#uhhh destiel fic

[sarah-sandwich-writes]

20 Questions - Fanfic Writer Edition

I was tagged by both @writer-or-whatever and @jmrothwell so I suppose I better do it 😅 Thanks guys!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 42 (*gasp* am I Miles Morales?)

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 1,265,660 lol

3. What fandoms do you write for? currently just Spider-Man but I used to write for Supernatural and before that Harry Potter. I'm a one obsession at a time kinda girl.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Paradise (spread out with a butter knife) - 72k spideypool soulmates au

Don't Freak Out - 136k parkner rivals to lovers speedrun

A Peach Like You - 73k parkner featuring autistic!peter, loveatfirstsight!harley, and a cringe self insert as the villain of the week lmao

The Distance Between (You and Me) - 29k parkner bodyguard au

You're Freaking Out - 166k sequel to DFO featuring plot (wow!) and Miles (yay!)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

My dudes I try. I know I'm not very consistent and I have a tendency to disappear for months at a time, but I read and cherish each one.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don't really do angsty endings lol I think the closest I've gotten is Lay Me Down - 8k destiel major character death--lowest kudosed fic out of all 42 lmao

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

This is an impossible question. I am like the queen of happy endings? You want me to rank them??? Fine, it's You're Freaking Out. Best 10k epilogue in the land. Oh hey also I just noticed it has 997 kudos. May I humbly request 3 more pretty please?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No. Closest was when someone complained on one of my destiel fics about the grocery store not having plastic bags and needing a quarter in order to obtain a cart. I specifically remember they said, "I hate when writers do this," and went on to complain about us making up obviously fake stuff that pulls them out of the story. Like, first of all you're complaining about storytellers making stuff up ??? okay. And second, it was an Aldi. A real grocery store. That I didn't make up.

I had to take a day to cool off before I responded and then they were like oh yeah, my roommate told me when I complained to them, you responded to this really nicely though! WHICH folks LET ME TELL YOU made me angrier lol Like you found out you were wrong and didn't even come back to edit/delete/apologize for your comment???

Anyway after that I internalized that you don't know what kind of lived experience your commenters have so some comments should be taken with a grain of salt. Which is a double-edged sword bc sometimes I get really nice enthusiastic comments and read it like, okay but what if this person is 12 and read it at 2am in a fit of delirium and this is their first fic ever and it's actually not as good as they think haha

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I doooo. I haven't published any since I wrote for spn but I have a parkner pwp ready to go as soon as I muster up the nerve.

I have no idea how to interpret the question "what kind" lol uhhh the hot kind? pffft

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I have but I never published them. Again, these were for spn which is hella fun to play with merging into other canon. I started but never finished spn crossovers with Firefly, The 100, The Hunger Games, Criminal Minds, Agents of Shield, and Teen Wolf. I think that's all of them. I've been thinking about putting all of my abandoned wips on AO3 for archive purposes, but idk still noodling on it. I wish there way a way I could elect to post without notifying my subscribers :/ Or at least send them a message warning them that I'm about to be incredibly annoying

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of 🙃

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes!! A few now! The ultimate kudo in my opinion, and one I never expected <3

The wonderful @bluettspetal has translated An Insignificant Problem, Undercover? I thought you said under covers..., and Completely and utterly devoid of sex appeal into Russian with plans to translate more.

And Faaayeee42 on AO3 translated Paradise (spread out with a butter knife) to Mandarin Chinese.

I'm forever blown away by this.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope! Done some brainstorming a few times but nothing that has evolved into actually writing out a shared thing. Not sure I'd be any good at it tbh. I'd probably be a very frustrating writing partner.

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

Peter Parker/Harley Keener. They're good boys.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

My Infinity War time travel fix it (make it worse) fic 😔 It's got so much potential but it is perpetually at the bottom of the to-do list.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and developing relationships

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

mother fucking action sequences and like, coming up with The Plan (the evil kind and the ones to take down the evil kind)

This silly little graphic I made for You're Freaking Out where Harley mocks The Plan made by the spider dumplin gang was initially one half of my brain negging the other half about being shit at making Plans and I decided that it might as well manifest as the characters lmao

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Eh. It's fanfiction, you know? Do what you want. Experiment. Try your best to do it justice. Accept that some people are going to let their eyes blur and skim over it while others will pick it apart but most will exist somewhere in the middle. Just write what you want to write, how you want to write it.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

*sigh* Harry Potter. Looking forward to my own post getting gobbled up by my block list lmao

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Goodness gracious how do I even decide? I think Peaches Ain't Pretty is my favorite. It's the fic that showed me beyond a shadow of a doubt that I can step outside of fanfiction and write whatever I want and be just as satisfied, if not more.

[corrodedbisexual]

20 questions for writers

I was tagged by @puppy-steve 🩵

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

51 holy shit. 45 of those are Steddie. totally normal right

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

260,453 holy fucking shit

3. What fandoms do you write for?

…currently it's like all Stranger Things/Steddie cos my brain hasn't been able to properly fixate on anything else for 1.5 years

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Doing it for science (not really) | Steddie

(Don't) cream your pants | Steddie

Work your magic | Steddie

Stevie's good boy | Steddie

A Gift of Fate | Dreamling!!! Surprisingly!!!

5. Do you respond to comments?

Sometimes incredibly late but I always go through my whole Inbox

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Excuse me we don't do those in this house

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Have you met me they are always disgustingly happy at the end. Okay the most disgusting and tooth-rotting would probably be A comparative study of dating dudes vs. chicks

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Haven't so far

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

My specialty is soft dom/service top Steve that's just obsessed with making Eddie feel good

10. Do you write crossovers?

Rarely, I did a PacRim fusion for my steddie bang: Love, Drift & Monsters

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Uhhh not that I know of

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I did tons of co-writing, like, RP-style back in the Supernatural fandom but it never made it to AO3. It's buried somewhere on tumblr. Also currently co-writing @chooseyourownsteddie with @sidekick-hero ♥️

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

All-time, I'd have to say Destiel, just purely based on the number of years I was infested with that particular brainrot.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

I don't doubt. That's a bad way of thinking. I currently have a gay Steve college AU fic that I'm having trouble shaping so it's just been rotating in my brain microwave as random scenes for 2 weeks now, but we'll get there eventually.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Based on reader feedback I guess characterization and dialogue

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Coming up with more creative vocabulary

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

What other language? Okay like if I had to write fic for ST in Polish or Russian I'd probably be in trouble 'cos I never heard the translated versions of the show, never seen them, so I wouldn't even know how the characters actually talk in the translations

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Oh god. Okay. So, millenials you know that Numanuma song. So um. Yeah the band actually had a very small fandom. And yes there was RPS being written and I was one of about 10 people doing that. Yeeeeah. Fuck off, I was like 15 years old.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Love blooms, love hurts, love prevails wrecked me emotionally and I still love it so much. The most fun to write though was probably Higher education

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Also not sure how many people I should tag? Ok avoiding CJ's double tagging here: @steddielations @bramble-berries @morningberriesao3

@pearynice @artaxlivs @spinmewriteround

Since when does tumblr have this weird glitch about tagging more than 5 people in 1 line???

[sammyluvr]

HEY BABY IM SENDING IN MULTIPLE FOR THE CHARACTER ASK GAME :D

2, 8, 15, 21, and 24 for sammy

4, 12, 18, and 25 for spencer reid! or if not emily prentiss :))

(also fun fact ive never finished criminal minds LOL i got to the point where derek left and i stopped watching it, i should probably finish it though)

ughh i love you so much and i hope you have a good day!!

YAHOOO HEHEHEHE sorry this post is so very long LOL

character ask game !

SAMMY ! 2. favorite canon thing about this character? .... everything maybe ???? omg how do i choose i love everything about him uhhhhh . he's awkward and so so sweet <3 he learned sign language for eileen, he has beautiful hair, he's sassy, he's a gentle giant, he wants so badly to be good but doesn't think he is T_T and on and on and on and on because everything about him is my favorite

8. what's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise? oh my fucking god do NOT get me started LMAO . blaming him for things he didn't do/couldn't control (usually because dean blames him for it). ignoring how queer coded he is / calling him the straightest character (often in a destiel context). just consistently and aggravatingly misinterpreting / misunderstanding his character and hating on him for their bad and unintelligent takes on him! i could go into lots of detail about that but i won't because then this will be a rant post that will make me so angry :D el oh el

15. what's your favorite ship for this character? (doesn't matter if it's canon or not.) i think samjess heh i'm basic but i'm a huge sucker for them. and definitely definitely saileen!

21. if you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? what's something you don't like? hehehe hmmm i don't have a singular favorite thing, but i love making him call reader "honey." i adore giving him softness and care and so much love and a goddamn break! in general i love writing hurt/comfort with him as well <3 and i love describing his emotions and exploring how i interpret his character through that. as for dislikes i'm not too sure hmm

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them? i haven't really watched much since i started spn so i haven't really been watching anything and been like omg! that person reminds me of sam! but i totally see the sam and spence parallels (super smart, autistic coded, younger brother vibes, tall, sweet and awkward etc)!

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SPENCER & EMILY ! (doing both because i adore em too much not to lol) 4. if you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in? spence : huh i've never thought of this before uhhh i'd put him in a studio ghibli film! so he can be the sweet main character but end up with a lovely, poetic, simple life instead of being constantly traumatized by one thing or another LOL i just think he'd make the cutest studio ghibli love interest?? emily : anything with lesbians so she can kiss girls :D HAHAHA or i'd put them all in supernatural for a spn x cm crossover !!! i think that would be way too fun ugh. wanna see her as a vampire also.

12. what's a headcanon you have for this character? spence : he dislikes overhead lighting! it's the autism :] emily : she's lesbian but that's canon to me RAHHH um. that she prefers to listen to music in different languages and really likes finding obscure artists! (but still has her favorite emo grunge stuff that she listened to in middle/high school heh)

18. how about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire? spence : him and garcia!! i really really really adore their friendship so so very much <3 and him in luke in later seasons! emily : heh. jemily ??? lesbians ??? okay but i really love her and garcia as well i just love penny so so much

25. what was your first impression of this character? how about now?spence : thought he was very very cute and endearing! i still think that way, but i also love having a more informed and nuance view of him after so many seasons and developments to his character. emily : i thought she was really interesting! i was intrigued by her character and the way she was very forward and didn't back down when there was a misunderstanding about her transfer to the unit. love that she stood up for herself! and wow she's so pretty (didn't know i was gay yet) now it's just RAHHH LESBIANISMMM (i adore everything about her character and again, i just love knowing her better and seeing all sides of her)

[eriquin]

Tagged by @lazinesswrites.

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! Then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

Oh no. So little of my shit is actually finished that it basically all qualifies. I'll just screenshot things.

17 for Dragon Quest

26 for Supernatural (mostly Destiel, but not all. I should rename that folder)

10 for Stranger Things.

I've blacked out the stuff that isn't fics or is completed. The folders are all fics that are split over multiple documents or series, but still count as one WIP to me.

Tagging... Uhhh, 53 people? No, it won't let me do that. I can generate the taglist but it won't let me post with that many people tagged. Probably a sensible restriction. Let's see what the limit is.

@augustjustice, @cranberrymoons, @rogueddie, @ltleflrt, @jonathanbiers, @matchingbatbites, @spicysix, @tboyeddie, @redbirdblogs, @judasofsuburbia, @lady-lostmind, @bifuriouswaterbender, @steddierthings, @enigma731, @cassaloopa, @anonymousdandelion, @riality-check, @lorifragolina, @torakowalski, @pukner, @momotonescreaming, @theheartofthekoko, @findafight, @weronlystardust, @marvel-ous-m, @anzelsilver, @disastardly, @thefreakandthehair, @pearynice, @emeraldzephyr, @greenbergsays, @loveinhawkins, @hellsfireclub, @wormdebut, @artaxlivs, @starryeyedjanai, @sidekick-hero, @pennyplainknits, @gayngerthings, @afewproblems, @lihhelsing, @lingeringmirth, @tboygareth, @sayesayes, @fiore-della-valle, @lollaika, @greenlikethesea, @kedreeva, @laundrybiscuits

The limit is 49, because I already tagged the person I got this from. Rejoice! And I'm sorry.

[loserchildhotpants]

You know, there isn’t actually *that* many canon verse Destiel Hanahaki fics 🤔? And I’d love love love your take on it ❤️❤️❤️❤️

👀 is that so? 👀 perhaps 👀 then 👀 i ought to uhhh 👀 tap that market huh 👀

[babythe67]

HELLO

Meet the writer !

LETS START OFF EASY

I’m Chevy or Colton, you can call me Cole, Colby, Chev, or Chevs. Please don’t call me impala or baby I know my name is similar to the car but please it makes me insane 🙏 Colt is fine too, just use it sparingly. 

MY PRONOUNS ARE HE HIM

2. Listen I understand wOAH MALE FANFIC WIRTER- yOu mUst bE aGiRl- please shut up PLEASE PLEASE LAST TIME I CHECKED I GOT BELLS AND THE TREE. MERRY CHRISTMAS.  

IM 19 

3. Guys. Let’s have a talk. 18 and over to interact. Listen. I was 16 once sobbing ab my Sam Winchester x readers and I know I physically cannot stop you, it’s the internet. Fuck can I do, reach through and smack your hand? No. But for my sake at least try to stay incognito or at least try to pretend good. I will be checkin accounts, if you’re under 18 I’ll straight up block you 💀 idgaf ab views or notes or reshares Im in it for just having a visual diary to put my writing. 

IM A MEXICAN MAN

4. guys please. PLEASE. MY ENGLISH IS AS GOID AS IT CAN BE. AND YES I MIGHT FORGET A WORD AND TYPE IT IN SPANISH. IM SORRY. AND SOME POSTS MIGHT BE IN SPANISH MY BAD. also I write from Mexican perspective so again MY B A D 

WHO DO I WRITE FOR

5. LISTEN listen guys. My list is long but this is just for spn atm. You want my other writing check out my other accs THELTGHOST or Calahansdrabbles

Cals has a mix writing. It’s like. Everything.  Ltghost is mainly cod.  Here you Can find; Sam Winchester  Dean Winchester  Castiel Novak  G A R T H  Charlie Bradburry  Crowley Lucifer  Etc etc  Dick Roman if you ask nicely. 

WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU COLT.

6. HI. It’s Colby here. Im a tall nerdy Mexican, probably on the chubby side. I wear glasses and have black shaggy hair. I cosplay ghost and konig and castiel- some other mfs too.  No I DONT wanna show my face bruh then you’ll find my TIKTOK and HARASS ME FOR THE FOUL THINGS I WRITE. Uh. Im pretty cool I’d say. And I love interacting and taking requests. Like yes baby let me write you your slow burn destiel fic you’ve been itching for. 

WHERE ARE YOU FROM?

7. MEXICOOO BABY. VIVA MEXICO HUEVONES. uhhh no but fr I’m from Jalisco Mexico but now live in California bordering TJ. 

WHAT FANDOMS??

8. UHHHH This acc is mainly spn cause I want Dean to suck my dick. Uhhhh though I do enjoy a lot of different shit. This includes good omens, cod, overwatch, greys anatomy, adventure time, yadda yadda

Uh that’s kinda all I guess. Stream vampire by Olivia Rodrigo. And Stay with me by Ghost.  

That’s all folks. ♡

[gaylanrivens]

AO3 Tag Game

Tagged by @skelingtonsderek (thanks justie!) and I am definitely not two weeks late on this

Last year's for comparison

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

34

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

33, 311. Which wow! Didnt realize i had broken 30k!

3. What fandoms do you write for?

At the moment just justifed! I've written for I think a dozen but have only published for a handful though.

4. Top five fics by kudos?

family we find 9-1-1, 549

I Can't Steal You (Like You Stole Me) 9-1-1, 429

i could be found, I could be what you had saved Stranger Things, 176

A Fan Knows Julie and the Phantoms, 135

blueboys and teddy bears Stranger Things, 117

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Oh my god I've written four mcd fics uhhh voicemail from your grave???

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Oh shit usually it's open or like. Happy for *them* not traditionally happy ending. Got That Solid Gold Country 33 on Repeat maybe

8. Do you get hate on fics?

One time and its still funny

9. Do you write smut?

Not well or confidently

10. Craziest crossover?

Ok so I never published it but I was workshopping a ted lasso/spn one at one point

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Lmao not steal worthy

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

@willowmckinley wrote a slasher au installment

14. All time favorite ship?

One??? Impossible. Top three: destiel, stucky, raylanboyd

15. What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Uhhh idk I have a lot of wips from previous fandoms that I'll likely never finish. What to Expect When You're Expecting (an 11 year old) was supposed to be the start of a series and then....my mom died like. A week after posting and dead mom is a pretty big part of that so lol lmao. Maybe I'll feel like touching it again one day who knows.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I can do ok dialogue sometimes

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Instead of annoying everyone with self depreciation im gonna refrain from this one

18. Thoughts on dialouge in another language?

I mean as long as you do it respectfully?

19. First fandom you wrote in?

Supernatural

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Slasher au!!!! watch a few movies, take a few notes but id i have to give one fic instead of a whole series..... maybe The Ballad of "Just Tim" Gutterson that's one I had been wanting to write for a long time and I think it came out decent?

Tagging uh... idk who has and hasn't been tagged. So....if you see this and want to do it I'm tagging you

[resident-rats]

20 Questions for Fic Authors

Thank you @silvercap for tagging me!!

1. How many works do you have?

18!!

2. What is your Ao3 word count?

176,463

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Basically just Resident Evil at the moment, the only other fandom I’ve written for is BBC Ghosts (quite a big contrast there lol)

4. What are your top 5 fics by Kudos?

• One Bed 284 (Serennedy)

• My Starling 273 (BBC Ghosts)

• What If? 240 (Serennedy)

• Hands-on Approach 231 (Chreon)

• A Much Needed Break 224 (Serennedy)

5. Do you respond to comments?

Yes!! Sometimes there’s a bit of a wait, but I try to respond to them all

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don’t think any have an angsty ending?? I definitely planned to have a few, but chickened out lolll. I’d like to write some with an angsty ending though, it’s something I enjoy reading in general

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

All of them probably hdhdhdh, usually my fics all end in similar ways 🥴

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not had any yet (touch wood)

9. Do you write smut? If so, which kind?

Almost everything I’ve written contains smut loll. Usually it’s quite feelings oriented/first time sleeping together kinda smut? Though some of it is purely just horny self indulgence 🫡

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest crossover you’ve ever written?

Not written any crossovers!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I hope not lol

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope

14. What’s your all-time favourite ship?

Uhhh, I don’t know if I have an all time favourite ship?? Usually I just latch onto a few ships in a fandom until I eventually bounce into different one. I mean Destiel will always have a place in my heart, purely bc it’s the first fandom related ship I properly got into??? And how feral I was over it in my early teens lol. But I’ve not read any spn fanfic or really interacted with the community in yearssss so 🤷🏻‍♂️ Right now though my favourite ship is probably Chreon or Metaltango??

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Uhhhh I have Serennedy fic I started writing in May last year that I kinda gave up on lol. It was my very first attempt at writing an RE fic when I first got consumed with the rot™️ The plot was just Luis turning up at Leon’s door in the middle of the night bc people were after him

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I write emotions well?? I’ve also been told I describe stuff well!! Which is very kind. People have also said they like my characterisations!

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I’m gonna try and not be too hard on myself lol. I think I reuse a lot of specific phrases and words? I also always tend to end fics in similar ways, which i’d quite like to break out of

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Personally I think it’s quite a commitment if you don’t know the language well, because Google translate can only get you so far. But if you wanna do it then do it 🫡

19. First fandom you wrote for?

BBC Ghosts!! Though I’ve not actually finished the fic

20. Favourite fic you’ve written

Hands-on Approach or Dinner Can Wait, I think?? Maybe Knives Are Faster?? I tend to rank my favourite fics based on how I was doing when I wrote them lol, because I guess they’re kinda associated with whatever I was feeling at the time??

Tagging: @courtofparrots @sleeplesstories @samblerambles and anyone else who wants to do it!!!! Please consider yourself tagged if you’d like to <33 (also no pressure to anyone tagged to do it)

[mangonatural]

Rules: Make a 24 hour poll with the names of your WIPs, let it run, then work for 10 minutes for every vote the winner receives.

Thank you for the tag, @angelcasendgame!!!!! I am not sure I will be able to work on anything very soon just because life came after me again, and turns out I'm gonna be moving over the next month or so, but I really do hope I can find time!!

None of these have names yet lol. I put the SPN ones first, but technically I've been trying to break my writer's block by returning to The Great Gatsby (It's all Nick/Gatsby btw, just realized that might not be immediately evident) with limited success. It's always come easier for me. But all of this is stuff I do actively want to work on.

Ohh I don't know who to tag. I'm sure everyone in this circle has been tagged already, and most of the people I talk to regularly enough to know about their projects have more or less left Tumblr... I do absolutely want to pass this your way though, @antique-ro-man!! (It's Wes, btw!) I also wanna tag @heyfagbutt! And then anyone else who sees this and wants to participate, I also encourage it!! This is such a cool idea :D !!

Long, rambling explanations down here ⬇⬇

I think the name is pretty explanatory? The gist of it is they go after the same guy and become pseudo-enemies but they keep bumping into each other like this and decide to work together after a while 👍 this is a really bad hook LMAO. Anyway, I'm trying to build on the idea that they work REALLY well together when they do it intentionally but fail comically when they don't.

Pretty much what it says on the tin as well. No Supernatural AU. Dean goes to a community college to get a certification to help with his work elsewhere, but Cas, a figure drawing model, catches him drawing (which Dean's been doing on and off as a hobby) and tries to get him to sign up for the arts program.

I technically only have a summary of this, and I'm not entirely sure if I will write it all out, but I do want to at least put more time into the development before I dedicate to giving up on it bc of scope lol. I just have SUCH a soft spot for fake relationship AUs. Also, I just found out that while I have FINALLY aged into independent FAFSA eligibility, I am once again tax bracketed out. Anyway, financial abuse is real and I want to project my suffering onto Dean. Also immigrant Cas, but I haven't decided where I want him to be from yet. I think this has a lot of potential for some pretty hefty character redesigns too so it's also compelling to me from that angle. I guess I could also write it for TGG, but I did initially think of it for Destiel, so.

I don't know how to explain this one very well except that I had unhelpfully written "poolboy au" in my notes and then proceeded to forget what the hell I meant. This fic was an attempt to resurrect that but ended up being a funky modern West Coast re-imagining where Gatsby can't even "make it" as much as he wants to, and Nick can't find a place to live except for a less-than-legally rented pool house. It's not meant to be a full rewrite or anything though.

Uhhh yeah, I'm keeping the details private for this one ahaha but that's just because it wasn't supposed to be a big deal and I told a friend she would see what it was when it was done...like oh god probably a month ago at this point... My original scope for this was quite small, but research for it, indecision, and a nasty case of writer's block that I've had for nearly a year now have kept development a bit slow. Hopefully, I'll finish it before the year comes to a close.

I also don't know how to explain this one well other than "after being rejected by Daisy (Canon Divergent), Gatsby attempts to buy his way into a bewildered Nick's heart. Though the fic is from Nick's POV, Gatsby's just had his worldview shattered and is in a bit of denial, but instead of pursuing Daisy harder, he channels all of that energy into Nick (though he's not really sure why he's doing it at first). I wasn't sure what to put up at the top because I absolutely don't want my code name for this public at least until it's done LMAO.

[superbattrash]

Tag 9 people you want to get to know better!

Thank you for tagging me, @pintobordeaux :D 

Three ships: only 3?! that’s no fair ;-; Alright, okay, um. I’ll go with Superbat, kakavege and destiel. These (and like three others) are the ships I always return to no matter how much time passes. 

First ever ship: I think it was kakavege, because I saw Dragon Ball z as a pre-teen-ish, while I started Batman (and later Superman and the Justice League cartoons) as a very small child and didn’t really ship anyone before I got older. 

Last song: Devils don’t fly by Natalia Kills 

Last movie: I haven’t actually watched movies in months and months but then my sister sat me down to watch A Strange World yesterday. A nice movie, in case you’re wondering :)

Currently reading: nothing, nothing, nothing. I mean, yeah, I’m rereading a few of my favorite mangas on-off but my brain is being a jerk and won’t let me read any books or longer fics, so I’m not currently reading anything. 

Currently consuming: Iced tea, peach flavored, in my new mead mug that I bought myself in Ikea yesterday after having to be in the House of Doom for an hour. (it’s a very nice mug, I like it) 

Currently craving: Does sleep count?? Proper rest, I suppose. Uhhh, anything greasy and junk-food-y honestly. Takeaway food and it’s mostly because I don’t have energy to actually make food these days and my current diet doesn’t really allow for me to order pizza.. so. yaknow. craving what you can’t have XD 

Tags: @allgremlinart, @babygirlcowboy, @fickle-tiction, @superbatlvr1, @hiero-green, @iknowmydemons, @lament-of-0rpheus, @bruce-wayne-simp aaand @sazzysavvy - obviously no pressure <3 

[squirrelno2]

the emphasis on shipping in fandom culture is so wild to me to consider because like. there are certain things in jatp that I ship very emphatically, but I literally wrote myself into shipping them. when I was writing my first fics in the fandom, I didn’t plan for julie/luke/reggie or flarrie. I expected willex, because the show gave us that and gave me plenty of vibes to go “ok they like each other and would work together in the long term”. but especially with noncanon ships I always find myself stumbling into them as I plan or write a fic. I do sometimes set out to write a romance, but that’s usually when I’ve been in a fandom for a while and know “ok I like these dynamics and have had thoughts about shipping them in previous works, let’s dig into that.” and then I’m always writing like it’s a persuasive essay! like there are people reading who aren’t convinced about the ship, and I have to show my work.

even working with ocs it’s like, “ok I made this guy to be a friend for this character, but also I think that this particular dynamic would probably lead to romance and/or sex” (this thought brought to you by me knowing I haven’t touched my Jesse Lives au in forever) - actually I would say with ocs it’s most important because holy hell nobody is going to be automatically invested in your oc’s romantic or sexual life but you. you have to do a lot of legwork on that one unless your only intent is more of a reader insert vibe where ppl can imagine intimacy with their favourite character, which means they don’t care about your oc so much as they care about being able to project anyway. they already know why they’d be into this canon character. you don’t need to do anything there (which to be clear you do you, that just holds very little appeal for me for various reasons. live your dreams my friends)

and it’s just weird to me that people will write things where. it’s characters who don’t interact much. and then they don’t put any effort into making the reader ship it? they jump straight to “both characters are yearning and have been since they met” because they ship it, and they don’t require buildup, and I’m like “but how did you get here. why does it matter that they’re doing these things for each other.” and a lot of it tends to be a lack of deep characterisation, so it could be any two guys being gay (or. any ship. i’m maybe thinking about Certain Popular Gay Ships in fandom but also calling out baby me’s destiel obsession specifically. it’s fine no judgment but also fandom has a white gay man problem and that is a different post entirely) - and a lot of it also seems to be like. allosexual people (I assume from uhhh sexytime context clues) and definitely alloromantic people thinking that attraction alone is the legwork. like there’s nothing else to prove about a relationship. they like each other, boom, romance.

when you’re writing a romance, you don’t just have to have the characters woo each other (which. as a reader of both fic romance and original, published romances, let me tell you a lot of writers don’t even do that) - you have to make the ship woo the readers. draw us in. prove to us in word and action that these two care, make each other better (or worse, I write some toxic codependent shit too), that there is some reason to want them together and not settle for whatever preexisting dynamic they have. why does it matter that these people are in love? why are these obstacles worth overcoming? what does it add to a non-romance story to have this ship in it?

I would like romances that romance me, damn it

[littledreamling]

tag 9 people you want to get to know better!

doing this again because it’s payback for mentally devastating my pocket friends, tagged by @virgo-dream !

three ships: thank you Virgo for unlocking some of my deep-seated memories, I’m stealing some of your ships. I have to go with Hannigram (Hannibal, obviously), Andreil (AFTG), and Destiel (I’m a veteran tumblr user, don’t come for my throat)

first ever ship: I think I said johnlock for this one last time? that was the first ship I remember reading fics for but I have to say Destiel started around the same time so who knows which one was the real first ship

last song: uhhh… *opens spotify, hoping it’s nothing too embarrassing* thank god, it’s Achilles Come Down by Gang of Youths

last movie: Glass Onion, for the second time

currently reading: the hate-filled screaming of all of my pocket friends and also the Neil Gaiman Reader

currently consuming: the hate-filled screaming of all of my pocket friends and also coffee

currently craving: the sweet embrace of the Dreaming (and possibly Death, because I feel like she gives good hugs) (and also the hate-filled screaming of all of my pocket friends, please feed my angst demon 🤭)

I’m not sure who has done this yet, so I’m leaving it open for anyone who wants to do it!

[marmolita]

WIP ask game!

Rules: Post the names of the files of your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you asks with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it. If you want, tag as many people as you have WIPs.

I was tagged by @r3zuri ! This is a pile of wips across many fandoms and a decade of time, none of which are actively being worked on but hey, maybe they should be. I excluded things that I started and then decided they were garbage, as well as half formed ideas and completely jossed ideas, and the handful of wips I talked about a lot before but lbr if I haven't gotten to them yet I'm not gonna. So, these are the ones that had some promise that would be fun to finish some day!

post-canon destiel (Supernatural)

supergirl fake sex slave (Supergirl)

Jon/Basira (the Magnus Archives)

Sepe/Jarvy a/b/o (hockey rpf)

2322 (Stargate Atlantis)

Rodney/Elizabeth precanon (Stargate Atlantis)

D/s-verse Enterprise (Star Trek: Enterprise)

Rentboy followup - Octavia (The 100)

girl Ignis brotherhood (FFXV)

wet dreams (FFXV)

girl!Noct/Ravus (FFXV)

Elsa!Miro (hockey rpf)

Seventeen times as high as the moon (orig fic)

also while doing this I found a couple of whole-ass fics I never posted, oops

tagging @notthequiettype @wildehacked uhhh @crosbyism and anyone else who wants to do it! or not, no pressure!

[loserchildhotpants]

fic writer asks 1, 4, 16, & 37

fic writer asks

1] i don't know that i prefer writing one-shots or chaptered fics over each other as much as i am not a person able to be succinct and so i wind up just writing multi-chapter things all the time skjdfhsdkhjf theoretically i LOVE writing one-shots, but in practice, i write novels

4] where do i find inspiration... uh... i genuinely have no idea. most of the time i'll be rotating my 3d model blorbos in my head and then be like 'oohhh what if they Kissed and there were Circumstances' and then i am Haunted. altho tbh rn i am writing a fic (it is not at all posted on AO3 yet) im 40k words in and abt halfway done w it and im writing it out of spite and a need to right a wrong

16] share my current fic ideas? slkdfjlskdjfh hooo boy.

i've got my Cas Gets Smacked With A Truth Spell fic - that's a WIP and it's on AO3, it's gonna be updated soon but [redacted] fic mentioned in the answer above has taken top priority to finish first so there's that. I have a destiel WIP that is in no way god honoring and the working title rn is just Ritual Sex Fic (think fuck or die situations w magick fuckery and monsterfucking), a WIP i've been referring to as 'Other!Dean' (a Dean from another timeline comes to the canon timeline and he's basically the same as canon Dean except for one seriously major difference and it causes general mayhem at the bunker for TFW), another WIP w the working title Winner Takes It All but idk that i'll keep it like that (post canon fix-it but w just a shit ton of suffering first, features jealous!Dean), another WIP that just has the WIP title 'Widower Cas Arc' (... things can be surmised i think), i've got a fic series idea that's gonna be just small vignettes of endverse!destiel and how they came to be/how they fell apart, and i am currently working my ass off on what will be my first ever crossover fic. i cannot share more than that, but i am v excited abt it. i also have a handful of destiel prompts sitting in my inbox, and i'd like to work on those whenever i allow myself to breathe again : )

37] how do i choose when to end a chapter... uhhh... usually the vibes? i mean, sometimes im like 'oh this is such an evil cliffhanger' and i do it just to be evil, but most of the time im like 'this FEELS like a good stopping point' but listen i write by the seat of my pants i have no plans and i never know what im doing

thank u for asking me stuff <3333

[seenthisepisode]

"What... What broke the connection?", Dean asks and Castiel is speechless.

He knows. He knows, he knows, he knows; he can't name it though. He is still way too new at this, he is still too overwhelmed, and he still doesn't know what is going on.

"I don't know", he stutters eventually, and disappears before they have a chance to begin a real conversation. He rests his forehead on the bus' window and he does something angels aren't allowed to do.

He daydreams.

*

“I am sorry I kicked you out of the bunker”, Dean says, and it looks like he truly is sorry and feels bad and Castiel wants to brush it off and forgive him; no, actually Castiel would gladly pretend it never ever happened.

But there is something bitter in his mouth. He wants to scream at Dean, because he is hurt, because the one person he would bet everything on, that one person betrayed him when he was at his lowest. Castiel feels sick but in a twisted way he understands. There was never anything more important to Dean than Sam. And it was never Dean’s choice or fault. 

And it’s a whole conversation they should have, or at least Dean should have with someone, and Cas wants to talk to Dean, to really get to speak with him,  but something stops him. 

“It’s okay”, he manages to say eventually, “You were stupid for the right reasons.”.

*

"I love you. I love all of you", Cas says, bleeding out and dying in that barn.

Cas, don't you dare die on me, not like that, not so sudden, not like... Just don't, it can't be happening, it's not how this ends, not before you know, not before you know how much you mean to me- to all of us, Cas just please, don't, I promise, I swear, I will be better, and I will find a good, no, I will find the best moment to finally say what you deserve to hear, but just. Don't die. God, please don't let him die-

The sound of Crowley breaking the spear in two brings Dean back to reality. Cas is alive and okay again. Dean lets out a deep breath. He still has time.

He feels like Desmond in that show he used to watch in the motel rooms years ago. He finally understands the relief he felt when the hieroglyphs turned into 0:01 once again.

*

"Cas, you just gave up entire army for one guy", Dean says, jokingly, but this is not a joke. Castiel doesn't know what to say again.

When Hannah gave him a choice, the words came easily.

"No", he said when he chose Dean, again. But now? He doesn't know what to say.

Yes. I chose you over an army of angels. I would always choose you over Heaven. 

But he knows, for some reason, that these words are tricky. They could potentially lead to another conversation. And he wasn't ready for it.

*

"What about all of this is real?!", Dean yells, angry, so angry, and he takes that anger out on the wrong person, again, and he knows it, and he hates it, but the words just come out of his mouth

(why the other words, good words never do?)

and he is even more angry at himself, at God, at his father, at everything, because his life? Was never his to begin with, it belonged to others and he had no say in anything. He just had to play the part.

So he takes it out on the only person who sees through that anger.

And Castiel takes it, as always.

"We are", Cas says bitterly as he leaves the room. Even though Castiel was an angel, he was far better with words than Dean is ever going to be. Dean wants to scream but he is speechless.

*

"And why, when something goes wrong, it always seems to be you", Dean says it and Castiel suspects that he regretted it instantly, because he knows him, but the words hurt like a bitch anyway. Dean feels dead inside (was he ever truly alive? what does it even mean?) and everything's wrong.

So he takes it out on Cas again. He hates it but he does it anyway.

The look on Castiel's face makes Dean want to go back to hell, because this guilt is worse than hell, hell was easy in a way, this? This is complicated and delicate.

"I think it's time for me to move on", Cas says slowly and rightfully so, and Dean wants to scream, to beg him to stay, to fall to his knees and beg, pray, for forgiveness, but he can't speak. The words are stuck, and he is stuck, and the world seems to have stopped turning. But it still does, and Cas is gone.

*

"I love you", Cas says again and Dean's brain can't respond. "Goodbye, Dean".

Those last words echo in Dean's mind for days, weeks, months. Years. He hears them when he is awake and he hears them in his dreams.

In his dreams he doesn't stay silent. In his dreams he pushes through whatever was holding him back, and he speaks. He finds his voice and he says, he finally says what he wanted to say since what feels like forever.

He says "I love you, too, and I am sorry. I am sorry for everything. But it can't- it won't end like this".

In his dreams he finally asks Cas to stay.

In his dreams he kisses him.

The Empty always takes Cas anyway.

These unspoken words are always with him, wherever he is. They are with him when he aimlessly drives the Impala through the States. They are with him when he finally finds Castiel in the Empty and drags him back to Earth, back to life.

As he holds on to the angel, he finally lets these unspoken words out. Everything he never said, I want you to stay, I want you, he whispers frantically as he kisses Castiel's face, Please never ever leave me again, he says as he presses his forehead to Castiel's. I will do better, he promises, as he holds Cas as close as he can, I will be all that you want and thought you couldn't have. And more, he promises. 

And he keeps that promise. 

And Cas is happy. They both are.

______________________

@emeraldcas  , we don’t talk a lot but I saw your prompt for today (words unspoken) and I was like. THIS is the reason why I was listening to Precious by Depeche Mode all day. So. please accept this humble ficlet that your prompt inspired. Ily and congrats on 1k followers!!!!!

[cowboyadjacent]

Castiel watches the fish leave the water for the first time.

It stumbles out on wobbly legs, unsure where it’s going

He watches and he counts

four

six

thirteen

It takes fourteen steps before it stops and stares

exactly twelve beats of its tiny heart pass before Castiel has to turn his gaze away

He hopes the fish will be alright.

One of his many eyes stays on the fish almost absently. A part of his mind keeps counting every beat of its heart until the day it stops

it seems important. (important for what, he’s not quite sure)

Castiel could have recited that number in his sleep. If he slept, that is

Castiel watches Dean Winchester claw his way out of his own grave. He’s not quite sure why he didn’t make this easier, but something about it seems familiar, something about it seems important

Dean stumbles out on wobbly legs, unsure where he’s going

Castiel watches and he counts

four

six

thirteen

He takes fourteen steps before he stops and stares

Castiel watches, and this time he does not look away

He hopes Dean will he alright.

A part of his mind keeps counting every beat of Dean’s heart until the day he can no longer hear it

he’s been told to keep an eye on him, after all. (he tries very hard to believe that’s why he does it)

He could have recited that number in his sleep, before, but the memory of it is hazy now. just barely out of reach

Cas burrows deeper into Dean’s chest. the sound of his heartbeat is familiar still, but it sounds far away now, harder to make out. But there’s another sound, new, strange.

A steady rise and fall of his own chest joins Dean’s, and Cas forgets to regret, forgets to be bitter. He falls asleep counting their shared breaths, and if he realizes with a pang he’s lost count again when he wakes up in the morning, well.

The sinking feeling in his stomach is nothing, compared to Dean’s sleepy smile across the pillow.