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supernovaspidey · 5 years ago

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I feel safer in your arms

Pairing: Peter Parker x Reader

Summary: You have been MIA for over a week, and Peter and Ned are trying to figure out what they did that could possibly make you ignore them for so long. It took one party at Flash’s place and an inconvenient Brad Davis to make you finally go off.

Author’s note: hey, guys. It took a lot for me to post this, the main plot is based on a personal experience I’ve been through, and I decided to write about it as a way of dealing with the shitty situation. I tried to make the emotions as realistic as possible, in order to express my feelings, but I’m not exactly a great writer and English is not my mother language, so please be patient with me if I’ve made some mistakes throughout the story. Make sure to tell me what you thought about the story, it would make me really happy. Also, if any of you have been through a similar experience and want to talk, hit me up, I’m sure we can help each other, I certainly do need some help lmao

Dedicated to: my favorite blogs! @infamous-webhead @justauthoring @userspidey @imnotobsessedwithhim @tomhreads @peterjonesparker @soulspideys@spideyxchelle (I know some of you might be weirded out because I have never interacted with you but i am in love with your blogs, i’m just rly shy, anyways hope you enjoy xo) and @lousimusician (U R THE BEST OMG as I said in your ask previously I am in love with your blog and your work fuckkkkkk, you are awesome and rly sweet ❤️)

Warnings: angst, mentions of harassment, slight PTSD, slight swearing, fluff (I SWEAR!!!), Peter Parker being the clueless human being on Earth, but also the cutest, protective!Peter, Ned is just a sweetheart I love him

Word count: 2961

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- Dude, what’s going on? Did you two have a fight or something? Because if you did, I swear to God I’ll…

- Ned! Stop freaking out on me, man. You are making me worse than I already am. And no, we didn’t have a fight or anything like that. I honestly don’t know what’s going on. – Peter was clearly hurt and worried.

- Sorry, it’s just that… it’s been a week. I miss her. I wonder what you did wrong this time. – Ned looked really judgmental and Peter wasn’t having it.

- What is that supposed to mean?

- Come on, dude. You may be her best friend but she clearly has a thing for you and every time she gets somewhat flirty, your oblivious self, despite being completely obsessed with her as well, always screw things up and she gets mad, so… what did you do this time?

- She doesn’t… have a thing for me. – Peter’s cheeks started getting red with the suggestion.

- Whatever helps you sleep at night. And that’s not the point! What. Did. You. Do?

- Nothing, I swear! One night we were fine texting each other and then… She just isolated everyone. She’s been ignoring me since then but I promise I didn’t do anything wrong, I even checked our conversation. Here! – Peter grabbed his phone so fast it almost fell, unblocked it, and clicked on your contact, he didn’t think it was right to show Ned your conversation but the need to prove his innocence was stronger.

(y/n): “wassup, arachnid?”

(Peter): “(y/n) could u pls come up with a better nickname? That one’s awful :(“

(y/n): “i’m working on it, but until I find the perfect one u’ll just have to get used to this mediocre-quality one lol”

You guys kept talking about nonsenses until you told him you needed to go.

(y/n): “gotta go, family gathering at gram’s. try not to cry because u miss me so much, I’ll be back I promise :p”

(Peter): “well I’ll try but idk if I will be able to go through the next couple of hours without you annoying the life out of me. It’ll be so hard :(“

(y/n): “damn ur heartless. Anyways bye, arachnid xo”

(Peter): “S T O P”

(Peter): “are you still at your grandma’s place? It’s like 2 a.m.”

(Peter): “(y/n)???”

(Peter): “if ur mad about me calling u annoying i’m sorryyy”

(Peter): “:(“

(Peter): “you weren’t at class today. everything okay? just checking, I’m worried abt u”

(Peter): “u missed a Chem assignment today, I’m paired up with you, it’s nothing out of this world but we need to talk abt it”

(Peter): “hey… listen u’ve been MIA for almost a week, now idk what’s going on but you can talk to me, let me help”

(Peter): “Ned and I went over to your place to talk to you but your mom didn’t let us in. pls tell me what’s going on”

- Damn, Peter…

- What? – He was certain he didn’t do anything wrong but after showing Ned the texts he got a little insecure. After all, he never realized when he was messing things up, he just got super nervous and started rambling nonstop until shit hit the fan.

- You guys are so flirty, it’s so disgusting, just ask her out already, geez.

- Ned!

- Okay okay, well, I admit, I didn’t see anything wrong, except for you clearly trying to flirt with her and being a total failure.

- Shut up.

They were sitting at their usual table in the cafeteria, theorizing about what made you go off on them. Both of them were uneasy, you were their best friend and they liked you too much to just let you push them away like this. Peter was particularly off, at the same time he was dying of worries, he was pissed at you. After all the mad shit you’ve been through together, he’d think you cared about him enough not to just ignore his complete existence out of nowhere. To be honest he was hurt about the fact that you didn’t like him as much as he liked you.

- Yo, assholes. – Flash just jumped up at your table. – I’m trying to do some community service, so as my first act of kindness I will allow you to go to my party tomorrow. My place at 10. Don’t be weird or I’ll change my mind and kick you out of there. Make sure (y/n) is there, she’s a sight I’d like to see at my place. See ya, losers.

As fast as Flash got to their table, he went away, not giving the boys an opportunity to answer. Peter closed his fists so hard at the mention of your name that his knuckles turned white. Ned simply rolled his eyes and told Peter to forget about it.

Peter took his cellphone again and opened your chat. It had been one day since he last texted you and tried to go to your place, so he was thinking whether he should tell you about the party or not. A part of him was angry and didn’t want to text you because of the shit you’ve been making him go through, but the other part was hopeful you’d show up at Flash’s and finally give him an opportunity to talk to you. He decided he missed you too much and would take any chance he could to see you. So he sent you the text.

(Peter): “hey, Flash is throwing a party tomorrow night and he invited us. yes. all of us. anyway, it’ll be at 10. hope you show up.”

There. Plain and simple. A loud sigh left Peter’s mouth as he hit his head on the table.

- It’s okay, dude. She’ll be there. Don’t stress about it.

(…)

- Do you see her? – It was the fifth time Ned poked Peter and asked the same question. Peter felt like he was about to lose it.

- No, dude. I’ve been looking directly at the door and she still hasn’t shown up.

- She will come, Peter. Don’t worry. Hey, do you think Betty would be impressed with this hat I’m wearing?

- Uhm, sure! Why don’t you go over to her?

- Are you sure? You’ll be okay? I know (y/n) is always the one who makes you company… - Ned was about to start rambling but Peter was quick to stop him laughing.

- Ned, I’m fine. Now go get your girl.

- Yeah yeah, you should go get yours too, you know. Look who just showed up. – Ned pointed to the door.

And there you were, with all your non-glory, and an alarm rang in Peter’s head almost instantaneously. The first thing he noticed was your clothing. You were wearing a jacket, which was not usual for you, who is always complaining about how hot it is, even if it´s freezing. The next thing he noticed was your body, you were thinner, not enough to make everyone notice, but he for sure did, and he for sure got worried right away. The last thing he noticed was your face. He always admired you for being so outgoing and confident, but now you looked scared and insecure, constantly looking to your sides, like the walls had spikes and the room was slowly getting smaller around you.

After scanning the whole room, your eyes met Peter’s, he was beside Ned, looking straight at you, you forced a side smile and walked up to them.

- Peter, Ned… Hi. – You looked really shy, something was definitely off.

- Hey, (y/n)! Oh my God I missed you so much, where have you been? We thought you were mad at us. – Ned was as agitated as he was when he talked about Betty. You couldn’t help but smile at how excited your best friend was to see you.

- I… I was sick, really sick. You know how it is… - You looked at Peter, but he had his eyes fixed on the floor, looking upset.

- Of course you were. – He sighed and you felt the sarcasm in his voice.

- Excuse me?

- I’m not buying that, (y/n). If you really were sick you would tell us, you know, your best friends.

- Yo, don’t put me into this mess, I’m going to talk to Betty now. But (y/n), I’ll talk to you later, okay? So happy to see you again! – Ned was quick to flee the situation, leaving you and Peter alone. You grabbed his hand and took him to the pool area, where there were less people.

- Start talking, Parker.

- What?

- You were pretty quick to shoot me a snarky comment inside, so I guess you have a lot to say, right? Start talking.

- I… I don’t have…

- Peter, talk!

- Why… Why would you ignore me for over a week? You were so sick you couldn’t grab your phone? And if you really were sick, why didn’t your mom tell us right away? I was so upset with you I wasn’t even going to tell you about the party, but I missed you and was worried about you and wanted to see you, and you lie to my face?

- I shouldn’t have ignored you, I know. I’m sorry. I really am. But you want to talk about lying? What about all the times you lied right to my face for almost a year, huh? The Stark Internship, the Washington shit, me being stood up by you countless times, what about that? You didn’t tell me about the spider shit, I figured it out by myself. And it’s okay if you didn’t want to tell me, that’s your business, but don’t point your finger at me talking about fucking honesty. – Peter’s face was sad and angry at the same time as you threw the words at him.

- You know, I only came to this shitty party to see you. – You stared right into his eyes. – I missed you and wanted to have a good time with you, but I guess that’s not going to happen so leave me alone. – At the moment Peter saw tears wanting to leave your eyes, he knew something was wrong, and that he had messed up. Big time.

- (y/n), wait! – He tried to hold you but you sprinted back inside the house, leaving him with his thoughts.

You were grabbing a snack at the kitchen, when you felt someone breathing down your neck. You froze instantly, trying to push away the memories. You turned and in front of you was Brad Davis. He was a good guy, but he was drunk and an alarm rang in your head.

- What the fuck? Back off, Brad.

- Hey, (y/n)! Long time no see, wanna dance? – He placed his hands on your shoulder, and the memories came flooding you as you tried pushing them away.

- No.

- Come here, I missed you. – He then pulled you in for a hug. At the moment you felt his hands on your back and waist, and smelled the alcohol exhaling from his mouth, you just couldn’t fight the memories any longer. It was like you were back your grandma’s house all over again, you started to shiver, your heart felt like it was going to go out of your chest and your vision turned black.

- Get off of me! – You couldn’t stop yourself. You shoved him away aggressively, and punched him right in his face. It was like you were stuck in your own body, not being able to control it.

You realized what you did when he hit the floor, nose bleeding.

- I’m… I’m so sorry… I… - The music had stopped, you looked up and everyone was looking at you. Then you saw him. Peter. You immediately ran away and grabbed a cab down the street, ignoring Peter’s screams calling you and asking you to wait.

By the time you got home, you were crying uncontrollably. You laid in bed and let everything sink in. You knew going to the party was a mistake but you did it anyway. Fucking stupid little girl.

- (y/n), let me in. – You looked at your window and saw Peter with his suit on, how could he have changed clothes so fast?

You went over and opened the window. He got in, you turned around as he changed clothes once more. You turned around again when he was done and sat on the bed. He sat beside you.

- So, I’m an idiot. I know. – He looked at you with puppy hazel eyes and you couldn’t help but laugh a bit. – (y/n)… what happened? Please, I beg you to talk to me.

So, you started talking immediately. The more you talked, the more you cried. You talked about how when at your grandma’s, while the whole family was going to take a picture, your old drunk cousin grabbed you by the arm to be closer to him, and started walking down your body with his hand, making you freeze with terror. You talked about how you felt like you couldn’t move or scream, about how hard he was squeezing your arm, leaving a bruise after. You talked about how you felt used, dirty, and weak, about how you should have done something, anything, but instead you stayed there like a scared little girl. You talked about how you were afraid of people touching you now, and how afraid you were of hurting people, and how that’s exactly what happened. You hurt someone, Brad. And finally, you talked about how you were feeling like your worst version of yourself, and didn’t want anyone to see that, especially Peter.

He listened to everything quietly, and only after you finished talking was when he realized he wasn’t breathing and that you had grabbed his hand at some point. He didn’t know what to say, all he felt was hatred, so he started crying.

- I’m so sorry, I made this whole thing about me when you were hurting so much. – You squeezed his hand when you heard he say that.

- Listen, it’s not your fault. I shouldn’t have ignored you, I just didn’t want you to see the mess I am right now.

- You are not a mess. It’s not your fault this happened to you. You are the strongest person that I’ve ever known, you are the utter best version of yourself and that’s one of the many reasons why I really like you and… - He suddenly stopped when he realized what he said.

Shit.

- You know… as a friend… my best friend! You are my best friend and I like you as my best friend and… - He stopped on his tracks when he felt you hugging him, he didn’t know what to do so he slowly and gently put his arms around you, making sure you were comfortable.

(…)

After that night, things didn’t get better, but they got less worse. Peter and Ned were the only people you were comfortable with, and Peter was the only one you were physically comfortable with. You didn’t think it was possible to be closer than you were before, but it happened. Peter was super protective of you, and he didn’t even noticed. He would always hold your hand when you were walking, and would always make sure you felt safe. Every time he noticed you being anxious, he would grab your hand and caress it with his thumb, or he would play with your hair and whisper “it’s okay, I’m here with you. You are okay” into your ear. He made you feel safe, and he also made you feel weird things, mushy and warm things. He looked at you differently, you knew it, and it always made you feel like your stomach was upside down, but in a great way.

One day, you, Peter and Ned were at the cafeteria talking, you and Peter were holding hands when you felt hands on your shoulders. You stopped moving right away

- (y/n), nice work on that assignment! – Your Chemistry teacher said and left without letting you respond.

Peter and Ned looked at you, clear worriedness stamped on their faces. You started to breathe heavily, your heartbeat started racing, you started shaking and your eyes got wet. Peter quickly grabbed your hand and took you away.

He took you to the janitor’s closet, the closest thing to the cafeteria. It was so small you were pressed against each other, but Peter didn’t care about that. All he cared about was you. When he closed the door, you started sobbing.

- Hey, hey it’s okay, I’m here. You are okay. No one’s going to hurt you, okay? I promise. – He hold you tight in his arms.

- I… I feel dirty.

- Here – he stood in front of you, took off his sweater, staying only with his nerdy shirt, and swept it over your shoulders. – I’m cleaning them, see? They’re clean. You’re not dirty, you are perfect.

He wiped your tears away and started caressing your cheek, cupping your face with his hands.

- I’m here and I’ll always be here. You are okay.

- I’m… I’m okay.

- See? Everything’s going to be okay. – He hugged you once more.

- Peter? – You called against his chest.

- Huh? – He didn’t let you go.

- Thank you. I… I really like you too. You know, as my best friend… - You felt his heart racing. – You know what I mean.

He let you out of his arms to look at you. He knew what you meant, he remembered the day he almost confessed his feelings, but he thought you wouldn’t have realized.

He kept his hazel eyes glued at yours, and you could swear he was seeing through your soul at that moment. He smiled, his face lit up. You smiled. You don’t know how long you guys stayed there, but it felt like eternity and it wasn’t enough.

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lordvatera · 4 years ago

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Best Friends: Quarantine

INT: Kris, a teenager, is quarantined in his house and has nothing to do other than chores, internet and video games. Mike, also a teenager, is in the same situation as Kris and he’s been online on instagram for over hours. Kris opened his instagram and he saw his best friend online.

Kris: (Chat) oy

Kris: (Chat) how’s quarantine?

Mike: (Chat) boring,

Kris: (Chat) how’s life?

Mike: (Chat) in quarantine

Kris: (Chat) wut u doin?

Mike: (Chat) nothin special,

Kris: (Chat) sure?

Mike: (Chat) yeah, pretty sure.

It took a minute of no reply from Mike. While Kris is looking through, with dead eyes from his ennui state, to his snapchat account. Then he saw Mike online on snapchat.

Kris: (Chat) well? Aren’t u gonna ask wat im doin?

Mike: (Chat) I already know wat u doin

Mike: (Chat) goin through instagram den 2 snapchat

Kris: (Chat) ok

Mike: (Chat) ok

It took another minute of no reply from Mike. Kris is still bored on his phone. He turned off his phone and played on his PC. Overwatch. Onced he played the game, he saw Mike online then chatted.

Kris: (Chat) wanna play?

Mike: (Chat) sure

Kris played for an hour with Mike beating every single game, always MVP. Then quited the game. His eyes are still dead.

Kris: (Chat) dis is getting boring

Mike: (Chat) yeah

Mike: (Chat) imma order somtin brb

Kris: (Chat) ok

Kris: (Chat) im hungry also

Mike ordered sushi from Kris ordered a Big Mac, large size Root Beer and a poutine from McDonalds. While he was waiting he went through his Instagram account.

Mike: (Chat) wat u getin?

Kris: (Chat) big mac and poutine, u?

Mike: I should’ve gotten some Mcdonalds instead.

Mike: (Chat) some sushi

Kris: Sushi, huh.

Mike: (Chat) oh yeah

Mike was dead bored that he didn’t even have the energy to hold his phone.

Mike: I don’t know what to do! I’m just so bored! I’m dying!

Mike’s brother: (Knocked on the wall) I can help with that!

Mike: Shut it dude! It’s already 2 pm! Your shift’s like 2:15!

Mike’s brother: Don’t worry, Imma make it quick!

Mike: What! Hell no! That sounded so wrong!

Mike’s brother: You were the only one who thought that. You gay?

Mike: No I’m not! Stop busting my balls!

Mike’s brother: Kay sure. Aright, Imma leave. No homo!

Mike: (Mumbling) Ugh, that guy.

Mike immediately took his phone and used it again to chat with Kris. His chat bubble already had 2 notifications.

Kris: (Chat) wat?

Kris: (Chat) ?

Kris: (Chat) did u die?

Mike: Oh yeah, I was gonna tell him something. I forgot.

Mike: (Chat) yup, im dead.

Kris: Yeah, right.

Kris: (Chat) ok. Say hi to my grandma

Mike: (Chat) sure wat do u wanna tell her

Kris: (Chat) i miss her….

Mike: (Chat) gotcha

Kris: (Chat) ….lasagna

Mike: (Chat) ok, got it.

Mike: (Chat) anymore request?

Kris: (Chat) also, tell her i would like to have money for ps5

Kris: (Chat) 500

Mike: Oh yeah, PS5 just released its teaser.

Mike: (Chat) ok, got it all written down

Kris: (Chat) tnx yo

Mike: (Chat) no prob

Kris: (Chat) bro, I have a joke 4 u

Mike: (Chat) shoot, im all ears

Mike: (Chat) actually eyes

Kris: (Chat) knock knock

Mike: (Chat) come in

Kris: (Chat) NAAAOOO!!

Kris: (Chat) dont

Mike: (Chat) y? Wats wrong?

Mike: (Chat) i already know who’s knocking

Kris: (Chat) but dats not how da joke works

Mike: Pftt, hehehe. Gonna prank him again.

Mike: (Chat) I just wanna tell u how im feeling

Kris: Oh I know what that line is. You can’t trick me fool!

Kris: (Chat) but that doesnt how it goes!

Mike: (Chat) gotta make u understand

Kris: (Chat) NEVER GONNA GIVE YOU UP! NEVER GONNA LET YOU DOWN!

Kris: (Chat) NEVER GONNA RUN AROUND AND DESERT YOU!!!!!!!!!

Kris: (Chat) U GOT BACKFIRED RICKROLLEDDDD!!!!! BABBBBYY!

Kris: I’m an esper yo!

Mike: Dude, that’s….. Sigh.

Mike: (Chat) u got me there

Mike: (Chat) honestly thought i could get u

Kris: (Chat) i forgot wat my jk was

Kris: (Chat) forget it

Mike: (Chat) den how’s u n ur gf

Kris: (Chat) Sophia huh?

Kris: (Chat) she’s bored

Kris: (Chat) like real almost legit slowly dying of boredness whenever we call

Mike: (Chat) yeah, i can imagine

Mike: (Chat) one time when we were in middle school, she would sleep in class with a pillow

Mike: (Chat) den da teacher went up 2 her angry n asked her yknow like movies stuff

Mike: (Chat) den it ended up with da teacher asking that she could learn something new from her class

Mike: (Chat) but she kept snuggling her pillow like she’s not there n said

Mike: (Chat) im learning nothing new, ur teaching history ms

Mike: (Chat) all da class laughed so hard one guy shouted, “she roasted u ms!”

Kris: (Chat) she still sleeps with a pillow in class even now

Mike: (Chat) n u know wat happened 2 dem?

Mike: (Chat) r teacher never spoke with her again 4 da rest of her middle school

Kris: (Chat) yeah, wats up with sophia

Kris: (Chat) she always sleep but theres like another ear activated whenever she sleeps

Kris: (Chat) like she always knows wat the teacher’s teaching

Kris: (Chat) i think she’s an esper

Kris: (Chat) I THINK MY GIRLFRIEND IS AN ESPER BRO!

Mike: (Chat) calm down

Mike: (Chat) i know how terrifying she can be

Mike: (Chat) ive experienced it first hand

Kris: (Chat) imma go asked her if she has some super power or wat

Mike: (Chat) u serious?

Mike: Actually I’m legit curious what her reaction will be.

Kris: (Chat) yeah

Mike: (Chat) dude i wanna know 2

Mike: (Chat) put me on another device and call

Mike: (Chat) call her n i listen

Kris: (Chat) k sure

Kris called Mike on his other older phone then proceed to call Sophia afterwards. She answered with a cracky voice.

Sophia: Hey

Kris: Hey, got a sec? I wanna ask you something.

Sophia: I can’t hear you.

Kris: I wanna ask you something.

Sophia: Still can’t hear you. Put the mic closer.

Kris: Here, can you hear me now?

Sophia: Yup, loud and clear.

Kris: So I just wanna ask you something.

Sophia: Sure, what is it?

Kris: (Hesitantly) Do you have super powers?

Mike: (Muted) Pfftt!! He actually asked!

Sophia: Well, I kinda do have one.

Kris: Whoah, really?!

Sophia: Yup, to know whether you still like me or not. (Chuckled) Something like that probably.

Kris immediately puts down his phone. He really genuinely thought she did have one but not this. While Mike was drinking water and spilled it.

Mike: Oh, shit. It went through my nose. Ah, man. I never thought Sophia would say some cheesy lines like that. I should’ve recorded this.

Kris: Oh shoot, I forgot you were there!

Kris ended his call with Mike.

Sophia: Yup, you’re still in love with me! Knew it!

Kris: (Mumble) Crap, I didn’t know this side of hers existed.

Kris: Can you give me a few minutes? I’ll end the call.

Sophia: Yeah, sure. Bye~

Kris: Bye.

Mike: Oh look, he ended the call. Getting embarrassed for a second. I can use this moment against those 2 in the meantime.

Mike: Imma give him a call again.

Kris: Dude, did you heard it?

Mike: Huh? What’s it?

Kris: Okay, (Sigh) it’s nothing.

Mike: (Mumble) Oh, I totally heard that.

Mike: So, what she say?

Kris: Of course not. Is what she said.

Mike: Ohh, well that’s expected. (Mumble) liar.

Kris: Yeah, why did I even ask her.

Mike: Yeah, I know right! Hehehehe. It’s just another one of your embarrassing secrets.

Kris: Huh? What was that?

Mike: Nothing. Why’d you end your conversation with her?

Kris: Cause…. Y’know I was talking to someone else before her.

Mike: Ahhh, then why you blushing so much.

Kris: No I’m not.

Mike: Okay. Okay. Okay.

Kris: Seriously, she didn’t say anything.

Mike: I wasn’t asking about her, I was asking about you.

Kris: Nothing really happened, okay!

Mike: Sure, whatever you say so.

EXT: Mike smirking when saying the last line.

END

#screenplay #writer's craft

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radio-charlie · 5 years ago

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Multitudes of 6

first of all fuck u for making me do basic arithmetic

6. What’s your lucky number?

my lucky number is nine >:D actually lol i dont htink it is but i want it to be. its very mysterious and sinister. actual lucky number is probably………….. 2

12. What was your last dream about?

already answer in zach’s ask, but summary is: thanos was kind of a dick to me

18. Do you want children?

i’m ok with kids in general but, definite no lol. freedom is too important to me. i wouldn’t want to bring some poor sod into this dying world either

24. Baths or showers?

baths coz then i can dick around on my phone WHILE getting clean! how far we have come as a species

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

1. my duvet’s too small for more lol

36. Favorite clean word?

potato

42. Are you a good judge of character?

yes lol. if i tell u someone is bad news 99% of the time u should really listen to me

48. Can you curl your tongue?

yep

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

i am a clean messy person. there is stuff all over my room but i keep the place as nice and non-sticky as possible

60. Do you talk to yourself?

sometimes! i used to talk to myself all the time as a kid and my grandparents were like ‘u know thats what crazy ppl do right’ lolol but i didnt really have anyone to chill with so too bad grandma

66. Do you like long or short hair?

to have: short, to look at: long. u can just do more interesting stuff with long hair

72. Are you scared of the dark?

for secret reasons :D

78. Have you ever done drugs?

just really soft stuff aka weed lol. i wanted to do coke in college but a friend told her dealer not to give me any because she was worried about me. i have definitely abused benzodiazepines a little before

84. What color is your hair?

dark brown

90. What makes you angry?

ppl being childish/unwilling to take responsibility for their shit/obsessed with their own self-esteem. non-stop whining also pisses me off lol but if i think ur a good person i’m usually more tolerant of it. i also get weirdly angry when i’m really bored

96. How did you get your name?

paternal granddad gave it to me. i mean this with no umbrage towards him as a person, who only meant to give me something nice in the only way he understood how, but its a sexist name that makes me want to shower it off my skin and i much prefer ppl calling me charlie

thanks dude!!!!

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shakingsphere · 6 years ago

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um i need a distraction so heres a question thing that yall are supposed to send to me but i just answered all of them if ur interested

Alisons: Sexuality?

straight i think

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

she/her cis

Amaryllis: Birthday?

january 30th!

Anemone: Favorite flower?

idk what they’re called but these vine type flowers on the side of my porch!

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

atla

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

depends on the context, definitely nothing where they could take advantage of me

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

i hate quotes i can never remember any lmao

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

.... diet coke

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

maybe? he didnt love me back

Baneberries: Favorite song?

vienna by billy joel

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

my parents are nice and supportive but overbearing and judgmental. my dad has a tendency to talk when its not his place and my mom is very jewish. my sister doesnt like me very much and is kind of rude. one of my brothers is really nice and the other is awful

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

I dont

Begonia: Favorite color?

green

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

red panda

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

night

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

a cat

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

an animator

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

i love kids theyre so cute

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

heights bc theyre scary, and unachieving because i dont want to waste my life

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

i used to play with ants a lot

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?

like if i was conscious it was my last day? i dont even know

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

single :/

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

central asia and iran

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

when im with my friends and we’re just hanging out

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?

no ma’am i am a child of god

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?

my ear lobes and i want to get my doubles done

California Poppy: Height?

5′3. it be like that

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

yes!!!!!!!!!!!! omg

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?

a college sweatshirt and pj pants with penguins on them

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

when i was little....

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?

my friend hannah

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

i haven’t...

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

um lobster?

Columbine: Are you tired?

yeah lol

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

college and moving out of state!!

Coneflower: Dream job?

something where i can use my degree lmao

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

i think im an introvert but i also might just have anxiety

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

maybe?

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

i would take a bullet for most of my loved ones

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

yes. a tie-dyed teddy bear named tie-dye. he is my husband.

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

aquarius

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

nothing that people who arent me should remember, but i think our experiences shape us so

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

im not dead idk

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)?

um id probably be upset i care about my parents approval way to much

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

my friend hannah again lol

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

public speaking!!

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

math

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

um i met my future roommate, i lost a bit of weight, and i got some cute shorts

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

stressful!

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

join my college’s honors program and study in russia

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

im not doing this one too tired

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?

xanax

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

i try to tell ppl they are important to me

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

im funny i think

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

i wake up at 9:30 its 70 degrees Fahrenheit and i get lunch with some friends and then we hang out for the day

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?

im so bad about this all i do is watch youtube and study, but i love to draw and im going to start reading more

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself?

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

pretty sure its french for clear or bright (depending on the context). my mom just liked it

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

im from a suburb of kck. its a nice and safe place to grow up but i wouldnt choose to live here

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

nice, but its in the basement so the view is really bad i hate that

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?

no nope no

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

she is very smart and hardworking but very judgmental and a bit inconsiderate. she loves me very much tho

Onions: Tell about your dad.

he is short and angry. he tends to interrupt me a lot. he is supportive of everything i do. he is stingy about money tho

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

my mother’s mom died before i was born, and my i was never close with her father. he died when i was 8. my other grandma has bad dementia and isn’t sure who i am anymore. shes presbyterian but she would send my sister and i dreidels and such for hanukkah. im told i look a lot like her. my grandfather has been very grumpy for as long as ive known him.

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

my 13th. i had an anxiety attack and had to go home early.

Peony: What was your first job?

i was a hostess at a seafood restaurant.

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

i give myself time to process it and then just move forward i guess

Pink: Where is home?

where your sense of belonging is ig idk

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change?

i would have made better grades and quit band in middle school haha

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

i want to be happy with 2 kids and a husband and live below my means but still be comfortable

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

nihil was a philosopher.

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

fuck idk my dog

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

background noise when your sitting outside

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?

for everything to work out!!!

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

very very hard

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

the internet

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

8 hours but i overslept

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

i have to

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

i dont have a job rn and thats bad

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

my jeans from uo

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.

cool librarian or 90s mom

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

160,000 dollars :)

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

the cost of college!!!!

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

oof like 2. i read Dune, and Slaughterhouse Five

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

college! finishing up my first semester

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

yeah :(

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

ive been late to ap french almost every day this semester #c’estlavie

#personal

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amaperson · 7 years ago

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I was tagged by @ur-always-worth-it. Thanks a bunch friend!!!

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: my grandma 3. Text message: probably to @bloodybaelish 4. Song you listened to: I Am An Island by PhemieC 5. Time you cried: dunno I’m a crybaby.

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: nope 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: that would require me to have kissed someone before 8. Been cheated on: lol no 9. Lost someone special: yes 10. Been depressed: very thanks 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: alcohol tastes like shit no.

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

12. orange 13. blue 14. purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: no I’ve been a lump 16. Fallen out of love: nope still a lump 17. Laughed until you cried: YES MY BROTHER IS A DINGUS I GOT HIM TO DRINK VANILLA AND HIS FACE WAS THE FUNNIEST THING I’VE EVER SEEN 18. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah 19. Met someone who changed you: still a lump 20. Found out who your friends are: I guess? I’m the dingus that doesn’t talk to my friends. 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: again, I haven’t kissed anyone.

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them 23. Do you have any pets: many cats, a dog, and some birds 24. Do you want to change your name: nah, my name’s fine. 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: went bowling with some friends. 26. What time did you wake up: 3:30 am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. Name something you can’t wait for: Hiveswap 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: before I went to bed 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I’d be nice not to have crippling anxiety and panic attacks 31. What are you listening to right now: Megalovania (don’t judge me) 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Only the ghost in our high school that we named Tom. 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: My dad being a dick 34. Most visited Website: tumblr

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME

35. Mole/s: none 36. Mark/s: I’ve got a lot of scars from various things 37. Childhood dream: hmm, probably to just know what’s going on for once 38. Haircolour: blondeish-brown 39. Long or short hair: It’s pretty short, but I think I’m gonna let it grow long again. 40. Do you have a crush on someone: last time I thought I had a crush it was actually because this guy made me really uncomfortable and I couldn’t tell. 41. What do you like about yourself: I’m funny 42. Piercings: just my ears 43. Bloodtype: O I think 44. Nickname: Claire or Rissa 45. Relationship status: single and ready to stay in my box until someone forces me out of it. 46. Zodiac: Capricorn 47. Pronouns: they/them 48. Favourite TV Show: Gravity Falls 50. Right or left handed: right 51. Surgery: My hip was out of place as a baby, and I had my tonsils out 52. Hair dyed in different color: I’d like to, but it isn’t right now. 53. Sport: marching band bruh 55. Vacation: The beach is the best!!!! 56. Pair of trainers: I have like two pairs of sneakers and I don’t know where any of them are

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: I don’t think I ate yesterday. Shit. 58. Drinking: Pepsi but my favorite is Dr. Pepper 59. I’m about to: try to get my gosh darn drawing tablet to work. 61. Waiting for: my drawing tablet to stop being a fuck. 62. Want: to get my life together without a panic attack. 63. Get married: maybe someday. 64. Career: I either want to go into animation or character design. I don’t know which yet. 65. Hugs or kisses: Yes yes thank you I love affection. 66. Lips or eyes: eyes, I guess 67. Shorter or taller: I’m kinda short, but not that short. I’m like in that weird middle area. 68. Older or younger: huh? 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: what? 71. Sensitive or loud: I’m sensitive. Super jumpy 72. Hook up or relationship: a relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: I’m hesitant until I get comfortable, then I start fucking around

HAVE YOU EVER

74. Kissed a stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: no 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: I don’t even need glasses punks 77. Turned someone down: sort of, yeah 78. Sex in the first date: that would require me to have been on a date before. 79. Broken someone’s heart: probably not. 80. Had your heart broken: nah not really 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: I’d probably only date someone if they were my friend first.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: depends. 85. Miracles: I want to 86. Love at first sight: no I’m ugly 87. Santa Claus: pfft, i’m 19 fellas 88. Kiss on the first date: I don’t think this is a concept to believe in as much as a thing that can happen. 89. Angels: yeah, I think so

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: Marcus. He’s the only one I’ve actually talked to in months. 91. Eyecolour: blue 92. Favourite movie: Nightmare Before Christmas. My sisters scared of it and it’s fun to pick on her. Plus I like the movie.

Guess I’ll tag @dirk-strider-bootyqueen @that-one-frying-pan @panzalion @bookiethequeen and whoever else wants to do it I guess.

#tag game #tagged for me #thanks

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2-d-ents · 7 years ago

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1-100 >:)

DAMN WEL THANK U OMG this is going under a read more after some bc damn this is a lot i love u thank u

1. the meaning behind my url

2d! stuart pot! 2 dents in his wee head!

2. a picture of me

the face behind the mask of tons of pics of 2d and noodle

3. how many tattoos i have and what they are:

none :( my parents wont help me pay for college if i get any facial piercings or tattoos, so i’m being patient. i’ve got a jar full of coins that i’ll some day exchange for money and use that for tattoo funds!

4. last time i cried and why

yesterday night after telling my dad i can’t come up with the money in time to pay my medical bill lol

5. piercings i have

just my ears i’m so boring lol

6. favorite band

i really like the band SALES, they are very calming. but i also like gorillaz (obviously), lullatone, K.I.D, best coast, the smiths, and the velvet underground

7. biggest turn offs

shoes???? this sounds stupid and idk why i do this but i dislike wearing tennis shoes on the daily. on a lighter and more understandable note i dislike people who are full of themselves even in the slightest? confidence is like really important and is completely different that conceitedness.

8. top 5 (insert subject)

i’m doing gorillaz songs bc why not.

faust

slow country

out of body

el manana

on melancholy hill

9. tattoos i want

already answered!

10. biggest turn ons

LEGS. like nice legs. idk what kind they are (short, skinny, plumpy, long) they are just GOOD u know u look at them and ur like GOOD. they are just aesthetically pleasing sometimes i guess more of like nice for the eye than a turn on. i like choking. ngl.

11. age

i’m 19, 20 in february next year!

12. ideas for a perfect date

planning one now actually! in october i have my one year with my boyfriend so we’re going to rent a hotel in chicago and go around the city for shopping, museums, and plays!

13. life goal

already answered!

14. piercings i want

MY SEPTUM

15. relationship status

dating a really weird hippie kinda dude named jacob lol

16. favorite movie

already answered!

17. a fact about my life

i weirdly own a lot of things with stitch from lilo and stitch on them and gudetama. i told my aunt when i was like 5 that i liked stitch and for some reason in japan there is a lot of stitch stuff like notepads and water bottles. same with gudetama. she just won’t stop sending them.

18. phobia

already answered!

19. middle name

maura. lol. my mom is mad all her kids have middle names bc japanese people don’t have them

20. height

5 foot 2. i’m sadly kinda short.

21. are you a virgin?

nope

22. what’s your shoe size?

women’s size 5!

23. what’s your sexual orientation?

already answered!

24. do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?

occasionally drink beers with just my dad, not too much of a party drinker

25. someone you miss

my sorta grandma in japan who passed away recently. my real grandma died before i was born so this lady is my mom’s sister’s husband’s mom but she lived with my aunt so i saw her a lot. she like to make lots and lots of crafts and give them to me!

26. what’s one thing you regret?

spending so much money before i found out i had to pay a 400 dollar medical bill lol

27. first celebrity you think of when someone says attractive

already answered!

28. favorite ice cream?

already answered!

29. one insecurity

my thighs :(

30. what my last text message says

“then stop textin bihhh!!!” to my sister when she said “stop distracting me”

31. have you ever taken a picture naked?

no, but someone has taken a picture of me naked lol

32. have you ever pained your room?

not myself no :(

33. have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?

yes!

34. have you ever slept naked?

only after sex so like, napping

35. have you ever danced in front of your mirror?

all the time omg all the time

36. have you ever had a crush?

duh? i am dating boy

37. have you ever been dumped?

like once or twice, i doubt three times.

38. have you ever stole money from a friend?

i think accidentally once? she left 20 in my car and i thought it was mine but i’m pretty sure thinking back on it it was hers but i hate her now so yeah that 20 got spent on a good trip to the cinema

39. have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?

too many times this month to count

40. have you ever been in a fist fight?

thank god no. i would lose so fast

41. have you ever snuck out of your house?

surprisingly no? my parents never ask where i’m going and never really have all my life. i would walk to taco bell in middle school at like three in the morning at times and in the morning they would be like “oi how was the quesadilla”

42. have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?

now what kind of person would i be if i went through 13 years of general schooling and didn’t have an unrequited love?

43. have you ever been arrested?

nope! never plan to be lol

44. have you ever made out with a stranger?

NOPE NEVER WANT TO

45. have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?

this is a vague question that i feel is meant to be like shocking. yeah, i met up with me boyfriend at subway earlier does that answer the question

46. have you ever left your house without telling your parents?

like. every single day lol they don’t seem to care

47. have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?

nah all my neighbors are antisocial

48. have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?

in senior year i left school in the first hour to drive to canada and drink the day away with friends

49. have you ever slept in the same back with a member of the same sex?

another question that’s meant to be shocking. i slept in my sisters bed last night

50. have you ever seen someone die?

no but does a cat count

51. have you ever been on a plane?

too many times

52. have you ever kissed a picture?

i swear i have but i can’t recall of when or of what

53. have you ever slept until 3?

yeah, even 5

54. do you love someone or miss someone right now?

my boyfriend i suppose? i’m used to technically living together and sleeping in the same bed every night so yeah i miss him right now

55. have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?

it’s a game called “find the dick in the sky”

56. have you ever made a snow angel?

when i was really young i only remember bc we have pictures

57. have you ever played dress up?

i was a tom boy when i was younger so no

58. have you ever cheated while playing a game

THIS MAKES ME FEEL GUILTY WHO HASNT

59. have you ever been lonely?

what kind of question is this of course i have felt a basic human emotion

60. have you ever fall asleep at school/work?

only at school never at work

61. have you ever been to a club?

no, i don’t really party

62. have you ever felt an earthquake?

yeah, living in japan makes you like never worry about them lol

63. have you ever touched a snake?

get that away from me its cute to look at but no way

64. have you ever run a read light?

only by accident

65. have you ever been suspended from school?

almost once but no

66. have you ever had detention?

saturday detention for dress code once

67. have you ever been in a car accident?

only when others are driving

68. have you ever hated the way you look?

all the time?

69. have you ever witnessed a crime?

i used to sit on the arm of my dad’s computer chair while he used to burn dvds we rented

70. have you ever pole danced?

ONCE there was one in my friends apartment and i gave it a whirl i love it

71. have you ever been lost?

my sister hates relying on technology so once it took us an hour and a half to get home from something that was only 20 minutes away

72. have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?

yep! went to nevada and arizona once.

73. have you ever felt like dying?

can we not lol but yeah

74. have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

what teenage girl doesn’t

75. have you ever sang karaoke?

its a big thing in japan so definitely!

76. have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldnt?

duhhhhh one of those things was to never have sex

77. have you ever laughed until something came out of your nose?

yeah its uncomfortable dont do it

78. have you ever slept with someone 5 years older or younger?

no no no no ew

79. have you ever kissed in the rain?

yeah! not too special there are better places to kiss.

80. have you ever sang in the shower?

i used to a lot, never anymore

81. have you ever made out in a park?

no :(

82. have you ever dreamed you married someone?

ugh i hate those dreams so much

83. have you ever glued your hand to something?

yes :(

84. have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flagpole?

nope! that’s gross!

85. have you ever gone to school partially naked?

is this a crack at dress code lmao

86. have you ever been a cheerleader?

nope and im ok with it

87. have you ever sat on a rooftop?

when i was little my pal let us climb on her roof and was like “i do it all the time”!!1 and then someone called the cops on us

88. have you ever brush your teeth?

what

89. have you ever been too scared to watch a scary movie alone?

every single one? i am a wuss

90. have you ever played chicken?

YEAH THAT WAS MY CHILDHOOD

91. have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?

no and good because that means people are considerate about your phone being on you lol

92. have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?

one time outside a mac demarco concert a pimp would actually not leave me alone and kept asking me to become one of his girls so i guess so? his name was papa schoolboy and he made me take pictures with him on my phone

93. have you ever broken a bone?

NO AND I NEVER WANT TO

94. have you ever been easily amused?

… all the time?

95. have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

yes

96. have you ever mooned/flashed someone?

only my friends mom because she flashed me

97. have you ever cheated on at test?

in high school yes

98. have you ever forgotten someone’s name?

okay who doesnt wtf

99. have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?

mac demarco

100. give us one thing about you no one knows

but if i give it someone knows

#ask #about me

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pacman-tattoo · 7 years ago

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All odd o:

iM GONNA PUT THIS UNDER A READMORE BC ITS LONG…

1. What is you middle//full name?

i’m not gonna say my full name for privacy purposes, but my first + middle names are Tristen Mackenzie

3. What is your birthday?

May 23rd!

5. What is your favorite color?

aw man like… light pink? dark purple? cerulean blue??? all good.

7. Do you have any pets?

yes!!!! i have a cat and her name is rose and i love her

9. How tall are you?

5′3″-ish? i’m not exactly sure

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

uh… 3 i think? 5 counting both pairs of character shoes though!

13. What talents do you have?

as a lot of ppl who follow this blog, i’m pretty good at writing! other than that, i like to think i’m pretty decent at singing and acting, and i draw a lot. other than that??? idk

15. Favorite song?

i answered this but i’ll just add more: A Soft Place to Land from Waitress

also Teen Idle and Primadonna by Marina and the Diamonds!!

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

alright so like my ideal partner is definitely someone who just loves me for who i am and doesn’t force me to change, y’know? someone supportive who’s kinda ready to take me as i am with all the baggage i have and still loves me in the end but doesn’t take any bullshit? like, they accept i have problems but won’t let said problems excuse my actions. someone who can help me improve on who i am, i guess?

also someone sweet and gentle and just understands, y’know??

idk i haven’t put much thought into a person past that, since i guess all i want is someone who actually gives a shit?

19. Do you want a church wedding?

uh personally i don’t really care even tho it’d probably piss off my family i guess??? like, it could be or it couldn’t be and it probably wouldn’t make too much of a difference for me because imo it’s a wedding either way???? idk man

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

like, me being in the hospital? no. visiting people? yeah

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?

uhhh i met a guy off of broadway once he was cool i think his name was andrew or matthew or something and he was in pippin and actually was charlemange the night we saw the show!! i wish i could remember his name because he gave me really good advice about basically sharpening what i wasn’t good at when it came to theatre

25. What color socks are you wearing?

none

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?

like… i mean, i wouldn’t be against it? as long as it’s for something i’m proud of, i guess???

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

nnnope

31. What position do you usually sleep in?

i usually lie on my stomach when i sleep!!! idk why it’s been kind of a recent thing??? like i use to sleep on my left side for years and over the last year or two i’ve started sleeping on my stomach for whatever reason

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

i usually don’t wake up early enough to actually eat breakfast but i like to make scrambled eggs and toast!! because effort

35. Have you ever tried archery?

no but i want to :’O

37. Favorite swear word?

eh, probably just ‘fuck’ because i’m not creative

39. Do you have any scars?

i have a reaaaaaaally faint scar going up my leg from when i did something stupid and was scratched by a wire!!!

41. Are you a good liar?

depends on the lie and who i’m telling said lie to, honestly.

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?

uh i can kinda do a russian accent like Stereotypical Russian and i can do a southern accent (which works because i’m from the south but i have no accent i swear), and i can do a kinda posh accent??? idk man i should sit around and just attempt accents one day.

i’m good at mimicking mercy from overwatch sometimes tho but only when i’m playing her because it’s more of me just sitting there echoing whatever she says i guess

45. What is your favorite accent?

idk my russian accent is at least fun to sit around and say shit in

also just??? idk what you would call it other than Stuck Up White Girl but that’s also kinda fun because i literally will sit around and say stupid shit

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?

that’s honestly a good question and i couldn’t tell you because i barely remember anything like lemme check amazon because i have this dress??? that was probably expensive

it actually wasn’t too expensive it was only 35-ish dollars??? idk then i tend to not buy expensive clothes

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

innie

51. Are you scared of spiders?

hhholy fck yeah i nearly panicked yesterday when there was a spider in my car like i was almost gone but my brother got it

53. Favorite foreign food?

honestly that’s hard but i??? fukn???? love??? chicken enchiladas????

also does fondue count bc it’s from switzerland and i love fondue like cheese??? good. chocolate??? heaven.

55. Most used phrased?

probably like “idk man” because i just Don’t Know

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?

depends!!! sometimes it can be around 30-40, sometimes an hour, sometimes i’ll be ready in 10 minutes i don’t do makeup and throw on something decent

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

i tend to mostly suck???? that doesn’t sound sexual i swear why does everything have to sound sexual jfc

61. Do you sing to yourself?

i think we all know the answer to this one. it’s a definite yes and anyone who thinks otherwise doesn’t know me tbh

63. Biggest Fear?

dying young, i guess? it’s something that kinda haunts me still and idk of anything that’d be a bigger fear than that for me rn

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

idk i rarely watch movies????

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?

i mean i’d probably leave a few out but i can

i took a thing and i got like, 35-36 out of the 50 so that’s good i guess

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

def an introvert

71. What makes you nervous?

what doesn’t make me nervous tho

uh i guess just??? driving in silence makes me nervous

honestly any silence makes me nervous because i need at least some sort of constant noise??? tests are hell, man.

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

depends on the mistake??? i tend to but if it’s just something really minor i won’t bother the person.

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

nah i dont think so. if i have then??? whoops. i know a guy who started (or at least tried to?) rumors about himself tho it was weird

77. Have you ever drank underage?

not rly??? i’ve had sips of stuff but that was usually with my parents and it wasn’t enough to make me feel anything. altho next time my friend and i hang out without her parents there i might drink a little, just to be able to say ‘i did the thing’ since i kinda wanna do teenage shit while i still can i guess?????

79. Who was your first real crush?

guy i knew/know (we’re kinda friends??? like we talk but we don’t make extra effort to do so imo???) named jacob!!! he let me down gently because he was also the first person i confessed to, and altho i kinda regret it, i still had that rejection so at least i don’t have to deal with that shit with someone else being “that first rejection” or w/e

81. Can you roll your Rs?

aaaa sadly no i wish i could tho!!!

83. How fast can you run?

i don’t think i’m fast but i think i’m fast enough

85. What color is your eyes?

blue!

87. Do you keep a journal?

i kinda used to??? i stopped writing in it for a while… 89. Do you like your age?

ehh kinda??? like…? i’m still technically a “““teenager”““ (even tho i technically count until i’m 20 but legally i’m an adult at 18) but it kinda sucks because being 17 is lowkey kinda stressful because woah ur a senior in high school time for u to be forced into thinking you need to choose a good college that will get u a degree for a job you’ll always be in for the rest of ur life and just the fact i’m kinda inexperienced in shit??? i just wanna be smooched before i turn 18 man

91. Do you like your own name?

i mean??? i don’t like ‘tristen’ but i do like ‘tris’! which is why i go by it online and i try to get ppl to call me it. there was someone i know who was like “no one even calls you that” when i said something about being called “tris” to someone and i’m like… that’s because i never said anything about it before…??? no one calls me tris because i never really went by it before….???

but anyway “tristen” is fine but i will always prefer to be called “tris”

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

i’m gonna say i’d love to have a girl but honestly? i don’t really care? if i have a child or if i have children, i just want them to be happy and healthy and feel they can trust me with anything - or at least almost anything, since i never really had that person growing up.

95. What are your weaknesses?

uh i’m not the strongest person when it comes to physical activities but that’s also because i’m a dumb egg who sucks when it comes to shit like dancing because i kinda throw myself down a hole when other ppl get things and i don’t and i get really self deprecating over shit

also self deprecation by itself is a pretty big weakness.

other than that, i’m kinda messy?? like my room itself is a mess and there’s clothes on the floor and i really just need to take a day and clean up

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

not that i know of

99. Color of your bedspread?

uh its too hot for one rn but i have a white one that my grandma bought for me and i use it when its cold af outside

i want this galaxy one that i found tho….

(I SPENT AN HOUR ANSWERING THIS BUT IT WAS FUN OMG…)

#bean answers things #ask meme #thanks nonny!!!#anonymous

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pomegrntes · 5 years ago

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tagged by @flitwickfilius this is long so its all under the cut if u wanna read it

on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? 2 or 2

describe yourself in a hashtag? uhh #im gonna cry

if you could do a kiss scene with anyone, who would it be? the thought of doing a kiss scene makes me uncomfortable but i wouldnt mind tom holland

if your life was a musical, what would the marquee say? a who

what’s one thing people don’t know about you? im not gonna say what it is bc i like to bottle things up ✨🧚‍♀️

what’s your wake up ritual? wake up ritual is wake up at 12 and then fall asleep a bunch of times while trying to get out of bed and then actually staring my day at 1:30

what’s your go to bed ritual? pee, brush my teeth, get hungry an hour later, eat, brush my teeth again, then watch some tv or something, and then mindlessly scroll through my phone until 3 am

what’s your favorite time of day? late at night when my whole household is asleep and its just me, alone, hanging out

your go to for having a good laugh? brooklyn nine nine or the odd1sout

dream country to visit? just somewhere far away

what’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? im sure theres been one but i cant think of any

heels or flats/sneakers? sneakers, but not like running shoes; vans or converse

vintage or new? new, but i do have an appreciation for vintage things

who do you want to write your obituary? my animal crossing villagers; more specifically, nan or boone

style icon? theres no one in particular but the way i dress is definelty influenced by pinterest

what are three things you cannot live without? this one pillow i cant sleep without, my laptop and thats it

what’s one ingredient you put in everything? i dont rly cook but tomato ig

what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? i wouldnt cook for people i burn everything but malina weissman, tom holland and jacob batalon

what’s your biggest fear in life? everyone leaving me and me being all alone 😹😹😹

window or aisle seat? on bus; aisle, on plane; window

what’s your current tv obsession? it would be brooklyn nine nine cos the new seasons on netflix and i havent watched it yet, but since i dont have netflix rn its naruto

favorite app? it used to be tiktok but tiktok is getting kinda annoying with all of the locals on it now so pintreest ig

secret talent? if only i was talented

most adventurous thing you’ve ever done in your life? im a boring person

how would you define yourself in three words? i have no personality i cant answer this

favorite piece of clothing you own? corduroy pants or my uncles old adidas hoodie he gave me

a must have clothing item that everyone should have? clown outfit

a superpower you would want? teleportation or ability to change appearance

what’s inspiring you in life right now? nothing im slowly losing my emotions

best piece of advice you’ve received? i dont think ive been advised much

best advice you’d give your teenage self? please shut up

a book everyone should read? six of crows or renegades

what would you like to be remembered for? forget me❤️

how do you define beauty? i dont freaking know

what do you love most about your body? nothing

best way to take a rest/decompress? staring at the ceiling

favorite place to view art? i dunno what this means

if your life was a song, what would the title be? tell her to stop crying

if you could master one instrument, what would it be? none im not a band nerd

if you had a tattoo, where would it be? wrist or ankle

dolphins or koalas? dolphins

what’s your spirit animal? im not white i dont use that term

best gift you’ve ever received? my friend recorded a really cute voice message for me on my bday

best gift you’ve given? my presence is a gift

what’s your favorite board game? monopoly or life

what’s your favorite color? im not rly sure but i have an appreciation for a lot of colours, forest green has been hitting diff lately tho

least favorite color? brown

diamond or pearls? dont rly care

drugstore makeup or designer? i dont wear makeup but designer sounds nicer

pilates or yoga? neither❤️ who do u think i am

coffee or tea? coffee

what’s the weirdest word in the english language? i dunno but it bothers me that theres some words in urdu that i cant explain in english

dark chocolate or milk chocolate? milk

stairs or elevators? stairs

summer or winter? winter

you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? i despise these kind of questions

a dessert you don’t like? cupcakes, ive also started developing a dislike towards cake

a skill you’re working on mastering? working out, i was good for a month but then i couldnt do it on my period without getting awful cramps and i have yet to get back into the routine

best thing to happen to you today? woke up early enough to buy turnips in animal crossing

worst thing to happen to you today? my coffee tasted bad

best compliment you’ve ever received? my grandma implied that im basically her favourite

favorite smell? a light man/ cologne smell and cotton

hugs or kisses? hugs

if you made a documentary, would it be about? why cats r superior

last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? i cry over everything i watch but more recently it was mrs svorski dying in girl meets world

lipstick or lipgloss? is chapstick an option

sweet or savory? savory

girl crush? malina weissman

how do you know you’re in love? how would i know

a song you can listen to on repeat? scrawny, the king, maniac, little league

if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? theres a few people

what are you most excited for/about this time in your life? the only thing bringing me the slightest amount of joy is animal crossing

tagging: if ur reading this, congrats ur tagged to do this!

#this took way too long and too much thinking

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subjectsilver · 7 years ago

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I wish i was mr happy.

here a story for you - i can't see anything because i got drunk and didn't properly close my contact case then i kicked them on the floor while i was sleeping...now I'm blind as fuck because i have only 1 contact left and don't want to wear just one... i asked my mom to send some like a week ago but she didn't so I'm going to be blind until tuesday afternoon....btw being blind is not fun because what I've learned is that when you can't see you have one less distraction for your thoughts - laid in bed all day with thoughts of suicide and refused to leave so i didn't hurt myself. eventually it passed as i took a shower and cried for a little

Monday night i had a dream that emma was bragging to me about her next boyfriend and my response was “HA HA tbh i don give a fuck and they shouldn't either (i was pointing at josh and hand)” bc she was bragging about how her life is set and all planned out now and i was like tbh they should be just as disappointed in you as i am for planning out your life because thats not happiness i was like spontaneity is happiness - and thats not who you are you are spontaneous not this future planner girl - and then she got up and ran to me started crying and hitting me and hugging me and she was like i wanna be with you and i started crying and i was like no i can't do that right now

i woke up sobbing and soaked in sweat

TUESDAY i had a dream that i was on the side of this road in this own wish grass field with my mom and grandma and suddenly josh smith showed up and i distinctly remember him wearing a white shirt with horizontal orange stripes one inch thick and all the trees around me had n leaves and i went to climb one so i could pee off of it and my mom climbed up and pushed me off and i woke up.

i had a second dream that night that was at a are sremmurd concert except it wasn't at a large venue it was some basement looking type place and it was some random artist that was complete trash i went to this board that had facts about the show and i saw that the show was put on by this guy who was famous in history for his tragedies - so i think the show was suppose to emulate some trash event in history but it as modern day rap and it was god awful.

WEDNESDAY i had a dream that i ate this caesar salad then i couldn't stop spying out lettuce from my mouth....kinda like how a clown pulls scarves out continuously, i just kept pulling out mouthful sizes of lettuce it was extremely weird, I've never had a dream like it before

this week started off decent but then went downhill tbh.. when I'm not actively doing something to distract me i literally just sit and my own head until i tilt off the face of the planet. i hate how much i think about dying and death in general i just can't escape the thoughts. there are multiple times a day or a week that i feel so numb and i just want to hurt myself just so i can feel something physically not really sure if it makes a lot of sense but its like an addictive feeling t me...its like a craving like cigarettes like i want to hurt myself so badly sometimes i just want to see myself bleed.

its really sad when i think aboutt it

when you think thoughts in your head i feel like generally its your own voice that you hear your thoughts in and u are consciously generating these thoughts.... sometimes when i get low i hear a voice in my head that ins my own and like it just appears and I'm not really sure if its just there or if I'm generating it..because when i catch it finally it goes away...but whatever it tells me is usually horrible and downs the fuck out of me and tilts me and makes me feel so small.

6 days into taking prozac one or two weeks to go.....havent really been eating - nothing new i have noticed tho that when you're skinny and don't need a lot to fill up you save so much money on food. i bought 2 chippotl bowls and i got 4 meals out of it.

i think that I'm going to try harder to stay away. maybe less snapchat stories - and less soundcloud reposting of songs because like my ex can hate me but for her to actually move soon i feel like i need to just become a memory to her and maybe thats not for e to say but i feel like she wants to move on from me and doesn't like me and even though its the exact opposite of what i want ill try to give her that.

its actually so annoying to type when you can't even see the letters of the keys when ur mac sits 18 inches from your face. i have to pull the laptop super close to my face if i think i made a mistake so i can correct it. even though i literally laid in bed all day i still kinda feel tired...im also trying to get 8 hours of sleep a night bc my mom said it'll make me feel better - well that and I'm not really trynna have many episodes of forgetting 30 minutes of my life by zoning out into a sleep or day dream.

i had so many thoughts during the week for this moment where i sit down and type it all back to myself but now that I'm sitting ere I'm just kind of drawing a blank.

lief is just crazy for me right now.... its just such a weight on my back and its crushing me and suffocating me and drowning me

when i get down i feel like I'm a completely different person.. when I'm up or even bc I'm never really up killing myself makes zero sense to me...but when I'm really low i feel like its the only thing that makes sense like it is my destiny.

i laid in bed and watch batman and youtube and listened to hella music toady it was pretty relaxing ig guess except not rule because i was role low and had a ton of anxiety until i started watching batman after i took a hot shower.

my whole family on my dads side is actually in NC right now... they drove thru the city I'm in to go on vacation to the beach...wouldve loved to go to the beach with the little ones but i guess they didn't feel like picking me up or thought i was busy or something, maybe didn't have the room idk.

loose rocks gotta fall its part of the climb...i am a few peoples loose rock and i understand that as much sense as it doesn't make i can still see where it does. but i need to start my own climb. the thing that gets me is that i feel like if I'm a loose rock to someones life they are a loose rock to mine bc thats not the people i want in my life but i do understand....idk ?fate? ?trial?

that whole paragraph probably didn't even make sene I'm not rule sure how to convey it and i can't even see what I'm saying so whatever...

oh shit i almost forgot that i watched so many fucking space views today it was crazy dude space is wild and we probably live in a snow globe also the earth is flat.

i hope this week is better than the last. i really do

“every breathe that i inhaled felt like i was trying to push 150 pounds with the movement of my lungs” -cam meekins

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