#url goes hard btw lol

[abyssmarked]

* closed starter | @n1ghtwarden

nepharia isn't proud of herself for a lot of the choices she's made in the name of self preservation. she could have annihilated minthara at moonrise towers and no one would have batted an eye, and maybe minthara would have deserved it. but if the drow deserves it, then nepharia is no less guilty. she has no less innocent blood on her hands. and when their tadpoles connected their minds inside of those stone walls that night, nepharia almost instantly felt empathy for the drow. her mind was desperate, and she was afraid. that fear is something nepharia knows all too well, that will to survive, to become something stronger so nothing can ever fuck with you again.

at first, their alliance was mostly selfish on nepharia's part. sure, she empathized, but she also empathized with the tieflings from the grove and that didn't get them far. no, at first, the succubus saw minthara as a strong, bloodthirsty accessory, someone to keep around to help enhance her chances of survival. but there's something in the quiver of the drow's voice sometimes when she speaks, a touch of softness in her stern eyes when she actually manages a genuine smile -- something in the mystery of minthara that neph finds herself so drawn to. there's more to this warrior than meets the eye, and nepharia is curious to know what that might be. curious to know who she is. all of her greatest fears, her deepest desires, her hardest traumas.

curiosity about other people, wanting to learn them, caring about what happens to them : these are all foreign concepts to nepharia. the last time she let herself love someone, she ended up having to kill them. a pain so deep, so forever searing, that she would rather be another reclusive monster in the shadows, only emerging for another kill. the thing she's best at. astarion was the first person to start cracking away at that hard exterior. she used him at first as well, same as she used minthara. survival. she seduced him, to gain his trust. little did she know, he was doing the exact same thing. recently, they decided that neither of them wanted a lover in the other, but a friend. nepharia doesn't believe she's ever had a friend, not a real one. not until running across this bunch of tadpole infested freaks.

now, nepharia finds herself at minthara's tent where she's secluded herself away from the others at camp, unable to contend with the magnetism drawing her to the drow, like a moth to a flame. her tent always did glow the brightest. it's funny, in a way. nepharia is the succubus, yet she feels as though minthara has her under a charm spell : perhaps nepharia is desperate to feel something. to use her body as more than just a weapon. to connect with someone again. nepharia recalls the night her choices lead to innocents being murdered, by her own hand, no less. in that moment, she never could have imagined she would have felt the telepathic caress of minthara's sensual touch with any amount of pleasure. in this moment, she finds herself fantasizing about it. the craving to touch and to be touched and the sensation be genuine, not motivated by murderous intentions or the addictive nature of feeding off of a person's life-force, that mortal desire to be known intimately by someone -- it's all nepharia can think about right now.

' it's late, ' her voice is quiet, a hair above a whisper, clawed bare feet treading softly through the grass as she approaches the drow, clad in her usual camp attire : a black, leather bra, and skin tight pants made of the same material, ' i'm surprised you're still awake, but -- i'm also pleased. i couldn't sleep, ' she's realizing she has no idea how to begin a conversation with minthara, wondering how this can be so easy with prey yet so difficult with her, ' perhaps i could interest you in my company ? ' neph asks with a knowing smirk, knowing that the two of them haven't exactly gotten to know each other very well yet, and knowing that minthara can very easily turn down the offer, still she adds, ' i'm great at deception and playing a part, but you'll have to forgive me, i'm not proficient in just... socializing like a normal person, i'm afraid. but i want to. i want to talk with you. ' that might be the most intimate thing she's asked someone to do with her in a very long time.

[sushisocks]

DO U HAVE ANY ANGSTY SEAN HEADCANONS??? OR ANY AT ALL??

DO I HAVE ANGSTY SEAN HEADCANONS???!? Is my tumblr url sushisocks??? I'm including just a couple non-angsty ones that are v important to me bcz we're here to have fun, after all lolol

Lets start out with a light one; Sean absolutely has ADHD and dyslexia. Everybody knows Sean can't read, but nobody asks WHY Sean can't read despite frequent opportunities to learn. Based on the camp interactions with Lenny, we know he has been willing to attempt to learn, but has given up. This reads a lot more like learning disability to me, than it does laziness!!

In a similar vein; Sean taking frequent naps/falling asleep a lot is because he's a light sleeper - he has had a hard time falling asleep and staying that way ever since his father got murdered in his bed by the law. Left an impression Sean can't really shake even when surrounded by friends and allies - it's easier to nap when it's light out and people are awake in the area. Combine that with the ADHD and suddenly he's sleeping when he's not supposed to - like on guard duty.

Btw Sean has REAL BAD nightmares so that doesn't help at ALL either

Sean's mom probably passed when he was very young - he doesn't have any tangible memories of her in the same way he does his dad. Telling stories about him is how Sean keeps the only real family he had alive.

SIMILARLY I imagine it was just the two of them fleeing to America together; Sean was right there when Darragh got killed in his sleep - I imagine him waking up to a gunshot tbh.

In previous posts I've talked some about Sean's parallels and similarities to Arthur. Consider; Sean having similar self-esteem issues as Arthur, but instead of being quiet and disparaging about it, Sean covers it up by boasting and talking a big game. Nobody tries to talk Sean up because they all think he has a big ego, and it sort of just feeds into the insecurities Sean already has & is trying to avoid thinking about.

Also; Sean is generally an open book about his feelings, but he struggles a LOT with being truly vulnerable or getting at the deeper stuff. He'll also always downplay and make a joke out of truly traumatic and desperate situations he's been in. Though he DOES tell you what happened, he's chuckling and acting like it's nothing. (This isn't even a headcanon, he actually does this very consistently. It's why Karen is so mad at him in that one camp interaction after the party lol)

The only times Sean feels comfortable not being The Camp Clown is when Dutch isn't around, with a limited amount of people to witness. He still feels weird about the fact that he did actually try to kill him, when they first met, like he actually pulled the trigger (I feel like people are prone to forget this abt him), and he's never sure if Dutch might resent or distrust him a little for it. Same goes for Hosea.

A MacSummers one I came up w on discord literally yesterday; Sean has a Claddagh ring heirloom he got from his late mother through his late father. He gifts it to Lenny at some point, who doesn't realize the symbolism, just the sentimental value. Lenny wears it on a chain around his neck.

The previous one could work for MacJones too but tbh I think it hits harder for MacSummers lol (im biased)

Sean blocked out a lot of what he experienced while holed up at Ike Skelding's; the teethpulling and the burned feet were probably some of the lighter things he had to endure.

Sidenote the fact that his feet were fucking burned being as brushed off as it is makes me fucking insane. How bad were they burned Sean? Are you in pain atm? Should you be walking?

[lover-of-mine]

Anna, hi!

i'm not sure what questions are appropriate here, but i'll ask anyway: what are your top 10 buddie-coded songs? 👀

btw, love your edits and fics 💘

Hi, baby! First of all, thank you 💜

But I will be honest with you, my musical taste is very limited oaksaoksassk and I have the tendency of finding a way to make something about buddie anyway, so like, I don't really know oisaksokassoks i would say any song I made a video on could work, you can check them all out here or on my youtube.

That all being said, Cupid by Xana, most buddie song to ever buddie song and I take no criticism on that one lol I made a video with it that I kinda wanna remake depending on how the season goes, but I guess it depends on the vibes? I have extreme pining eddie songs (babyblue by Xana, most pining Eddie song ever), divorced era songs, I legit made a trauma compilation to 11 minutes by yungblud because I loved the "I've seen you in my head every fucking day since I left, you're on the floor with your hands around your head" applied to the shooting and it escalated, lover of mine by 5sos (also happens to be the song from my url) but I think works, I saw a INCREDIBLE best years by 5sos set yesterday that made me see how buddie coded that song can be, but I think that with the way I tend to paint them as a tragedy, it's more vibes than anything? Like, I have been fighting with a video to youth but daughter for months, because while I feel like the song has the correct vibes, I can't seem to make it work with actual scenes, I found this song again yesterday but Matchbox by Ashley Kutcher, I can see that song from Buck's eyes to Eddie so clearly is kinda crazy, it's not like I'm in love with you by Lauren Weintraub for more pining Eddie lol, dancing with our hands tied by Taylor Swift just because of the "I'm a mess but I'm the mess that you wanted" but like, I'm all over the place when it comes to music and at this point, I think I can make anything about buddie if I try hard enough lol I will add my caramel by 5sos video here to give you 10 songs aoskasooksodksd but this is all I can think about right now

[haikyupid]

Order from Lunatrix B,

Hey there! First of all THIS IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA! I can only imagine the time and dedication it took you to think this through and make the orders! (Also I am lowkey so shy doing it off anon like AAAAH) May I please order a Dalgona Matchup Latte? (If it's possible to go with more than one drink then it would be nice to have the Strawberry hearts frappineccino as well!)

So I am an ENFP capricorn and my enneagram is 7w8! My behaviour with other really depends on my mood and on their personalities so other's image of me goes from "wow she is so friendly" to "wtf she is so conceited and manipulative". But most of the time people describe me as crazy, outgoing and bubbly! Since my height is on the shorter side and my cheeks are always red and freckly, I look younger and more innocent than I actually am.

I'm adaptable, super spontaneous and hate overthinking stuff. Also I am shortsighted lol but I don't really like wearing my glasses in public, they make me look so serious and studious when LOL no. I don't really care now but when I was younger I hated the 'honor student' label it gave me. I am a TROLL, super sarcastic and my sense of humor is hard to understand for some people since it's super ironic and kinda dark sometimes.

I have many hobbies and love learning new skills but the most important ones to me are definitely drawing/painting, cooking/baking, piano, reading, acting, swimming, travelling and learning new languages (I am fluent in 5 and learning 2 more). I used to be super passionate about martial arts and reached a black belt but had to stop due to health issues 😭. I'm ambitious, mischievious and cunning. I laugh super easily and smile a lot! I laugh at really inapropriate times, and since I don't cry easily my friends and family call me insensitive oupsii.

I have a super flirty personality but since I do it unknowingly or ironically sometimes, when people take it seriously I freak out and run away. I am hella oblivious to people flirting with me though like even if I notice I go nah there is no way they are serious, so when cute guys confront me about it and say it straight out all my confidence crumbles I BECOME SO SHY and speak in tiny font (and deny it like haha wow you're funny).

 I am really honest about my 'positive feelings', like I compliment people a lot and am the type of person to text others saying that I am happy to have them in my life, that I had a great time hanging out, etc. But I SUCK with my negative feelings?! Like I just ignore them and never voice them out. Friends and family sometimes blame me saying that since I never confide they feel like I put a wall between us and that our relationship is kinda unequal since they tell me everything (I am a really good listener) but I really don't do it on purpose... I kind of feel obligated to be the 'strong' one who does not really feel anything...

I am sorry this is so long, thank you for taking the time to read it! Good luck for all your other orders i'm sute you'll do great!)

Thanks a lot for sending in your order here at Kyupid's Love Shop. One Dalgona Matchup Latte coming right up!....... where’d the side effec— oh, here it is! I matcha with ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥

➞ this relationship thrives on the fact that you’ll both feel like you’re on top of the world when together; but honestly though, boring is not a part of this couple’s vocabulary like whew— (lemme be a part of this, ples, like i’ll third wheel)

➞ don’t get me wrong, it doesn’t mean that you and nishi are immature (it’s actually quite the contrary) it’s just that you both don’t feel that societal pressure that most do, you’re both just so free and that’s not something the majority of the population can afford

➞ so to say that you’re both beyond lucky to have found each other is a huge understatement; this be the type of relationship that iconic romance anime movies are based off on 

➞ nishi will be the first one to make a move for sure, like bby did not even hesitate for a second — i want it, i’m gonna try to get it typa man

➞ it won’t even matter if you push him away or if he has to court you for a year or so, he’ll only stop if you actually say that you’re not interested but i mean WHO in the world would reject him?! 

➞ your looks will definitely remind him of a tropical paradise he’s visited, which is what he feels whenever he’s around you, so best believe this man won’t let his walking paradise go; he’ll probably also call you his lil’ firework

➞ he values the fact that you both can view the world the same, but if there’s a difference in your viewpoints, it doesn’t lead to arguments like most do, but instead having each side doing their best to understand one another — nishi is the type to be very open-minded and always fights for what’s right, i also get that vibe from you

➞ nishi is up for anything; so when he found out about your abundance of hobbies, he will bombard you with questions about them, your advice to get the hang of them, and always asking if he’s doing them right 

“look babe, i tried to draw something for you!”

“aww, yuu, this cow looks so cute.” 

“.......”

“...it’s a baby bear, but thank you so much, baby, it’s definitely an improvement from the last one. i love you!”

➞ he has a very innocent type of humour... maybe sometimes perverted, but that’s not the point— so if he does find one of your jokes to be too dark, he will ask if you’re okay, but he definitely won’t be like ‘wtf is wrong with this betch?’

➞ you two would always be traveling whenever your schedules allow you two; and you guys would always be learning something new! surfing, atv riding, bungee jumping, hunting, fishing (durh), learning some catch phrases in the place’s native language, cooking their national dishes, and so so much more

➞ with nishi, there’s never a time where you’ll be bored, everything will just be perfect when you’re with him; literally you’ll both be the couple who probably doesn’t even plan their days unless it’s like something so important

➞ ‘there are some flowers you only see when you take detours’ type of life motto/vibes

➞ oh, and you always complimenting him and telling him how much he means to you? mans could die from to much heart palpitations... uwu, just pure uwus

➞ he’s not very romantic all the time, so most of the compliments he’ll be giving you will be like:

“baby, you’re way cuter than this. you’re the most beautiful person i’ve ever laid my eyes on. you’re perfect!”

“...but you’re holding a fish i— y’know what, thank you... now can you throw it back in the water, please?”

➞ loves, and when i say loves i really mean it, when you wear your glasses, but he definitely will be cheeky and say, ‘oh, sorry, i didn’t know this was the library. i was looking for my very beautiful girlfriend... oh, that’s you? well you look a lil’ too gorgeous to be her’ but foreal, pls wear you glasses more often, he literally melts when you do

➞ he’s always telling you that he loves you; and when he’s in another country, expect photos and vids from him that look like those tinder fish-boys (idek if this’ll make sense to you) but he has the most beautiful smile a man could ever have and such a sincere paragraph of how much he misses and loves you to follow along with it, that it doesn’t even matter anymore that he looks like a dad

➞ a relationship that make the people around you, whether they’re strangers or not, go ‘they’re the main characters’ — to them you two were in your own beautiful world, and no one would ever dare to interfere with a love so magical and true

Kyupid hopes that you enjoyed your Dalgona Matchup Latte! Here’s the view from the top of the world with your out-of-this-world relationship with Nishinoya Yuu: he always does things that end up turning you as red as a tomato, but he doesn’t even intend to, mans is just naturally smooth... so you either malfunction or just straight up push him away; when he wants you to listen to his 3 AM thoughts/honestly just some weird shet he probably does all the time with you; when he tries to make you talk about how you’re feeling when he knows your ‘i’m fine’ reply is a straight up lie; and when he finally comes back from one of his trips around the world, just wanting you to be safe in his arms again.

Thanks very much for ordering — Kyupid hopes to see your cuteself again at the shop in the future! Have a magic-filled day ⁀➷

an: henlo, i hope you didn’t mind too much that i bombarded your dm’s with questions 😅 thank you so much for being patient with me!

i didn’t know what to do about the url thing, so this was what i resorted to in a short amount of time, i hope that’s okay with you. i almost lost your submission twice, huhu. also, is the gif working??? tumblr’s being a bitch again, so idk if it’s working and i’m freakin out.

btw, now i can’t stop being jelly over this ship like— this is too cute and i feel like this kind of relationship only exists in movies 😔

[frenchibi]

you bring me home

(another fic? yeah. more on my ao3 too btw; same url)

2k ineffable husbands wedding fluff fic, you’re welcome lol - full fic under the cut!

~~~

It’s 45 minutes away, and Crowley cannot stop his hands from fidgeting.

He’s abandoned the mirror – stupid thing was making him feel antsier by the minute, messing with his hair and conjuring imaginary wrinkles and stains on his clothes from the corner of his eye, definitely not productive. So he’s turned away – but that’s left him with no other options than to pace, and fidget, and worry.

Today’s not meant to be for worrying.

He’s not even really sure why, and that’s what’s most annoying, really. Today has been six thousand years in the making, and objectively he’s never been surer about anything.

He didn’t think he was prone to pre-emptive nerves (there’s a benefit to taking life as it comes, to winging it, to not thinking too much about plans for the future that go beyond “dinner, tomorrow night?”) – but then again, he’s no stranger to anxiety.

Christ’s sake, this isn’t a trial he’s facing, after all.

He wishes he wasn’t so fucking stressed.

He tugs his tie loose, then refastens it. Tugs it loose again – it feels weird, being so done-up. There’s too much gel in his fucking hair, isn’t there? And fuck, he’ll have to take off his sunglasses, won’t he? Shit.

He’s never felt so woefully unprepared and yet so ready for something at the same time. It’s strange and unpleasant and he wants to throw something at the nearest wall and maybe scream for fifteen minutes.

He does neither of those things, though he does aim a half-hearted kick at the foot of the mirror.

The room seems to shrink and contract around him, too-small and cramped and stifling. Fucking hell. The last time he’d felt this bad, he’d changed into a snake before he’d even finished the thought, and hid in Aziraphale’s sock drawer for a week.

Can’t very well do that now. 43 minutes. Shit.

If he were a snake right now, he’d curl up in some tiny, tiny space and sleep until he forgot what was giving him such panic, such endless energy and restlessness.

He’s never been good at pacing.

In an impulse decision, he throws open the door. Fuck this.

The corridor beyond is empty, thank Someone, and Crowley is moving without any destination in mind except the one he’ll always, inevitably end up at, no matter how far he goes. Circling back like a planet, like a satellite.

He almost forgets to knock, but catches himself at the last minute, remembering the time, the place, the day. His stomach flips.

“Yes?”

Even just that voice, just that tiny word, and the world feels like it will be okay.

“Angel,” Crowley says, and shit, his voice is doing the exposing thing, the vulnerability thing, “can I- can I come in?”

There’s a beat of silence, only a beat, and all of Crowley’s fears live in that tiny moment, expanding, swallowing everything.

Then: “I don’t believe you’re quite supposed to – but alright.”

Crowley hesitates, with his heart in his throat and his knees about to buckle.

“A-are you sure? I know this matters to you, angel, I just-“

The door opens. Tiny miracles.

Crowley clamps his mouth shut and walks inside.

“Close it behind you, would you, dear?”

Aziraphale is standing at the far end of the room, facing a mirror not unlike the one Crowley just fled from. He’s in a suit (not unheard of), but a black suit, which, although they’d discussed this before – seeing it is something else entirely. He’s got a cream-colored tie, one Crowley knows matches his own suit, and he’s fussing with it.

He gives Crowley a look through the mirror, a brief glance, a glance away – and then he turns to take him in properly.

There’s weight in his gaze, and a part of Crowley regrets that this moment isn’t occurring in 42 minutes and in a different room – but a much larger part is overcome with potential relief from the ever-present strum of nerves, and that feels more important. And selfish. But the longer he’d pictured not reaching out to the only person who helped, the worse he’d felt, exponentially.

A small frown crosses Aziraphale’s face – he knows. He always, always knows.

Crowley steps forward with a slight shake of his head, just so, and reaches for the tie. Fusses now, too. Loosens it up. Tightens it. Miracles a bowtie, then changes it back. His hands are shaking.

“Oh, darling,” Aziraphale says, and it’s soft, and the warmth in his voice could melt even the hardest of hearts.

“Just,” Crowley says, but no other words want to leave, they’d rather stay and constrict his windpipe and bring tears to the corners of his eyes.

He knows what he needs – and either Aziraphale really is a telepath, or he just knows, somehow, as well. Knows from the years upon years upon years he’s been carrying Crowley through panic attacks, been shielding him when no one else would have ever thought he’d need it, protecting him, holding him-

Aziraphale steps closer, and his arms come up and Crowley falls, because this is the only place he can let it go, let everything go and just breathe.

There’s a familiar scent, a familiar embrace, a comfort, and a slowly-calming heart. A shaky breath, and another, and another, until the path is clear again.

Aziraphale has pulled him close, supporting his weight, holding him up. His hands are warm and gentle, and he catches all the fear, the jitters, the doubt, like it’s nothing. Holds.

“M’sorry, angel,” Crowley breathes, into the space where his head is tucked, against Aziraphale’s shoulder. “Ruined the surprise.”

“Nonsense,” is the reply he gets, and another squeeze. “You needed something else today. I’m glad you came to find me.”

He’s said things before to that same effect – thank you for trusting, thank you for reaching out. Little reminders that it’s not a one-sided thing, even if Crowley always feels like he’s the burden. That it’s okay to want, it’s okay to need, and it’s okay to voice the need that isn’t being met. That he won’t be judged, or shunned, or cast away. Aziraphale would never.

It’s a process. And this is a big day. The biggest.

A tiny confession, massive in size: “Christ, I’m bloody terrified.”

Aziraphale pulls back, just enough to see his face. His voice is soft. “Terrified of what?”

Crowley shakes his head. How does one even answer that?

“…nothing. Everything. I- I don’t know.”

Aziraphale takes hold of his hands, coaxes him over to the red-velvet couch. Tacky. Terrible. But it takes the weight off his ever-shaky knees. His eyes dart around the room, like they’re afraid of what they’ll find. Don’t look at the concern, don’t look it in the eye. But he can’t help it.

“Afraid of… someone interfering?” the angel asks, quietly.

Crowley shrugs. “Maybe. No. I don’t… no.” They’ve given them no reason to. That part of their lives is over. It should be, for a long time. It should be.

“So then… afraid of embarrassing yourself, dear?” A bit of a teasing tone, and Crowley feels his burden lift when he sees the soft, fond smile. “I promise I won’t hold it against you if you trip. Though I can’t guarantee I won’t be laughing.”

He wants to laugh, too, but all his body does is huff, still so strung with nerves.

Aziraphale is still holding his hands, tugging them just a little bit closer. “…not that, either, is it? Darling, are you…” He swallows, like it’s taking effort, and there’s a shadow on his face, “are you having second thoughts? I just- I want you to know that that’s alright, if that’s it. If you need more time, we can-”

Crowley shakes his head with much haste and vigor; “No, angel, God no-”

He pulls Aziraphale’s hands into his own lap, twists the small vine-y ring on his pinkie, holds them close. “I’m. I’ve always been sure about you. I just. I’m so- Fuck, I’m so terrified, that like. We do this, and then one day you’ll wake up and you’re chained to me and I’m the burden you carry for the rest of your life, I- are you sure? Angel, you could have the world, are you- do you really want-”

Even as he says it, it feels like an injustice, for him to doubt like this, for him to hurt like this, even though the angel’s shown him nothing but kindness. It’s giant and looming and it’s all that he can see, despite all the light his angel brings. And that’s it, isn’t it, the fear? That his own darkness will always overpower that light.

Aziraphale is shaking his head, and oh, oh no, he’s made him cry, he’s made the angel cry-

“Crowley, Crowley, love- don’t you even dare suggest- I’ve been alive for six thousand years and nobody, nobody completes me like you do. Nobody has seen every aspect of me, and chosen to hold them in love. I have never, not ever, not even for a second- no, Crowley, look at me. Please, I need you to understand. I’ve never- never ever wanted anyone but you.”

Angels don’t lie, just like demons don’t love. Crowley knows they both can - there’s enough human in both of them, shining through the cracks, but Aziraphale wouldn’t, not about this. He radiates concern, and truth, and love, oh, so much love.

This isn’t a lie, because he taste the truth of it on the air, feel it in every crevice of his being.

“I’m sorry,” and his voice, it breaks, like tiny splinters tearing through icebergs, “angel, I know, and God, I’m so sorry-” But the angel catches him again.

“None of that,” Aziraphale says, “that is quite enough. You never have to apologize for feeling overwhelmed. My dear, that’s what I’m here for. And if you forget, or you’re afraid it’s stopped being the truth, just ask me, and I’ll tell it to you again. As many times as you need to hear it.”

Crowley ducks his head; it’s still hard to be seen like this, to be loved like this, so completely, so openly. Aziraphale, as ever, knows. He opens his arms again, pulls him in, tucks him into his shoulder. Crowley remembers to breathe.

He’s not sure how long they just sit, and breathe, and hold. Long enough for apprehension to be sucked away, and slowly creep back in – they can’t be late, not for this.

Crowley shifts, slow, reluctant. “…angel? Do you… what time is it?”

Aziraphale pulls back, equally reluctant. “Just about time to go, I’d expect. Do you feel ready?” Something in his voice says that it doesn’t matter. That he’ll slow time and stop for as long as Crowley needs.

Crowley grimaces, but his humor is returning, slowly, slowly. “Ready as I’ll ever be. Always was, really.”

The angel tuts, but it’s not offended, not really. “I think excitement is rather appropriate, don’t you? That’s the prevalent feeling, in good ceremonies, or so I’ve read.”

“…these ceremonies are usually for humans,” Crowley says, “we don’t need to conform. Though I guess you’re right about excitement. It’s… a commitment. A- a promise. That is exciting.”

Aziraphale beams. “Well, there you go.”

He pulls himself to his feet, extending a hand to Crowley as he does so. “Shall we break with tradition, and walk down together?”

Crowley thinks of the plan, thinks of the different ideas they’d has as to who would be waiting (he’d always been waiting) and who would take the walk (always toward one another, no matter where they’re coming from). Thinks how it could go both ways and make absolute ineffable sense.

“Yeah. Yeah, I do think we should.”

It feels fitting, poetic. Their own side, as always. Their way. He links their hands, and lets his angel pull him to his feet.

~

“I’m going to cry,” Aziraphale tells him, before the doors are opened. “Just- just warning you. I will. I seem to be incessantly emotional today.”

Crowley turns to face him, through his own watery eyes. “Bet I’ll beat you to it.”

And he does.

~~~

(Thank you for reading, give me a shout if you liked it!! & maybe consider reblogging to support a new writer in the fandom :D)

[minty-minmin]

Tagged by @minluvly thank you for tagging me btw😌

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Name:

Jen or Jennifer

Birthday:

July 1997 which makes me 22🙃

Fun fact:

i speak 5 languages lol

Another fun fact:

i dont know lol I'm boring

Zodiac Sign:

Cancer🙃 but no, I'm not an emotional person, I'm not a crybaby( i actually rarely cry) so please don't compare me with the stereotypical cancer sign🗿heard that too many times already and honestly it's just a zodiac sign so yeah mOviNg oN

Height:

5'4 or 164 cm

Hobbies:

Drawing(make art in general), learning languages, write songs, sing, take photos,film videos and edit them, film short movies,collect old cameras and write stories.

Fave Book:

This is hard, i don't read as much anymore because i have so many other things to do😪 and tbh i barely fit all of it into one day, but I'd say the Art book Starry night- Van Gogh at the Asylum by Martin Bailey. It's very interesting and discusses the life of the painter Van Gogh who was living in two different Asylums and also goes into detail with the relationship with his brother and his paintings etc. lol ok anyways

Last Song I listened to:

Who by Lauv and Jikook, the song is a masterpiece

Last Film I watched

Public Enemies

Inspiration for me:

Art (Van Gogh and Monet), my dad..especially as a musician (but also my whole family) and bts

Dream Job:

Being able to do what i love would be the perfect job 😂so like draw, design, draw concept art etc (also where i can earn enough money for me and my family obv)

Meaning behind URL:

i dont really know🤔 i just chose Min because of my U bias Yoongi and yeah then this popped up lmao

Here’s 8 people I wanna get to know:

@coffeeismylife28 @backtonormalthings @evelynisfat @jaiuneamesolitaiire @aspaceformyself @copenhagenspirit @worshiphoseok @kwonnansi

[atmymercy]

hellooooooo tea! (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧ how are youuuuu? it took me a long time again to reply to you because i had a lot of things going on in my world (especially internally) but now i am in a better space to give feedback! sooooo, you did two readings for me and the first one was about the upcoming school year. i actually just got back this week in school and we finished our orientation! i am relieved with the things you have said in the reading because to be honest, i have gone through loooooots of stuff when it comes to healing my wounds connected to school. i'm glad that it's paying off and you mentioning that there is a new confident me definitely resonates! i am starting to see bits of it already! i wouldn't be honest if i say that i feel scared a bit when it comes to the tower card, but i believe that i can get through it no matter what!

as for the second reading about my fs, THERE GOES THE SURPRISED PIKACHU FACE AGAIN!! i don't have a water placement in my big three but my cancer mars placement reaaaaaally influence me a lot. (i'm quite a crybaby myself but there's nothing bad about that because it's all about the ✨release✨) and it's also interesting that queen of cups came up again in this second reading. it's not a card that i identify with nor i feel like i have the energy of BUT you know, upon thinking about it, my child self has some sort of that energy that i feel like i am feeling the need to come back home to. and omg if this is the hidden thing from the previous read, that they are coming in fast- (ಥ﹏ಥ) aaaaaaaaa i hope they are. <3

btw, you mentioned calling me with my new URL! it's fine with me if you stick with freda since lokia is just a name i use in games that i play. ALSOOO omg i don't know if you will be interested in this one but while typing my reply to you, i am listening to 'Uta Song' from Bubble and idk if you wanna try listening to it 🤍

hello freda!

omg don't even worry about the time! i'm never going to be someone who will rush you! especially since i had a feeling you've been working hard, especially on yourself and my goodness, good for you! to look into the mirror and reflect on yourself internally is one of the hardest yet most satisfying things you can do! keep it up!

i feel like a proud momma bird, watching you become your confident self! even the way you write now has a more driven tone to it! i love it, my little blossoming friend!

and remember you have gone through many tower moments before, so what's another? if anything, it's nice that spirit gave you a heads up this time! lol

ooh cancer mars! that must be fun! lol honestly i think people need to be more open about being a crybaby! so am i! it's not something we can control so honestly just let those tears slide down your cheeks! crying has such a huge stigma when it's literally one of the things that make us human! lol we all need that crying release!

hmm maybe the queen of cups is someone you become? i know i get certain cards like queen of cups or high priestess and while i know that i'm not always a high priestess, spirit wants to show you who you can become! like the truest sense of you is that queen!

freda it is then! and i'm listening to it now! i love how mellow it is and yet it gets your head moving. thanks for the listen! i'm bad for just putting on my usual song mix and i love having new songs to add!

love & light!

-tea

[shirotanis]

ok so i was looking forward to doing this and i’m glad it is done eventually ! to make long words short, i recently hit a great follower goal and the number keeps increasing and i’m ??? bc its weird but i’m thankful to everyone following me nonetheless💕💕💕 i’ve had this blog for a month and something but i’ve met a lot of wonderful people whom i grew to love and care for!!!!! some i havent interacted as much as others but i hope to get to know you all in the near future 💖💖💖  

if your url is bold go take a look at the very end where it says ‘read more’ bc there’s a few words for you 💖💕💞💓💖💓💞💓

also i’m pretty sure i have more mutuals but they are sideblogs and idk whats their main to check if they follow me or not but pls know that i didnt forget or that i didnt want to include you!!!!

#: 

@4fnc // @4zammy 

a-g:

@cryogonal-jonghyun // @daypjh // @dojooned // @dojooon // @dowoonhtml // @from-roses-to-dojoon // 

h-j:

@howcaniwait // @ijustcantlie // @iwooseong // @jaeheyong //

k-r:

@lipstick-chathao // @mirinae-x // @rxsewoosung

s-z:

@saekkisongarak // @sangdoldol // @savageday6 // @shelovesjinyoung // @smolpil // @softwoonie // @tasteless-ratatouille // @tennisanon // @thedarksideofthewoon // @thedaysix // @ttherose // @theroseofficial // @wattela // @wonpixel // @woosung-is-my-aesthetic // @woosungs-blackrose // @woosammv // @younghyuuns // @youngks-smile 

@4fnc: oK GIA MY LOVE!!!!! i have sO much to say about you my best absolute perfect !!!! ok first of all we’ve been friends for like, 3 years??? this is the longest friendship i’ve had and it started out so weird like? i was a bts blog and you were an exo blog aND THEN I BECAME AN EXO BLOG AND YOU BECAME A BTS BLOG but over the years, we grew to stan other groups, i parkoured more than you and i admit ;;;;;;  ok but i still remember your most legendary post “my mom bought me cock heck yea - wAIT NO I MEANT COKE NOT COCK WHY WOULD MY MOM BUY ME COCK” and i’ll never let it die. you are such a beautiful person inside out i would have never thought i deserve you but !!! we’ve been together for so long and i hope we meet someday bc honestly? i wanna h*g you so much its a lil gross but,,, you mean so much to me honestly ok i’ll stop now i didnt even say everything i wanted to but i’ll keep that for another time ;)) i love our late night conversations about ??? whatever from memes to long appreciation hours about our faves to personal stuff its just so exhilarating to talk to you ily always gia 💞💞💞💞

@daypjh: oh oh oh my heart is turning into a puddle of joeliness rn thats how soft i am for you :(((((( honestly we have been talking for a few days but i feel like we’ve been friends for years??? when we started talking i was taken aback bc 1) shIT jo noticed me ok gotta act cool 2) it was So comfortable and So smooth and i had so much fun my fist conversations with people tend to be a little awkward and i’m always anxious but with you ??? i was so chill for some reason!!!! also you are the purest jae stan? the softest of them all and i know how much he means to you but you are a lil ho for the rest of day6 too i’m laughing you go all out with your trashiness;; i would have never thought i’d find someone with whom i share so many interests but here we are!! i’m so happy we started talking because i realised i was missing out on some gr8 stuff 👌👌 you are so funny our conversations never fail to make me smile whenever i feel down…i still wanna get to know you more tho but on another note i hope you stay happy !!!!! you deserve everything good i love you pls remember💓💞💓  

@howcaniwait: my fave charcoal 💞 i know we havent interacted that much but i consider you a friend, more than a mutual. you are so cute and funny too also youre so talented when it come to photography like ?? pure goals not even exaggerating!!! you love bri and sammy so much it makes my heart jump a lil :’’’) you also helped me with that friend issue when you didnt have to and i’m still thankful bc it helped me~ btw the way you interact with every single follower of yours is such goals yall like family asdjgldhs cute ;-; lets get to know each other more soon💖💖💖  

also a meme that is a very relative

@ijustcantlie: alice!!!!!!!! one of my fave blackroses 💓💓 i don’t have a lot to say about you bc i don’t know you well yet bUt i want to!!!! anyways your edits are so great they always leave me speechless i wish i had them skills tbh :

@rxsewoosung: hello dora 💕💕💕 in actuallity, he have exchanged a few asks only and thats about it but (though i wish we talk more one day)!!! you are so cute tbh i havent seen you around in a while but that’s bc the rose is kind of dead atm but as i was stalking your blog i realised how adorable you are!!!!you love the boys dearly and i cannot express how happy that makes me also you say i’m your fave woosung stan and that my blog contains a+++ content but same goes for you ;) woosung would be so happy to know such a nice person likes him so much plus your gifs are most pretty in my opinion i aspire to be like you💕 

@thedaysix: MY FAVE DAY6 BLOG HANDS DOWN!!!! bethany ily so much not to be that person but i would have never thought YOU out of ALL day6 blogs would follow me i probably cried a lil on the inside when i saw you had followed me and liked some of my stuff as well askflghlsd ok so basically i have said it before i think but i love and appreciate you so much ik i’m repeating myself lol but you are one of the funniest ppl i follow and your tags are the cutest shit they make me xtra soft 😭😭😭 btw callie is the cutest cat i wish i could cuddle the floof sighs 💓💓

@ttherose: The Blackrose Mom aka Olivia 💞💞💞 I can’t express my appreciation enough tbh ??? without you i doubt we’d exist on tumblr and i’m not even joking!!! i used to be intimidated by you because you are the mvp of the fandom but talking to you in the group chat i???wow you are so interesting and hilarious plus i love how you ALWAYS do your best to update us with everything the rose related and make memes at the same time i’m laughing thats the definition of dedication so i wanna say a big thank you for your hard work bc other fandoms lack what we have (a mom; i mean you) 💞

@woosung-is-my-aesthetic: OH HI FAKE SNAKE JANA oops i mean uuugggh lettuce :))) tbh i thought you were one of those chill stans when i followed you but karma is a bitch i guess bc you are pretty wildt and i like em wildt ;)))) oK I THINK you are one of the most precious ppl i wanna protect with all my heart :(( i love every single meme you send and everything you say is hilarious in one way or another also ??? you are a little trashy prince for shinee and you know i love that about you plus i appreciate the mysme dose on my dash thanks to you my trashy ass wants to download the game for the 4th time :/ one thing i love about you is the mom mode you always like “whO DO I NEED TO FIGHT WHO HURT YOU MY CHILDREN” and that makes my heart blast into outer space and make a colony on mars askflghslahs i’m 2 soft 4 you always thanks for all the help i appreciate it, really!!! and no matter what you do or say i’ll never consider you ‘dark’ you are a lil kitty in need of affection uwu 💖💖 and i’ll only eat pineapple pizza for you but i know i’ll regret it :

@woosammv: 🗣️🗣️🗣️ THE CUTEST BROSE 🗣️🗣️🗣️ julia…you is that one person who is above the rest… like all the other normies are trash for the rose but you are the landfill and that makes you special aslgjhhlshaldhs ok but honestly you are such a great person, always making flawless gifs and keeping the fandom well fed sadly i dont have a lot to say bc we havent really talked but i hope we do soon but just so you know, ily and your blog  💕💕💕

[hwiyyoung]

THIS IS SO LATE but I have about 1.1k followers right now and I’m just ???? ???? literally overwhelmed ahhhhh - to everyone: thank you all so much; these past 3.5 months on tumblr have been so fun and everyone i’ve interacted with has been so supportive and amazing. for all of you who have followed me, liked/reblogged my posts, or just even looked at my content - thank you so much. I love you. ♡

this blog is such a multifandom trashbin and whether you followed me because of sf9 or any other of the 230948329950 groups I post about, just know that YOU’RE AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU and I do notice followers that regularly like/reblog my stuff and scream in the tags :’) you guys are the best and if you ever want to talk I’m always here for you.

this is going to be super long (sorry about that) but I’m starting off with personal love letters:

@051db ASH DID YOU KNOW THAT I CONSIDER YOU MY FIRST TUMBLR FRIEND EVER??? you were the first one to reblog my things and put my name in your tags and it just made me SO HAPPY that you took the time to find my name and associate with my url and basically I LOVE YOU. i also love love love your blog so much and i check up on it every so often and the aesthetic always makes me so happy to see ♡ anyway I always get super happy when I see your url or your name in the gc asldkjdg;l I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH AHHH

@velvetjjks KRYS ! ! ! ! you were also one my first ever tumblr friends and i want to thank you for being an amazing admin for fantasy9network and fantasy9nation!!! i know you're a smol bean but you've accomplished so much and i love you so so so much! i love your love for jungkook and basically all your posts make me super happy whenever I see them (which isn’t that frequently because time zones rip).  i hope you're always healthy and happy and that sf9 goes to malaysia and you can see them!!! taeyang loves you!!!! (ALSO THANKS FOR ALL THE INFO YOU GAVE ME ABOUT SG CAN’T WAIT TO BE IN THE SAME TIME ZONE AS YOU THIS SUMMER ASLJKDKS)

@baejacob aka @ihsoh​ JACKIE!!!! um ok i love you so so so much. every single one of our interactions makes my heart burst with happiness - every!! single!! one!! you're literally the sweetest person ever and i love how i can scream about kevin to you for hours on end and you'll scream back and we just have this amazing fangirl bond and I hope you’re doing well at school!!! I love you and I hope you have a great day!!!! ♡♡♡

@himeaegyo KAREN YOU ARE SO TALENTED OMFG TEACH ME YOUR WAYS. i always get super happy when i see you on my dash like literally everything you post is A+ material. thank you for tagging me in all of the tag games posts - i feel like i know you really well just by reading through your answers on those posts! anyway i'm glad we got closer after i got into stray kids and popped up into your messages screaming about them sadlkkladjfs I HOPE YOU’RE DOING WELL ♡ *gives you a big virtual hug*

@amohyunwoo aka @rowoonst yoelin yoelin yoelin~ uhh so i think #mulletcourse really brought us closer together and i'm very thankful that it happened.  the group chat is 10000000x more wild with you in it and i love it so much.  there have been so many times where i've literally laughed out loud because of something you've said and so i want to thank you for being such a bright person in my life :(((( it always makes me happy to see you on my dash! YOU’RE THE BEST ILY

@baek-juho aka @knkz​ hi danielle i just want to say even though you don't admit you're a zuhoe and even though you're anti-mullet i still love you and i admire all of your gifs!! I hope sf9 comes to England one day so they realize how amazing their fans there are :’) ♡

@jaevoon uh liz just so we're clear this isn't a love letter. it's a h8 letter. anyway thanks for being a fan of my work and participating in hellovoon war with me (you lost btw). you’re sometimes cool i guess ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ anyway...sf9 aren’t furries!!! and when’s our fanfic going to get written again?

@hotswaggerzuho CANDACE MY FELLOW HWI LOVER sorry about his face in the header; i know you’ll have to text your friend swag now :’) anyway ILYSM and sometimes when I’m in a bad mood I just go through your animal tags on your blog and my mood gets 100000x better so thank you thank you ♡

@jooheonni hi lissa i know we don't talk that much but i want to tell you i love you and thank you for always being so level-headed in the fantasy9network gc and dealing with people (mostly yoelin and me) screaming our heads off about mullets.  your blog is really cool (i love all of your gifs pls teach me your ways) AND SO ARE YOU! I hope you have a good day~ love you! ♡

@miniwaves waverly!!! tbh every time i see you on my dash i just think “aw waverly so smol and cute” LOL anyway you're a really soft stan which i admire and love and thank you for indulging me with your love for yang yang that one time (have you watched love o2o yet?) anyway i hope you have a great day!!! 

@yngbin Gillian!!! I’m glad you started making content for sf9 and literally everything you make is GOLD. I’m glad we’re starting to talk more and I hope we get to know each other better in the future!! Thank you for following me and I hope you have a great day!! I LOVE YOU!

@bestfluteninja hi hannah i just wanted to thank you for being the first person to come to me not on anon to ask for sf9 recs - i always love helping you and when we talk it makes me happy! your text posts are so funny and literally give me life - you’re awesome and I love you!!

@shutupxiumin aka @kangchanhoe hey g i just wanted to thank you for being one of the first people to tag me in tag games you're the best and i love both your blogs (that I follow) so much ♡ I hope you have a good day & I love you!!!!!

@hyunjinh aka @byeongkwn jas you're a really cute soft stan and i really admire your love for a.c.e and stray kids and both of your blogs are so freaking aesthetic i sometimes literally just go onto your blogs on my desktop and just stare at your different pages lmaooo anyway even though we don't talk too much i love you a lot and I hope you have a great day!!!!!

@felox-the-great asldkjgal caitlin ily and if I hit a milestone on my sk blogs I’ll definitely write more for you than this but basically i hope you get to go to an sf9 fansign one day and rowoon remembers you as the girl with crutches ;) love you lots ♡♡♡

@jeongn Nicolle this paragraph is essentially just fanmail. You’re literally the most talented person on this website.  When I’m low on inspiration, I go through your gfx tag and somehow I always get inspired.  I’m so mad that I didn’t start following you until after I got into stray kids because you deserve all the followers in the world!!!!!! literally all your content is A++++ (even things that you say aren’t ARE)!!! anyway I hope we can talk more in the future because I am literally such a big fan of you omg asalkdjgs

@javajaeyoon ok alex so I have a confession i think i've been following you since 2016 or maybe even earlier idk (but on my other blog that i never posted anything on ajsldgkjd) and so when you started following me here i literally fangirled so hard!! anyway i really love all your content ok i hope you have a nice day!!

@war-of-hormoan hi ramsey even though we've been mutuals for a while we still haven't talked much and i'm really sorry about that but anyway i just wanted to say that i love your blog a lot and thank you for reblogging my work i always get excited when i see you in my notifications :((( and thank you for sending me those svt fancams that one time!! i really like how you've gotten into girl groups because i always need more girl group posts on my dash~~ anyway I LOVE YOUR WRITING AND I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY!

@younggbin rach i just wanted to thank you for being such a great admin of neweraboygroups (i know i've spammed the tag a lot on certain occasions from my stray kids blog LOL) and also we should definitely talk more!!! whenever you do tag games you seem so interesting and cool :((((( anyway i love you and i hope you have a great day!!

@taenyang leanne~~~ i started following you because of your tags LOL but i just wanted to say that you're hILARIOUS and literally sometimes when i'm sad i just go through your blog and smile at everything on it.  you're so fun and i love you a lot i hope we can talk more in the future!!

@taechimseok hi joyce i know we've never really talked buttttt i just wanted to take this moment to say i love your work and your blog like literally everything you post is gold and i was really happy when i found out we were mutuals (didn't realize that taechimseok was a sideblog at first lol) anyway i hope you have a great day!!!

@zhengtng mare thank you for always blessing my dash with good idol producer content and in general with good content I really admire your love for rowoon and your ability to remember so many ip names asdlfkajg I hope we get to talk more in the future and I hope you have a good day!! love you! ♡

@peacheseok @changbeanie (ruby ily and you’ll get a paragraph if i hit a milestone on my sk blog aslkdjlfds) @lee-hoe-taek @pororowoon @snoqlax @sunnietora @walnut-kyun @youzhangjing @lykimlip​ @one-jisung​ @zuho-bby​​ @haknyeons​ @jungwoocas​ (aka @pixietaeyong​) @fanta-ceo​ @kimseongs​ @llynnfics​ - thank you all for talking to me/tagging me in things/interacting with me in some way that made me happy i love you all ♡

@meatmeinthemiddle-mark @straycuties @changbln @dysfancional-straykids @stray-bi-kids @kangchanie @realnct @jeonginsyang @strayboys​ @06pray​ @twelveboyz @kinosmile @hyungtop @superdoveh @meth-seyers @sunnmo-on @eunhaswifey @incorrectsensation @baekhyunnjebunny @sweetyoungbin @curlydawon @fantasywicked @taeyamg @cutieyoungbin @roweun @99hwis @incorrect-sf9 @sf9bin​ (aka @xkaihao​) @tyangie @welcometochanskitchen​ - I don’t know you all as well but thank you for following me and I hope we get closer in the future!! ♡ (also all of y’all stray kids blogs TELL ME WHY YOU’RE FOLLOWING THIS BLOG LIKE DO YOU LIKE SF9?? WHO’S YOUR BIAS I’M SO CURIOUS LMAO)

to my anons if you’re reading this :’) - emma!, secret valentine, ♡ anon (you’re probs already tagged in this?), anyone who has asked for sf9 blog recs & anyone who has sent me asks on anon - thanks for talking to me; answering asks always makes me really happy! I LOVE YOU!

[lilover131]

Taggles

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 20 blogs to get to know them better.

Tagged by @cardcaptorstea

Nickname: Chrissy, Chrissy Cake, Chrissy Boo, anything with Chrissy in it really.

Gender: Female

Star sign: Scorpio

Height: 5ft 2in (157 cm I think?) 

Time: 2:25 a.m. (I’m a night owl...)

Birthday: November 1st

Favorite bands:  I don’t really have a favorite band. Most of the music I like I imagine people would find very childish. Lol. But I do love Kalafina music, epic instrumental music like Two Steps from Hell, and dance music like Smile.dk (Butterly is actually my all-time favorite song >.> Don’t judge me)

Favorite solo artists:  Hmm...I guess Adele? I’m honestly always blown away how she can just silence a room and make you listen with just her voice. She doesn’t need special effects or dancing. Just a mic and her voice. 

Song stuck in my head: Lately it’s been “Rewrite the Stars” from the Greatest Showman (thanks for that Danni! XD) 

Last movie I watched: If we’re talking in theaters, it was “Black Panther”. If not, then “Game Over, Man!” (lol) 

Last show I watched: 

The Royals (It’s my guilty pleasure

Gilmore Girls (just started watching it, and I kinda love it)

Inuyasha (BLAST FROM THE PAST)

Cardcaptor Sakura: Clear Card (I watch it just about every day, BECAUSE REASONS) 

When did I create my blog:  Apparently in September of 2011, but I didn’t really start doing anything with it until February of 2016. 

What do I post: Cardcaptor Sakura, Tsubasa, and mostly CLAMP related things. Occasionally I’ll post things from Voltron, Pandora Hearts, The Case Study of Vanitas, Seraph of the End, Miraculous Ladybug, and some other random things. 

Last thing I googled: My height in cm (lol)

Do you have any other blogs: I do not

Do you get asks: I’ve got one whole ask (other than Danni cuz’ she’s amazing), so does that count? It made me super super happy too btw. If you have anything to ask, PLEASE ASK ME. 

Why did you choose your url: Lilover131 is a username I made waaaaay long ago, when I was about 12. “Li lover”, because of my love of Syaoran, and the 131 is 13 for July 13th, Syaoran’s birthday, and the last 1 is for April 1st, Sakura’s birthday. My username is my love of Syaoran and SyaoSaku combined. <3 

Following: 50 (I should really follow some more people) 

Followers: 410 

Favorite colors: Pink and Purple are my fave

Average hours of sleep: Um...a lot? I really really like my sleep. 

Lucky number: 6

Instruments: I can’t play anything, but I’ve always wanted to learn how to play the piano. I can sing a bit at least! Does my voice count? 

What am I wearing: I’m always wearing either pajamas or clothes for work. When I have to go out, I literally have no idea what to do. 

How many blankets do I sleep with: Usually just a sheet and a comforter, though the comforter goes back and forth being on and off during the night depending on how hot or cold I am. 

Dream Job:  Right now, anything that has full time and benefits. Lol. I’m not really sure what I want to do with my life, but I’d love to do something with art or anime someday. That’d be real swell. 

Dream trip: JAPAN DEFINITELY. I have it practically all planned out where I want to go and in what order. If only I wasn’t so poor. 

Favorite food: I loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove sweets, though it’s hard to pick a favorite. Probably ice cream? And I love mashed potatoes as well. Gotta have my sweets and carbs. 

Nationality: United States

Favorite song now: Butterfly by Smile.dk. It’s been my favorite since I was young, and that still hasn’t changed. Lol. IT’S JUST SO CATCHY. 

Tag your it :  

@meimi-haneoka @lilyvzs @daidoujinshi @jaidesu @littlewolf-cherryblossom @sangelbaby 

[macbetha]

aspire, flourish, heal, discover, positive vibes! :)

aspire: what are 3 things you want to achieve next year?: making more friends + joining clubs at uni, being more accepting of myself + what deadlines i can / can’t meet, and actually enjoying the uni experience. i’ve been in school a while and i’ve transferred 3 times - this new uni, i’ve been at for a semester and it hasn’t been a good experience. but i’m hoping that with being more familiar with the campus and changing my disposition might make it better! 

flourish: in what ways have you grown as a better person this year?: this was a hard one i’ve struggled with for a long time, but i had to learn that sometimes the best company you can have is yourself. you don’t have to feel sorry for yourself if you spend christmas alone because damn it you’re great and you’re warm and safe. sometimes, doing what’s best for yourself and being away from toxic people means you have to be alone at times - at really hard times - but loneliness can be peaceful and that was a very valuable lesson for me.

heal: name 5 ways you are going to make next year better: 1: stop making unnecessary deadlines for myself + my creativity  2. in that same vein, i need to appreciate creative hobbies for what they are - as i said, they are supposed to be a relieving, fun thing, and i need to try and get back to that notion instead of feeling like it’s an obligation my worth and likability is measured by. 3. eating better lol4. compliment myself more!!! this girl works so hard i should be nicer to her 5. keep being the first person dancing at parties 

discover: what are 5 things you've learned about yourself or life as a whole this year?:1. love is powerful and beautiful and absolutely real, but i think it might only be a temporary force of nature. 2. there’s no relief like when autumn comes3. i’m actually gonna be okay? kinda been hanging in this nerve-wracking balance for a few years and i had to go through a lot to realize that i’m stronger than i first thought4. listen!!! to your!!! allergies!!! you dumb girl!!!! don’t pet the cat if you’re already sneezing!!! you will have a headache for days and you got shit to do5. people who give you shit for going to college aren’t shit. same goes to the ones who give you hell for not being a mom yet or having a significant other. i’m busy, i’m trying to build a life for myself, and i had to learn how to respect my own grind. 

thank you~ i love your url btw

[svveetrevenge]

hi delaney! is there like, one fic that stands out that youre passionate about??

oh GOD ive read about a billion and 12 but here are some of my favorites (links w the author’s description provided):

ok also sorry im sure this is more than you wanted but i couldnt give you just one?? theyre all bottom frank btw because im not evil and theyre all pretty long. maybe ill make a legit fic list in the future if some people are interested 

When We’re Both Thirty - LOVE LOVE FAVE EVER

Frank and Gerard were childhood friends. And then they were enemies. Finally, they became strangers. They’d been friends though, and maybe they’d been a little too affectionate, because everyone thought the two of them would get married someday. Before they became enemies, they had even agreed to use each other as a backup plan. If, by the time they both reached their thirtieth year, they hadn’t found someone to marry, they’d marry each other.They have thirty three days left.

Reaching Through the Mirror - totally weird but so?? good??

The one where Party Poison and Basement!Gerard have sex.

James Cameron Got it Wrong - part 2 ^^ 

In which 2005!Frank and Fun Ghoul get it on. Then Frank accidentally winds up in 2019.

Catholic!Frank and Artist!Gerard Not!Fic - w a url like mine, u had to expect at least one Catholic Frank fic on this list

I’m working on another story where teenage Frank is like, “Man, fuck the Catholic church for telling me I’m not supposed to like cock.” And while writing it, I got this image in my head of a different Frank, a Frank who, like, really had faith in God and who was struggling to be the kind of person the church would approve of.I tried writing it, but quickly realized that it was just way too big for me. Like, if I actually tried to do it justice it would take me years, and I don’t really have that sort of work ethic. So it became a not!fic. Yay?

Ain’t Nobody Gonna Love You Like The Devil Do - lol another one

Frank is a good, God-fearing Catholic boy, and then Gerard happens. Gerard is the most interesting person he’s ever met, arriving in Frank’s small town with late nights and illicit booze and odd, disturbing nightmares trailing in his wake, and before long, Frank finds himself questioning the things he thought he knew.

Against the Works of the Flesh - *dj khaled voice* anotha one

Frank Iero is the gay teenager who, after coming out to his Catholic family, faces trouble in finding himself and fitting in. He will find himself, though, through Father Way.

The Chasing of Moons - same author as the first one i listed

The biggest dilemma in all of this is that Frank slept with his future husband. Now Frank’s just got to make sure that the future with him stays intact, but it’s not so easy when present day Gerard seems to hate his guts.

Can Never Wrong this Right - i dont have words to explain how amazing this fic is

It’s 1949 and Dr. Way is a professor of Archeology and Frank is his constantly exasperated (and secretly pining) assistant. When their latest trek takes them to South America to locate the fabled Blood Stone, however, they both find more than they bargained for.

Fuck and Run - the most recent fic i read, SHOOK the whole time

Meaningless hookups are easier than dating when you’re a werewolf. That is, until your brother sets you up on a blind date with someone you’ve already *ahem* ‘seen’ before.

Public Enemy - these ones set in the past are so cool cant lie

In 1932, Gerard Way has been making a name for himself robbing banks up and down New Jersey. Frank Iero, analyst for J. Edgar Hoover’s Division of Investigation, is determined to catch him.

A Case of Unknown Identity - another one by the author of the first one

Frank is a teenager with only a few friends, one of whom is a charismatic guy who is just like Frank. He might even be falling for the guy, but the only problem is that he’s just a username on a website without a face or a name. The guy goes by ‘Watchman’ and he’s perfect in Frank’s eyes, he doesn’t even need to meet him to know he’s amazing. Frank also deals with bullies which makes it hard for him to hold onto friends, but things start to become better after he befriends the antisocial kid Mikey, and realizes that Watchman might just go to his school. Watchman might also know a little more about Frank than he’s letting on.

[jewpacabruhs]

@hxlden-caulfield oh no 😭😭 i just spent the last ten minutes digging around for it (ive found deleted fics before, so i was hopeful) but i cant find it. this fucking sucks, i adored that fic. thanks for confirming though, i appreciate it. couldnt remember the name of the fic so i couldn’t search.

and good to know! i legitimately got death threats once??? hope that kind of ridiculous bullshit’s not a thing anymore. i usually have unpopular opinions in fandoms that result in me gettin ostracized to some degree haha. maybe ill get along better this time around.

since posting that, i found an explanation - in the pilot, kyle has to stand on his tiptoes to talk in cartman’s ear, & apparently cartman refers to his classmates as “little” often. but considering the pilot’s the only time it’s ever remotely alluded to that kyle’s shorter, and “little” is probably just meant in a condescending way, idk if thats anything to go by. idk, regardless im gonna keep headcanoning him as a little shorter. if only because it makes his tantrums funnier. although tbh i like to think it goes, tallest to shortest, kyle cartman stan kenny, and i think the fandom consensus is cartman kyle stan kenny. so im not changing much. if anything, i think cartman and kyle are the same height, because surely if one was taller, they’d rip on each other for it? then again, in the style of the show, theyre all the same height, so. idk im thinking too much into smth thats irrelevant smh

love your url btw!! im actually an aspiring screenplay writer, & im currently working on a film adaption of catcher in the rye, just for funsies, ‘cause no one’s ever done it before & i wanted to give it a shot. it’s surprisingly hard. like, it’s proving pretty difficult to capture holdens cynical & weird narration without a bunch of corny voice overs. kinda inadvertently made him come off as forrest gump-y in his demeanor lol. but with more scowling. but yeah, thanks for taking the time to answer my questions & respond :-)

[seokjins]

soft taejin headcanons!!!

PGGHASLGTASG WTF I’VE BEEN WAITING MY WHOLE LIFE FOR THIS MESSAGE (╥_╥) also i love ur url btw it’s so cute 

World’s Most Beautiful Couple™ confirmed

nobody really knows when they started dating bc they’d always gone out to eat together and went to the gym together (even tho taehyung doesn’t work out lmao he just ogles his bf and sits on his back when he’s doing pushups) and shared drinks and fed each other and watched movies together and were just. Very Comfortable spending time alone as a pair

idk it was a very natural transition from friends to boyfriends tru role models tbh

if this was a non bts idol au, they’d both be actors who knew each other in school but then get reconnected once they’re both pretty big in the business and their infamous coffee dates trend on twitter for legitimately two days straight lmao

listen if seokjin getting out of a fuckign ca r at MAMA15 gets him a hashtag can u imagine what it’s like when the two of them are hand in and hand leaving a limo ,,kissing in public ,, going on dates at cheap ass bbq places ,,CASUALLY BUYING GROCERIES TOGETHER WTF

seokjin really likes taehyung’s smile ?? esp when u can see his entire face light up and his pretty eyes do the crinkly thing and his cheeks scrunch the tiniest bit around his nose and he looks genuinely happy???? god he wants his bf to be happy forever ??wtf????? gay???

seokjin spends a lot of time staring at taehyung with the most lovestruck expression lol watching him goof off and be his Bright Self augashklg

u know that face he makes where he looks completely zoned out and his smile is a little crooked and he just ????is? so fucking??? soft?????what the fuck??? (x)

he then becomes an international meme & taehyung never lets him live it down,,always poking fun like “dam ur WHIPPED” and seokjin usually snarks back but sometimes his eyes go soft and he says “yeah i kno” and taehyung slides a hand up seokjin’s shoulder/neck/jaw cups the side of his face before he goes in for the world’s most tender kiss ALSDHAGH

they’re a very tactile couple in many ways bc taehyung’s a naturally touchy person and seokjin’s always been ok w him stroking his hair or his neck or down the side of his arm and letting tae backhug him bc he really likes being on the receiving end too rip (x) (x) (x)

doing this a lot

taehyung runs hot and seokjin runs cold, so it’s nice when they’re sleeping together bc they can exchange body heat so 500 blankets aren’t needed to prevent seokjin from getting sick asldkghasg

taehyung’s dumb face when he’s looking at his bf (x) (x) u could shoot hearts starts n rainbows from his eyes probably he’s so in love

UM LMAO WHEN THEY KISS SO SOFT AND GENTLE AND QUIET AND ALWAYS DO THE STUPID FOREHEAD TOUCHING BULLSHIT I HATE THEM WTF 

seokjin: [is cold, freezing, shivering, dying]taehyung, like a literal beam of sunlight: [dives in for a full body hug 2 warm up him up]

seokjin’s obsessed with the way taehyung looks in the morning w sleepy eyes n a sleepy smile and hair sticking up a little bit as he wanders into the kitchen with nothing but a pair of sweats he keeps getting heart attacks every single time and has nearly broken their entire mug collection rip ,,

UM when they’re making out in bed and taehyung loops arms around seokjin’s neck when he’s on top to pull him closer and literally kills him?

cause of death: overexposure to taehyung’s beautiful mcfucking self

sometimes taehyung gets in one of his Moods and seokjin cancels literally everything in their schedules so they can just lie in bed and be close and hold him ????pet his hair????kiss his cheek??????my heart????it hurts????????

taehyung, at some point in their relationship, manages to find the place right behind seokjin’s ear that makes his knees go WEAK and force the breath right out of his lungs n makes every part of him melt and his muscles turn 2 jelly and mostly uses this to help jin calm down if he’s crying really hard or is really anxious or can’t stop shaking for some reason

Yes. Has Used in Public Many Times Even During Nationally Broadcasted Award Shows and Singlehandedly Breaks All of Social Media for the Following Week

there’s also one spot just on the turn of his hip and thigh that taehyung likes to abuse when they’re having sex lol

(actor au) they’re always each other’s dates to red carpet events/awards and even when they do solo interviews they have to stand next to each other and taehyung always watches seokjin talk w huge ass heart eyes and the tiniest softest smile on his face and doesn’t even pay the camera any attention LMAO

seokjin cries so easily ,, he has such a soft heart so the amount of pics/gifs of taehyung holding his bf during award shows is … A Lot….

finally get cast in a romance film as leads and the amount of new cavities the cast/crew get bc taejin are so sweet together ruins the film budget for the rest of time & also their costars won’t stop complaining about having to deal w them

seokjin: im making dinner what u want bbtaehyung: anything i put in my mouth that belongs to u is perfect ;;)))seokjin: ………………………………………seokjin: i’m filing for divorce

[sambashua]

HOW SVT BE FAM

♥S-sa-say the name!!

So this is going to be the longest post in the history of mankind bc I go real deep w their personalities and stuff ahh also since I don’t personally know them ofc so this is all based on what I’ve seen from their shows and videos:)) THANKS FOR ASKING KAT I’M GONNA TURN YOU INTO A HARDCORE CARAT SOONER RATHER THAN LATER AHHH [sidenote i included my personal nicknames for them so u know who i’m talkin abt irl girl] I ALSO LINKED A BUNCH OF STUFF I RLLY WENT CRAZY

Choi Seungcheol aka S.coups (cheolie) - OKAY AH since he’s your bias I’ll write extra thingsssss!! The faithful general leader and rap boyyy scoops! So this lil bun I thought for a while when I first followed them like oh he’s probably the most normal like he’s level headed and stuff but NOPE NOPE NOPE! SEUNGCHEOL IS ACTUALLY THE BIGGEST CUTIE DORK IN THE WORLD he is afraid of like a lot of things which is too funny bc he’s acts all manly and all the members see him that way and I cannot believe~ like he’s afraid of killing fish and and fireworks and being in front of the camera alone and chopping firewood and doing something that doesn’t get a reaction?? Whenever he does any sort of charm he tells the members to be sure to have a good reaction and BOYY IF THEY DONT he goes off on them I stg… but in all seriousness he is so so so hardworking (he trained for 6 years oh my god) like he always tries to take pressure off his members and he cares for his babies so much and they even call him appa sometimes and they look up to him so much it is the cutest thing like they always rate him so high in looks and I cry love him plz. But he is an actual puppy like w his long eyelashes and pouty face like oh my god and he is getting cuter everyday???? Like actually tho he’s doing it on purpose and I can’t handle it?? When did he plan this I can’t believe how frickin cute he is being lately! He’s such a soft fluff and he’s always so strong for the other members and they look up to him so much and he is one of the best groups leaders I’ve ever seen just bc of how much they all respect and listen to him:)Yoon Jeonghan (hannie) - so this pos… jkjk (kinda) hannie is “svt’s angel” bc he was born on 1004 the pretty vocalist who everyone knows as the guy in seventeen w long hair SOOO the thing w hannie is he is like the most beautiful man in kpop like his face is so pretty and his features too like?? How?? He seems like he would be feminine but he is actually one of the most (if not the most) manly members of svt!! But he gets tired so fast tho he is rated #13 in stamina and they call him lying-jeonghan bc he’s always lying down lol. But oh my god he is such a piece of trash I cannot believeeeee on tumblr I have a tag dedicated to all the times hannie has been a piece of shit I’ll link it to you if you want but like he cheats and lies in EVERY GAME THEY HAVE EVER PLAYED NO JOKE and even if they’re not competing he is always the first to call someone out and he is just such a ho i die like he is not svt’s angel at all BUTTTTTTTT he is actually so hardworking like even if he’s tired they’ve said that he keeps practicing and ugh he’s good… he has dubbed himself mother of svt and generally everyone p much agrees w him! Hannie and seungcheol call the other members “kids” and it is the purest thingJoshua Hong/Hong Jisoo(kor) (shuaaa) - everyone kinda knows josh as the American gentleman w his sweet voice and sick English skills (side note whenever he speaks eng tho he always stutters and I’m like boy why but it’s super cute and ilh) and he can speak five languages (supposedly) he plays guitar and he’s rlly Christian too lol so he’s the resident “church oppa” as the kids say these days and he has a cute cartilage piercing w a cross aw (he also recently got his tragus pierced and damn it looks good but anyway) Also his peach hair was such a good time like wow. Shua seems rlly quiet and I mean he is but oh my god he is so fucking extra LIKE I DONT UNDERSTAND ALL OF A SUDDEN HE BECAME SO EXTRA IDK WAS HE ALWAYS THIS WAY BUT I DIDNT SEE PAST HIS CAT EYES AND SWEET VOICE LIKE WHO KNOWSSSS but he does this pin drop dance thing way too often but it’s hilarious and the members are obsessed w it bc he always says he has a hard time w dance and choreo and this is his only dance move (but tbh he’s actually p good at dancing like i never rlly notice he falls behind or anything except that one time performing pretty u where he started his part too early but that actually created a new part of the choreo they ended up using for a bit fun fact)… that and his samba aka my url sambashua (technically he doesn’t actually samba tho I’m p sure he’s doing the merengue but it’s okay shua I still love u) He’s also a fricking nerd for anime which is great i love it. Josh and Vernon are rlly close bc English buds and they’re the memeist together also him and jeonghan are a true ship bc they came to pledis at the same time and they’re cute

Wen Junhui/Moon Junhui(kor) aka Jun - so jun is ½ of china line and ¼ foreign line. A dancing noodle from southeast China wow (I say noodle bc he is a skinny bean and also v flexible bc he does martial arts things wow) he did Kung Fu in china for a long as heck time and does a lot of kicky things and flips and he’s super cool ALSO FUN FACT: HIS NAME IS JUN AND HE WAS BORN IN JUNE WOOHOO a lot of people assume he’s like sly/greasy but that’s mostly him in like interviewy shows?? But in reality shows and vlives he is actually just such a cute sweet bean and he loves the members so much! He was a child actor in china and was p famous I think for a while?? But he learned Korean p well before he joined pledis (their label btw idk if you know or not lol) BUT EVEN FROM DEBUT HIS PRONUNCIATION HAS KEPT IMPROVING IM SO PROUD a lot of people cal him the true visual of svt (tbh I don’t like that bc they’re all beautiful don’t put anyone down ah) BUT HE IS SO HANDSOME LIKE DAMN BOY HE’S GOT SUCH NICE FEATURES AND HE IS THE CUTEST BEAN IN THE WORLD Alsoooo several of the members have dubbed him svt’s mother bc he’s super encouraging and “endless positivity jun” and he pays special attention to minghao they have the purest friendship!! (plz give him lines)Kwon Soonyoung aka Hoshi (HOSH) - DANCE MASTER AND PERF TEAM LEADER OF SEVENTEEN LIKE OKAY ALL OF PERF TEAM IS SO TALENTED I CAN’T BELIEVE BUT SOONYOUNG IS SO INCREDIBLE HE CAN CREATE DANCES ANYTIME ANYWHERE AND HE EXECUTES THEM SO WELL?? His stage name Hoshi means star in Japanese bc he shines in stage! And he knows Japanese pretty well I don’t think he’s fluent but he cute cute cute!! Anyway people rec him to go on hit the stage (WHICH I AM SO HERE FOR (but also let him rest he needs a break dear god they all do)) he creates all of svt’s dances wow (w help from perf team ofc) but he is actually the squishiest sweetest boy off stage but then on stage he completely transforms into whatever concept like he can take on anything?? I would not have assumed dark concept would work for him BUT BOY HOWDY IT DOES he turns from adorable hamster to sexy dance god in .2 seconds i don’t understand how people who bias him survive tbh… He is also SHINee’s biggest fan oh my god and the fact that he now stands on the same stages as them literally blows his mind he is such a fanboy i love♥ HE CARES FOR HIS MEMBERS SO MUCH (I realize I’ve said this abt everyone but hey hey they have a lot of love) he wrote HIGHLIGHT as his first time ever helping produce/write lyrics and I’m so proud:D AND HIS VOICE HIS SO GOOD he’s just so bouncy and good and so attractive??? He goes by 10:10 bc his eyes are like the hands of a clock at 10:10 wowie and EYE SMILES FOR DAYS~ just a sweet lil bab w a pure heart honestlyJeon Wonwoo (wonu aka the loml) - goddammit I hate jeon wonwoo JKJK OKAY SO JEON WONWOO IS MY ULT BIAS IMMA DO MY BEST TO KEEP THIS CONCISE BUT IDK HOW IT’S GONNA GO I HAVE A LOT TO SAY! jeon frickin wonwoo has the deepest voice in svt and is known for his deep, smooth rap style wow (his rap style is really unique like if you listen to it it sort of ebbs and flows w the music and he drags out notes sometimes it’s so nice fuck) he sings all the time it’s so great and the members always ask him to read things bc (he’s good at reading generally and) he has his nice deep voice ahh~ JEON FRICKIN WONWOO IS THE BIGGEST DORK IN THE WHOLE WORLD jeon wonwoo enjoys making bad puns and reading books (esp romance ones I hate him). The other members act like they hate his jokes but they always laugh at what he says and when he was gone (rip he was sick for a couple months from end of may ish to july ish) they mentioned that they missed his dumb jokes (and so did I). He considers himself to be the best looking (what a ho) and he is naturally skinny which a lot of the members are jealous of (but tbh this could be partially because he has a lot of health issues and allergies I just want to care for him and make him food and feed him forever so he gets fat and happy help me) On one fine day he was dubbed the garden fairy and also jeon wonwoo bag of luck oh my god I am so embarrassed by him (jk I love him w the entirety of my heart in case you couldn’t tell) Some of my favorite things abt wonwoo are his little nose crinkles when he smiles and his glasses that look just so cute on him and when he wears big sweaters and then he has sweater paws and he looks so cuddly and soft. He is also so boastful like he is always the first one to support himself it’s so funny but he doesn’t exactly brag it’s more confidence idk but he’s also rlly smart and good at acrostic poems bc he reads so much:) He also always cheers for other members when they want him to i.e. seungkwan when he cheers for himself. He seems shy when he’s on talk shows but I think he just wants to let other people talk but on vlives he always whispers to other members aND I JUST WANT HIM TO SPEAK UP! JEON WONU TELL US WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY but in conclusion I am in love with him and would def recommend anyone to bias him bc honestly he is a good bias just bc he is chill and pure and funny and beautiful (even tho sometimes he’s MIA and quiet as heck pshhh)Lee Jihoon aka Woozi - vocal team leader and producer of p much all their lit ass tunes!! 10/10 MOST HARDWORKING MEMBER OUT OF SVT I’M SORRY IF YOU DISAGREE BUT JIHOON WORKS SO HARD ALL THE TIME I’M SO WORRIED FOR HIM HE NEEDS A BREAK!! It’s so heartbreaking tho if you ever want to cry and cough up your lungs bc of sobs then watch SVT Project where he talks abt how he feels so much pressure and feels like their success or failure is riding on him bc he writes all their music and will determine if they will be any good:(((( BUT OBVIOUSLY THEY ARE A BIG HIT BC JIHOONIE IS SUPER TALENTED AND MAKES THE BEST UPBEAT FUNKY FRESH POP TUNES OF THE CENTURY~ he is one of (if not the) shortest male idols at the moment at a staggering 165cm/5'4"! But it’s so great bc he doesn’t try to hide his heigh and he is considered and “inspiration to short men” according to one fashion report. The members always say he is rlly manly but on camera he acts cute and 10/10 appreciate it bc he is the cutest ever but only subtly… like he embarrassingly/shyly covers his face so cutely and gets angry so adorably where he just glares aw (he has also confirmed that he considers himself to be more cute than scary) woozi is a abbreviation of “our jihoon” which is the cutest asjkdhskl. He is also seventeen’s grandpa bc he is rlly not too hip at all but they try to help him out anyway! He also winks 24/7 lol. His voice is rlly clear and piercing like he often sings parts of the chorus and his voice draws you in idk it’s nice:) he trained for the second longest amount after scoops (5 years) so they’re super close bc they were together longer than the other membersLee Seokmin aka Dokyeom/DK - an actual ray of sunshine w the most incredible vocals like wow! He is svt’s “happy virus” and boy does he own it!! He is always smiling and laughing and making jokes he is the cutest I stg… He also has a more built figure physically and it’s hot as heck tbh. He, seungkwannie and soonyoung make up the “booseoksoon” trio which is basically the extra/mc/always laughing squad and they are such close friends it’s the cutest ever boo and hosh think he’s the funniest person in the world I love it!! Seokmin also puts a lot of pressure on himself bc he’s main vocal and I feel like he’s super underrated???? But he went on King of Masked Singer and I think he made it through two or three rounds? Anyway he did rlly rlly good (even tho honestly think he has way more potential than what he showed) and I hope it boosted his confidence bc he is incredible!! The judges assumed he was from an older group bc his voice was so mature eeeee!! HE IS SO LOUD OH MY GOD one time they said that the CEO could hear him practicing from the 4th floor while he was in the basement I- He is always the first person to make fun of himself and he doesn’t mind being the brunt of a joke as long as he gets people to laugh it’s adorable:)) He always brings up the mood and helps out the members whenever there is awkwardness w being filmed and such JUST SUPPORT THIS SUNNY BOY HE HAS SO MUCH LOVE AND JOY IN HIS HEART!!Kim Mingyu - the tallest bean on the block and svt’s “visual tree” at a staggering 190cm/6'1" (correct me if I’m wrong I didn’t look this up) but I’m p sure he has grown recently bc he is getting taller everyday I swear? He’s got some good rap mhmm~ But he is such a clumsy pup and the members always make fun of him but it’s okay bc he can take it (he has the best reaction so that’s why they do it) He is dropping things and tripping 25/8 and it’s the cutest thing! But “housewife ming” can legit do anything like he is a true man of many talents damn i.e. cooking, hairstyling, acting, cleaning… But he is so so pretty like who the heck allowed him to be this attractive?? Gyu goes from super visual savior to fluffy pup on the daily and it’s too much to handle… Idk he seems like he might be super cool and chic when you first see him but he is actually just a giggly fool always having a hard time… Mingyu is the only one in svt that I would call the “visual” (only bc he is officially the visual i think they are literally gorgeous okay!!) but he is actually rlly insecure abt it and only calls himself “aspiring visual” and it’s mostly bc of his dark complexion WHICH IS COMPLETELY FLAWLESS AND SO BEAUTIFUL STOP WHITEWASHING KIM MINGYU PLZ but i rlly commend him for being visual despite common opinions/standards on skin color in korea. A lot of people (okay most people) ship him and wonwoo (aka meanie) and I do too, don’t get me wrong, but my all time favorite ship is mingyu and minghao (aka gyuhao) bc same age, they act like they hate each other but are actually super supportive (one of my fave tropes blah) and idk they’re both just confused pups help me and w that transition…

Xu Minghao/Seo Myungho(kor) aka The8 (i never call him the8 ever srry b i don’t like it idk ah) - our “cool cutie” from northeast(i think) China with the most killer bboying skills i’ve ever seen in kpop! He now introduces himself as “The8 with infinite possibilities” and he has been growing more and more as an artist and a person I’m so proud of him!! He trained for the shortest amount of time (~1year+2months i believe) and he really struggled w Korean when he first started. Even after debut he was very quiet but he has been talking more and more lately and he has been doing so well!! Minghao is cute as heck but he is also (along w hannie) svt’s Resident Savage™ and the main usage of his Korean improvement has gone into calling out the other members w his incredible comebacks. Two of his favorite targets seem to be soonyoung and mingyu but he rlly doesn’t hold back on anyone (except maybe jun bc they are such good buddies bc china line and jun helps him w his korean asjkklfjls) But anyway he is an incredible dancer and singer and also rapper!! (give him more lines plz plz plz) vernon has been helping him w his korean rapping but he is already one lit mandarin rapper like damn… But minghao is the most supportive member of svt (hear me out) whenever they do broadcasts or radio shows minghao always gives thumbs ups/supportive smiles/high fives it is the purest thing and part of the reason I love him sm!!! He’s also super cuddly and is always touching/hugging the other members asjkltfasd. Sometimes he doesn’t quite understand a question and the other members help explain it to him it’s my favorite concept (it’s usually soonyoung or seungcheol but i’ve seen p much all of them do it) lately he has been getting more meme-y and idk how to feel but as long as he’s getting out of his comfort zone I am immensely proud of him:))

Boo Seungkwan (boo) - the other main vocal in svt and just generally the loudest and usually mc for the group. Boo has some of the most incredible vocals i’ve seen in my life and he sings probably my favorite cover duet of all time (the high note around 3:05 makes me emotional every time istg also their reactions are me) He’s so talented and his voice is so clear and nice and his RANGE! I could go on forever… To describe seungkwan in two words would be sweet and sassy… He is part of maknae/baby line but he’s always calling people out and bossing them around it’s hilarious. (he is generally hilarious tbh) Also he’s a huge volleyball program nerd it’s great (and possibly haikyuu!! but not confirmed) He’s commonly referred to as divaboo and the video just seungkwan things captures all his divaness perfectly 10/10 would rec! He’s also super english-y all the time probably bc he spends so much time w vernon which is great for us international fans whoop whoop. But back to him being sweet- even though he is definitely his own biggest fan (in the most adorable way omg) he is also svt’s biggest fan he always cheers on his members it’s so cute he’s so soft and good! He cares so much for the fans and he’s head of the Seventeen Fan Cafe (i think) and he’s great abt interacting w carats and all that fanservicey stuff:) He is also super underappreciated honestly support him bc he supports everyone else even tho he’s rlly insecure abt his looks and body even tho he is the most beautiful boo w THE BEST CHEEKBONES IN THE UNIVERSE HAVE YOU SEEN THOSE THINGS DAMN BOY

Hansol Vernon Chwe/Choi Hansol(kor) aka Vernon (bernonie) - One of the most well-known members of svt bc he’s half white and was also a child actor. He has some of the most lit raps tbh and i’m p sure every single one (or almost) has english in it lol. His mom is white and American and his dad is from Korea. Technically he was born in New York, USA BUT BUT BUT he moved to korea when he was five so he doesn’t remember it like at all and every host ever asks him abt it and he always has to say he is basically korean and JUST LET HIM LIVE but since his mom speaks english he is fluent in it (but he has said he is better at korean) He is super super visual and he gets more attractive every day like who the heckkk. Hansol is one of the more popular members so a lot of people would expect him to be outgoing (or even douchey bc he’s half white which is dumb yet it happens) but he is one of the quietest members and usually doesn’t speak up in interviews and such bc he’s kinda shy! BUT THIS DOES NOT I REPEAT DOES NOT MEAN HE IS NOT A MEME!! VERNON IS CONFIRMED THE MEMEIST MEMBER OF SVT ALONG W JOSHUA DON’T FIGHT ME. At this point he has even been dubbed “memesol” bc he makes the best reaction faces in recorded history dear god. He also finds literally everything so hilarious and definitely laughs the most whenever the other members do anything. But honestly he is a super cute, sweet pup who deserves a whole lotta love!! also kinda unrelated but one of my favorite posts of all time is dedicated to him i don’t even know…

Lee Chan aka Dino (MY SON) - I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START W THIS LIL BAB! Lee Chan is svt’s “small giant” maknae who is Michael Jackson’s #1 Fan™ and literal dancing machineeee! He has grown so much since debut i cannot believe and he is getting more confident MY BOY! Honestly his glow up should be some kinda world record bc oh my god it hasn’t even been two years?? AND HIS RAP HAS IMPROVED SO MUCH LIKE EVEN FROM JAM JAM TO OMG Vernon rapped most of jam jam but then in omg chan rapped all of it by himself!!!! ALSO EVEN FROM OMG TO HIGHLIGHT NOW HE TRANSITIONS FROM RAPPING STRAIGHT INTO SINGING WITH THE SAME BREATH I CANNOT BELIEVE!! But he is so creative and funny and full of energy!! He helps hoshi w most of the dances (i think he did most of the choreo for jam jam) and his stage name is dino bc when he steps on the stage he takes it over and becomes a big presence like a dinosaur which is so creative??? he also graduated high school a while back and then just too his entrance exams!! I’m so proud!! But he tries so hard to keep improving and he’s just so pure and has a complete heart of gold♥ He also aspires to be an mc and he works rlly hard to improve his skills on that front too! Chan is so incredibly talented, but again not a whole lot of people bias him which is crazy???? Bc he is so hansome and also my son?? also lowkey savage af But all the members love him a whole lot and he is their baby, even though he is now “an adult” but srry bun no one will probably ever stop calling him baby (esp jeonghan)

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The thing is society dosen't really care for men and even many me don't seem to care for men, it's like both men and women never care about men's problems

(6-20-20) You both like Feminism.

You: hiyo

Stranger: Hi

You: what's on your mind?

Stranger: Many things.

You: mhm, anything that you want to talk about?

Stranger: Yours?

You: religion

You: my last conversation was about religion

Stranger: The feminist cult religion?

You: nope, I was on the religion tag

Stranger: Okay.

Stranger: I'm so not religious lol

You: is there a word for anti-feminist?

You: I'm not religious either

Stranger: There is, it is anti-feminist.

Stranger: That's it lol

You: it's a dull word

Stranger: Or anti-feminism.

You: so you are anti-feminism?

Stranger: I don't know but i don't support feminism and i hate most feminiets, the majority of feminists are scum and extremists.

You: mhm I support feminism

Stranger: Well good for you at least you know what you want.

You: mhm and you don't know what you want?

Stranger: I do but i cannot get it.

You: oh what exactly do you want?

Stranger: I want a boyfriend. I am gay.

You: ahh gl with that

Stranger: Gl?

You: good luck

You: where are you from?

Stranger: So do you fund feminists groups?

Stranger: America

You: mhm I donated once to the HRC

You: which supports both lgbt and feminism

Stranger: What's hrc?

You: human rights campaign

Stranger: Ohh

You: I donated 20 dollars to them and then they didn't stop calling me

Stranger: You donated to help what?

Stranger: Why didnt they stop calling you?

You: well if you donate once you're listed as a potential donor

You: so then they keep calling you hoping you'll donate again

Stranger: Yikes!

Stranger: So what did you do?

You: I think it's kind of common

You: I just said I wasn't going to donate

Stranger: What do they use your money for?

You: it's like your typical phone canvasing

You: colleges and univesities do that too

Stranger: I see.

You: they're an advocacy and lobbying group

You: so I think you'd probably dislike them

Stranger: What do they advocate for?

Stranger: It's okay, we're just having a convo.

You: oh that lobby for the passage of pro-lgbt bills in congress

You: *they lobby

Stranger: Are you from america?

You: yes

You: like big industries like guns and pharma all have lobbies in congress -- which means they spend millions to convince politicians to vote a certain way

You: for like other things, the money that goes to lobbying comes from ordinary ppl

Stranger: What's your opinion on metoo and the believeallwomen hashtag?

You: mhmm

Stranger: I mean woudn't you say metoo is toxic?

You: yeah I would say there are circumstances that it is kinda toxic

You: but I think it's important to speak out if you get sexually harrassed

You: there's a long history in the us of women staying silent

Stranger: I do and i would to but that does not justify accusing someone of rape when they did not do it.

Stranger: 2 wrongs don't make a right.

You: mhm, what percentage of people #metoo-ing do you think are lying?

Stranger: I'm saying we shoudn't believe all women cause the stats say 2% to 10% of women lie about rape.

Stranger: I can't even imagine how many more men might have been falsely imori

Stranger: Imprisoned for something they never did.

You: sure, although I think it's good that these 90-98% of women who aren't lying are speaking up now

You: a majority of rape cases are dismissed

You: overwhelming majority

Stranger: I'm not saying they shoudn't cause they should but we need solid evidence before accusing someone of being a rapist

You: sure

You: although I think everyone should have the right to speak their story

Stranger: If anyone tries to rape me of course i would speak up in a heartbeat.

You: I think some companies may overreact in some circumstances to firing someone who get's #metoo'd

You: but I think people should be able to speak up and say it happened

Stranger: Because of false accusations men have killed themeselves and entered years in prison.

You: I mean the imprisonment thing I think that's just not true

You: so few accusations ever lead to prison time

You: I think you could say many men have lost their jobs

Stranger: Are you sure?

You: yup, I'm sure

Stranger: There is news on it.

Stranger: Men have told their stories.

Stranger: Search on youtube

You: yeah, but if they're convicted by a trial and jury, that legitimately means there was like evidence

You: like a dna test or sperm or things like that

You: us courts do not convict without evidence

Stranger: I dont know about that i mean people always see to believe women even without evidence

You: mhm, but the legal system hasn't changed in the US at all

You: I think more ppl are concerned about their employers believe claims and getting fired from their jobs

Stranger: I heard stories where men spent many years for a rape they did not do

You: yes, but you can't get convicted unless there is some evidence that convinces the jury

You: sometimes there can be bad evidence though

You: but it's the same thing of ppl going to prison for murder they didn't commit

You: a rape charge is very serious in the US, and you can't get convicted without serious evidence

Stranger: The jury can just call anything evidence whether it is real or not.

You: mhm idk, it can be sometimes hard to argue dna tests and stuff like that

Stranger: https://www.google.com/url?sa=t&source=web&rct=j&url=https://m.youtube.com/watch%3Fv%3DO5yrFOX5vh0&ved=2ahUKEwjuhr7l15HqAhWs63MBHVavCq8Qo7QBMAN6BAgCEAE&usg=AOvVaw2Nj1O1PtJHVUDh-T9RW6Bq

Stranger: Maybe you should watch this video, of you want to that is.

You: but again, a lot of ppl support abolishing the death penalty, because there are times when the justice system convicts the wrong ppl

You: but this isn't a problem seen just in rape cases in general

You: it happens with murder convictions and other crimes

You: rape doesn't get special treatment in us courts

Stranger: But why are there so many men in prison for a rape they did not commit then?

You: mhm..... idk, you will have to look up statistics for that

Stranger: Okau

Stranger: Okay

Stranger: Are you like a liberal btw?

You: yup

Stranger: A hillary supporter?

You: lol hillary isn't running

Stranger: I know but you voted for her?

You: versus trump lol?

You: of course

Stranger: Is it true that all feminists believe men have it much easier than women?

Stranger: I just don't see how anyone could think that.

You: well I don't really think that's the case

You: I think each gender has its problems

Stranger: I sometimes feel ny life would be easier if i was a woman.

You: mhm how so?

Stranger: Well i feel like i woudn't be told to man up

You: right

Stranger: People would be more concerned about my mental help

Stranger: I think people woudn't be so hard on me

You: mhm I think it's bad that you had to go through all those things

Stranger: I always felt like the female gender is the privileged gender.

You: idk I think for me it's hard to say one gender is more "privileged" than the other

You: but for me, I think about women who can't get a promotion because her boss thinks she will get pregnant

Stranger: You're entitled to your opinion, i am not trying to change your mind. Just sharing my views.

You: mhm totally

You: you are too

You: so I think there are challenges in different areas

You: and I think society should work together to improve issues experienced by both genders

Stranger: The thing is society dosen't really care for men and even many me don't seem to care for men, it's like both men and women never care about men's problems

Stranger: The suicide rate of men is so high and that upsets me everyday.

You: I think society should care for men, and we should change culture so that society does

Stranger: People still believe me cannot get raped.

You: a lot of ppl tell me that feminists want to "emasculate" men when we say that we should encourage it so that it's more acceptable for men to talk about their feelings

You: and express feelings and talk about their emotions

Stranger: If a woman rapes a man then people think it's not possible and that pisses me off.

You: yeah rape can happen to anybody

You: you were raped? :c

Stranger: No but i am worried about the men who did get raped.

You: mhm

Stranger: I just want to prevent men from getting raped.

You: rape is bad, and I think it's important to look at what we can do to improve it

Stranger: Men are usually less likely to speak up if they are being raped or sexually assaulted.

You: right

You: I think men should speak up

You: or I think we should make the culture acceptable for that

Stranger: I want them to but society also needs to advocate for them.

You: mhm, yup

You: sexual violence hurts everybody involved

Stranger: I know.

You: but yeah, if it's important to you, have you thought about getting involved?

Stranger: I dont know how to

Stranger: Maybe i should join the mens rights

You: well there are rape crisis hotlines for women, maybe you can find one for men?

You: or start one for men?

Stranger: How much would that even cost?

You: most of them are run by volunteers

You: it's basically a phone number

You: and you organize a group of ppl to pick up the phone

Stranger: What is the phone number?

You: I think it depends on the area you're from

Stranger: Oh okay maybe i will try to find out

You: the trevorproject is the lgbt suicide hotline

You: https://www.thetrevorproject.org/

You: you can get trained to volunteer for them and answer the phone

Stranger: So anyways are you married?

You: nope

Stranger: Oh okay

Stranger: How old are you?

You: 26 you?

Stranger: I probably will never get married..

Stranger: 23

You: mhm why not?

Stranger: Well i am gay so i dont think i can get married lol

You: are in the US?

You: it's legal in a bunch of states now

You: supreme court also ruled on anti-discrimination too

Stranger: Not that marriage in essential anyways especially if we consider.how many people get divorced after marriage.

You: mhm if you don't want to get married I can understand that oo

Stranger: I mean marriage was always between a man and a woman so i don't know if.it is really marriage.

You: are you from a conservative state?

Stranger: I mean are there any religions who have same sex marriage?

You: idk, I'm not religious, so for me marriage is a secular union

Stranger: I am not either but marriage was created by religious people.

Stranger: Even though i am not religious i believe in a spiritual world, don't laugh lol

You: no it's fine, I understand

Stranger: Do you believe in the supernatural?

You: I think in a lot of the non-religious countries, or atheist countries, marriage still happens. Maybe the meaning has changed

You: not really

Stranger: Oh okay. So you believe in science only? I believe in both science and the supernatural

You: mhm I guess you could say I lean more towards science

You: maybe I believe in a soul, idk

Stranger: Ok

Stranger: Oh ya do you want to talk about abortion?

You: sure haha ^^

You: do you have strong feelings?

Stranger: Like what strong feelings?

You: some people have very strong opinions about abortion

Stranger: Ya i kinda do

Stranger: Why?

You: pro-life?

You: no just curious, mine are less strong

Stranger: Well i don't join groups so no but i don't like killing a fetus either

You: mhm

You: is there a particular point in pregnancy that you think abortion should be illegal?

Stranger: A fetus is still the child of that mother and father.

Stranger: I think abortion always be illegal unless maybe there are a few exceptions like if the mother will ide

Stranger: *die*

You: have you ever heard of plan b?

You: the birth control pill?

Stranger: No i have not

You: it's the day after pill

You: technically you can think of that as a kind of abortion too

You: since you're aborting the day after

You: sex

Stranger: I dont know about those birth control thingies

Stranger: I dont have a lot of knowledge on many things

You: oh

Stranger: Lol

You: it takes a long time for the fetus to form

You: many states have laws on what point it should be illegal to abort

You: because early on it's like microscopic

Stranger: I really need someone to teach me things i want to learn

Stranger: I think if the sperm meets the ovum and becomes one then isn't that already a life?

You: it depends on how you see it essentially

Stranger: Do you support abortion?

You: yup, up to a limit

Stranger: If i was a woman i would never abort my baby.

You: mhm I don't think I would abort either

You: but I think it's important to have a right to choose to extent

You: having a baby is a life-changing event

Stranger: I believe abortion is murder, even in the early stages i would never abort my baby.

You: mhm

You: I was talking about weeks because at certain weeks the fetus is at a different size

You: like by week 6 it's like the size of a grain of rice

Stranger: I know it is a life changing event but murder is never the answer

Stranger: So you are counting the value of your child by it's size? :(

Stranger: I a

You: mhm well, I think there's a certain point when the fetus develops a heart or a brain

You: and takes its first heartbeat

You: I think for me, before it has developed to that point

You: I mean, in a way, every sperm cell has the potential to become a baby

You: and same with every egg in menstruation

You: so for me internally, I guess we all have a point when we consider life to have started

Stranger: But i dont think sperm is the same thing as a embryo or fetus

You: mhm but the day after fertilization, it's basically just an egg with extra dna

You: from the sperm

Stranger: Are we all a sperm and a ovum according to science?

Stranger: I am curious.

You: mhm in a sense, yeah

You: there's no brain

You: so it's not thinking

Stranger: So you and i are sperms and ovums?

You: well I mean, we've grown a lot

You: I think it's unethical to kill a fetus with a beating heart and brain

Stranger: That's weird cause i never felt like a sperm and ovum

You: because I think at a certain point life has started

You: and I believe the baby has started to feel things

You: lol you wouldn't remember being a zygote (the sperm+ovum)

Stranger: What stage at birth do you think the soul enters the body.

You: mhm somewhere in between heartbeating and having a brain I think

Stranger: I know but it is hard to imagine i was ever a sperm and ovum.

You: yeah but we all started that way

Stranger: What if it was even before that? Then it would be murder :(

Stranger: But it is so weird to think of it

You: I mean, like when ppl have sex there's millions of sperm

You: if it was a different one that fertilized the egg

You: in a sense you could be someone else

You: or when a guy masturbates, those are all potential babies

Stranger: Ya but without the ovum there is no baby

Stranger: And without the sperm there is also no baby

Stranger: So we are 2 parts merged into one? That is creepy

You: lol is it?

You: I guess it's just nature

Stranger: So i am 2 beings in 1?

You: mhm you are you

You: you know another weird thing?

You: so our skin is constantly dying

Stranger: What?

You: like we shed

You: dead skin

Stranger: Ya i know that

You: how long do you think it takes before all of our skin is replaced?

Stranger: Maybe a few years?

You: yeah idk

You: sometimes I think its weird that our body now is totally different from our body a couple years ago

You: like not even the same cells

Stranger: But then why do i still have my scars?

Stranger: Why didn't my scars go away?

You: scars are like dead tissue

You: so when your skin grows, it grows around them

Stranger: Oh. Well that upsetting that they wont go away anytime soon

Stranger: I just thought since scars that arent so deep should go away since they are on the surface of my skin

You: mhm yeah idk

You: how did you get them?

Stranger: I got scratched my sharp things i guesd?

You: oh

Stranger: But some of them are not really that deep at all

Stranger: Yet the marks are still on my fingers

You: mhm

Stranger: What is mhm?

You: oh, it's just a sound of agreeing

Stranger: Are you planing to get married?

You: maybe

You: I think I will probably get going

You: it was nice talking to you

Stranger: Ok

You: bye, I wish for the best

Stranger: Where will you be going?

You: hm? maybe clean a little

Stranger: Ok bye

You: bye

You have disconnected.