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1taemin · 6 months

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tried to do some soft andreil sketches

#andreil #andreil fanart #neil josten #andrew minyard #aftg #ok first of all i am fucking bad at digital art maybe art in general??#but im trying to have a more positive outlook on life so i have to start somewhere and apparently that somewhere is from garbage #my art #mine

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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#i want to learn how to vent healthily #bc i have this incessant pathological need to like share every thought i have #and if i dont i get this restless uneasy feeling in my chest and i get restless and worried and like wtf?#whats wrong w me? maybe it has smth to do w that during my entire life i have never been listened to or been helped #like during my life i've asked for help repeatedly but when i have i've only been dismissed or not believed etc etc #so maybe that translated into my head to just feel the need to share it in a public space.....#bc i used to write rverything in a diary but i filled them too quickly and i cant afford the money or space to do that #so i started using twitter and now tumblr... but that has only resulted in me like feeding into it?#it's not healthy to feel the need to share EVERY thought or else u feel crazy. i also shouldnt focus or dwell on thoughts sm #i do have issues bc of my disorders and anxiety. plus avpd in swedish is literally called 'anxious personality disorder' 💀#so it is in me to be anxious and worried and neurotic #but still i want to learn how to not be fixated on thoughts and feelings (also a challenge bc bpd makes feelings feel all consuming)#if i think smth - that also can be totally untrue and only based on my worries -#i can just think it and let it go. idk have to dwell on it and obsess over it. (im trying mindfulness for years lol)#bc most of my venting is like me getting stuck in feelings and idk why i feel the need to express it constantly?#it isnt worth it. bc actually it has caused rifts and missunderstandings in multiple connections i've had online...#i do feel like venting isnt smth bad.. and i think emotions are PERSONAL and like completely unrelated to truth and other ppl #but i get it.. esp when u only know eo online and dont know everything going on in eo's heads #then u only get that as a full image when it isnt the whole picture #so like idk. i WANT to be able to get a healthier outlook on it.. bc this isnt working #both bc of myself and for myself but also in relation to others #and like. why do i like never see anyone else on thmblr/twitter that post EVERY thought like me???? (i dont think its wrong to do bc *i*#have a different pov on it and idc abt other ppl's vents but .. yeah idk why do i do this but no one else does it at the level i do?#so idk i've just been thinking of this lately bc yeah.. yeah i just dont know i dont know.... :///#i actually want to be able to not ruminate and get stuck in it but idk how to break free?#plus expressing positive emotions & thoughts is terrifying to me like idk why but i cant????#why??? i feel like im undeserving of good things that i cant even express smth nice bc im like .. i dont deserve to think/feel that??

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orcelito · 3 months

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God I don't wanna go to therapy tomorrow. Sick of talking about my feelings in a clinical setting. I do enough psychoanalysis just by myself, and now I gotta sit through it with someone else??? Come on.

#speculation nation #i say as if i didnt submit myself to this and am not willingly paying for this to continue #idfk man ive always hated therapy. just kinda kept it going bcus i was so messed up about the whole grief shit #and i guess it's been maybe helpful. i dont know.#SHOULD i mention this tomorrow? i already know it's ass and entirely undeserved #if i did it'd mostly be another source to complain about it. theres really nothing anyone can say to make it better #bc it's bullshit and it already happened. and i already have the objective proof of yet another person losing interest in me.#... i dont know. i feel like it's inevitably going to come up. it's already taken up so much of my thoughts.#my every dream last night stemmed from it all. it was such a fitful night of sleep.#i can only pray that i dont dream about it tonight too. i want a fucking break from it all.#i hope she loses sleep from guilt. i hope she hurts every time she remembers what she did to me.#i hope she comes around tomorrow so she can see the face she kissed and she lied about loving #so she can remember im a person with feelings too. a person who opened up to her. a person who trusted her.#............ okay maybe i should talk about my blatantly vicious retaliatory remarks with my therapist.#i tried to reign it in but Bitch Mode definitely came out earlier today. when it was fresh. and i just wanted to make her Hurt.#i still want that honestly. i want her to truly regret doing this. to be filled with so much guilt for how she chose to do it.#i cant change her feelings. no matter how much i might want to. but i sure as hell can make her regret it.#i feel like im allowed a bit of petty bitchiness after this bullshit. but i also dont like the person i become like this.#anger issues. perhaps i should talk about my anger issues with my therapist.#easier than just rehashing the whole breakup. though i'll probably have to do that some too.#but better to have a goal for it. a direction to focus on. so that it's not just me complaining.#... it still wont be fun. and my ex mentioned coming round an hour after my therapy ends for dropping the shit off.#so Assuming she actually shows up (still not convinced she will after she flaked on me twice)#it's gonna be therapy and then seeing her right after. god it's gonna suck.#i'll try to do some homework maybe. and then maybe see if anyone wants to hang out later tomorrow.#my friends r the real ones. hanging out with me for 7 hours... they traded off between them but still #for 7 hours i was not alone. and that was very nice of them to do.#good things. positives! focusing on the positives. i am a healthy person with a healthy outlook on life. smiles.

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload?#me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃#listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook #i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort #to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop #being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol #i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like #let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and #make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works #ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil #ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations #bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess #its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively #health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by #medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary.#like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think #of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf #my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its #bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror #when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the #most me coded character to ever exist #unrelated

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daincrediblegg · 5 months

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You know… I think I’d enjoy bridgerton more if it engaged in its stakes more than it engaged with its payoff. You know. Like all the jane austen’s novels it’s trying to chase through charm

#like. idk. it’s fun but it’s disenchanting bc it doesn’t engage with class social structures in any meaningful way #also where are the fucking soldiers??? shouldn’t there be some colonels running around?#it’s regency what does everyone not know that the napoleonic wars are happening #like this is what I’m saying it won’t engage with any of the history and then try to pass off small gestures as the things that love is #made of. like. did you not read p&p??? god sakes #and what’s worse is that a good portion of other copypastes in this genre that I have seen do exactly the same thing #i mean even sanditon which I would accuse of similar crimes still manages to talk about colonialism and race in a way more meaningful way #even if it does seem a little far fetched #and I’m glad penelope is finally getting an arc but even still its like. it never wants to really penetrate the fatness issue #like it’s not the crux of why she’s so socially outcast and rather make it about her being a wallflower #and yeah maybe I’m too close to this one and I care a little too much bc I have been in her position before (and spoilers it didn’t end well #but all of this is to say is that the pure wish fulfillment kinda bores me ngl. like put the characters through their paces for gods sake #and ofc I’m saying this coming off game of thrones so ofc my outlook is bleak but like. romance can be more fun and maybe it would have #a better reputation than it does if we didn’t just act like its happening in a vacuum

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oldbutchdaniel · 1 year

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going to visit my homophobic family for ten days. AMA

#😐#trying to keep a positive outlook so at least i will be #1) writing my fic on the plane as air travel writing is one of my top hobbies for some reason #2) watching good omens with my bestie 🫶🫶🫶#3) have whataburger. thank god for regional burger #jillian.txt

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sodrippy · 8 months

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making such a delicious lemony sumac salmon salad and forgetting ive got a cut lip AND a cut up roof of my mouth until the moment i start eating and lemon is seeping everywhere

#kms‼️‼️#sorry bro i am trying SO hard to be niceys and positive outlook and you (god) are making it SO hard #its a really yummy dish so yay and it has the fried up pita pieces yknow? so good #but my fucking god it hurts. help.#esp since that one tooth is suddenly so fucking sensitive even just having mildly cold salad shoots right through it #why is this happening to meeeeeee #if the library doesnt have my book by the weekend im going to blow it up 👍

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clownboymcchucklefuck · 1 year

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Mental health recovery is a blessing and a curse at the same time istg

#Im happy that I'm not suicidal anymore and see the good things along with trying to have a positive outlook #But like #I feel like I lost my spark.#My flamboyance if you will #I dont think I'm funny anymore #Everything I say always comes out weird or awkward #Either it be online or irl #Idk #Vent ☕ (?)

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lameotello · 2 years

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I've connected the dots. The reason people write Mikey as innocent is because he's a positive, optimistic person and nine out of ten times that seems to be equated with not knowing how the world works instead of choosing to take the world with all its flaws and still be able to see the good in it

#saw someone complain that ppl write mikey as way too innocent and I def agree #and I was like I wonder /why/ though #and suddenly I was like wait. he's the positive optimistic one #it happens so often ppl seem to take that as naivité and innocence rather than.... simply being optimistic #it's not bc you have a positive outlook and try to be upbeat and see the good in ppl that you're naive or innocent #idk I think also that Rise Mikey especially tries to push back against this perception in show #his brothers don't explicitly think he's innocent but they do treat him as if he's smth to be protected and he wants to be seen as an adult #which makes the innocent characterization of him in the rise fandom more grating imo #but then again I haven't seen much of the other shows #but I think this goes for most if not all mikeys in general #tello talks #mikey tmnt

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solmints-messyocdiary · 1 year

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imagine your f/o's taking care of you in whatever way you need ❤️

The Patron would do anything to make sure his muse felt better (or as good as possible) (I know it he told me so)

Thank you, nonny...

#I am trying to... not sink a lot and spiral in my head #I've never been a positive person so I am used to having a really grim outlook in life #But it's been a lot for me #academic depression?? I guess...#I am 25 but I feel like 15 still...#where's the art solivagant #ask #anon

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chemicahs · 2 years

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Does not make me feel good that im still doing nothing with my life and the one thing im good at I don’t want to do anymore and keep failing at it

#literally always trying to stay positive and have a good outlook on life but cmon man

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livvyofthelake · 2 years

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actually you know something. i have got to stop watching media with people with british accents. i’ve had such an overload of british accents lately it’s absolutely ridiculous. i’m starting to think in the cadence of charlie hunnam’s voice in queer as folk it’s going to drive me to smash my head through a window.

#he talks in a very particular way there it's not just the accent. some may call it overacting EYE call it realism. man's character was 15 #do you guys wanna talk about that show? i'm making a list of the top tv FREAKS i know and vince and stuart are placing second #anyway. i have got to get on a diet of strictly american movies for a few days. well maybe i'll rewatch slaughterhouse rulez #but OTHER than that.#still awake as shit btw. jesus christ i got classes tomorrow.#and they're all going to suck probably. trying to have a positive outlook tho. but they are going to SUCK #i'm stuck in two basic level classes (intro to film. me. INTRO to film. i'll start eating wallpaper) and both of those are 2 hours long #and no one i know will be in them because it's going to be all fucking. sophomores probably. oh god.#and the other two. one will be easy enough but the other the professor is my advisor and he is USELESS as fuck i do NOT want to see him as a #actual professor. are you kidding. he's useless. and he's got bad vibes. hashtag misandry #god too many of my professors this semester are men what if that was my last straw #i'm kidding it's fine. what the hell was this post about originally. i''ve just been typing.#oh yeah. the british accents. literally driving me crazy. no one recommend me any more movies unless they're all in the american south #beth.txt

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1roentgen · 4 days

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#chat i have gotten some strange ideas in my head #i am incapable of moving in silence because i must yap #i have slightly less than a year to get my shit together but i must no longer go with the flow i might fight #firstly i have to get that 3.8 gpa and 7.0 ielts for the full ride scholarship next year #i was drunk and high all last year and my gpa is 3.6 so i think this is doable #gotta prove to my parents i ain’t completely worthless. prove to myself too #i’ll redo year three again when i transfer but once i graduate from [redacted] i’m confident i’ll be much better off #financially than if i graduated here #for sure i’ll be independent #retire my parents too #been so stressed bout jobs lately. outlook been Bad bad. i feel positively towards my school but it’s a ทางพ่าน for most people #halfway point?#i knew they had this 2+2 program but i had it stuck in my head it wasn’t worth doing cuz i’m fucked and nothings worth trying anymore #id only fail again #been thinking and thinking and listening and thinking some more #this can’t be it #if i got the opportunity i gotta try. if i change enough it’s not out of the question. why not change #5 mil baht for two years is brutal but if the investment pays off it’s a solid fucking investment #i will no longer die i will commit myself to becoming a better person and i will get rich asf #money make da world go round #today i got electronics lab midterm wish me luck

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minwilder · 1 month

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i’m leaning so far into pumpkin spice this year i don’t even care that august was like three days ago. i need the whimsy. I Need It

#body image conversation warning ahead #also i’m like. not cold all the time anymore #my weight went up quite a bit this year and probably not because of anything i did differently #just how it goes with adulthood #okay probably not quite a bit but it does feel like that. i’m trying to keep a positive outlook about it #well a neutral one anyway #anyway all this to say that i’m looking forward to fall for once #if nothing else i have this unyielding belief in the power of fall to facilitate life change #and god i really need some change in my life

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klara-rosa · 10 months

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therapy today again 👍🙃

#I don't even wanna go to therapy today because #she kinda rubbed me the wrong way last week and i'm pathetic and still can't let it go and also #I have so much going on in my head atm that I can hardly put ANY of it into words that would make sense and be cohesive #essentially i'm tired and exhausted and feel like giving up #i just don't know how to stop hating myself #like everything i do and say and think is centred around disliking myself and wanting to self-destruct #And i know i should actively try to not do that and see good things within myself and practice a more positive outlook on life in general #but i'm just tired #everything is too much #my own person and work and my family and the pressure of the future and how life just goes on if you let it #like it's all so stressful to me #personal #mental health #therapy diaries

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floral-hex · 1 year

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maybe we don’t tell my therapist tomorrow that I stayed up late getting high and then browsing through old friends on facebook until my self esteem collapsed

#cmon everyone makes mistakes at 2 in the morning #I don’t make good mental health decisions after midnight #dumb dumb dumb #whatever. time isn’t real. it’s done. I didn’t marry some college sweetheart have kids & settle down. too late for that. whatever. ya butt #trying to keep a mellow head #it’s just.. blegh. all these people I used to know. they all lived their own little lives. I was just a footnote. whoosh. gone. blegh #why did I even start snooping?#I don’t even like fb! it’s terrible! I never use it #but I do miss waaaay back when it was only for students. it had like games and you could blog on it #and of course I had friends and I was young and everything just felt so alive #oof I swear I’m not trying to fall into sad old man mode #I guess I’m just always going to wish I’d.. ya know.. had a basic normal life #partner. a kid or two. married and happy and in a home with a career and bowling with friends on the weekend #I know it’s still a possibility. but I always feel like the end is near #like I’m in the end days and I can feel it. the lights are going dark. the world is almost over #I’m just crawling around on its cooling corpse #but this is…. way too pessimistic #life goes on. my outlook is bleak and that affects my worldview. if I were happy and in love and whatever of course I’d be more positive #sometimes you just have to tell yourself to stop being so fucking negative and chill out #life could be good. maybe soon. maybe sooner than you think.#and if the world does end I’ll just highjack a dunebuggy and live out my mad max fantasies. whatever dude. fuck it #so yeah anyway I got really high earlier and then uhhhhhhjackedoff a lot and then crashed and got nostalgia fucked #it’s not that serious #you can ignore this #text

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