#trans woman amelia

[ladylilithprime]

Day 22: Ladies

(Takes place in the Faerie Court of Avalon, NJ series. Donna Hanscum is a selkie sheriff. Amelia Everett Richardson is a veterinarian specializing in magical animals and animal forms. Matthew Pike is their foster son and best friends with Jack Kline Winchester, who is the adopted son of the faerie whose magic helped Amelia transition in exchange for her first born child-- Amelia's suggestion. The child's sire is either John Castiel Novak or James Constantine Novak, who are twins and Sam's husbands, and donated their sperm to the cause by way of artificial insemination.)

I NEVER THOUGHT that I would say I miss morning PT," Amelia Richardson groaned as she carefully eased herself down into the embrace of the large, overstuffed armchair that had pretty much been declared as her chair from the moment she had been invited to move in. They had just returned from another appointment with Meg, an almost 900-year-old dragon woman who had taken charge of Amelia's health care for the time despite technically only being a registered nurse at the hospital. Immortal credentials were hard to transfer over despite the Magical Revelation, but everyone Amelia had asked said Meg was more than capable, which was good enough for her. With a swing by Lighthouse CommodiTeas for a couple drinks and to drop Donna's foster son, Matt, off for a sleepover with his best friend, that meant that Donna and Amelia were going to have the apartment to themselves... and here Amelia was, sore and exhausted and wishing she was still doing the PT from her brief stint in the Marines again!

"Do you really?" Donna asked, eyebrows raised skeptically. Amelia thought about it, then made a face.

"No," she admitted and sighed. "I miss having the stamina to go up two flights of stairs without being winded. Not really looking forward to the long haul effort it's gonna take me to get back in shape after the munchkin pops out, either."

She placed a hand over her extended abdomen and immediately felt the roll and flex as the baby inside her womb shifted position and pressed back. There was still at least half a month to go on the incubation period, and while Amelia had no desire to rush things along and risk the baby's health from coming out earlier than intended, she also knew that she was quite ready to have the whole thing over and done with.

"It'll take longer than you'll like, but it won't take as long as you think," Donna promised with a pat to Amelia's shoulder as she passed. "Hungry?"

"Yes," Amelia admitted, a little sullenly. It felt ridiculous to be hungry when they'd just had lunch three hours ago. "Do we have any salt and vinegar chips left?"

"I got a few more cans yesterday," Donna called back as she disappeared into the kitchen. She was back a moment later with a can of the requested chips and a bottle of the Green Machine fruit smoothie, both of which she handed to Amelia. "Don't give me that look, Meg said to keep your iron levels up for the baby on account of the faerie magic at work."

"I know, I know," Amelia sighed. She obediently opened the smoothie bottle and gulped down a third of it before going for the chips. "So, we have the place to ourselves with the only kid still here being the one inside me... I know I can be a little oblivious, but this feels like a set-up for either a romantic evening or a serious conversation."

"Kinda," Donna admitted, ducking her head a little sheepishly. She dragged the ottoman over and sat down on it in front of Amelia, then lifted the other woman's feet into her lap, gently tugging off her shoes and rubbing soothing fingers over the marks left behind by them on Amelia's swelled feet and ankles. "This thing between us... it's working pretty well, right?"

"Yeah?" Amelia bit her lower lip, wrestling with the sudden spike of anxiety. "I mean, I kinda thought so. I know this... me living here... only really started because I had that dizzy spell right at the end of the first trimester and Meg put her foot down about me living alone while gestating..."

"Charlie would've offered to take you in as a roommate if I hadn't volunteered first," Donna admitted, ducking her head a little. "I almost had to arm wrestle her for it. And it wouldn't have made a difference in our dating, except for the driving back and forth. I kinda worried that you'd think I was jumping the gun, going from dinner out to moving in after just two months, but...."

"But I was already head over heels for you and jumped at the chance to move in with my gorgeous girlfriend, who actually wanted me to move in," Amelia finished with a crooked little smile that probably didn't do anything to hide the way her heartrate had picked up. She hesitated, then added softly, "Sometimes I wonder how things might've gone between us if we'd met earlier... before I was a real woman...."

"You were always a real woman, Lia-love," Donna broke in gently but firmly. "You might not've realized it at the time, but--"

"I was an angry shell of a person trying too hard to be a man because that's what was expected of me even by me," Amelia interrupted, shaking her head. "And as much as it pains me to say... you really wouldn't have liked me back then. I was a complete asshole, too lost in my own pain to care how much pain I put the people around me through. Being a woman... being allowed to be a woman... has made me a better person overall, and being with you just makes me keep wanting to work at being better. Because you deserve the best, and while I don't exactly think that's me, I'm just so damn grateful you're willing to settle for me anyway that I'll keep trying to be the woman you deserve in your life."

Donna's eyes were suspiciously bright as she reached out and fumbled to take Amelia's left hand in hers. She brought it up to her lips for a kiss, then turned it enough to kiss the base of Amelia's bare ring finger. And then, to Amelia's astonishment, Donna brought their twined hands together to touch the little gold locket she wore in the hollow of her throat.

"I showed you what's inside the front cover of this locket, right?" she asked, her voice thick with emotion. Nonplussed but feeling the unexpected weight to the question nonetheless, Amelia nodded, heart in her throat. "There's a compartment in the back... behind the engraved iris blossom. It's enchanted to have an expanded interior... because it's where I keep my pelt."

Amelia felt her heart practically slam to a stop in her chest before picking up triple its normal speed in shock. "Didi--"

"I don't expect you to do anything with this information," Donna went on, looking up into Amelia's eyes earnestly. "I keep it here because I never know when I might need to 'fursuit up' for an emergency, and I know you well enough to know you respect that and wouldn't try to hide it or anything... you'd probably bite the head off of anyone who did try and take it, knowing what's in it."

"Damn right, I would!" Amelia choked out, her vision starting to go a bit blurry around the edges. She'd take on anything and anyone that put her Donna in danger! "Why--"

"This thing we have is working real well," Donna said with a slight shrug, squeezing Amelia's hand gently. "I just wanted you to know where it is. So you'll know if something happens and it needs looking after."

The dam broke and Amelia burst into tears, too overwhelmed to do anything but cry and clutch at Donna's hand. She felt her girlfriend - was she her wife now? Fianceé? - lean forwards and draw her into a tender embrace. She collapsed against the other woman's chest and sobbed, choking on a wet laugh when the baby protested the suddenly squished position with a sharp kick.

Thank you, she wept, unable to voice the words properly. I love you. I promise I won't let you down.

And the kiss Donna pressed into Amelia's hair felt like a truer benediction than that of any god.

[butch-with-a-deep-voice]

[saltylightsoul]

[breathlesswinds]

(Devlog) What We Learned Making A Trans Dating Game

Hello, Amelia here, the writer for Breathless Winds. It's been 250,000+ words, countless revisions, and three years since this game entered development, and I wanted to talk about what I've learned leading up to release.

The concept for Breathless Winds was actually sort of a joke between friends. I was talking with Doris about how there should be a dating game where you play as a trans woman and your dating options revolve around certain ‘tropes’ we’d both seen in trans fiction-- the totally accepting cishet guy who falls in love with the trans heroine before she even knows she’s a woman, the cool trans woman who the heroine doesn’t know if she wants to date or wants to be, and so on.

Doris wound up suggesting we make this game ourselves. We both like visual novels and want to tell LGBT stories. Still half-jokingly and half-seriously, we started fleshing out what the romance options would be and coming up with a setting-- and soon, we were fully committed to making this game real.

I was a fan of visual novels but had only ever written prose. I knew which visual novels I liked and which scenes stood out, but I didn’t know why they did or how to make my own. 

I read some great advice from visual novel developers, but a good amount of my knowledge came from just working on Breathless Winds. As our first project, this game has grown a lot with us and we’ve learned a lot while making it.

Learning How to Write Visual Novels

A bad habit I had to break out of was only using the ‘novel’ part of the game and not the ‘visual’ part. I would sometimes write “He smiled” or lines like that, and Doris informed me that we can convey this much more simply with a sprite change.

It sounds obvious in retrospect, but lines like that are often pretty invisible when you’re reading a non-visual novel. These lines change the sprite of the character inside your head (if that makes sense, haha). I realized that I’m so used to them being ‘invisible’ that I didn’t notice their absence in visual novels I liked, so I would accidentally include them while writing. 

I was also writing these routes in a word processor, so I didn’t have the visual portion to reference, myself. I wound up making a lot of ‘tone’ notes like, “Lantana should be smug here” so that the meaning would carry when revising and implementing these into Ren’py. 

So, while visual novels share a lot with prose, they’re an entirely different medium. On the subject of representing things visually, I’ve struggled trying to figure out how much can be visually represented and how much should be written. 

Every asset in the game has to be drawn by Doris, so if I want the characters to go to a new location for a scene, I have to keep in mind that’s another background that Doris has to draw. If I want a new character to show up, that’s another sprite she has to draw. I don’t want to overload her, but if I’m trying to avoid this entirely, characters sometimes wind up standing in one room talking for ages without anything significant changing on-screen.

I’ve learned that it’s recommended for something to almost always be changing on-screen, though, so sometimes I just have to ask Doris to make a new asset for a certain scene. I still try to stick to locations/characters that already exist more often than not.

Every single thing in a visual novel is deliberate. Another thing I’ve had to learn that I never even considered before is how to write each line so it fits in the text box. It sounds obvious, but when I’m playing a visual novel, I don’t usually think about how each line has to be carefully constructed so it doesn’t need to be split up into two or more text boxes. In my mind, if a visual novel is well-created, there’s not much that breaks a reader’s immersion.

Planning & Outlining

The previous section might sound really weird to some people, so let me elaborate.  I’m a lifelong ‘write by the seat of your pants’-er, so the biggest trial-and-error of creating Breathless Winds for me was planning out the game.

Initially, I created outlines for each of the four routes, and we agreed ahead of time on which CGs each route would have. That way, Doris could draw the necessary backgrounds and CGs while I was in the long process of drafting this game.  My original outlines weren’t great. I know a lot of people have different experiences with writing, but for me personally, a story is always shaping itself in my mind. When I started making the outlines for Breathless Winds, I knew the concepts we wanted to convey, but I didn’t know what each route (and the game as a whole) was really about yet. This might sound weird and unprofessional, but sometimes, I don’t know what a story is about until I finish the first draft.

So while I was writing, I would look at my outlines and I would think, “this doesn’t actually make sense, he wouldn’t say that” or “this plot point would work better if moved to this other section” or “there’s a plot hole here I didn’t notice”. The story wound up changing a lot in this way as I learned what it’s really ‘about’. 

And even after I finished the first draft, I’d get feedback from Doris and/or my editor and they would suggest fixes to problems that even I hadn’t noticed, and then I would revise the route some more, and later on I’d come back and need to redo part of the route to comply with something I wrote in a later route-- I haven’t really felt ‘finished’ with Breathless Winds at any point, and I think I’ll still feel this way after the game is released.

This means that sometimes, a background was created but would go unused because there was no space for the scene that would use it, or we’d need a new CG last-minute, or so on. 

When I’m figuring things out as I go while writing a non-VN, the only person that I can adversely affect is my own self… so I’m eternally grateful for all of Doris’s patience with me on this matter. I think Breathless Winds has come out a much better game for all the re-plotting and revision.��

I redid the outlines several times as I went. I think I’ve understood how to create outlines that personally work for me-- ‘living’ outlines that hit all the main points, but leave wiggle room for moments when a character does something unexpected, work the best for me.

Scope Creep

So, originally, each route was meant to be 40,000 words. “With four routes, that’s only 160,000 words!” I thought. “And some of my favorite visual novels are about that long, so I can write that much, too!” ← clueless

This is the most infamous mistake that new creators make, and I walked right into it. I should have known better since I’ve bitten off more than I can chew with past non-VN writing projects before, but I was starry-eyed and didn’t realize how much work it is to make a VN. Some of those favorite visual novels I referenced were made by much larger teams, writers whose full-time job was writing (I wrote all of these routes on the side while working at a day job). 

If I could have done it again, I would have asked Doris to start out with a really short VN. But, I don’t regret making Breathless Winds at all. It’s brought Doris and I a lot closer, for one. Every time I thought I wanted to give up on this, Doris would motivate me to continue. Without the two of us both and our strong friendship, Breathless Winds wouldn’t exist, and I think that’s beautiful. 

No matter what, we’re going to see it through to the end. (I hope people like it, though…)

Anyway, here I am talking about how much 40,000 words is. Each route now is about 60k to 70k words. The problem with having evolving outlines is that they can often evolve into double their original size.

We came up with the idea of the poachers really early in development, and then not addressing the poachers felt like a failing, but by that point it was too late to remove the poachers entirely… and so the game wound up a lot longer dealing with the poachers. 

I think that if we had an editor sooner on in the game’s development, then we might have had someone to tell us, “do you really need all of this in the game? Does this plot point really need to be there? Will you be able to write all of this in a reasonable amount of time?”, haha. But Doris and I were really excited about the possibilities of this game when we started creating it, and without anyone to reel us back in, we wound up coming up with more and more things we wanted to put in the game.

Did you know there was going to be an island full of talking rats who say things like “the big cheese” and stuff all the time in Breathless Winds? Yeah. 

The Core Design Philosophy of Breathless Winds

So, for anyone who’s read this far but doesn’t know yet-- the premise of Breathless Winds is that you play as a trans woman who doesn’t know she’s trans yet, and she finds love with one of four love interests as she discovers her gender identity. 

In real life, it can be a lot messier for a person to date when discovering their gender identity. To put it briefly and mildly, a trans person’s life and sense of personal identity can rapidly change during a gender crisis and the early stages of transition. 

However, we wanted to make this game a ‘wish-fulfillment’ type story-- a trans fantasy about acceptance, community, and love. During a gender crisis, it can be easy to feel as if one has lost touch with themselves and become isolated from others. A sincere wish shared by many trans people is to be accepted, loved, and even celebrated as their true gender, not just tolerated. 

Since many trans people don’t get love and acceptance in real life, especially with the ongoing transphobic moral panic, we wanted to create a game that would bring this feeling of trans joy and celebration to trans audiences. 

We also hope that cis players will still enjoy the story and characters, and maybe come away from the game with a new understanding about being transgender and other aspects of LGBT identity (although we never intended this game to be ‘educational’).

Making Characters that Celebrate Trans Identity

Although we went through several revisions, the core identities of each character stayed the same since the game was first ‘jokingly’ pitched. In another post, I discussed how each character is themed around a change in seasons. (I also wound up theming them around the four humors when I was initially concepting them-- I really wanted to avoid too much ‘overlap’ in the LI’s personalities, haha). 

Ultimately, characters are created to serve a role. The LIs in Breathless Winds were designed to be love interests, of course-- characters who would appeal to the hypothetical trans femme audience. As mentioned earlier, we modeled them after other trans fiction tropes because these types of characters have a certain tried-and-true appeal, but this left plenty of flexibility to put our own spin on it. 

A trans woman being loved as a woman by a cishet guy can feel like a high form of ‘passing’, ‘fitting in’ to the female gender role, and being validated by his orientation. He only likes women, and he likes you, so you’re undoubtedly a woman. As a cishet guy, he represents a sort of acceptance into a societal norm that trans women can desire to live to. (Lantana, as a cis lesbian, represents the sapphic counterpoint to this-- although there is of course a big gap between the ‘normalcy’ of a cishet man and a cis lesbian woman, and I don’t mean to say those two are equivalent.) 

But not all trans women want to live to that (cis) societal norm. Rue and Valerian, as a trans woman and a trans man respectively, are the t4t options. 

Rue’s route represents that trans/sapphic ‘envy’ (“do I want her or do I want to be her?”) as well as finding power in community aside from what society considers ‘normal’. We’ve always been pretty clear about what we wanted to do with Rue’s route.

We went back and forth a lot more on Valerian’s route. Initially, we were unsure if he should be trans. He and Rue are the two less-friendly love interests (at least initially), so I was afraid it would come across that t4t is a more hostile option, which is not true at all. But it also felt like a mistake to not have a trans man in the game-- but making Gallardia trans would have required a big overhaul of what we had in mind for him and his route. (Although, childhood friends t4t is a really good idea...)

Beyond that, Valerian takes a villainous role in any route that isn't his own. We were worried that it would be wrong to have a trans antagonist who represents unjust power. However, Breathless Winds is a queer game with other positive trans characters, and we've always approached Valerian as a hot anti-villain man that you can't help but like.

In the end, Valerian’s route is about breaking generational cycles and what it is that makes you a man, and I also managed to sneak in a scene where they dance at a ball in the royal palace, so in the end I think it all worked out great.

Wish Fulfillment and Catharsis

Doris and I both agreed that we wouldn’t depict on-screen transphobia in Breathless Winds. Poppy worries about not being accepted, but fear of acceptance can come with any change in identity. Rue was rejected by her family for being trans, but this doesn’t take place ‘on screen’ in the game. There exist certain metaphorical parallels for transness and transphobia, but every route has a happy ending. 

Following up on this-- it can be difficult to write about discovery of gender identity without writing about transphobia, considering how many trans people suffer from internalized transphobia during their period of repression.

Sometimes, repressed/closeted transgender people ‘hyper-perform’ their assigned gender as a form of denial. A trans woman might grow out a beard and join a gym, while a trans man might become very interested in makeup and feminine clothing. 

In Breathless Winds, Poppy often struggles with ‘strength’ and what it means to be a man. In several routes, she tries to prove her strength under the assumption that being stronger would make her happy. Afraid the world would reject her if she became who she really is, she preemptively rejects herself.

Not every trans person suffers from prolonged denial, internalized transphobia, or even gender dysphoria. I don’t think it’s impossible to tell a purely-positive story about trans joy. 

While Poppy never gets rejected for being trans, faces transphobia, gets called a slur, etc, she faces both internal and external (metaphorical) obstacles to realizing and accepting her identity. 

Gallardia represents a societal norm that Poppy can’t live up to herself as a man.

Lantana suffers from certain aspects of her identity as a woman, which makes Poppy feel guilt for wanting to be a girl.

Rue is isolated from town at the start of her route, a ‘punishment’ for breaking this societal norm.

Valerian has to hyper-conform to his masculine gender role at first in toxic ways before finding acceptance from within and from his loved ones.

These struggles are real to a lot of people, but instead of pretending they don’t exist, I hoped to tell a story about catharsis. Poppy is able to live up to her truth as a woman and finds love with Gallardia, Poppy and Lantana redefine what being a woman should and does mean to them, Rue and Poppy find community in others who don’t fit the norm, Poppy and Valerian stop seeking gender validation from a society that was never made to serve them. 

Although these powerful forces of oppression exist, loving yourself as a trans person- and loving those around you, protecting the natural world, and standing up for what you believe in- can save the day. That’s the kind of story we wanted to tell.

Wrap-up

There’s a lot more I could write, but this has already gotten really long (sorry!) so I’ll wrap it up here. 

Learning how to write a visual novel in terms of technical skill (how to depict events on-screen, how long each line should be) as well as in terms of writing skill (how to outline the game, how to plan visual assets) has been a massive undertaking for me. 

Writing Breathless Winds has been a big challenge but also deeply rewarding, and all of your support has made the experience even more wonderful. Thank you for reading and thank you for supporting the game!

[female-malice]

AMELIA STRICKLER: Trans TikTok star Dylan Mulvaney's offensive parody makes a total mockery of female athletes like me 

It Is so offensive, it reminds me of a routine by a chauvinist male comedian from the 1970s. Dylan Mulvaney, a TikTok influencer and performer, leaps around wearing Nike leggings and a sports bra. Their exaggerated movements seem to me to parody a woman’s exercise routine.

Mulvaney, a biological male who first openly identified as ‘transgender’ in March last year, has been signed by the world’s biggest sports company to promote women’s clothing. I am a GB shot putter who has won the British title twice and competed in the Commonwealth Games. I am a European finalist and world championship finalist.

I know how many years of training it takes, often at great personal cost, to reach the top levels of sport.

And I know what it is to be a woman.

In the video advert, Mulvaney frankly appears to be laughing in the face of female athletes like me – and any other woman or girl who wants to better themselves physically.

I’ve been a shot putter since I was ten. Life in professional athletics requires grit and determination. It doesn’t involve dancing around, grinning inanely.

It means getting up at the crack of dawn to train, keeping going when every muscle in your body is screaming at you to stop, forgoing time with friends and family and being utterly single-minded. And because so few female athletes attract sponsorship from giants like Nike, we often have to fit training and competing around other paid work.

For many years, I had two jobs to support my shot putting career. Recently I found a private sponsor through my athletics club Thames Valley Harriers, which enables me to keep competing.

But most female athletes don’t have that advantage. Women get 1 per cent of all sports sponsorship money – and yet to see Nike willing to shell out however many thousands it is to Mulvaney – who, remember, has not fully ‘transitioned’ to female – is utterly demoralising.

Nike likes to harp on about how it champions women: last year it announced an ‘Athletes Think Tank’ to help ‘serve today’s women athletes’, while a 2021 campaign praised mums for being ‘the toughest athletes’.

All well and good – but contrast these warm words with Nike’s actions towards the female athletes it actually sponsored. Women such as Olympic runner Alysia Montano were subject to ‘performance-based reductions’ – amounting to a 70 per cent pay cut – when they were unable to race due to being pregnant or having just given birth. In other words, penalised for being a woman.

Following a public outcry, Nike amended its policy to allow women 18 months off around pregnancy, but this latest publicity stunt reveals just how little the company really cares about women in sport.

It would be better to invest some of the money given to attention-seeking influencers such as Mulvaney to develop better sportswear for biological women.

In nearly a decade of competing at the top level, I have yet to find a decent sports bra: I have to wear two at once.

Modelling a bra on someone who has a male torso is an insult to those of us with female bodies.

At the track yesterday, many fellow female athletes were deeply upset by Nike’s apparent contempt for our sport. As one said – and I agree – ‘I’m glad Nike isn’t my sponsor.’

Women are still fighting for true equality in sport – we’ve made progress, but there’s a long way to go. We don’t need a big brand such as Nike to bring it down with crass campaigns. I agree with Sharron Davies – women should boycott Nike. If they refuse to support women in sport, then why should we support them?

[gatheringbones]

[“After I had learned enough about lesbians to hold my own, I reached out to Joan Nestle for an interview. We made our own oral history video, one that I hope will live on in her archive as well as mine.

“Is this helping?” she asked early on in our conversation. “You have to put up with me because I’m eighty-one.”

I thought I would be intimidated by her, but I was charmed. She asked about my cat, asleep in my video background. She brought her partner on screen, the woman who had led her to leave New York for Australia decades ago.

Because the Lesbian Herstory Archives was a project of the 1970s, I feared that Joan would share her contemporaries’ narrow definition of lesbian. She dispelled my fear before I could even come up with the courage to ask. “To me, lesbian incorporates queer, it incorporates trans, it incorporates bi, it incorporates intersex, because lesbians occupied all those positions.”

I had planned to just ask her about the details of Mabel’s life. “The loss to me personally,” she said, “is too huge to even talk about, even after all these years.” Instead, we had a conversation full of digressions. She took us from Eleanor Roosevelt (lesbian) to sex workers (also lesbian) to her own reasons for becoming a lesbian archivist. “The archives was created to break the concept of fame,” she told me. “If you have the courage to touch another woman and to claim that touch . . . that, for us, was fame enough.” ]

amelia possanza, from lesbian love story: a memoir in archives, 2023

[narashite]

Hi! My name's Amelia and I'm a trans woman living in Chile. I started my HRT last year with the help of some close friends, but as time goes by, having to pay for my hormones, visits to an endocrinologist and blood tests has been getting considerably harder as I'm currently finishing my college degree working on my internship and final thesis, so I don't really have the time -yet- to start working a full time job to get the money I need.

My family hasn't been supportive to me being trans and aren't willing to help me, this has been the subject of multiple fights as they didn't want me to start HRT to begin with, which I've still done, but against their will and in secrecy, which has been hard considering I'm still living with them.

Because of everything stated before, I'm in need of financial help. I know I'm not a huge account and that I'm asking for a lot to strangers on the internet, but if you are kind enough to have read everything and you want to help me, you can do so donating to my paypal: paypal.me/grimoirenoire

Everything helps !! Even reblogging and sharing the info is enough help, thanks so much for reading this !!!

[piggy-ame]

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UPDATED: 01/08/24

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[wenellyb]

Not that I want Buddie to happen or anything, but I've seen too many posts about how the show wouldn't be "realistic" if they made Eddie Queer because then 3 out of the 5 Main cast members would be Queer. About how it could work on a "an LGBT show" but not a firefighter drama, I'm still quoting.

First of all, it's already the case in the spinoff 911 Lone Star, we have Nancy who's a Bisexual woman, TK who's a Gay man and Paul who's a Trans man. And also Carlos, who is TK's husband and he's also part of the Main Cast, so that's 4. And it's the same franchise as 911.

There's also Grey's anatomy that has (had) many Queers characters over the years: Callie, Arizona, Kai, Nico, Casey, Minnick (who are now gone) and Levi, Amelia, Teddy, Helm, Yasuda, Jules, Beltran, Carina (who's more on Station 19, but still). And I'm only talking about the Main Cast, not guest characters.

Can someone expain to me the "not realistic part"?

Also can someone explain to me the logic of homophobes being ok with watching a show with one Queer character but not 2 or 3?

I'm not saying Eddie being Queer is going to happen, but I don't think it's unrealistic and it certainly wouldn't mean he would have to be in a relationship with Buck either. They can have their own separate romantic storylines. And no, it wouldn't be "unrealistic".

[alexissara]

The Marble Queen Review

The Marble Queen is a an amazingly drawn book, Gabrielle Kari is one of the greatest artists out there and her brilliant craftsmanship truly captures a unique voice in comics. I am impressed her illustrative style was captured on so many pages of the books really showing the level of heart that went into this work. The amazing use of paneling and page layout allowed for very dynamic use of the medium of comics breaking conventions from each other while feeling like bold artist moves on the page.

The book is hampered some what by being a YA book, it feels like at times there are areas that maybe would have been better served with more details but it does really edge what most YAs feel their able to do in a first novel. With lots of death, some blood and some implied sex. The pacing was a bit fast, there were moments that felt like they could have lingered longer and taken more time and perhaps the beginning starts a little slow but the romance does feel satisfying.

I think there are feelings I'd like to see explored more, the ending appears to set up a potential follow up book but it's ending is satisfying enough to simply imply potential conflict that is not needed. Anna does do a great job capturing Amelia's anxiety and the ways it manifests, the ways she tries to treat it, and how it affects her life. It is a great deception of that mental health struggle. I do wish we could have seen more into Salira's perspective, the white woman who doesn't know about being gay being the POV makes sense in the like cynical ways but I would have liked to get more into the interiority of Salira who does fall a bit into the "more butch brown woman who dots after he innocent white GF trope." I think that would have been felt a little less if we saw the world a bit more from her eyes. That said the book does do a solid job of showing plenty of fem brown women so I think it be an oversimplification to say it's just an example of that. It's worth noting only in that i know several other BIPOC women who might hesitate at it but I think we're in the clear here.

This book does feel like it in some ways compensates for being about gay women with good straight brothers who are very good boys. In general we get an idea that Salira'a kingdom is homonormative and see that in a page but from that point on basically everyone is implied to be straight in the kingdom. They leave some details vauge, some people could be bi, but this is all the reader chosing the details what we do see if M/F relationships, a set of women attracted to men, and one other woman who is confirmed to be gay but is also tied into a plot twist so I won't go into detail. That's not to day the queerness feels bad in the story it is good, it's the focus, it's great just that I felt there was maybe a little room for improvement within the bounds the story itself set's up. Unlike something like the lack of trans rep which it does not ever bother with so I wouldn't mention outside of like using it as an example for something I wouldn't take points off for. Regardless, my point is it would have been nice for like one more named character to have been queer.

I do really enjoy that both girls have some troubles in the new arranged relationship and both gave up something they love for it. I also enjoy that there is a twist for a lie that is told that while given a moment of weight is not turned into a giant drama moment and just given a tiny bit of time before the pair moved on. It felt more realistic for the two to understand why that lie was told.

Ultimately, this is a rather good story that I feel like was close to great but maybe fell behind just a little. That said I really liked it and I'd totally love prints of it and stuff. The main couple are cute and extra adorable towards the end. I like that there is a flare of action in the story and that the story had some big shifts in the status quo by the end of it. I love a lot of the sweet little moments. I love the ways it really pushed on anxiety as this thing in your life that can be consuming. It's a really great piece of art. If you enjoyed this review and want to see other reviews and support me making my own sapphic art you can support me on Patreon.

[remuslupinkinnie1979]

Yk what I'm thinking about? Mary McDonald. And I am going to make it everyone's problem.

She was born in Brazil and she lived there until she was 7. Her mom is Latino and her dad is black. She speaks fluent Portuguese. Her family, especially her father's side, are VERY religious. She has an older sister, younger brother and sister (who are twins). In England she lives in London with her family. They were quite poor. They lived in a small apartment. They lived close to their grandparents from the father's side. They were old very religious and conservative. And I hc that Mary is a trans woman. She didn't realise until her second year at Hogwarts. McGonagall was the one who made it possible for her to transition. However when she was coming back for summer she would have to make herself look like a boy, so her family won't know. They were the kind of people that would most likely beat her up for it. Her dad was obsessed with toxic masculinity. He would make Mary do typically "masculine" stuff when she was younger. She was trying to suppress her femininity most of the time she was home, but it didn't work. Most of her summer she was miserable. She couldn't get her transition potions and would be constantly deadnamed and misgendered. She only came out to her family at the end of 7th year when she knew she wouldn't come back. She wrote her family a letter. She was hesitant to send it, but Marlene and Lily changed her mind.

She was very feminine. Her favourite colour was pink. She absolutely LOVED cherries. Her favourite band was ABBA. She loved heels, makeup, dresses and all the stereotypically girly stuff. Her best friends were Lily, Marlene and Sirius. She would also hang out with other marauders a lot. She was in the dorm with the marauders for the entire first year.

She was very extroverted. She loved parties and dancing. She was a people person. She was very popular. Most people found her at least pretty (though not everyone wanted to admit that they were attracted to a trans girl, cause yk, it was the 70s).

Regardless of all that she also got bullied a lot. She was a muggleborn, dark-skinned trans girl. That was the "perfect" target for Mulciber, Avery etc. They would pick on her, call her slurs and stuff like that. They also would call her sexist stuff for having a lot of relationships with guys (sl*t, wh*re, etc.). Marlene would regularly curse them for it. She was assaulted by Mulciber at the end of their 5th year (it needs to be talked about more btw). Mulciber was "expelled" from school after that, but his family was very influential and he got back.

She was bisexual. Her first crush on a girl was Marlene, but she was too scared to admit it. She also had a crush on Lily in like 4th/5th year, but she didn't confess to her.

In the 5th year she met Emmeline. Em was tutoring her for the OWLs (she was a year above). They both developed a huge crush on each other. They started dating in Mary's 6th year. They were actually adorable.

She didn't want to take part in the war. She definitely could fight, but she didn't want to. She was scared of losing all of her friends.

After the war her and Emmeline wanted to get custody of Harry, but Dumbledore was a stupid d*ck.

Between wars she was trying to reach out to Remus. He was living with Emmary for a few months after Halloween in 1981. They got a lot closer.

She also became friends with Amelia Bones and Emma Vanity (Em's besties)

She didn't want Emmeline to fight in the second war. They argued about it a lot. When they last saw each other Emmeline promised to be careful and that Mary had nothing to worry about. But she didn't come home. In the morning Mary found out that she got killed. She considered obliviating herself, but she stayed for Emma.

After the war they would lift each other up. They were good friends and each other's reason to still stick around.

If she lived today she would like 2000s music, doja cat and artists like that. Her favourite Taylor swift album would be 1989.

I think that's it for now. Thank you for coming to my Mary talk.

[shanastoryteller]

ShanaStoryteller’s Prompt Answers Masterlist H (SIAT Ab) - K

SIAT 7th Year Drarry SIAT Abigail SIAT Andromeda on Percy SIAT Asim SIAT Asim and Lucius SIAT Asim and Lucius Siat Astoria Siat Cassius/George SIAT Cassius and George SIAT Cassius and George Siat Catalina and Sharon SIAT Cedric and Tonks SIAT Cedric/Cho SIAT Cho and Cedric SIAT Colin SIAT Colin and Dennis Siat Cormac McLaggen SIAT Costumes Siat Dean/Seamus SIAT Dean and Seamus SIAT Detentions SIAT Dobby Siat Drarry SIAT Drarry SIAT Drarry Siat Drarry Siat Drarry Siat Drarry SIAT Drarry SIAT Drarry SIAT Drarry Seating Chart Siat Dumbledore SIAT Dumbledore SiaT excerpt Siat!Flamels Siat Fleur SIAT Fleur and Soulmates SIAT Forgetting Luna SIAT Fruity Wolfstar SIAT Future Draco and Narcissa SIAT Future Pansy the Designer SIAT George and Cassius Siat George and Cassius in Vegas SIAT George, Cassius, and Oliver Wood SIAT Ginny/Luna/Neville SIAT Gringott Siat Hagrid and Harry SIAT Hagrid and Lucius SIAT Hermione Career SIAT Kakusareta District SIAT Kingsley and Amelia on Tonks and Percy SIAT Kiss SIAT Lavender SIAT Lavender Latte SIAT Lily SIAT Lily and Severus SIAT Lily and Sev SIAT Lily and Snape SIAT Lucius SIAT Lucius and Narcissa Siat Lucius and Narcissa SIAT Lucius and Narcissa SIAT Lucius and Narcissa Siat!Luna Siat Luna SIAT McGonagall SIAT Millie SIAT Minerva and Hagrid SIAT Minerva and Hagrid SIAT Minerva and Tom SIAT Missing Time SIAT Mother SIAT Nagini and Theophania SIAT Narcissa and Lucius SIAT Narcissa and Lucius New Years Tradition SIAT Narcissa and Lucius Wedding SIAT Neville SIAT Newly Headless Nick SIAT No Rest for Nazis SIAT Pansy SIAT Pansy SIAT Pansy and Lop SIAT Pansy and Winky SIAT Parents SIAT Parents Get Along SIAT Parent Professor Conference SIAT Percy SIAT Percy/Tonks SIAT Percy and Love SIAT Percy and Tonks SIAT Percy and Tonks SIAT Percy and Tonks SIAT Percy and Tonks SIAT Percy and Tonks SIAT Percy and Tonks SIAT Percy and Tonks SIAT Percy and Tonks SIAT Percy and Tonks Combat Training SIAT Percy and Tonks Wedding Night SIAT Quinn and Clarence SIAT Quinn and Ravens SIAT Quinn and Severus SIAT Rave SIAT Remus SIAT Remus’s Career SIAT Ron and Alchemy SIAT Ron and the Flamels SIAT Seamus and Dean SIAT Severus SIAT Severus and Florean SIAT Severus’s First Day SIAT Sirius and Narcissa SIAT Sirius and Remus SIAT Sirius and Remus SIAT Sirius and Remus Meeting SIAT Snake Summoning SIAT Snape and Quinn SIAT Sophia SIAT Standards SIAT Susan SIAT Tabloids SIAT Teachers Betting SIAT Tonks SIAT Tonks and Andromeda SIAT Tonks/Percy Siat Tonks/Percy Siat Tonks, Percy, and Oliver Wood SIAT Tonks and Percy SIAT Tonks and Percy SIAT Tonks and Percy SIAT Tonks and Percy SIAT Tonks and Percy SIAT Tonks and Percy Siat Tonks and Percy Proposal SIAT Tonks and Snape SIAT Tonks and Snape SIAT Tonks’s Career SIAT Tonks's Parents SIAT Unseen Caretakers SIAT Useless Names SIAT Valentine’s Day SIAT Viktor and Ron Siat Wolfstar SIAT Wolfstar Chimney SIAT Young Narcissa, Part 1 SIAT Young Narcissa, Part 2 SIAT Young Narcissa, Part 3 SIAT Zaira Siat Zaira and the Malfoys Scarlet Woman Hermione Slytherin Harry Slytherin Harry, Part 2 Slytherin Harry, Part 3 Slytherin Harry, Part 4 Slytherin Harry, Part 5 Slytherin Harry, Part 6 Slytherin Harry, Part 7 Slytherin Harry, Part 8 Slytherin Harry, Part 9 Slytherin Harry, Part 10 Slytherin Harry, Part 11 Slytherin Harry, Part 12 Slytherin Harry, Part 13 Slytherin Harry, Part 14 Slytherin Harry, Part 15 Slytherin Luna Slytherin Luna, Part 2 Slytherin Luna, Part 3 A Slytherin Wife A Slytherin Wife, Part 2 Snakelet Year 3 Steamy Wolfstar Trans Draco Trans Boy Harry Trans Girl Harry Trans Girl Harry, Part 2 Trans Hermione Trans Ron Tiffany the Basilisk Tiffany the Basilisk, Part 2 Tiffany the Basilisk, Part 3 Time Travel Drarry Time Travel Drarry, Part 2 Time Travel Drarry, Part 3 Time Travel Drarry, Part 4 Time Travel Drarry, Part 5 Time Travel Drarry, Part 6 Time Travel Drarry, Part 7 Time Travel Drarry, Part 8 Time Travel Drarry, Part 9 Time Travel Drarry, Part 10 Time Travel Drarry, Part 11 Time Travel Drarry, Part 12 Time Travel Drarry, Part 13 Time Travel Drarry, Part 14 Time Traveling Sirius, Part 1 Time Traveling Sirius, Part 2 Time Traveling Sirius, Part 3 Time Traveling Sirius, Part 4 Time Travelling Sirius, Part 5 Time Travelling Sirius, Part 6 Triwizard Champion Draco Coda Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 3 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 4 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 5 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 6 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 7 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 8 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 9 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 10 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 11 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 12 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 13 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 14 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 15 Triwizard Champion Draco, Part 16 Usually Werewolf Marauders Wolfstar Soulmates Wolfstar Divorce Yule Ball, Part 1 Yule Ball, Part 2 Yule Ball, Part 3

HOTEL DEL LUNA

shrine or scar [expanded fic on ao3]

HOUSE MD 

Wood Ducks

IT

Babadook and It

KIM POSSIBLE 

Crossed Lines Crossed Lines, Part 2

KINNPORSCHE

After

[mildlyinterestedcreature]

Sometimes, if i am feeling so inclined, i dabble in transing DW companion genders

Rose

Genderfluid. Took her until after settling down a bit w Tentoo to realize. She was talking to him (btw he also has gender issues due to being half a woman) and mentioned how haha all women hate being women some days and hes like ? And Rose is convinced this is just bc of misogyny, but the more she talks the more its like

Rose: yeahh occasionally i wake up in the morning and feeling ripping my tits off

Ten2: ??

Rose: and once when i was 13 mum called me her daughter and i almost started crying

Ten2: ???

Rose: but this is just normal woman stuff lol!

It takes a lot of learning and processing and coming to terms with it, but Ten2 helps her understand. She’s usually woman or woman adjacent, but those other days make a lot more sense after that

Amy

At the beginning of eleventh hour The Doctor meets little Amelia and when he comes back “five minutes” later, there is a strangely familiar ginger young man in Amelia’s house. It takes him the same amount of time to figure out who this young man is as it did in the original episode (and he has basically no reaction at all bc of time lord culture and gender etc yk the drill)

I havent figured out what Amy’s masc name would be yet, it could just be Andy but lmk if anyone has any ideas

Rory loves his boyfriend -> husband (although it would be a bit more complicated w gay marriage laws?? Idk)

Rory

At some point after The God Complex when the ponds spend more time at home, she realizes she’s trans and comes out to Amy. This is a lil complicated for River bc Rory doesn’t start openly or obviously transitioning very quickly, so River has to figure out when in her parents’ timeline they are so that she doesn’t spoil anything or misgender her mum. This means that the first time Rory comes out to River, River already knows and then later (pond timeline) River comes over and gets confused because she hasn’t found out yet.

Rory gets a nicer ponytail than her Amy’s Choice one. She’s slightly put-out that she can no longer beat stereotypes about the gender of nurses.

[vizthedatum]

My beautiful friend who has literally been there for me through some hard times earlier this year is going through some extremely hard times right now.

Please donate or share, if you can.

Copied from GoFundMe:

“… is a poor houseless trans woman in Pittsburgh, PA who recently got into an car accident in the car she was going to use as a home. The car is uninsured, the inspection is expired, the registration is expired, the front tires are bald, and now the front end is damaged. She needs money to get the car out of tow, repair it, make it street legal, as well as money for first months rent and deposit on an apartment. She is working part time but these expenses are far outside her reach to recover from. Any and all support is appreciated.”

[dear-indies]

Hi there, thank you for being not only a resource for the rpc, but a blog that keeps up to date on current events as well. I was hoping you could help me find siblings for a mikey madison fc? Thank you in advance 🍉

Andrew Garfield (1983) half Ashkenazi Jewish - has a bunch of younger resource too - has spoken up for Palestine!

Jurnee Smollett (1986) African-American / Ashkenazi Jewish.

Sofia Black-D'Elia (1991) half Ashkenazi Jewish.

Pauline Chalamet (1992) half Ashkenazi Jewish - has spoken up for Palestine!

Hari Nef (1992) Ashkenazi Jewish - is a trans woman - has spoken up for Palestine!

Amelia Dimoldenberg (1994) Ashkenazi Jewish - has spoken up for Palestine!

Dylan Gelula (1994) half Ashkenazi Jewish - has spoken up for Palestine!

Lukas Arnold (1995) Sudanese / Ashkenazi Jewish - has spoken up for Palestine!

Minami Gessel (1999) Ashkenazi Jewish / Japanese - has spoken up for Palestine!

Kayla Maisonet (1999) Afro Puerto Rican / Ashkenazi Jewish.

Lucas Jade Zumann (2000) half Ashkenazi Jewish - did have a link for a Palestinian charity in his Instagram biography, not sure if he’s removed it or I can no longer see it on desktop!

Iris Apatow / Iris Scot (2002) half Ashkenazi Jewish - has spoken up for Palestine!

Hey anon! These are all half siblings because I couldn't find anybody to match her perfectly but I hope they're still helpful.

[breathlesswinds]

Hello! I love your visual novel already sm but I wanted to ask how your thought process worked? Did you think of the characters first and then the whole story/place or the other way around? And will the full game be free or not?

Hello! This is Amelia, the game's writer. I somewhat spoke about this in more depth in this post here, but Doris & I created the concept/setting first and then created the characters around that. I remember excitedly exchanging ideas with her, and she would create sketches of those ideas, and those would inspire new ideas… it was a very fun, collaborative back-and-forth.

Here's an excerpt from that post I wrote regarding the creation of the love interests:

I wanted four love interests who would be completely distinct and compelling but still reflect the themes of Breathless Winds. The game’s story is about change and nature, so we wanted our characters to have a relationship with each of these concepts. I wanted to have a way to reflect ‘change’ and ‘nature’ in one - this led to me theming the love interests after the changing seasons. Although “the four seasons” is a very common theme, I thought that specifically the transition of seasons - Spring to Summer, Summer to Fall - would allow for more depth than “This person is serene but also cold, like Winter.”

The four love interests were initially distinguished around these themes (I also based them around the four humors to an extent, haha- I was really averse to having any of them overlap too much). Then, we decided things like their relation to the heroine, their role on the island, their backstory, etc.

However, I think that the story has shifted to better suit the characters as we've gone through development as well. The final routes look quite different from my original outlines in ways that I think are much better. Sometimes, I'll be writing and I'll think, "wouldn't it make more sense and be more interesting for Lantana to do this thing instead?", or so on, and then I'll try to adapt my original story structure around this emergent concept. Breathless Winds is a character-driven story, so our characters shape the plot quite a bit.

In terms of visual design, the character designs were mostly thought up by Doris, with some of my input. Doris wanted the designs to remain fairly simple while each having a unique 'appeal'. Gallardia is meant to be a big, cuddly lumberjack kind of guy while Rue is meant to evoke this idea of a gothy trans woman. Each of the love interests have some elements which reference characters or enemies from other fantasy games that were inspiring to us.

Although Poppy presents as a man through much of the game, we wanted her to still look like an otome or yuri heroine. Her hair style is meant to make her head shaped like an egg, which is the only egg-related joke we allowed ourselves.

I'm afraid that Breathless Winds will not be free on release, but we offer a free demo of the game's introduction as well as a free route preview demo-- now with scenes from all four routes! We'll also be offering a giveaway closer to launch, so please keep your eyes peeled! Thank you all for all of your support.