#unsure about myself :(

[seventh-district]

Making Incorrect H:SR Quotes Until I Run Out of (hopefully) Original Ideas - Pt. 4 - Nuthin' but Boothill Edition

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[fizpup]

valentine, you're a horse ❤️

[necrotic-nephilim]

i personally have very complicated feelings on the Gotham Knights video game and the routes it takes with characterization. i think it has a charm to it and it goes in an interesting direction with everyone (especially within the confides of the plot of the game) but it does have certain moments that veer painfully fanon for me. (such as: the dialogue where Tim drinks too much coffee) it's an interesting story for what it is but i don't view it comics-based for characterization and therefore don't care to interact with it much for like. fanfic purposes.

that *said* though. i do have to give the game some kind of credit for giving one of the top five JayTim moments that lives rent free in my mind. every since i played the game, the cutscene lives in my mind daily. it's the specific cutscene where Jason and Tim are arguing about whether or not Jason's non-lethal bullets are too dangerous for the field, and the argument leads to TIm *standing in front of the target* Jason is shooting and telling Jason to shoot him. it lives rent free for me. i never stop thinking about this.

the absolute certainty Tim has that he is in no danger standing in front of Jason, who has a loaded gun pointed at his face. the way Jason *hesitates* for just a moment before lowering the gun. he thinks about it for just a second. Gotham Knights JayTim seem to get along very well and can rely on each other, but Jason still clearly holds a bitterness about his death and Tim that flickers through in some lines of dialogue under the guise of jokes. especially since this game deals *heavily* with concepts of Pit Madness causing an altered state of consciousness, i think it's believable that occasionally, Jason fights the urge to fight and hurt Tim for the feeling of being replaced.

i like their tension so much in this canon. they get along but you can *tell* Tim is afraid of addressing Jason's trauma or even addressing Jason head-on, and Jason leans into spooking Tim about it. which isn't very comics feeling in their dynamic, but it is an interesting way to place their dynamic if you're playing with a more timid Tim who's newer to the role of Robin. (which he seems to be in-game) he really doesn't want to offend Jason, or worse, piss him off. but he'll still face Jason head on for things like this, while completely aware of what Jason could be capable of.

and Jason seems very protective of Tim and respecting Tim as a Robin in typical Jason fashion. if Tim pushes, Jason *will* relent. he knows this is a kid who's proved himself and should be treated with equal respect, sometimes even more than Dick and Babs do in-game.

so for all that to culminate in Tim stepping in front of Jason's loaded gun that he *knows* is on the edge of being too dangerous, just to force Jason to listen? it's the most unhinged way Tim could've gotten his point across in this scene. he was literally daring Jason to hurt him and playing with a very dangerous fire. but he did it anyway bc he believed he could make Jason heel just at the thought of hurting Tim. and he was *right*. they're gay and i'm feral ty.

[zondearts]

more clothing (featuring Mafuyu and Haruka)

[czerwonykasztelanic]

For a new world would come / Every once in a while

[oceanwithouthermoon]

okay some people genuinely really need to accept that the ONLY "queer coding" in saiki k is when they make gay jokes. there is NO other intentional queer coding, and i think people dont understand that claiming rep where it isnt there is much much more harmful than you think it is... just headcanon! its fun! you guys act like youre going to fucking die if you ship/hc something not canon, so you convince everyone that everything you say is canon ☠️ its literally insane

theres a HUGE difference between a headcanon or ship having what YOU see as canon backing, and a hc or ship that is actually implied or canon...

the only ship that you could argue is implied in saiki k is terusai, thats literally it, you could potentially make an argument that yumekai could be reciprocated towards the end, satoumiya, or MAYBE mikosai, but im pretty sure thats it...

nonbinary saiki is one of my personal favorite headcanons (one of the only ones i pretty much ALWAYS have in mind when talking or writing about him, it's practically a given) and i think it has pretty good canon backing, but its not ACTUALLY implied.

hes FAIRLY certain that his biological sex is male, and all evidence points to that, but he doesnt know and specifically says that he doesnt know what his true gender is... he clearly has absolutely zero discomfort with masculinity OR femininity, doesnt know or care about his gender, and is comfortable with either sex... he seems very happy to just be either...

seems like pretty solid evidence, but you also have to realize that there is literally zero chance that the author intended for saiki to be read as nonbinary, or trans in any way, this was literally just an excuse for plot and to have a reason to take advantage of his shapeshifting to do crossdressing/genderbend chapters ☠️ i love to see it as him being nonbinary and i think it has a lot of backing, but its not canon or even "implied" at all.

theres a lot of other examples of this kind of thing in this fandom, like theres a lot of people who claim that kubokai are queer coded (its usually just a joke when people say things like "hehe my ship is so canon" but im talking about like... people who see yumekai and go "um 🤨 this is LITERALLY homophobic because erm um kubokai are basically canon and queer coded and you shipping one of them with a WOMAN is HOMOPHOBIC" lmfao) and i am actually just not even sure where this comes from because they dont have anything that can even be twisted into romantic subtext, theyre just a popular ship because they have a good friendship. which is great! but theyre like the LAST thing i wouldve expected people to claim as implied or canon. they are absolutely not. the only thing i can even think of that might make people think that is saiki saying they look gay in that one chapter ☠️

[rizaposting]

Happy Royai day!!! 💙💛

Also works nicely for today's Royai Week prompt: Appreciate... Roy is very, very appreciative. Be sure to grab your Lieutenant firmly to let her know.

insp picture under the cut

saw this picture going around as a "draw your ship like this" meme and knew it was perfect for royai, even if this wasn't my original idea for today (I ran a bit short on time aaaaa). I'm still glad I was able to do something this year! 😌

[asterbats]

My submission for @pmdobt's fanart feature!! I am Terrified for Malachi for chapter 10...

Soooort of an abstract idea of what I (currently as of posting) believe Malachi and Maelstrom's first meeting might have looked like? Hence why Malachi isn't wearing his accessory from chapter 4

[potatobugz]

i love having complex headcanons and thoughts about jsab it is so funny because i can look at a character and say "this ones full of self loathing and also is a giant snake that lives under a volcano" and in game its the guy who shows up and tries kill you, refuses to elaborate, and dies, and they never show up again.

and then you look at the character and they look like this

[skibasyndrome]

why do fics get harder to write the longer I give myself time to write them 😭

[skeletoninthemelonland]

never lay down in bed right after eating. don't think about staying on your phone for nearly two hours in that position. don't sleep either. acid reflux is real and i hate that guy

[shalom-iamcominghome]

What led you to decide conversion to Judaism was "for you"?

I'll preface this post by saying that you are, essentially, asking to open a Pandora's box - this is an inherently huge question to ask, and I only request that you keep this in mind when I talk about this. I'm completely open to this discussion, though! I am absolutely happy to talk about my journey because it is so deeply personal and fulfilling,

I was raised in a Lutheran family - I was baptized, but I was never really... required to go to church. We'd gone before, my dad and I, but I don't remember this because I was young. However, what I do remember is just not believing in any of it. I never truly believed in Jesus, I'd only said I did. Despite having little pressure put on me in a religious aspect, I'd always just assumed that I should please my family. I went to Jesus camp (a moniker for the religious camp I'd gone to a few times), and I went to a handful of confirmation classes. As I understand it, Lutherans practice confirmation in order to educate young adults about the religion, and by the end, the person decides if this is right for them. I dropped out completely, and honestly, it was simply due to "I believe none of this besides g-d."

Once I had consciously admitted to myself that I really could not reconcile my disbelief, I decided to disconnect completely from all forms of xtianity. I mostly kept to myself and didn't even interrogate my feelings about g-d or religion at all.

After a while, I realized that I truly knew nothing else besides xtianity. I always thought it was my duty as a person to learn about others to accept them. I started throwing myself into education about other religions. Now that I think about it, I think part of myself really did want to connect with something that felt right in my soul. For a while, I didn't find that. Once I started learning about what were the true basics of Judaism, I felt a strange and indescribable feeling, really for the first time ever.

My journey into Judaism really began on an intellectual level. I truly jived with what I was learning - I remember one of my big issues with xtianity was the idea of "spreading the Good News," or proselytizing. I think learning that about judaism was what made me realize that there was something out there that I could logically understand. I loved the cultural understanding of disagreement - that you can even disagree with g-d and not be sent to Hell For All Eternity. I loved that observing mitzvot wasn't really a strict dogma. It was a process we all undertake on some level. I'd say that the common attitude held in the xtain spaces I was exposed to all my life (that is - "all of this is strict dogma, and no questions are deemed acceptable.") really made me appreciate the intellectualism that judaism often fulfills. By nature, I want to disagree with others, explain, agree, and ultimately learn, and I loved the culture of education.

I'd say much of the emotional attachment I now have to judaism came later. There is only so much you can appreciate about judaism from the sidelines, and once I got involved in my community, I truly learned this. Much of my love for judaism is simple - it's everyday life, really.

I think what made me decide so soon that judaism was right is because I am trans. I am no stranger to this feeling, I just had never felt it about religion. It's a deep, soul-level understanding of belonging. It's a feeling you can never do justice to through word alone. I've felt this before, and I know this is a feeling that I cannot simply ignore. It's something you can only grab hold of and never let go. It is a primal understanding within your entire being - at least it is for me.

Because of this, there is so much that I have not touched upon here, but I think I've been rambling for long enough. Again, I welcome any and (almost) all questions that may be remaining. So much of my decision about judaism came down to exposing myself to conversion stories and thoughts about judaism from jews, and if there is a chance I might be even a little like that, I will always welcome it!

[arc852]

I DID IT! IT'S DONE! Oh my gosh that chapter gave me so much trouble and also it's freAKIN' OVER 6000 WORDS.

Why did I do this to myself? Why?

Anyway, I still have to edit it, but that shouldn't take too long. Hopefully. No, it shouldn't. So, I'm gonna go ahead and say it will be posted sometime tomorrow! Probably later in the evening!

[im-the-knight-of-stardust]

Long ramble about Vax and that ending of season three under the cut because it kept getting longer and longer. (Spoilers for the end of the campaign!!)

The Matron of Ravens didn't kill Vax. None of Vax decisions led him to dying (well except like joining Vox Machina in the fight obviously). Vecna kill Vax. Vecna disintegrated Vax. The fact that it hit him, that he was the one to go down and not any of the others, was a cruel twist of irony. Of all the people in the party the champion of the Godess of Death was the one to die. So perfectly tragic that you think it must've been planned but it wasn't. That is the true tragedy of Vax's story. He didn't loose his life the moment he offered it to the Matron in exchange for his sister. That was never part of the bargain he struck that day even though he definitely was willing to do that. But that's not what happened. He became her champion instead. And he found purpose in that. And it was a beautiful and complicated relationship between them. One that wouldn't have stood against him leading a long and happy life if it wasn't for Vecna cutting it short.

I understand the standpoint of Keyleth who still after all these years makes it sound as if the Matron took him away. Because she's angry and grieving and she had the power to bring him back. But regardless of that Vax struck a deal - another one - before she could do that. And this time it was a bargain to return and help his family before joining her once again. And Vax wouldn't have wanted it another way.

And let's not forget, he's died before and came back. You can bend the strands of fate but True Resurrection, which is what he'd have needed to come back with his body being nothing but ash, is a step too far. That's playing with powers beyond what the Matron accepts in her weave. And of course you can argue about what does her opinion matter, if the power is there why shouldn't have Keyleth used it? Well because Vax believed in it too. As much as I love that whole part with Scanlan's Wish he had saved for Vax, I think it would be been tremendously difficult to find a way for Vax to stay, that he and the Raven Queen would've been okay with. Like a simple "release him from the Matron" wouldn't have cut it because he wouldn't have wanted to be free of her. He went willingly. Yes he went with tears in his eyes, but it was still his choice. It was his belief that his time was over. Because he'd died. Vecna killed him. And if his friends weren't insanely powerful nothing could've changed that.

All this is to say that I'm not sure what to think of that whole "consequence" of bringing back Percy in the last episode. I don't wanna jump to conclusions. Especially since I trust these people, I trust Liam with his own character that means a lot to him. But while Vax dying as a consequence of going against the Matron's will and bringing back Percy is a compelling storyline by itself, it is fundamentally different from what happened in the stream and takes away from the tragedy of Vax. It is still a tragic narrative but in a very different way. And I dislike that it plays into making it the Matron's fault which is a misreading of what actually happened in the stream.

[twomontis]

Yea

[yurki-posts]

The Nopony

(I made the eye wrong on the upper right aaaghhhhh)