#tw prescription drug

[thehobbutts]

gobbled up an entire box of poptarts while on my (legally prescribed) oxycodone and, well, this is how it went

[0l-unreliable]

originally a style study, did not stay that way.

Close-ups under the cut

[serenityflux]

"Society": Drugs should be used responsibly and in moderation! Me, taking triple my prescribed dose in THC gummies: "Time for my Class-Ls! I'm such a good floret :3"

[opioidenjoyer]

Wish i could share this with all my drug mutuals, LOVE YALL STAY SAFE THIS WEEKEND 🪖❤️

❄️❗️

[sadnpossessed]

[wyverningx]

jeremy's pretty darn good at exy, good enough to secure an athletic scholarship to the best D1 school in california. he doesn't even need to move away from his family to attend, which is a blessing and a curse. things have been somewhat uncomfortable since his mom remarried, but it's fine. he's a freshman at USC, now. he's more free and independent than ever before. the world is his oyster.

he's faced his fair share of sports injuries — who hasn't, given the nature of a contact sport — but the first time he deals with a soft tissue injury as a college athlete hurts more than it did in high school. not necessarily because of the pain, because jeremy's a quick striker but still deals with collisions on the regular, but because being benched for six weeks sucks. he wants to make a name for himself. he wants to shine on the gold court like its namesake.

he gets some vicodin to manage the pain, and it does help.

only —

it starts to help a little too much. it dulls the awkward edge to his family interactions, makes his day-to-day operations a bit more manageable. keeps him in a better mood, relaxed and chilled out, when he's so bored from lack of exercise and stimulation that he starts to go mad.

the doctor gave him a lot of pills. it's fine. he's hurt; he needs them. it's normal.

only —

it's way too easy to get a refill on the prescription. his PCP's been taking care of the knox family for decades, and their office understands jeremy's ambition. they know he's disciplined, given his health and physique. so what's another bottle, or two, for the star athlete of the family?

so it becomes a bit of a habit. it's not a problem, though. being high is just... easier. maybe he doesn't pop the pills for the pain so much anymore, but nobody seems to notice or judge him if he's a little spaced out. there's a lot of mounting pressure once he's back on the court, after all. he missed almost two months of practice. he has to make up for it, because this might be the year the trojans finally take championships and wouldn't it be great, perfect even, if jeremy was responsible for such an accomplishment?

surely nobody can blame him for wanting a little something to take the edge off. he's been to frat parties on campus — bingeing alcohol is so much more of a crutch than a tiny white pill or two.

only —

his family comes home one day after celebrating jeremy's first fall banquet and sees jeremy's brother passed out on the ground, his bottle of pills spilling out across the floor and nonono jeremy only has so many at least they're just on the floor and he can scoop them back into that orange bottle so that he has them for later just in case he needs the safety net but oh god what does it mean that jeremy thought of his stash before his brother's well-being in an obvious suicide attempt, but that's not jeremy's fault. it can't be. he isn't responsible.

right?

[boing-o]

Wellbutrin posting again

I drew Frank Iero on my antidepressants

[jj-exe]

Silver has some serious depression istg

[exquisit3c0rpse]

REALL

[lususnatura]

so, i have talked about mental health and the struggles that my characters have with it in particular before, BUT i have yet to do so on this account. thus... i'm going to touch upon how blamore has bipolar 1 disorder and how that affects its daily life. here's just a little background about bipolar one in particular just in case y'all don't know a lot about it — bipolar disorder is a mental health condition that is usually characterized by periodic albeit intense emotional states that affect a person's mood, energy, and ability to function. these periods could last anywhere from days to weeks, and there are usually two types of mood episodes. though some people also experience periods of neutral mood as well. the first of these two types are manic/hypomanic, in which the main mood that the person will be in will either be intense happiness or irritability.

the other kind of mood episode is depressive episodes, where the person affected by bipolar disorder is in an intensely sad mood or the ability for them to experience joy has seemingly disappeared. the onset of when blamore realized it had it was when it was twenty after having a manic episode, which led to him having to be hospitalized because it had experienced what is known as psychotic features (esp. disorganized thinking and hallucinations) along with the normal but also severe symptoms of a manic episode: increased risky or impulsive behavior, decreased need for sleep, and uncontrollable racing thoughts, just to name a few.

and i have done some research about it that states that mood-stabilizers / anti-psychotics, as well as psychotherapy, do help to treat it (though meds are usually the main way to, it seems) which i think blamore immediately tried to take after being told his diagnosis because it had encouraged him to make some bad decisions regarding his academic life + he was having trouble with maintaining his relationships as well and felt like his emotions were so heightened that he felt hopeless. i mean, to the point where it was crying and screaming into it's pillow every night.

so blamore decided to seek treatment after a bit of time spent in reluctance to accept that what he had was bipolar disorder, because at first, he just wanted to believe that he was depressed. and after trying out several medications along with different regiments, it seemed like it'd finally found something that worked for it. so blamore was doing well and thriving, in fact, for a while with just a little extra help from its meds. which is definitely possible for someone who has bipolar disorder to do, of course, because your diagnosis isn't who you are. and it is treatable like i mentioned previously.

now, however, is... a slightly different story. blamore has tried to return to taking medication for his bipolar disorder with the same dosage + regiment in general, but because he has an accelerated metabolism, it affects it's body differently now and has led to it experiencing some side effects that are pretty unfavorable in it's opinion. so it stopped taking it at that dosage and has now been switching between meds at the lowest possible one to try to find the right prescription, though blamore does sometimes forget to take it + has gotten sort of frustrated with it seeming to have no effect on him. so he may or may not be teetering in between the decision of just stopping it altogether.

though yeah, right now, the general gist of it is that blamore takes a drug for it at the lowest dose... inconsistently. so he may be prone to forgetting to take it for like a few days, or possibly longer and because of that, the meds may not have had enough time to work within him properly for lack of better words. and he has had several depressive episodes over this time as well as one really bad manic episode with perhaps some hypomanic ones that had gone undetected. thus, thing's are a bit complicated for him right now, to say the least and he is suspectible to experiencing more severe mood episodes again. buttt yeah,, i just thought i'd give y'all a little insight as to what having bipolar 1 has been like for blamore + how it tries to manage it today. i hoped you all liked this longer drabble of mine (':

[opioidenjoyer]

Happiness can be found, dont stop believing 🙂💊

(Pre-Game for the weekend) ❤️

[nade2308]

@whumpgifathon | Day 14: Sleeping

Nightmares | Exhaustion | Passing Out

"Crossing Lines", season 1, episode 9 "New Scars, Old Wounds (1)", Carl Hickman

@thethistlegirl

[angie-long-legs]

He's being a good boy. Someone left a bottle of pills in the hotel lobby, and he hasn't even touched them!

[king-goo]

so I take prescription vitamins and my brother has ADHD so today I was looking at our counter w like 50 million prescription bottles cause my mom doesn’t know how to dispose of them and I was kinda in a rush but I hadn’t taken my vitamins so I grabbed one of the ones with pills like kinda the right size and color (for the record, my vitamins and his meds are both capsules, but his is blue and mine is like green) and just swallowed it dry yk and then I glance at the bottle and uh. it’s his prescription. so…? Effects I’ve noticed while taking generic-brand focus enhancer. I think that’s what it is tbh I’m not entirely sure what I took. potentially triggering content I guess???

1–it lasts so. long. it lasts sixteen hours give or take and I took at noon so I’m legit so hyoed

2-decrease in appetite idk if this is normal or if it’s just me

3-i am sooooo locked in fr I’m thriving this is like crazy I’m hAPPY I had productive conversations

4-my hands were kinda shaky

5-I did SO WELL at guitar practice today I was COOKING with stayin’ alive by the beegees

6-as soon as that shit kicked in I was a l e r t again I was locked in

7-genuinely I am astounded at how like. excellent. I felt

8-helped me shut the fuck up!!!!! none of you know me irl but I am a terminal yapper; my Achilles heel is not knowing how to shut my mouth for five seconds and my impulse control in class today??? immaculate.

9-I actually remember the stuff I learnt in class today?????

10-just generally it’s insane how much easier everything was. I focused so hard you would not believe I was just way happier and more attentive in conversation

idk if this is psychosementic (how do you spell that lol) or like placebo or if it’s fr but I have actually never felt better hope I don’t have an allergic reaction and die tomorrow

[thatsmoneyduddeee]

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[deepfriedseagullfeet]

if alcohol didnt rip both my dad and moms side of the family into fucking shreds i would be an alcoholic by now.