#two of this are abandoned wips
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gosh writing this fic makes me love dick grayson and roy harpers relationship sm!! ach mon
#a rarepair that only become a rarepair post-flashpoint is truly so painful#spokes#dickroy#both of them having important relationships external to each other. they both have families. they both love lian.#they both hate each others fathers#roy harpers inferiority complex + abandonment issues vs. dick graysons martyr complex and fear of losing control fight fight fight#sorry ill stop post wip screenies but also........ i cannae stop tjinking about them (two mentally ill men who should kiss)#persephone tag
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Organa-Solo my ass. You can’t tell me Han isn’t begging to take Organa as his name. Think of the stunts he could pull, the places he could get into, the fucking swagger this man would have as Mr. fucking Organa.
#I mean he is Mr fucking Organa#but not officially#honestly it’s probably why Leia didn’t give it to him#or maybe she did and he stopped using in the separation#bc as cool as he tries to play he’s kind of a drama queen#Mr throws a tantrum bc his fwb isnt sad after their breakup#was thinking about this#totally not for a new wip after abandoning two wips#are you team Organa-solo or Organa or Solo?#leia organa#han solo#hanleia#snippys headcanons no one asked for
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Anyone Still Here?
So... it's been a while. I had a baby. I traveled with her internationally for a wedding. She turned one. I built a house and moved into it. I had a dental emergency a few days before my closing. Everything in the new house is now toddler proofed... until she thinks of a new way to get into a dangerous situation. I think that many life events safely defines my hiatus as "extended."
The Choices fandom is, I'm guessing, dying. I've not been on Tumblr or even the Choices subreddit with any regularity in over a year at this point, so I don't know this as a fact, but I have my suspicions. The mass culling of PB staff, the acquisition of PB by an AI company, former talent from PB starting a competing app would tend to indicate trouble on its own.
But a dying fandom is one that is more worth coming back to, though. I firmly believe that. When the original content is floundering, when fan engagement is dropping, that is the time that fan works matter the most. So, knowing that my readership is likely going to be non-existent and that my series have probably been written off as dead for quite some time, I'm looking to come back.
I've been "writing" in my mind on my commute again lately. Found myself missing engaging with these characters. Most of all, I want to finish my current WIPs. I don't know if literally anyone who was reading them before is still around. But if anyone is, I want to know if you have preferences about how I go about tackling finishing up my two unfinished TRR canon divergent series - Why Are We Still Waiting? and Fight or Flight. (And yes, I still remember how they both end, hahaha)
Not sure there are enough people to warrant true polls, so just going to post this here:
Do you prefer that I alternate between my two ongoing series, or is tackling one first, then moving on to the other preferable? If the latter, any preference on which series I start with?
Do you prefer I post as I have a chapter done without any regular schedule, or would waiting longer for me to finish the series so I am able to guarantee posting dates be better?
Would links to AO3 be acceptable if I find myself getting annoyed with Tumblr formatting, or will you only read on Tumblr itself?
If you have opinions, I want to hear them. If you've left the fandom, I hope life is treating you kindly and don't worry, I'll be posting a tag list clean up post before I start posting any writing again so you won't get spammed. If you've straight up forgotten who I am, no worries. It's been ages. Trying to find my most recent tag list is a joke at this point. I think this is my "up to date" version for my TTR stuff at least, but sorry in advance if you either should or shouldn't be included and weren't/were respectively.
Perma: @forallthatitsworth @mom2000aggie @kingliam2019 @lovingchoices14
TRR/TRH: @motorcitymademadame @iplaydrake @princessleac1 @twinkleallnight @marshmallowsandfire
@axwalker @sirbeepsalot @iaminlovewithtrr @marshmallowsaremyfavorite @hedgehogs-dilemmas
Drake x MC: @rubiwalker @walkerdrakewalker @petiteboheme @mskaneko
ICWAM: @sunnyxdazed
FoF: @burnsoslow @monstercyclops
#choices fanfiction#drake x mc#guess whos back#the in progress label on my masterlists is kind of pushing it at this point#but I want to fix that#if a han leia writer came back after seven years to finish her abandoned wip I can come back after about two right#seriously#I hope at least a few people are around still#But if not I still do plan to wrap these series up properly
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Hello! Thank you for tagging me, this is so exciting! ^^, tho i don't have a lot of WiPs published, i do have a lot of them in drafts, and a bigger majority of them in spanish, so i will do a little translation magic for you!
my words: tear/tearing, false, blanket, sweet, ground (any form)
Tear/Tearing: Golden Cage | bbc!Sherlock Holmes x OC
A small plea, a very desperate one would Sherlock think because of the way she was holding her breath after confessing as if she knew what he was going to say. But she didn't know. She fell hard for him, right after sealing her past, body and heart within an oath of eternal celibacy in the belief that no other being was worth her scars. No other but Sherlock Holmes.
“But I know, as a matter of fact, that you would never feel the same for me, and I'm at peace with it”. She nodded to herself as a reassuring gesture. "I'm happy the way we are, you running everywhere and me following behind is enough for me to…" she didn't want to end the sentence, she was not strong enough.
"Love me?". But he was. "Would you believe me if I told you, Ophelia, my silent cloud, that even though I refuse the idea of me being just human, I am", as if his words caused a relief in her soul, she gasped in awe.
They had recognized their feelings for each other, what's next now? Both of them asked for themselves.
"I'm not ready for lies" Ophelia said with desperation in her voice. She was tired to be seen as a charity case, to be the person waiting to be fixed because of being different.
That was the same reason Sherlock adored her with such immensity, there was nothing broken, so there was nothing to be fixed in the first place.
"Therefore, I'm not lying", he was tearing down his façade, revealing the face of a men in love, the spectrum of it torturing his most rational self, yet he remained in exposal to make her see they were the same.
False: The Last Echoes | Obi-Wan Kenobi x reader
"Wait," she commanded on the other end of the cliff, the mid-sunrise barely kissing the skies of the early dawn, afraid of the end. "Will I see you again?", she breathed out, drawing Obi-Wan's attention.
He looked at her longingly as the stars died their shine over the sun behind her, admiring her nocturnal beauty, trying to capture every glimpse of her before leaving to still have her, to simply immortalize whatever they had and hold the memories to remember for the uncertain fates; not knowing how to respond to that. They were both so used to playing hide and seek none of them imagined it couldn’t continue forever, that one day it would come to an end.
Her eyes darted from his face to his blue lightsaber, both weapons were the only light they could perceive from the other, the only thing that made them able to see each other’s face. Her crystal clear eyes glistened, repressing her tears to the idea of goodbye, seeing her like this was tearing Obi-Wan’s spirits down.
She was a witty brat and an alluring warrior; an impertinent talker and a heavy-hearted soul. And for all of that she was loved, however, loving her now meant betraying what little he had left of the Jedi Code in him. Even dissolved, he still had duties, he still had promises to make and things to give up.
Obi-Wan opened his mouth to respond, sound not to be heard as she interrupted.
"Don't say anything," 'was it a change of mind?' He asked himself worriedly, but her Force signature reassured him. "If you're still alive, when your duty is over, meet me. I will be searching where you hide, I promise,” she cried a single tear, feeling weak and helpless.
Even now, in the verge of extinction for the Jedi, he couldn’t escape from responsibility, he was still living a life he couldn’t ignore. Regardless, he gave himself a little hope, a piece of peace to move forward, to keep day-dreaming with a life that he didn’t want to accept would never come; by nodding fervently to his desired lover’s request in their unknown farewell.
“I will”, he promised with emotion bursting out of his voice, “I’ll see you”, smiling to convince his favorite renegade there was no sadness, he lied to himself with their false delusion.
"Don't forget me". Her request endeared Obi-Wan's heart with sufficient love to endure years to come, like sweet nothings he wanted to fill her with the same care as his loved one. But even if he wanted to, he didn't know how.
Blanket: Clair | Stephen Strange x OC
"Where is Mr. Strange?" Claire asked, catching her breath after running over the whole explanade for him.
"No foolish worries Claire, he will be joining us in a moment," The Ancient One said calmly.
"Tell me she didn't do it again" she murmured to Mordo who just looked at her and nodded. Claire sighed heavily.
It was not the first time that The Ancient One had used unusual methods to encourage her students, Claire's first year as the Sorceress Supreme's successor apprentice was the most chaotic, not only for her but also for a large list of apprentices, sometimes ending fine and other times it was a complete disaster.
"You want me to go get him?" Claire asked Mordo using her telepathy.
Mordo took a step forward, anticipating his partner, being returned by The Ancient One, who truly believed in him. The brunette understood that she had to let him surrender to the fact that he could not control everything around him in order to know what power really was.
Without more she began to observe some sparks, Claire smiled watching as a Stephen on the verge of hypothermia crossed the portal, the man looked at the three figures that rose before him. Claire approached like that first day and held out her hand to help him, he hesitated again before finally taking it but seeing on her face that there were no double intentions on her part, he was able to take it without much difficulty.
"I told you so." She squeezed his arm lightly to lift him up, Strange groaned this time. The Bearer of Light was able to observe something that she had not seen before, the scars on his hands, as soon as she saw them she understood everything "Don't let it afflict you, you are doing well", she managed to praise before his face turned serious when he noticed that Claire had seen his hands.
Claire tore out one of her own hairs and transmuted it into a comfortable blanket to try to cover him from the cold of Everest. She did the motion to cover him up herself at seeing his state, he accepted it without a word trembling, avoiding at all costs finding in her gaze perhaps the first hint of prejudice or pity. However, she was really beginning to genuinely care about him.
Sweet: Silhouettes | Stephen Strange x OC
“Pfff, I was born in the wrong era” Stephen gazed at Cartimandua, who laughed shamelessly at his words, incredulous and amazed by his daring option of phrasing. Remembering all the moons she had seen pass before her eyes thinking the same.
“And what do you think my opinion is on the subject?”, she inquired curious about what his next words would be, too busy sipping her cup to bother on looking through his mind.
“You were born in the right era, just think about it for a sec,” they both kept staring blankly at each other expecting a reaction, until Stephen got tired of waiting and continued his train of thought. “Old guys with long beards, all boring know-it-all bastards sitting in chairs of stone and then you pop up out of nowhere and into the world. You, so full of light, you, so full of new judgment, revolutionary you. And I was born in the wrong place and wrong time to see you blow their brains off with your ideas in my stone chair eating grapes and wearing sheets as a T-shirt”
Cartimandua, not knowing if she was too drunk for her own good or too moved by Stephen’s words to actually move some inches away from him, had her eyes glued to the Eye of Agamotto, unable to keep staring at his eyes so full of truth and genuine admiration for her. The way they both were blushing and
“No one ever said to me something so sweet” she held her coat with a strong grip in her chest, letting herself feel the tears rolling down her cheeks, Mephisto never in the entire millennium she had with him, ever talked to her with those deep emotions of admiration and respect.
“That's why I think I was born in the wrong era, I would have told you all of this but in Greek” they both smiled to each other, Stephen pulled himself onwards to put his head against Cartimandua’s forehead. He sincerely wanted to turn back time and help her have the life she deserved, now everything was cursed, because he didn’t have the Time Stone anymore.
Ground: Clair | Stephen Strange x OC
"Why do they call you Bearer of Light?" He asked in a serious tone, he didn't want to make the fight monotonous.
"If I tell you, will you fear me afterwards?" Strange analyzed his own response to her as she struggled to break free.
Claire took advantage of that small moment of weakness and wrapped one of her feet between his legs, she raised hers making him fall backwards, but Strange did not release his grip so she fell on him, Claire freed herself before his groans by invoking with the Eldritch magic a whip. She waited for Strange to recover and get to his feet, always respecting the right to fight for his own life.
"What are your real powers?" This confused Claire, why all the interest?
"Did you get tired of asking Mordo?" Strange smirked, summoning the same whip Claire had in her hands, she smirked at him arching an eyebrow, she liked to see that he was learning.
"He hides a lot of things, but you're transparent." Claire nodded, it was true. "What are you to Kaecilius?" She widened her eyes at Strange's question in surprise.
Claire strode over, ducked and kicked him down, Strange fell to the ground a second time, almost instantly regaining his composure and lashed out at Claire, entangling her leg and knocking her down just the same. The brunette dropped scratching her left cheek, managing to make the dark-haired man believe that he had her dominated and then kicked him in the chest, Strange staggered, extending his free arm to maintain his balance, Claire knelt down and punched him directly in his jaw undoing the whip he had on her.
They were both breathing heavily, he massaging the affected area.
"You're good at fighting." Strange said still dazed from the blow.
"Do you really want to know?" He stopped in his tracks for a moment, she stared into his eyes. Strange slowly nodded seriously "If you take me down, I'll answer whatever you want", she smiled at him with amusement, while he took a weapon from the armory, she wanted to win fair without her relic.
Currently I just have Silhouettes (i'm editing the first chapter still:c) and The Last Echoes as published and ongoing on my blog, thank you for letting me share some of my writings.
Find the Word Tag!
Tagged by @residentdormouse and I sure am delighted! My words are: Playful, Energy/Energized, Exhausted, Delight/Delightful, Sorrow, and I'm putting the first one second because it's smutty :) It was HARD to find 'sorrow' in my stories! Edit: and somehow no Steve! Whoops. Tag me again :P
I'd like to tag: @ronearoundblindly @themaradaniels @peyton--warren @baba-fett @sobeautifullyobsessed @bakerstreethound and @deepbatched (spreading around the fandoms/characters hehe! I hereby state that if you don't have many WiPs to use stories you already have published!)
Your words are: Tear/Tearing, False, Blanket, Sweet, Ground (any form)
From 'Joined By the Waters of Time,' Anthony Bridgerton/OC | ENERGY
“I beg pardon, Lady Bridgerton, I did not see you,” Cara said hastily, rushing to stand so she could dip into a greeting curtsey.
“Do not be concerned,” Lady Violet said with a brisk head shake. “I was pleased to see you awake and looking well, but you seemed contemplative, and I did not wish to disturb you.”
“I have bad experiences with thunderstorms,” Cara explained.
“Meanwhile, my brother loves them,” Daphne laughed. “He will probably jest that your dislike of them is part of your ‘involuntary resistance.’”
“What is this?” Lady Violet asked, setting her sewing aside and walking over.
Daphne looked disconcerted. “His remarks were made in frustration, of course, with an eye toward explaining his lack of success, but…” she paused, brows furrowing. Cara imagined she was searching for a diplomatic way to explain their conflict.
“Until recently, I was engaged in a campaign to match your son with my cousin. As such, I exerted my energy in redirecting his attentions away from myself whenever possible.”
She had to congratulate herself on her forthrightness, which would hopefully take any pressure off of Edwina if there was still any question of their match. What she hadn’t expected was Lady Violet’s surprise. It hinted at the idea that their invitation had always been centered around herself, and not a choice between cousins.
“So is there voluntary resistance, as well, then?” Lady Violet’s voice was amused, and she broke out into a wide smile when she saw Cara’s attempt to prevaricate. “Poor Anthony.”
From 'Iron Helix,' Tony Stark/OC | PLAYFUL
“A judicious retreat. People respect a decisive leader, but not one that clings to a losing position. Give in.”
He was definitely moving incrementally nearer. She yearned to close the distance, but his words were weighted. The only thing that would be worse than being rejected, Evie realized, would be to have been rejected after she got to have this. That’s why she followed Tony’s example and grabbed a handful of the blanket on the bed beside her and looked him right in the eyes.
“Which option are you asking for?” she said, feeling like she had a responsibility to signal her certainty that he’d reject her.
Tony’s nose brushed her cheek, and his breath danced across her lips. “The one where you trust me,” he whispered, hoarsely. “Yield, Hyacinth. It’s easy, watch--”
--and with that, his lips met hers, one hand tearing away the bunched-up blanket at her hips to drag her underneath him. Tony went from teasing to beguiling, putting all his sensual powers of persuasion to bear on her.
Evie was on board, raising her bare leg and angling her foot across his backside, locking him in place. He ran the flat of his hand from her hip, across her chest, and along her arm, linking their fingers together and slamming them into the mattress.
She loved kissing, and it was obvious Tony did too. He was really good at it, dominant but not domineering, playful, not afraid to show her he was affected and enjoying himself. And if she’d thought his ability to wreck her without using his hands was heady enough, she was completely seduced by him now. Their combined hands were a proxy of the push and pull of their bodies; Evie rolled her hips in response to the drag of his lips and tongue, and he ground against her, pressing his hardness right where she wanted it.
From 'Trust Fall,' Tony Stark/OC | EXHAUSTED
It’s not long after takeoff when a flight attendant comes over and asks Emory if she’s the person pictured in the article on her phone. She’s already shell-shocked and exhausted after telling her friend and colleague that the organization he’s been risking his life for is infiltrated by literal bad guys. She’d told Clint while still hanging underneath the helicopter, but once they were inside, the atmosphere was too tense to tell anyone else. Agent Rumlow and his team had lost two guys and a few more were wounded. They’d all been furious and demoralized, and that was without knowing the secret about HYDRA’s infiltration.
“Miss?”
“I’m sorry, it was a long day,” Emory says. She feels stretched, like keeping a secret this impactful can multiply in a person’s system until the infection takes them down from within. “Yes, that’s me, but what--”
“You were the one in the cave with Tony Stark?” The young woman’s excitement dampens as she frowns at her phone. “He-- he didn’t hurt you, did he?”
“No!” Emory says, deeply confused. “What--”
She grabs the phone, and it’s a testament to what she sees written there that the flight attendant doesn’t protest.
From 'Diminished Seventh,' Stephen Strange/OC | DELIGHTED
“Surgeon. You did say that.” Amy let her legs slide down from where she’d drawn them up against her chest. “Why aren’t you anymore? Were you looking for a way to cheat death?”
The question was fraught, but the words had already left her lips. Explaining why she wanted to retract them would be more painful than pushing through.
“No,” Stephen said. The word bore more weight than it ought to, she noticed. “I was injured. My hands.” He didn’t hold them up, instead toying with the tubes of the stethoscope absently. He shrugged, and again, she sensed weight there, a great loss bandaged up in shrugs and sarcasm. “I lost that job, needed another one.”
His hidden sadness made Amy again yearn to see what he looked like pleased, contented, happy, joyful, delighted. She wanted to collect his emotions, mix and match them, be able to conjure them on demand. The strength of it shook her.
While she was reckoning with that, Stephen leaned over and pressed the stethoscope to her chest. Amy seized up, too vulnerable to want him quite so near, not with those thoughts only a breath away.
“I thought you said you were feeling bet--” He cut himself off, pulling his hand and the medical device away. “You are afraid of me.”
“I don’t know how to feel,” Amy said defensively. It was the honest truth, and as such, felt too revealing by half.
From 'A Solution More Beautiful,' Remus Lupin/OC/Sirius Black | SORROW
“Soup would be a great dinner idea,” Remus said, resting his arm on the back of the couch. “Even though Sirius detests soup. It’s almost as if his mother trained him to be some sort of anti-soup crusader.”
“Which actually means she fed him soup every day while yelling at his technique, more like,” Elodie said, laughing.
Remus looked at her with a curious expression on his face. “Sirius talked to you about his mother?” he asked, clearly very surprised.
Elodie’s heart sank. She’d slipped up with her unnatural knowledge again. She decided to deflect with the truth. “No, he didn’t,” she said. “I just remember the subject of his mother came up, once, and his reaction was so negative I just extrapolated from there.”
Remus made a wry face and looked down at where his hand was playing with a fraying thread from the couch. “I shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up there, but he’s got a lot of baggage from his parents, and it would be a powerful thing if he felt he could unload some of it.” He looked up at her, and she could see the depth of his caring for his friend reflected in the sorrow in his eyes. “He had a warped view of family dynamics even before Azkaban.”
“We’re his family now,” Elodie said. She had tried to say it with firm conviction, but she yawned halfway through. “Damnit. I meant to sound more badass there. Like a final line before a commercial break.”
“The funny thing here is I can’t tell which is a typical Elodieism and which is a product of pain medicine and sleep deprivation,” Remus chuckled.
Trust Fall and Diminished Seventh are here on Tumblr!
#i have just realized a lot of my wips/fanfictions are with stephen#but this was ultimately fun#i almost got excited by some of them again#sorry if some of them weren't as interesting#two of this are abandoned wips
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Traveling through both space and time, long over the land and the sea I’m in the future there with you, so until then will you wait for me?
- Waiting on Destiny, Odyssey Eurobeat
Just a couple of beans of mine; aka the ever present Lampwick but also a little someone else this time around! Meet Philippine, my most beloved darling in progress
#solnight#my art#lampwickcore#Need to differentiate the tags somehow but for now I'm sticking to the outcasts#as that's technically still them#Though may sometimes refer to them as the vagabonds for the sake of keeping things different#anyhow these two are part of a little project I'm trying to create#Originally Wick (and Iskra) were only used as fan OCs for OUAT but I know my record of sticking to fandoms is very bad#And I didn't want to risk just up and abandoning that whole group of fools that were created#SO they're now officially part of their own world#With most of them being part of OUAT as “AU” versions of themselves#The pet project itself is one massive wip still so we'll see what happens with that#Anyhow these guys? Love them to bits they mean so much to me!!!#I'll maybe post the rest of the fools eventually but for now have at these ones!#the vagabonds
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oh no mera what are you cooking with jade this time!!!!!!!
Something scrumptious!!! ψ(`∇ ´)ψ it's my attempt to fend off the encroaching writer's block. ;;;; I started four separate wips (two for Jade, one for Floyd, and one for Pomefiore trio), but nothing felt right. >_< and then I was struck with the idea of a desperately horny Jade in heat.
Essentially, it's a story in which Jade experiences an abnormal breeding season in the middle of winter. :D you (un)willingly help him.
#twisted chit chat#the other two jade wips: how could you abandon us? :(#jade in heat is too good to neglect orz
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hoping to get my maedhros maglor week pic up tomorrow if the tech side of things runs smoothly
#silm#silmarillion#maedhros#maglor#wip#<- hoping this does not fall victim to the wip curse yet again#in which whenever i officially declare something a wip#whether publicly or just in my brain#it always ends up not-exactly-abandoned at the end of my far-too-long stuff to do sticky note#anyways ill try to post this w the new strategy#so the image file on tumblr will be low res (to counter potential ai scraping) but i'll add a link to a better version#after this i have planned to finish the elf fashion post#when i have time also work through my stuff-to-dos#and also a piece i really need to finish for melestasflight#(if youre reading this i have not forgotten it! feanor is just a rather uncooperative character to work with)#oh and a surprise thing for outofangband hopefully#and two star wars art on redbean
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forever unfinished piece that im shamelessly posting :3
#fear and hunger#f&h#f&h1#cahara#girl fear and hunger#i started this like a month ago#when i abandon pieces for too long its just like... whatever man. Its Done Now. no more#rendering one person :)))) rendering two people :(((((((((((((#funger#my brain when wips are older than a week: ughh imm past the point of no return! i cannot possibly expend more energy into this!
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How do you find motivation ??
Like, if I'm drawing, I lose interest quite quickly and then just never continue it.
Bad habit, how do you prevent that from happening ??
it's usually either bc (A) there's something missing in the fanwork out there and i have to fill the gap, e.g. i wanna depict a character a certain way or draw a niche self-indulgent AU, or (B) i got a LOT of feelings and need to exorcise the demons from my body somehow!!
i think motivation has to come from why you wanna draw... for me, it's because i want to share what i like/appreciate/feel about media! it's hard for me to just. bring it up in conversation, even with close friends... so i draw it instead, bc it's the way i'm most comfortable expressing my enthusiasm. there's lots of different reasons for wanting to draw (original/fan story only you can tell! wanted to find other people who feel the way you do! need to earn income! just wanted to make a cool picture! also needed to exorcise demons from your body!!), and it's OK if it's not "deep" or anything, but it's definitely something you have to find for yourself
#ASK EVER#i also have to add. its totally cool and normal to abandon works lol#i post maybe 40% of the things i actually draw. got a healthy sized abandoned wip pile back here just like everyone else#you can always come back to it!! or do something else!! no effort is wasted effort when it comes to art u make from earnestness#also sometimes ur friends just have different interests and you cant live with watching their eyes politely glaze over again#so you have to draw 200+ xv pictures in two years to exorcise the demons. yeah
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officially made fics of three of my fav musicals and one of a childhood movie iktr🤞🏼🤞🏼
y’all i’ve been dying to do a fic of another cinderella story w selena gomez-
like that was my SHIT!!! the soundtrack slaps and the mirror scene??? perfection.
#i wanna finish my decent wips before the year ends#especially the long ones that i abandoned within the last two months shsjsjs
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I've written 5000 words of lucanis and rye fic the last two days and the only reason the wip isn't even longer yet is probably that my brain turns into useless ash and blows away for the day once it's channeled the lightning bolt of writing energy for a couple of hours and needs to sleep before it can stand up to another onslaught.
#god help me experience suggests nothing else can#in a move every single person who's ever read anything I've written could predict it's literally just 5k and more to come I'm afraid#of two people talking (and at least one person crying) a bit of internal monologue and also some jokes lmao#under my particular sun at least there's never anything new. I know what I'm about and I'm always about it#I wish my brain was a little less feast or famine when it came to writing b/c idk what's worse -- tediously spending months#trying to connect mostly finished paragraphs and scenes at a snail's pace. the fucking GRIND to get to the finish line#or trying to keep up with the torrents of words suddenly being forced directly into my brain and vibrating all my neurons#at a dolphin-bothering pitch that can carry no other signal. trying to keep up with yourself when it suddenly starts pouring in#is so fucking stressful fhsdkj. you never fucking know when it'll run dry and leave you to either abandon a wip#or get started on the long slow teeth-clenched grinding phase is the thing. I've got abandonment issues from my own creative drive#(or capacity really. I always have drive I only in rare glittering moments have capacity. awful combination would not recommend)#please please please brain don't let me down on this one I would like to see it done and in less time than two fucking years#also I realized in writing this I genuinely forget that rye is technically my oc he has such a clear voice in my head#gotta hand this one to bioware they made rook such a little guy. he's literally some guy sometimes I just get to decide what he says a bit#I'm like... his agent or something#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#well mostly it's me traumadumping about my writing process but for archival purposes lol#humming with both creativity and boundless frustration like a live wire. the me experience (two stars. some potential but also. ugh)
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2/2 fic in which akechi isn't actually there. [solemnly] meow,
#yeehaw#not gonna tag this you see it or you dont. its about morgana watching akira be sad. the wip was started and abandoned almost two years ago#and then i was like “well maybe i can fix it up for a tumblr drabble” and. doubled it basically. ah well
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I wrote 2,654 words of porn today and I am exhausted. I feel like there's only so many words for genitalia and fluids you can write in a scene and the thesaurus got so massively overused today that I think I've gone cross-eyed
#writing porn: far harder than you think. pun not intended.#haven't written a word of this fic since 2019 or maybe even 2020 when i first got ill & i thought it was yet another abandoned WIP of mine#and now suddenly now that my surgery has happened and i'm starting to recover? it's like all my creativity has been unleashed#the smut braincell has come back to life after it died two years ago#it's so weird (also i still get tired easily) but i'm just running with it for now. not putting pressure on myself to complete this fic#not putting pressure on myself to do anything at all – just gonna see where this takes me. even if that's 'nowhere' that's OK right now#writing smut#writing#hollyand writes#hollyand rambles
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don't listen to him babes :S
#this is directed at myself as i am kind of tempted to try in case it'd kickstart me writing again :S#i have two WIPs on AO3 at the moment and that already feels like too many and i do NOT need to put more pressure on myself.#i know some people have 3 or 4 and some abandoned things too but as a mostly oneshots writer i lack the specific swagger to do that D:#fic related#undescribed
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I know I promised weekly updates on Scorpius Malfoy vs. The World but I got EXTREMELY distracted by a passion project last week (I wrote 90k in 10 days like holy shit). BUT now that the first draft of that is done I'm going to shift focus for a few days to get the next chapter of SMvTW out and get back on my weekly update schedule!
#the passion project is sadly not for HP#it's attack on titan#but I'm not going to let myself start posting it until 1. it's completely written and 2. scorpius malfoy vs the world is finished#I've already sorta abandoned one WIP#I'll be very sad if I do it for two hahaha#my post
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welcome to stupid idiot town population Two
#me when i abandon a wip for two months when all it needed was an hour tops more work#WORK THAT I ENJOY. LIKE THE BEST PART. my brain just hates me#anyway sorry i keep posting silvertongue. no im not why would i be sorry Fuck hou if you dont like my weird cat adn her wife Die#dnd oc#digital art#lawnmower ocs#others ocs#lawnmowart#botc#ocs#mochi dont look
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