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Tagged in wip whenever by @777greywolf thank you sm!! <3333 uhhhh imma tag uhhhh @lilas @galadae @laaskrin and uhhhh @paleiido no pressure as always but yeah! Behold my dragon age blorbos! I almost didnāt cut talim in bc this aināt about him but I guESS he can stay. Anyway behold my heroes of thedas,,,,and talim
#doing my best leggo#wip#wip whenever#see I drawing#Iļæ½ļæ½m just slow#dragon age#my ocs#oc: lailani lavellan#oc: tula tabris#oc: marian hawke#oc: rook#oc: kataleya#until I get a last name for her LMAO#oc: talim lavellan#I have more dragon age blorbos that I also need to draw#but not right now lol#like asala and her son and now my amell twins and#my Cousland#ugh life is hard
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Alastor settled more comfortably in the boat, sighing as the gentle sound of water and crickets cradled his head. He looked up. The sky was always kinder than the water, never reflecting back and instead projecting outward into forever. Heaven maybe, but heād never believed in that.Ā
Alastor found that most people thought he was vain, with the way he looked and dressed. Perhaps they were right ā he did spend an inordinate amount of time fussing over clothes and hair and whatever else, but it was that exact obsession that was the result not of satisfaction, but horror.Ā
Horror. It was far more startling when he first looked into a mirror as a child, shocked each time by what he found. No longer was he the voice his father praised so much for its talent for harmonies, but a physical, flesh-and-blood human. He tried straight hair and dresses, wigs and makeup, but they were pretty bandaids over a stab wound that went all the way through.Ā
The horror had dulled to a faint buzz at the top of his spine now, but it still gnawed at him. Every adjustment of his collar or pull at his hair was one more compulsive edit to a script that should never have been written at all. Alastor wasnāt afraid of Hell, but he was afraid of dying in this body. He was afraid that his voice would end tethered to a human that, however beautiful, could never feel like him.
#sorry y'all I've been busy#might have time tonight to post some stuff#and finally make that writing vault thing#ugh life is hard#hazbin hotel#writing#my writing#ficlet#hazbin hotel alastor#human!alastor
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I picked my nails down to stumps today bc I was anxious and now I canāt scratch myself the same
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The quality is so bad ragh
#hated my hair here#soo greasy#uGh life is hard#i <3 forests#the hat is so cute#my bsf took these too#so fun#anyways
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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i've said it before but it will forever and always make me insane that jacob's ending is to join the cullens for the sake of bella not having to give anything up. they find out jake will be immortal & tied to renesmee forever, so bella gets to smile & say "my family is finally complete! ^-^" but jake already HAS a family. he has a father and 2 sisters. quil, embry, seth and sam are like his brothers. jacob and leah were planning to run away together. he's always been welcome in emily's home, sue has been a family friend since before his birth. bella abandons her mortality by choice because she feels no connection to the people around her, but jacob has really strong bonds. it's clear that every character we meet in la push is like family to him, he's an active member of the community. jake would've graduated high school and been a mechanic, would've grown into a young man. a good friend, a fun uncle, a present son. he's set up to have such a rich life. and he's just magically compelled to give that up. beyond his control, he loses sight of everything, because his high school crush's baby is now the singular most important thing to him. he's perpetually 18 with his perpetually 18 year old girlfriend, running around vancouver or alaska or wherever with the girl who friendzoned him at 16 & her in-laws (who were antagonistic to him for months). and i'm just supposed to say omg yay now he doesn't have to let go of bella! everyone is happy! it's complete madness
#like even putting aside the utter insanity of him imprinting on a newborn (WHICH IS HARD TO PUT ASIDE) it is still CRAZY#like bella was never gonna do anything but be a vampire. from the moment she meets them the only ending for her is to join the cullens.#throughout the series the only thing we see tying bella to humanity is jacob. that's the conflict for her. thats what she must forfeit.#ofc there's charlie but SHE makes the decision that giving that relationship up is worth it to her#bella was never going to do anything else but jake WAS. jake HAD a whole life ahead of him that was taken from him#HE HAS NO CHOICE. HE'S JUST COMPELLED TO DO IT#ugh. jacob can be the Worst sometimes but ultimately he's a victim of the narrative fr#being kinda shitty & unable to get over a girl at 16 shouldn't condemn u to giving up literally every other relationship in ur life#also the phrasing of 'the girl who friendzoned him' in this post makes it sound like i think bella is wrong for that & to be clear i don't#i just mean to emphasize like. how young they are & how trivial their relationship drama would seem to them years down the line#jacob black#twilight#the twilight saga#twilight blog#bella swan#jacob twilight#quil ateara#seth clearwater#leah clearwater#embry call#sam uley#stephanie meyer#smeyer#new moon#eclipse#breaking dawn#twilight critical#mine#jake
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experimenting w making little trek dolls for the STLV craft swap :))
#sisko first bc idk how I'm gonna make hair LMAO but isn't he so cute??#made the doll a while ago but I just made his little outfit today and yesterday :))#hopefully giving them away for free means no one will mind the shoddy craftsmanship lmao#I think I've set a new record for terrible hand sewing. and there's raw edges on the inside. and none of the thread is the right color#but WHO CARES HES SO CUTE!!!!#it's the early ds9 uniform bc I've been watching voy and I'm sooo enamored with their uniforms ugh I need to make an actual life size one#watching voyager will have u saying things like. surely it can't be that hard to sew an invisible zipper??#anyways. need to figure out how to make hair so I can make characters other than him and picard šš#ds9#star trek#benjamin sisko#deep space nine#captain sisko#narcissus's echoes#narcissus plays dress up#(?)
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SO excited to see how Marceline is gonna react to Simonās decision. Like. Simon is so deep in his own shit he has NO IDEA how angry she would be if she knew his plan. And there have been a lot of nods to this. I think itās very intentional that we the audience saw little Frozen Marcy, but Simon didnāt. Heās not thinking about her right now. Her absence in these universes feels so pointed, ya know?
I mean think about Farm World. We know that in the Farm World universe Marcy guarded Simonās body for a THOUSAND YEARS. She never left his side, lest the crown fall into someone elseās hands. She went mad with only the memory of his voice to keep her companyā¦ but he doesnāt know that. He doesnāt seem to fully understand what his transformation did to her.
Itās not super clear how much theyāve talked about it, but knowing both their characters Iām wondering how open Marceline was about her experience with the Ice King. How she could never get through to him even when she cried and pleaded. That she held onto Hambo for a thousand years. That she constantly watched him hurt the people she loved. That she was such a stranger to him that he tried to KISS HER??? Did they REALLY talk about it? Would he be throwing away his second chance if he knew how badly it would hurt her?
āAll Simon ever wanted was to see Betty againā. And all Marceline ever wanted was to have Simon back. Itās what Betty wanted too.
I cannot WAIT for the reckoning.
#adventure time#fionna and cake#imagine what she would do if she went looking for Simon and he was gone#if she was forced to look into those unrecognizing eyes again#I just want her to slap him so fucking hard#I know he feels like nobody needs him but dammit OF COURSE marceline needs him#just because sheās busy with her girlfriend doesnāt mean sheās gonna be okay with Ice Kings return#uGH#marceline#ice king#simon petrikov#winter king#bubbline#petrigrof#this is my life
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My comic is so pretty...
The hiatus is letting me take a little extra time on these episodes, and I'm definitely putting it to good use!!!
#almost done with my 8th episode... which will give me. two weeks. of buffer...#id really like at LEAST a month... but to be more comfortable id like two#which means 2-6 more episodes before I come back!#I've got about 7 weeks so its possible. but i do still have to finish book 4#so much to do ..........#I decided for my next comic im doing 3 updates a month.#having 10 days instead of 7 to make an episode is such a huge huge huge difference...#difference in quality and in my health!#anyways the comic is really pretty im really happy with the work im doing rn#the environments especially. im getting to spend a nice amount of time on them and theyre turning out so nicely#its nice to be able to write with a lot of different environments and not have to redo panels when I get to them cause of time#cause every time theres a wild angle? you need a new background...#so sometimes. often actually. there just isnt the time to make the backgrounds for those and i have to make them more flat...#which is fine. it doesnt really affect anything narratively. but. idk. it's kinda sad right?#anyways yeah! 10 days will be much better.#36 episodes a year is about what ive been uploading with my hiatuses on the weekly schedule anyways!#so might as well cut out that super stressful middleman and just commit to that#52 a year is just such a huge difference and i have to accept its not possible to me#i will hurt myself trying to do that. and i want to make comics my whole life!#so i cant push myself that hard now and sacrifice my future. we're gonna go slower after this...#anyways yeah cant wait to come back but also time. if I could get an extra week like a secret one just for me#where theres no chores no nothin just me and my work#thatd be great! so go ahead and do what you gotta do to give me a little pocket dimension#me: ugh i want to return right now...#the more logical me: NO we need the time to finish everything!!!!!! NOT right now!!!!#time and time again#ttawebcomic#comic panels#hiatus stuff#adam and steve
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Hiii I loved ur bakugo where like hes at the gym and stuff and was wondering if you could do something like that but his s/o goes with him š«¢š«¢
this is so funny bc this was actually in my drafts alr š
her possession ā b. katsuki. | pt 1.
katsuki loves when you tag along with him to the gym.
that sweet smile you give him when he spots you, cooking lunch with you after, its all so relaxing for the both of you.
not to mention your tight lil gym shorts but heās supposed to stay focused.
this particular day though, you seemed a bit.. tight lipped, and he didnāt know why.
āyou good?ā
his question floated in the air between you before you just mumbled a soft āyeaā, much to katsukiās dismay.
suspicious, but whatever.
when you moved to lower body exercises, katsuki couldnāt help but notice your noises of annoyance the whole time. heād look over and youād be scoffing or smacking your teeth, was he doing something wrong?
āthe hellās up with you?ā
āwhatās up with me? whatās up with her?ā
katsukiās attention was directed towards the front desk lady. they made eye contact briefly before she tore her eyes away like sheād been caught doing something embarrassing.
he looked back at your annoyed face before making a confused one of his own.
āseriously? you really donāt get it?ā
another shrug.
āsheās been drooling all over you since we got here. no way you donāt see that shit.ā
katsuki couldnāt help but let a smirk curl onto his lips. you were so easily jealous, it humored him.
āyou jealous or sumn?ā
you feigned confusion, making katsuki laugh. you knew he was attractive, everyone knew that, but he was yours.
and you were gonna prove it.
āim getting some wipes. come with me.ā katsuki was already confused by that request, not to mention that you went to the ones farthest away from your station, butā¦ whatever.
he grabbed some wipes while you made sure the desk girl was watching you.
ābabe. ās something on your neck.ā
before he could respond, you were tonguing the sensitive spot on his neck, causing him to groan a bit too loud for a public gym.
you almost laughed when the desk woman gasped at the display, and katsuki tried to hide his various obvious (and very āangryā) blush.
āgot it.ā
#katsuki x you#katsuki x reader#bakugou x reader#bakugou x black reader#katsuki bakugo mha#katsuki drabble#mha drabbles#mha bakugou#katsuki bakugo x reader#anime#katsuki x black!reader#im going insane btw#this is sloppy but yolo!#you embarrassed him so bad he had to apologize to the front desk lady while acting like he didnāt like it#ugh you make life so hard for him š#you got put on gym probation too btw
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Do you think Iām hard to love?
#realize i didnt post this here#kghn hurt/comfort dragging me thru my drawing block frfr#anyway. i think often abt how kageyama perceives himself as someone hard to love#and then hinata barreling into his life and loving him like its effortless#UGH ILL DIE#makes me crazy makes me insane#IM HERE he says like it was never too much to ask for#THROWING UP#i hate them i love them im so motherfuckin doomed#kagehina#kghn#hinakage#haikyuu#kageyama tobio#hinata shouyou
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I MISS YOU
#hi guys š„ŗ#just like mariah carey I also defrosted#I know I dropped dead everywhere but life is hard and I have communication issues okay...#I'm blocking all of you haters in my inbox don't even anymore!!! since when did disappearing warrant slurs š#anyway I'm kinda sorta back I missed all of my coaaf babies ugh can't believe I missed halloween on here#just a small fyi if I haven't replied to you on any platform it's not you it's me I have had bad anxiety since September so I'm just nowher
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kiss kiss fall in love š
#omg decided to draw after many years#tododeku can bring about such good change in life#i drew them as girls because i love girls šš#nive draws#wow youll never see that tag again btw it only appears once in a blue moon#traditional art#mostly#i mean i touched some things up digitally but eh#tododeku#tododeku genderbent#shouto todoroki#izuku midoriya#bnha#mha#todoizu#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#i drew this yhe day after mha OFFICIALLY ended so now tddk is canon thank you#drawing#is hard#i wasted too much time ill go do chem now#also ugh just realised i forgot to colour the ear in??? ugh whatever
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quick ivy for morale...... gnn
#i need to learn to balance my life better....#studies.. drawing#being with other people. going outside#eating... sleeping#id rather spend one day on one thing instead of doing everything everyday........ ugh#i wanna change. bring myself out more or something#whatever that means.... rn im too sleepy#i also wanna stop taking my studies so seriously without failing everythign ksdmfksm#but its really hard for me to do anything if i dont focus my 100% at it. immediately#whatever... better 2 act than think. and i think im sleepy#gnnn#diary#milk#take care of yourselvesv
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Opened paint tool sai for the first time in 5 years immediately drew yuri
#couldnt for the life of me draw shizukus face jeezus. turned out ok#I LOVE SAIS BRUSHES I MISSED THEM!!!!!! BRUSH TOOL MY BELOVED!!!!!!!!!#art tag#prsk#pjsk#read all main stories reading through the early events rn. fun#might skip to the recent niigo events tho bc that looks crazy#wont be as good without the build up of the other events but....... mafuyu........#wannna do that thing thats like fav character from each group for prsk.... and maybe bandori/enstars/twst too. but prob not.#aneeway. these two. wehehhehehwhehehw#shizuku hinomori#airi momoi#project sekai#shizuai#almost didnt tag their ship my bad#okie this tagging this is so hard theres so many. can we decide on if its prsk or pjsk#uhm thays all. gootbye#going back to hiding in my literal closet to record audio for an assignment#OH DONT LOOK AT AIRIS HAND I FORGOT TO FIX IT EHHE. MY BAD. UGH
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having the miya twins as your brothers would mean them betting over whoād cry on your wedding first
#babbles.#youāre not even halfway through the aisle but atsumu is already biting back sobs#he tries SO HARD but tears are already streaming down his cheeks#and osamu looks at him weirdly bc his twin is being so dramatic for what ??#you moving out soon to start a new life with your partner ??#you have to remember they were the first men in your life#the first to make you laugh#the first to make you cry#your first dance (you were 4 and they blessed you with songs by destinys child)#you and atsumu raced on your bikes when you were younger and you two were going so fast you went sliding down the hill#explaining the scar on your right elbow#you can cook almost as well as osamu now after all those years of asking him to teach you so that you can impress your now lifelong partner#osamu realizes that their baby sister is all grown up now#and he CRIES#he and atsumu have their arms around each otherās shoulders as they listen to you say your vows#and they forget about the bet because .#theyāre proud#so so so proud#CRYING#someone tell me to stop thinking of miya twins x younger sister headcannons#in my head they took it upon themselves to protect and take care of their single mother and baby sister#UGH#im obsessed#(omg and what if . the groom is suna UDHEJDJWKDJS IM PROJECTING BYE)
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