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[vampirepiss]

i'm gonna (remembers suicide jokes are no good for my mental health) go higher. I'M PISSING ON THE MOON

[confusedlosergirl]

Trying to not be jealous of people who actually cut deep challenge

[avephelis]

i've been waiting four weeks to make this joke

[scwambledeggs]

Daily affirmations

[pippynsworld]

[tapiokauwu]

what I say: hehe

what I mean: I want to kms

[bi-dykes]

Hi after my beautiful blue baby girl perfect Jinx sacrificed herself, I want to thank She-Ra spop once again for deciding Catra would live rather than die to save everyone and then apologize and join the rebellion to amend her mistakes, and not the age old message of “if you have hurt someone the best way to go forwards and be a better person is to KILL YOURSELF” like I’m so tired of that being the lazy and nihilistic approach to redemption in so many franchises

[emperorofnowhereland]

I was looking up articles to share on my Facebook page when I came across this:

This kid was:

Only fifteen

Had a history of self-harm and suicidal ideation

Was being forced to wait over two years for an appointment at a gender affirming care clinic

In my pagan practice, I make a list of notable deaths every year, that I then honor on Samhain (Halloween). I also do a separate ritual on Trans Day of Remembrance (TDOR) to honor just trans peoples' deaths.

It's only April, and there are too many young transmascs on this list. It disturbs me, not only as a transmasc person myself, but as an advocate for our community.

This shit has to stop. We need to fight for our trans brothers.

We need to tear down the broken systems (especially law enforcement) that keep allowing this shit to happen.

RIP Jason

[suicide-satory7]

I am very tired of everything..of this so called life that only s problem after problem..exhausted mentally and emotionally..my mind and my heart no longer give more..and yet deep down I keep screaming for help but as I do not express it with my mouth nobody hears them…..

[carolineishere]

from 2021

[exmotranny]

the green carpet scratches at your pink heels. bile rises in your throat.

they talk about womanhood- but it’s not quite right. there is the pink and compliments and talk of boys

i am a beloved daughter

but there is also something else. it digs at your flesh, it feasts on your skin. your mother motions at your chest, bigger than hers and you're not even done growing yet! how lucky.

of heavenly parents

you pray to a man every night, finish it in another’s name. on your knees. you were sent a shady link as a kid. the woman on her knees, tears streaming out of her eyes, i don't want this, she said

with a divine nature and eternal destiny

blood on the inside of your underwear. you were told this meant you were a woman now. you were ten years old. what the fuck did you know about being a woman? your mom said you weren’t allowed to touch between your legs, but it's normal to want to. you didn't know what that meant, either.

as a disciple of jesus christ,

you wanted to be desired. you daydreamed of being the trophy for boys around you, of claiming that role one day as a wife. you came from a long line of women married young. you don’t know their names, but you were taught about their husbands in church.

i strive to become like him.

pressing your breasts down as much as possible, trying to give the illusion of a flat chest. badly cropped jpgs of jesus photoshopped to have top surgery scars are the secret currency you pay to get past the hours of church. you hold them like diamonds.

i seek and act upon personal revelation

you thought god was talking to you. you almost threw away everything you owned. you thought you were a prophet. total fuckin’ ego death! holy shit! god speaks through me!

and minister to others in his holy name

and then the next morning. when your faith crashed, when moroni abandoned you, did it feel unreal to you too, joseph?

i will stand as a witness of god

oh god, no. please. i don’t know what’s real anymore.

at all times

leg hair peeking from under your pretty sunday dress. they all stare. you ignore them and open up to D&C 132.

and in all things

emma, did you love him to the end? i don’t think you wanted him. did you watch as he married a 14 year old? did you tell him you burned the commandment? did you cry when he died for the church that he loved more than he loved you?

and in all places.

blood on the floor of carthage jail. this martyr will be remembered forever. do they talk about you, emma? or are you just joseph’s wife?

as i strive to qualify for exaltation,

when i marry, my husband will be a god, and i shall cleave onto him. when i marry, i will go to his universe and bear more of his children.

i cherish the gift of repentance

heads bowed low as the sacrament is passed. my hands clutch onto the bottom of my skirt. pleasure outside celestial marriage is forbidden. i apologize for loving the wrong way.

and seek to improve each day

i tried to kill myself, last time i got home from girl’s camp. i got home and cried and found the pills and shoved them into my mouth until i cried more and more until i was gagging. i hunched over the toilet. my hands on the grimy floor.

with faith, i will

forced to sing in front of the congregation. my head spun from anxiety. my stomach turned with nausea.

strengthen my home and family,

loving wife beautiful kids loyal husband church once a week work weekdays weekend mom monthly round on the business end of his cock forever and the vomit threatens to make an appearance.

make and keep sacred covenants,

an old man is in a room alone with me. he asks me if i masturbate.

and receive the ordinances and blessings

i tell the man no. i receive a card so i can be ordained.

of the holy temple.

that's just how it goes, isn't it?

all around are paintings of god and jesus. we learned about heavenly mother. why don’t i see her in paintings? did god have plural marriages? did heavenly mother make us? why don’t we pray to her? did she watch god marry a 14 year old? did she cover her eyes? when she saw blood on her underwear, was she told she was a woman? did she touch between her legs? did she ever believe herself better than god? does she cry when she cant talk to us? why do i cry? was heavenly mother scared of singing in public and did she press her chest flat and did she cry when god forced himself into her mouth? did she burn his doctrine too?

i am given flowers on mother’s day. i will be one eventually, after all. and i vomit in the church bathroom quietly like the perfect woman i am supposed to be.

[skelespidey]

hearing them talk about hurting themselves and their attempts actually makes me so sad like why can't i make all their problems and worries go away :(

[s1lly-gh02tz]

GUN AND SUI. IMPLIED TW⚠️😰😰😰😰😰

Sighs TikTok wouldn’t let me post this (I wonder why)

[lonely-paracosmos]

@sparklecarehospital this is just a genuine question, but will any character die by suicide in the comic?

[akuma-tenshi]

part 3 of my coa posting but it's all one coherent meme

i'm sorry abt the first one i had no idea where else to put ada