territory? Staking your claim?"

"Telling you how it is." Kiyoi replied simply. "I know you still like him but you should also know that you stand no chance so just let it go."

Koyama clicked his tongue.

"Let it go?" he was clearly displeased with Kiyoi's words "Let it go? Just who do you think you are ? Hira shouldn't even be with a person like you." he sneered. "I'm disgusted everytime I think about it."

"I know he shouldn't be with a person like me." Kiyoi admitted, throwing Koyama a little off guard  "But he is and I won't let him go..so just stop."

Koyama recovered quickly.

"Aren't you being a little too unfair to him? Shouldn't you atleast allow him to be with someone who can love and appreciate him openly? With you he will always be second, or third or wherever you think it's fit to place him."

Kiyoi made a face.

"Hira seems to have this crazy idea that he is the lucky one for getting to be with you but it's the other way around." Koyama's fingers balled in frustration. "To have someone in this world that loves you in such a singular way, it's--it's.."

"So I guess you do understand why I will never let him go again."

Koyama looked at him.

"I thought I could let him go. I thought I could give him up.I know he likes you.." Koyama sighed "But.."

"But it's hard right?" Kiyoi finished his sentence. "He pulls you in right? In that effortless, unassuming way, just by being himself he pulls you in and before long you can't imagine looking away."

Koyama was speechless as he looked at Kiyoi.

"I've never told anyone" Kiyoi looked at him. "When I lost touch with Hira after high school, I felt really lost.When he was gone, it felt like something was missing. He changed his number so I had no way to contact him." Kiyoi seemed to be transported back to that time as he spoke " I thought I'd never see him again.I didn't like a world that didn't have him in it.No matter how many eyes were on me, they weren't as powerful as his."

He looked at Koyama with a gentle smile.

"I guess I should really thank you in a way. That day you brought him to watch the play I finally found my missing piece.I was so happy to see those eyes again" He paused thoughtfully. "So I hope you can understand why I will never let him go again.Not for you..Not for anyone else." 

As though he was trying to process all Kiyoi said, Koyama remained silent for a little while.

"You're right.Of the two of us, I'm the lucky one. I always have been." His gaze became hard again "So that's why I won't allow anyone to try and take him away."

"As if that could happen." Koyama muttered sarcastically under his breath.

Kiyoi pretended not to hear as he stood to his feet.After putting his hat and glasses on, he walked to the door.

"And thank you..for being a good friend to him." He offered his parting words, leaving Koyama staring after him.

One down...

One to go..

                            *********************************Hira********************************

"Your boyfriend stopped by today." Koyama said to Hira as they sat reviewing images for a project.

"Heh?" Hira was surprised.

"Oh you didn't know?"

Hira shook his head.

After leaving the house he and Kiyoi had gone separate ways.He hadn't seen him in a few hours and had no idea he would stop by.

"What did he say?"

"That I should leave you alone...pretty much." Koyama replied nonchalantly.

Hira looked up from his work

"Heh?"

"You look surprised." Koyama commented.

If he was being completely honest, he was a bit surprised. He never imagined Kiyoi would do such a thing.

"He actually seems to love you alot." Koyama said somewhat begrudgingly.

"Hmm?" Hira tried to process

Koyama wasn't in the mood to repeat himself.

"About this thing with your internship." he changed the subject " Have you figured out what you're going to do?"

"Oh.Mmn. Kiyoi said he's going to apologize."

Koyama was now truly stunned.

"He's going to apologize to Akira?" Hira nodded. "And he'll be okay with you working there still?"

Hira nodded again.

Koyama fell silent, as though he was lost in thought.

                            ****************************Kiyoi*****************************

Kiyoi checked the address on the card Tanaka had written out. He was the right place.

He entered the photo studio and walked up to the receptionist.

It was a well decorated space wit captivating photos displayed at strategic spots. Looking around he smiled. Perhaps Hira could own a place like this one day.

"Is Akira Bento in?" Kiyoi enquired.

"Is he expecting you?" she enquired

"My agency sent me over for a consult." he replied.

"One moment." she got on the phone and dialled. She nodded her head as the person on the line gave her instructions.

"He'll be right out."

Kiyoi nodded.

A few moments later he appeared. He really was a handsome man.Wearing casual clothes, he had a camera dangling from his neck just like Hira often did.

"Which agency sent?--" he came barreling into sight, stopping short when he saw it was Kiyoi.

They stared at each other. "It's you." he placed his hands on his hips. "Well. Are you here to apologize?" he sounded a little impatient.

Kiyoi swallowed his own natural emotions, keeping the reason he was there at the fore of his mind.For Hira he could do it, screw his pride.

He simply nodded.

"Well?"

Did he expect him to speak right there?

"Can we talk in private?" Kiyoi requested.

Akira eyed him at first but simply grunted "Follow me."

Kiyoi followed closely as the man led him to an office space.

It was a well light office, natural light streaming through, giving perfect illumination. A few stunning photographs hung on the wall.

He sat and motioned for Kiyoi to do the same.

"Well?" he prompted again.

Kiyoi reached for his bag.He could see Akira become that much more alert as he watched him reach inside.

He retrieved Hira's former camera and handed it to Akira.

"What's this?"

"Please take a look."

The man hesitantly retrieved the camera and began to view the images.One after the other, he silently viewed each picture before handing it back to Kiyoi.

"You said you wanted to see what Hira loves." Kiyoi put the camera back into his bag. He stood to his feet and bowed deeply. "I'm sorry for what happened." he remained like that for a good few moments. 

"Now I see it clearly." Akira leaned back in his chair, his fingertips forming a steeple under his chin. "Is he your boyfriend?" Kiyoi's heart was pounding in his chest.

"He is." he confirmed, his voice low, his head still bowed slightly.

"Well then I'm the one who should apologize." Kiyoi's head shot up. "I didn't know he was already in a relationship or I would not have come on that strong."

Kiyoi was a little shocked.

"Please." Akira indulged him "Sit."

Kiyoi complied.

"What?" there was a shadow of a smile on his face. "Did you think I was the dragon they all make me out to be?"

Kiyoi didn't respond.

"I do admit. When it comes to my work I can be a bit..difficult." he seemed slightly amused. "Some use different words but it's all the same to me." he shrugged. "It's rare for me to take a liking to someone as I have done with Hira but I still have my scruples. If I had known he wasn't single, I would have kept my affections to myself."

"I'm partly to blame for that." Kiyoi admitted.

"You're right." Akira couldn't resist teasing. "You said he was your friend. Even the day at the photoshoot. You practically pretended as though you didn't know each other."

There was nothing there for Kiyoi to deny.

"Please don't blame Hira for any of this." Kiyoi looked at Akira "It wasn't his fault."

Akira shrugged and nodded. 

"Hira is a talented photographer. What happened between us has nothing to do with his work.It won't be affected."

Kiyoi sighed in relief.

"So you came to apologize, not because you think you were wrong but for Hira's sake?" Akira asked.

Kiyoi nodded once.

"As a boyfriend you were well within your rights I suppose. You did find me in a very compromising position. Perhaps in my younger years I would have done the same."

Kiyoi looked at him. He didn't look that much older than they were.

"Still." he continued "You might encounter this kind of problem again." he cautioned. "I'm sure you do not need me to tell you that Hira is a very handsome and charming young man. He has a kind of magnetism."

Kiyoi nodded.

"I'm not exactly sure about the reason you wish to keep your relationship with him a secret but just know that as long as it is, you might have to deal with this again." He leaned back in his chair "Although, to be honest, even if people do know he's your boyfriend, they may still try to approach him. " He laughed, a surprisingly pleasant sound. "Sorry. I was trying to comfort you at first but I guess I failed."

The air between them wasn't as tense now that they finally seemed to understand each other.

"Right. So you and I are squared. " Akira stood. "I accept your apology and there are no hard feelings."

Kiyoi stood and bowed gratefully.

"Thank you."

"Don't worry. I will take good care of Hira for the remainder of his time with me."

Kiyoi eyed him and Akira smiled, a twinkle in his eye.

"I meant, I will try to keep those other eyes away when we work on site. I can make you no guarantees but I will tell them he's taken."

Kiyoi smiled and bowed again.

Leaving the studio, he headed back to the agency to meet with Tanaka....

On his way he retrieved his phone and texted.

[Hira.I hope you're having a good day]

He smiled to himself as he read the message and thought of the one he sent it to. For Hira he could do anything. There was no doubt in his heart how much he meant to Hira, beginning today he would show and continue to show much Hira meant to him with everything he had.

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fics i worked my absolute ass off (aka felt too much too many emotions, positive or negative, while writing it)

dabihawks (bnha) - words are easier said than done (angst, post-break up, post-war, dabi in tartarus)

akiharu (given) - whenever, wherever paradise (lepidopterist haruki/post man akihiko in a small town)

great pretender - kept emotions bursting out (makoto-centric, not laurent/ozaki/dorothy friendly, vent fic)

steddie (stranger things) - beautifully struggle everyday (my first MCD tagged fic holy f*ck, soulmate au)

hirakiyo (utsukushii kare) - lost in admiration for us (the main character is hira's kiyoi shrine, post-canon, aged up characters, practically married hirakiyo)

reblog and link the fanfic that you worked your absolute ass off on but not a lot of people read i’ll go first:

witcher fandom, lambert x aiden, 1920s rum runner and assassin au. entirely historically accurate.

[randofanficrecs]

All translations {Placed in brackets} done via Google translate, apologies for any inaccuracies.

Today's random fic rec is form the 美しい彼 | Utsukushii Kare | My Beautiful Man (TV) RPF fandom, 全世界我最喜欢你 {I love you the most in the whole world} by yuzu0807.

Chapters: 1/1 Words: 4,461 Fandom: 美しい彼 | Utsukushii Kare | My Beautiful Man (TV) RPF, 美丽的他 {beautiful him} Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: 平良一成 清居奏 {Taira Issei Kiyomizu} Language: Chinese-Mandarin Mandarin

[emotionallychargedtowel]

Utsukushii Kare S2E1 thoughts

I’ve never watched a BL that was still on the air, unless it was almost finished when I started. I just hate waiting between episodes, especially in a genre where episodes are often super short. But I can’t wait four weeks to see Utsukushii Kare season two (anyway, I’d get so many spoilers on here, it would be useless). I’ve also never posted about a BL episode by episode, since I never watched one that way. But I’m going to try doing it this time.

There is such a marked difference between season 2 and season 1. Season 1 was so packed with voice-over narration, but didn’t have that much dialogue. There’s still quite a bit of voice-over stuff in season 2 but the dialogue has increased by leaps and bounds. Since I was fascinated by the ways in which Hira’s and Kiyoi’s weirdnesses interacted with one another in the first season, all of this direct interaction gave me so much more to work with in my conceptualization of the characters. Not to mention so much more being communicated nonverbally.

There’s a sense in which the viewer gets to have their cake and eat it too with season 2, and that is that in many respects we get to enjoy Hira and Kiyoi finally being together, but they’re also still struggling with a lot of the same issues they did in season 1, so that engine that drove the story is still in operation. So far, if this season was a fanfic, it would be labeled as both “angst” and “fluff.” And fluffy angst is really enjoyable! From another angle, this combination is the worst of both worlds. Every sweet moment between these characters is suspended from this tenuous thread of their relationship. Both of them fear losing that relationship so intensely, despite the other wanting so badly to hold on, but it’s that very insecurity that threatens it the most. And it’s always in the background, undercutting all of cute stuff that would feel like rank fan service otherwise (heaven forbid!).

There were a few particular highlights for me.

1) Kiyoi’s new habit of giving Hira a significant look while opening his mouth, which is Hira’s cue to feed him. The fact that this happened on two different occasions in just one short episode? What a weird combination of demanding and endearing.

2) The scene where Kiyoi walks in on Hira being hit on by a girl. I particularly enjoyed this as a kabedon appreciator. She backs him into a door with one arm out in a very kabedon-like way (she doesn’t whack it, though), and then when Kiyoi arrives he does a full kabedon on Hira out of jealousy (but without the usual confession and/or kiss). There’s also an interesting role reversal happening here. And it’s a great illustration of how naive and dense Hira really is.

3) The exchange about “doing it.” This, to me, is a really good illustration of the lovable weirdness of these characters. Well, lovable to some of us. I expect that some people might find it off-putting or icky. It’s definitely not entirely healthy. It seems like the way things go in this scene is typical for them. Basically, intimacy happens when Kiyoi decides it will, and it’s just assumed that of course Hira will be down for it. It isn’t even presented as a question, more as an announcement: “we’re going to do it today.” Which isn’t the best consent practice ever, but it seemingly works because apparently (in a way that’s very consistent for the character), Hira really is always interested in “doing it” with Kiyoi. The fact that this only happens when Kiyoi chooses is also very consistent with his guardedness. But a more surprising aspect is Kiyoi’s shyness. He’s tentative, even bashful here. Not that he was ever portrayed as particularly assertive sexually, far from it, but he’s so assertive, even domineering, in other areas of his life, particularly with Hira, that this almost demure quality is really striking. In the end it seems these two deeply weird people have come up with a system that basically works for them and, particularly after all of the pining in season 1, it’s kind of adorable seeing them navigate it.

4) The acknowledgement that Hira is actually pretty attractive. One jarring thing about season 1 is that it’s often treated as a foregone conclusion that Hira is repulsive (possibly because we spend so much time inside his head) but Hagiwara Riku is, of course, quite nice-looking (even with Hira’s unflattering hairdo). It also doesn’t add up that Kiyoi would be so attracted to Hira if he was really as unappealing as he thinks. So it was nice to have that acknowledged and played around with in an interesting way.

Second seasons of BLs are inherently risky. And it’s still rather early to assume this one will avoid the potential risks. But so far I think it shows a lot of potential to be as worthwhile as the first season. Honestly, I could imagine liking it even more. I guess we’ll see.

[nongnaos]

QL WRAPPED 2023

Tagged by @morkofday thank you ❤️

(I absolutely meant to save this as a draft and accidentally posted instead so if everyone could pretend that didn't happen and we all had normal notifications, it would be nice, thank you 😐)

You watched 22 qls this year (and 11 from other years) that's about 130 hours! (Of content from 2023 only!)

(He's talking about my attempts at maths)

You primarily watched bls from Thailand (50%)

You spent way too much time thinking about these characters: Kiyoi Sou, Li Ming, and Mork. (My emo kings!! They're all a lil angsty and clearly my tastes have not developed since 2005. Am I moooore than you bargained for yet?)

(Obsessed, obsessed, chewing, biting, crying)

Your favorite show was Utsukushii Kare. You kept thinking about it all year. (This was THE hyperfixation for the first half of my year, but the fandom was so so small. I truly am so so in love with them and I wish more people watched them and understood them. Like I do. They're mine.)

Your overall bl mood was dramatic.

You read the most fanfiction about Utsukushii Kare. Like way too much. (According to my ao3, apparently. Good fic about them is so hard to find. Most fanfic I read this year has actually been about shows from 2021/2022)

Another of your favorites from this year was JokeZo. they captivated your gay little heart. (This show is a certified mess, but brought me a truly unexpected amount of comfort. Their chemistry was so so good and I loved Zo's storyline in particular. Love and communication and healing, what more could a 90's gay ask for?)

The soundtracks you listened to the most were [the entire About Youth soundtrack is in my spotify top tracks. But that drama is not from this year] Your World, My World (Our Skyy 2) and Better Days (Last Twilight). It made you feel really normal.

Your favorite acting pair was JimmySea. There was just something so mesmerizing about them... (breathing heavily in Last Twilight feelings)

Bonus shoutout to: ✨️her✨️

(Yes)

Here's to another year!!

Invite friends to share theirs: @airenyah , @icouldhyperfixatehim , and @justafriend-ql

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[yannig]

Nine people I want to get to know better

Tagged by @my-rose-tinted-glasses thank you dearest <3

Last song (or current one in this case): Lucky by MALINDA. We all love some queer folk music.

Also I've been listening to Lovers Always Lose by Boys Go To Jupiter on repeat for the last 3 days. And The Warmth by Paris Paloma.

Favourite Colour: green and blue and purple but also specifically this shade :

Currently Watching: Meet You At The Blossom (in case you missed it despite how much I'm posting about it), Love Sea (I'm having a different kinda blast but a blast nonetheless) and Takara No Vidro. Slowly going through Oppan and Only Friends too.

Last movie: I have no fucking idea, I forget what I watch and when. Dune 2 was definitely worth watching in theater but I don't understand what they did with Chani. We rewatched The Aristocats recently, still a great movie. Utsukushii Kare: Eternal is probably my actual latest watch. I had a blast with the whole series, upset I can't find more fanfics.

Currently Reading: mostly one-shot fanfics? I'm not reading anything long at the moment because I'm in the final push for my master thesis. Ask me again in 3 months.

Sweet, Spicy, or Savoury?: I guess savory then spicy then sweet, but let's be honest, the best are the mixes of two or the three of them.

Relationship:

Current Obsession: 10 different fandoms as usual, and how much rest I'll be able to get once I'm done with my Master thesis.

Last googled: in order, the last 3 things I googled (in the span of like 20 minutes) are The French and Mongolian Olympic uniforms, who owned the French streaming platform Molotov, and who Nimrod was.

Currently working on: my Master thesis, which needs to be done for August the 31th at the latest. It's progressing well but is also very very stressful.

no pressure tags: @fiepige @glitchyycatt @raylaismad @guzhufuren @ninyard @kimkhimhant

[hippielovinlife-blog]

Things that make me sad about being in a small fandom!!!

1. In a larger fandom someone would have already written a smuttastic fic about Kiyoi masturbating after Hira licked his finger with a beautiful stream of consciousness commentary on how much he hated himself because Hira didn't understand him.

2. In a larger fandom someone would have already written an ABO fic about how Hira always thought he was a Beta until he met Kiyoi and surprise! He's an alpha and how all his weird stalking behavior was him trying to figure out what these strange feelings were.

3. Ok, to sum it up. I have a lot of niche kinks and in a larger fandom someone who writes better than I do would have already presented us with a wonderful smorgasbord of content that I could settle down in.

I still love our little twisted family but if anyone wants to tackle the above ideas...go for it 😏and let me know please!!

[heretherebedork]

I'm just so starved for more utsukushi kare content. Idk where I'm going with this but I'm wondering if you make fanfics or something cuz I always see you around the tag and it's really insightful and interesting to see your takes on the show!

I might do a rewatch at some point.

But, honestly, I've never felt any urge to write fanfic for Utsukushii Kare. It's just so perfect. I write fanfic to fill in gaps or to fix mistakes or to add more of what I wanted.

I don't want more from Utsukushii Kare. I was given everything I wanted and there's just... nothing. Nothing I want from them besides what they gave me.

[lotus-blooming-amidst-the-dirt]

I'm crying over the lack of utsukushii kare fanfics in the fandom. If anyone has any fanfic ideas feel free to let me know and I'll try my best to write them :)

[sam-bl-lover]

Art by me from The Untamed Wangxian

I might post drawing on BL couple sketches and drawings.

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(The above cover is designed my me, please do not re-post anywhere.)

I write multi-fandom One Shots and Single books on BL couples. Follow me on Wattpad to read and request.

Username-@JeonLalisa2323

Name is Sam🌈

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I am on AO3 by the username-Paint_the_sky_18