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Long ramble about Vax and that ending of season three under the cut because it kept getting longer and longer. (Spoilers for the end of the campaign!!)
The Matron of Ravens didn't kill Vax. None of Vax decisions led him to dying (well except like joining Vox Machina in the fight obviously). Vecna kill Vax. Vecna disintegrated Vax. The fact that it hit him, that he was the one to go down and not any of the others, was a cruel twist of irony. Of all the people in the party the champion of the Godess of Death was the one to die. So perfectly tragic that you think it must've been planned but it wasn't. That is the true tragedy of Vax's story. He didn't loose his life the moment he offered it to the Matron in exchange for his sister. That was never part of the bargain he struck that day even though he definitely was willing to do that. But that's not what happened. He became her champion instead. And he found purpose in that. And it was a beautiful and complicated relationship between them. One that wouldn't have stood against him leading a long and happy life if it wasn't for Vecna cutting it short.
I understand the standpoint of Keyleth who still after all these years makes it sound as if the Matron took him away. Because she's angry and grieving and she had the power to bring him back. But regardless of that Vax struck a deal - another one - before she could do that. And this time it was a bargain to return and help his family before joining her once again. And Vax wouldn't have wanted it another way.
And let's not forget, he's died before and came back. You can bend the strands of fate but True Resurrection, which is what he'd have needed to come back with his body being nothing but ash, is a step too far. That's playing with powers beyond what the Matron accepts in her weave. And of course you can argue about what does her opinion matter, if the power is there why shouldn't have Keyleth used it? Well because Vax believed in it too. As much as I love that whole part with Scanlan's Wish he had saved for Vax, I think it would be been tremendously difficult to find a way for Vax to stay, that he and the Raven Queen would've been okay with. Like a simple "release him from the Matron" wouldn't have cut it because he wouldn't have wanted to be free of her. He went willingly. Yes he went with tears in his eyes, but it was still his choice. It was his belief that his time was over. Because he'd died. Vecna killed him. And if his friends weren't insanely powerful nothing could've changed that.
All this is to say that I'm not sure what to think of that whole "consequence" of bringing back Percy in the last episode. I don't wanna jump to conclusions. Especially since I trust these people, I trust Liam with his own character that means a lot to him. But while Vax dying as a consequence of going against the Matron's will and bringing back Percy is a compelling storyline by itself, it is fundamentally different from what happened in the stream and takes away from the tragedy of Vax. It is still a tragic narrative but in a very different way. And I dislike that it plays into making it the Matron's fault which is a misreading of what actually happened in the stream.
#extremely unsure about even posting this#because I hate jumping to conclusions too early#we have no idea what will happen#it only seems to head in a certain direction right now#and I don't really like where that's heading#but I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about Vax and his story#can you tell#so I had to get that out of my mind#and put it int words#too many words#I even tried to keep myself short!#vax'ildan#critical role#legend of vox machina#lovm#lovm spoilers#legend of vox machina spoilers#cr spoilers#vm
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˚˖𓍢ִ໋🦢˚ 𝓻𝔂𝓾𝓱𝓪𝓲𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓶
there was an ache in my heart when i awoke in a strange, beautiful world that wasn’t my own. even as months turned to years, i still missed the familiar skies, the voice of loved ones and the home i had left behind. i wrote letters that went nowhere and whispered silent prayers that reached no one. it was like i was plucked from my own reality and placed in a world where i didn’t quite belong.
yet, as much as i longed for home, i was determined to learn in this new life. sumeru became my sanctuary and the akademiya, my solace. i learned their languages, customs, and secrets while sharing stories of the stars, landmarks, and beauty of my own world. the scholars listened, fascinated by the similarities and differences, but none more than al-haitham—a student assigned to guide me through this foreign land. he was a quiet presence. thoughtful and curious. he did not pity me.
and over time, he went from guide to peer to something more. over time, i wasn’t just seeking knowledge but also him. but what was the point? what was the point of falling for him if one day, i could just disappear—vanish back to my world, leaving him and teyvat behind? this could slip away at any moment. this might be as fleeting as a dream.
despite all reason, i still found myself loving him deeply. in a world that wasn’t my own, he had become my home.
𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐬: very slow burn, mutual pining, friends to lovers
𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐔𝐒: 22.10.22 | playlist | genshinverse ryu
��𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐒: modern au | season of love
#is this an intro… or a drabble…#i got carried away#did i really just isekai myself into the genshinverse?#yes#don’t laugh at me please !!!!#be kind please !!!#i loved the academic rivals to lovers thing i had going on but that backstory belongs to my oc nahla (who i had for haitham before#i decided to self ship with him)#for my s/i i found myself daydreaming about this scenario and it’s probably a bit too ambitious for genshinverse but hey#the power of fiction lets me do whatever i want!#and our dynamics still stays the same ^^ i just changed my lore. i rlly tried to keep this intro as short as possible#but i think there is something so deeply romantic about falling for someone despite there being so many barriers and crossroads#if i wasnt clear enough we meet as students! i can picture him watching me curiously from behind his book when i first enrol at the akademi#he could be pragmatic at first but over time he brings me things that remind me of my home. perhaps books that could comfort me or#asking questions to allow me to talk about it#not knowing whether or not i'll suddenly go *blip* makes every moment so precious#nothing better than finding your beacon of light in an unfamiliar place#*he* fell first *i* fell harder me thinks#because i was never going to open myself to love but did it anyway#anyway who’s even reading this far i should have like a certain emoji for people to comment if they’ve reach this point#maybe 🌎#selfships#selfship moodboard#my selfships#genshin self insert#self insert
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Portia Montez for @rainymoodlet's Rock of Love Bachelor Challenge! <3
in depth info + full wardrobe below the cut! ↓
✮ Portia was born and raised in Evergeen Harbor, an industrial port town known for it's huge import/export businesses and even more so - it's heavily polluted environment especially at the shores of the sickly brown-ish sea. The early death of Portia's mother directly caused by the affects the bad air had on her health has instilled somewhat of a love-hate relationship towards Evergreen Harbor into the then 8 year old girl.
✮ Her father tried his best to raise his daughter by himself but despite his long working hours in a local shipyard the money was barely enough for them to survive, the possibilty of moving away far out of reach.
✮ Early in her youth she found her talent and passion for skateboarding, winning many prizes in junior competitions all over the country. After barley graduating from highschool (some ppl just aren't made for the educational system lol) she became a promising professional and quickly made a name for herself in the skating community all over the world. Her biggest successes were two back-to-back street skateboard world championship titles and several self-invented tricks where named after her. Life was good for Portia not only professionally but personally too after meeting Davide Montez who became not only her manager but als her husband.
✮ Sadly, as the saying goes though - nothing lasts forever and about a year ago, Portia found herself forced to retire from competing professionally because growing up in the bad environment of Evergreen Harbor finally started to catch up with her own health. Her retirement caused her marriage to suffer as well and soon after she announced the end of her career as a professional, Davide called it quits and they agreed to divorce on good terms.
✮ Now with her financial stability and free time to pursue new things, Portia took the chance and applied for the bachelor challenge to win Jackson Roth's heart. This is mostly thanks to her friends pressuring her to try after catching her gawking at one of the billboards with Jackson's photo on it (i mean HELLO?! he's hawt! °-° she just... doesn't like the music lol). Portia is (somewhat) ready for a new adventure and maybe, just maybe she'll find love again! <3
likes:
colors: orange, red, black music: electronica, hip hop, latin characteristics: family-oriented, hardworking, idealistic convo topics: flirting, deep thoughts, affection, talking about hobbies fashion: rocker, streetwear activities: fitness, dancing, wellness, rock climbing decor: industrial, mid-century
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music: metal, cottagecore, ranch characteristics: egotistical, argumentative, ambitionless convo topics: evil interactions, arguing, gossip fashion: polished, country activities: fishing, cooking, mischief decor: farmhouse, cute
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#my submission ta-da~#sk8ter girl#i know it sounds as if she doesn't even want to participate but i swear she does T.T she's just not good at showing it#i used waaay too much cc... i hope this isn't a problem if she gets picked °_°#i tried to keep myself on a short leash but it didn't work lol#i had to change her face a bit bc of a preset acting up#so she looks a lil different in the first screenshots compared to the ones from her wardrobe i took a few days ago T.T#should't be too much of a difference#simblr#sims 4#ts4#sims 4 bachelor challenge#rockoflovebc#ts4 simblr#showusyoursims
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#my sleep schedule is totally screwed#and I am once again very sad#I keep promising myself I'm not going to engage in the things that keep making me sad and yet here I am#engaging#lmfao#fuck 💔 like honestly#dude I'm actually sorry im a mess like this#you'd think being called out on it would make me stop but no#inside my head feels like a rats nest#I tried to write a short comfort fic and couldn't even do that#idk what to say if you really hate reading it when I do this... other than I'm sorry and I wish I didn't#here's the tag you can block to not see it:#notfluffytickles
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if you draw enough monster ocs, when you go back to drawing a human character, it feels like "sameface syndrome" everytime, by virtue of their face being. human.
#toy txt post#or maybe i am just sameface syndrome#but also different face syndrome#two characters will have the same face but then the next time i draw those characters its a different face than they had last time!#i know part of it is being out of practice but also there is definitely an element of feeling constrained by human facial structure lmao#the monsters have Their Own Problems but like. no one has a face like bokrae no matter how inconsistent i am about drawing her#her features are iconic enough to her that you can tell everytime#birdie???? i faceclaimed eartha kitt for her and im still struggling cos i feel weird about faceclaiming as a concept#but even then 😭 one time i was trying to give headloose a face and someone was like wow he looks like birdie!#me 😭😭😭😭😭 what!!!!!! hes not supposed to!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i need to practice. features#you know the worst part about coming up w a bunch of fuckin Scenarios in my brain for ocs is that i have even fucking Drawn them yet#to give them like. iconic staple features and figure out what their faces look like. which feels like it would really help to have that#knowledge and muscle memory before i jump into trying to draw intense scenes with difficult poses!!#not to mention. listen. i can do the monster faces. somewhat. the bodies??????????? well for one. theyre too big everytime#im convinced i could be trying to draw bokrae on like a full ass wall size paper like a mural thing and run out of room. it just keeps#happening. i have no sense of scale for them either. by which i mean i struggle w scale already and also cant decide what i want it to be#and ive tried to handwave it away by being like ohhh uh. birdie casts spells on them to change their sizes for convenience but also#no. perhaps that explanation works for other ppl. @ myself tho its not good enough i Know Better!!!!!!#agh!!!!!!! i really need to figure out bokrae's Teeth also. like i dont. i coukd get away with it. but i should. and i want to.#anyway all this to say that i need to give these characters faces and body designs (actually the body designs for humanoid ocs is the easy#part. the faces are whats stumping me? well. i need more practice w all the body types again but like i Know what im Going For at least.#for the most part anyway. havent fully figured out heights. struggling w characters that i want to make short but give imposing tall energy#on occasion? birdie can be short all day long no problem. I want Alasdair to be short enough that he has a bunch of short boyfriends that#feel tall around him? bytte was going to be like 6ft max but then i thought about making her taller and like. what if i made her taller#headloose is not that /short/ but he is Not Tall and prolly pretty lean? twink build for sure#and of course all these short /tall distinctions come with a bias of relativity to my own height which i categorize as medium height#but short ppl call me tall and insist its not average and tall ppl call me short. (5'6) and then i have to factor in how the gender changes#the dynamic of a height like my height is Short For A Man but medium to tall for a Woman. which id argue is medium height bc mens heights#are socially held to high standards (hehe) and also i know ethnicity/race is also a factor? but im out of tags. rip. bye
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what's the meaning when talay asked "are you asking me or yourself" in sunset orange
hello, anon!!!!
OKAY SO. to understand that particular line, we first need to understand what’s going on in puen’s and talay’s head in that particular moment. basically by episode 7, these two fools are pining after each other, but they’re both convinced that the other doesn’t feel the same way
puen has been flirting with talay non-stop since the very beginning and just upped his game after realizing he fell in love with talay at the beginning of episode 4, but he’s having a hard time understanding talay’s feelings: talay says stuff like “whatever happens, i’ll go through it with you” and “do you have any idea how long 12.960 minutes i waited for you felt like?” and “what i fear the most is that it [dying] happens to someone i care about. especially you”, but then he goes and pushes puen towards pang, refusing the idea of the two of them being portkeys. it feels like a rejection, but he’s not sure, because there are just too many mixed signals. even later, when it’s just the two of them around the fire and they’re having a Moment and talay closes his eyes, waiting to be kissed, puen is still NOT SURE, but he NEEDS to be, he NEEDS to have that final confirmation from talay, because the last time he was too forward (still in episode 4) he messed everything up and almost ruined their friendship, and so he asks talay: “this time, i can kiss you, can’t i?” except talay reads that in the wrong way
talay has been very confused about his own feelings for puen, and only between episode 6 and episode 7 he finally comes to realize that he has fallen in love with him. however, despite all of puen’s flirting, talay is pretty much convinced that puen does not feel the same, for a lot of different reasons: 1) he thinks portkeys = soulmates = meant to be together, and since he no longer believes he and puen are portkeys (“if you were, we’d be back by now”), he doesn’t think his feelings are reciprocated; 2) when he pushes puen towards pang, puen goes; 3) from talay’s point of view, puen flirting with him in episode 4 was just puen messing with him. even after clearing up their misunderstanding, every time puen flirts with him talay believes puen is just teasing him, but part of him is also (understandably) confused. when talay closes his eyes around the camp fire, waiting for puen to kiss him, in talay’s head that turns out to be a sort of test. it’s like he’s thinking ‘if he kisses me, then he’s actually serious’, because if he were, why wouldn’t puen take that chance, when talay is basically offering himself to him? well, we know why puen wouldn’t, but talay obviously doesn’t. so when puen not only does not kiss him, but also asks him that question, talay reads that as a rejection. when he says “are you asking me or yourself (if you can kiss me)”, it’s like he’s saying “are you asking me because you don’t know how i feel (even if i was just here with my eyes closed literally waiting for you to kiss me), or are you asking yourself because you don’t actually feel the same as me?”, and then he doesn’t wait for an answer because he thinks he already knows it (which is why the end of episode 7 is so important, because that's talay realizing that yeah, puen actually feels the same)
SO YEAH BASICALLY THEY'RE BOTH IDIOTS (AFFECTIONATE)
#DOES THIS MAKE SENSE#i probably shouldn't have typed this during my lunch break ;;;;;;#i even tried to keep it short but it still came out way too long ;;;;;;#sorry for the late reply and if this is so messy anon i hope it still makes somewhat sense and that you're still around to read it!!!!!!#also wishing you a wonderful day!!!!! 💜#vice versa#m: ask#remember when people said that episode 7 was pointless and just one long product placements#and i had to punch through a wall to prevent myself from going on a mile long rant about it#LITERALLY THEE MOST IMPORTANT EPISODE FOR PUENTALAY'S RELATIONSHIP#THE ACTUAL TURNING POINT OF IT#AND PEOPLE WERE CALLING IT USELESS#LIKE LOVE AND LIGHT TO ALL BUT HOW
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
#tw sh related#me when listening to so long london is giving me flashbacks the the worst most toxic friendship of my life#the relationship i attribute to most of my bad habits and fucked up shit i picked up from her#and she just moved on so quickly and i was left picking up the pieces for two years#and im still trying to mend them i havent even gotten there yet#and its fucking me up i cant think about it anymore#and i cant relapse right now i really really cant#im staying the weekend with my friend and we've been talking about this shit and god its supposed to be in the past#but its not and ive been lying so much#because she thinks its been two years when really its closer to maybe a month#god i cant relapse fuck fuck fuck shit dude#and my dumb stupid idiot ass keeps a fuck ton of pins with me because i like them on my bag#even tho thats how this shit started three years ago#i mean three fucking years how can i not be over it#this isnt the same girl i tried to kms over btw#i had a lot of toxic fucked up relationships in my suicidal era#ok i feel a bit better after having gotten that all out#im also wearing short sleeves rn to fully convince myself i cant relapse#ok im stable now i think at least i can breathe#alex says shit
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#want him. badly. miyoni akita my beloved#hes $15 and $15 too expensive for us rn lol but hopefully ill be able to get him soon!!!#i have a snaps application so maybe thatll help ease the financial burden a little bit#im home from the hospital btw. worst 28 hours of my life#there was a guy screaming at the nurses and calling them the n word and the t slur and threatening to attack ppl#i wasnt allowed to close my door and this happened in the room next to mine#they eventually had to sedate him#but it was bad even leaving that part out#they said they gave me a medication they never did#they never called my mental health team like at all. libby had to tell my therapist i was in the hospital#theyre supposed to keep you a minimum of 72 hours but let me go next day#the only book that wasnt like the last book in a series that i havent read was fucking nuts#had two graphic suicides in the first chapter then had child r*pe in it like graphically#i didnt really go watch the tv in the lobby cause of that guy#so i sat in a tiny room with no windows and just laid there#the first psychiatrist i saw was evil like questioned all my diagnosis and told me i shouldnt have ptsd from chikdhood issues#like it shouldnt still be effecting me#she also tried to take away my plushie but the nice nurses stood up for me so i got to keep moonmoon with me#ive been really not myself since i got out#ive been really angry and short tempered#i have nightmares about being in a cage#if im being completely honest i almost think i feel worse now then i did before#but im just going to keep it all to myself cause i never ever want to go back#so if anyone asks im feeling much better and im perfectly fine :) lol
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revolutionary optimism ... wish i had an ounce of it. wish any of it rang true
#wish i was revolutionary#i'm not. i'm a reactionary defeatist#i've seen how it all pans out. i'm not getting better. disco elysium is too painful to think about#the things i know and cannot correlate are eating me alive#the way it is is not compatible with how it should be but it will forever fall short#depression feels like lucidity. like contacts on your eyes where there was once a filmy blur#is it 'the illness talking' or am i seeing through to the heart of things?#i remember reading cioran at 16. i tried to block his theory out. it keeps flooding back#i don't understand anything anymore. i can't kill myself either i have a delusion keeping me here. the odd#delusion that my death should serve a purpose too#maybe i should set myself on fire and pretend it's to raise awareness of the hopelessness and western lack of empathy?#self-immolation is unoriginal now but still bold. maybe i should do it for gaza. pretend i'm being governed by anything other than a#suicidal impulse. oh we're not allowed to despair? if only this was even the beginning of being the source of my despondency. i've been#like this for years and years. in fluctuating states but never gone away#zoloft is probably making things 'worse' but that is subjective. i see the world for what it is now. empty and soulless all the way down#jamie.txt
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i used to get so uncomfortable when strangers would call me she/her, but now i just find it amusing 🤭 i don't think i really care that much what random people call me, i'm not gonna see them again most likely, and honestly they can just believe whatever they want about what gender they think i am, i really don't care 😝
#personal#i have long hair now and although i do have a killer mustache its almost always covered in public by my mask#so idk really what i present as and honestly? i dont care! i find it very entertaining to see what gender i get perceived as#i dont and never have really tried to lower my voice. it dropped on T of course but im too lazy/dont care to voice train#its just a pain trying to remind myself to talk lower all the time and i dont care anymore so 🤷#sometimes i notice my voice getting a little high and i cringe a little but its sooooo much better than pre-T#honestly i id more as a butch than a man but cis people don't really get the nuances so i spose i will keep saying#that i am a 'trans man' if i really get pushed on it. most times i just say my pronouns are he/him and drop it there#i dont really like calling myself a 'man' but 'woman' feels even.. wronger? if that makes sense?#so like. nonbinary really. butch nonbinary#and regardless i still feel really attached to the trans label because im definitely not a woman#long story short: gender complicated. but i think i got it mostly figured out! and i dont really care what others think about it#honestly my favorite genders are the ??? ones. you know. like. 'are you a boy or a girl?' type genders#shout out to ppl with ??? genders ily
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NO NOW I'M SPIRALING
#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#abt to literally DISAPPEAR#AWAY WITH THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS#anything but gender dysphoria and memories that still haunt me.......#rghhhh I hate when this happens#honestly sometimes I need to occupy myself so I don't spiral like this from simple thoughts to rlly negative ones ://#and wearing a tank top and shorts is NOT helping rn#“why do you always wear a sweatshirt and pants?? get confidence in yourself” my dad says#I'm sorry???#I do bc while I don't have too much confidence in my body I hide my chest bc it bugs me so bad even with my sad attempt at binding#this is why I don't talk to you guys (my parents) abt my struggles#I literally said to my mom abt wearing the clothes I do on hot is bc I hide my chest#I literally broke down infront of her not even a week ago and my dad literally said that I should “get over it” in the car with ME IN IT#and my mom didn't make it any better by saying “she (referring to me) isn't a guys she can't just get over it” in response#like ??? and idk I tried explaining my struggles with gender dysphoria but she just doesn't get it#sometimes it feels so hard to keep the food down I just ate even tho ik I won't throw up
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✧ ⁺˳ cw. fem! reader, inexperienced choso, unprotected, missionary, praise, he’s very whipped, premature ejac, mdni.
pussydrunk choso who’s well over a hundred years old yet still doesn’t know where the clit is.
not until you show him,
as he’s already starting to feel himself pathetically bottom out, his bottom lip quivers and gets tugged underneath his teeth. he whines at your loose grip that wails out a ring through each of his sensitive pointed ears. through murky blown irises, you stare at him whilst tears of sweat race down each side of his sheeny slick forehead. while choso’s ensnared with the help of your plush thighs keeping his torso secure—he’s panting out puffs and puffs of air breathlessly.
with the way you’re like this—underneath him, locking your legs around his waist, making love to him with your eyes, he’s so weak. “gonna make you feel so good, baby,” and of course, there’s a tremor of a crack in his voice. you and choso both knew he wasn’t gonna last. already, you start to feel him mercilessly shudder above you. your warmth alone was enough to make him a twitching, stammering mess. the fattened girth of his cock stretches you whole and it’s never felt more snug. slinging weak arms around his tensed up shoulders, your wet lips press a chaste kiss against his tapered chin. “ngh, please—baby,” he choked up, your feverish touch and your viscid walls making his brain short circuit. the smooth flats of your ankles runs up and down his back before he slowly tries to start up a stroke or two. but your grip, his eyes widen and his jaw dangles open at your warmth from the inside. the minute sloppy friction introduces itself to your insides, he buries his face into the crook of your neck. “baby, think ‘m gonna d- die.”
“no choso, you’re just about to cum.”
“o- oh.”
you feel him stiffen up out of embarrassment—
a vermillion hue of heat flushes up from his ears and sprays down to his neck before he nibbles at your neck.
nip after nip, he’s savoring your flavorless taste before he achingly pistons his hips forward. even still, he’s trying to thrust forward but your soaked walls were no match for him. there was a fuzziness in his ears and his heart raced quicker and quicker from each individual stroke. “f- fuck,” he swears, leaning into your tender touch once your palms cup his face. choso’s hair was unkempt—instead of darkened raven ponytails, his hair was freely down and flowed down the tips of his conic sculpted shoulders. “baby, am i doing it right?”
“y- yes,” you nod, entrapping his slim waist with your legs. your hold was firmly secure, he’s vigorously rutting into you—mashing his pearly mushroom tip against that spot repeatedly before you whimper. balmy tepid pants ghost against your skin before you feel your cunt starting to constrict around his length. “right there, ‘cho. mhm, just like that.”
choso swallows, tasting a lingering concoction of sweetness on his tongue before his head throws itself back, and oh it’s a sight.
as he’s grinding his hips into you, his pectorals flex, showcasing just how built he really was.
perfectly sculpted abs, he’s got a bit of a few mole marks near his hip.
his body, he steadily rolled his hips inside of you through and through - so good, he’s basically humping you. he’s hot, but to him, you’re hotter.
choso’s eyes flicker back until all that’s shown for a few seconds were pure white. gnawing on the by inside of his cheek, his ears twitch—feeling the individual pulses of your cunt kiss against the swollen crown head of his cock. “please,” he whimpers out a beg. slumping into your chest, sticky bodies sway against each other in sync. “i can finish inside, r- right baby? please, ‘s so much to give you. i don’t wanna be a mess just by myself . . please.”
and every few seconds, he purposely grows quiet just to hear the repetitive sloshes of your pussy. you’re so wet - putting literal faucets to shame.
“you can cum inside, baby. ‘s okay,”
as those angelic words pour out of your lips, he can’t help but lean in—getting rid of the distance between you both. moaning into your mouth, his lips roughly crash onto yours and his hips concur into its final snap.
the bed grew more and more rickety from both amounts of weight - so much so that it’s crying, creaking in pleasure as both bodies mirror each rhythmic movement. his pace was relentless, and by now he’s just unapologetically stuffing you full of inches.
he’s drooling, he can’t help it. all down your neck, it’s a puddle of glossy saliva dribbling down your collarbone and he licks it right up.
“s- sorry, ‘m sorry. don’t mean to be messy,” he babbles into your neck, already broken from how whipped your cunt made him. it’s as if you had some sort of nectar, he was addicted just like that. he laps up his own saliva that dribbles down your neck and he feels your back arch in debleating rapture. your heart quickens it’s irregular thumps as you hold onto his bulky arms, moaning from his thoroughly precise angle. it’s sloppy, but regardless, he was hitting each crevice of your cunt rigorously, not missing a spot. he couldn’t afford to, not when you felt this good. “so sorry, ‘m sorry.”
his broken whispers coo into the shell of your ear as a whiff of peppermint breath wafts against your nose—and finally, he cums.
it’s so much, choso officially loses it the moment he shoots a thick satiny ropes inside of your weeping walls. fervently, your knees buckle and his potent makes him collapse against your gentle hold. it’s hot, milky creamy strings of cum fill into your gummy walls and he’s speechless for a moment. his base gets coated with a sloppy ring and his eyes go half lidded.
black lashes flutter and his face scrunches up in awe - the darkened slanted mark that paints all over the bridge of his nose curves up. it’s so cute, he’s weakly trying to plummet further into your cunt but instead falls right into your chest.
“c-choso,” you huff out a airy moan, feeling his tongue flick up against your tender exposed nipples. a hand of yours rake through his hair, tickling against his undercut before his hips buckle. the half curse silences you with a needy kiss, rocking his body against you even still, wads of cum pour deep down your thighs and he can’t help but fuck it right back into you. with a swift motion, his hips reel back in and his tongue delves into your mouth — craving access. as strands of saliva mix and mash with each other, he sucks on your tongue. “mhh,” and he’s still cumming hard, barred rough hands with a added gentle touch creeps down to hold onto your waist.
choso was hesitant, his big hands slowly roam down your body, calluses fingertips brushing up against the curvature of your beloved physique.
he pulls away and there’s heart eyes forming in his pupils - not literally, but with his lust filled gaze, it just might have. a plump thumb pulls down your bottom lip, and he remains still inside of your sloppy cunt, plugging you full entirely.
with a sheepish expression, he grabs the back of your hand and kisses it. “s- so, um. what are we?”
he’s definitely in love. pussy drunk, but definitely in love.
#★vegasbaby.#choso smut#choso x reader#choso x you#choso x y/n#choso kamo smut#choso kamo x reader#choso kamo#choso#jjk choso#jjk smut#jjk x reader#jjk x you#jjk x reader smut#jujutsu kaisen smut#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen x you#jujustsu kaisen x reader#anime smut#female reader#jjk imagines#jjk drabbles#jjk
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/ Since I mention in my pinned post that this blog has some changes from canon, I'm going to make a rundown post that I'll be linking in my muse info on my blog. My timeline post covers some of this too and has other things canon to my muse that aren't here because they're timeline based and not direct changes based. I'll update this as needed.
Repede had another owner before Yuri got him in the game. I'm combining this with FS. Thus, Repede would have been basically an infant when he and Lambert ended up with the knights. From there he took to Yuri as he did in the FS drama CD so Yuri was primarily in charge of Repede during his stay with the knights, but he and Flynn raised Repede together as is in line with the game. This means they continued raising him together even after Yuri left.
In the JP version of the game, Yuri says he was with the knights for a short time but doesn't specify how long that time was, so I'm completely yeeting the "three months" dub aspect from this blog. I can't reasonably assume he signed up, took the exams, went into training, went from errand boy to battle status, then went on normal missions and left in the span of three months. So as usual, we're following the JP timeline. Generally anything the dub makes up or actively changes from the original context/tone gets yeeted here.
In the FS drama CD, Flynn is extremely repetitive about Yuri quitting the knights and with his nagging. At least with @mistralxsoul and anyone else who prefers it the following way in threads with my muse, we're toning it down because it just feels absolutely batshit to us how bad it is in the drama CD (it's worse than even the movie itself).
Since the timeline for Yuri and Flynn's knighthood conflicts super horrendously between the novel, FS/FS drama CD and the game, I'm mixing all of it together (primarily because I consider the novel more canon than the FS drama CD). Basically (for my muse), they signed their names and didn't take the exams immediately, but when they eventually did it was at least a couple years later, due to Yuri still having his teen appearance when he signed his name to join in the novel. This is because otherwise, if I average my muse's teen age out to be fifteen/sixteen and his age to be about eighteen/nineteen in the knights, it would mean he'd been with the knights (including training, etc) anywhere from 2-4 years if his sign up was immediately after the novel's events. If they were to sign up and join immediately after the novel timeline, it also makes even less sense because Flynn's attitude in FS and his relationship with Yuri (and remember, the FS drama CD comes before the movie's timeline and Flynn was even worse about Yuri's attitude in the CD) would seem like it literally 180'd overnight.
So basically, to avoid all this insanity, a short summarized timeline for my muse would be: they signed up but didn't join right away, Flynn moved away and was gone for a couple years or so after the events of the novel, both of them changed in personality/behavior drastically in that time, they met up at the exams, they went into training, they got sent to Niren's squad, they were more errand boys than actual knights when they were still super fresh newbies and Yuri was extremely annoyed with that, they were actual knights for a while (I'm going to say Yuri was a knight for at least six months or more, especially if I consider the trajectory of Flynn's behavior toward him in the drama CD through the end of FS), the events of FS were not one straight timeline and things happened between the days etc etc, then Yuri left.
Following the game's drama CDs, Yuri hesitated a lot more when Flynn was injured at Zaude. If not for Flynn nudging him to go after Alexei even while wounded, Yuri wouldn't have left him there.
Following the same drama CDs, it's Raven and Repede who find and look after Yuri when he wakes up after Zaude. That is to say, Repede was already with Raven and lunged when he sniffed out Yuri in his room (super doggo powers). Raven followed Repede in a panic, who ran to Yuri's room upon realizing Yuri was there, and Raven finds Yuri awake but right in the middle of passing back out (the sound is basically Raven's voice being distant with some ringing, so it's from Yuri's point of view that Raven is trying to get him to steady himself but he passes back out). Raven takes care of him from there until he's recovered properly enough to go back. In this time, Rita did investigating and eventually, with the others minus Raven, went to Zopheir after deciding they couldn't dawdle and just wait in their grief. While they're there, Yuri and Raven have headed out after them and show up together and reunite with the rest of the group. Raven has already been updated on what Yuri knows from Duke at this point (Duke saved him as usual, but the drama CD changes come in after that), so the two of them update everyone else.
In the game, there's a skit with Yuri, Flynn and Karol where Yuri mentions "playing in a river", but in the novel, they were actually getting water at the river and the other kids were playing in the river when they got attacked by a monster, fell into the river (Yuri also mentions (I thiiiink in another unrelated skit) that just falling into "a river" was enough to panic him), and Flynn grabbed onto a merman. For my muse, I'm just going with Yuri simplifying the situation to Karol while keeping the novel's event as my muse's canon.
#{ muse info + headcanons }#/ a lot of the timeline post itself is also for me and not y'all LOL but like. if you need to know#differences in interaction with me this stuff is good to know at least bc I don't strictly follow the game canon#I follow a mix of official content and obviously some of it overlaps and retcons other things#as for the dub if you've been here long enough y'all know I hold a huge ass grudge against#how much it changes Yuri's behavior/personality and his attitude toward Flynn#but the three months thing just does not feel reasonable to me on top of the dub just making it up#and it helps SO much to have that free time period for writing#even if we assume he wasn't counting the training to officially join the knights in the dub#three months is... way too short imo and then if I combine the FS drama CD with that#it makes even less sense bc the girls tried to get Yuri to stay when he did actually almost quit#on top of the whole not rly doing knightly things for a while at first#and yeahhhh it's just a fucking MESS to try to cram everything with all this content into three months#also like since I LOOOOVE the teen arc of the novel and that's My Fucking Baby Boy#I don't want to actually change anything from it so I'm just mixing everything together to keep it all#it's like... I love all the official Yuri content and so I want to keep as much of it together as possible#but since it's not always the same people working on the content or bc there's such a time gap between content#things aren't always consistent and when it comes to writing a muse I just. NEED timeline consistency#even if I have to make it myself LMAO. I try to keep as much of the game stuff together as possible#since I know most ppl interacting with me only know the game and possibly the movie#and not all the drama CDs and all the various JP exclusive content#but it's hard to keep it together perfectly when there's so much other content I'm using that has formed my muse#like... my muse exists the way he is bc of all this content you know? and only using the game#would change him a fucking lot in hindsight with the way he thinks and reacts and such#like... there's no fucking way he's not traumatized after the events of the novel in the teen arc there's NO fucking way#it was bad enough that it nearly pushed him to murder when he was a teenager#and he might have actually done it if his foster mother didn't stop him (and end up doing it herself)#so yeah I mean... I do my best to keep him within game context with most people I interact with#but the more you interact with this boy the deeper you're gonna get into muse specific lore lol
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If you write fanfiction, how do you get people to care about you as a person as well as your work? What do you need to do? Also, how do you make writer friends for the fandom you're in and meet really cool people who treat you like a celebrity?
um. what
#i think youve got an oximoron or two to sort out there#namely “cool people who treat you like a celebrity”#anyways the short answer is that i dont know.#the long answer is that i started adding ideas to posts in the fandom and got “yes and”-ed into writing actual scenarios.#for the most part the cool fandom writer friends (or at least mutuals) came before the writing fanfiction#but ive tried a little bit of community participation with things like WIP Wednsday (which im way behind on) and that one fic exchange#so that probabhopefully helps.#as for getting people to care about me and/or my work? no fuckin clue how that came about.#especially since i tend to avoid posting about myself (because im afraid of doxxers) and ive barely posted any of the stuff ive written.#now. i might be overstepping the privacy of anon asks. and/or the bounds of my meager intellect.#so forgive me if im assuming wrong#but if youre who i think you are?#youve got nothing to worry about on this front.#ive seen you around enough to know youve got a few people in your corner already.#and while im not exactly in the target demographic for the only work of yours im aware of#im still glad you wrote it.#and im sure that the ones whove read it are even gladder.#so keep it up!
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#so much happened this year for me it's kinda crazy. but#i feel like i was in a constant state of recovery y'know#like. 2020-22 were rough and so much happened that i needed to emotionally recover from#but at the same time so much changed for me in such a short amount of time this year#i think it's important to be aware of that y'know.#it wasn't all bad or anything#it was just. a Lot. but there are nice little moments i'm sure i'll reflect on later. even if they were “little” they were important#this yearr i made a lot more art than i ever have! even if i didn't share half of it. but that's really nice. i got comfy driving#i go to the gym now and actually enjoy it so that's nice.#got prescribed adhd meds! hopefully they're in stock soon dsdkjfg. went to college in person! we're. still workin on that one#but it's okay. i'm reading books again! that's been refreshing.#i've tried a lot of things and it's been really nice#i wanna try candle making. and there's this pottery place down town that looks cool. i'd also like 2 make a friend! that'd#be nice sdfhg. i'm trying to put myself out there a bit but. we will just do our own thing and keep trying anyways. even if it's a lil hard#i wanna take those automotive classes sometime this year. see how i like that. working on cars has always sounded cool to me y'know#i want to keep making art and going to the gym. learn how to cook some more meals#keep finding the time to stop and appreciate things. and exist within and outside everything sometimes. that's important i think#sap says#anyways. let's keep going
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Young Gf and Older bf
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Simon Ghost Riley Headcanons
SFW & NSFW
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SFW
Older bf! Simon who didn’t know how he felt about having a younger girlfriend
Older bf! Simon who was getting called “old man” by his girlfriend
Older bf! Simon who learned the hard way that some girls have expensive taste
Older bf! Simon who doesn’t talk much about his girlfriend to his mates, he feels like they’ll get on his ass about dating a young girl
Older bf! Simon who did most of the chores around the house
Older bf! Simon who stopped caring what he wore in front of people because his girlfriend is his little hype-man
“Does this work?” Simon asks coming into his shared bedroom with his girlfriend, she rolls on her side to look at him.
“They don’t match your shoes, Si.”
“What?” He looks down. “I thought they did.”
“Here, go try this on and come back at out.”
Older bf! Simon who told his girlfriend about his time in the military
Older bf! Simon who forget how young his girlfriend is, so when he makes jokes or says a movie reference she doesn’t know what he is talking about
Older bf! Simon who was honestly scared to meet his girlfriend’s family. She told them about Simon being older but not how old he was
“And how old are you, Simon?” Her dad asked leaning forward.
“I’m…40”
“40!!”
“Y/N?!”
“What?! He treats me good, he respects me, guys my age want that trad wife, Simon doesn’t, I can do or say what I want around him and feel good about myself.”
Older bf! Simon who knows everything about you. How you like your coffee, what time you’re suppose to be up for work, and he even knows when you’re about to start your period, you know when he shows up at home with bags full of pads and tampons and her favorite foods and drinks
Older bf! Simon who starts watching shows with you but complains about them but deep down he actually likes to watch them with his girlfriend
NSFW
Older bf! Simon who woke up to you in t-shirts and no shorts or pants, he likes seeing you in a t shirt and panties
Older bf! Simon who has woken up to morning wood before and needed help to get rid of it
“Love,” he kisses the shell of her ear. “Love…wake up,” he coos.
“Hmm~ Simon, not now please.”
“I know, love, you don’t have to do anything,” Simon lines himself up at her entrance and pushes himself into her
Older bf! Simon who like after argument sex
“Fuck you!”
“Oh yeah? Fuck me?” Simon carries a smirk on his face.
“Back up, Simon,” Y/n says putting her hand up on his chest to keep distance.
“Fuck me right? Fuck me?”
“Wait, wait,” your legs didn’t work for a few weeks
Older bf! Simon who tries different things with you, like BDSM you both hated it because it’ll be painful for you and Simon didn’t like you hurt
DDLG, he knows the age gap between you two but he hates the word ‘daddy’ makes him cringe
Mask kink, you both loved it, giving the illusion you were being fucked by someone else and he liked feelings your hands in his face
Voice kink, you liked it because of his deep voice already, he was on the fence, not saying your voice is annoying or anything he just didn’t get it
Knife play, you got scared when he accidentally dropped the knife and it was very close to your hand, it was the same thing with gun play you were afraid something wrong might happen
He tried to be a sub but you could barely take it seriously
Older bf! Simon who has fucked you when you were doing your work, you worked in a private office and all he had to do was shut and lock the door and bend you over your own desk
Older bf! Simon who is handsy when he’s horny
“Simon what do you want?”
“I want nothing,” he says as one of his hands were on your waste and the other snacks up to your breasts giving you a gentle squeeze and you gave him a soft moan.
“Just do it already, Simon,” she moans
Older bf! Simon who has kept a pair of your panties in his pockets and has forgotten about them before, he remembers when he accidentally sticks his hand into his pocket and feels the lace
Older bf! Simon who bought a motorcycle and takes you with him as his backpack, he found a abandoned place were no one comes to and you two had a good fuck on his bike
#cod modern warfare#cod mw2#cod mwii#cod x reader#fandom#fanfic#call of duty#mw2#cod#ghost cod#ghost x y/n#simon ghost x reader#ghost x you#ghost mw2#ghost x reader#ghost call of duty#simon ghost riley#cod headcanons#headcanon
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