#but that’s life

[twomontis]

Yea

[lilacjunimo]

the man, the myth, the legend (mister hunter bad batch)

[butteredfrogs]

i’m sorry i haven’t been active / interacting with people as much i feel bad bc even thou i’ve made text posts here and there i feel like i’ve hardly liked anyone’s posts or reblogged anything recently and stuff and i just feel bad for like not being very active. i started a new job and i’ve just been getting home super late i’ve literally had no time to do anything. i just feel super bad and also to everyone who has sent me an ask and i haven’t replied to i’m sorry😭 i promise i’m not ignoring you on purpose my brain is just so slow and i’m like uhhhhhhhhhhhhh, but i appreciate the fact you thought of me !! anyway i hope everyone was doing well <3

[everythingseasoning]

Digital diary: 07.12.2024

So if ya haven’t heard, I’ve got 1+ social events everyday for the next 3-4 days… (4 is depending on if a friend wants to hang again in the week)

My extroverted-introvert (or introverted-extrovert?) ass cannot stand… all this socialization… I need like… a person who is so cozy and safe and smart and caring and wonderful who i see daily and it’s just *easy* to be with them, who I give to & love mutually back… that’s the best…

I just struggle to do all this socialization with multiple people so closely together in the timelime, even if they’re the coolest most unique and bright people you’d ever meet and all I want is to know & love them deeply… in theory, at least… like that would’ve been so neat, and lovely(?)

It’s like… my energy tank… is just empty. Plus I’ve not socialized as much as I should’ve ever since the pandemic, so my social muscle is weak as fuck. And for the next 3 days, I really feel like I need to be aloneee. Maybe I’m overthinking it but tbh I really wanna cancel a few of the events and focus on me (but I can’t).

[bluebird-practices-drawing]

ocean+moon

[daisyjohnsn]

tiana taught me how to quick reblog for spamming but still my adhd ass cannot remember to not leave the app while they’re posting

[nootqueen404]

Sooo uh hi?

I’m alive, but I gotta be honest I’ve been STRUGGLING the last few months. The last job I got ended up going belly up really fast, and a lot of stuff came forward about the place and owner that has now resulted in me hiring an attorney. I can’t go into too much detail, some of my friends on here know what happened and I’ll ask if they can keep that to themselves and out of the spotlight. The most I can say is that the people in question violated a bunch of state and federal laws to cut corners and has tried to tarnish my reputation and career to keep me silent.

Then I got a new job - which I love and I’ve now been at for almost 3 months. But adjusting has been hard since it’s a lot more physically demanding than initially thought. Imagine walking 3-5 miles a day in an itty bitty work space. But that’s life as an esthetician. Then there is the holidays, which I’ve always struggled with since it brings up bad memories for me. Mostly family drama that will probably never get resolved thanks to Father Time.

But thankfully I have some good news - I’m FINALLY moving out!

I’ll be moving with Tom (my boyfriend of almost 7 years) at his condo. It’s right around the corner from a major highway, the people in the complex are all really nice, and I’ll be able to access public transportation. Plus, Tom works from home and is able to drive me to and from work when needed. This will cut the travel to and from work from 45 minutes…to 15-17 minutes. So yay for not wasting gas and time!

I’m beyond excited to finally start this new chapter of my life. The one downside is that I have to wait until after Christmas to start the moving process. But because of all of this I’ve had next to no free time to write and all of my creative energy has been zapped from my body. I know I had someone a while back ask me to write an Eddie x chronically ill!Reader fic - and I REALLY want to write it - but I just don’t have the time right now. Plus I can’t cerise what path to go with it. I’ll probably shoot them a DM and let them know that

1. I’m still interested

And

2. For forgiveness because OH GOD I’m so sorry for being a flake.

But yeah; the bottom line is that I’m going on a hiatus.

I don’t know how long I’ll be gone, but I want to at least get settled in with my living arrangements and with my job. Obviously the legal shit will stay off of here unless I get the okay to spill the tea. But for now I need time and space to get my life back in order.

I love you all and I’ll do my best to keep in touch with all of my besties on here.

Sarah Jane

(Tagging said besties to let them know that I’m not dead @reddeadgirl666 @ali-r3n @maladaptive-day-dreams @chrrymunson @lovinvane @woahlifehitsyahuh @mothymunson @kurtsroo )

[compacflt]

pre-publishing notes for slider (actually i meant to poast this yesterday i just forgor 💀), just to put them out there

as per usual i peddle an extreme amount of mis- and straight up disinformation about the aerospace & defense industries in this one. as a general rule of thumb if it sounds like i researched it poorly and/or made it up, that’s because i researched it poorly and/or made it up. like every scene i was like ‘that wouldn’t happen :D’ and wrote it anyway

this one-shot renders my third one-shot (about ice & hangman) entirely obsolete, as if the rooster one-shot didn’t already do that. so just ignore the hangman one. (i only wrote that one cause i felt bad about tagging my fics hangster when they’re barely in it.) Also, this one-shot kind of directly contradicts the end scene of “debriefing” in pretty much every way. i don’t really care, because this is a much stronger ending, but just throwing that out there—this one-shot doesn’t really jive with my other writing for plot/character arc reasons & im too lazy/sick and tired of my other writing to go back and retcon any of it

i only research things i am mandated to by school/a job/journalistic code of ethics, or that i think are interesting, or that i know will not depress me. divorce depresses me so i did not research divorce. Also im pretty sure marriage doesn’t work the way i described it “sign the papers & that’s it” but idgaf . shrug. im having fun

something i Didn’t make up, though: the thesis that iraq/afghanistan went so poorly in the long term partly because our armed services & especially that generation of commanding officers were prepared for total warfare with a near-peer (like the ussr) instead of counterinsurgency tactics against mountain-based guerrilla warfare-stratted forces (like Al-q*eda etc). that’s a very real thesis that ive read in multiple mil history books (“the generals,” ricks; “mil history for the modern strategist,” ohanlon) & co-opted because it’s kind of, in a fucked up way, a good metaphor for ice’s whole deal—he’d been expecting a traditional officer’s life with a woman etc (aka traditional warfare against the ussr, the us’ sworn enemy) and instead found happiness in the weirdest of places, another dude (aka guerrilla warfare) and no one taught him the right strategy for dealing with that; so, pigheadedly, like some US commands in the Middle East for a decade, he just dug in his heels & refused to budge/change his "total traditional war/heteronormative"-based strategy even if it obviously wasn’t working.

In a similar vein just so i can beat the allegations that im strategically dumb, the “strategies” against the ussr the boys are playing with in the usna section are intentionally the most dogshit strategies on earth. do not invade russia in a land war. especially not when nukes are on the table. the point is they’re ALL bad at strategy (strat as a metaphor for interpersonal communication).

i get the words “moderate” and “modulate” confused a lot. there’s a couple times in this one when I use moderate and mean modulate. Now it’s too late to edit it. by which i mean i am too lazy. editing anything on ao3 is a Sisyphean task. not worth it.

there's a lot to be said about my ice & maverick's respectability, which is to say, as slider points out, their life together is incredibly normie and boring and regular, except that they're two guys. like there's nothing super subversive going on here. "in the grand scheme of things is this really so bad?" is the question. politically this is a little funky. for metatextual character-arc reasons ice has to agree to an official marriage to prove that by the end he's not afraid to legally legitimize their relationship, but the heteroflexible/straight-passing/socially conservative ice & mav that I have written also probably aren't the kind of guys to acknowledge the struggle & strife & subversiveness of the queer community before them that fought for them to have that right. to quote from an essay by Lauren berlant & Michael Warner ("Sex in public"): "Respectable gays [ice & mav, distancing themselves from other gays] like to think that they owe nothing to the sexual subculture they think of as sleazy. But their success, their way of living, their political rights, and their very identities would never have been possible but for the existence of the public [visibly queer] sexual culture they now despise." just throwing that out there as something that is weighing on my mind having now finished writing this. I think that issue (ice & mav's relationship with/debt to the lgbt community) could be explored with a character like rooster, who might be much more a part of that struggle (especially pre-dadt-repeal)...but idk where or how I would write about it. just something to chew on. I keep finding different ways to politically interpret what I myself have already written which then keeps leading to more fucking one-shots. This slider one for instance was a reinterpretation from the 1980s Cold War politics lens of nuclear doomsday & how that affected a generation of men making shitty/suicidal decisions about their lives. an endless cycle for me. "just one more interpretation...i swear just one more..."

[fencesandfrogs]

Currently thinking about: maximum ride taught me useful life skill of pulling bus cord @spr0utsies

[sadesluvr]

no update this week? :0

Yeah, sorry!! I had a really bad day on Wednesday and I just wasn’t in the headspace to edit and post etc 😩 I have more energy today so I hope to post between now and next Friday! :)

How is everyone doing?

[guessimabasicnerdgirlnow]

Alright. I haven’t started Death of Venomverse yet and I have only seen one page of the preview from some months ago (the one with Rocket) and I wanted to do something

Here are my predictions about the fate of all the Venoms from Extreme Venomverse plus the guys from the infinity comic (until #6 because I haven’t read the latest ones) plus some selected people from Venom Beyond (plus the one guy from Web of Carnage bc idk)

Idk I like making predictions and I like seeing if I am right. I included some characters whose fate we already saw just to inflate my numbers lol

[yellowpamonha]

just wrote +700 words on a fic I haven’t updated since 2021. feels so amazing!!! hopefully I’ll keep up and be able to post another chapter soon

[bradshawsbaby]

I’m super exhausted, so I’m off to go murder my pillow 😴 I’m hoping I’ll be able to work on more celebration requests tomorrow!

[noahverrier]

My oil painting of an Uncrustable

[maudiemoods]

If life is a never ending loop of dirty dishes and laundry then that means life is a never ending loop of home cooked meals and comfy clean clothes