#until there's nothing left of himself

[lokislytherin]

lookism ch435 motorcycle jay my beloved

[critter-wizard]

ep 43 had me tearing up in a fucking shopping centre ‼️‼️

b+w alt version that I truly couldn't decide if I liked it more . Also I included a lot of thoughts in the tags but they're somewhat incoherent<3

[introspectivememories]

can't stop fucking thinking about sun/moon shuggy bc shanks is the sun always and buggy is forever the moon. buggy will never be the sun, he will never shine as brilliantly as shanks or anyone else. and the moon makes no light of it's own!!!! it only shines bc the sun's light reflects off of it!!!! buggy never shines by himself!!! he will never make his own light!!! buggy who is always second best, shining only from the light shanks gives him. even worse, you only ever see half of the moon illuminated at one time!!!! shanks who gives buggy the light he needs to shine but only for certain parts of buggy!!!! never all of him!!!!! buggy never shines fully and he never will bc buggy is the moon, he isn't a star or a comet or a meteor, he's a moon and moons don't shine by themselves. and buggy who devotes himself to shanks bc he wants to shine, by god he wants it so badly he aches somedays, but shanks is the golden child, shining with splendor, and buggy knows when to stop fighting a losing battle. he sticks around for years drawn in by the gravity of shanks' orbit until loguetown, and as his captain's head hits the ground, buggy feels himself splinter into thousands of little meteoroids. he leaves shanks standing in the rain and thinks to himself, i will shine by myself or i will die trying

[myfandomhalf]

I just realized the reason they couldn’t show us Chuuya cleaning up / changing Dazai is because in order to clean all the blood properly he would’ve needed to undo his bandages and they can’t show us what’s under them yet 😭😭

[filthytheodeckerkinnie]

I could so imagine Martin being weird about Jon trying to care for him at all

Like yes, Martin is the sweetest guy who will love and care for and protect anyone he remotely enjoys the company of, and will constantly do everything he possibly can for Jon

But if Jon ever tried to reciprocate and help Martin when he’s not at his best

I think Martin would get confused and anxious

The guy has never been actually taken care of I’m convinced of it and I just know if Jon TRIED Martin would not know how to act what so ever

[zeb-z]

Bad has so many reasons to be cautious, even paranoid, as anyone else on the island. From Federation nonsense to Dapper being kidnapped to the whole purgatory nonsense to whatever fuckass suit of armor “old friend” was setting up cameras in his house. But it compounds on his regular overly aware paranoid self to this state of hyper-paranoia. And as a demon who can and usually will lie, cheat, steal, and use sneaky underhanded tactics, he expects the craziest extent because he thinks of it, realizes it’s possible, and would use it himself. We saw this very obviously in purgatory - when he thought greens desperate last ditch effort to balance the scale was a super planned out tactic to tip the scale, so he did it first, all the hardcore base hunting, the spawn killing, there’s a reason every other tactic he used usually followed a main channel qsmp post with updated rules - all usually things he was surprised no one else thought of. But then this also piles onto the fact that he has to have things go his way, all the time, and that he’s argumentative as all get out, which led to the debate between him and Bagi yknow. Especially because he’s not just doing it for the sake of being right, he doesn’t think he’s paranoid, but that he’s exercising the right amount of caution.

So like. Listen dude. Yeah he’s got reasons to be paranoid. But his thought process around building vaults for separate cookie caches like they locked up the risus pills, only to scrap it because it’s not perfectly impenetrable, is extreme. His character has hardly been a leading example in someone who has reasonable reactions to things. And even when there isn’t his own children’s livelihoods potentially on the line, he has a need for control, and the most control he has is if he keeps the cookies in his inventory at all times. If he makes himself the sole point in which the others can get ones in a case of emergency, then he can control the variables. The problem is he’s unreliable about himself when he’s at his most rational and healthiest, and he’s far worse with the current memory and health issues he’s been mostly unaware of.

I dunno it’s like. There is never going to be a purely impenetrable base. And it’s not just a case of “Bagi just hasn’t lived through __ yet!”. Bad’s own logic about keeping the cookies on him at all times is flawed under his own logic, because Bagi is right - if someone has enough drive to break into separate secured cookie caches purely for the downfall of eggs, they more than certainly have enough drive to find a way to kill Bad and just take them from his inventory, or to just kill the eggs themselves. All it truly does is give Bad a sense of control, and soothe his paranoia.

[dbphantom]

Hate having adhd went to go work on my fallout modpack, got distracted while going to disable the steam overlay, ended up in the points shop, went to go edit my profile, decided to change my pfp, found a buried folder I forgot existed, found some old Veneer art I forgot existed, spent 45 minutes looking at all the old photos, STILL HAVE NOT TOGGLED ONE SIMPLE OPTION THAT SHOULD'VE TAKEN 30 SECONDS AT MOST

[loderlied]

feel like i should clarify that gort truly doesn’t even like. hate zeke. not one bit. there’s no aggression or hate. it’s truly just. “devouring”/conquering every single piece of the wild/life itself (working to eradicate that filthy urge miscalled free will and control all etc etc) as the machine inevitably does.

edit: adding this chart here i posted it already but i realised that it helps w this post i think. there is nothing but the conquest for its ideal world to the machine…

[detective-piplup]

okay but like I joke about how much I like fireknight and how it consumes so many of my waking thoughts but it actually does . it does so much to me. a lot of it was built through fanon and clinging onto scraps from the games bc i doubt devsis will ever let them interact again but they are like insane to me.

fire spirit’s weird relationship with affection and love is also part of why I like them so much yes that was the source of the divine visions earlier .

nobody look at the tags of this post.

[coloredcompulsion]

I reread How To Climb A Mountain recently and have just been thinking, after the smoke clears and Catherine's subsequent deactivation, would Simon follow in Coetzee's footsteps? Would Simon climb up the barrel of the space gun and find that the world he knew really is gone and give up? Antije's last moments were kind of blissful in a way but I feel like Simon's would be the opposite

[venstm]

Kaveh is such a lover and I think that part of his tragedy is that he gives so much of himself all the time that he ends up sort of with less left than he should.

[widevibratobitch]

i hate them with a passion

[exopelagic]

okay I severely misjudged spaghetti guy he’s actually just really cool

[theplantbish]

Soooo.. how hot is his bodyguard?

The moment when we made eye contact, I screamed for him to help me and he jumped into action immediately will.... Fuck!! I'm never going to need porn again when I can just close my eyes and replay that moment in my head over and over again

[fellhellion]

I must not be annoyed at other people’s readings. Annoyance is the mind-killer. Annoyance is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my annoyance. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see it’s path. When the annoyance has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

[yanlei-a]

the more i think about zed and irelia the more i just think they're the same kind of cares so much that could easily become something terrible but also considering her importance in ionia (she is, after all, still a legend in her own right; the girl who singlehandedly turned the tide of the entire war) and her willingness to work with the yanlei, zed would so try to bring her over to their side of things. because he clearly thinks ionia does need union to be able to fight back against their enemies, and i'd say he's likely interested in hitting back at noxus, at least hard enough they'll fuck off forever, but with the order's current strength and their reliance on the tears of shadow they have limitations that keep them from this sort of ambitious goal. still, with the wanting ionia unified but being unwilling to force a civil war like kusho intended, i just think recruiting the woman who became the greatest symbol of ionian defiance is the obvious way to go about it (and if irelia fights alongside them, others would be persuaded to follow, and he wouldn't need to rely on the strength of the order alone for whatever he plans on doing next).