#u have no idea how much she means to me
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muffinmoonn · 6 months ago
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY USAGI!!!!!!!!
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mercymornsimpathizer · 4 months ago
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💥💥💥uh oh! complaining alert!! 💥💥💥
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benetnvsch · 2 years ago
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maybe you could draw kunikida with flowers in her hair if you wanted maybe sorry fjdjsh
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I am so perfectly normal about this idea (<-lies and deception)-
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bunveh · 6 days ago
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kicks rocks ..
#I honest to God don’t know how to speak to anyone on here ..#not even on here only I mean in general#it’s fine it’s fine I’m ok on my lonesome IT IS OK !#<- convincing myself. I’m such a liar tho#why do I have to reach out first 24/7 like am I not interesting enough ??#I actually feel sick this is genuinely sickening.#SO beyond sickening.#like I swear I don’t complain 24/7 ?? but like when the only thing that happens to u is negative and ur only surrounded by negativity no#matter what positive thing you try what else do I have#I don’t understand why has it been my whole life I have to pander and give give give 24/7 to even be considered a distant friend#I always used to get ppl gifts I always made gifts too and used to get ppl snacks and try to be overly empathetic#in fact a girl said I’m better than her psychologists#and now I bring my coworkers snacks too all the time and delivered the sandwiches my mum made for them#I feel stupid. stupid and used. and pathetic.#I know for a fact I’d be thrown away so quick if I didn’t do those things. and I do them bc I care for the person I’m not actively like#oh I’ll do this so they like me no .. I do that bc I genuinely adore the person but I’m not stupid ..#ik when it’s like ppl are only there bc they just tolerate me or they like what I can give#but I want to take only for once .. just once. Ik I’ll hate taking and whenever someone offers I blatantly refuse always#but it’s the thought .. the thought means the entire world and beyond to me#it just all bottles down to the fact I am insanely replaceable and forgettable and not noticeable. that’s about it.#I’m not back. and yea that’s a stupid thing to even put as a note bc there is zero chance anyone even noticed lol 😭 ! but yea ..#sigh I privated practically my whole blog again yay#fnsoalsm the reason I say coworkers instead of friends (bc we are actually super close so I should be calling them friends but ..) is bc I#refuse to call anyone my friend anymore. I just#give up. I’m so tired .. so so tired of these surface level lies I don’t think I’ll ever have friends and that is ok.#anyways on a positive note I was watching arcane and words cannot describe how much jinx means to me. actually they can give you an idea ..#she is actually soooo adorable to me and my heart hurts for her too sobsss#her and I are getting married fr LOOLLL (cover your ears Kaveh)#Ik for a fact she’s gonna get screwed over in season two I haven’t rlly watched it yet tho but I’ve seen spoilers
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dangaer · 1 month ago
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@deathsmaidens revokes: you never told me that. i can't believe you never told me. + lucifer. i hope you know what scenario i'm thinking about.
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a collection of things you never want to hear. (no longer accepting!)
            it's with the most desolate tone that she chooses to address him with, spine stiff and a gaze far colder than he can ever recall seeing either dead or alive and it's telling, in a way, how far gone his attempt of hiding the truth has truly sunk. where he'd anticipated suspicion, uncertainty, he is merely met with the aftermath of such alongside the maloseum of her grief, rage. the aftermath of a ghost no longer seeing the demon standing before her but the angel with his own halo wrapped around his neck, feathers pristine yet rotten in spite. armed with a hesitance that comes only from the woman who had once believed in his guidance, his hope and all else that was taught from the promise of an guardian angel, until it was time for the story to change, for the betrayal to take place, for her to lose it all without the knowledge of a scream that mirrored her own echoing throughout the heavens, the heavenly being that had wished to do more if only to rebel thousands of years beyond, below and somewhere, somehow, it's worse than any sort of guilt that would have eaten him up for guiding her attention elsewhere, allowing them to live in harmony as he'd chosen to destroy their tombs and destroy their hatchets, the better ending for the betrayed and the betrayer / the harbinger of death and her reluctant narrator.
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the sorrow sets in before the counter, before a slither of everything, sinking a heavy weight upon his shoulders and burning against his eyes in an emotion he'd long believed forgotten alongside the birth of another ━━ a memory that comes back to haunt him, partially, as the once firm line of his lips wobble into something of an apology and once he finally comes up with the eloquence to speak it is that of a plea to mirror the subtle steps forward to close their distance and oh, it's a juxtaposition to the way he's certain part of himself would want to bolt away from such a situation, to pull her hand to a place far beyond the responsibilities of the hourglass he'd fooled himself in believing would never run out. but neither life or death can offer anything remotely close to such a happy ending / it's long since become impossible to catch sand in his hands, he knows, and can only steel himself in the promise of pushing forward. it is his turn to own up to his very own judgement; not the opposite way around, not now it has become his choices that have landed them here.
❛  all i knew was from an outsiders perspective. ❜ the audience, a spectator; the role of watching the hero and feeling your own heart shatter once someone else stops their own from beating, no matter how often the ending is memorised; ❛  what i saw was never your tale, milou. it was never even your end for that matter, not the end i had wished to see you fall, if i ever had the chance to have a say in it. ❜ a loud swallow, hesitant exhale. they are now face to face, but he's uncertain in looking to her eyes, face, anything other than the still palm that catches his attention ---- that his own hand is gentle in seeking, and reaching, out to.
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❛  i have no other excuse than the fact i couldn't bare to see you hurt in my presence once more. ❜ and there it resounds, the one way lucifer is familiar in keeping something safe, to deflect, avoid, in hope that it all goes away. the dissemination of the self as if to control the truth from seeking out. ❛  i only kept you in the dark to see your smile once more, so the only ones who's hands become stained are my own. there is one truth that will remain true until the end of my days: i did not lie when i said i would do anything to keep you safe. ❜ another exhale this time, louder. but you never told me / he never told her but he will now, everything she wishes to know, everything that he can spill despite how much further such secrets will get him down. ❛  i won't say it expecting forgiveness, but i am sorry. for keeping it a secret, for choosing the best option in keeping you in the dark. ❜
he brings her hand to his face, now, pressing his lips against the grooves of her knuckles as he chooses this moment to stare back at her. the uncertainty has quietened, his apology enough of a expose to what exactly he knows deep down he needs to say. but something gentle remains, the harmony of a beast, horns and claws and teeth all out, delegating the most gentle of touches against her skin / a wolf learning to love akin to a sheep in her presence. ❛  just say the word, and i'll do it. ❜ once more, much gentler:
❛  for you, i'll do it all. ❜
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karlachismylife · 1 month ago
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I saw your post about your gender feelings. Hang in there, bud.
If it helps, I was once told that no cis person ever questions "what they are", they just are. I get the imposter syndrome though, and the disconnect between your day to day and a small haven of peace where you can be yourself. I come from a conservative background, without any of the queer influences I enjoy today.
We're constantly growing, constantly learning new things about ourselves; I think that's part of the journey of being queer, rather than any indication you don't belong or aren't queer enough. You have a significant added challenge in exploring too and I hope one day they're gone. Much love and solidarity to queer Russians. 💜🤍💛💚
Already was on the brink of tears and now am crying, mate
Thank you, that thing about cis people not questioning kinda helped actually. I was told same about mental health issues (at least those can be confirmed with a paper and a stamp, huh). So i guess yeah. True. It's just the terf rhethoric about being confused and actually just seeking a way around patriarchy and all that bullshit that gets under my skin.
I'm happy you're free from those things in your past though, gonna live out my gay dreams through you and your art then, lol <3
I think another thing that is gnawing at me is that I am actually priviledged (and/or lucky). I had a lot of queer experiences that many other queer people here are absolutely robbed of. So it feels as if I'm kinda taking what they deserve more. Or that I can't be grateful enough for being able to have these things while others can't because I'm out here not even knowing what I am.
Anyway. Love wins. And we're here, proud and queer.
Love you 1969 times, thank you.
#juju's replies#on-a-lucky-tide#gonna come back to this a lot probably#also not me reaching for my cigs every time you mention nik's homophobic background in your works#although. i kinda like to imagine he was there in the heart of the soviet queer scene sometimes.#fun fact: for some reason my very homophobic mother was the one who showed me some “gay spots” here in moscow#i have no idea how she even knew#i mean like spots queer folks were gathering at like in the 80s#sorry i ended up ranting below in the tags you don't have to read it i really appreciate your support mate#you're a real one#my queer experience is so fucking weird mate. i literally used to kiss girls out in the broad daylight few kilometers away from kremlin#but had to invent hiding spots for the pride flag and socks my friends gifted me so that mum wouldn't throw them away (she still did)#also i think my dad knew despite me never mentioning it??? he just casually dropped something like about my “boyfriend. or girlfriend”#never elaborated#and i found out my sister was queer FROM HER GAY FRIEND#AS WE WERE OGLING TRAINERS IN A ROCK CLIMBING HALL WE WENT TO TOGETHER#and he was drooling over the guy. and i was over the girl. and he was like “oh so it runs in the family”#i was like ??? my sis literally never said anything we just started exchanging gay memes#everyone at school knew what i was and yet i still had to make my fairy tales only queer coded to avoid getting taxed for “propaganda”#it's just constant cognitive dissonance#but i do still have it so so so much easier than other queer people here#hell even people i went to school with had and have it worse than me#so not like i have much to complain about#gotta get a grip and fight for them#thank u.
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britneyshakespeare · 2 months ago
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she snorts cocaine at dinner parties in beverley hills
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she goes to church every sunday and has a repressed sapphic crush on her best friend
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nevertheless they are as close as can be
#text post#ive had the idea for this post in my head for the longest time#barbie#dolls#i just love how midge's original face was such an overcorrection for the problems parents had to the original barbie#they thought she was just such a hussy w her makeup and lashes and BOOOOOOBS#(and she was! so? she served cunt!)#so they had to make midge as down-to-earth girl-next-door-looking as possible#in order to sorta. let ppl get over it#and it's amazing how ppl reused the 'they look like sluts' thing w bratz dolls in the early 2000s#i even hear some ppl say now that they think the bratz are too 'mature' looking bc of their makeup and facial expressions#they PRETEND it's about the clothes but honestly they wouldn't have a problem w a less sleepy-eyed doll wearing most of those clothes#bratz wore crop tops from time to time in the original run but they really weren't dressing in any other way ppl often found objectionable#they just think the face is too 'sexy'#and i mean i get not liking the way the bratz faces look. if they creep u out or just arent ur style#u know what doll brand i just really hate the faces of and cannot get past no matter what? rainbow high#god those things are fucking freaky to look at with their fish eyes. im sorry to the fans i just cant join u. the faces put me off too much#there's nothing wrong w not liking the way a doll looks. u just shouldn't moralize it or sexualize children's hobbies#bc the children aren't looking at them that way#sorry this turned into a rant i can literally never be normal about dolls#i love original midge btw this is not a hate post. we stan midge
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deadrlngers · 2 years ago
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i was tagged by @shadowglens and @risingsh0t to make some ocs in this picrew. thank you so much besties, i loved this picrew so much!! <3
vesper moxley (cp2077) • victoria gray (cp2077) joelle knight (fo4) • nina bower (fo4) selene (oblivion) • hiraeth (skyrim)
tagging: @uldwynsovs @arklay @devilbrakers @nuclearstorms @morvaris @girlbosselrond @indorilnerevarine @moiragf @cultistbase @faarkas @steelport @nokstella @reaperkiller @malefiicarum @brujah @calenhads @lightwardens @aelyosos and whoever else wants to do this or that i missed bc i'm terribly forgetful sorry!!
#tag games#warning i accidentally infodumped in the tags i'm sorry ignore me 😔 ckjsdhdskj#made this based on relationships idk why jdksd. victoria is vesper's bestie 4 life & first gf. joelle & nina my fave wlw married couple#and then for the last one. listen. i've resurected a very old oc and i'm still not so sure but i miss skyrim so bad. they idea is that#they are related as in hiraeth is a descent of selene bc i think dragonborn=martin septim's child> family line going forward until we#have our little hiraeth. i never thought of selene & martin having a kid in canon (only stupid ideas of an au) but u know. what if. she#still ends up in the shivering isles tho and becomes sheogorath. hiraeth's bloodline having like an emperor & a daedric prince. OK KING!!#much to think about tbh. not sure if they/she(probably he too. thinking of their gender as therapy for myself) will stick as nord or maybe#wood elf too like selene. or maybe even dunmer?? it makes no sense fjkdfhk IDK. literally i HAVE so much to think for them#also their name came to me bc i read the welsh word Hiraeth that basically means 'a mixture of longing yearning nostalgia homesickness'#+ 'an expression of an empty desire and grief over a past life or place' and with drangonborns i like to push the idea of 'maybe they were#actual dragons in a past life and now human' u know?? so i thought it was sooo fitting. i also like the idea of the more dragon souls#they absorb the more their features turn..dragonesque?? draconic jkfdhfkdsj idk i love them very much (:#(i have no idea how dragon in past life + martin's bloodline can fit but i'm literally only vibing rn)#i want to replay skyrim SO bad but i need someone to hold my hand so tightly as they help me set up mods for this game bc i never played#skyrim with mods (collective gasp) and i have no idea of what to pick ecc especially bc everything..breaks with a snap of fingers so yea ri#SORRY for talking so much i get excited about new things (my oc in this case) so easily..#oc: vesper#oc: victoria#oc: joelle#oc: nina#oc: selene#oc: hiraeth#ALSO FUCK OFF JOELLE IS SOOOOOOOOO CUTE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!
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thedeadthree · 4 months ago
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🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨
AIRIKA HI TY TYY DEAR this is the cutest thank youu and i hope ur well!! i adore yelling about tunes EEEK 🥀💌☺️
𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐔𝐏𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐍𝐎𝐖 — hozier, bear mcreary.
𝐒𝐘𝐌𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐘 𝐈𝐒 𝐀 𝐊𝐍𝐈𝐅𝐄 — charli xcx.
𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐎𝐑 𝐋𝐀𝐒 𝐕𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐒 — cocteau twins.
𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐑 𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐄𝐒 — the crane wives.
𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑 𝐍𝐄𝐓𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐊 — ramin djawadi.
#🦇: airika#carrionsflower#leg.asks#YOU SWEETEST SOUL YOUU ty tyy so much for the ask this was the cutest to do!! 🥀🥹#THE FIRSTT is soooo s/olas coded dragon game really YANKED me back in to thinking about it all the time 🥀🤡☺️#teehee 3 is for a new clown for x*men HEHE 🥀☺️#2 and 3 are also h*elaena hawke vibes too 🥀👁️#i mean i have yelled about the fourth for cy but *screams* ITS SOO VELAENE AND VELAENGWAYNE UGHH it makes me crazy kdjxhxh 🥀💀#i need to give her a formal introduction and her and her beloved (🥀🙄🥴) so soon !!!!!!#and lastly!! the fifth is the closest i think so far to what i think a theme song for irulanne would be?#raised a city elf until found by the sisters (a subset of the mourners!!)#she lost her network of fellow orphans and spies around but as she had magic she gained a new whisper network in the undead as her ‘birds’#its how i would say she learned of v*arric and feanorians interest in taking her on as the rook!!#she snuck out to the rendezvous sooo fast kxjxhxh#i mean they were preparing her to be the next arcane advisor/spymaster (she’s a two for one we love a multitalented girliee)#and maybe even to marry and or have a ‘legitimate’ heir with a monarch#or at least very close by to a/the throne yk? mourner mage with close ties to a throne was their goal 🥀💀😵‍💫#they were VERY into the idea of having a mage on a throne one way or another and so her leaving#is going to be SOO interesting for her to go back 🥀💀#i mean if they try to throw it in her face they gave her a life so many dreamed or something ->#they can take it up with her crow husband or something 🥀🥴☺️ good for her i think!!#but after things went sideways with the ritual i think she had begun to reconsider ditching the sisters oxjxjxh#that’s remedied when she meets luca though HEHE 🥀😌#prodigy orphan with gifted kid burnout meets scion of family prodigy with gifted kid burnout THEYRE SOO <3#ANYWAY LZJXJXH i missed yelling in the tags so i took the opportunity if yall read that im baking u cookies rn 🥀🤧🥹!!!!!#also this almost would be just c*harli bc the way her album has been on a loop for me 🥀☺️😌
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izzy-b-hands · 1 year ago
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today should be a t break day
bc I'll need it to be more effective in the coming days if we see family, and then I'll have the survey shifts
but since late last night i keep randomly nearly breaking into tears and thinking abt the stupidest shit that needs to stay in the box in my brain
so idk. maybe it will be. it is thus far. but I'm not leaving my room without a container of some edible or another in my pocket either
#text post#no idea where the fuck this came from and it kept me up until fucking four in the fucking morning#but only NEARLY crying my body/brain still won't let me FULLY cry#and i did email my prior doc with a 'can i ask u just abt this one current symptom and if it is abt what i think & ill send u 20 bucks even'#she said no to the twenty bucks but said yeah it does sound like my ptsd has been triggered by multiple things over the last year#and the not being able to cry is a part of it. my body's trying to protect me from feeling anything abt it and breaking down#and part of that means not letting the tears fall so there's no physical acknowledgement of any feelings#which is what i was thinking was going on but it's nice to confirm it with someone who knows their shit#doesn't fix it but at least i know.#the thing is that the triggers are like. good? bc im in a healthier safer environment now with ppl that don't do what my mum & fam do to me#but it means my brain is learning just how much of a lot of it Wasn't Normal and was actually Pretty Harmful and that's.#i want my brain to just accept and get over that already tbh. okay so that's the case it doesn't change anything????#why are we still thinking abt it and having feelings over it at this point bc that feels like a waste of time#there are no apologies I'll get for things that happened from when i was younger and there's no closure it just Is What It Is#I'm tired of even wanting to cry over it when I'd rather be throwing myself into making money & being productive art-wise#it manages to interrupt so many fucking facets of my life like#whatever. anyway considering a music au new draft where ed and izzy meet seth. and immediately offer to kill him for Pickles aksnsjfnfgj
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her-canine-teeth · 9 months ago
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sometimes it's important to get a reality check. for example, i get violently interested in basically anything and ill ask my friend 'lots, is yellowjackets popular' and shell be like 'what the fuck is yellowjackets' and ill be like 'thanks great talking to you' and then. many a time later i discover it actually is popular and more ppl than my 3 beloved mutuals know abt it. but such is the life
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orcelito · 7 months ago
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Oh Boy if the naruto brain grips me as hard as it did in 2018, I really just might end up doing a trigunxnaruto crossover. Specifically with trigun characters in naruto world
Listen. I am just utterly fascinated by Naruto's world building. And if I can find a way to fit Vash (and Nai) into the Naruto world's lore in a way that is both convincing and fitting. Then fuck YEAH I wanna do it
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cestacruz · 9 months ago
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Mmm Jeanne
#servants cant learn new stuff (i'll talk about jalter in a second) therefore#jeanne shouldnt know how to read or write#we actually Dont get a confirmation that she can do those things in summer 3. because the book that jalter thought jeanne wrote#was actually Her own book#jeanne works with marie. maybe she comes up with the ideas and does rough drawings that marie would be Delighted to bring to life#marie reads to jeanne is my image#jalter taught herself how to read and write and i think that was possible because of the unstability of her existence#if you try to teach jeanne how to read and write it will stick for a second but if like idk 15-20 min pass she would likely find herself#unable to read again and her writting to be suboptimal#she can sign her own name ofc thats historical#she can recite the bible from memory iirc#i love jalter's ability to be her own person even if it comes with the fact that she is very much. an ephemeral dream#like her FCKING SKILL IS CALLED.#WHY MUST YOU HURT ME LIKE THIS FGO#anyway. now jeanne again but physical#oughhh thank u for the support in the tags when i said jeanne should have self image issues because she looked different in life#i hadnt fully talked bout it i just went with hair but yeah. i need to check again because im pretty sure her body wasnt Suuuper different#but i just gotta confirm#but im just so i love the idea of her just not liking the way she manifested abd not knowing Why she manifested like that#when there are Countless depictions of her with her short brown hair#sieg looks to the side whistling (its not his fault but he knows the pseudo servant part#and its probably a mix of . fate apocrypha's manifestation and of how some people imagined jeanne looked like#but it still upsets her#not that she'd ever complain to people#you can probably get it out of her tho#unrelated and only to those who reached this far: im thinking of a singularity set in 15th century orleans in the Middle of the hundred year#war. but the difference aint “oh jeanne d'arc came back to life evil” rather than “there seems to be a battle here where it shouldnt and oh#my god is that jeanne- oh god jeanne d'arc fucking died--#and chaldeas has to try and fix the war without living breathing jeanne d'arc#actually thats not the middle of the 100yearwar but yknow what i mean. also haha jk unless...
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princekirijo · 1 year ago
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Also in addition to Riku. You've also influenced the way I think about Mitsuru. In my head she's the same height or taller than Akihiko without heels and taller than Shinji with heels. She's one of if not the strongest member of SEES barring Aigis. She's a trans woman and a trans man. She's a lesbian either way. She's the loving wife of Yukari. She's super smart. She's stupid as hell. I love her though.
AHH DUDE THIS IS LIKE THE COMPLIMENT OF ALL TIME 😭
But YEAH that's my Mitsuru 🥹 she's everything she's my girlboss but she fails so hard she's smart but dumb af and she loves WOMEN!!!
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upsidedowngrass · 2 years ago
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yknow, i find it kinda innacurate when people portray bryce as kinda really angry all the time? i think hes easier to irritate, but he doesnt actually strike me as an angry person. hes angry a lot in the series yeah, but these are very obviously when 1. he has been kidnapped and 2. he is being kinda forcefully reminded of being kidnapped. like i think that these are reasonable times to be snappy and angry. i and really, i think airy pisses him off, but i think liam pisses him off less than the fact that what he went through was Real and liam was just serving to enforce it, which was Hard to handle.
overall, hes actually one of the more socially skilled characters! he thinks fast when talking to oscar and is able to act normal AND kind to him. when amelia is unhappy about not being eliminated AND when liam is still Recovering from the events of ep 6, hes actually pretty well-spoken. in the opening of ep 7, he handles everything being fucked over by his boss VERY quietly (until hes by himself). overall i think he has MANY issues but being angry at people isnt really one of them, hes generally really good at managing things in social settings!
all of this post was a buildup though, to the POINT of this post, which is less analytical and more just what i think: once they get home, bryce and charlotte ARE friends but she is INCREDIBLE at pissing him off. she says anything and he has to go into another room to calm down
#hfjone#like look ok. bryce IS more irritable than like liam or amelia but he is not as Angry as ppl write him sometimes#and i also think post one hes even more mellow? i have my own ideas of how the characters are changed by everything bc thats pretty common#and i think hes more . idk patient? liek where before it was more social based now he like. is more patient w others#(i also just think bryce says things that SOUND mean so ppl who watch one THINK hes mean)#tho i think he is the type to say Mean things when arguing bc its his best footing in an argument#as evidenced w like... his arguments w liam#liam ALSO has a few low blows but i think theyre meant to point out where liam sees irrationality#whereas bryces have more to do w 'guhhh LISTEN TO ME... [says smth mean bc people dont LISTEN otherwise]'#AND? i think charlotte ALSO mellows out more post one#what w the likely realization that her friends were genuinely TRYING to look out for her bc they cared ab HER#and that now she also has Others that have her back very obviously#AND and the fact that she ended up in a position where she was the only one willing to pt out how fucked up the plane was after so long#point is that charlotte and bryce are both more chill post one bc it was Bad and they have New problems bc of it#but it did present them w smth that contradicted or fought against their previous sources of unhappiness#but also if u put them in a room together. they care abt each other soooo much but theres also a 50% chance#that charlotte pisses him off. another 50% chance that its intentional#(not in a mean way. theyre just like that w each other)#anyway i have no clue if this makes sense. its just been on my mind#ALSO prob gonna talk abt amelia suuuuper soon after this#sorry for clogging the tag i just rewatched one and have SOOO many thoughts
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phagodyke · 2 years ago
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istg one of these days.......
#ya know that post thats like texting lesbians: its throw bowling balls down the stairs day u better be game#one of my fave posts ever in the world#anyway my lesbian flatmate texts like the straight female friend part of that post and i love her but its killing me#its endearing but its so hard not to read it as flirty stoppitttt im already dedicating so much work to repressing this little crush 😭#ALSO THAT POST THATS LIKE FLIRTING W GIRLS WILL HAVE U ADDING :3 TO UR TEXTS literally so true but I dont think she means it like that 😭😭#like she talks to everyone that way I remember when I first met her me + my ex spent ages trying to work out if she was gay#bc we were so sure she had a gay vibe but every text felt like it was pointing the other way..... the vindication when I found out she WAS#anyway my resolve weakens with every 😘 emoji like im already thinking abt it dont give me any more ideas !!!!#its not even embarrassing anymore like how am i supposed to exist near someone like her WITHOUT ever having a gay thought#so im not sorry if she sees this. i take rejection like a champ dont be shy#but genuinely tho i dont think shes interested shes just cute like that. and idw make things weird cuz we're still living together next yr#itd be suchh a pain if i made things awkward right when we need to find a place. and anyway my best case is our 3rd flatmates WORST#i wouldnt do that to him god forbid#buuuut...... nope ok enough of that im going back to bed its almost 1am#this is what HAPPENS when u have insomnia tuning into the crazy radio every night#need to get onto dating apps and find smth new to distract me before this gets out of hand....... buttttt i dont want to >:|#its ok my patience is infinite i like playing the long game. i was into my ex for 2 and a half years before i made any moves#i can wait this one out too either itll happen eventually or itll pass. we're good#ok thats GOODNIGHT from me if u read this far wow ur nosy arent u...... jk ily sleep well everyone#muah all round#.diaries
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