IDK blaming Nicole is kind of a low blow, I think.
I'm pretty sure it's homophobic to blame an obviously closeted gay girl for your own problems, Ari.
She was subjecting me to emotional abuse the whole time! And, like, yeah I was super toxic too, but she was just constantly and openly undermining my confidence and using me.
So you know what's really homophobic? Telling lesbians that it's their fault that they were abused.
Eat shit.
PS: Oh, and by the way, if this is @nicole-from-co09 trying to trick me into blaming myself for everything so she can get some gross, sick sense of satisfaction out of making other people suffer, than you know what?
I know you say you're a sociopath. I used to think that was some real fucking bullshit, but if this is seriously how you have fun, maybe you are.
Maybe you were born broken, Nicole. Maybe I'll just be fucked up like this forever, and you'll move on. You'll hurt other people, forever, and find some rich guy you hate to pay for your drugs and for you to cheat on.
And you won't care. If this is you, if you're the one saying this, then you're right. You are a sociopath. You were born broken.
...Maybe we're all born broken.
Why are we even here?
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bro found out shiggy read her fics and revamped
no literally. found out tomu read my fics n decided to wipe my search history.
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i get so excited when I find out a mutual's time zone is ahead of me. I can talk to you about useless shit for an unholy amount of time WITHOUT feeling like I've wasted half the day on my phone because it's only 10 am for you?? LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOO
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It seems that even my subconscious is gearing up for National Poetry Month, because I've had several poetry-related dreams in the past week. By far the most notable was the one I had three nights ago. In it, I was asked to put together a performance of a famous poem. The poem I was told to use was titled "Spoon River Anthology," like the Edgar Lee Masters book, but it was actually "Song of Myself" by Walt Whitman, except it wasn't written by Whitman or Masters, it was written by Allen Ginsberg. I was given access to Ginsberg's archives, so I could work from all his versions of the poem rather than just the final/most widely published version, and while looking through the archives I found pages and pages of unpublished/long-lost sections of the poem.
I am one of those rare people who can actually read in my dreams, and I often remember some or all of what I read in them. (Research shows that the people who can read in their dreams overwhelmingly tend to be writers — especially poets.) So immediately upon waking up from the dream, I wrote down the lines I remembered from "Spoon River Song of Myself" by Allen Ginsberg. A few I wrote down include:
Men leer in the riverdark.
Women come into my tent and say 'what you reading?' etc.
I, having known the taste of my own mind, can no longer fart around in America's dusty offices.
There were more, but I'm not going to post them publicly because I may 'plagiarize' them for a project in the future.
Another funny thing about the dream is that Allen Ginsberg was still alive, and he attended the performance, and I got to meet him. But he was relatively young—in his sixties, not nearly 100 like he would be were he actually still alive. Also, he was dressed like a fancy European man from the 18th century (sorta like this Portrait of the Singer Farinelli by Carlo Broschi), which seems wildly uncharacteristic for the real-life Ginsberg.
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there's just something so... *clenches first* about a character going through hell and being stripped of everything and then trying to build themselves back up again
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I'm genuinely wondering, now that I'm replaying my Warden Aeducan once again, if I should just go apeshit
I have previously romanced Alistair with her. I have romanced Leliana twice (and declared that the canon) with her. And every single time so far, I have had to break Zevran's heart, partly because the poor guy can't handle it if people are nice to him, and partly because I also have/had a gruff Brosca for him to smooch and it feels weird to romance a character with two different PCs.
Should I just.
Should I just go for it this time?
Should I just let this be an AU, and let my shortstack babygirl ride the crow and catch the feelings she's been clearly chasing for 15 years in the process???????
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