#trigger warning suicide mention

[swanpyart]

Slay The Archivist - The End

A route in which Martin takes the knife and slays Jon as immediately as possible. After accomplishing the deed, Elias, who originally promised a reward, then forces Martin to kill himself with the knife. However, this doesn't last and he and Jon comes back for a second chapter.

The End is basically a dead Jon that's been stabbed in the stomach (if you know, you know) and has chilled out a bit in the paranoia after death. He and Martin can escape the Archives together if Martin lets him possess him. Still kind of rude, but warms up to Martin as long as they are cordial.

[friedwizardwhispers]

Unpopular opinion apparently: Hua Cheng was never a stalker actually.Looking for Xie Lian for 800 years was not stalking especially considering you need to know where a person is to stalk them AND the last time he saw Xie Lian was at the end of book 4, you know, one of the worst moment of Xie Lian's life where he was in the middle of a mental breakdown after being murdered and tortured several times (also attempted suicide right before).

About the cave of a thousand gods, 1) it should be considered an honor considering Xie Lian is a god and it will help Xie Lian with his powers and merits and 2) if we called everyone who had a lot sfw and nsfw fanarts and posters and merch of theirs favorite celebrity a stalker, we would be calling a lot of people in fandoms stalkers in this day and age.

[leelee120000]

Billie Eilish, Fame, and the Romanticism of Teen Suicide

February 21, 2020

It is no secret that when I find something I enjoy I dive into it. Ask my coworkers and friends who have sat through me talking about anything I love and they’ll tell you; “LeAnne really likes details.” Which, I take no shame in, but it can be a lot for someone who isn’t expecting it.

While working I decided to watch Billie’s new music video, “everything i wanted.” I enjoy her music a lot and thought I would just pop it on while doing some more fixing of our YouTube channel. The first small detail I noticed was that the lights of the skyscrapers are timed to the piano. The next was that Billie is blinking on beat. It’s tiny details like that I love so much.

As a fan of Billie’s, I knew about the song’s history before watching. Billie suffers from night terrors and sleep paralysis, so the theme of dreaming and nightmares is one commonly used. This song, for instance, was inspired by a dream Billie had in which she committed suicide. In the dream, her friends and coworkers had betrayed her post-death, ridiculing her with statements that nobody liked her. 

Billie Eilish explaining the video to BBCR1 via Twitter.

The single was released onto YouTube with an abstract image of the Golden Gate Bridge, which is a popular place for suicide. Billie said that the song is also about her brother caring for her and the lyric of, “As long as I’m here no one can hurt you” is a direct example of that.

However, I wasn’t expecting the video to open with the words, “finneas is my brother and my best friend. no matter the circumstances, we always have and always will be there for each other.” The lowercasing instantly let me know Billie typed this herself, as that is her style of writing. 

The camera vertically pans over an almost somber cityscape until we see Billie driving an expensive car with her brother in the passenger seat. We see a close up on both of their faces, Billie is singing and Finneas looks calm. As Billie sings they drive onto the Golden Gate Bridge, the ocean is in view through the windows. 

Finneas mouths the lyric: “as long as I’m here no one can hurt you.” They drive onto the beach and Finneas mouths the lyrics, “if I could change the way you see yourself” and “they don’t deserve you.” 

Billie floors the car into the ocean. As dark water overtakes them, Billie sings, “I tried to swim. But my head was underwater.” The car further sinks with the two holding hands: Finneas smiles, water fills the floorboards and the viewer is left in darkness.

The viewer can interpret that Billie killed herself and her brother.

It’s dark and sobering. The lyrics showing Billie’s fears around her newfound fame matched with the visuals. The metaphorical implications of this, that her fame killed her and her brother; really, it’s amazing. 

We live in a time where I believe, we as Generation Z, have been almost doomed from the start. We embrace it, of course, joking and using humor to cope. But at the end of the day, a vast majority of us have been depressed or suicidal in our short lifetimes. To us, this side of Billie is the most normal, the most relatable. 

As the older generations might fearfully look upon this video as romanization, we relate to it in an almost unexplainable way. 

I have decided to include the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline number, 1-800-283-8255 in my conclusion of this article. It’s okay to ask for help.

LeAnne McPherson

[winteryapothecaries]

not seeing a lot of noise for daisy jones & the six. it sucks bcs if it came out in 2014 i know the girls on here would be tying their nooses and ready to jump

[rosielav]

Listening to The Bright Sessions. Here're my current thoughts, 7 episodes in:

I think Dr. Bright is a bad person. Not sure how, not in like a normal way, but like a villian. I think she's collecting people for some sort of ulterior purpose. I don't think she can do what she does with no motive behind it. I think she's interesting but not a good person, behind it all.

I like the patients. I keep thinking 'this is going to be the culminating point of this plotline', and I both hope I'm wrong and also hope I'm right sometimes haha.

[monorayjak]

Daily Post 2017

Daily writing promptWrite about a random act of kindness you’ve done for someone.View all responses Honestly I kind of feel I don’t do a ton, which is something I’m not very happy about. But at the moment all I can think of is one of the “big” ones that’s happened at least twice on a server I help moderate in… having to talk somebody out of attempting suicide or through the emotions of a failed…

[raccoonskoodilypoopdungeon]

my favourite thing about monika x sayori is that monika has canonically told sayori to khs and she did

[agatharioscoven]

I swear if my mother keeps asking me if I'm okay I'm going to snap.

Every time I'm a little bit quiet or in a bit of a bad mood, she's asking me if I'm okay.

And I get it, she now has to deal with the fact that one of her kids has mental health problems, but if she can't see that her walking on egg shells and asking me every five minutes if I'm okay is going to make it worse, I don't know what will.

It pisses me off her asking, cuz I know she doesn't actually give a shit, she didn't give a shit when I was on the knifes edge of killing myself.

No she went to bed while I had a break down and held a knife to my wrist, citing that "she's got her dad"

Only cuz my brother had the foresight to call the one parent that's ever actually given a shit about me and he knew he could get dad to talk me down.

[thefrsers]

I'm not going anywhere.

[fridayiminlovemp3]

the fact that this is real is beyond horrifying

[swanpyart]

There’s a subtle hint that he was all alone before his death.

The fact that he mentions that death affected everyone he ever knew or loved.

The fact that he says no one knows that he built the construct, implying that he killed himself all alone and with no one to comfort him for the thing he fears the most.

The fact that his ideal ending is for the Long Quiet to never get to know the Princess and never build an attachment to her, and instead sit in solitude for eternity because the chance of dying or dealing with loss or disappointment is too much to bear.

just…what kind of trauma did the narrator go through for an empty expanse of nothingness to be his idea of paradise?

[neshatriumphs]

Aight. Short lil' sweet, sad, whatever update and shit. Trigger warnings for mental illness fuckery and pills, etc.

The other day, for the first time since 2008 or so, your favorite bitch tried to self terminate. I don't wanna get too graphic but many pills and several pillows were used until I was placed in restraints by somebody hopped up on drugs.

I cried a lot, got sick, flooded with exhaustion and anxiety, went to work, and came home to the openings of a manic phase.

I am in said manic phase this moment. I have been doing housework for over 12 hours and rest nor sleep are on the horizon. I have had some tough conversations, but cannot contact some people, because they will try to send me to a facility.

Also. My rent was almost failed because of my roommate. I am not interested in ending my life, though I am still interested in my life ending.

I simply needed to get it off of my chest. I've been suffering in silence for months, but the past few days were the hardest it's been in years.

If you're still reading, I am both sorry and appreciative.

[sm-baby]

How has Mei not killed herself/ anyone yet?

She tried that

She already has

Alcohol poisoning... Not that it was on purpose, but she wouldn't have minded to die that way. No one but the other servants cared. The queen would have ABSOLUTELY went " ur not allowed to do that" or " took you long enough to wake up. Youre behind on work.

Her job also involves calling shots on the more... persistent Mistresses.

[flowerscentedartist]

Trigger warning

Ink: And get this! Their suicide note was stuck to the fridge with a cookie monster magnet!

Ink: And all that was on it was "Ink's fault"!

Ink: I'm Ink by the way

Ink: WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO THEM!

[swanpyart]

… I forgot about that. Now that I think of it, a scenario in which you have ALL of the voices present and a Princess capable of possessing you sounds like it would be some Wraith/Nightmare fusion, which would be VERY unpleasant for all parties involved and results in a very angry impatient Princess. The voices were already freaking out and borderline suicidal in the Moment of Clarity, what would something like this do to them?

Still wanna see it tho

When the Pristine Cut drops I’d love a scenario in which the Princess possesses you at a point when you have all of the voices with you ala Razor or Moment of Clarity.

Spectre and Wraith both possess you at a point where you have like 3 voices and the Narrator, but I just want to see the Princess’s reaction to walking into a room with 11 loud British guys standing around the refreshment’s table

[monorayjak]

High-School Horror Part 2

“What grinds me the most is we’re sending kids out into the world who don’t know how to balance a checkbook, don’t know how to apply for a loan, don’t even know how to properly fill out a job application, but because they know the quadratic formula we consider them prepared for the world` With that said, I’ll admit even I can see how looking at the equation x -3 = 19 and knowing x =22 can be…