#tw: s**ual abuse

[sophiemariepl]

Okay, I was Googling “Jeanne du Barry”, the new movie with Johnny Depp that just came out by French director of Algerian and Vietnamese descent, Maïwenn.

And a huge trigger warning, before you continue on reading.

I genuinely wanted to learn more about it’s director and main actress, that is, the aforementioned Maïwenn, as it was the first time I heard about her. And I stumbled upon the information that apart from being an actress and a film director, she is also Luc Besson’s ex-wife, and apparently they have a daughter together - Shanna Leila Besson, who also happens to be a well-known French actress and photographer.

But something did not add up. Wikipedia stated that Shanna Leila Besson is already 30, while Maïwenn is around 46/47. Like, wtf…

Only then I learned that Luc Besson met her when she was only 12 and he was 29. They began to “date” Maïwenn when she was only 15. Also, they got married when she was 16, and he was in his early 30s. And that Maïwenn had Shanna when she was only 17. Besson left her when she turned 20, for Milla Jovovich. And apparently it was Besson’s relationship with Maïwenn that inspired the movie “Léon: The Professional”.

Like, honestly, WTF? Why is no one talking about this? Like, the whole world was apparently watching this situation and nobody said a word?

But unfortunately, that is not the end of this story. It seems like Maïwenn, despite being a de facto victim of Luc Besson, she has a huge Stockholm syndrome herself.

While researching Maïwenn on the French side of the internet (thank God I do know some French), I stumbled upon an interview in which she apparently… defends Roman Polański. And mind you, this is not an old interview. This is from 2020, so relatively fresh, and definitely made in the post-#MeToo era. Yeah, I know that the events in the English-speaking world may not have the same impact on the situation for instance in the Francophone world, but still. Still!

That said, I really doubt that we should support her new movie. Yeah, I know that many people are excited to see Johnny Depp back on the big screen, but should we really give a bigger platform to a director who openly supported a man who has used a 13-year-old? And not to mention, who despite being herself a de facto victim of a child m*lester, she still stands with the abusers, not with the abused?

(Because I’m not even delving into Depp’s situation, this is a rabbit hole on its own, and I honestly don’t care if you’re a Johnny Depp stan or Amber Heard stan, take your sh*tty war somewhere else than this post.)

Like, I’m not a big fan of cancel culture. Or rather, I’m not a fan of it at all. But at this point, this is a question of an extremely delicate matter, and that is, the safety of children in our society.

[strawberryonfire]

Hazbin Hotel Sin Headcanons

This is basically what I think the sins of the Hazbin characters were (for now) and what made them go to Hell

TW: Mentions of murder drugs, s**ual assault, and homiphobic people (Katie Killjoy)

Before this starts, (you can skip this if you want) in s1 ep4 of Helluva Boss, it was estaished that the Cherubs couldn't go back to Heavan because their mission ended up with the death of a human, even if they didn't actually kill him. So, like many other people theorize, it's probably much harder to get into Heavan than hell, and if you kill someone, directly, indirectly, or by acident, you might go to Hell or just have to prove yourself to be worthy of going to hevan. I think some of the characters probably killed someone and that's part of the reason they were dammed.

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Vaggie: I have two theories for her. The first one is that she went to Hell for her anger; maybe she killed someone in a rage? My second theory, and the one I like the most, is that she accidentally killed someone, most likely a man, while defending herself. Vaggie was walking alone at night and some man tried to have his way with her, and she fought back. She probably stabbed him or something and ran away, and accidentally killed him. I like the idea of Vaggie losing her eye after she came into Hell.

Angel Dust: I do think lust and drugs were a reason he went to Hell, but not the main reasons. He was an Italian mobster when alive, and probably killed quite a few people in his time. So I think his actions in the mob is a large reason why he's in Hell.

Alastor: I'm pretty sure it's canon that Alastor was a cannibal and still is, and I also think he was a serial killer who ate his victim's.

Niffty: I feel like Niffty was a bit boy-obsessed when she was a human, and probably got her heart broken by one. Maybe she was dumped or a guy she liked had a girlfriend, so she killed him. I also kind of like the idea of her being a bit of a pyromaniac.

Husk: He was probably an alcoholic and most definitely a gambler, so that's two factors. A lot of people think Husk was a soldier in the Vietnam War, but I'm pretty sure he was an old ass man when he died, so he would have been a bit too old to serve in that war. If he was a soldier at one point in his life, I think he would have served in WW2, and he probably did kill people while serving. Husk probably got PTSD from the war, and to cope, he turned to alcohol and became an alcoholic.

Sir Pentious: I don’t have too many thoughts about what landed Pentious in Hell, but I have a feeling child labor was involved.

Baxter: I also don't have too many thought on Baxter either, but I feel like he was a mad scientist or something like that, and one of his experiments ended the life of someone, or he did messed up experiments on people or maybe animals.

Cherri Bomb: I feel like Cherri probably made/sold bombs or fireworks, or anything illigal like that, for money, or she was a protester of some kind. She was probably a violent one too, in my mind.

Valentino: I think Val was a pimp who mistreated his workers and possibly s**ually abused them in some way. Soft of like what he does with Angel.

Vox: I feel like Vox was a greedy and unfair T.V salesman, but that's all I have for him right now.

Velvette: She was probably a social media influencer and did some illegal stuff on the side.

Katie Kljoy: Katie is obviously homiphobic, but I have another thought in mind for her. In the pilot, after Charlie calls her a bitch, she turns into a more demonic form, which reminds me of a prey mantis. If you don't know, female prey mantisis eat the male (after mating I think) so this got me thinking that Katie might have killed her husband (if she had one).

Katie: Looks like they're fighting tooth and nail for that Hotspot!

Tom Trench: I've said this in my hazbin hotel death headcanons that Tom Trench probably died in the trenches In WW1, so he most likely killed others if he was a soldier. Also, based on some things he said during the pilot, I feel like he was a bit of a pervert when he was alive. ( an example down below if you wanna know)

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Tom: And I'd sure Luke to nail her Hotspot! (referring to Cherri Bomb)

[koyunsoncizeri]

WTF is going on in Turkey, and why this is the MOST screwed up time in 10 or so years? Especially for LGBT young and Women.

-Long post-

TW: mentions of r*pe/ s**ual harassment/women being force-married, losing rights.

This will be a heavy post so please scroll down if you are affected, i know I was, i cried myself to sleep yesterday but I need to get this out.

As you may or may not know, yesterday we held a second election (as in the first one none of the candidates reached over %50) and we, women, lgbti people, all of Turkey lost.

What do I mean by this?

There were 2 main people. One whose name i will not even utter here, as you know him since he is the prime minister for more than 20 years, and the leader of the opposition party. They each had parties under them, supporting different ideas. The oppositon party we all hoped would win (CHP) lost, the votes were nearly divided into two.

The winners..have .. Some.. things they want to implement. But before I get into that, what does their mere win mean for us?

What has been going around that has been powered and will increase by their win? Let us take a look:

But there is, unfortunately, more:

And the final straw that made me SICK to my stomach so much so that I near threw up:

So.

This is what we have been dealing with for the last couple 4 5 years, but these only increased in the last 2 -3 years to an alarming rate.

For the first time in my life I am scared shitless. I am SCARED shitless. I am SCARED for my life. No. Im TERRIFIED. Wish i was exaggerating. Wish I was just being extra.

MOVING ON to what they are thinking of implementing in the upcoming 5 yearz:

The law preventing "violence against women" will be done away with. (Mind you we re no longer in istanbul convention so we have had already near 0 protection)

Girls and boys will be separeted in schools.

The word "Turk" will be done away with in all const. and places. (..We are Turks)

Quran should be taught early, starting at age 7 and in all schools.

Women should only work among women

Single women should be "homed" (which is ..they should be married off to someond)

(mentions of) women not being equal to men when it comes to inheritance

And many more, more disturbing things i cannot even write. Just know that ..im scared to write everything :)

This is where I am rn.

Today i woke up and felt ..nothing. didnt wanna eat anything, do anything. Cant even watch Gargoyles my latest obsession.

All i am thinking about, how will I go to hospital to get my weekly shots, walking among people im scared of.

I dont know dudes. I really dont know. You know we opened a group to share info about how to seek asylum? :)

Sigh, my dudes. I love my country, i dont want it to be turned into Pakistna or whatever (please dont come at me for saying this, just search the news and u will see)

I was trynna get away from my abusive fam and now i cant even go to another city feelin good about it.

LASTLY

Ataturk fought so hard to get women from under the feet of sharia and men, we were one of the first women to have the right to vote.

Our pilot, Sabiha Gokcen is the first female fighter pilot. (Not to be confused with First combat pilot, Marie Marvingt)

She was selected as the only female pilot for the poster of "The 20 Greatest Aviators in History" published by the United States Airforce  in 1996.

We attended beauty contests, after years of being forced to wear hijab and whatnot, and now. We are going back to square 1.

I'm .. trying to be hopeful. But it's getting harder my dudes.

[summercreolefanfictioner]

BONUS CHAPTER: eyes of the future are nothing || ayato and kanato (Game of Thrones AU)

TW: s**ual abuse, violence

The triplets already had eleven name days when Ayato knew something was up, and it was about Laito.

Ever since the three of them were sent to war after their eighth name day, they would have constant nightmares about the people they mercilessly killed and tortured, watching their men rob them off their homes. Ayato even had this experience once where he was looking for Shuu and the next thing, he saw one of their soldiers fucking this one woman and ripping her off of everything she has.

Well, he had that imbecile killed by Subaru.

But now's not the time to be thinking about that. He has to deal with this situation with Laito.

Lately, the youngest triplet would get up from their shared bed, something about wanting to piss or something. But he has been doing this since... whatever (Ayato lost count but it was definitely more than his ten fingers). In fact, it takes Laito hours before returning to their bedroom to sleep.

He even had a hunch that Kanato knew.

Well, Kanato always knows everything. He doesn't have to be updated about matters anymore, except for their war affairs. And with that, Ayato found his resolve to wait for Laito to get up from bed and walk out of their room to shake Kanato awake.

"Oi, Kanato!" Ayato hissed, but the middle triplet was still unmoving. "Oi, stop pretending you're asleep. We all know you quickly wake up when someone moves."

Kanato forced himself to roll over to face Ayato, eyes glaring while hugging Teddy to his chest. The redhead didn't care if he was mad or what. He needed answers right now.

"If you disturb my precious sleep over nothing, I will burn all your belongings and throw your swords somewhere."

"This is not 'nothing,' you know." Ayato inched closer to him and whispered, "It's about Laito."

Kanato was rolling his eyes at him, scratching his head in frustration as he slowly sat up and lit the candle on their bedside table.

"What about him?"

"Laito has been getting up for the past few weeks. He said he's going to pee but he doesn't come back after a few hours."

Ayato expected Kanato to have a deadpan answer to the situation, something along the lines of "maybe he got lost somewhere down the hallway" or "he's just training in secret." However, Kanato held a doomed expression as if he knew something about Laito, and the reason behind his weird shenanigans is not as simple as it seems.

"Kanato—"

But the middle triplet only blew out the flame from the candle and went back to bed, forcing himself to ignore Ayato despite knowing that this day would come.

Ayato was determined though. He followed Kanato around the castle, trying to coax him to tell what was happening to Laito only for the middle triplet to hide from him at all costs. Even went to the point of climbing a tree and sneaking through the library window to chase him.

"Ayato," Kanato sighed with exasperation, closing his book of magic spells with a tired expression, " stop following me. Mother's going to scold you for skipping your daily classes, you know."

"I am not done until you tell me what you know," Ayato argued indignantly. Who cares if Cordelia punishes him? Their old butler can cover for him so might as well take this chance. "You always know everything, so you have to tell me what it is."

Kanato was hesitant, looking around him to see if someone would dare spy on their conversation. When he found none, he pulled Ayato by his arm, urging him to come closer so he can tell him closely about his visions.

"Laito..." his voice was laced with shock and pain, "he wanted to prove something..."

Ayato raised a brow at that. "And?"

Kanato gulped deeply, his purple eyes tearing up, all traumatic memories resurfacing like an enemy that doesn't die. He wanted Ayato not to know because their family had brought nothing but agony and early suffering, but he has no choice but to tell him.

"I saw him... a-a-and Mother... s-she..." oh fuck, he wanted to vomit, "she a-a-abused him... like... like how she did with... m-my voice."

It took Ayato a good amount of seconds before he understood what Kanato meant with his words, green eyes widening in shock as he covered his mouth to prevent himself from screaming.

"That person... she said out of all of us, Laito looked more like him. That's why—"

Before Kanato could finish, Ayato stepped aside and started to march to where Cordelia was.

She will pay!

That fucking bitch will pay!

His thoughts were cut off when Kanato suddenly pulled him. "You can't go there!"

"Why not?! Don't you care about Laito?"

"I do!" Kanato half-screamed. "But we can't do anything about it."

"We can, Kanato," Ayato retorted.

"WE CAN'T!" the purplehead insisted, but for Ayato, it was like an admission of defeat. "I tried to do something—maybe change Laito's path based on my visions—but I can't. I've been trying to, but I can't. If I can't, then it's highly possible you can't too."

"So you're telling me it was meant to happen even if I intervene there? Is that it?" Ayato questioned. "Does that mean you have visions but you can't do anything about them? Then how did that Old Man win countless wars, huh? You were the one who told him about the future!"

"BECAUSE HE WAS MEANT TO WIN THOSE WARS!" Kanato cried. "I died selling my soul to the Darkness back then, Ayato. And the future I see, I was just meant to know what happened, not change them. And even if I tried, Laito still went back to that path because—"

Because it was meant to be.

Ayato couldn't refute it. Everything Kanato said was true. Back then, Kanato had gone hysterical, telling them of things he knew ahead. And sometimes, he would cry on his own because he saw something painful or watched someone die without being there. It took them a few months before both Ayato and Laito concluded that Kanato 'died' in that forest.

This person... he's not the same Kanato anymore.

And with that, Ayato walked away in defeat, not before giving Kanato a hard look. So much for having the eyes for future when they are literally nothing.

STORY MASTERLIST

[eamo2004]

[//TW// Rape, SA]

Remember when DC were too scared to make Harley and Ivy a couple, broke them up when they were a couple and then went on to say they were never a couple and fans just misinterpreted their friendship...

But back in the 1990s the only thing stopping them from publishing Mark Millar's story 'The R*** of Wonder Woman', where Wonder Woman, the beloved hero and symbol of female empowerment, got r***d in public, was internal claims of s*×ual abuse?

Because I do.

[kaypeace21]

catcher in the rye

Have you any theories why Eleven in season 2 was dressed like Holden Caufield?

kaypeace’s answer: The stranger things novel ‘Rebel robin ‘actually name drops ’The catcher in the Rye’ .so I think the similar appearance is an easter-egg to the novel.

TW: sa

it just kind of stregthens my ab*se theory about Will and Lonnie sadly.

some descriptions of the novel:

“ the book’s focus on se*ual abuse and on the culture that fosters it. Ab*se draws lines between characters, permeates the social atmosphere of the novel, and drives its hero to anger and despair.” 

“The Catcher in the Rye is an intriguing story about despair, tra*ma, and loss of innocence. J.D. Salinger portrays the protagonist, Holden Caulfield, as a lost individual, who is too old to be a child but is also too young to be an adult.”

The book’s main character is Holden Caufield.”A 16-year-old who is highly critical of the adult world,  and who refuses to grow up and act matured. Holden covets what he sees as the inherent purity of youth”. He plays baseball, and  lives in California. “The red hat Holden  wears is a HUNTER hat, worn backwards  like a (BASEBALL) Catcher. And it becomes one of the dominating symbols of the novel.” AGAIN- Will has been associated with both hunting & baseball-in relation to Lonnie. It’s also implied Holden was  s*xually ab*sed as a kid - many readers believe he’s gay but unwilling to admit it because of the time period + the se*ual ab*se he dealt with as a child, from men. Thus, he overcompensates with h*mphobic and sex*st language. 

“when Holden gets uncomfortable and jumps away scared from his family friend Mr. Antolini (who pats him on the head).Antolini tries turning it around by telling Holden he’s a “very strange boy”. Some readers describe this scene as out-of-the-blue or they defend Mr. Antolini’s conduct as ambiguous, but that’s only if you’ve missed the undercurrents of the whole novel. This is a massive betrayal. As he rushes out, Holden thinks, “That kind of stuff’s happened to me about twenty times since I was a kid. I can’t stand it.”

“ His claim that he has had multiple encounters with p*d*philes throughout his childhood is a major alarm bell. Holden seems to want to forget about it, but he can’t. Like many victims of child se*ual assa*lt, he starts to doubt himself — perhaps he was wrong about Mr Antolini’s intentions — wonders if he should return to the Antolini household, and blames himself for what just happened.”

“Holden desires to be represented as the (baseball) catcher in the rye (the protector of children). He sees himself as someone that CATCHES the children falling off the cliff while playing in the rye. The kids represent childhood, the field represents innocence and the fall from the cliff represents the fall from innocence.Holden is already subconsciously thinking about saving children from falling off the cliff and saving their innocence (since his childhood innocence was taken from him).”

(remember- the story behind Will’s ‘death’ was that he fell from the cliff into the water?)

“The song Holden hears  “Comin’ Thro’ the Rye” asks if it is wrong for two people to have a se*ual encounter out in the fields of RYE, away from the public eye (despite not loving each other)?  Holden misinterprets the song—and gives it a different meaning in his mind (which reflects his own childhood trauma). Holden wants to CATCH children that - while playing in RYE -FALL off a cliff. He wants to save them before they FALL off the cliff-out of innocence- into knowledge of the adult world, including knowledge of s*x.” He wants to protect kids from this- because of his own se*ual tra*ma as a kid- at the hands of adults.

His friend Jane was also se*ually ab*sed by her step dad. And again… that outfit (with the red hat) was from that creepy hunter El encountered. Who else is a hunter- Lonnie. The red hat Holden wears is also a HUNTER hat, worn like a  (BASEBALL) catcher — and both hunting/baseball are associated with Lonnie.

[trashyspud330]

watching soul eater from what i know now makes me love Crona more than i ever loved them before

(context below: TW child abuse and mental health stuff)

I suffer from DID because of how i was severely abused from my toddler years all the way to age 13, this was from mental, physical and sex/ual from over a decade inside a crowded, poverty ridden and dangerous household. I'm left hurt and still trying to heal. Hearing Crona talk about the loneliness they feel was so comforting, and I was able to take comfort knowing a character out there had friends and was able to slowly gain confidence in themselves. I broke down and sobbed one night with my s/o because of how touched I was by their story. I love them so much, their timid fingers really touched my heart

[spookybreadstick]

The post about what the pastas’ would want was pretty cool! On a similar note, what would be some dark or scary secrets the creeps would have that they wouldn’t want anyone to know?

now this is an excellent question!

i’ll put the answers below the cut because, as the ask suggests, these are going to be some dark/scary or may be a bit disturbing secrets of the pastas

i also didn’t go into too much detail with each one, but if people are curious about the individual stories, you can ask and i can tell! (Except for Jane’s and LJ’s because I believe I explained those two pretty well)

⚠️ warning for mature/disturbing/potentially graphic content: i know i usually keep things pretty light on my blog, but at the end of the day, it is creepypasta for a reason....⚠️

⚠️ tw for mentions of what EJ eats

⚠️ tw for r*pe mention

⚠️ tw for ED mention

⚠️tw for discussion of abuse, including s**ual abuse

🍬 Laughing Jack’s deep dark secret is what happened with Isaac. LJ was traumatized by what Isaac became and what he did, and so he doesn’t ever talk about it. As far as anyone knows, besides Slender who is the only person whom he ever told the truth to, Isaac never came back for LJ and that’s the end of the story. (In reality, Isaac became a gruesome serial killer who murdered children and raped women. This is also keeping in the line with the original canon of the story). 

🤍 Eyeless Jack’s deep dark secret is that he sometimes.. enjoys his meals. He’s immediately disgusted with himself, but occasionally he just can’t help it. It’s the demon side of him saying how it’s just so good. 

🎮 BEN’s deep dark secret is how he really died. He always tells people that he drowned in the pond by accident, but only Slender and Jeff know the truth: he was drowned on purpose by the bullies who had constantly tormented him and had just beaten him senseless. BEN never tells the truth because he’s embarrassed that he used to be so weak and he never fought back. 

🧣 Liu’s deep dark secret is that he has a bit of an eating disorder. He doesn’t want anyone to know because he doesn’t want people to worry about him. He doesn’t think he’s got a problem, but in reality, it’s just not healthy. 

🔪 Jeff’s deep dark secret is what the bullies did to him, what caused him to snap and start killing. He’s never told anyone what they really did, not even Slender. 

🖤 Jane’s deep dark secret happened before she got wrapped up in this pasta business. She was in the girl’s locker room, and she lingered for longer than she should have. In short, she watched a girl change without her consent or knowledge. She was frozen to the spot, and as soon as she sort of snapped out of it, she ran out of the room. She was fourteen years old at the time, and she continues to be disgusted with herself about this. She knew at the time that it was wrong, but she was curious about her own sexuality and she didn’t know just how wrong this was. Nowadays, Jane is HUGE on consent, both because she knows of its importance and because she feels guilty about what happened in that locker room. It took her a while to become comfortable being a lesbian because she had some internalized homophobia surrounding this incident, thinking that because she’s a lesbian, she must be predatory. She knows now that this is not the case, it was an accident to be in the locker room at that time and she made a mistake by not leaving right away, but she’s learned from it 100%. Still, she feels so much guilt over it and would be horrified if anybody found out about this unfortunate occurrence. 

⏰ Clockwork’s deep dark secret is the extent of the abuse from her parents and family. Everybody knows that her parents were abusive pieces of shit, but nobody knows how bad it actually was. Slender knows some of it, but even he doesn’t know the whole story, nor is aware of how traumatized she really is to this day. 

🎨 Helen’s deep dark secret is how he continues to struggle some days with his gender identity, his sexuality, and his sense of reality. This is all thanks to the abuse that his parents put him through as a child, the kind of mental/psychological abuse that stays with a person even years later. It’s a known fact that Helen sometimes loses his grip on reality/sanity, the mansion members call it an “episode,” and this is when he makes his kills. But nobody is aware that Helen struggles even outside of these episodes, because he makes sure to mask it so nobody can tell. 

💄 Nina’s deep dark secret is that she lost her virginity at the age of 15 to a 27 year old man. She was naive at the time, didn’t realize that it was wrong (she consented to the encounter, but since she was a minor and he was an adult, her consent isn’t valid anymore because she’s just being taken advantage of). She is ashamed of this, especially since she really believed that this man had her best interests at heart and wanted to be with her romantically. It was her first heartbreak and may be part of the reason why she is the way she is. 

🎭 Tim’s deep dark secret is that he has tried to commit suicide more than once in his life. He tells no one about his mental health struggles, believing that it’s a weakness that could be used against him. 

❓Brian’s deep dark secret is that he believes he saw the afterlife once, the place where most people go after they’ve died if they don’t become a ghost. He has never told anyone this, not even Tim, because he’s not sure of what he saw and he doesn’t like to admit that this happened even to himself. 

🪓 Toby’s has a couple of deep dark secrets that stem from his abusive childhood. Two are from his father’s abuse and one is from the abuse of his peers, hence the reason why he is home-schooled. Toby has buried these events in his mind, but they still traumatize him to some degree today. 

[carpe-agonia-fnaf-fantasy-au]

Trigger Warning list:

This is a 16+ AU that contains MANY dark and potentially upsetting things. Please read through this list, and we’ll be sure to be careful when posting triggering content, and provide TW warnings in posts containing triggering content. The triggers range from mild (like swearing) to extremely upsetting. (List will be updated when/if needed) You have been warned.

Swearing

Fighting (Verbal and physical)

Mind control

Manipulation

Yelling

Child abuse

Child endangerment

S**ual abuse (Happens only in one S/I’s backstory-does not happen in the rest of the story. Proper warnings are given in their character notes)

Death

Gore

Body horror

Cults

Torture

Sickness

Undead resurrection

[weaver-z]

Howdy howdy can you tag your posts that talk about child porn

Yeah absolutely, I’ll tag child s//ual abuse stuff w/ “csa tw”

[hazyaltcare]

(Tw abuse, hyper se***lity)

Hi! Could I possibly request a moodboard for a Brian Pillman (WCW) kin? With themes of being autistic and recovering from abuse? And maybe a small theme of being hyper s**ual due to trauma, and trying to repress that?

Thanks! Let me know if you need me to send a photo of him!

-🏳️‍🌈🤼‍♂️

Okay!

After careful consideration, I think I can do this without the request ending up 18+. I don't know if that would've affected things for you at all either way, i'm just kind of musing outloud.

It's important to keep our content properly filtered, but that doesn't mean we should overly censor ourselves either. 🤔 Anyways, i'm on it.

Mod Haze (💣Mark - Bro Strider shift)

[my-random-shit-blog]

It really do be people-hating hours.

(This all was because of a comic the acount owner made where they made a joke about themself being polyamorus)

TW/ Hatred towards polyamorus people, mentions of of s**ual abuse (and general abuse) in 2nd to last pic

[neshabeingchildish]

Like I said, I think, like you, Charlotte is on the ace spectrum, but I believe Max is an asexual. I think when they talk about being able to have a good relationship without having sex they felt the astonishment of their friends or some I believe they can't think about how they can be happy, which made Max and Charlotte very frustrated. What do you think?

Well... As someone on the ace spectrum who struggled a lot when I was younger because it literally was not a thing. There wasn't the language or conversation and combining my TW s**ual abuse and asexuality, my early adult life was extremely chaotic and confusing trying to navigate my sexuality and emotions.

I think that had I not had as much trauma, it would have been easier. Working through some of that has made it clear and functional, though outsiders frequently don't understand or believe it's possible. So, I think if they were both on the ace spectrum, they would be able to not only discuss it, but bond over it, because honestly, when you're ace, you don't really necessarily need to have the physical connection in that way and it could be refreshing to discover that you're interested in someone who that won't be a huge issue for as well.

I haven't felt like I'm missing anything. I feel like I wasted a lot of energy on trying to feel things that I just didn't and it's fine for them to be good with that too.

[nyameowtherfucker]

what's the webcomic about? (you don't have to answer if you don't want)

It's called Secret Alliance. It's about a woman with trauma and an intense, crippling fear of men and her journey to get over her fear. The main love interest starts off as a bit of a douche, but damn does he become an amazing person down the line. My emotions for him were like a rollar coaster until it ended up on "dude, he says he wants to change and become a better for her, omg so sweet." They genuinely have some amazingly sweet moments... And the MC, Sian... she just has such a hard time, but seeing her grow and slowly get better is so satisfying. However, I have to attach a lot of TWs to it, being: S***ual assault, kidnapping, stalking, familial abuse, and abuse of a romantic partner. So I can't reccomend it unless you're comfortable with those subjects.

[theoisyucky-blog]

**tw / sui*ide, phy*ical/se*ual abuse, s/h**

i don't know what to do.

i just turned eighteen.

yet, ive got nothing going for me. 

ive got no chance to have a successful future

i dont know what to do.

where to go.

who to ask for help.

i don't like asking for help

it makes me feel vulnerable

i dont like that

i can't do that.

i was told, growing up, don't trust people

dont let them in

they'll take advantage of you

they'll hurt you.

they'll leave you.

they dont care, they never did.

they never will

they hate me

they think im annoying. 

they think im weird.

i either talk too much,

or i dont talk enough.

either i ask for too many things,

but i never ask for anything 

because i'll feel guilty.

either i never eat,

or i eat too much.

i never leave my room.

but when i do i get made fun of,

or put down for what im wearing.

when i do i get yelled at for something i didnt do.

its not fair.

but life's not fair.

i havent done anything to them.

its not my fault im mentally ill.

its not my fault im like this.

its not my fault im sad all the time.

its not my fault im angry. 

its not my fault i dont like myself.

its yours.

youre the reason im so mad all the time.

 you never try to care.

 you never try to understand, no matter how many times i offer to help you.

 you're never there when i need you,

 but when your job does, you go in a heartbeat.

 i get that we need the money,

 but i need my dad.

im not even sure you even deserve that title.

 i need you, 

but you dont care. 

where were you when i tried k!ll!ng myself the first, second and third time?

where were you when i c*t myself in the bathroom and passed out?

 where were you when you promised me you would visit me, but never showed? 

where were you at my first solo choir performance? 

where were you when i got first place in a talent show?

where were you when i got my awards from school?

where were you when i needed you.

where were you when i was first admitted to the phyc ward?

 where were you when i was beat up? 

where were you when i sat in my room, crying for hours on end, not able to catch my breath, choking on my own tears? 

where were you? 

where were you when i went through my first heartbreak?

where were you when i learned how to ride a bike?

where were you when i learned how to drive?

where were you when my mom killed herself?

where?

where were you when everyone else had abandoned me?

you promised you wouldn't.

but you did without even realizing it.

..

no one believed me when i told them what you did to me.

how bad you hit me.

no one believed me when i told them he touched me.

not the cops.

not you.

not aunt stacey.

not uncle daryl.

i lived with them when you hit me.

not uncle darin.

he hates me.

no one.

and for weeks on end after i came home, he continued.

he kept doing it.

only, it was worse.

you didnt hear my screams.

you didnt notice how broken i was.

you didnt notice how fragile i was.

nobody did.

not a soul.

but i cant be upset.

i didnt show it.

that would make me vulnerable.

i can't do that.

[unwelcome-ozian]

TW- Csa I was targetted, completely manipulated, and s**ually abused from the beginning to 14. I was so isolated I didn't even know what the word r*pe was until I was 12, so my whole perception was messed with. I remember a particular time when my abuser started playing with me but in my gut I knew he was going to hurt me. I was never taught what s**ual abuse was and started acting younger. Is this a type of dissociation? I don't think I have DID, but I feel like I have 2 different perceptions

Contd- I feel like I have two different perceptions and had to fight the one I was manipulated into believing to learn to think and see in a healthy normal way

Hi,

You do have two different perceptions. This is perfectly normal for survivors.There is the environment in which you lived and survived abuse, and the knowledge that this wasn’t ‘normal’.  That creates the two different perceptions that have to be reconciled. 

Age regression (acting younger) is a common part of recovery as well, and a symptom of abuse.  

Ozzie