#unqueued

[brunosaderogatory]

I feel like I’m going insane. Does anyone remember Luca? Does anyone like Luca still? I feel like a single Guinea pig in a petco cage. I’m starting to understand why hamsters seek out their death. You can only run on that wheel for so long before you start feeling a little bit crazy. Please tell me does anyone still like Luca.

[queer-muslim-culture-is]

i just prayed for the first time in,, possibly years, and im emotional about it so :

reminder that your prayer, your dua, your fasting, any acts of worship, do not need to be perfect. do not be afraid to just do what you can even if its incomplete, even if its not 100% right

you can improve over time but,, even if you dont ? one completed prayer is still better than missing all of them, doing prayer without a hijab is still better than not praying at all, doing dua in a language other than arabic

your effort is worth it, no matter what

[cluster-b-culture-is]

is it possible to be aspd if you dont “engage in criminal activity”? what if you mask really well and hold yourself on an incredibly tight leash despite how much it distresses you? the DSM doesnt do a good job at explaining what ASPD actually IS aside from “violent criminal disorder”

It is possible, yes. From criterion one, there are seven total symptoms, and you [technically] only need three to qualify for diagnosis (along with meeting the requirements for the other two criterion--note that we personally view the DSM as incredibly flawed, especially when portraying personality disorders such as NPD and ASPD; however, we are (unfortunately) at whims of the world in which we live, and so are largely beholden to the guidelines made by a bunch of neurotypicals who can only view things through the lens of how our disorders affect them or look to them, generally just totally ignoring the internal experiences of the people with said disorders. So much for having empathy, I guess).

We're an example of someone who has not engaged in criminal activity to the DSM's standards; note that the criminal activity had to have been or would have been enough to get you imprisoned, so something like getting a speeding ticket wouldn't count for this symptom (although it would count under reckless behavior, but I digress). Largest reason why we don't (technically) fit the symptom is that we're physically disabled which prevents... a lot of the things we would otherwise do.

[ucami]

[plurillean-confessions]

Headmate of the fella who asked about this blog maybe being on hiatus, here! Thank you for getting back to us, we're happy to have a better understanding of how the blog functions and all, now ^^ looking forward to sending in confessions when the Feelings hit again, now that we know a gap in posting doesn't mean that asks are unwelcome lolol~ (BTW, stumbling onto this blog is how we first learned about the terms Plurillean and Sysian, and it's helped us understand ourselves better, so thank you all for providing this space and the knowledge within it to fellow systems on Tumblr!! Very grateful to y'all <3)

Yeayea! If we ever go on hiatus (unlikely, thanks to the relatively low workload--both in terms of amount of asks and actual content), it'll be at the top of the pinned post and the askbox will be closed, so no need to worry about accidentally sending asks when we're not open to them lol

And of course! We learned about the terms from a mutual of ours, but then saw there was very little in terms of community recognition. So we figured we'd make a blog for folks to learn & talk about it!

[1introvertedsage]

contradictions with the 'human experience'

go it alone-the yogic way - vs needing to be around people to see yourself.

What you see in others is supposed to be a reflection of yourself, but is that always true when people are carrying around their own baggage, their own traumas. Could they be projecting their traumas and drama onto you, rather than reflecting you? I guess it is all in perception of situations and interactions.

~I.S.~

[astrogeists]

it's that time of year again, scoop out my insides and leave me to rot on someone's porch

[lucabyte]

if loop could blush would they do it like this or like this

[brunosaderogatory]

I know I’m turning into one of those godawful Pixar adults because I’m two months away from eighteen and this made me actually burst out laughing, startling both my dog and my kitten

[queer-muslim-culture-is]

Responding to the last anon - I know lots of other alloaro Muslims including myself! We are all loved by God and I promise we belong here

the anon in question

[ano-malie]

@entities-of-posts the Eye

btw if you go through your tumblr filters and blacklist the urls of gimmick blogs you don't like in the text section (not in the filtered Tags, the text), it'll filter them on your dash because tumblr counts usernames as being part of the post's text 👍 you'd never have to see i-say-ok again

You underestimate how badly I cannot stand it where the Posts Are Hidden From Me. I have to see them. I have to see Everything.

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Just a quick Happy Halloween to the mods! Hope you guys have a great day!

Thank you Anon! (Yes, I am responding to this like a year late but hey it’s Halloween again so it’s on time)

~ Mod Orange

[ucami]

i love little nightmares sobsss i rly wanna draw six and mono

[plurillean-confessions]

Oh bummer, we followed this blog a hot minute ago to eventually send asks in whenever the Yearning and Affection hit especially hard; swung by today to do just that and saw that you haven't posted in maybe a week. Pardon the maybe-insensitive nature of the query, but is the pause in posting because you just don't have any asks TO post, or are we on a bit of a hiatus here? I wanted to know before I just went and added to whatever work you may or may not already have on your plate, we hope you're doing well regardless /sincere

There aren't any asks to post! Feel free to send anything you have in :} the blog usually gets an extra burst of activity once new asks get sent in, but then it peters out for awhile

[scramblecat]

Something I really love about Nerdy Prudes Must Die is how it completely subverts the ‘uncool kid joins the popular kids’ trope.

Typically with a story that has a similar premise (a friend or a love interest in a higher place on the school hierarchy from the ‘uncool’ character) I feel like a lot of the time we see the same thing happen over and over: the uncool kid finds a place in the popular kids, and starts behaving like them, treating everybody they used to hang out with as below them. If it’s ‘resolved,’ it’s by the main character realizing the popular kids are actually shitty people that they don’t want to hang out with. Even if at the end they go back to the uncool kids, that pipeline and change still happens, and it’s central to the plot.

And that’s certainly what I thought we were going to see in Nerdy Prudes. After Pete’s phone call with Steph (‘just these two fuckin’ nerds who won’t leave me alone!’), I was genuinely, actually starting to dread seeing Pete go through that change and start to treat Richie and Ruth like shit. I can even go so far to say I was expecting him to, given his newfound boost of confidence and thinking he’s impervious to even Max Jägerman!

But Nerdy Prudes doesn’t do that at ALL.

Pete never rises to the status of ‘popular kid’. Instead, Steph is the one to join the other group.

It’s clear that she’s certainly reluctant to do so— she’s been conditioned by the school environment and her popular kid status to think these kids are losers and Weird and uncomfortable to be around. But she’s also reluctant to actually be a shitty person to them, especially after she starts falling for Pete.

Speaking of Pete, he really is her link into the group, just like the role of ‘popular kid’ usually is played in this genre of storyline. But it’s handled a lot differently, and the way it is fits so well into the plot.

The only reason that Steph is willing to join the group of nerds in the first place is, of course, to get revenge on Max. But at the start of the musical, it’s clear that she doesn’t even know the magnitude of what Max does to the nerds— she straight up asks Pete who he’s running from right before Literal Monster, for Pete’s sake (ha do you see what I did there—). I don’t think she’d have to ask if she knew how much of a monster Max really was. Seeing what he did to Pete was what snapped her into that realization of how fucked up Max’s behavior is (and that nobody is going to punish him for it), which is why she joins the group.

‘But Scramble where’s your Evidence that just sounds like a theory?’

Bear with me here while I talk about Bully the Bully.

Bully the Bully (and the scene prior) is actually the single greatest indicator of how Steph’s opinion of the nerds shifts. At first, she looks and sounds like she absolutely does not want to be there. She takes a place standing FAR away from the group—

— and retorts back at things they’re saying multiple times, insulting them a little, and just generally looking down on them. (‘God, you guys are nerds.’).

She comments on how she thinks the things the nerds are doing are weird (such as the way Grace spins around) and seems very resistant to participating. She still looks down on most of them, and she doesn’t even try to hide it.

But as the song goes on, she starts getting a little more into it. Grace swings her into the group, and she starts participating just a little, joining in on the lineup, laughing a little. And while she doesn’t contribute her own solo line on the rest of the ‘fealty, a duty’ bit like everybody else does, she joins in on Pete’s part once she sees that he’s participating, too. And she’s starting to smile a little!

She starts joining in on the antics a little more after that, and this time on her own! She’s genuinely having fun!! All of a sudden she’s alert and a little more enthusiastic about this, starting to match the energy of the nerds, because she’s realizing that it isn’t so bad after all, and actually that they’re fun to be around!

I really like this sequence here— she’s fully involved at this point, but is thrown off when she sees the other nerds all of a sudden improvising with the moves —

—And tries to come up with one of her own the next time around.

Even if she doesn’t get one in, it’s still clear that she wants to be a part of it, too.

My favorite part however is when she joins in on the ‘bean school’ bit, where she seems a little not sure of what they’re doing & hesitant to do it, but tries to go along with it nonetheless, just like the improv poses— no matter how odd and random it seems to her at first.

It’s a sharp contrast to how she’d been at the start of the song, separated from the group and looking down on them for doing these weird little things. But by the end, she’s realizing how enjoyable this group really is! She’s dancing around with them, fully and eagerly joining in on what they’re doing, having fun just being goofy and weird! And she doesn’t see it as a bad thing anymore!

(Okay Scramble note: while making this gif I noticed that Steph is actually the first to initiate the snapping at the end WAAAA… I love the little details in this show. reminder to me to make a post compiling some of my favorites because there are so many I’ve noticed on my rewatches...)

The transition of Steph’s attitude toward the nerds is absolutely delightful. There’s none of that ‘returning to your own position in the heirarchy’ stuff, either. She’s made herself comfortable as a part of the gang, and she enjoys it!

While Steph is the biggest and most relevant, there is actually another (short-lived) example of this— with Max Jägerman, right before his death.

Max is the antagonist of the show. Hell, there’s an entire song at the beginning of the musical dedicated to establishing how much of a terrifying monster he is, and how all the nerds fear him. He even says these things with his own mouth, and he says them with glee. He’s proud to be a bully that people fear, he’s proud that people cower down around him, and he’s absolutely not afraid to be horrible toward those he deems below him.

But after Max is told that the nerds put this together purely to scare him— and that he deserves it— his demeanor towards the nerds changes ENTIRELY. All of a sudden, he’s not the literal monster that he’s explicitly been shown to be up until this point. I’m not saying that ‘he was like this all along’ or whatever— he very much does not regret anything he’s done, and does not regret the person he is, and still is that person. But for a single moment, he sheds the god complex, and for the first time, treats the nerds like equals— and not even in the way Kyle and Jason are ‘equals’.

He’s genuinely excited and happy about all this! He expresses how he really liked how they went about this, and compliments Ruth!

And he’s not bringing them up to his level, either— he is meeting them where they’re at. Similarly to Steph, he’s starting to be okay with some of the aspects of how the nerds behave, and even finding it fun in his own way. Even if the intent was to scare him, he likes the way they executed it, and takes it as something they did to make him happy. Obviously he never gets to have a chance at adjusting to it like Steph did, but hey, I’m counting it as a small example regardless!

(And this all is not to discount the fact that he’d very proudly done— and continued to do— fucked up things. he’s.. not a decent person regardless of this scene AJDHAHRHA im not exactly a max redemption arc truther. but that just kind of showed that he had the Potential to adjust. and then he got killed and turned evil again </3)

Anyway. Really delightful how they executed this trope subversion, and I’m so happy that they did. Not only does it help to emphasize that these characters care about each other/are genuine to each other (especially in the case of Steph and Pete, and Pete and the other nerds) but it really feels a lot neater and nicer to watch than it would’ve been if they’d gone the route with the trope as it’s usually played!

I am notoriously terrible at figuring out how to word a conclusion, so have another little gif and compare it to the first image in the post :]

[galaxiesovertrees]

out of posting schedule rant time because I finally finished xdive yesterday

idc that it’s translation is horrible. idc that it was worse when it was online. idc that it’s typical gacha game shit. I CAN PUT UP WITH THAT. IM A HOYOVERSE FAN.

I love xdive so much it’s not FUNNY. I love rico and via and ico. I love their dynamic and I love their bickering. I love how rico and via mirror x and zero respectively. I love the small things about their characters. I love how the dive armours feel as if they’re geared towards fans who draw reploid armour fancier. I love the goofy hunter programs and I love serious ones. I can see their flaws and I’ll love them anyway.

I know this game was so much worse before it went offline, I know the price is 2 miles too high for most people to be worth it. hell, I only got it because it was on sale ! but I’m so glad I did because it grew on me so much.

it’s flawed, it’s stupid, it’s objectively not that good. but it’s also a combination of the franchises history with so many characters. it takes from everywhere, even if it’s goofy and sometimes badly executed.

x dive is charming in its own way, I’m not changing my mind on that