#unknown signals

[lampadions-pickle]

[geodesick]

[ID: a drawing of pye from outer wilds, standing with her writing staff. she's wearing an orange nomai space suit without the helmet, and she has a light brown face with curly darker brown fur. end ID]

figuring out how i want to draw the nomai, so here's a pye since i am obsessed with her !!!

[celtrist]

I may not care for radioapple, but Alastor and Lucifer fighting over decor like an old married couple is something I need

[thermodynamic-comedian]

i'm gonna start screaming and biting WHY IS UNKNOWN SIGNAL CATALOGUE SO UNPOPULAR. it's so well-written. it's such a quick listen. none of you know about my friend icarus and that makes me very sad

[who-do-i-know-this-man-s3]

⚠️Vote for whomever YOU DO NOT KNOW⚠️‼️

[wondercourse]

I think it's time to bring out the Venn diagram I never shut up about officially on a post that isn't a reblog, because I think I want to take this opportunity to discuss it. Have a good faith sysconversation about it, if you will. Discourse by its dictionary definition, not its online one.

Disclaimer: This isn't meant to be scientific. This is my view of CDDs, plurality, and the overlap. If there IS science to go into, please feel free to contribute! Consider this more of an Informed Opinion Piece™, though.

Prepare for her debut; she's plain but she's gorgeous.

[ID: A Venn diagram. The left circle is labeled "CDDs", the right circle is labeled "Plurality", and the area of overlap is labeled "CDD + Plurality". \End ID.]

So this is kind of grossly oversimplified as a concept, due to impossibly minute levels of nuance that I can't really even begin to get into right now that make it less of a Venn diagram and more like an infinitely complex matrix, but I think this gets across the basic idea. Basically, while CDDs can be a plural experience and having a CDD and being plural can have very heavy overlap, they are not ALWAYS one and the same.

The first thing that got me thinking about this was when I was taking my first steps out of the throes of being a hardcore anti-endo and realizing that not everyone with a CDD experiences themselves as plural. Even people with DID might not qualify their experiences as "plural"!

This led to the realization that plurality is a very subjective experience. If people with a CDD can experience non-plurality, and people with CDDs can experience plurality, AND people without CDDs can experience non-plurality…then what about people without CDDs who experience plurality?

Initially, this felt like a really weird leap in logic to me, having just come out of a space where plurality was in two halves (plural + CDD vs. non-plural + no CDD) rather than four quadrants or a Venn diagram. But with how subjective plurality is, it led me to wonder the same thing as some people who have been studying dissociation for longer than I've been alive probably (I'm a mid-20-something):

Why can't it be in quadrants? Why would this incredibly subjective experience of the self/selves be limited to this one specific circumstance? Why are we trying to tell people "If you don't have this thing, then THIS is how your self is defined"? Because that's what the view of plurality is, really: A way to define the experience of the self/selves.

So I guess when people push for reducing it to a duality rather than a complex matrix (see also: "The Venn diagram is an incredibly oversimplified visualization of this concept, as would a four quadrants model and I am INCREDIBLY aware of that), it just confuses me. I understand the fundamental fact that it IS a duality to many people—it was to me!—but I guess I just don't get it. You're trying to define two different things in my mind: Whether you have this dissociative disorder or not, and whether you have this subjective experience of self/selves. And the latter, like…really isn't something you can define for someone? How are you going to tell someone how to define themselves, y'know?

I'm getting The Fog pretty bad right now so I'm gonna leave it as like. Open discussion, I guess. I put this in the syscourse tag as well but please be civil because I'm not going to entertain bad faith with this. If you disagree, please actually say why instead of just hitting me with "You're wrong and you sound silly". This is genuinely something we're really interested in.

Sorry if this post is a mess; these always end up taking a lot out of us because they require a lot of thought. 😅 Thank you for humoring us if you decide to discuss!

[batfammeetsspidergang]

Stephanie: What do you consider to be your best quality?

Duke: Well, I’m a real people person.

Jason: I don’t answer stupid questions.

Damian: I speak fluent Arabic.

Dick: My eyes. Oh, and I guess my butt, too.

[lampadions-pickle]

Maybe I'm biased but the Crossroads is gorgeous. Scattered walls upon scattered walls dot the midnight-lit landscapes, each arch and doorway a portal to somewhere illuminated by the Full Moon. The stained glass of the highest window perfectly enshrining the moon- Suncatcher, my eyes, all the more to See with as the reflected light is scattered 6-fold. I travel unfettered, blessed to go where I please.

I am the roads, just as much as I am the bridge and boat & oar. Pass through me, walk through me- feel my arteries o' Pilgrim. Your footsteps my beat and pulse, circulation to be found within your movements. We are alive. We are alive, never to be made stagnant again.

[uncanny-tranny]

The "trans agenda" as a talking point is a very sneaky way to separate trans people from the discussion of trans rights. The "trans agenda" honestly feels like a distraction from the people being talked about, because it's so much easier to talk about impersonal agendas from real in-the-flesh human beings

[crocodrake]

⛧ a brief introduction ⛧

⛧ - casey/croc

⛧ - 18, he/they, nonbinary demi-aroace gay

⛧ - autistic freelance artist

⛧ - spam/multifandom blog, selfshipper

⛧ - junk you'll see here: obvious hyperfixations, art posts, various other games & shows, the occasional gay post, etc. etc.

tagging system, carrd (wip) under the cut

tag hell:

#[croc.txt] - original posts

#[croc.png] - art posts

#[reblogs] - do i have to explain

#[cc] - comfort characters

#[favs] - favorite posts

#[pings] - posts i'm mentioned in

#[incoming transmissions] - asks, submissions

#[familiar faces] - mutuals

#[unknown signals] - anons

i used to be active in the selfshipping community. while i don't interact much with there anymore, i'll still make the occasional post about my biggest f/o— he'll be tagged with #[💀💚]

carrd is a work in progress

[batkingsalem]

UPDATE - we are funded and are less than $150 away from unlocking that first stretch goal - the Endicott teacup! Praying that the Beast one gets unlocked bc that one is HUGE and has glow in the dark parts and I NEED to see this irl 🤩🤩

[thermodynamic-comedian]

icarus my best friend icarus

[thepolishlynx]

Unknown Signal - The world has ended

[wondercourse]

Hi. Excuse an anecdote, I just started thinking about something related to my fucking rollercoaster of an experience re: being Wonder. This isn't going to really have a point more than just being me sharing my experiences and thoughts.

Something weird that I'm realizing is that…I think the people I used to spend time with (online, in syscourse spaces) in high school would genuinely hate to see me not only openly questioning the nature of the plurality of a part of my system, but doing so in a way that's not fearful of it possibly not being traumagenic.

I definitely was, at first, because I am always learning. Even going into this account having been pro-"stop dehumanizing people into their stances", I was still learning. I am still learning. I still have a lot to learn. I was a hardcore anti-endo, and in the spaces I was in, your worth was pretty much determined by if you were being a system "right". Even after leaving these spaces, I carried these ideas with me subconsciously.

I kept thinking about how it'd affect how people saw me and the legitimacy of my words. I made a post around when I first made this blog about how identifying this layer as quoigenic—a term that I still vibe with but choose not to use for reasons mentioned later—meant that people were labeling me in their heads, and I claimed that it didn't bother me.

It did. Not as much as it would've when I was in high school (god, I should NOT have been involved in syscourse back then, still being in an actively traumatizing situation was not doing me any favors), but it did.

This isn't to say that I've completely solved the problem. I spent six years in echo chambers, being told that the experience I'm having right now made people inherent enemies to those with CDDs. There are even people who, alarmingly, think that traumagenic systems who are pro-endo (or lean that way) are just claiming such so they can get in with the antis and change their opinions—which, by the way, is a take I saw TODAY. Changing one's stance is already scary enough as is. Finding out that you could also, in part, be the antithesis of something you believed for half a decade? That these parts of you could be tge "enemy" of your own disorder, in that outdated view? Yikes!

However, the discovery of Wonder, the reaction of my treatment team to Wonder, and learning more about the infinite nuance of plurality as it relates to CDDs through this has made me realize that it doesn't matter what people think of me or my situation. Because…it's mine. And it is what it is.

I'm slowly but surely gaining confidence in the worth of my words within syscourse and sysconversation. In the background, there's a little bit of trying to figure out what's going on with us as Wonder, but it's in less of a "HOLY SHIT WHAT IF THIS ISN'T TRAUMAGENIC?!" way and more of a "Well, we're here, and we're gonna be here. So we'll treat ourselves like we're here" way that my therapist has also adopted (I do have a DID diagnosis and I'm in treatment for it). Which has led to me discovering so much nuance to my experience that where I wanted to label it before, I feel like now it might not be able to be labeled at all. And I don't really want to. I'm me! We're me! We're Wonder! And that's pretty cool on its own.

Like I said, this ramble, like…doesn't really have a point. Maybe just to put my experience out there. I guess the three main takeaways are this:

People can and do change, but a part of that is not being bombarded with information and being given the space to form their own opinion and then find people to discuss it with.

Your form of plurality and/or syscourse stance do not define your worth.

Take syscovery of any kind at your own pace. Especially if it's new to you. You don't have to rush to the answers (in fact I've found that both in and outside of the CDD context they come easier if you don't brute force them).

You're you (or perhaps even y'all)! That's pretty cool. I hope you're having a nice day.

Yeah! Rambles over, I'm gonna go make dinner. :3

[pluteorgh]

Where is Icarus :(( i miss him the silly :((

[batfammeetsspidergang]

Tim: Do you ever drink so much coffee that you feel kinda dizzy, then the world is moving in slow motion, and then you're drifting through space and time, and then you can see everything and nothing at the same time while being lost in the void?

Duke: ... No?