#tw suicide mention/

[hell0mega]

last night i had a dream that the world ended

i can't remember too much about the first part, but i remember the climax and ending. we knew the world was going to end and we were trying to reach the person who was going to do it and convince him otherwise. we were under the impression that this was a neutral guy that had a misunderstanding about what was going on.

however, when we got to him, he turned sinister, saying that he knew the world would he fine if he didn't, but he likes doing it.

i, my bf, and someone else i loved (not sure who) were sitting on a tall ledge looking out over the world. what we saw looked like a synthwave album cover, all the buildings had been reduced to their code which were displayed as colorful neon colored symbols against a dark purple void. we were all leaning against each other, talking about the world and how we tried to save it. in the distance the void and code started to rip apart upwards with a soft whoosh, coming towards us, revealing a bright white nothing behind. we said our i love yous before it engulfed us.

i said "kill switch" as it hit my face, but i dont think it did anything.

my next dream started. i was at my childhood home with my mom and sister. the others seemed younger. for me, things felt off. my mom was sad for a real reason, and her boyfriend, someone i don't know, but did know, maybe, i guess, came over and comforted her. she was just bummed out. but there was a pit in my stomach.

after a while i remembered that the world ended. i remembered we found out, tried to stop it, and then watched it happen. i asked around about what the last few days were like. everyone said it was fuzzy but they didnt care.

the world had been reset. and i remembered.

the news said that crime and people simply offing themselves had both spiked suddenly, that people like me could tell that something was wrong, something was different. like they witnessed the end too but didn't know what it was and still have that memory and understanding in them. it was making some of us crazy.

anyway then i had another dream that drawfee was operating out of a roadside greenhouse and people kept walking through cuz it was like public city property but Jacob kept getting annoyed like "you can't walk through here!! we're working!" and it was like the side of a busy new york street and it was rainy and it was a cramped little greenhouse meant for people to walk through but he was adamant about it. one lady went "arrêtes !! arrêtes !!" (stop, stop in French) when he tried to talk to her. so i can accurately speak French in my dreams now which is honestly the most terrifying part of any of this.

[ozzybutweirdthistime]

hellooooooo guess who got into mouthwashing

[patroclusdefencesquad]

no one does it like him any more

[vampirepiss]

i'm gonna (remembers suicide jokes are no good for my mental health) go higher. I'M PISSING ON THE MOON

[i-am-a-fish]

I'm very sorry to ask something like this, I've really been struggling with this question, and I wanted to ask the combined wisdom of the people on this site

I would like to know why you keep going, and what drives you to keep living. I know there are a lot of reasons to stay alive and enjoy life, I can think of a few that personally resonate with me, but I really want to know what your reasons are

You do not have to comment on this if that's too big of an ask, and I'm very sorry for asking something like this, I really need someone's help, I feel like I don't have much purpose

Also if I may ask, please don't post any suicidal ideation in the comments of this post, I really can't handle something like that right now

[hellmandraws]

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[paintedcrows]

Some Gravity Falls comics I'm working on rn!

[incognitopolls]

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[cuppajj]

has this been done yet sorry

[todaysbird]

the way my jaw actually dropped when i heard someone in our work zoom meeting refer to a customer who had sadly committed suicide as ‘unaliving himself’…we need to stop this…do you truly think this is the best way to address situations like this

[isjasz]

bubbling up definitelynottober - day 6

from god in pieces by @raichett that i read a day or so ago. hi this fic made me feel fucking sick /vpos (and when i read "bubbling up" i just. eyes widen. i can commit crimes with this)

[wolfertinger666]

I'm kinda tired I didn't get any sleep at all, I'm kinda stupid so I apologize if I sound incoherent but I'm just stupid for going back to the website that's the source of all my trauma and have people lie and call me every bad thing under the fucking sun for shit that is either a non issue, a genuine mistake, or something blown out of proportion, TO THE POINT WHERE PEOPLE ARE DISCREDITING ME AS A TRANS MAN(he's only trans to fetishsize trans people) DO YOUR HEAR YOURSELF???? literally nuclear level transphobic take. It makes me angry that people use the excuse of my actions as a teenager to harass the fuck out of me and like I said discredit myself and my identity. it's like I'm not even a living being to these people I'm just a cartoon villain and I'm tired of being quiet about.

the same website that harassed me to the point where I formed delusions over myself and my sense of identity and overall made me highly psychotic and suicidal. I was only 18-19 when this mass harassment callout bullshit on me has been happening. im not a saint either like I said I was an extremely toxic person but to go through these lengths to not only pedojacket me and call me a zoophile over a fucking pokemon with boobs, but to say I'm faking being trans to hurt other trans people makes my blood BOIL. this is not wanting someone to improve and take accountability it's just killing their sense of safety and community over shit that happened years ago which are HALF TRUTHS!!!!

[frownyalfred]

hurt/comfort superbat fic where Bruce occasionally has to chase Clark down when he's being a little more Kryptonian/Eldritch-y than normal (it's fine, he has the resources/ships/etc). when Clark's happy, he's in orbit outside of the Watchtower, floating and absorbing the sun. but when he's down or depressed? he avoids the sun. because the sun means energy, it's a reminder of his powers, of everything he's lost, a reminder of difference down at the very cellular level.

that's all to say, sometimes I think Clark goes down instead of up and hides away from the sun the only place he can: deep, deep underwater. somewhere maybe even Arthur only goes sparingly, deep in a trench where the water isn't oxygenated or habitable. and he just floats down there, trying to block it all out and failing miserably.

[martyr-inthedark]

Make your Whumpee tired.

Whumpees that have been deprived of sleep by Whumper, so much so that they don't remember how to walk in a straight line and can't figure out whether the recent appearance of little black bugs in their cell are real or a hallucination.

Whumpees that can't get a full night's rest. They doze off, only to be jolted awake by their own anxiety of not knowing when Whumper would come back. Perhaps they are awakened by phlegm-coated coughs induced by their illness. They are awakened by nightmares, or by Caregiver who is worried they may succumb to hypothermia, or by a thunderstorm, or the rough blanket scratching their open wounds, or so on.

Whumpees who pull all nighters to protect their friends or lovers.

Whumpees whose eyes burn when they finally can close their eyes. Whumpees whose muscles twitch, who can't stop yawning no matter how hard they try to stifle it. Whumpees with dark, glassy eyes. Whumpees who are slow to react or have a hard time keeping up with the conversation. Whumpees with throbbing headaches. Whumpees with brain fog and memory loss.

Whumpees who have been on the run and have over exhausted their bodies. Their muscles and joints continue to scream long after its over. Whumpees with extensive blood loss. Whumpees who are malnourished.

Whumpees whose survivor's guilt keeps them awake, wondering what they might have done differently, whether it was all their fault, or why they were the ones to live.

Whumpees whose bodies are in chronic pain or illness and who have to hide it, causing muscle and mental fatigue. They keep going with a smile until they collapse or pass out.

Whumpees who break down in tears, begging to be left alone so they can rest. Whumpees who sob when they are told that the bed in front of them is theirs to use whenever they want.

[v0idwraith]

the vibes on this election day

[glo-shroom]

yes & no by Natalie Wee | Trigun Ultimate Overhaul