#unusualshrimp

[eldritchqueerture]

hello fun fact of the day: youre cool and i love you

:blushy:

[haunthouse]

May i use the verified crabs for discord emoji purposes? perfectly ok if not. Have a nice day!

absolutely, feel free to! <3

[rebloggingrexan]

#💪🏻 hashtag girlboss

YES i do the cooking YES i do the cleaning YES i do the disorienting carriage driving and controlling wolves with my mind

[future-crab]

I spent all day reading Laura Jane Grace's memoir and felt compelled to try writing something in that sort of non-fiction/memoir/personal essay style. I'm not really sure if this is worth posting, but you can blame @unusualshrimp for encouraging me.

Laura Jane Grace’s memoir has got me thinking about diaries, and about writing down important memories before they have a chance to fade too much. And honest to God, I think seeing her in concert might be one of the best memories of my life. Walking down well-lit Cleveland streets on a warm early-summer night, just barely cooled off from a sweltering early-summer day, humming fucking M*A*S*H to myself as I left the show – a song she wouldn’t release for another few months, and that I wouldn’t even especially like in its studio-recorded form – I was as happy as I’d ever been.

My cousin’s apartment was only a block or two from the venue, and despite the late hour, I had plans to meet up with them after the show. I wished, suddenly, that they lived farther away. I wanted this walk to last forever. 

Have you had any suicidal thoughts today? Yes, I’ve had about seven or eight. A modicum of propriety kept me from actually singing it out loud, but it looped in my head, over and over, the buoyant, infectious rhythm of it setting the pace of my steps. I hadn’t caught the rest of the chorus, or if I had it hadn’t stuck, so I just filled in the space in my head with nonsense.

Have you had any suicidal thoughts today? Yes, I’ve had about seven or eight. La da da da da-di da da da da, So ba-da killing yourself today. The chorus ended, then began again. The verses hadn’t stuck either. Have you had any suicidal thoughts today? Yes, I’ve had about seven or eight…

My scuffed platform boots bounced against the pavement. I wondered if the people passing by could tell – from my outfit, from the stench of sweat and booze and weed drifting off me, from the Laura Jane Grace tee shirt tucked between my body and my bag because it was too hot to put it on, from the big, doofy grin on my face – that I had just come from a concert. As far as I was concerned, I was glowing like those big sodium-yellow streetlights overhead.

Have you had any suicidal thoughts today? Yes, I’ve had about seven or eight. La da da da da-di da da da da, So ba-da killing yourself today… 

Was it “killing” or just “kill?” I didn’t know and I didn’t care. I couldn’t relate to the song at all, just then. Unhappiness was a vague and unconvincing memory. Life was joy and sweat and sticky heat, and shouting along to True Trans Soul Rebel in a packed, tiny room that smelled like tobacco and body odor.

The world didn’t feel real. The street, the lights, the air that never quite stirred into a breeze. I wasn’t used to such complete and uncomplicated hapiness. I had felt it after other concerts before – driving back to a crappy Long Island motel room after MCR, sprinting away from Mr. Small’s through a sudden torrential downpour after an unexpectedly excellent LS Dunes show, wandering the South Side with my sister after seeing the Crane Wives together, unable to make any conversation beyond Holy shit, that was a good show! – and I knew it wouldn’t last forever, but in that moment it still felt like it might.

I bounded up the three flights of stairs to my cousin’s apartment more loudly than I should have, and more quickly, too – I was out of shape and asthmatic, but joy had given me strength. I probably wasn’t very good conversation. I was still incoherent from the glow of the concert, convinced that such insights as, She played Black Me Out, and, like, obviously she was going to play Black Me Out, but holy shit Black Me Out was incredible! were not only interesting but important. 

It turns out my cousin’s boyfriend knew her work. When I mentioned Against Me!, he went, “Oh, man, that’s her? I didn’t recognize her new name – I used to listen to them way back before she transitioned!” We chatted about the band, about the venue, about the show. I tried, probably without success, to impart what it had felt like, because it had felt incredible. I was hot and tired and miserable through both openers, because I’d had a long drive to Cleveland that morning and spent just about every minute since on my feet and in the sun. She took the stage at 10:00 pm, and at 9:59 I was wondering if I should just head home early, because even if I could stay on my feet through the entire set, there was no way I’d enjoy myself. And then the instant she stepped into view, it was like a switch had flipped. I was grinning from ear to ear. I must have looked insane, but I wasn’t about to care. I will never understand the kind of stage presence some people have – it feels like a magic trick.

Eventually I had to go back to my hotel – my cousin and her boyfriend were too polite to hint that I should leave, but I could tell that they, at least, needed to get some sleep. I was still too wired to even attempt sleep for another few hours, but I managed to resist the temptation to keep them up all night. As I stepped out into the stairwell – old fashioned art deco tiling spreading out in pretty black-and-white patterns down three storeys to the exit below – my radiant joy dimmed just slightly.  The song in my head had lost some of its energy, but it looped dutifully on.

Have you had any suicidal thoughts today? Yes, I’ve had about seven or eight… 

I stepped out into the hot summer night aware that eventually – not soon, but eventually – I would come down from this high. I’d fall asleep, the sun would rise – though not necessarily in that order – and the day I saw Laura Jane Grace perform would give way to just some Sunday in May. But for just a moment, it had felt like that night would never have to end.

[itslookingback]

i was tagged by @starvy to post 5 songs i'm into rn!!!! :3

tagging @concerto-roblox @snaoisean @startingfires @freddiegoesmetal @unusualshrimp :))

[pubwe-anon]

@unusualshrimp and @icanseeeyou have guessed the answer!!! 🎉🎉🍾

[rosettyller]

thanks for tagging me @crowleyanthonys!

Rules: List 8 tv shows for your followers to get to know you!

Doctor Who

Good Omens

Black Sails

The Witcher

Shadow and Bone

BBC Merlin

Utopia

Black Books

tagging @saryasy @unusualshrimp @five-potatoes-high @wackylittlegal @deardiary17 @flamesandpages @sherl-grey @nerdie-faerie @babinicz @thorinsbeard

[justletmeon12]

@unusualshrimp @squishyscribbler You realize, of course, this means war?

[future-crab]

@unusualshrimp

let’s see if this extra cup of coffee makes me good or evil

[eldritchqueerture]

17, 18, 19 for the ao3 asks :)

(19 answered!)

17. Your favorite character to write this year?

jon! i really enjoy writing from his perspective and i have been validated by people telling me i characterize him well. but yeah, i really enjoy it

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

i think i have to say tim. parts of oftm are from his perspective and i gave a lot of thought to how he'd react and feel about stuff happening.

[future-crab]

Tagged by @magnetarmadda - tysm!!

Last song I listened to: Haunting, Haunted, Haunts by Against Me!

Currently Watching: Tiny Heist

Sweet, savory, or spicy? Savory

Relationship status: Single, waiting for someone to fall in love with me based entirely on my tumblr posts

Current obsession: This one performance of "Pints of Guinness Make You Strong" from 2015. Couldn't tell you why exactly, I just can't stop watching it.

(Also My Chemical Romance, but I'm always obsessed with My Chemical Romance. That's just a given at this point.)

Last thing I googled: I was just writing, so almost certainly, "[something embarrassingly basic] synonym"

Tagging @unusualshrimp @eldritchqueerture @draculagerard @acid-vengeance if you feel like it! No pressure

[rosettyller]

thanks for tagging me @saryasy!

Rules: Spell your url with song titles and then tag as many people as there are letters.

Runaway - travelling wilburys

On the day you come - powerfinger

Something - the beatles

Edge of seventeen - stevie nicks

Tears in heaven - eric clapton

That was then, this is now - the monkees

You and your heart so blue - bucks fizz

Life for rent - dido

Layla - derek & the dominos

Early warning - baby animals

Rock show - wings

tagging @deardiary17 @flamesandpages @sherl-grey @nerdie-faerie @babinicz @thorinsbeard @crowleyanthonys @gooodomens @unusualshrimp @five-potatoes-high

[future-crab]

[ID: a tag by @unusualshrimp reading, “i hope you die i hope all 5 of us die. End ID]

we should legalize polyamorous marriage  for all the other reasons we should but also because I wanna see what polygamorous divorce looks like

[hongjoongpresent]

pls talk about all your favourite things in heavenly blade

Lol thats ok

Tbh I might just answer my own questions

@insomniac-jay and @unusualshrimp all the answers are here both the ones you did and did not ask for hope this helps

1. Favorite speed combo?

K so I will be adding how to do the combo but I don't feel like typing it out every time so

S = square

T = triangle

K cool

ANGEL'S CROP!!! (Sttss) This combo is so very satisfying. Just a shame you only unlock it pretty late into the game but literally from the moment I get it I don't use a single other speed combo. Except maybe once in a blue moon if I feel silly and decide to use angel's harvest (sttst) instead, but they're really similar so my point still stands

Even besides these 2 combos, in my opinion the only speed combos worth using are ones that start with square triangle triangle. They're the prettiest and most satisfying

2. Favorite power combo?

I only ever use two (2) heavy combos because there's literally only two power combos that are actually worth using, considering how slow power stance is you don't really wanna spend too long doing a combo that isn't worth it in the end

The only 2 power combos I use are laughing devil (hold r1 ttst) (tip: if you use laughing devil against whiptail while she's down the last hit will hit and stunlock her even when she already got up. I've tried multiple combos against her and this is the best one to open with while she's down). Mainly use this one against the heavy guys with the axes

The other one is striking hell (hold r1 ttss), this one is really effective when theres a large group of enemies with shields/helmets since I've found speed stance block breakers don't Always work against them?? Idk why, so I prefer using power stance and this one is really good for multiple enemies

3. Favorite aerial combo?

Probably falling blossom (go into aerial combo mode, then stt hold r1 ss)

It's the last one you unlock and when you do unlock it it's the strongest, and for aerial combos it doesnt matter that it takes longer so it's the only one that really is worth using after you unlock it

4. Favorite level with Nariko?

Can I just say the entirety of chapter 4 it's my most replayed chapter for SURE. If I have to choose one specific level though,, I'd probably say on silent wings, because I find ninja enemies the most satisfying enemies to fight.. Idk why. Yes even when I fail my counterattack for the 10075th time. Idk I just really love fast attacks I love when I can use speed stance against guys

5. Least favorite level with Nariko?

I won't count boss fights,, otherwise it'd be to kill a fox, lol. But tbh, all nariko Levels are fine really because her playstyle is very fun. But I would probably say both dawn siege and bohan's army, simply because you don't get to actually fight with her in it. I've never cared much for shooting the cannon.

6. Favorite level with Kai?

Shen's escape. Literally the only correct answer to this question. I fucking love sniping I love being a sniper I love it when Kai plays as a sniper. Next question

7. Least favorite level with Kai?

Hoooo boy. Fucking. PLAYTIME. There's only 2 little redeemable things about playtime and thats (1) the music and (2) the fact that for the last wave of enemies, you can run past them into the door they just came out of and jump over the barricade and then they cant follow you its really stupid and doesnt make any sense but it is funny. I'm currently replaying this game and I can't believe I just got all 3 glyphs in this level it's a miracle

8, 9, and 10 I already answered here but I do want to add one of the most boring things about whiptail's boss fight is that you always get all the glyphs because of how easy breaking her waves is. The most fun I have in this game is when I have to really struggle to get all the glyphs and the fight with whiptail fully trivializes it, it's really lame

[eldritchqueerture]

20, 40, 57 🥰🌼

20. what is your favorite trope to write?

definitely hurt/comfort for fanfics. i think my ao3 profile shows that quite well skjgrjgkjh

40. best piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten.

i think all of the comments that tell me they love my characterization of jon in oftm. its like the highest compliment for me when the character i write feels in character to other people

57. what is the last thing that a fic made you google when you were reading it?

i dont actually google things very often when reading fics, i just take everything at face value tbh. it might have been some poetry because of a martin pov fic?

[rosettyller]

thanks for tagging me @crowleyanthonys!

rules: shuffle your repeat playlist and post the first ten tracks, then tag ten people

handle with care - the travelling wilburys

no matter what - badfinger

by my side - inxs

lyla - oasis

lay down sally - eric clapton

seven wonders - fleetwood mac

sail the wildest stretch - powderfinger

nineteen hundred and eighty five - wings

29 palms - robert plant

yesterday - the beatles

tagging: @gooodomens @saryasy @flamesandpages @deardiary17 @sherl-grey @nerdie-faerie @babinicz @thorinsbeard @unusualshrimp @helianthus21