#tw self deprication

[i-dont-want-to-exist-anymore]

I wish [Vent Post]

please be careful!

I wish I could be loved by people the way I love them. I wish someone would see my loyalty and affection and not think ‘that looks like a fun experience’ but instead think ‘they look like a wonderful partner’. I wish I wasn’t so hopeless when it came to any kind of relationship at all. I wish I wasn’t so guilable. I wish I didn’t have so many trust issues. I wish God would apologize for making me so unlovable. I wish I wasn’t so unlovable. I wish my acts of genuine love and loyal tot and care weren’t taken advantagee of by so many people so often. I wish people gave me a chance to live them unconditionally and receive that kid of love in return. I wish I wish I wish.

[fredbears-gayest-employee]

oh.

that’s everyone leaving me for the people they actually care about once I’m no longer interesting.

maybe i really am only good for sex.

[yourgirlinpieces]

i hate that kind of sadness where your chest physically hurts

[autumna-potentia]

Blake had been too focused on Hax to notice the approaching girl, strained by both physical and mental pain and stress. They even started their first step towards the larger one, if only to be stopped by another hand grabbing their own.

They flinched in pain when their free hand was tugged. The barrel of the revolver stopped half way through pointing at this strange little girl when her appearance was finally processed by a still stressed Blake.

She was too calm. That was the one constant thought between the flood gates of questions and theories that were so overwhelming they blanked Witch's brain.

"But if I do it'll only do more damage. They need someone who'll choose to stay right now." They could worry later about everything else. Just letting their mouth run on its own would do.

"I am going to help them. If that means helping you then I'm not opposed to it, but I am not running away from them." Their breath was strating to hitch and shake just like their voice did.

The drain on their already low stamina was catching up to them in this mere moment of respiro. Tears formed in the corner of their eyes were swiped with the same hand that held the revolver and weight shifted in place in an attempt to keep some sort of balance.

They hadn't even realized they refered to themselves using singular notions, much like they - all of them - did in situations where communication was hard or nonexistent.

Their hand is slapped over the right half's mouth, halting their words just as the necklace is thrown to the ground. The box opening as it make contact with the earth and the necklace itself is revealed.

A tiny spoon, in the shape of a muffin, much like the muffins they had baked for Witch once or twice before.

Hax, the lemon muffin.

Both their eyes widen as they spot the handmade gift. The hand that had slapped over their mouth dropping slowly from their face.

Witch had only just met them, they'd talked so few times and hung out together even less. Yet they cared so much, they remembered the first confection they shared, went out of their way to make them a gift for a budding friendship.

Still wanted to give them this gift, despite the fact that they were trying to rip their head right off their shoulders.

There has to be some other reason, they had to serve a use to Witch somehow. That's the only reason they'd want them around.... right?

|| 💛 ||: ❝ Witch- ❞ || 💛 ||: ❝ Witch- ❞

The hand that had covered their mouth rushes to grip their hair, to pull on it and pull more tears from the right half's eye. A cry of pain, of sadness, leaves them as they flicker back into view.

|| 💛 ||: ❝ Stop- stop this-! I'm an awful person, they shouldn't want anything to do with me! ❞ || 💛 ||: ❝ They care- they care about me- even after- after I- ❞ || 💛 ||: ❝ That doesn't stop what I think- what I've done- what I'm going to do- ❞ || 💛 ||: ❝ But they're not leaving- why won't they leave-? ❞

The faces argue back and fourth, enough that both their hands have to curl into their hair as they try to split further down the middle. Vying for control, to make sense of someone new, someone that should've easily been scared away by what they became... refusing to leave. Staying, despite the damage they'd done and had planned to do.

It gave enough time for a tiny hand to grab to Witch's arm- a small seemingly human girl standing there- her eyes flicking between Witch and her sibling.

|| 🔷 ||: ❝ You got them distracted. You should run- ❞

[indigodiskmybeloved]

Part 1 / ... / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6

[mintmatcha]

ochako core but it's a trick to be naked and complimented by you

[bpdbeehive]

I'm sorry I can't help it please don't be upset I just love you and want the best for you

[fredbears-gayest-employee]

You’re a damn person! You’re not an experiment, you’re not something to be used and thrown away..!

[His nails dug into William’s arms before he backed away.]

hh. i need. i.

You’re not going to die :(

-🥀

Gragghggrgrgagagaghhgggrrr

[kittsu-and-company]

YOU'RE AN ASS YOU KNOW THAT RIGHT?

STOP BEINGS SUCH A DICK OF A FRIEND AND TALK TO SPRITE DAMNIT

I do know that

I don’t want to know that but guess what. It’s easier to accept things as they are than try to deny that I’m anything better.

Please for the love of Arceus just let me dig my own grave without commentary

I know how to get out

[i-dont-want-to-exist-anymore]

I’m sorry I’m so broken, I’m sorry I wasn’t made to last

[fredbears-gayest-employee]

Partner is givng birth nd all I can care about is myslf.

m such a selfih asshole

[yourgirlinpieces]

i be like communication is the key and then not tell people i dont like what they did/do and just keep my feelings to myself cause i feel like if i say it out loud its not gonna get better and it'll turn get worse but oh well its getting worse either ways

[artralichoard]

Another fic! this one is a bit shorter than my first. A discord server im in was talking about the fact that red eard sliders have shorter life spans than the other's species

so of cours I had to write a little angst fic. :)

Additional Tags:

Pre-Movie: Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (2022), Pre-Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (Cartoon 2018), Leonardo-centric (TMNT), Hurt No Comfort, Light Angst, Insecure Leonardo (TMNT), sight suicidal implications, mention of suicide, mention on injury, nothing graphic, Medic Leonardo (TMNT), implied absent splinter, Leo makes a discovery, turtle species traits, the turtles exhibiting turtliness, Turtle Tots (TMNT), eh more like 10ish here, Leo "I can't let my nerd twin know I'm also a nerd" nardo, major character death but its just future leo, nothing we haven't seen before folks

Summary:

If all other roles are taken up, then what other choice does he have other than to step up?

He didn't realize it would lead to a forbidden fruit kind of knowledge. Leo also didn't think he'd feel as content as he does after this discovery. At least he's useful now.

[l0nd0n-3xists]

I wish I was skinny. I wish I was pretty. I wish I wasn't sensitive. I wish I wasn't annoying. I wish I wasn't clingy. I wish I had pretty hair. I wish I was taller. I wish I had a purpose. I wish people actually liked me. I wish I was fun to be around. I wish I didn't hate myself. I wish I wanted to be alive.

I wish I was dead.

[fredbears-gayest-employee]

I killed children. I let your abuser out of hell. I berated you for having other partners.

Why do we have to stay in the bedroom again..? Promise we won’t hurt anyone…

-🥀

For your own good right now.

[shilo-sumac]

pretty sure the discourse on the dash is about hating how zorua trainers act or being afraid of/disliking zorua because they're bad for peoples mental health with illusions, not just hating them for the sake of it

...ah

good ol shilo, jumping to conclusions once again, good job me, really showing how far youve come

in my (meager) defense i cant see the original posts context since that polls op has me blocked

fears and preferences are valid btw, i just get... touchy, when its something i really like, part of being talked down to a lot as a kid ig?