#unfortunately this is where i'm at rn
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Outta curiosity, what were the scogan fics you enjoyed? Always looking for recommendations :)
oh well, as previously mentioned the list isn't very long (yet! i still have hope!!) but i definitely enjoyed reading these ones:
'Tis a Visitor and Nothing More by Theshapeoflove [10.8k, Mature]
Summary: In the aftermath of Jean and Scott’s death, the Wolverine has holed up for the winter in his cabin. Unable to cope and struggling to unravel his complicated feelings about a certain boy scout post humus, Logan is startled when he hears a knock on his cabin door right as a heavy snowstorm rolls in.
[it's a detached-but-not-really sort of fic, more of a character exploration and implications than anything, but it's very well written and it was a really fascinating read, definitely scratches a very specific itch]
A Shore Thing by snottysocks [7.2k, Teen + Up]
Summary: Scott Summers organizes a meticulously planned beach day for the students, but his well-ordered vision is challenged when he’s forced to ask Logan to chaperone.
[this one is just very sweet and easy; it also comes at the characters from a softer angle than a lot of fics/canon material, while keeping it pretty head-on and i think it just has a lovely lightness to it — something that this author seems to do really well]
Eyes Wide Open by menel [15.5k, Mature]
Summary: Depowered after a month in captivity and a botched mission, Scott has retreated into himself. Nearly everyone is walking on eggshells around him and it’s up to Logan to bring their Fearless Leader back.
[there are some time-jumps that i found slightly hard to follow at first, but otherwise it has a nice balance between the usual torments of being an X-Men and some more than developing feelings finally catching up to these two]
#unfortunately this is where i'm at rn#but i got some promising stuff on my reading list#so maybe we can expand on this list later on?#scogan#fic rec#x men#ask#anon
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Zelda goes mushroom girl
#tloz#a link to the past#zelda#link#my art#I was happy with that first one but for some reason decided it still needed a companion piece so I spent way too long on that second one...#I don't think there was any time during the progress where I was happy with it but hfduhdfu at least I got to Attempt drawing moss hell yea#I also at some point sat in Pyu's art stream and said I enjoy drawing legs As I was being murdered by the infamously impossibe (imo) squat.#it's ok I had fun !! but I need to learn how to let doodles be doodles or I'll never finish stuff at this rate dfsuhfd#if everything in my tloz tag looks like it was drawn by different people uuuh 2023 was art crisis year ngl......#I'm falling back into my old ways rn though#anyway I think about these two a lot I think they're both stone faced and awkward ppl in different ways but they try rly hard to be friends#like I like to think it starts out so incredibly awkward and a bit sad bc they keep stepping over each other's toes accidentally the harder#they try but idk they find comfy middle ground idk in my brain they have a very interesting friendship I wanna get around to drawing it#in a proper way that might make sense....#if I don't write 200 tags I will die maybe it's bc I grew up on dA or smth#and yes I know how to find 1 (one) type of mushroom /I/ am not mushroom girl unfortunately smh
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like sorry but if ur actually seeing an increase in students using chatgpt 2 write essays 4 ur class why is ur first thought "oh they're being lazy" & not "have i structured this class in a way that makes this student feel the need to rely on chatgpt?" especially bc the majority of college students are overwhelmed taking multiple classes working part-time jobs caring for family dealing with health issues etc etc like there are soooo many reasons a student might decide to use chatgpt that are not just "laziness"!! consider:
the student didn't have time to complete the assignment without chatgpt -> have you created an environment where students can ask for extensions without judgment? do you only give out extensions for "emergencies" or "valid reasons" (<- subjective measure)? if so, why? what purpose do these strict deadlines serve? [think about how this overlaps with students who may have "had time" but were overwhelmed for other reasons; what kind of environment have you created for these students, and does it best serve their learning?]
the student didn't feel they had the ability to write an essay of good enough quality to receive a good grade without chatgpt -> how are you grading students' work? what grading scales have you utilized that made this person feel as though they're incapable of succeeding? do those grading scales prevent them from succeeding? if so, why? what educational resources did they or did they not have access to before entering your class? how might that change considerations about how you grade? [think about how this overlaps with students completing coursework that is not in their first language and whether your grading standards are truly equitable for these students]
the student didn't feel that they could understand the material and therefore couldn't complete the assignment -> again, have you created an environment where this student can come to you for help? how are you presenting and explaining material? what opportunities have you provided for students to seek out additional resources and support with understanding? is this assignment and its correlated grading scale designed to accommodate a variety of skill levels, or is it designed with "the best student" in mind?
the student actually just doesn't care about this class and doesn't want to do the work -> why don't they care about this class? what other classes or work are they prioritizing, and why? to what extent are you willing to accommodate students who simply will never view your class as a priority, but need to complete it to earn a degree--and how is that need tied structurally to a university that serves primarily as a class barrier? what role do you play in that university structure, and is it a role you want to play?
at the end of the day if your goal is 2 prioritize student learning that means being flexible & adapting your grading scales, assignment structures, class policies, etc. to accommodate students at their level of learning for their own purposes. like if the choice is between having a student get a zero on an assignment for "cheating" versus working with that student to create an alternative assignment which they can complete & which engages them with the course material on a level they can manage then to me it seems like a pretty clear choice between "no learning" and "some learning."
#sooooo much hand-wringing in my 'leftist' university dept. rn abt ai & i'm just like um. u guys will never believe what i think abt this lol#unfortunately not in a position where i can actually outright say this 2 the profs bc i need 2 be viewed as 'playing by the rules!'#but like. sorry if i'm ur ta & ur syllabus policies kinda suck then i am going 2 make my own policies under the table....#anyway. it is genuinely so frustrating how students who 'get caught cheating' for 'using ai' are treated as like. these scheming villains#instead of students who need additional support + empathy !!! & like. worst case scenario ok ur student IS an evil schemer sure#well wouldn't u rather have a policy that accidentally gives grace 2 a student who doesn't need it than denies it to a student who does???#ranting and raving#txt
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My homunculus
Hashtag my homunculus
#diy plush#i think i was overcomplicating the bodies. like. most basic plush body shape is fine. who gives a shit#also i am maybe regretting the felt for the head... you can see the wear on her already.#alfonse is holding up really well bc his felt was thicker. HUGE pain in the ass to work with#but it did end up making him super sturdy!#i have been thinking of going back and fixing sharena's head (you can see it's misshapen too)#but like. i actually have no idea where i'd start w that. aside from adjusting the shape beneath the head#but i have no idea how i'd fix the issue of her material without like. having to re-do her completely.#at their core these two really are fuck around and find out plushies. i'm learning the importance#of what material to pick and for what purpose.#unfortunately i am gonna do something different for alfonse's body too. the initial one i made#while super cute and i still love the back stitching. i need to readjust proportions#esp if i'm gonna be layering materials for clothes. ESP on this small of a scale.#i have a test run body on alfonse rn that i'm not entirely sold on either. proportions are right#but the craftsmenship is shoddy on it. so. split on even showing it.#also i did succumb to cheating w a sewing machine. which! i need more practice w anyway.#esp if i want to make bigger plushies in the future actually. so. at this point i was just avoiding it#also don't mind the stray pages there LMFAOO one is a comic i already posted and was reffing#for other comics i've been doing. really cool i have like. a backlog of stuff i can ref of my own work actually#i am soooooo obsessed w paneling and placement... nobody talks about paneling and placement......#sharena
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I am now a changed man
#sonic fans i wasn’t familiar with your game....#that hedgehog is coolest guy i've ever seen#have you seen his sneakers??#he did an akira slide and pulled out a GUN is a kids movie i have to stan#and his powers are so cool!!! no one else was even a match to him!!!#i'm not even sure what his powers are#he can kinda teleport? and make black holes? more research is needed#i watched the two sonic movies over the weekend because i decided to go to the movies but don't think nosferatu will be good for my mental#health rn#and don't get me wrong sonic's a cool guy very cute too#tails voice annoys me a little bit but it's fine#BUT SHADOW???#i NEED a plushie so i can give him a hug!!! and a figurine!! WITH A BIKE#i have unlocked neurodivergent powers i didn’t know i had...#unfortunately all my interests mixed and so i did think “omg they're bkdk in that one movie coded” while wyfilwma started playing in my head#but it's fine#sonic the movie#sonic the movie 3#shadow the hedgehog#what do i even do to learn more about him#where do i start
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I got a second hand telescope 🪐
#these pics are so shitty. i took them literally by holding my phone up to the tiny eyepiece#but i'm getting an adapter thing to attach my phone to the eyepiece so hopefully i can get some better pics#anyway. saturn - jupiter (+2 moons) and our moon!#i do have another pic of saturn where u can see one of its moons too (titan) but saturn looks even shittier there so GJSJKGSD#saturn is tilted in a way right now so it's rings are almost... what's the word i'm looking for...#like if u were to hold a sheet of paper up in front of u and look at the thin side of it#by 2025 they should be almost invisible from earth's perspective#and rn through my telescope they just look like a line going through saturn#which is a bit unfortunate! but it's cool that i can see saturn's tilt#this is so rp unrelated but this seems like the blog where it'd be the most relevant GSJDKGSDJG#and i just wanted to gush abt my Space Explorations for a sec#idk which of jupiter's moons those two are#when i was looking through the telescope i could see... 1 or 2 more i can't remember. at least one more but it was further to the left and#didn't show up on the pic
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in a cafe rn. this place is nice :>
#just me hi#they have a lot of random old stuff in here it's fun :D#tons of books too; though most of them seem to be romance and unfortunately i've come to terms w/ the fact i'm a hater gfhsfh </3#oh and not that the old stuff is random in a new place; it's an old-looking place with a lot of old stuff that doesn't match anything else#lol ! there are some spots that are Almost uhh- the word is not coherent but it's something like it hfhvs#i've had a bisquit sanmich and a lemonade which was pretty fine. i liked the sandwich though it was a bit greasy bfsh :>#idk i'm just comfortable here. the guy running the counter might be gay and there's a bathroom sign that jokes abt gender n creatures for#them lol - it's relatively quiet too n i have a chair that's pressed against the wall w/ no windows so i don't feel like i can be snuck up#on ghfhsv. i like it here so far :D#//anywho i think i'm gonna get on my ar.ft attacks now hfhsvh#i didn't bother posting my first one this year but i'll get to that rn!! :3#i have 1 + 1/2 i gotta do - i say a half because it doesn't Technically count as an attack due to the System but ehe :33#//btw this place has a thing going on where it's Nearly symmetrical#every table is missing at least 1 chair that would make it so and if there Is an even amount of chairs they aren't the same kind#though they Are matching in colour if they aren't the same type! i like that. dunno why hfbvs#also i like how oddly everything has been placed. tables placed in a diamond form compared to the room and then others are situated like#regular tables ; i just think it's interesting lol :33#//oh and i've finished another chapter of my book ; it's taking me forever because i actually came to like it a lot n i don't want it to en#a common habit of mine hfhfsh <3#though ik it's hard to tell from the outside if i'm not doing it cuz i hate it or cuz i love it. fun for Me though hfhbshvs#//yea anyway. i like this place lol :>#gonna wander around prolly. n work on stuff hopefully :>>#i have a ~+~root beer~+~ so here i go !! toodles :D
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somehow this line got even funnier with the music and voice blips added in asdfghjk
#unfortunately i think i've hit a point where the script that i've written so far is so horribly optimized#that it might be in my best interest to erase and redo everything after the intro sequence#BUT the actual game mechanics are all fully functional now so I'd have more of a foundation to build off of the second time around :D#which should theoretically make things go a lot smoother in the long run#i put off the evidence log mechanic for so long bc i was terrified of having to troubleshoot but it actually ended up being super easy lmao#it's basically a reskin of the character profiles mechanic i'd put together earlier on#just formatted slightly differently#there is ONE more thing I'd like to add#and that's just a more simplified method of calling the screens for the point n click segments#which i'm like 95% sure is doable but I'm too sleepy to figure it out rn
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it's fucked up that you can get trauma from someone else's trauma. yeah so discussions about suicidal ideation make me start trembling like grandma's anxious chihuahua because an ex-friend kept trying to kill themself. sorry
#they're still alive btw we're just not friends anymore#suicide mention#vent post#I'm not in a place where i can cope well with other people's mental health rn unfortunately
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internet bad for me but I just don't have anywhere else to get this amt of happy chemical hits for such little time or effort lol
#Txt#There is a more healing centered sense of self I get when I'm less online but#with that comes an emptiness bc I am limited in the experiences I can have#So unfortunately rn I need the amt of internet and social media I consume to#stay about the same so that I don't experience the gaping hole of loneliness and understimulation#I am otherwise stuck with even if it is better for me to limit my online time#Internet happy chemicals are a distraction from the sads and for anyone in a#freer situation it's good to step back and feel it to figure out where to go from there#what can be done to move forward#BUT I don't get to move forward in the ways I know I need to rn so obsessive social media eras it is#I am aware it makes me an insufferable person but better that than the alternatives imo
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haaa
#not really sure how to express all the internal screaming going on rn#i am. Not having a good time :)#so mamy things that need to get done that i Haven't Fucking Done and there's deadlines that need to be met and and and#i don't know what to do#i don't know where or how to ask for help#what do i do. someone please take my hand and show me the way#i feel like i've never learned how to manage anything and i don't know how to start#so much has been removed from my reach#how do i move on from that#anyway#hey beloved mutual who sent me an ask the last time i posted like this#i haven't answered it because i'm keeping it in my inbox and i think about it regularly#thank you#unfortunately i am not doing better since then lmao#but i will forever appreciate your taking the time to send me a message.#i guess i should probably sleep#i've been so fucking tired#i just want things to not suck for once.....#and now i've having Extra anxiety on top of everything#is it from my gaming group? current life circumstances? future horrors? all of the above tbh#auuuuuuughaughaughaugh#frankly i should probably leave my main gaming group i don't think they're really good for me any more#but what then! what the fuck then!!!!#i don't know.........#silvered words
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I love how pandas are so entrenched into my theming and personality now that my mom stopped in the middle of her errands to buy me a panda onesie because she saw it and immediate knew I'd want one
#for the record I have previously expressed a desire for a panda themed onesie. about four years ago#but I also am known to wear onesies and have around 6 of other animals#so it's absolutely a testament to the panda thing again#also my mom came home and her first words were “Im the best mom ever”#(to which I responded “well yeah but I feel like ur saying this bc something prompted it?”)#((and. indeed getting a panda onesie after 6 years of yearning for one. we took pictures for the family gc and everything))#like we have to put it in the laundry first so it wont shed on me too much but I did wear it for like 5 seconds#and I'm still happy and hyped from those 5 seconds#and. for the record. pandas aren't even my favorite animal to any particular capacity#like I like them fine enough? but my favorite mammal is absolutely feline and my favorite animal overall is probably a bird#unfortunately can't narrow it down more specifically bc all felines are awesome (Im big on lions and caracals personally)#(but tigers and leopards and lynx and domesticated and all are also awesome!)#and. idk. all birds are great#Im usually fond of water birds (that are not waterfowl) like kingfishers#recently a bit more vibing with the local fauna tho. so rn Im in a wagtail phase#and as always corvids never miss#and also like vultures and passerines#other birds also cool but typically thats where my interests lie#sometimes also birds of prey. usually falcons but I did have an eagle phase as an 8 years old so yknow#happy posting#:D
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Sometimes creating a full-fledged outline, with three sentence descriptors per scene, is great for my productivity because I don't have to mediate what each scene is gonna be when I get to it, and if changes happen it's because I know what's missing and how it needs to be altered.
But other times I write the outline and then I'm like, "What do you mean I have to finish writing the whole thing before anyone will look at it. There's an outline right there. Fuck you pay me."
#I am as always a tv writer at heart.#megs is writing#anyway I'm correct. unfortunately no one's gonna so. I'm just gonna have to write the damn thing.#this is PARTICULARLY a struggle when I'm like. okay but the execution of the scene is gonna be funky cuz of form or whatever#which is where I'm at rn.#to be clear I do not yet have a completed outline#cuz if I write one I will simply Not Finish. like I do in fact have to hold the precise outline hostage for my brain to do the thing lmfao
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I just spent the past hours uploading art to IG out of some sort of self-imposed sense of obligation but that UI is so broken and unintuitive 😭😭😭
I genuinely cannot grasp how people are capable of having Instagram as their main social media
AND THAT'S COMING FROM ME, A TWITTER USER
#Jay Talks#Me spending hours editing my art to make sure it doesn't get cropped and ruined#So all my images end up having weird spacing because someone thought that was a good way for the social media to display images#Sorry I'm an instagram hater#unfortunately that's where the portuguese artist alley scene is at fOR SOME REASON#So I have to subject myself to it just so people can know I exist#I'll gladly sit through the current plague of crypto ads that Twitter is having rn#rather than have IG as a main social media oughh
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been a sleep token fan since january; listened to ascensionism for the first time today. don't ask. point is i should be used to them and vessel's genre-defying ways by now but the switch-up at ~1:47 still made me laugh out loud
#cried at the end. full range of human emotion once again#i don't have the energy to say anything about it rn it's been such a rough day but jesus christ it hit#not sure i'm a huge fan of 1:47 onwards until that vocal effect stops#you know the one. idk. i know nothing about music and am in no place to critique#i'm sure it'll grow on me#i'd say i start to vibe with it again on 'i can offer you a backlit paradise'#and then on it is great and just gets better until the end#4:39 is where it grabs me by the throat as i'm sure is the case for many people#and the switch back to the piano-led stuff is so good. would really like to learn to play that but unfortunately#i'd just have to stop abruptly and explain to anyone who hears it 'oh that's just when he starts to kind of rap'#anyway sgyduijkhcb i'm too tired for saying anything deep i just like rambling to myself here#good song great to listen to on repeat on the walk to poundland#lyrics are quite something#i'm not in any state to go there rn
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ㅤborn on june 30th at 3:40 am to eunji byun, a woman who never had any intention of raising a child, byan was taken home by their adoptive parents, hye-jin yoon and dae-seong lee, a couple who had never been able to have a child of their own and had eagerly awaited their arrival. given the name yeong-hwan lee, they were treated exactly as if they were the couple's biological son and learned to refer to the two as eomma and appa (mom and dad).
this was the only period in their life where byan had a very "normal" childhood. and it was good! they were a happy, outgoing kid from the start, always curious and full of energy. they felt loved. they were loved. they don't remember it, but they were even taken to korea to meet their parents' extended family when they were two.
things were good, and it seemed like they were only going to get better when hye-jin unexpectedly discovered that she was pregnant.
byan's sister, hwa-young, was born on september 9th, when they were four years old. given her name because hye-jin was fond of the idea of her children having similar names, even byan was excited by this, and by the concept of having a baby sister. things remained exciting for the first few weeks, but as time passed and the newness of having a baby in the house began to wear off, things started to get... complicated. neither parent had particularly high paying jobs, and hye-jin couldn't afford to take much of a maternity leave. she worked from home, but between work, household chores, and hwa-young, neither she nor dae-seong had much time left over for byan, let alone for themselves. needless to say, it was a stressful time, and with money and energy running thin, byan beginning to act out a couple months in due to a lack in the attention they were used to having didn't exactly help matters.
only a few months before their fifth birthday, byan was placed into the care of a foster family. it wasn't an easy decision for either of their parents to make, but they had never planned for two children and no longer believed that they could properly support or give them both the life they deserved. the decision was made thinking that it would give byan the opportunity for something better, and that if things ever turned around for the family, they could eventually be brought back.
ㅤ—of course, that never happened.
contact was kept for a while, but when it seemed to only make things harder on byan, and subsequently harder on all of them, the decision to cut contact completely and all at once was made. the thought process was that if byan stopped waiting and hoping for the day that they'd get to come home, maybe they would eventually allow themself to settle with another family. at least they were probably young enough that they wouldn't remember all that much from their first four years, right? surely they would move on, and eventually be happier for it.
the last thing byan remembers hearing from eomma and appa didn't even come directly from them. it came through their foster mother, who tried to make it sound exciting that their last name had been changed from lee to byun.
#i uh. i've been wanting to flesh out more of byan's history. naturally the beginning seemed like a good place to start.#i like to think that hye-jin and dae-seong's hearts were in the right place...#but they were more selfish in their choices than they realized and the execution was overall absolutely terrible#byan was left scarred and abandoned and ended up blaming themself for what happened for a very long time#thinking that maybe there's something fundamentally wrong with them#or that maybe if they'd behaved better or been quieter they would have been able to stay#and of course those were thoughts that only ended up reinforced throughout several of the foster homes they'd go through#when really they were just extremely unlucky. like. that's it. purely bad luck and unfortunate circumstances and poor decisions#which they had no say in whatsoever#anyway i'm rambling. this was supposed to be a short hc idk what happened i'm supposed to be answering asks rn...#au where the family is better off and byan gets to grow up in a loving family when#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ headcanon ⋮ danger in the fabric of this thing i made.
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