#trying to also resist the Hunger for Data as i know it is just an emotional desire to assert some semblance of control
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i swear to god i do more work in three hours in this job than i did in ten months at the other job lolllll. but i canât even be too resentful towards old job because 1) iâm out of it and never have to think of it again YIPPEE and 2) the timing of that job (specifically my lead escalating shit to Unbearable Misery Levels) enabled me to be in exactly the right place & right time to apply for this job.
#i am all amped up#partly from knocking out a bunch of shit this morning#and partly from the lowgrade hum of pregnancy-related anxiety#ultrasound scheduled for sunday morning#which feels sooooo far away#but i guess i just have to get through three days after today#i wish interviews were this week so i could kill a bunch of time that way lol#i need to be prepared for the slow rising levels to mean bad news on the ultrasound#but i am also trying to not fret too much or read The Forums#kinda wish i had one more blood test to reassure me or help me brace myself but#trying to also resist the Hunger for Data as i know it is just an emotional desire to assert some semblance of control#over a process i ultimately cannot control in any meaningful way#anywayyyy ok#killing 20 min before my last meeting#then i'm going to drive home and try to listen to a webinar in my car#then i can be done since i started at 6:45 this morning
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SYMPATHY IS A KNIFE (ii)
pairing: Yuki Tsunoda x Fem! Driver! Reader
word count: 5650
hii so this is part 2, and as a little heads up this might turn into a slow-burn friends to lovers. please bear with me as the story progresses.
part i part iii part iv
The weeks that followed her crash with Alonso were grueling, but Yn fought through each race, clawing her way back into the points. She returned to form with a quiet, relentless focus, each finish in the top ten a reminder to the critics that she was here to stay. Slowly, the headlines turned from doubt to recognition, her name no longer just a novelty but a force.
And, little by little, Ynâs walls began to come down. It was subtle at firstâsheâd laugh a little longer when Yuki cracked a joke during briefings, her eyes softening, her defenses slipping just enough for him to see the glint of the Yn heâd known before. There were still days she would pull away, retreat into that place where she kept her hunger and drive guarded, but Yuki noticed that she wasnât so quick to shut him out anymore.
One night, after a successful P6 finish, Yuki found her in the paddock, lingering with a rare look of satisfaction on her face. He came up beside her, hands in his pockets, offering his usual lopsided grin.
âSixth place,â he said, nudging her gently. âNot bad for a rookie. People are starting to take you seriously now.â
She let out a short laugh, but it was softer than heâd expected. âGuess they donât have a choice. Iâm not giving them one.â
Yuki nodded, noticing the way her eyes flicked to the ground. There was pride there, but also something elseâa quiet acknowledgment that maybe, just maybe, she was finally allowing herself to believe in her own success. âYou donât have to prove it to anyone but yourself, you know.â
Yn looked up at him, a glimmer of vulnerability breaking through. âItâs hard not to feel like I have to prove it every day, to everyone.â
âThen let me prove something to you,â he replied, his tone lighter. âCome out for dinner tonight. No data, no analysis, just good food and people who actually like you.â
She raised an eyebrow. âPeople who actually like me? Thatâs a stretch.â
âTrust me,â he said, grinning, âthere are a few of us.â
That night, she found herself at a small, hidden-away restaurant with Yuki, Pierre Gasly, and Lando Norris, who had tagged along after overhearing Yukiâs invitation in the driversâ lounge. It was strange at firstâYn felt exposed, like she was stepping into unfamiliar territory, still unsure if this was a step too close, a distraction she couldnât afford. But as the evening went on, she realized that these were the same people she raced against each weekend, the same people who understood exactly what it meant to stand on that grid and bear the weight of expectations.
Pierre, all charm and laughter, quickly got her talking about her first season in Formula 2, and Lando joined in, teasing her about a race theyâd both barely finished after a wild lap one collision. She was surprised to find herself laughing, and even more surprised by the ease with which it happened, the tension ebbing away as the stories flowed. It was different from the camaraderie in the junior leagues, but there was a sense of mutual respect here that she hadnât allowed herself to see before.
Later in the evening, Yuki caught her eye and gave her an encouraging smile. She felt herself relax, realizing that he hadnât stopped trying to lift her spirits, even when sheâd resisted. Heâd waited patiently for her to meet him halfway, to let herself enjoy this.
The next race weekend, Yn felt that shift even more. In the driversâ briefing, Pierre gave her a quick nod, a little smirk that said he hadnât forgotten the night before, and Lando winked as they settled into their seats, making a quiet comment about "taking it easy on him" this time. Even Fernando Alonso, her nemesis in the notorious clash, gave her a measured glance, his respect clear without needing words. It was unspoken, but the ice had begun to melt.
During the race, Yn battled hard, scraping her way up from a P12 start to a P7 finish, her performance sharp and precise. In the closing laps, Yuki was on her radio, urging her on, and she could hear the pride in his voice when she crossed the line.
Afterward, in the cooldown room, Yuki sidled up to her, an easy grin on his face. âThatâs two in a row. Might have to start watching my back soon, huh?â
She chuckled, nudging him. âYouâd better. Wouldnât want you to get too comfortable up there.â
For the first time, the ribbing felt real, like something she could lean into without the fear of letting her guard slip too far. In the post-race interview, she answered questions with a bit more ease, even allowing a genuine smile to show as she spoke about the teamâs hard work and how grateful she was to be competing at this level. The harsh scrutiny was still there, of course, but she felt it less sharply, like its blade had dulled, if only slightly.
As they headed back to the garage, Yn lingered for a moment, watching the cars being prepped for the next race, the hum of mechanics and engineers filling the space. Yuki came up beside her, the two standing in companionable silence.
âYou know,â he said eventually, keeping his voice low, âyouâve changed since the start of the season.â
She looked over at him, raising an eyebrow. âOh yeah? And howâs that?â
âYou donât look like youâre trying to outrun everyone elseâs expectations anymore,â he said, his gaze warm. âNow it looks like youâre actually racing.â
She felt a small smile tugging at her lips. âGuess I finally realized that I donât have to do it alone. It doesnât make me weaker to let people in⊠as long as they know Iâm still here to win.â
He laughed, nudging her shoulder. âIâd expect nothing less. And trust me, nobodyâs forgetting that anytime soon.â
For the first time in months, she felt like maybe, just maybe, she could allow herself to breathe. The hunger was still there, burning stronger than ever, but she was learning to balance it, learning that strength wasnât something she had to carry alone. For the first time, she felt like she was standing alongside her competitors, not against themâand that they werenât just rivals, but people who understood the fierce love she had for this sport, and the drive that made her who she was.
But the last few races had been a test of her patience and restraint, but Yn felt the spark beginning to wane as her car lagged just behind where she needed it to be. Every race was the same: a battle fought hard, inching closer, yet never quite close enough. She was slipping down the grid, the points slipping further out of reach. It didnât matter how much she pushed; her car wasnât holding up to her demands, but she refused to accept that. She refused to be anything less than perfect.
Determined to prove herself, she started taking risks she wouldnât have before, squeezing her car into spaces with centimeters to spare, braking later, accelerating earlier, trying to shave any possible millisecond off her time. She was more aggressive, forcing her way through corners, even if it meant clipping a wing or bumping wheels. Yuki noticed it, tooâhow her eyes blazed with that fierce hunger, how she didnât back down even when it might cost her. He tried talking to her, reminding her to pace herself, but she just brushed him off, insisting she had to push harder. There was no other option in her mind.
But her relentless drive hit a wall in the form of a brutal, unforgiving engine failure. It was a promising race, and she was within reach of a potential top-five finish when the engine sputtered and cut out entirely, leaving her coasting uselessly on the track. It took her a second to register it before the frustration exploded within her.
âAre you fucking kidding me?! Ah⊠this fucking car, itâs a fucking joke right?! shit.â Her voice echoed over the radio, laced with a fury she couldnât contain.Â
Her engineerâs voice crackled through the earpiece, calm and steady as they tried to soothe her. âYn, please calm down. Bring it back in. Weâll review the data and see what happened.â
She punched the steering wheel in a rare display of emotion, swearing under her breath as she coasted to the side, finally yanking off her helmet in frustration. She could feel the eyes of her team, her fans, the camerasâall of them watching her as she paced by her car, gesturing angrily before finally slamming her helmet down, the taste of defeat bitter on her tongue. All sheâd wanted was one shot, and it had been stolen from her, just like that.
The post-race press had a field day with her outburst. Headlines plastered with her image showed her storming away from the car, her helmet clutched tightly in her hands, her face twisted with frustration. Critics didnât hold back, with articles condemning her demeanor, calling her âhot-headed,â âreckless,â and âimmature.â Pundits questioned her character, her âtemper,â insinuating that she was cracking under the pressure. The criticisms were brutal and skewed, with some even suggesting that perhaps she didnât belong in Formula 1 if she couldnât handle the competition.
âHer behaviorâs unbecoming of an F1 driver,â one commentator noted with a sharpness that made her blood boil. âWeâve seen rookies come through and handle their failures with dignity. She should take a page from some of her peers, learn how to be gracious in defeat.â
The comparisons stung the most. They lauded other drivers for their âcalm under pressure,â for their âmeasured responses,â twisting every emotion she showed as a sign of instability or proof that she wasnât up to the challenge. It wasnât just a critique of her as a driver; it was a full-blown assault on her as a woman in a sport still dominated by men. Every failure, every mistake, was amplified, dissected, and weaponized.
Yuki saw the articles too, his jaw clenching as he read through the unfair critiques. He knew how hard Yn worked, knew that her frustration was born from the same unrelenting drive he had seen in himself and so many others on the grid. It was just that when she showed it, it became a spectacle, a flaw they couldnât wait to tear apart.
That evening, he found her sitting in the garage long after the others had left, staring at the empty spot where her car usually sat. She looked exhausted, the fire in her eyes dimmed to a dull, flickering ember.
âYn.â He approached carefully, taking a seat next to her on the floor. âI saw what theyâre saying.â
She scoffed, her voice laced with bitterness. âLet me guess. That Iâm too emotional? That Iâm a poor sport for being upset when things donât go my way?â
Yuki didnât sugarcoat it. âYeah. Theyâre being idiots. Itâs unfair, and itâs⊠itâs total bullshit.â
She looked down, fiddling with a loose thread on her racing suit. âYou know, if any other driver on the grid got this frustrated, theyâd call it passion. But for me, itâs a âtemper problem.â I just want to race, Yuki, but it feels like every mistake I make has a thousand people ready to pounce on it. And no matter how hard I work, no matter how much I push, itâs never enough.â
Yn was right. Every other diver on the grid got to be as frustrated or as angry as they wanted over how the race turned out, yet they had never had their character and demeanor be questioned and critiqued like hers.Â
Yuki could only nod, understanding how different their situations were.Â
They sat there for a while longer, just the two of them in the quiet of the garage, the weight of the situation filled the air thick. Yuki could feel Yn slipping back into herself.
It started with a few stray comments in the press, subtle and insidious. Reporters speculating on whether Ynâs recent guarded demeanor meant she was âcrackingâ under the pressure, her confidence misread as arrogance, her ambition painted as recklessness. The critiques hit harder as the season continued, comparing her to male drivers who had the luxury of aggressive reputations that only added to their mystique.
âVolatile.â That was the word most often splashed across headlines, capturing every moment she showed emotion, every interview where her frustration broke through the calm she worked so hard to maintain. And the comparison game beganâwho was she trying to emulate? Was she trying to live up to the male-dominated standards in the sport, or worse, was she letting her temper get in the way of real talent?
What stung most was the constant measuring of her against Yuki. Headlines dissected everything from her lap times to her post-race interviews, comparing her every move against her teammate, as if her accomplishments and setbacks couldnât stand on their own. âTsunoda Outshines Teammateâs Volatility,â they read. âTsunoda the Team Anchor; Ynâs Performance Under Scrutiny.â She was no longer Yn, the rookie with promise and fire, but Yn, the volatile womanâimpulsive, reckless, something to be managed, contained, tamed.
It was impossible not to feel every accusation like a weight pressing down, each word digging into her sense of self, twisting her love for the sport into something painful. She began to retreat, putting her walls back up, afraid to let herself be seen beyond the helmet and the points she could score.
The next race weekend, Yn fought her way through the practice sessions, chasing the consistency that critics claimed she lacked. When the car didnât perform to expectations in qualifying, she threw herself into hours of analysis, barely speaking a word to anyone, keeping herself wrapped in that cold determination that left little room for warmth or laughter.
Yuki tried to get her to relax, but she could sense his hesitation, his silent worry each time he glanced her way, like he was walking on eggshells. His usual, easy jokes only drew a tight-lipped smile from her before she returned to her data, her focus unbreakable but brittle. He was trying to help, but every word, every supportive gesture felt like sympathy, a reminder of how far sheâd fallen in everyoneâs eyes.
By race day, Yn was in her own world, the world she knew bestâher focus sharpened to a bladeâs edge, her mind locked on the points, the precision, the hunger for a win that drowned out the noise. The lights went out, and she poured herself into every turn, fighting through the grid with a calculated aggression that sent her up the field, position by position, unwilling to let anything hold her back.
The radio crackled in her ear as she took P10, her engineerâs voice breaking through her concentration. âNice work, Yn. Letâs keep pushingâweâre on for points.â
But she wanted more. She needed more. She pushed herself harder, forcing past competitors with a focus that bordered on ruthless, aiming for P8, then P7, clawing for every inch of track. Every sharp turn, every daring overtake was her way of silencing the voices that questioned her place on the grid.
She was climbing, closing in on P6 when she went into a corner too hot, her tires locking up briefly. She managed to hold her line, but the slight miscalculation dropped her back, just enough for the car behind to take advantage. The frustration flared, her hands tightening on the wheel as she tried to make up the time.
Yukiâs voice came through her radio, calm but steady. âYn, donât overdo it. Youâre doing greatâjust keep it smooth and stay in the points.â
But to her, staying in the points wasnât enough. She needed to break through, to prove every critic wrong with something impossible to ignore. She pushed even harder, desperate to climb those final few places.
When the race ended, sheâd managed to hold onto P9. It was a respectable finish, another points finish to her name. But the adrenaline, the aching hunger for more, gnawed at her, leaving her feeling like sheâd failed somehow. In the media pen afterward, reporters crowded in, questions buzzing around her, ready to dissect her every move.
âYn, do you feel that your performance today was enough to prove your critics wrong?â
âSome say youâre too aggressive on the trackâdo you think thatâs true?â
âWhatâs it like competing against Tsunoda, a more experienced driver, while youâre still finding your footing?â
The questions stung, thinly veiled accusations that she was still falling short, still not living up to the unspoken standards set for her. She kept her responses curt and focused, deflecting where she could, but the tightness in her chest lingered. Even with points, the narrative felt the same, as if sheâd always be fighting an uphill battle to simply be seen for who she was.
Later, in the quiet of the paddock, Yuki found her sitting alone, still in her race suit, staring down at her hands. He sat beside her without a word, just letting the silence settle around them before he spoke.
âYou know, you were amazing out there today,â he said softly, a warmth in his voice that she hadnât let herself hear in days. âP9 is no joke, especially after the weekend you had.â
She kept her gaze on her hands, her fingers curling around the fabric of her gloves. âBut itâs not enough, Yuki.â Her voice was tight, strained. âItâs like⊠no matter what I do, itâs never good enough for them. I feel like Iâm being torn apart, analyzed for every mistake, every moment I let myself feel anything.â
Yukiâs hand found hers, a small, grounding gesture. âThe public can be ruthless,â he admitted. âBut theyâre not the one in the car, you are.â a reminder from Yuki of how far Yn has gone from karting and now in F1.
Yn let his words sink in, feeling the weight of them like an anchor in the storm of criticism swirling around her. She looked at him, his expression so unguarded, so full of that familiar, unwavering loyalty heâd carried for her since their days in the Red Bull junior team.
âIâm just⊠tired, Yuki. Iâm tired of being everyoneâs spectacle.â
He nodded, squeezing her hand gently.Â
A silence stretched between them, but it was different this timeâsofter, less heavy. She felt the weight in her chest loosen just slightly, a reminder that maybe she didnât have to carry it all alone, even if the world wanted her to.
She let herself lean into Yukiâs support, into the reminder that her worth went deeper than the headlines, the criticism, the comparisons. She was here for something bigger, something she was still discovering, but something worth fighting for, not in spite of the world, but because of everything she knew she could be.
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Continued from here @diademreigned
Sin eaters, a living being warped by primordial light, mindless creatures whose main instinct is to kill others for aether or to change them into a sin eater. It happened so different for each person, yet it never got any easier to see, especially when it was her best friend suffering through it. How long was Data going to pretend things were fine? To push her away, but deep down the pink haired warrior knew it was only his way of keeping her safe.
"Data..I am not going to abandon you. If our roles were reversed, could you do that to me while I was in pain? Let me help you. I promised we would find a way to cure this."
Everyone was truly working so hard to find anyway to reverse the effects, but each passing day, hope for a cure seemed miles away. It was bad enough they asked Stella to let them bring him here. The healers weren't at all kind to Data. They treated him like a monster. Not even bothering to try and bring him food to eat because most were too afraid to get close to him, out of fear of turning themselves.
The Exarch cautioned Stella on getting too close to Data especially when he had no control over his actions. She knew it was out of worry, but couldn't stop the ache forming inside her heart. How did everyone expect her to just treat him indifferently? To pretend that he was starving day in and out.
When his hand jerked forward, attempting to grab his scythe, Stella grabbed Tesleen wrist. The last thing Data needed on his conscience was hurting a friend. Alisaie also won't forgive Stella if anything happened to her new friend on the warrior's watch. Slowly, the Au ra walked closer to Data, knowing how painful it must be for him to even be this close to her aether. Reaching into her pocket, the Paladin pulled out a dagger. He needed to eat, and starving himself of the one thing that could give him strength wasn't good.
Closing her eyes, the Warrior slashed her wrist as blood dripped down. Aether escaping from the cut, as she sat down across from Data. He would probably resist taking any aether from her but, if anyone had the strongest around, it was her. Hissing, she held it closer to her best friend, watching as his eyes seemed to widen at the sight.
"Data. I am asking as your best friend...take my aether. If that will satisfy your hunger each day. I don't care how much you need to take from me."
The Exarch words from earlier ran through her mind again:
Please come back safe...return in any other condition and I will have no choice but to take proper measures.
Stella wasn't sure what measures he meant, but the tone in his voice indicted they might hurt Data. Which was the last thing she ever wanted. An idea came into her mind, with her connection to the tower, maybe it would help restore any aether she lost. Make it easier for her to give all that Data needed to survive, but that was a long stretch. She wasn't Allagan royalty..only related to Mako, the Paladin who watched over T'sori, past heir to the throne and G'raha ancestor.
This was going to hurt...a lot, but she was ready to take that risk if Data trusted her. A soft smile escaped her lips, as her wrist dripping with blood and aether pooled down the woman's arm. Tesleen letting out a gasp at the sight, trying to run over to tend to Stella wound, but with a wave of Au Ra arm, a barrier appeared around Data and herself, preventing Tesleen from getting closer. The aether smelled so sweet, like heaven itself, as it clung to the warrior wrist. It was so close within elms of Data mouth.
I wonât let you die...so please have a little faith that this will work..
#â ââ // STELLA CAELUM Š our hearts endure and remain forever strong ă» ă Threadsă#â ââ // DATA MOCHI Š Tempered Light ă» ă diademreigned sin eater auă#ooc: I wanted this be my last reply for the night I know we talked about this a bit on the server#tw:blood#This is a darker au so if anyone needs other things put for warning let me know
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OKAY WOW THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR RESPONSES TO THIS. I saw someone say they want to draw fanart, and absolutely no pressure or anything, but I would be THRILLED. I mean, I already am thrilled with the enthusiasm this has received, truly thank you!!
Someone mentioned Usopp backing Sanji up in fights, and I was only thinking of the gag potential before but now I'm considering it more seriously. Something I've long wished for in One Piece is more combo-moves. If AU Usopp and Sanji always fought side-by-side to make up for their individual weaknesses, I think it could be SO cool. Even the simplest combination techniques can be difficult, but are so compatible with their two fighting styles. Sanji kicking someone up into the air so Usopp can shoot them down, Usopp shooting someone with one of his special trapping plants and Sanji taking them out- for them it's remarkably easy.
(Adding Chopper into their It's Okay Not To Have Monster Strength [Like Some People] club and having some combo moves with him, too, could be so sweet.)
It'd be fun if Nami and Zoro had combo moves too. Oh my god, remember when Zoro drowned himself in order to force Nami to save him, because he knew she would? I'm imagining that, but in battle. Doing his part of a combo move, which leaves him lethally vulnerable unless she finishes it. Forcing her to face her fears and fight, in the most irritating way possible. Holy shit. He would have the absolute best time tormenting her with this, I can just see his shit-eating grin. Oh, that's evil. He would.
Even when female characters in shounen get to fight, and aren't just relegated to support roles, it's normally in a much less gritty and visceral way. It's often tactical moves from a distance, magic or technology involved, some kind of wand or gun or avatar used. Personally that has created an insatiable hunger in me for tooth and nail bloody fists shounen women violence. So while Nami's abilities are more suited to powering-up Zoro's, it's important to me to try to get creative and think of another way. Not that her intelligence shouldn't be utilized, it should, but so should her muscles! For me. For my sake.
I loved when she used to just hit people with her staff directly, lol. OH HEY THAT REMINDS ME! I HAD A BEAUTIFUL TIME-SKIP ERA NAMI THOUGHT! What if instead of old wizard men collecting data from their lofty sky-ship, it was rough-and-tumble middle-aged-and-older butch women collecting geological and climate data on-the-ground in extreme conditions. They HAVE a sky ship but only to get between insane locations of weather extremity. Don't you know the most reliable data is collected in-person! So Nami's huge Time-Skip Power-Up is becoming largely immune to extreme temperatures and lightning, being able to see through fog, and being unaffected my unstable and dizzying environments. (Due to a combination of One Piece-typical 'If You Train You Can Just Do This' logic and scientific modifications.)
That way she could hit people with lightning AND her staff at the same time >:) Also it would be wicked and I think about on par with Canon Sanji's Post-TS and then Post-WCI flying and cyborg damage resistance.
I've also been thinking about Sanji's obsession with gender roles and how that would be effected by all this as well. He seems to enjoy being saved by Nami and Robin when it happens, but that might be only because 1) Their opponents were women and 2) Their normal dynamic is still overwhelmingly him saving them, so his idealized self-image of being a dashing prince charming who saves the beautiful woman isn't threatened.
If those two things were no longer true, well. >:) I THINK HE WOULD SUFFER. >:) And I think Nami would put up with a lot less shit. She wouldn't be able to hide behind him when she's scared, because he'd get himself killed against opponents she could take down herself. Nami would not do that. Sanji would still try it. Nami would be forced to make him see reality. There's only so much getting in the way in dangerous situations due to misogynistic ideals that a person can take. That could be a very interesting confrontation...
I think afterwards, he'd have to learn to disentangle his care-taking, protective instincts from heterosexual gender roles. I think he'd end up doing his dashing protector act at Usopp, lol. Who would love it. And in a cool older brother way at Choppa. Who would also love it. Wait it'd end up so cute.
Of course Nami's already formidable lesbian powers would increase to an un-foretold scale, as she'd be in there saving random women herself rather than sending someone else.
God, okay, there's still a lot more to think about but I have stuff to do so I have to leave it for now. But, basically: Monster Trio Nami AU. It's good for everyone!
I really miss the romance dawn trio where it's Zoro and Nami on either side of Luffy. The monster trio is great and everything but it does make me sad how Sanji took Nami's place. I miss the times when Zoro and Nami would threaten someone simultaneously, weapons drawn in sync. It felt so good in a gender way.
I've only just started thinking about this but I'd love to create things for an AU where Sanji just never gets that strong, and Nami powers up alongside Zoro and Luffy instead. I think it could be good for both Nami and Sanji's characters in different ways.
I think Sanji's whole thing about being made to feel subhuman for not being strong enough could be explored in such an interesting and even more powerful way if he really never got that strong. If he didn't ever have to be the warrior, if just being a cook like he always wanted to be was enough. Of course all the Strawhats contribute to the fights, but if he had more of a supportive role like Chopper that could be so interesting when it comes time to explore his insecurities. Going from 'the standards you were being held to are completely unreasonable and there's nothing wrong with being human' to 'you don't have to be strong at all, it's okay to just be you' could be soooo good. HE WOULD SUFFER SO MUCH MORE. But I think he'd end in an even healthier place. The journey could be so interesting.
AS FOR NAMI!!! She could be more like Zoro, fighting with the words of someone she lost in her mind. Bellemere told her to never lose to anyone, that girls have to strong too. It could be such a good what-if parallel to Kuina. If Kuina had a supportive adult encouraging her that she can be strong too, if her father hadn't been sexist, she could have gone just as far as Zoro does. The proof that her gender never made her inferior fighting right alongside him. God it'd be soooo satisfying and it'd make the message so much stronger. Also, Nami's slow development of becoming braver could be in the forefront. She'd have to fight herself so much harder to constantly be on the front lines. Plus, the comedy of an incredibly powerful person being a scaredycat is too good.
Which of course brings up, what happens to the scaredycat duo? I think the answer is related to what happens to Sanji's advice to Usopp in Water Seven. I think just because AU Sanji isn't strong, that doesn't mean he becomes any more fearful or less likely to put himself in harms way. Instead of the background gag of Nami and Usopp cowering together, it could change to Usopp constantly having to brave the battlefield to drag Sanji back out of it. I think they'd fight a lot, but very differently from Zoro and Sanji's fighting. Usopp gets mad because he doesn't want Sanji to get hurt, and it's hard to be truly hostile to someone with those kind of intentions.
Remember when Usopp reassured Chopper that 'it's okay to run away, just do what you can do'? And some of the others kinda made fun of him, like, 'That's your motto eh Usopp?'. He was telling Chopper what he wanted to hear, but much later we find he didn't really believe it, not when it's for himself. He also told Chopper it's okay when Merry's mast broke under his watch, "because we can replace the mast, but we can't replace you!" I think AU Usopp would be saying this kind of thing to Sanji all the time. They'd be very close. So when Usopp's insecurity gets the better of him in Water Seven, it's a huge betrayal for Sanji specifically. How could he say those things to him if all this time, he didn't really mean them? If it's not true for Usopp, where does that put Sanji?
It could go a lot of other ways too, though. Maybe their close relationship based on not being the strongest and being okay with it together would enable Sanji to talk Usopp down from leaving. Or, bad version, Sanji could take it just as personally as Usopp does, since Usopp is to him what Merry is to Usopp, and they both leave. God, they'd all be so heartbroken. Lots to think about...
As for Nami, I think she'd be a lot closer with Zoro. They'd be bickering all the time, but it would have that trust that Zoro and Luffy have underneath it. That if one of them needs a break, the other is there to pick up the slack. This is already their dynamic in a different way, both acting as secondary leaders, keeping things from getting too out of control. To me the best example of that is Whiskey Peak, when they're the only two who weren't fooled. I think it would help both of them retain their silliness if they were always on equal footing, fighting side-by-side. Some of my favorite East Blue moments are the couple of times they played jokes on the others together, and I think we'd see a lot more of that. When you trust the person next to you to be perfectly in-step with you, it's a lot easier to have fun even in dangerous situations.
I think especially Zoro needs help keeping his goofy side, and for Nami it'll help her get over her fears to have her reliable best friend right there egging her on. I just think they'd have a lot of fun!
Nami & Usopp, Zoro & Sanji, they're both fun dynamics, but I'd love to switch it up. There's just so much possibility to explore...
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bells (L lawliet x reader)
> warnings: ANGSTTT, major death note spoilers
> i know i altered the rain scene a bit and combined it with the monster speech but i thought it fit nicely okay let me live đ«
   It wasnât easy, working as part of the kira case. You knew that better than anyone. You knew that when you begged L to let you join the task force, and by the sorrowful look in his eyes in response to your request, he knew it too. What he also knew, though, was that you wouldnât give up. No matter how many times he warned you of the dangers, âY/N your heart could stop any minute,â âY/N youâd have to say goodbye to your normal life,â âY/N this puts us both in danger and i canât lose you,â he knew all too well you would never let up. You would just persist on begging and begging, because youâre just like him. Stubborn. Thatâs just the thing he loved about you, but also the part of himself perhaps he hated the most. And so, he let you join the task force.
Now almost a year into the investigation, the large band of japanese police and american FBI agents dwindled down to a dedicated few, those who were willing to put their lives on the line to find kira. That few was you, L, Light Yagami, Cheif Yagami, Matsuda, Aizawa, and of course Watari. Misa tagged along too, living in the task force headquarters with everyone else though you werenât sure exactly why. Maybe L kept her around because he couldnât let go of the idea that she was the second kira. Stubborn. Though you didnât agree with his theory, it wasnât so bad having another girl around HQ.
âHey Y/N, have you seen Ryuzaki around?â Light asked, walking into the main room placing a hand on your shoulder as you sat eyes glued to the surveillance footage you were to go over.
âHmm, no actually. Havenât seen him anywhere. Why, whatâs up?â You turned around to face Light, the short nail of your thumb trapped between your front teeth; a habit you picked up from L.
âI donât know itâs just... weird,â Light removes his hand to rub the back of his neck, âUsually Ryuzaki is always here going over something for the kira case, honestly itâs like the man never sleeps!â He lets out a laugh, and you smile too. It was hard to resist Lightâs charm, he just had that effect on people. So charismatic, he couldnât possibly be kira. Could he? âI guess itâs just strange not to see him anywhere.â
âYeah, youâre right. Iâll look for him, I could use a break anyways.â You push yourself away from the desk, standing up from your chair to stretch with a groan before heading up the stairs- you had an idea of where he might be.
âLet me know when you find him, Iâve got some case stuff I want his opinion on.â
âYes sir officer Yagami!â You did a soldier salute in his direction mockingly.
âDonât call me that,â Light laughed with a wide smile and narrow eyes, a bright laugh that filled the echoey room. You smiled warmly. He wasnât kira.
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You push open the heavy metal door leading to the roof top of the tall building HQ was located at, your eyes meeting with a slouched figure drenched in rain water. You had a feeling he might be here.
âL!â You called, walking out into the heavy rainfall to collect him. What the hell was he doing out here? He paid no attention to your calls, only continuing to gaze outward at the buildings below.
âL! L, what are you doing out here? Youâll get sick, come on!â You approached him, tapping on his shoulder to get his attention.
âI hear the bells, Y/N,â L took in a deep breath, taking his time to inhale the scent of fresh rain water and cold crisp city air. His dark eyes were clouded with thought, though you couldnât tell which thoughts.
âWhat are you talking about? Câmon, letâs get inside.â
âY/N love, I fear we may be parting ways soon.â
âHuh?â
âI believe I may have bitten off more than I can chew, Y/N. Iâve encountered a monster. A monster who always tells lies. Lying monsters are a real nuisance, you know? Theyâre much more cunning than other monsters. They pose as humans even though they have no understanding of the human heart; they eat even though they've never experienced hunger; they study even though they have no interest in academics; they seek friendship even though they do not know how to love. Iâve encountered this monster and, well, Iâm afraid I might be eaten by it. Because in truth,â He takes in another thoughtful breath, pushing his raven hair dripping with water away from his forehead, âI am that monster.â
Amongst the hard rain pattering against steel, the scattered cracks of thunder, the sound of your own heavy breaths, it all felt silent. So silent it hurt. You couldnât breath, sure you felt yourself taking in breaths but it wasnât enough. Your lungs felt cold and wet. It was like L stole your language capabilities, like he reduced you to a little kid who only used their vocal chords to cry. You wanted to cry. You wanted to say âL, what do you mean?â but in your chest you knew what he meant. Because you heard the bells too.
âL,â You began,
âLawliet.â
âHm?â
âLawliet,â He turned to face you, running his hands down your arms before taking your hands, enclosing your fingers in his, âThatâs my real name. Lawliet.â
You blinked hard. Were you choking? Suffocating? âWeâll be alright,â You smiled, letting out a stiff breath, âYou didnât get the name âbest detective in the worldâ for nothing, right?â
L lightly moves a hand to the back of your head and places a soft kiss to your lips. You kiss back, tasting the remnants of buttercream and black coffee on his chapped lips. You rake his dark hair through your fingers before he pulls away all too soon.
âMhm. Letâs go inside love, youâll get sick.â He hummed.
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Your eyes flutter open, hand instinctively floating to the space next to you expecting to find L, but all you felt was the smooth linen of hotel bed sheets fuzzy with loose balls of thread and cotton. You groan, rubbing the sleep from your eyes as you turn on your phone. Almost 9 AM? Thatâs late. Why wouldnât L wake you?
You make your way down the stairs into the main HQ room, where the whole crew was gathered around a table studying the black notebook they collected from the yatsuba case. L, though, sat at his same chair, staring intensely at seemingly nothing, biting on his thumb nail.
âRyuzaki, whatâs the meaning of all this?â Matsuda asks raising his voice, âYouâve somehow gotten approval from another country to use the notebook for an execution?!â
âWatari, excellent work, thank you.â L ignores him completely. âFirst things first, please make arrangements to transport the notebook immediately.â
âRyuzaki-â Light this time, âWhat are you trying to do?â
âIâm gonna try out the notebook for you.â
The task force all let out an audible gasp, including you.
âAh, Y/N, youâre awake. I let you sleep in, I hope you donât mind. You needed rest.âÂ
âWh- Ryuzaki, are you crazy? We know the notebookâs power is real, weâve seen it before, how else do you think kira operates?!â You dismissed.
âAnd besides, whoâs gonna write the name? If someone starts writing in the notebook, theyâll have to obey the 13 day rule and keep writing names forever!â Matsuda adds.
âItâs already been worked out, the person who will be writing names is a criminal scheduled to be executed in just over 13 days. If heâs still alive 13 days after writing the name, heâll be pardoned from execution.â
You move closer to L, sitting in your usual seat next to him and take his hand, âBut still...to sacrifice a life?-â
âWeâre very close!â L yells, raising his fingers to rest at his temples, dropping his hand from yours. You look down at your feet. âIf we work this out, the entire case will be solved.â
The flash of red from the monitors before you pulls your attention back up, the room illuminating a cherry hue like the toppings from Lâs cake. An alarm begins to blare in your ear, sending your heart rate up as you jump from your chair. Matsuda holds on to your shoulder, concern painted all over his face. Jeez, he looks more scared than you. Thatâs Matsuda for you.Â
âWhatâs going on?! A blackout?!â
L sat calmly at his chair like nothing was wrong. You knew he wasnât calm. He wasnât chewing on his thumb. He was staring up at the red flashing monitor with a furrowed brow, his eyes full of deniel. Worry. L Lawliet, worrying. Who would have guessed.Â
The red hue of the computer screens flashed white all at once, one sentence displayed in black letters: All Data Deletion.Â
âWatari!â L cried. You had never seen him like this.
âData deletion? What the hell is going on?!â Chief Yagami yelled impatiently.Â
âI told Watari that he should erase all information in the event that something were to happen to him.â
âIf something were to happen... you donât think?...â
âWhere is the shinigami?!â L yelled.
You all frantically searched around the room, mumbles of âWhereâd it go?â and âI donât see itâ filled the air. Tears brimmed your eyes as you scanned every corner of the room. This couldnât be happening. This wasnât happening.
âEveryone,â L called, âThe shinigami-â He cut himself off, inhaling a quick sharp breath with wide eyes. He was still. No, no, no, no, no please this wasnât happening. His metal spoon dropped to the floor with a loud clatter before he himself fell onto the cold tiling.Â
âRyuzaki!â Light dove for him, cradling him in his arms as he lay silently struggling for air. You rushed over as well, sitting on the other side of him. You grasped his hand and brought it to your heart. âL, L, Lawliet, youâre fine, itâs okay stop it! This isnât funny, STOP!â You yelled at him through voice cracks, struggling to swallow back sobs. He only stared back with wide eyes. Could he even see you? You brushed his thick ebony hair behind his ears and leaned in close. You could feel his shallow breathing on your nose. âItâs okay, itâs okay, youâre alright, right? Weâre gonna be alright?â You begged of him. Did you expect him to respond?
Slowly, almost with hesitance to admit defeat, his eyes fluttered closed. No, god this wasnât real. You were dreaming. âL! L stop it! Wake up, please just wake up. You canât leave me here just wake up please!â You sobbed into his chest. It wasnât moving. All the nights you fell asleep to the rhythm of his chest moving up and down with his breaths and his heartbeat following along- it was all gone. this was nothing like that. He was gone. And so you cried harder. Your throat hurt- sore from the sobbing and screaming. It was all you could do.Â
âY/N...â Aizawa placed his hand on your shoulder, âY/N, Iâm sorry. itâs time to go.â
âNuh-uhâ You hummed through cries. You couldnât bring yourself to say no. L would want it. But you werenât letting him go. You werenât giving up like that. Stubborn.Â
Aizawa crouched next to you. âI know...â He whispered. âYou have to let go.â
You shook your head, you pleaded, begged for him to not take him. You needed him. But Aizawa was stronger than you. He walked around you, picking up L bridal style and taking him out of the room.
âNo, no, please, Aizawa please! I need him, please,â You reached for Lâs limp hand, but it only lifelessly fell from your grasp as Aizawa walked away.
You helplessly begged for L back, still crying tirelessly on the cold floor. For Aizawa to just let you hold him; keep him. Please, heâs fine, just let me have him, Iâll take care of him, please, I just need him. But nobody listened. It hurt. You almost thought you were next to have a heart attack because it hurt. And no matter how long you laid there crying, shaking, you didnât stop. It didnât stop hurting. Because you were stubborn. Just like him.
#im so sorry for the angst LOL#l lawliet x reader#L lawliet#L death note#ryuzaki#death note x reader#death note#light yagami#anime#anime x reader#death note oneshot
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Sloppy little v-pet guide
It feels like the virtual pet community on tumblr is super small and mostly favors Tamagotchi, I feel way unqualified to do this, but hereâs a quick, super basic guide to the modern Digimon virtual pets that I know of ( I say modern but I use the term loosely because theyâre all very much nostalgia bait )
If you really donât know anything about virtual pets at all... theyâre little LCD key chain games, pet simulators, you feed them and train/play with them to fill up their heart meters, clean up their poop, put them to bed, treat injuries and sickness, watch them grow into new forms, and try to keep them from dying, Digimon sets itself apart from the rest by connecting to to other Digimon V-pets to do battles and more.Â
One thing to note is that Most, if not all V-pets can connect to each other even if theyâre not the same version. They have a very basic battle system in place if theyâre different versions, but itâs slightly more involved if theyâre the same version. ( Thereâs even a fan made device that can connect them to battle online and play in an online digimon game )
Last thing iâll say is that if you are thinking of getting a Japanese v-pet, all the ones I mention here are in english, with the exception of the digimonâs name, but that can be looked up by looking over one of the evolution trees on Humulosmonâs website, Digitama Hatchery.Â
Perhaps I should move this to itâs own FAQ section on my blog but who even opens peopleâs blogs anymore? With that out of the way, letâs get this started under a read more!
Digital Monster Ver. 20th ( AKA the DM 20th )
This is the most accessible and affordable Digimon V-pet on the market right now. So affordable that even though Bandai has issued slightly improved versions in Japan for twice the price, most Japanese fans prefer to import these from overseas to save money. Some people have sighted them at Target for $5 but youâll typically find them for $20.
They look just like the original Digimon virtual pet, but they are actually a special 20th anniversary edition that has some new features... new features that, for some reason, Bandai are not advertising at all, and I donât know why.
New features not in the original virtual pet include:
Choose from all 5 of the original digimon eggs on one device
Battle the AI opponents in a Colosseum modeÂ
Raise two digimon at the same time
Your two Digimon can tag-team battle, and some can even fuse into a new digimon ( this is called Jogress, short for âjoint progressâ )
Put your digimon down for a nap for up to three hours hours in case youâre busy
Keep a log of all the different Digimon youâve raised, giving you a goal to fill it out
New forms that were not present in the original virtual pets
New unlockable eggs with special digimon inside
You can actually load your save data, so if you need to take a break from your v-pet or you have a low battery, you can just pop out the battery without fear of losing your digimon or your log book progress.
This is the v-pet iâd recommend to everyone whoâs interest in Digimon V-pets. It does have itâs downsides though. This v-pet is programmed to poop a lot more frequently than other v-pets for some reason, which becomes a real problem if youâre busy or you over sleep ( pro-tip, set your digimonâs clock ahead a bit so it wakes up when you do. All Digimon wake up at 7AM ), there are also some exclusive eggs locked to certain colors of the device. Youâll have to do a little research on that. Digitama Hatchery has all the info you need on that subject. Itâs also fairly basic compared to other virtual pets, but not by a lot. And lastly, you cannot pause this pet. ( Pro tip, actually you can, but you have to press the reset button to do it )
As mentioned earlier, there is a new version of this device called the Digital Monster Ver. Revival, exclusive to Japan. It lessens the poop frequency, and has a proper pause funtion instead of naps. But itâs twice the price, so Iâd say you just put down $20 on the western release.
Digimon Pendulum Ver. 20th ( AKA the Pen 20th )
These are a lot like the Digital Monster Ver. 20th. But instead of being a special reprint of the original virtual pet, theyâre a special reprint of the Digimon Pendulum, which didnât come out in the west as far as I know. The main difference here is that instead of button mashing to battle and train, you shake the device repeatedly. You have to get to know the rhythm and number of shakes your digimon requires to get the best results.
The key difference between this v-pet and the one above:
They poop a lot less frequently than the DM20th, even when thereâs two digimon
The sound is very different
You still get multiple eggs on each device, but with far more exclusives.
You can pause them by putting them to sleep when itâs not their natural bed time
Device makes a subtle sound when the Digimon poops so you know when to clean it
They wake up at 8AM instead of 7AM
A lot more of the digimon can Jogress, in fact most of them can
The eggs are somewhat themed ( beast, aquatic, robots, evil, good, ect. )
These Digimon are very desireable, but theyâre also unfortunately very overpriced compared to the DM 20th, as they only came out in Japan. I donât even want to mention how much I paid to get two of them... They come in four colors, Silver black, Silver Blue were wave 1, and Beelzemon, and Dukemon themed devices were wave 2... The wave 1 and wave 2 devices share a lot of digimon, but they do have some exclusives. On top of that, I hear these are prone to losing their save data, so itâs recommended to reset it every time you change the batteries, and handle with care.
Digimon Pendulum Z ( AKA the Pen Z )
This is a lot like the Digimon Pen 20th, but itâs not a special anniversary reprint. It is actually a continuation of the original Pendulums. So sadly, you only get one egg in these devices. But, the Digimon you can obtain are mostly new Digimon that have not featured in a virtual pet before, and some even make their debut on these devices. Theyâre also a tad bit more nuanced. Hereâs the key differences between the Pen Z and the Pen 20ths.
One Egg per device like the original 90âČs v-pets, which means no tag-team battles
You can only raise one Digimon at a time, but you can âBack upâ your Digimon, essentially preserving them in suspended animation where they wonât age or get sick, so you can raise another Digimon. You can have up to three Digimon on your device this way.
Evolution trees are slightly bigger
Hearts fill up and deplete in halves now, and older Digimon can have more hearts than older v-pets
The device tells you how many times you need to shake it for battles, removing the guess work and making it easier
New close ups on your digimonâs face when they perform strong hits
Digimon went back to waking up at 7AM
RPG elements added to the Colosseum, your Digimon now has a level and can earn EXP to get stronger, and to effect what they evolve into. You get a congratulations screen when you beat this mode.
In Colosseum mode you fight three digimon in a row, with the third one being a stronger âbossâ digimon
Single use items that can completely fill digimonâs hearts, change their performance in battle, double EXP, and more
Your digimon can have a random event trigger, usually it finds an item or an enemy worth lots of EXP when this happens.
These things are expensive, but not as expensive as the Pen 20th, and are some of the newest virtual pets you can get. In fact, wave 2 of the Pen Z has not even been released yet. You can only get them by pre-ordering through Premium Bandai, they ship out in April, so act while supplies last. You can only pre-order them in packs of three unfortunately. No individuals.
Digital Monster X Ver 1-3 ( AKA DMX, DMX2, and DMX3 )
Hereâs the last modern Digimon V-pet I have any kind of experience with. The Digital Monster X. These ones are the most nuanced yet in my opinon, and they have my favorite mechanics. Also, they come with lore I guess? If you slip your hands in between the cardboard packaging, youâll find a tiny comic... of course I canât read it. But it goes something along the lines of... â King Drasil, the king of the Digital World, created some kind of virus to kill off Digimon and solve an overpopulation issue, but the Digimon mutated the âX-Antibodyâ that makes them resist the virus and are rebelling against King Drasilâ, itâs wild and weird and I guess thereâs more lore that I havenât dug up yet and a TV special Iâve not seen yet... anyway, onto the pet..
This one no longer has the shaking mechanic and goes back to button presses. But it adds in a new mechanic of itâs own called the X Antibody Indicator... Actually... this is technically a continuation of the Pendulum X, which introduced the X antibody, but I donât know much about that v-pet, so I wonât go into it. And once again, we only choose from one egg this time.
They came out in three waves, each having two devices in each wave, and those devices have some exclusive digimon, but a lot of shared Digimon, so youâll have to make your own call on weather or not you want more than one v-pet per wave.Â
This thing is a lot like the Pendulum Z, so I will use that as a basis, here is what makes this different from the Pendulum Z aside from the shaking mechanic going away
XAI rolls, a new mechanic that involves rolling dice. You do this once daily to determine the random events for the day, you do it before the colosseum to determine how difficult it will be that day, and you do it before each battle to effect how easy it is to land a strong attack.
Colosseum mode battles are now called âareasâ and have pixelated Landscapes to make it feel more like a Quest mode rather than a series of battles
Colosseum mode will eventually start throwing more than three enemies at you. Your digimonâs hunger will deplete in the Colosseum, if you make it far enough, there are rest areas in which you can feed your Digimon.
Even larger evolution trees
A lot of evolution trees are locked until you advance far enough into the Colosseum
Most of the Digimon are âX-Antibodyâ counterparts of existing Digimon ( this wonât mean much on the little pixelated screen, but if you look up their key artwork, youâll find that they look very different with much more intricate designs than their original counterparts. Think âAlola Pokemonâ )
These things are great, probably my favorite mechanically speaking, however, I donât much care for the X-antibody Digimon, or the Rosters of each V-pet. And while I did follow an evolution guide on Digitama Hatchery, I often didnât get what I was aiming for, so maybe I didnât know what I was doing, idk, it was my first Digimon V-pet outside of the DM20th, so I was still learning.
These ones are also fairly expensive, I probably spent more than I needed to just buying one of these, when I paid the price most people sell two of them for. Only other major warning I hear is that the wave 1 devices have very bad screens that display things way too dark. So keep that in mind... BUT, before you buy, these things are strongly rumored to be releasing in the west. Meaning theyâll likely be sold for a cheaper, more reasonable price.. the rumor was that theyâd be announced early this year, so iâll give it until March.
And there you go, a little guide to modern Digimon V-pets. Hope it helps someone, anyone, make a decision if theyâre interested at all in these little things.Â
These are only the modern V-pets, thereâs loads of older pets that likely go for obscene prices, youâll have to do your own research on those. I really donât know much about the upcoming Vital Bracelet, and honestly I donât know if iâm going to get it if itâs tied to fitness. Seems like a poorly timed release during the pandemic if you ask me. And the âDigiviceâ that looks closer to the devices you see in the anime is not so much a virtual pet as it is an LCD mission mode game.ïżœïżœ I have ZERO experience with those but I have ordered one recently, iâll come back and talk about it when it gets here.
And remember, check out Humulosmonâs website, Digitama Hatchery for tons of resources. At the very least, itâs a good way to see what your Digimon is meant to look like instead of trying to interpret the pixel art yourself.
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Prince of Tennis 2019 Hunger Games AU:
(Aka something I half-daydreamed after reading the Hunger Games prequel and watching the Prince of Tennis live action series):
When 15 year old Lu Xia volunteers as the tribute for District 4, even the peacekeepers are bewildered as to whether he can do that. After all, he spent the majority of his childhood in the Capitol with his mother. However he was born in District 4 and returned there the year before to live with his father in the Victor's Village, and so they allow it.
People talk, as they always do, wondering whether this was why he returned to them at all, why he kept to himself and always seemed to be training for something. It was.
The 15 year old boy he took the place of, Ah Mu, sobs with relief and gratitude and sorrow for this stranger who has certainly saved his life.
His father, the famed Victor, Lu Xiangqian, only watches in silence as his son walks toward the stage. There is no pride in his face, only terror.
Next they call the female tribute, and nobody steps forward for Qi Ying as she moves towards the stage, dwarfed by all those around her. She knows she doesn't stand a chance.
Lu Xiangqian is silent as he accompanies his son on the journey to the Capitol. Although he does not say anything, it is clear that this brings back memories of his own Reaping, 20 years previously, when he was just an unknown boy from an impoverished family, and not yet an underdog success story lauded by the Capitol. He has not been there in years, had returned to District 4 shortly after marrying and remained there even when his Capitol wife left him, taking their infant son with her, to return to her home. He is met with cheers and screams in the streets.
Also accompanying them is Qi Na, Qi Yingâs aunt and a fellow previous Victor. She won her own games two years after Lu Xiangqian, and although not quite as beloved a figure as he is, she too is welcomed in the Capitol. In spite of the quiet life she has enjoyed since her own games in the Victorâs Village of District 4, she takes it upon herself to mentor both Lu Xia and Qi Ying, determined that one of these small children will make it out alive. Still, her heart breaks every time she looks at them, realizing she will at some point likely have to make the choice between saving her niece and saving her former mentor and friendâs son.
Lu Xiangqian cannot bring himself to mentor his own son, and he knows that Lu Xia would resist all attempts for him to do so. Instead he spends time talking with the others at the training centre, giving tips when he knows Lu Xia is listening in. In particular, he finds himself bonding with a plucky young boy from District 8, Qiao Chen, who somewhat reminds him of himself.
Despite Qi Naâs advice for them to make allies, Lu Xia keeps to himself, and Qi Ying sticks close to his side. He makes no effort to befriend her, but he does not send her away either.
During training, they meet some of the other tributes.
Mu Siyang is the Career tribute from District 2, although he is not the standard Career as Lu Xia thinks of them. Siyang trained along with several other boys from his year, and managed to best them all. At 17, despite being a year younger than is usual for volunteers, the mentors from District 2 believed him to be far more capable than any of their 18 year old trainees, and so prompted him to step forward. Siyang, who had long since accepted that he would one day be reaped, merely did as he had been asked, with little complaint. He is tall and strong and by far the favorite to win, even favored by the Head Game-maker's own son, Ji Jingwu. His one weakness, which he hides from the tributes, is an old arm injury that occasionally acts up. Like Lu Xia, he largely keeps to himself, although he seems willing to train with others when they approach him.
Another unusual choice for a Career- and also a favorite for victory- is 17 year old Zhuo Zhi, from District 1. Similar to Siyang, he was supposed to volunteer in the following year, at 18. However, at the Reaping, it was his younger brother's name that they called, and the 18 year old who was supposed to volunteer- Guan Yue- remained silent, knowing that Zhuo Zhi would take his place. Lu Xia immediately marks him, aside from Siyang, as the toughest competition. Zhuo Zhi is careful not to practice his skills in front of the others, and there are rumours- supported by his high scores from the Game-makers- that he has no weaknesses. He seems to spend time with Siyang the most, seeking out his company and joking in an interview that they were both clearly fated to be in the games together this year rather than the following year.
Yan Zhiming, an 18 year old from District 3, is seemingly omnipresent in the training arena. He watches his competitors train with a sharp gaze, gathering data on all of his opponents. He takes the time to learn all of their strengths and weaknesses. It is only when Zhang Baiyang from District 7, tired of being watched, snaps at him to actually pick up some skills while he can or his data isn't going to be of any use in the arena, that he realizes he needs to learn to put his information to use.
Although not a Career, and despite only being 16, Zhang Baiyang is another favorite to win, strong and steely and determined. The only problem is he does not do so well with interviews, acting sullen and withdrawn in a way that comes across as sulky rather than arrogant. He puts maximum effort into training, although he himself does not seem confident in his ability to win. When Yan Zhiming approaches him with the offer of an alliance, he is reluctant to accept, but ultimately agrees after a seeming change of heart. Neither of them know how long it will last.
Qiao Chen, also aged 16, is from District 8 and is considered more of a dark horse in the competition. While he does not have the strength of the Careers or Baiyang, he is agile and has high endurance. His cheery attitude also endears him, both to the viewers and other contestants. Although not Baiyang, who gets fed up with Qaio Chen following him and trying to copy his strength exercises. At the prompting of Lu Xiangqian, he attempts to ally himself with both Lu Xia and Qi Ying, trying to earn their trust. Lu Xia remains suspicious that this is either just a ploy or that his father is orchestrating it solely for his benefit.
He Xinglong, 18, is from District 11 and is considered another dark horse. In interviews he is mild-mannered and friendly, but when talk turns to family, his face turns hard and he announces that he promised his father he would come home, and that he intends to keep that promise. He is up there in terms of raw strength, although in the training sessions he spends more time working with the paints and learning to camouflage and hide himself. Asides from Qiao Chen, he is the only one Lu Xia may consider as a potential ally.
While not a favorite to win by any means, it is not considered outside the realm of possibilities for Chi Dayong, an 18 year old from District 5, to emerge victorious. He is an all-rounder, strong and intelligent, although he is somewhat slow and tends to trust others perhaps too quickly. To the surprise of many, Siyang seems to befriend him, becoming the only person other than Zhuo Zhi (and occasionally Yan and Lu Xia) that Siyang speaks with. He seems to be aware of the fact that he will not win, and is simply striving to stay alive for as long as possible.
Despite the rumours and the fact that the girl from his home of District 6 is, Tang Jiale, also aged 18, is not a morphling addict. His twitchiness comes from nerves only, as like Dayong he knows he is unlikely to live. While he is nimble and quick, he is not necessarily strong and he lacks stamina. He becomes close to Dayong over the course of their training, and by the time the two head into the arena they have a strong pact: If they're going out, they're going out together, at least.
Huang Jing and Ma Xiuwen are from District 9 and District 10 respectively, and deep down they both know they will not last long. Still, both boys are just shy of 15, and are in denial about their odds, doing their best in training to gain skills and strength in spite of the fact that their mentors have already abandoned them as lost causes. Together they copy the moves that Siyang does, trying to emulate him, and even Lu Xiangqian and Qi Na offer them advice. Huang Jing reassures Xiuwen that their training will pay off, that the two of them will make it right to the end, but he knows his words are empty.
The first time that anybody pays attention to Qi Ying is during the interview stage. She departs from her script and speaks of the atrocities, both awaiting them and in their home districts. Her speech is heart-rending poignant and heavily edited by the time it reaches the Capitol.
Lu Xia does not say much in his interviews, only stating that he is here to beat his father's records, although he does, to the surprise of many, defend Qi Ying.
Jiale and Dayong drum up some popularity in the interviews, with their clear affection for each other being viewed as an inspirational friendship by many. They both secretly wonder how much of it is built on the need to survive.
Another popular duo, for a different reason, are Baiyang and Qiao Chen. Their squabbling during training comes to a head during the interviews, and members of the Capitol gossip about the potential for a passionate showdown between the two once they enter the arena.
Siyang's interview only gains him more respect: He is introspective, intelligent, and calm, speaking about the event that is about to unfold with sorrow but also a resignation that is mature beyond his years.
Zhuo Zhi plays up the mysterious angle, bantering with the host (and Jiale, in an unexpected friendship that some of the audience love) and smirking throughout. The only time he cracks slightly is when his brother, who he volunteered for, is mentioned: That is when his determination to get home is truly revealed.
Lu Xia is slowly starting to realize that winning the Hunger Games may be harder than he initially thought.
#chinapuri#chinapuri 2019#prince of tennis 2019#fen dou ba shao nian#Hunger Games AU#I'm not sure why I wrote this#But it entered my head and would not leave#Lu Xia#Qi Ying#Lu Xiangqian#Qi Na#Mu Siyang#Zhuo Zhi#Yan Zhiming#Zhang Baiyang#Qiao Chen#Tan Jiale#Chi Dayong#He Xinglong#Huang Jing#Ma Xiuwen
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The Lies We Tell Ourselves, Chapter 4
Fandom: Zoeyâs Extraordinary Playlist
Title: The Lies We Tell Ourselves
Rating: PG (Iâm assuming itâll stay there?)
Pairing: Zoey/Max
Synopsis: Max would do anything for Zoey. Including posing as her fake boyfriend to give her father one last âbig momentâ to celebrate with her. Nothing could possibly go wrong. After all, itâs only his heart that stands to be broken. Right?
Chapter: 4/?
Authorâs Notes: Takes place after Zoeyâs Extraordinary Glitch.
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
âSo, you want to go on a date tonight?â Max asked, wheeling his chair around the edge of her desk, his tablet balanced on his lap. He saw her shoot a quick glance towards Joanâs office and resisted the urge to follow her gaze. Joan had taken the news of their ârelationshipâ in stride â though, given her current romantic situation, she couldnât exactly do otherwise. However, she had exercised enough oversight to order that Max report directly to her for the foreseeable future, heading off any accusations of preferential treatment. Still, if they were going to sell the fiction of their relationship, Zoey and Max had agreed they needed to act like a couple, even at work. And that meant being seen going on dates.
And â if Max was very lucky â maybe even flirting in the hallways. But he was getting ahead of himself.
âAh, sure,â she agreed. âThatâd be great.â When she offered him a small smile, he returned the gesture and wheeled back around to his desk. Their first official fake-date. He couldnât wait.
As it turned out, however, fate had other plans. With Tobin and Leif tackled the next phase for Chirp, it was up to Zoey and Max to troubleshoot the newest problem with the SPRQ Watch. A little after four, Joan called them into her office to notify them that the watch had developed its newest glitch: it was swapping heartrate and step counter data, leading to wildly inaccurate (and somewhat alarming) readouts for both. When she declared they werenât to go home until it was fixed, Max inwardly groaned. So much for their date. Their fake-date, he corrected himself quickly.
But later that night, hunched over his computer with only Zoey for company, he decided the situation could have been worse. At least he got to be with her.
âYou know, you donât have to stay,â she called out to him, leaning back in her chair to stretch.
Max was a little taken aback by her offer, and he replied, âItâs all right. Iâm happy to help.â
She threw him a slight grimace. âMax, please. Itâs silly to ruin your whole night. I can take care of this; I think Iâm pretty close to identifying the problem. It seems silly for us both to stick around.â
Although he wanted to argue, he changed his mind when he got an idea. âIf youâre sure?â he asked, standing and reaching for his jacket.
Zoey looked a little surprised. âOf course Iâm sure! Go on! Iâll see you tomorrow!â
But she wouldnât have to wait that long. When he returned to the office twenty minutes later, she was sitting quietly at her desk, staring morosely at lines of code. âMax? What are you doing here? I thought you went home.â
He held up one of the two bags he was holding, and he saw the exact minute the smell of the food it carried made its way to her desk because her eyes went wide and she straightened in her chair. âYou really thought Iâd abandon you here by yourself? I thought you knew me better than that,â he chided her gently. âI went for a food run. I figured if we couldnât go out for our date â our fake-date â then Iâd bring our fake-date back here to us.â
âThatâsâŠvery thoughtful of you,â she remarked, though she hesitated and threw one last look at her computer screen.
He knew what she was thinking. âGive me five minutes while I set up in the conference room, but then you really need to take a break to eat. The glitch will still be there after dinner, but you wonât be if you pass out from hunger. Plus, brains work better with food.â
âI had food!â she protested, her voice following him to the conference room. âI got some chips from the vending machine earlier!â
âCheetos are not food,â he called back over his shoulder, sliding the door shut behind him with his foot. Glancing at her desk one more time to make sure she hadnât followed, he hurried to set the scene.
It took Zoey more like six minutes to find a stopping point in the code she was reviewing and make her way to the conference room, and when she did, he smiled at her gasp of surprise. âWhat is all this?â she asked.
He held her chair for her as she lowered herself slowly into her seat, looking at the meal heâd spread out before her. âDeli sandwiches from that place you like down the street. They were out of all the good sides, so Iâm afraid I was stuck with kale chips.â He paused, considering, before acknowledging, âWhich Iâm not entirely sure are an actual food. But if we get desperate, Iâm sure the vending machine still has some Doritos I can scavenge. I figured you were probably sick of coffee by now, so I got you a cup of hot tea with a little honey instead.â Just the way she liked it.
She nodded absently, as though she was still trying to take it all in. When he saw her finger the edge of the Happy Birthday tablecloth in amazement as he joined on the other side of the table, he threw her a wry look. âOkay, so the convenience store a couple blocks away was pretty low on options. But a first date requires a certain amount of panache. Even a fake one. And this was the best I could do under the circumstances.â
âItâsâŠamazing. No, really. Itâs perfect,â she rushed to reassure him. âBut are those really a good idea?â she asked, nodding at the cluster of birthday candles heâd stuck into two cupcakes â makeshift candelabra â in the middle of the table. Darting a cautious look towards the ceiling, she looked around for a sprinkler system.
âOh, right,â he agreed quickly. Heâd been so swept away by the idea for this impromptu date, that thought hadnât occurred to him. âMaybe we should blow those out. Getting soaked would probably put a damper on the ambiance.â
Zoey picked up one of the muffins and handed him the other. Before blowing it out, however, she suggested, âWhat do you think? Should we make a wish?â
One corner of his mouth quirked upward. He already had everything he wanted. WellâŠalmost. âWhy not? I guess it is tradition.â He watched as she closed her eyes, pondering her own wish. In the faint light of the candles as they cast a soft glow around her face, Max thought she had never been more beautiful. Then she pursed her lips and exhaled quickly, extinguishing the flame.
When she opened her eyes again and saw his candles were still lit, she threw him a puzzled frown. âYou didnât make a wish?â
âI was waiting for you to go first,â he answered. It wasnât a lie, but it also wasnât entirely the truth. Heâd been too captivated by her to even remember he was holding candles of his own. âI didnât want to take the chance that weâd confuse any potential wish-granting fairy if we both went at the same time.â
She pressed her lips together, trying not to reward his bad joke with a smile, and he closed his eyes. He didnât have to ponder his wish. It was the only thing in the world that he really wanted. I wish⊠a voice in his mind whispered softly as he prepared to blow out the candles. I wishâŠ
As they cleaned up after their meal, Zoey remarked, âThereâs something I should probably tell you. I actuallyâŠwell, I was afraid this would be weird. Going on a date with you. A fake date. Going on a fake date with you.â
He threw her a bland look. âOur first romantic fake-date is basically an impromptu birthday party that is somehow set nowhere close to either of our birthdays. Thatâs not weird?â
He answering bubble of laughter washed over him, sending shivers down his spine. âOkay, weirder,â she acknowledged. âThis is actuallyâŠvery sweet. I just thought, you knowâŠweâve been friends for a long time. I figured it would be awkward to transition that into a romantic relationship. Even a fake one. Didnât you?â
Picking up a stray kale chip â which he was still convinced wasnât real food â he popped it in his mouth as he shrugged. âNot really. I always figured the best relationships start with friendship. If the person you love is also your favorite person in the world, why would it be weird?â Not wanting to spoil the mood by reminding Zoey of the lingering shadow of his own feelings, he focused his attention on his empty chip bag, crumpling it into a tiny ball as he and joked, âI always thought it would be like hanging out with your best friend, only, you know, with more kissing.â
âAre we going to be doing that?â she asked softly, her words freezing him in his place. His arm had been lifted to toss his garbage towards the trash can, but he lowered it slowly to the table as he considered her question. âKissing, I mean,â she clarified, though it was hardly necessary.
Max sighed, pulling his attention away from the mess as he met her eyes across the table. âHonestly? I donât know.â
âI wouldnât bring it up if it werenât important,â she reassured him, skirting the edge of the table to stand by his died. âBut when we were at dinner with David and Emily the other night, she started asking me questions when we were in the kitchen cleaning up.â
âQuestions? What kind of questions?â he asked, surprised that she hadnât mentioned it before.
She waved her hand in the air in a vague gesture. âOh, I donât know. JustâŠquestions.â When he just stared at her, she huffed and admitted, âAll right, so it kinda felt like a cross-examination, but sheâs an attorney. You know how they are. I guess she thought we were acting a little weird.â
He frowned. âWeird how? You think she suspected the truth?â
Zoey looked down, her hands fiddling idly with a discarded napkin. âI donât know. Maybe not that so much asâŠumâŠwell, that our relationship may not beâŠgoingâŠwell. I tried to explain that we just hadnât been dating for very long so we were still in the awkward phase of our relationship, but I donât know how long sheâll buy that.â
With a heavy sigh, Max ran a hand through his hair, trying to gather his thoughts. âWow. Why didnât you tell me about this?â
She shrugged. âI donât know. I wasnât sure how to bring it up, I guess. And, anyway, I thought it probably wouldnât matter because we would, um, get used toâŠeverything before we saw them again. Iâm not trying to push you or anything, if you donât want to kiss me ââ
âThatâs not the problem,â he interjected, shaking his head. âThe problem is that I do want to kiss you. And that makes thisâŠcomplicated.â
âBut does it have to be?â she asked in a small, pleading voice. âWe donât have to overcomplicate this. We can just think about it likeâŠlike shaking hands. But with our mouths.â She gestured vaguely at her lips, which didn't help his ongoing battle to not stare longingly at them, imagining what they would feel like to kiss.
âSo, basically, itâs nothing like shaking hands,â he pointed out in a dry tone.
Her tone was apologetic as she explained, âLike I said, I wouldnât ask if it wasnât important.â
She had a point, and he knew it. But that didnât make this any easier. âIâŠIâm trying, Zoey. Can you give me just a little more time?â
She nodded. âYeah. Of course.â The silence that fell between them was uncomfortable, filled with all the things they werenât ready to address between them. Finally, she took a step back and said, âAnyway, I should probably get back to work.â
He nodded, gesturing at the table. âGo ahead. Iâll come help you when Iâm done cleaning up.â He leaned over to collect the rest of the trash, but when she disappeared around the corner, he straightened with a sigh.
He should have realized Emily wasnât going to be easily fooled. She was a very sweet person, when you got to know her, but she wasnât the most trusting soul on the planet. She was also very protective of the people she cared about. If anyone was going to greet their story with skepticism, it would be her.
Max grimaced as he tossed out the rest of their trash. He knew he needed to get past this. He just didnât know how. How could he kiss her and not want it to be real?
Because it was for Mitch. Because the whole reason they were in a pretend relationship was to make him happy in his final days. If he wasnât going to commit wholeheartedly to their charade, what was the point? It had been unfair of him to offer to be Zoeyâs pretend boyfriend if he wasnât willing to follow through.
Or was that just an excuse? He ignored the question.
âZoey, wait!â Max called out, following her out into the main office area.
âYes?â she asked, turning around. She was standing by the hanging wicker chairs, where sheâd sung her heart song to him not long before, but he tried not to think about that.
He stopped a couple of feet away from her, feeling inexplicably awkward and unsure. âYouâre right. Thereâs no point in doing any of this if Iâm not willing to do what it takes to sell it.â
She hesitated. âAre you sure? I really donât want to make you do something you donât want to do.â
Max bridged the distance between them. âIâm sure. If itâll make Mitch happy, itâs worth it, right?â She nodded slowly. âBut I thinkâŠitâll probably be a little weird. Our first kiss, I mean. Maybe we should â ah â get it out of the way now. So that we seem more comfortable with each other when weâre in front of your family.â
Zoey blinked in surprise and took a half step back? âReally? I donât know if thatâs necessary ââ she protested weakly.
âYou think we should have our first kiss in front of Emily? Thatâs like putting chum in the water. Thereâs no way she wouldnât pick up on it!â
After a momentâs hesitation, she nodded. âI see your point. Okay. If youâre â if youâre sure.â
Moving slowly, as if a sudden movement would scare her away, he reached up and cupped her face in his hands. âClose your eyes,â he whispered.
She did as he asked, then opened one eye and gave him a mildly suspicious look. âWhy?â
Max grinned. Did she think he was going to prank her or something? âBecause the first fake-kiss in a fake-relationship is very serious business. If youâre staring at me, Iâll get nervous and blow it, and then youâll think I have terrible fake-kissing skills and fake-breakup with me,â he teased.
Biting back a smile, she closed her eyes again. Taking a moment to steady his breathing, he brushed his thumbs lightly across the high ridge of her cheekbones, down the soft skin of her cheeks, and along the curve of her jaw. He could do this. None of it was real. He just needed to remember that.
Leaning down, he hesitated when his mouth was inches from hers. The feel of her breath against his lips made him shudder with longing. Itâs fake. None of this is real. It doesnât mean anything. Itâs all fake.
âMax?â she breathed, her voice soft and uncertain.
Before he could second-guess himself, he closed the distance between their mouths. Itâs not real. He felt her lips part on a tiny gasp and moaned, one hand sweeping down her waist to her side as the other caressed the nape of her neck, toying with the soft curl of hair that wrapped around his fingers. Itâs not real.
Her hands hovered above his chest, but when he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her in, she fisted her hands in his shirt and clung to him. He felt her murmur something against his mouth and hesitated, but her hands swept up his chest to his shoulders. Itâs not real, he reminded himself. Then she wrapped her arms around his neck, sweeping her tongue against his lower lip in a silent invitation.
It was enough to shatter his self-control. Crushing her against him, Max lifted her off her feet as his lips parted and he poured all of the love heâd struggled to hide from her for years into his kiss. ZoeyâŠoh, god. Zoey. He sucked her lower lip into his mouth, scraping it softly with his teeth. He couldnât count the number of nights heâd spent thinking about her, fantasizing about her kiss. But even in his dreams had never captured the softness of her lips, the warmth of her breath.
She tasted like honey.
Zoey made a soft sound as he turned with her in his arms, and he smiled against her mouth. âGod, Zoey, I ââ he began. I love you. He caught himself before he could say the words that would reveal him. The words she didnât want to hear. The reminder was like a splash of cold water, pulling Max out of his romantic haze.
Itâs wasnât real, he reminded himself.
But it felt real.
Embarrassed that heâd allowed himself to get carried away â and ashamed that heâd allowed himself to forget it was all an act, if only for a moment â he rushed to put her back on her feet and step away. His body nearly betrayed him, his hands reaching to hold her again, and so he shoved them into his back pockets and retreated another step.
Should he apologize? She had lifted her hand to her mouth, her fingers pressing against her lips as she stared at him with wide eyes. Unable to meet her eyes, he looked down, absently smoothing the wrinkles in his shirt caused by her hands. As he often did when he wasnât sure what to say, he resorted to humor. âSo, uh, that should do the trick, donât you think? I canât imagine even Emily would be suspicious after that.â
âNo, I donât think so,â she agreed softly.
He ran a hand through his hair, which he realized only belatedly had been mussed by her hands. âI should â should we get back to work, or -?â
âNo! Thatâs okay!â she blurted, confirming his worst fears. He had crossed the line â if not with his actions, than with the way they betrayed his emotions, reminding her of feelings she didnât want to face. âIâm almost done here, anyway. You can head out.â
His stomach sank. While he normally would have insisted he remain to help, he needed some distance from her. Not to mention time to get his head on straight. âOkay. Yeah. Right,â he mumbled. His hands still ached to hold her, and he didnât trust himself not to give in to the urge, so he shoved them into his pockets as he turned to go.
It wasnât real. It wasnât.
At leastâŠit hadnât been for her. The problem was, it had been for him. So what was he going to do now?
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Wednesday, February 24, 2021
First Arctic Navigation in February (Bloomberg) A tanker sailed through Arctic sea ice in February for the first time, the latest sign of how quickly the pace of climate change is accelerating in the Earthâs northernmost regions. The Christophe de Margerie was accompanied by the nuclear-powered 50 Let Pobedy icebreaker as it sailed back to Russia this month after carrying liquified natural gas to China through the Northern Sea Route in January. Both trips broke navigation records. The experimental voyage happened after a year of extraordinarily warm conditions in the Arctic that have sent shockwaves across the world, from the snowstorm that blanketed Spain in January to the blast of cold air that swept through Canada in mid-February, moving deep into the South as far as Texas. The Arctic is warming more than twice as quickly as the rest of the world and the area covered by ice there has reached historic lows multiple times over the past 12 months. The melting in the region is already in line with the worst-case climate scenarios outlined by scientists.
Biden mourns 500,000 dead, balancing nationâs grief and hope (AP) With sunset remarks and a national moment of silence, President Joe Biden on Monday confronted head-on the countryâs once-unimaginable lossâhalf a million Americans in the COVID-19 pandemicâas he tried to strike a balance between mourning and hope. âWe often hear people described as ordinary Americans. Thereâs no such thing,â he said Monday evening. âThereâs nothing ordinary about them. The people we lost were extraordinary.â The president, who lost his first wife and baby daughter in a car collision and later an adult son to brain cancer, leavened the grief with a message of hope. âThis nation will smile again. This nation will know sunny days again. This nation will know joy again. And as we do, weâll remember each person weâve lost, the lives they lived, the loved ones they left behind.â He said, âWe have to resist becoming numb to the sorrow. We have to resist viewing each life as a statistic or a blur or, on the news. We must do so to honor the dead. But, equally important, to care for the living.â
Texans Needed Food and Comfort After a Brutal Storm. As Usual, They Found It at H-E-B. (NYT) The past week had been a nightmare. A winter storm, one of the worst to hit Texas in a generation, robbed Lanita Generous of power, heat and water in her home. The food she had stored in her refrigerator and freezer had spoiled. She was down to her final five bottles of water. But on Sunday, as the sun shined and ice thawed in Austin, Ms. Generous did the same thing as many Texans in urgent need of food, water and a sense of normalcy: She went to H-E-B. âTheyâve been great,â she said, adding with just a touch of hyperbole: âIf it hadnât been for the bread and peanut butter, I would have died in my apartment.â H-E-B is a grocery store chain. But it is also more than that. People buy T-shirts that say âH-E-B for President,â and they post videos to TikTok declaring their love, like the woman clutching a small bouquet of flowers handed to her by an employee: âI wish I had a boyfriend like H-E-B. Always there. Gives me flowers. Feeds me.â For many Texans, H-E-B reflected the ways the stateâs maverick spirit can flourish: reliable for routine visits but particularly in a time of disaster, and a belief that the family-owned chainâwith a vast majority of its more than 340 locations inside state linesâhas made a conscious choice to stay rooted to the idea of being a good neighbor. âItâs like H-E-B is the moral center of Texas,â said Stephen Harrigan, a novelist and journalist who lives in Austin. âThere seems to be in our state a lack of real leadership, a lack of real efficiency, on the political level. But on the business level, when it comes to a grocery store, all of those things are in place.â
Hunger in Central America skyrockets, U.N. agency says (Reuters) The number of people going hungry in El Salvador, Guatemala, Honduras and Nicaragua has nearly quadrupled in the last two years, the United Nations said on Tuesday, as Central America has been battered by an economic crisis. New data released by the UNâs World Food Program (WFP) showed nearly 8 million people across the four countries are experiencing hunger this year, up from 2.2 million in 2018. âThe COVID-19-induced economic crisis had already put food on the market shelves out of reach for the most vulnerable people when the twin hurricanes Eta and Iota battered them further,â Miguel Barreto, WFP Regional Director for Latin America and the Caribbean, said in a statement.
Prison riots in Ecuador leave 62 dead (AP) Sixty-two inmates have died in riots at prisons in three cities in Ecuador as a result of fights between rival gangs and an escape attempt, authorities said Tuesday. Prisons Director Edmundo Moncayo said in a news conference that 800 police offices have been helping to regain control of the facilities. Hundreds of officers from tactical units had been deployed since the clashes broke out late Monday. Moncayo said that two groups were trying to gain âcriminal leadership within the detention centersâ and that the clashes were precipitated by a search for weapons carried out Monday by police officers.
Mount Etna eruption lights up Sicily's night sky (BBC) Mount Etna is erupting again, and its hot lava fountains are illuminating the Sicilian sky. The eruption began earlier this week, and Etna has since been spewing massive orange plumes of smoke and thick clouds of ash. Etna is Europe's most active volcano, and it erupts relatively often. The last major eruption was in 1992. Its eruptions have rarely caused damage or injury in recent decades - and officials believe this eruption is no exception. Stefano Branco, the head of the National Institute for Geophysics and Volcanology (INGV) in the nearby city of Catania, told Italian news agency AGI earlier this week: "We've seen worse."
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For the vampire! AU, where the boys are the vampires, I can imagine Ona getting shot/injured while on a separate case, and the boys have to put aside their urges and bloodlust to get her to a doctor and tend to her. Which is EXTREMELY difficult because their senses are directly attuned to the presence of blood, hers specifically - Simon-Data Anon
Simon-Data anon, let me give you a box of chocolate boxes (if you dig that) as a thank you because my askbox has been BLESSED.
(I gotta reply you all but Iâm trying! ;_; Lotâs of stuff and I wanna take my time to reply them well, you folks deserve it)
But please have this! :D I wrote it mostly half-asleep so there are probably mistakes and such. Sorry :_)
It was a stupidly simple case. Or at least, it should have been.Â
Ona should have seen the clues, the signals; that is her goddamn job. But instead, she led herself into the wolveâs den without backup.Â
The leads got her in a small and peaceful town, next to a deep forest that went on forever. There she searched for more clues, checked the ones she already had to make sure they were correct. She thought the trail went cold when suddenly one of the evidences they had lead her to the tiny house near the lake. Ona left a text message to Hank, telling him she found something and that she would discuss it with him in the morning over a nice and good cup of coffee from the cute café near the DPD.
But now she was bleeding on a dirty old wooden floor from a gunshot.
It turned out drug dealers were involved, and they did not want the police to snoop in. They made it clear when they just went for her head the moment she stepped into the seemingly empty and abandoned lake house, prompting a close combat fight with toppled furniture and smashed walls. She had the upper hand, but their fight ended with a second person appearing with a gun and directly shooting her.
Ona heard the one she was fighting against curse something, probably a âfucking stubborn bitchâ, before they left her to bleed on the floor and taking her discarded gun with them. She saw him limping and for a moment she felt a surge of pride and satisfaction. But it wasnât long lived.
The pain was unbearable. Her whole body hurt, the man went to hit her with all his strength and no matter how much training she did, it still hurt and bruised like hell. But the gunshot was as if molten iron was being poured into her like a never-ending stream of pain. Ona tried to crawl out of the house and to her car, to call for help, look for anything usable or her phone that went flying God knows where, but the truth was that she was going to die out of a bleeding gunshot because she was a fucking stupid, reckless idioâ
A sob threatened to escape. She felt pathetic.Â
The drowsiness from blood loss was racking through her whole body. Ona wanted to close her eyes, wishing to wake up from this nightmare. The adrenaline from before was almost gone, and she didnât have enough strength to crawl over her phone; it got knocked out under a crate, getting stuck on its edge. She didnât know if to feel relieved that her attackers didnât see it, because she didnât have enough strength left to get it. So close yet so far.Â
Breathing was harder now, the pain not letting her gather her wits for a very tiny and fleeting moment. But Ona had to get to the phone, call for help, call for an ambulance, for Hank, forâ
Her vision was getting blurry, and she didnât know if it was because of the tears or because she was succumbing to unconsciousness before finally dying. Fuck.
When did she close her eyes?Â
No no no, not now, she couldnât close them. She couldnât, not now, she had to get back. SheâŠ
Voices. There were voices. Did her murderers come back? Just to make sure and finish the job in case she did survive?
Cold and gentle hands turned her around, carefully holding her and peeling her clothes to reveal the gunshot wound. An inhuman growl tore out of the strangerâs throat, a faint glint to where the eyes were supposed to be, although the shadow was⊠familiar. Ona tried to say something, but her mouth barely moved when she called out for help. Her fingers twitched in an effort to lift her arm, but she was so, so tired. The arms that were holding her gently tightened their hold, pulling her body close to the strangerâs in a hug. Ona was confused by the weird show of affection from someone she didnât know or recognise, but as she was held by the stranger, she could see perfectly combed hair and a few rebellious strands falling on their forehead. And also honey eyes that shouldnât be shining bright as they were doing right now. Ona swore she saw that hair and alabaster skin before⊠maybe in a dream. It couldnât be, could it? Blood loss was making her delirious?
The sweet scent of her pierced through the brotherâs acute sense of smell. It was fresh, sweet and determined as the day they met her for the first timeâ a tiny cut making them want to go feralâ but they also could smell fear and desperation. They did not like that smell on her. Unknown to their precious human detective, they kept tabs on her just to make sure no other vampire or creature decided to play a quite deadly game, but this time it were humans who decided to hurt her.
The brothers thought they could resist it, but her blood flowing steadily out of the wound was making Connor lose himself piece by piece. It was calling him. Only a taste, a brief kiss on her skin, his tongue lapping up the outside and careful to not touch the wound... But deep down if he had a taste, he knew what would follow. Her blood made them both him and Richard retreat to their baser instincts, to hunt down their prey and have themselves a feast. It smelt like nothing else before, so full of life, so rich...
Connorâs mouth started to water and he had to swallow the spit threatening to spill alongside the guilt of wanting to claim this human as his, when the human didnât even know of their existence. Yet.
âWhat do you think you are doing, brother?â
Connor caught himself before he licked his finger clean of her blood. His fangs were bared, his breathing harsher, and he even was tempted to snarl at the intruder. He didnât realise he was about to do so until Richardâs glint in his eyes defied him. One look at his brother and Connor knew he was barely restraining himself, but he was holding onto his precious will of iron better than Connor himself. Such was the power of their darling detectiveâs blood on them.
âShe doesnât have much time.â Connor willed himself to stop looking at her soaked shirt, and carefully laid her down again to take off his coat and put it on her. He picked her up again in his arms and stood up.
âIâve located the ones who did this to her.â Richard took off one of his leather gloves as Connor approached him at the front door. He let his thumb brush against her unharmed cheek, carefully avoiding the blood. âI hope youâre hungry.â
âIâm famishedâ.
âGood.â
Needless to say that they were faster than an average human, and probably a car, so it came in handy to run through the forest until they reached their own car. The nearest hospital was, thank God, close, and they made it in time to get her into the ER. They let the doctors and nurses do their job, watching her disappear further into the hospital. Connor clutched his blood-soaked coat, his hand squeezing the fabric harshly.
When the nurse turned around to ask them for details and where they could go clean themselves a bit, they were already gone. Connor and Richard hated the smell of hospitals anyways, the reek of death and disease was too much. But also the scent of her blood was too distracting. She was safe in their hands. Their detective was a strong-willed human, and she would survive.
But the fate of those who harmed was going to be quite different.
It was easy to locate their detectiveâs room after dealing with her attackers. They sated the bloodlust and hunger her blood made them feel, and let themselves be extra vicious for having attempted to end her life then and there. They left behind them a true carnage that looked like a wild animal had its fun. But now they were high on adrenaline themselves, sated and the rich flavour of life running through their veins. It was a pity they tasted horrible.Â
Connor was wiping the corner of his mouth with a handkerchief Richard gave him as they were about to turn around the corner that lead them to her roomâs corridor. The brothers saw police outside her door and they both grunted, displeased. The brothers would have to get inside in another way; Richard wasnât feeling like manipulating that humanâs mind.Â
Thankfully the window opened easily enough. They stepped inside with all the grace one could do so (Richard was always better at sports), dusting off briefly their clothes. She was sleeping and the beeping machine at her side told them she was stable and alive. Connor smiled, pleased by her strength and will to live. She would do a perfect mate if sheâ
She let out a sigh, frowning slightly as Ona briefly moved her head to the other side, unconsciously baring her neck to the brothers. Twin sharp intakes of air could be heard, eyes zeroed on her pulse point. The brothers could still smell her blood, although not fresh like when they found her, and their ears caught the sound of her steady heart beat. The thrumming of her pulse was deafening, its call worse than a sirenâs luring out an unfortunate sailor. They both knew they just fed themselves, copiously, but it was right there, pulsing inside her veins, begging to be tasted for the first timeâŠ
The scrunching of her eyes and twitching nose signaled that she was waking up. Connor and Richard unconsciously walked closer to her bed, their figures looming over her resting body, as they took in every tiny movement. Slowly, the human detective opened her eyes, the drugs pumped up into her body making it very difficult for her to focus, but she saw two familiar shadows over her. She sighed tiredly, and closed her eyes again.
âIâm dreaming again, arenât I?â her voice was just shy of a barely audible whisper, even more difficult to understand by the way she was drawling every word. âOf handsome strangers.â
âYou think of us handsome?â Connor was amused. This wasnât the way he thought the first real conversation between them would start.
âIâm sure you are. You must be. You are in my dreams.â Ona frowned. âThis sounded like that Disney movie.â
Both brothers chuckled, leaning over her and resting their arms on her sides, mindful of not squashing any tubes or her bruised body.
âThen, are we your charming princes?â Richard caressed her cheek with his finger, softly.
âYou havenât even presented yourselves properly. Not very prince-ish of you.â Ona managed to open her eyes again, turning her head in the direction of the caresses. She was greeted with the clear sight of one of the strangersâ faces. Finally. âOh fuck me, you are handsome.â
Connor took her hand, free of tubes and needles, as he openly laughed. He gently kissed her knuckles, letting the softness of her skin brush against his cold lips.
âIf that is your wishâŠâ
âIâm not in the perfect state for that, you rascal.â Ona managed a weak chuckle. âI just got shot and my ass kicked.â her gaze was met with smiling brown eyes.
She was used to the nights where the twin shadows would visit in her dreams. They were oddly comforting, if not weird at first, and always seemed to have her in the highest form of veneration. Ona would wake up feeling guilty of dreaming of such things, thinking of herself as an egocentric and needy individual. She didnât know why she dreamed of handsome strangers, or why they did all kinds of things they promised in heated whispers against her skin. But right now? She welcomed all kind of comfort.
The finger on her cheek descended slowly, tracing her jaw first and then her neck, following her pulse.
âYou should buy me a drink first.â The finger and the thumb brushing her knuckles stopped at the same time, twin eyebrows raising. âFor. You know. If you wanna do that andâŠâ Ona took a deep breath, exhaustion clawing her to go back to sleep. âand all the things you promised me. Or just chat. I donât know. But drink first.â
âYou will have whatever you desire for, Starlight.â She felt those lips kiss her hand again, as cold fingers brushed a few strands of hair out of her face. âYou only have to ask.â
âTell me your names, then. So I can finally know the two imps haunting me in my sleep.â
âImps? We have been that bad?â Connorâs teasing smirk made her snort.
âHandsome imps, but with no manners.â
The finger on her neck resumed its ministrations, going back to her jaw and then her chin to turn her to face its owner.
âIâm Richard.â Icy eyes pinner her on the spot, unable to look away from their sheer intensity.
âAnd Iâm Connor.â As if Richard freed her from his spell, Ona turned her head the other way to gaze into deep pools of molten chocolate. She felt as if she would drown in them.
Connor went to open his mouth again to say something, but noises from outside the corridor made him stop. He clicked his tongue, displeased at being interrupted. Connor had the thought of sending the nurse away with a simple mind control trick, but he knew their darling had to rest and regain her strength.
âSadly, our time is over for today.â Richard stood up, eyes glued to the door as if he wanted to destroy whoever dared to interrupt their time with their precious detective.
âIt seems we have run out of time, yes.â Connor leaned further into her, letting go of her hands to cup her face, and his voice a soft and velvety purr. âWe will see you soon, Moonbeam.â
His lips brushed softly the corner of her mouth. It was a chaste kiss, a gentle press of lips, but it felt as if her skin was on fire. Her heart beated faster as she took a sharp breath. Not wanting to feel left out, Richard bent over, mimicking Connorâs actions. Her mouth followed his as he retreated, unconsciously wanting more.
âRest now and regain your strength, teacup. We will be watching over you.â
âNow you are guardian angels?â she had a tired smirk on her lips.
Richard chukled, but it didnât hold the same mirth as before.
âI doubt there is a place in heaven for us.â
Confused, but completely fatigued from being awake, Ona didnât comment on that. Maybe the next time they showed themselves on her dreams she would ask more about it. About them. Ona watched Connor and Richard open the window of her room, which confused her even more, and the next time she blinked they were gone with the curtain flowing on the chilly night breeze. Her eyes closed, not being able to be awake any longer.
The next time she woke up, rays of sunshine filtered through the drawn curtains and the sounds of people outside could be heard. Ona turned her head to see a vase full of beautiful and fresh flowers on her bedside table. The nurse told her later, when she was changing her bandages, two handsome men came to bring them to her, but following protocol, the hospital didnât let visitors to come unless authorised to do so. The nurse handed Ona a handwritten note attached to it with a teasing smirk and wiggling eyebrows. Surely it was a nice and juicy gossip for the nurses on that wing of the hospital.
Ona read the note written in a beautiful penmanship when she was alone, feeling as this was something intimate and reserved for when she was on her own devices.
âGet well soon, Starlight. We owe you a drink indeed.
Yours truly,Connor & Richard.â
Ona took a sharp breath, regretting it later when the gunshot wound protested.
That⊠hadnât been a dream?Â
Ona noticed there were numbers at the very end of the note. It looked like a phone number. Ona got out of her thoughts at the sound of Hank barking at the officer on the door to move the fuck out and let him see his fucking reckless detective. Ona smiled at that, knowing Hank probably drove like his life depended on it the moment he got notified one of his detectives got shot.
All his temper and angry words disappeared the moment he stepped into the room. The officer outside was smart enough to let the Lieutenant pass. When he saw her tired smile, Hank let out a relieved exhale. She was okay, everything was okay. He took a chair and sat down next to Ona. He rubbed his hand across his face, letting out a tired sigh.
âDonât ever scare me like that again, understood?â
âIâm sorry, Lieutenant.â at least she had the decency to look truly ashamed. She knew Hankâs baggage and she knew what a mess Hank must have been until he got here.
âItâs Hank to you, you cork.â
Ona laughed at Hank using one of her own curse words.
âHank.â After a moment of silence, Ona turned her head to him. âThank you.â
âDonât mention it, kid. Get well soon because we all miss you and we canât stand Reed being a snotty asshole anymore. Tina can only hold him in line for so long.â
âÂĄAhĂĄ! So he does behave when Iâm around!â Ona grinned.
âOnly because you whooped his ass that time and put him in his place. He fears you.â
âGood. He should.â Onaâs grin turned to a satisfied smirk.
Hank chuckled. He patted his jacket until he found what he was looking for. He waved the object so Ona could see. A twix fun size bar. Onaâs stomach made its presence known.
âThis is for you for when you are better AND a good girl who listens to her doctors. Donât do like the last time you got injured.â Hankâs knowing âdadâ stare made her feel like a scolded child.
âI wonât, I promise.â she was not pouting. Nope.
âYou better.â Hank knew Ona would probably launch for the chocolate candy bar the moment she was alone, but he let her have that tiny pleasure. Only when he wasnât looking.Â
But Hank had to get serious.
âNow, I know you are tired and need to lie down and heal, but I need you to tell me what happened and what did you see.â
âI know.âÂ
Ona took a deep breath and began explaining everything, what she saw, what she discovered, the leads and then the connection to drug dealers. Her attackers also got her gun, so maybe they could track it and lead to them. She even included the one or two random strangers that helped her out. Ona only had vague memories of that and couldnât remember much, just that someone found her, but she omitted the late night visit. Ona needed to look for the truth about that first. Also Hank didnât have to know about the massive amount of wet dreams she got at night. Nope. TMI!
After talking about more details and then changing the topic to random things, Hank parted with one last gift: her phone with a newly cracked phone screen. Just her luck. At least she didnât lose all the info in there and the photos, of course. That counted as a win.
Once Ona was discharged from the hospital, with a few days off and a phone call from Fowler that she was on weeks of desk duty just in case (because they all knew she would lie about being okay and would end up opening her stitches again), and well, she wasnât too happy about it, she dug her purse for the note that was delivered to her alongside with the flowers. Ona was chewing her lip, contemplating if to press the call button or chicken out and mull over it for the entire week. She decided to suck it up.Â
She pressed the call button.
Anxiety was gnawing at her insides as the dial tone rang. Maybe she did dream it? Maybe it was a untasteful joke from one of the nurses that heard her talk in her sleep? Maybe itâ
âI thought you would never call, Starlight.â Ona was greeted by the voice she heard all those nights, all those whispers and filthy promisesâ âSo, how about that drink we promised you?â
âYeah, hi! Uh⊠about that⊠how about, uh⊠uhm, tomorrow night?â Onaâs voice trembled.
âTomorrow night, Green Bee at 8?â Ona could feel the purr in what she assumed was Connorâs voice.
âTomorrow night. Okay. Perfect.â Ona closed her eyes. She was being an awkward mess but Connor didnât seem to either notice it or mind it. She was absolute garbage at this. But her questions nagged at her to get to know the truth behind all this.
âSee you soon, teacup.â That probably was Richard. It was quieter, deeper, but with a touch of fondness in it. âEnjoy your day and donât overexert yourself.â
âA-ah, yeah! You too. You both. I wonât. Thank you, hahah...â
A sultry see you tomorrow reached her ears, making her embarrassingly squeak out a reply. She could do this. She was a goddamn detective, she got into worse situations and even more dangerous too.
No amount of training or experience got her ready to see them both waiting for her in front of the new and fancy restaurant, looking as if they stepped out of one her multiple dreams. Well dressed, hair perfectly styled with those rebellious strands falling on their foreheads as always, and twin smiles that greeted her when she approached them both.
They were very much here and very much real.
She had more questions than ever.
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BnHA Chapter 229: The Real Me
Previously on BnHA: Dabi fought a dude who could control ice. For like three pages. Then we cut to my boy Twice, who had located an unconscious Toga (who as you recall had her blood blown up a couple chapters back, so yeah) and was understandably freaking out about how to get her some help. To make a long and somewhat confusing story short, you know that long-haired guy who hacked Giranâs phone? Turns out he has the power to create human puppets or some shit, and he created a bunch of Twice duplicates and sent them to capture the real Twice (who you might also recall has some traumatic history involving clones of himself). Seems they want to use Twiceâs quirk to create a backup clone of Re-Destro, just in case history repeats himself and he ends up kicking the bucket like his great-great granddad. Wouldnât that be sad. Re-Destro getting murdered. Wouldnât that just be a darn shame. Anyways so letâs see where this leads.
Today on BnHA: The Villain Flashback Arc continues with todayâs installment featuring, you guessed it, more villain flashbacks! We learn more about our little buddy Twice who was apparently orphaned as a young teen and subsequently found himself alone in a cold and uncaring world. Honestly you guys, after reading this Iâm amazed that heâs still as nice of a guy as he is. Anyway, so he used his quirk to clone himself because he was lonely, and the clones and him engaged in a petty crime spree or two, and then somehow or other it all led to the whole murderfest that fucked up his head so badly. Back in the present, a struggling Jin tries to escape and help Toga, so Skeptic orders his puppets to break Jinâs arms. They do so, but this has a curious side-effect that Skeptic may not have been expecting. Namely, that having that much damage dealt to him makes Twice realize that he definitely is not one of his clones, and is in fact the real deal. This appears to at least temporarily cure his split personality woes, and the chapter ends with him creating about a dozen duplicates to go fuck up the Liberation Armyâs day. Hell yes.
(All comments are my unspoiled reactions from my initial readthrough of the chapter. I did a quick edit for grammar and clarity immediately afterward, but aside from that there are no changes.)
hey guys, sorry Iâve been inactive all week; Iâve been sick and havenât really had much energy. I still am sick, but I appear to have reached the stage of exhaustion where Iâm all âeh, fuck it, yeah sure whateverâ where itâs ironically easy to motivate myself to do stuff because I have no willpower to resist, lol
so anyway. weâre apparently not missing a beat, picking up right where we left off last week with Twiceâs mask being pulled off by one of the gorilla puppets
wow and theyâre just like. flinging him aside
DONâT FLING MY BOY NO!! AND GET AWAY FROM TOGA
AHHHH
shit, how creepy is that? are they cold because theyâre just ~puppets~ and not actually real, living people? what a disturbing touch
now weâre cutting back to Skeptic, whoâs giving the puppets orders and addressing them as various letters of the alphabet. how can he tell them the fuck apart
meanwhile Giranâs asking what theyâre doing to his pal. ;_; Giran you continue to be the best
and Re-Destroâs forcibly directing his attention elsewhere, but heâs also answering his question, strangely enough
thatâs a lot of detail to be giving the guy when you could have just smacked him and told him to shut up. these villains are so confusing
but I guess theyâre just telling him all this to taunt him more, because now Skeptic is bragging that he learned about Jinâs psychological disorder from Giranâs client data
hey btw I donât think Iâve said this yet, but fuck this guy so hard for taking advantage of Twiceâs trauma and using it against him. what a shocker, the Meta Liberation Army of dickheads pulls another dickhead move. these guys are so classy
oh my fucking god you guys Giran is getting hotter with each fucking chapter though fffffffff
if youâd told me a month ago that this dude would be nipping at Aizawa and All Mightâs heels for the title of BnHAâs most eligible bachelor I would have called you a liar and a thief, yet here we are. good lord
that said, I appreciate that heâs thinking about how hard itâll be on poor Twice, but they also just said theyâd kill Toga as well, so I imagine that part of it would be pretty hard on her too. just saying
SDLFKSDLFHK SPEAKING OF
FUCK ME YOU GUYS I ALMOST LEAPED TO MY FUCKING FEET, WHAT THE FUCK. DONâT TELL ME THEYâRE GOING TO SNAP HER NECK. HOLY SHIT
SOMEONE BETTER SAVE HER OR IâM GOING TO FLY OUT TO JAPAN AND GIVE HORIKOSHI MY STUPID COLD. THATâLL SHOW THAT BASTARD. HAVE SOME BRONCHITIS YOU PIECE OF SHIT
AND TWICE IS WATCHING ALL PANICKED AND SCREAMING THAT HEâS GOING TO KILL HER
AT FIRST I WAS CONFUSED AND WAS LIKE, DOES HE BLAME HIMSELF FOR GETTING HER IN THIS SITUATION? BUT THEN I REMEMBERED THE CLONES AND THAT YEAH ITâS LITERALLY HIM KILLING HER THOUGH OMGGGGG
AHHH HEâS SO CONFUSED THIS IS SO CONFUSING
IâM TOO SICK TO DEAL WITH TWICEâS EXISTENTIAL CRISIS YOU GUYS, ITâS REALLY FREAKING ME OUT, HELP. THE FUCKING PANELS ARE ALL WOBBLY-LINED AND THEY KEEP ZOOMING IN ON HIS FACE AND SHOWING HIM ALL BUG-EYED SCREAMING âWHO AM Iâ OVER AND OVER AGAIN OH GOD
OH SHIT!?!?
ACTUAL TWICE FLASHBACKS OH SHIT?! I was not expecting this oh snap. I am so into this
anyway, so heâs thinking -- with surprising coherence -- that because of his rough appearance, people were always afraid of him growing up
but also, what was that part about him not having a family? so he was an orphan then?? Horikoshi you are aware that I already love Twice and am emotionally attached to him, yes? but like if you want to hit me with even more feels and fuck me up some more then be my guest I suppose?
anyway so whoever heâs talking to here says Jin, who is apparently sixteen here, evidently hit some dude with his motorcycle by accident. oh shit
and baby!Jin says the guy jumped out in front of him and he was obeying the speed limit and everything
and the man heâs talking to seems vaguely sympathetic but says that regardless, itâs usually the victim who ends up winning these cases, and that Jin may end up with a criminal record. âbut donât let it get to you.â oh, sure. yeah, letâs just look on the bright side here
he says that no matter how many times you stumble in life, you can always start over
well shit is it any wonder this kid ended up going the villain route and making a bunch of clones of himself to live his best life? I mean jeez, he had absolutely no one on his side and was slapped with a criminal record when he was only sixteen. that shit is rough
oh fuck me and it just keeps getting worse
well thatâs nice. so make that homeless with a criminal record, then. jesus christ he was still just a kid
so apparently his parents died in a villain attack when he was in middle school, and he had no relatives. I guess the state didnât give a fuck either, damn
I find it extraordinarily easy to empathize with, actually! thatâs one of the things that makes you such a great character!
so I guess he originally ended up making a clone of himself just because he was lonely. okay wow. not only does Twice continue to be the most likable villain in the series, heâs working his way up there as one of the most likable and relatably human characters, period
look at this shit! heâs just a guy who had a run of bad luck and tried his best to cope with it in whatever ways he could. thereâs nothing villainous about him, he was just someone whom nobody wanted. he had his entire future stolen out from under him in the blink of an eye and had nowhere else to turn. he just wanted some friends for fuckâs sake
and so then he and his merry band committed a bunch of petty crimes. but they just needed some cash so they could live! like, all he wanted to do was just chill out and be happy. I got your back Twice. itâs not your fault
and then the flashback just kind of cuts to him tied to the chair in the aftermath of the clone hunger games. so I guess thatâs all the backstory weâre getting as far as that goes. ngl I would have really liked to see just a bit more of the lead-up to that specific event. heâs such a nice guy that itâs a bit hard to picture him just suddenly going âRAWR IâM GONNA MURDER ALL YâALL.â but what Iâm thinking is that all of the tragedy in his past contributed to him forming his violent alter ego personality, and that one of the clones must have just snapped one day and the rest is history
anyway so now weâre cutting to his first meeting with my new boyfriend Giran
ah okay, so heâs scared because if he actually is one of the clones then just a tiny bit of damage would be enough to finally do him in
btw Giran, possibly the one good thing Re-Destro and his buds did was getting rid of that scarf and sunglasses though bud. if you decide to change up your look after all of this, Iâm not going to complain. thereâs a reason I thought you were just some douchebag this whole time. obviously I shouldnât have been so quick to judge you, I realize that now of course
but seriously Giran who wears sunglasses at night indoors. I mean, idk, maybe you get migraines or something. but if not Iâm just saying
regardless, questionable fashion choices aside, Giran is actually a super nice guy, a mensch if you will, and he is now casually changing Twiceâs entire life in the span of a few sentences. awww
how the fuck were you planning on smoking that cigarette while wearing a paper bag over your face. ??
also, Giran on this page kinda reminds me of Sanji, if Sanji was, like, a beatnik about to throw down on open mic poetry night
anyway so thatâs the end of our happy flashback, and now weâre back in the present with Twice resuming his freakout!
but in spite of his mental struggles, heâs shaking the puppet clones off and trying to dash toward Toga again omg!
up in his little tower Skeptic seems fairly surprised
in related news, fuck this guy so much. also heâs using one of his puppets as a chair, which is one of the creepiest touches Horikoshi has put in this manga to date. but also they mentioned last week that Skeptic makes the puppets out of any human-sized materials that happen to be lying around, so I kind of wonder if maybe this dude originally was a chair. the mysteries of BnHA
moving on though, yeah, Twice and Toga really do have a strong bond though, donât they? their chemistry is as beautiful as it is strange
oh shit but they really did hit him though
FUCK YOU F AND G
FFFFF SON OF A BITCH
DLASFKJLKJ PLEASE DONâT YOU FUCKING PSYCHOPATH, I CANâT WAIT FOR YOU TO FUCKING DIE YOU ASSHOLE!!!
motherfucker! and we just established that heâs afraid that a broken bone will be enough to kill him if it turns out he really is a clone!
-- holy shit, but. on the other hand, if it doesnât kill him though, that just might be enough to cure him of that particular fear once and for all. oh shit, unexpected plot twist
though in this particular situation it probably wonât make much of a difference how sane he is if heâs still got two broken arms though fuuuuuuuck
anyway... gotta click to the next page... even though I really donât want to, sob
aaaaaaaand theyâve broken them. well shit. at least it wasnât graphic. heâs just hunching forward and screaming and his arms are facing the wrong way, fuck
and now Skeptic is all âyour legs are next,â and uh, can Twice actually hear him, though?? like, what? did I miss something here? is he piping his voice in through the shedâs convenient sound system or something?
anyway heâs telling Twice not to struggle anymore, and Twice is muttering to himself all darkly about how much that hurt
and apparently Togaâs regained consciousness now!!
wow Skeptic, okay sure, go ahead and keep talking about how youâre about to kill Toga in front of his eyes. just keep on digging yourself deeper. itâs like he doesnât realize thereâs only one page left in the chapter and things are just about reaching a tipping point and our heroes (?! I mean they are, though, for this arc at any rate) have had just about enough of his bullshit
lol I canât take the tension omg
please do something badass please do something badass please d --
oh snap
Twiiiiiiice ;_; so itâs like I thought. they unexpectedly cured you of your identity crisis angst
anyway I guess this chapter is a longer one than usual because itâs page 15 now and weâre still going! so I will now resume my âplease do something badassâ chant. câmon Twice. kick some assssssss
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS
THIS TIME I REALLY DIDÂ LEAP OUT OF MY CHAIR OMG. BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
LMAO ARE ALL OF THEIR ARMS BROKEN TOO. FUCK IT, IT DOESNâT MATTER. DEKU HAS SPENT APPROXIMATELY HALF THE MANGA WITH BROKEN ARMS AND ITâS NEVER STOPPED HIM*
*forest angst aside. and anyways that all worked out in the end, so
âwounded heroes are the most dangerous.â well fuck. given that weâve just seen an exhausted and delirious Shigaraki eradicate an entire wave of people, and a bloodied and wounded Toga straight up murder one of the Armyâs leaders, I think itâs safe to say we can apply this statement to villains too. and I for one canât wait how dangerous a wounded -- but now sane -- Twice can be. motherfucker how I am loving this glorious arc
#bnha#boku no hero academia#bnha 229#bubaigawara jin#twice (bnha)#giran#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#makeste reads bnha#who's getting flashbacks next guys?#spinner?#compress?#giran?#dabi??#[canned audience laughter]#ah ha ha#yes I know#dabi will never get flashbacks who am I kidding#no one cares about his backstory#that's right horikoshi#I'm not saying this to you as a challenge or anything#...
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 Instead of having people send these in I just wanted to do all of them myself!
đ Â : Â Â how comfortable is my muse in their body? how do they feel about their height, Â weight, Â strength, Â and body type? Â how important is being attractive to them? Â
All Scanners share virtually the same physical form, and all YoRHa units use the same base endoskeleton, though the hardware differs between function. Theyâre short and small-framed to save the maximum amount of materials while still being able to effectively perform their duties. 9S has never felt self-conscious about himself physically because he looks almost identical to every other Scanner and there was never any pressure on any of them to look a certain way like there is with humans. They have no ability to change their height or weight (though non-YoRHa androids can do so for aesthetic purposes if they choose) and itâs forbidden by their uniform code to modify their bodies anyway.Â
Since coming to Koi, 9S is quite aware now that he would be very short for a human of his apparent age, but he doesnât feel bad about it or anything, other than occasionally being irritated at getting mistaken for a kid.
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 :   how does my muse feel about plastic  /  cosmetic surgeries  &  procedures?  is it something they have done or would do?  do they mind if others do it? Â
As mentioned before, itâs forbidden for YoRHa units to try and alter their bodies, even if itâs for something like a tattoo or piercing. 9S doesnât feel like he has any reason to do so right now, but that might change in the future. He doesnât care if others do it. Itâs their choice to do what they want with their bodies, as long as they understand the consequences.
đ Â : Â Â how stable is my museâs physical health? Â do they go for regular or semi-regular checkups by a physician? Â do they have any diagnosed illnesses and / or take any medication? Â how often do they get sick?
9S knows maintenance is extremely important, and he is fairly accident-prone it seems. Heâs had a limb or two blown off by machines more than once. Although heâs not a Healer unit, heâs gotten used to performing repairs on himself in the field and gets fussy if he has to sit around and wait while someone else fixes him up or checks him for viruses. As an android, heâs immune to biological pathogens, so thereâs never any reason to worry about that. Currently he is functioning just fine.
đ  :   how stable is my museâs mental health?  have they been diagnosed with any mental illnesses and  /  or conditions?  do they have any undiagnosed mental illnesses and  /  or conditions?  do they or should they attend therapy? Â
An androidâs mind doesnât work the same way as a humanâs, but itâs still very possible for their data to get scrambled or glitched due to trauma. 9S was supposedly wiped clean after every execution, but that doesnât mean nothing ever remained, and every time he rediscovered the true reason for his partnership with 2B it became more and more painful to confront.Â
9S does an excellent job at convincing himself heâs stable, but itâs quite easy to push him over the brink. His emotions are terribly repressed so one needs only to scratch the surface to draw them out. He really should talk to somebody about this but there are no therapists on the Bunker.
đ  :   how meticulously does my muse look after their physical appearance?  do they spend a lot of time on their hair,  makeup,  grooming,  and clothing?  is there a particular reason why they do or donât? Â
9S really likes to be clean! Although itâs not necessary for androids to bathe, since their bodies are naturally resistant to dirt and moisture and they donât sweat, he doesnât enjoy getting all dusty or covered in machine oil and will wash himself off the first chance he gets. He finds being dirty very distracting. Keeping oneâs dermal layer repaired is a vial part of maintenance as well, so he mends any small cuts or scuffs quickly.Â
đ Â : Â Â how much does my muse value companionship? Â do they constantly keep people around them, Â or do they prefer to be alone often? Â do they have or desire to have many friends? Â do they see every meeting as an opportunity to make a new friend? Â
Although Scanners are often solitary, 9S really enjoys being around others and will eagerly socialize with other androids. If only the resistance members wouldnât stop trying to get him to run errands for them... Heâs friendly with the other Scanners and will spend time with them if theyâre on the Bunker together, though they seem to hold him at armsâ length for reasons he understands now.Â
2B is a special case, being his bodyguard of sorts. She could even be considered his best friend, and though his feelings of fondness for her are genuine, theyâre very complicated. Heâs happy sheâs here. Heâs also thrilled to be making so many new friends on the islands and does his best to make a good first impression, especially with humans.Â
đ Â : Â Â how would my muse describe their childhood? Â how much has it impacted the person they are now, Â or will become as an adult? Â around what age did they or will they start to mature, Â and why? Â do they wish to go back to their days as a child, Â or have they embraced adulthood? Â
9S was âbornâ fully-functional and did not have a childhood of any sort. He didnât even get to shadow a senior Scanner or anything, he was thrown right to the wolves. Such as it is.
đ Â : Â Â how intelligent is my muse overall? Â are they smarter than the average person, Â or less than? Â are they primarily self-taught, Â or did they acquire most of their knowledge in school? Â are they more street smart or book smart? Â
Uncommonly clever and observant, even among his own kind, though prone to making reckless decisions when driven by his emotions or his insatiable desire for answers. 9S has access to vast informational databases he can draw from, even in his own archives, with even more stored on his Pod he could summon at any time... if his Pod was here.
đ Â : Â Â which of the four seasons suits my muse best, Â and why? Â
Winter. Everything is buried, dormant, appearing quiet and serene on the surface.
đ Â : Â Â is my muse inclined to help others, Â or will they only do it when it benefits them, Â if at all? Â what makes them this way? Â has it ever gotten them into trouble, Â or inconvenienced them?Â
9S doesnât mind helping others, though he can get irritated if given tasks he feels will distract from his mission, or that are boring or too difficult. When it comes to helping the surface androids, they more often than not involve combat with machines and him and 2B risking their lives, which he finds completely annoying, and not fun, but he still does it anyway.
đ  :   does my muse desire romance?  is it something they would actively seek out,  or prefer to happen more  â  naturally?  â  what is their love life like?  do they have any exes or past flings,  or crushes? Â
Relationships between YoRHa units are officially banned, though the rule is not enforced very strictly. 9S has a hard time comprehending the complexity of romance and prefers not to think about it, perhaps unconsciously convinced he doesnât deserve to have anybody feel that way about him.Â
đ Â : Â Â how is my muse typically seen by others? Â does it ring true to who they really are? Â does their reputation matter to them?Â
I would imagine, based on his youthful appearance and friendly, earnest demeanor, a lot of people would assume heâs a lot more naive than he really is. 9S lacks a lot of knowledge about how modern society functions, but thatâs because he arrived 6,000 years too late to the party. He picks up on things extremely quickly and is quite socially perceptive. Fitting in is important to him, having come from such a conformist culture as YoRHa.Â
đ„  :   does my muse have any  â  unusual  â  habits, interests,  and  /  or talents?  do they hide it,  or are they proud of it? Â
9S is more interested in human culture than most Scanners and especially enjoys collecting human-created media, particularly music, which he stores on his Pod and plays when heâs out scouting. Heâs had a great time in Koi renting movies from the library, because entertainment options back home were extremely limited. Heâs also gotten into fishing because of 2B.
đ Â : Â Â what kind of diet does my muse have? Â do they eat regularly, Â or the standard 2-3 meals a day? Â do they have to be reminded to eat, Â or are they likely to remind others? Â do they cook, Â or have others cook for them? Â do they eat healthily, Â or not so much? Â
As an android, 9S doesnât require food to live. He canât feel hunger or satiation. YoRHa units are powered entirely by the reactors in their black boxes, which only require water to function. Most of the time they can get all the fuel they need from vapor in the air they breathe, though in dry climates theyâd need to find a water source.Â
However, eating is an important communal activity, so they have a limited ability to do so. They donât have stomachs or digestive systems. Any matter they consume is incinerated as soon as itâs swallowed. As a Scanner, 9S can analyze the chemical makeup of things he tastes, so heâs always putting weird shit in his mouth just to see what itâs made of. He enjoys eating with others, especially after difficult missions. Itâs relaxing, even if the food is usually terrible because nobody has proper ingredients.
đ„ Â : Â Â how important to my muse is their hometown, Â or where theyâre from? Â are they proud of it, Â or considered a hometown hero? did they move away, Â or do they wish to?
9S doesnât have a hometown, unless the orbital base he was manufactured on counts. He doesnât like spending extended amounts of time there, because thereâs not much to do, but returning is often required in order to meet with the commander and receive mission details. Itâs kinda nice to be able to look down at Earth from space, though...
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5 Intermittent Fasting Tricks to Burn Fat Faster
intermittent fasting has gotten a lot of attention nowadays as there's so many benefits to be had from it it helps you lose weight helps you gain muscle and enhances your cognitive performance specifically it lowers insulin the fat storing hormone involved with diabetes it raises human growth hormone which does everything from increasing muscle mass and making you look better and live longer and it promotes the release of brain-derived neurotrophic factor a key hormone for growing new brain cells intermittent fasting is simple all you do is not eat for 16 hours of the day but this is a radical idea for most people considering we're encouraged to be eating all the time being told things like breakfast is the most important meal of the day and you need to eat six small meals to lose weight unsurprisingly hunger is the number one concern when it comes to fasting so let's take a look at how hunger works so we can better deal with it as Tim Russ said we often fear what we do not understand that our best defense is knowledge the first thing you should know is that hunger is not a simple equation of no food plus time equals more and more hunger in a very thorough series on fasting in his blog called intensive dietary management dr. Jason funk points to a study that shows that while subjects went over three days without any food the hunger hormone ghrelin gradually but continually decreased he says this means that patients were far less hungry despite not having eaten for the past three days this jabs perfectly with our clinical experience with patients undergoing extended fasting they all expect to be ravenously hungry but actually find that their hunger completely disappears this is because hunger is regulated by hormones like ghrelin and it comes in waves you do not get progressively hungrier the longer you go without food your body adapts to your regular eating schedule it knows when you usually eat so it comes to expect food and make you hungry around the same time each day here's a study from the medical university of vienna done on subjects participating in a 33 hour fast despite the early morning beam when people have gone the longest without food ghrelin was the lowest suggesting that they are the least and they're ghrelin didn't rise more and more the longer they went without food ghrelin rose at their normal eating times and it fell back down even though they didn't eat anything so when you start fasting it's important to know that hunger will arise and it is uncomfortable but it will come and go after a couple days your hormones will adapt to your new eating times and you will be less and less hungry until it's no longer an issue this is why many people say that the first four days are the hardest on adapting and readapting your eating times is uncomfortable but your body is very good at it I've been doing intermittent fasting with an eating window of about 2 to 4 hours for the past year and when I was first experimenting with fasting I actually tried eating once every other day to my surprise after only about 6 days of this I wasn't that hungry on the no eating day but like clockwork I started to get pretty hungry on the eating day right around the usual time I would eat another very interesting thing about this hormone ghrelin is that it may be making you hungry in order to get you to take in more salt it would be very important to have a hunger for salt as salt has many very critical functions it's needed by the heart to pump blood properly and it's a key component in cell to cell communication and the optimal transmission of nerve impulses to and from organs like the heart and brain low-salt has been shown to stunt growth increase insulin resistance and increase uric acid levels stimulating oxidative stress in the mitochondria leading to weight gain despite all this the standard low sodium guidelines of only 2.3 grams of sodium per day drastically underestimate how much salt the body really requires for optimal functioning a study in the New England Journal of Medicine found that an estimated sodium intake of at least 3 grams to 6 grams per day was associated with a lower risk of death and cardiovascular events in fact actually following the low salt guidelines posed a particularly high risk to health and intermittent fasting may have you requiring even more salt than usual intermittent fasting lowers your insulin levels this is great and one of the main goals of intermittent fasting but it's often overlooked that insulin retains sodium so the lower your insulin goes the more sodium your kidneys secrete losing a lot of sodium and other minerals can leave you feeling sluggish and hungry now your body really doesn't want you to lose too much sodium so one thing it does is it actually increases insulin levels in an attempt to retain more sodium a 1991 study done on 147 people found that a low salt diet significantly increased serum insulin in these people of course higher insulin is something you don't want so let me explain more about insulin and how it affects hunger when you eat insulin goes up and insulin helps you utilize carbohydrate for energy or stores it as glycogen which is basically linked chains of glucose this glycogen is stored in the liver or muscle and when you have too much glycogen the incoming carbohydrate will be stored as fat now different foods will give you a different insulin rise fat stimulates insulin a minimal amount while fiber less carbs provoke massive rises in insulin but the point is insulins job is to help you absorb and store nutrients next after about 46 hours after you eat insulin levels will have gone down and the glucose level in your blood starts to decrease this prompts the pancreas to secrete glucagon glucagon has almost the opposite function of insulin insulin stores food energy but glucagon pulls that energy out from your glycogen stores and your fat stores so if you're eating every two hours and getting six small meals a day you never let glucagon do its job and your body never starts burning into your glycogen or your fat stores not a good strategy for losing weight well what about hunger let's look at this study from 1986 they found if you inject an animal with insulin it will eat more adding insulin increases appetite if you have insulin floating around with no new glucose coming in your blood glucose will drop but insulin needs to be low for glucagon to use your fat or glycogen stores for energy with high insulin you have no access to your store to energy so it makes sense for extra insulin to promote hunger as the only way you can get new energy is to eat it and raise your blood glucose and as you might expect giving an animal glucagon reduced food intake so glucagon is decreasing appetite now they also infuse glucose into the animals small intestine and as you would expect it reduced food intake so it's of course not the case that carbs don't satiate you to some extent but if you're eating every two hours you're constantly pumping out insulin and the levels never go low enough for glucagon to do its job this explains why you can eat a bowl of cereal for breakfast or a huge plate of pasta for lunch and be hungry in just an hour or two refined carbohydrates like that will cause the body to overshoot with its insulin secretion so even after all the carbohydrates are processed after the meal you still have a bunch of insulin sitting around and making you hungry this overshooting with insulin also explains why if you binge eat at night you'll wake up starving in the morning so after a meal if you're patient glucagon will allow you to start running on your stored energy and you will be less hungry so while fasting glucagon suppresses hunger and is helping you to power the body by burning your stored glycogen and fat when you run out of the glycogen you're burning primarily fat for energy and your body enters the state of ketosis this produces a lot of ketone bodies which your body and brain will use for fuel it's a common misconception that the brain runs only on glucose in 1967 George Cahill found that the brain will derive two-thirds of its energy from ketone bodies made from fat though some processes in the body still required glucose but you don't need to eat that glucose your body makes its own glucose from things like glycerol and lactate this is called gluconeogenesis earlier we saw that high glucagon and low ghrelin during fasting will keep hunger in check but we can add ketone bodies to that list there's data that show that ketone bodies like beta-hydroxybutyrate also reduce appetite which isn't a surprise considering the act as an energy source for the body this is one of the reasons why a ketogenic diet or low carbohydrate diet has such great synergy with intermittent fasting these diets will keep insulin low and allow you to use fat for energy just like fasting will so if you're able I'd recommend trying to shift your diet to one that is high in good fat high in fiber high in micronutrients moderate on protein and low in carbohydrate you could even start eating like this before you begin intermittent fasting and you'll already be adapted to getting your energy from fat so you'll have less hunger and adapt to intermittent fasting easier you might be wondering why I said moderate protein many people assume a low carb or keto diet must have a lot of protein in it but that's not quite the case insulin is necessary for protein to be metabolized so you get an insulin rise when you eat protein but not only that when you eat more protein than your body needs to make or repair cells the excess will be broken down into glucose through gluconeogenesis in fact diabetics have been shown to have a 30% decrease in daily blood glucose levels just by restricting protein now there's one last thing about insulin and hunger it's how it interacts with leptin this satiety hormone essentially when you eat food depending on the composition of the meal your levels of leptin go up and you feel more satiated but when you have too much insulin it reduces leptin signaling your brain can't pick up on the leptin signal keeping you hungry in fact obesity which is virtually always accompanied by insulin resistance is also accompanied by leptin resistance if you want to stay satiated and full of energy rather than be hungry and lethargic you need to keep your insulin low lucky for you fasting seems to be the best way to lower insulin levels so while intermittent fasting is hard for the first couple of days it's helpful to know that your body and hormones are working in your favor making it easier and easier and if you get enough salt and minerals and eat high fiber moderate protein and low carbohydrate then you can make the whole says smoother
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Myanmar women give birth in jungle as military lies in wait | Health News
On a stormy June night, Rosemary lay in labor in the darkness of her home in an abandoned village in Myanmarâs Mindat township when Mai Nightingale, a 25-year-old midwife, tried to stifle her screams.
âOnly the two of us were alone in the village. We closed all the doors and windows of the house and stayed calmly inside, âsaid Mai Nightingale. âWhen she felt pain, I put a blanket in her mouth because we feared soldiers might hear her.â Like others interviewed for this article, Al Jazeera used pseudonyms for Mai Nightingale and Rosemary for her safety.
Rosemaryâs labor had started the night before, but as soldiers neared her village in southern Chin State, she and the other villagers fled into the forest. But there was no adequate shelter from the incessant rain, so Rosemary and Mai Nightingale decided to take the risk of encountering soldiers and return the next morning.
âThe situation wasnât exactly favorable for the birth of a baby,â said Mai Nightingale. âWe saw Burmese soldiers running towards our village, but we couldnât turn back because [Rosemary] was already exhausted. â
Rosemaryâs husband did not dare to accompany her because he feared soldiers might mistake him for a member of a local armed group. Since a February 1 military coup, civil defense forces, mostly armed with hunting rifles and homemade weapons, have appeared across the country to fight the regime, and Mindat has been a focus of resistance since May.
Consistent with tactics the military has used for decades to crush an armed rebellion and terrorize the population, soldiers launched disproportionate attacks on Mindat, including firing artillery, rocket-propelled grenades and machine guns into residential areas while imposing martial law, making the city empty. according to local media reports. Young men are particularly affected.
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Rosemary brought her baby shortly after the sound of the soldiers died down, and Mai Nightingale cut and tied the umbilical cord with a razor blade and string which she boiled in water for lack of other sterilants. Although Rosemary and her baby are healthy and unharmed, the circumstances of the birth illustrate the increasing risks mothers and newborns face in an escalating humanitarian crisis.
Mai Nightingale and two other nurses interviewed by Al Jazeera who care for mothers and newborns displaced by armed conflict say they are severely limited in their ability to deliver babies safely and that the physical insecurity of pregnant women and newborns amid ongoing violence.
âThe greatest health risks for pregnant women and newborns are their lives. They can die in labor or afterwards from running as soldiers near their hiding place, âsaid a nurse nicknamed Smile in Loikaw Township, Kayah state. âThere is not enough medical equipment or medication ⊠babies cannot be vaccinated or properly housed.â
Collapsing health system
The United Nations estimates that around 230,000 people have been displaced since the coup.
In addition to attacking civilians, the military cut food and water supplies to conflict-affected people, shot at refugee camps and churches of refuge, shot displaced people trying to get rice from their villages, and burned food and medical supplies.
Meanwhile, Myanmarâs health system has all but collapsed, leaving few options even for women willing to risk the risk of returning to their town or village to bear a child, or to be vaccinated or treated.
Ongoing strikes by medical workers amid a wider movement of civil disobedience have left state hospitals threadbare, while some health facilities have been shut down entirely. The military has also repeatedly attacked medical workers and facilities, and occupied hospitals.
My mother put her hand on my cousin and prayed. By the grace of God, she gave birth successfully
Smile, Myanmar nurse
Alessandra Dentice, Myanmar ad interim representative at the UN Childrenâs Fund (UNICEF), told Al Jazeera that the vast majority of pregnant women displaced since the coup did not have access to emergency obstetric care, while routine vaccinations for children âalmost completely stalled areâ. â.
âWithout urgent action, we estimate that 600,000 newborns annually will miss necessary newborn care, posing serious risks to their survival and long-term well-being across the country,â she said, adding that around 950,000 children are also lacking vital vaccination services .
In Mindat, Mai Nightingale has so far helped three displaced women with childbirth. Two of them, she said, had to move on in search of safe shelter in the days leading up to the birth, causing them physical pain and possibly inducing labor.
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Mai Nightingale knows that it is extremely dangerous for women and their babies to provide medical care to pregnant women and newborns without a lack of facilities or hygienic equipment. âAlthough soldiers could arrest both the patients and me, I will continue to help people who need medical attention,â she told Al Jazeera. âThere is no one who can help them.â
Pregnant women are also in a dangerous situation in Kayah state, where an estimated 100,000 people have been displaced since early June. On June 8, the UN Special Rapporteur on Myanmar warned of âmass deaths from hunger, disease and exposureâ in Kayah due to military attacks and the blocking of food, water and medicine for those who fled to the forest.
Smile, a 24-year-old nurse, fled her village in Loikaw Town with her cousin, who was suffering from labor while trying to escape. âArtillery fell near the rock where we were hiding. That day was [my cousinâs] Due date but she couldnât deliver⊠we had to get to safety, âsaid Smile. âShe had to carry heavy things while running.â
Smile remembered the advice of her mother, who was also a nurse, and had grabbed a delivery package with rubber gloves, tweezers and scissors on the run from the village. âMy mom told me that even when the world is in chaos, medical staff canât stop,â she said.
She and her mother rubbed alcohol into the equipment while her cousinâs husband built a bamboo and tarpaulin tent under which they gave birth to their cousinâs baby. âMy mother put her hand on my cousin and prayed. By the grace of God she gave birth successfully without [heavy] Bleeding, âsaid Smile.
But a tragedy struck some displaced mothers.
Little time to mourn
Khu Meh gave birth to twins on April 8 in a local clinic in Loikaw Township. One was born dead; With the other, a girl, Khu Meh fled home in mid-May. âWe have traveled very far and moved from place to place and sometimes slept in the bushes,â she said. About three weeks later, the second twin died in the jungle while drinking milk on Khu Mehâs chest.
About 25 miles north, in Pekon Township, Shan State, Mary fled her home in the last week of May when she was seven months pregnant.
âThe military fired every night ⊠we were very scared to sleep at home,â she said.
She took shelter in a church, but after she was shot at on June 6, she fled again to a corn field, where, with the help of a local midwife, she gave birth to her fifth child, a young boy, under a bamboo and tarpaulin shelter.
The next week brought endless rain and Maryâs baby suddenly died. There was little time to mourn. Mary and her remaining children had to flee again a week later because of approaching soldiers.
[JC/AL Jazeera]
Although Myanmar saw both maternal and child under-five mortality rates decline between 2000 and 2017, it remained one of the riskiest places for young mothers and infants in Southeast Asia even before the coup, according to UNICEF.
The maternal mortality rate in 2017 was 250 deaths per 100,000 live births, while the under-five mortality rate was 48 children per 100,000 live births.
Al Jazeera has not been able to find data on maternal and child mortality among displaced populations in Myanmar since the coup.
Naw Winnie, a nurse from Demoso township in Kayah state, who was herself displaced by fighting, is now volunteering with a local aid group in the mountainous region from which she fled.
She told Al Jazeera that illnesses are common in young children. She has treated dozens of skin infections and diarrheal diseases, and fears that health problems will only increase due to poor hygiene due to factors such as the scarcity of clean water and the lack of toilets.
The rainy season began in June, making hygiene difficult and increasing the risk of catching colds, flu, or mosquito-borne diseases.
Naw Winnie also cares for more than 10 pregnant women.
She had originally planned to send her to a makeshift clinic near the foothills of the mountain, but the clinicâs volunteers and patients were forced to evacuate on June 16 amid heavy fighting.
Now sheâs not sure what to do.
One of the women, now five months pregnant, had previously given birth by caesarean section, and Naw Winnie is concerned that the woman could bleed vaginally, but it is just too risky to have a caesarean section in the jungle.
âWe donât have access to safe and hygienic facilities or equipment to give birth to babies,â she said. âIf I help with the birth of a baby without hygienic facilities, both mothers and babies will be at risk.â
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Welcome to FiveThirtyEightâs weekly politics chat. The transcript below has been lightly edited.
micah (Micah Cohen, politics editor): Greetings, friends and colleagues, and thank you for joining this later-in-the-week-than-usual politics chat! Weâre doing it a bit late because we wanted to see how the Super Tuesday of the 2018 primary season played out. And so the question weâre interrogating today is:
What have we learned about how the 2020 Democratic presidential primary might play out based on the 2018 primaries?
Sound good?
julia_azari (Julia Azari, political science professor at Marquette University and FiveThirtyEight contributor):
perry (Perry Bacon Jr., senior writer): Great.
micah: OK, so letâs break this up into two parts âŠ
First up: candidates.
What have we learned about the type of candidate Democrats want?
(Also, something to weigh during this whole chat: How sound is this entire exercise of looking at 2018 congressional primaries for clues about the 2020 presidential primary?)
perry: To start broadly, what I took from Tuesday (and the primaries more generally this year) is that Democrats are anti-President Trump but not behaving in the anti-party establishment way that the GOP did in 2010, 2014 and 2016. The party establishment candidates (for example, Dianne Feinstein, Robert Menendez, Gavin Newsom) won. Left-leaning voters in California managed to coalesce around Democratic candidates enough to get at least one into the general election in the House districts that Democrats think they can flip (thatâs how it looks now, in any case).
In short, Democratic voters are open to party-backed candidates.
julia_azari: Perry is right, though I would also note the many anti-Democratic Congressional Campaign Committee stories that came out of California and other places.
Itâs less obvious to me that a plurality, much less a majority of Democratic voters, are swayed by their suspicion of the party. But these things can burn slowly. And a vocal minority can really gunk things up for a party, especially if the more establishment parts fail to coordinate. Which is what happened for Republicans in 2016.
perry: Right. Some Democratic activists kind of hate the party. But they still listen to the party.
micah: Wait, isnât that a little strong?
perry: Which part do you think is wrong, Micah?
micah: Not wrong, but I guess Iâm trying to get a sense of degrees.
Clearly, there are anti-establishment forces in the Democratic Party.
But theyâre 40 percent weaker than in the GOP?
10 percent weaker?
You know what I mean?
julia_azari: I donât think thatâs necessarily true.
I would argue that in the Democratic Party, those anti-establishment forces are more challenging to combine with a compelling policy/ideological/team-based message than in the GOP.
So, anti-establishment sentiment in the Republican Party was easily paired up with anti-Obama feelings (tea party) and anti-immigration feelings (Trump)?
Whatâs the comparison for anti-establishment Dems? Single-payer? Campaign finance reform?
micah: Ah, I see. That makes sense. But arenât they still weaker than in the GOP?
perry: I would say closer to 40 percent weaker. Kevin de LeĂłn is a pretty good candidate. He is very qualified. And yet Feinstein came in 30 percentage points ahead of him in Tuesdayâs primary despite not being a particularly good fit for California, which casts itself as the âstate of resistance.â
The big difference is that de LeĂłn does not have a Fox News/Breitbart apparatus attacking Feinstein like a Republican would have.
julia_azari: Perry, it seems like we somewhat disagree on the big picture of how strong these forces are in the Democratic Party, but the media point is a really critical one.
micah: The closest a tea-party-like Democratic challenge has come (and please spare me the emails about how the tea party analogy doesnât work â I know itâs imperfect) was in Illinoisâs 3rd District maybe?
perry: Right. And the incumbent in that race was fairly to the right of the Democratic Party.
Tuesdayâs results are bad for people like Howard Schultz, if the outgoing Starbucks chairman decides that he wants to try to run a campaign to take over the Democratic Party the way Trump did the Republican Party.
micah: Yeah.
But, Julia, you think those anti-establishment forces are even weaker than Perry does?
perry: I feel like Iâm saying they are pretty weak in the first place.
micah: Yeah, thatâs why Iâm confused.
Julia thinks theyâre stronger maybe?
julia_azari: No, Iâm saying I think we are in danger of underestimating them based on whatâs still a pretty small number of observations.
micah: Thatâs fair.
julia_azari: Trump didnât happen overnight. Not to toot my own horn, but my piece on Trump and Paul Ryan illustrates how these kinds of forces built up over decades in the Republican Party.
micah:
perry: I think thatâs right. I might consider, say, Bernie Sanders, more part of the Democratic Party at this point, in that he does lots of party stuff and the party kind of accepts him. Sanders, even though he is technically an independent, has moved toward the party, and the party has moved toward him.
julia_azari: The fact that the DCCC â rather than ideology or policy â has become a point of argument in Democratic circles and in stories about the primaries illustrates the legitimacy problems that parties now face. Who the f even knew what the DCCC was in 2006?
(Full disclosure/self-promotion: I am writing a book about party weakness right now, which emphasizes very long-term and slow-moving processes, including the erosion of party legitimacy.)
perry: So I think Julia and I disagree. Itâs a very small sample size. But if I were Joe Biden, I would be happy with how well Feinstein did. And that the party elders did get their candidates in some of these House races.
julia_azari: If I were Joe Biden, I would be focused on the credibility of Feinsteinâs challenger, so, yeah, we disagree â though I also admit that weâre extrapolating from not much data.
perry: Feinstein has moved to the left. She was famously for the death penalty but now is not, for example. But figures in the party, like Obama, were willing to embrace Feinstein even if she is to the right of where the energy of the party is right now.
She could have been treated like Bob Bennett or Richard Lugar but was not.
julia_azari: Those are good comparisons too. I certainly donât want to suggest that the situations are identical. But to resonate, anti-establishment Dems need a message that is also about policy and ideas, not just being pissed at the DCCC and the Democratic National Committee. But at the same time, frustration with those institutions is a real phenomenon.
micah: OK, so we disagree a little about how establishmenty/anti-establishmenty a candidate Democrats might want in 2020.
Letâs talk other candidate characteristics.
Thereâs been a ton of talk about women doing really well.
From ex-FiveThirtyEighter Allison McCann (though, really, once a FiveThirtyEighter, always a FiveThirtyEighter â whether you like it or not):
perry: Itâs totally different to nominate a female candidate for a House race than to nominate a woman to run for president after Hillary Clinton just lost.
micah: Case in point:
micah: Isnât there research showing that voters are more likely to vote for women for legislative offices than for executive offices?
julia_azari: Here is a study that finds that media coverage is more gendered for those offices.
perry: 2018 is shaping up as the year of female Democratic candidates. But 2020 is about picking one person. And I wonder if Democrats start looking strategically in a way that likely discriminates against female and non-white candidates. I.e., Democrats will be asking, âWho can win Obama-Trump white voters in Wisconsin?â Thatâs why The New York Times is writing about the mayor of South Bend maybe running for president. (What Iâm saying is that I doubt The Times would write a story about a black mayor of a smallish city considering a presidential run, since Cory Booker, Kamala Harris, Eric Holder and Deval Patrick are rumored candidates. There is a bit of a media search going on for a white male candidate who is not from the coasts.)
julia_azari: People LOVE Pete Buttigieg.
perry: In other words, there will be lots more Democratic women running for president in 2020 than in 2016, just because there is no Clinton this time. She screened out lots of male and female candidates. But Iâm not sure I take from 2018 that the Democrats are more likely to nominate a woman.
julia_azari: It depends somewhat on the way people interpret the 2016 loss.
Democrats could read that loss as, âPeople arenât ready to vote for a woman, and we need to be âsafe.'â (My rant about using the word âsafeâ that way is redacted for now.)
Or you could interpret the dynamics as fundamentally about status quo or not â and see Clinton for the unique figure she is, one who has been in the public eye for decades.
perry: But not really the way people interpret the 2016 loss, right? The consultants/donors, etc., have a big influence on who gets to the front of the line in the nomination process, and we know they are more male and white than the party overall. Some of them have concluded that it is about winning Obama-Trump voters.
micah: I guess thatâs likely right, but wonât there be a hunger for a woman nominee among Democratic primary voters? Isnât that what weâre seeing in these primaries?
perry: We could debate this for a while, but I think Conor Lamb is viewed more as a model for 2020 than Stacey Abrams among the people who matter in the Democratic Party.
julia_azari: I mean, not to be blunt, but thatâs what we see in society.
micah: According to our count, woman have won ~70 percent of Democratic primaries against at least one man with no incumbent on the ballot.
julia_azari: Thereâs a real fever among left-leaning writers, etc., to recommend moving away from identity politics post-2016. I worry that the effect is to put white voters back at the center and neglect groups that have historically, well, been neglected.
Still, I think that there will be demand for a woman to run against Trump within the Democratic Party. Let me try to get my thoughts together about women on presidential tickets.
It is a short story of non-success. But women have been brought onto tickets at times of electoral distress. (Remember the brief Ted Cruz-Carly Fiorina ticket from 2016?)
micah: Oh what a moment that was.
julia_azari: In 1984, Democrats were facing a popular incumbent in Ronald Reagan. And they picked Geraldine Ferraro as the vice-presidential nominee to shake things up and draw attention â which she did.
In 2008, Sarah Palin was supposed to, I guess, create conservative excitement for the McCain ticket in a year when Republicans were very likely to do badly.
Hillary Clinton inevitability as president was a late-breaking narrative; otherwise, savvy observers had to know that after two terms of a Democratic president and a tepid economy, 2016 was an uphill battle for Democrats.
micah: But will 2020 be considered a time of âelectoral distressâ for Democrats? Wonât it be the opposite?
julia_azari: I am getting there, Micah.
micah: Sorry
julia_azari: Itâs OK. I meant to warn everyone about the Hamlet-style soliloquy.
micah: lol
julia_azari: So 2020. There will be a surface narrative that whatâs needed is a woman to take down Trump. But a very cynical reading of this evidence suggests that the most likely scenario for nominating a woman is a sacrificial lamb scenario, in which the party seeks these optics but is really pessimistic about its chances. Trump is an unpopular president, but incumbency is powerful.
I hope Iâm wrong about this deeply cynical take.
micah: Cynicism has a good batting average in U.S. politics.
perry: I think the women winning this year are also fairly liberal, so thatâs more what I take from these primaries: The party is open to liberal candidates. Abrams in Georgia, for example.
In other words, I do not expect a Democratic Leadership Council-style attempt to recenter the party during the 2020 primary.
julia_azari: Yeah, thatâs a good takeaway.
perry: So I imagine it will be hard for the Steve Bullocks of the world (Bullock is the Democratic governor of Montana) â the kind of people who I expect will argue that Democrats are too left.
micah: Totally agree. You can imagine a scenario in which the party, as you both said, âmoderatesâ (heavy scare quotes) on identity â white male â but not at all on ideology.
julia_azari: Yeah. As I pointed out on Tuesday in the live blog, support for LGBT rights doesnât make one a radical among Democrats anymore, and the party is fairly uniformly pro-choice, though it means different things to different people. Left of the Affordable Care Act is probably the only way to run on health care. Younger voters are concerned about student debt.
micah: Any other candidate traits youâve noticed before we move to issues/platforms?
perry: I havenât studied this and donât have data to back it up, but I feel like there is a generational thing going on. It seems like, Feinstein aside, the crop of Democrats winning this year is fairly young. That might be a bad sign for Biden/Sanders â the party is nominating lots of women/minorities and looking for fresher faces. (Biden is 75; Sanders is 76.)
julia_azari: Yeah. There were signs of that back in the fall â some party-building.
perry: Iâm having a hard time, based on what Iâm seeing now, seeing Democrats uniting around a person who is almost 80 years old.
Like, the ideal candidate might be someone who is anti-establishment and left like Sanders but not Sanders â someone who really speaks about #MeToo and Black Lives Matter and Dreamers in an articulate way. Lamb and Abrams are both strong speakers, fairly young, dynamic people.
julia_azari: My only other demographic observation is that the party seems poised to really highlight LGBT candidates. Weâll likely look back on this as a period when that really shifted in terms of representation. (Danica Roemâs national profile is an example of this.)
micah: OK, policy time!
Any thoughts about the platform that the 2020 Democratic primary will be fought over? Weâve gotten into it a little already.
perry: I donât think the Democrats have a big divide on economic issues. The whole party is moving left, and the fight will be over, say, single-payer versus a huge expansion of Medicaid and Medicare.
And voters wonât know the difference.
julia_azari: Yeah, thereâs likely to be some tortured language in the platform about single-payer.
perry: Most of these primaries have shown little in the way of policy differences.
julia_azari: I expect lots of symbolic agreement on diversity and immigration and upward mobility. The differences to be worked out in governing wonât be easy, but uniting under an electoral banner probably will be pretty straightforward.
perry: I do think there is a divide not on positions but on emphasis around, say, gun control, policing, abortion, immigration. Some of the Democratic candidates in these primaries have not been as loud and proudly liberal on these issues. I donât think, say, Biden will say he is pro-life, but will he defend and back Planned Parenthood as strongly as Kirsten Gillibrand might?
I doubt it.
There is a core tension among Democrats over identity policy (how liberal to be on these issues) and identity in terms of the electoral coalition (is the goal to win more women, minorities, people who stayed home in 2016 or to win more Obama-Trump voters, who are mostly white).
That is a tension they are desperate to smooth over. And canât.
micah: Do you all this Medicare-for-all will be a rallying cry or a litmus test?
perry : Medicare-for-all will be a litmus test for the most left candidates (so, say, Elizabeth Warren, Harris, Sanders), but I think Biden can avoid that and be fine.
micah: Like, to your point, Perry, I wonder if Democrats will focus on health care over, say, immigration because it plays across those divides (women/non-white voters vs. Obama-Trump voters).
perry: In the primary, they will all have the same position on health care, so I suspect there will be some incentive to be left on immigration or some other issue as a way to differentiate yourself.
Remember that Clinton sharply attacked Sanders in 2016 from the left over gun policy.
julia_azari: Iâm honestly not sure how these things will play out.
The Democrats tend to have a bunch of issues that are broadly popular but have very concentrated opposition â gay rights, gun control. If the âwin back Trump votersâ sentiment is strong, who knows what priorities will be emphasized?
perry: This Seth Masket piece is good at capturing the Democratic divides. Like, abolishing ICE (the federal governmentâs Immigration and Customs Enforcement agency) is a live issue now. I donât know how that would work, but which Democratic 2020 candidate is going to be like, âHey, actually, we need ICE.â
julia_azari: I canât see too many Democratic candidates saying, âHey, we need ICE.â But I can see people suggesting that this is a âdistractionâ from âjobs.â
perry: And I can see that answer not lasting for 24 months (the 2020 campaign cycle).
micah: That piece from Masket (friend of the site) is interesting: âThe language may be buried within discussions about interest groups, but deciding which groups to prioritize is a strongly ideological one.â
julia_azari: I wrote a response, but itâs a little academic.
One question I posed in that piece is how the fights between the parties will affect the fights within them. Historically, theyâve mirrored very closely. But now that the parties are pretty uniform in their basic ideologies, I think that might change.
micah: OK, final thoughts âŠ
julia_azari: I think the Democratic Party is in the fairly early stages of a pretty big transition â from a patchwork group-based party to a more clearly ideological one.
This means there are a lot of directions it could go in 2020, and itâs not clear to me how the power dynamics will work in determining who gets to shape that direction.
perry: Itâs easy for a party to unite in a midterm against the other partyâs incumbent president. The trouble is figuring out the rest: 2018 is just so different from 2020.
I left 2014 having watched the Republicans finally figure out how to control their nomination processes and avoid having too many people who couldnât win the general on their tickets. Then, they nominated Trump.
Democrats have figured out a populist message that works for a more diverse slate of candidates. But I donât know if that will survive 20 candidates in 2019 and 2020 presidential debates â with the press and Trump trying to hype up their fissures.
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Progressively speeding up as we move deeper into the Solar Minimum and yet we have barely begun, the energy we find ourselves in is transforming those consciously aware rapidly, moving through realisations and releases almost hourly compared to how it was not so long ago when âthingsâ would take âtimeâ, of course, we realise that the âtimeâ we took was again part of what required releasing and by releasing the lower aspects of this energy spectrum, the weighted time of the human linear way, it became Divine Time which simply showed the love within the energy, the light, and offers perfection in every moment. To exist in Divine Time is to be in a space of complete surrender, itâs a space where judgement would be self-sacrificing and defense creates internal wounds, Divine Time is the higher conscious view of Saturns playing ground and once you acknowledge our Lord and the rules on the gate he will gift you with the most magical experience as you release the restrictions of the lower octave programming we came to accept and be ruled by.
Breaking Free is a theme of energy that we have been surfing all this year, releasing from the Devil Tarot Card that represents the Capricorn energy, but as we know the Devil represents the low octaves of the human, the machine, the blind and so to use the old unconscious ways of the fear spectrum such as defense and judgment, blame and shame allows those loose chains to remain in place, those chains are not fixed, they are easily removed and so the choice to remain has always been yours.
The resistance creates disharmony, release brings magical celestial harmonics and with these Mars square Saturn and Pluto transits that are now reactivated for the next couple of weeks, the Mars square Saturn lined up yesterday and the Mars square Pluto is heading in now, we are continuing to learn how to ride this wild stallion, although perhaps some have mistakenly picked up the wild bull as it went charging past, see thatâs a little different energy, the stallion holds heart, he can be tamed, the bull on the other hand doesnât seem to hold the ability to connect, has no care, just wants to charge his angry self into every obstruction, and will eventually burn out his energy and most likely refuse to move for quite some time.
Both patterns, both rides are super important, those choosing the charging bull will no doubt learn to catch a ride with the stallion next time around and by that phase the chances are the bull will have allowed you to observe why you chose him, that the walls you had built up around, caked in unconscious belief systems posters and flyers to keep the truth of the wall hidden behind pretty dreamy pictures and fluff dressed in pity MUST come down.
This energy however you choose to move through is evolving us, taking us on lightspeed travels, zipping parts of our minds back into our ancient self, to retrieve data required for the now, and yet the next minute we are travelling with the ancient future self to receive the confirmation because the gems being retrieved are often beyond imagination and require boosts to fully understand the resonance and the codes held.
This means MORE raising of the physical body vibration, more listening to its requirements and acting in the moment as opposed to the old ways of waiting/weighting, which only ever slows us down, ignoring the most subtle signs of the body, even so much as making the request for thirst or hunger dissolve and opting for avoidance tactics signals to the body a lack of interest, a lack of unconditional love, there will be no self healing until EVERYTHING the body says is understood and innerstood, meaning we act upon everything, in the NOW because the now is the space in which we choose, now is The Creator of the ever evolving you.
This Mars energy we are experiencing is such a powerful clearing and creative energy if you understand how it behaves, and once that is understood we realise it is simply our own energy, emanating out from within and using the power of creation to highlight where our creation is not in harmony with our highest aligned timeline, and he is showing us the wounded masculine in its process of healing, as he is hot on the heels of the feminine, Venus, who is just one step ahead, Mars is focused, he is heading out of the underworld where he has been hidden behind the sun and he is now making the most out of this journey, fully aligned, fully committed to begin to unify with the feminine, the wounded masculine within is ready to support, ready to place his energy where it matters, within, to show his Queen her value, the true twin flame within, is ready to merge and become One very powerful light force energy.
What makes this more magical is that Saturn holds no expectation and the lesson is to realise it is the motion that matters, holding the awareness and making steady positive steps, in fact any speed or idea of rushing, pushing or charging ahead will only create an experience to understand patience, and again to step back into the flow of Divine Time allowing this to form so it can show you all the magical light gems along the way, and we donât want to miss a single one, every light gem is so ridiculously valuable especially during this Dark Moon energy we have been surfing leading into todays Scorpio New Moon, which is opposing Uranus in Taurus, there is the bull again and he is acting rather jumpy with Uranus on his back, taking random turns, bucking and spinning, this is pure expect the unexpected energy, and for the cosmic surfers this is likely to bring a whole heap of new ideas and ways to underpin the new physical body vibrational upgrades you have been focusing on, this is something I noticed just a couple of days ago as myself and Reese, my son, have been adding some rather new and interesting things to our diets to assist on his road to recovery.
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But what this experience has been showing is exactly how this all works, how when you release all fear and restriction, when you listen to the requests of the body, when you care more, when you prioritise Self and plug only into that which nourishes, which incorporates all feeds that enter the field, then the experience becomes nothing short of enlightening and therefore rapid, the moment you release the push and the need what transpires is the flip, the rise and the expansion into new healthFULL experiences and by using the signposts being delivered by our celestial map it becomes an incredibly INjoyable transition.
The Scorpio New Moon energy takes us in deep, it allows so much to be seen and released to begin yet another transformative week that sees us welcoming in the backwards dance of Mercury in Retrograde, we are dredging the pool of Scorpio, we are digging away at the bottom and there will no doubt be more data to be found as ancient relics are unearthed giving us yet more clues as to why we find ourselves here and from these clues we will soon realise new paths opening up for us to journey.
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